Date: Mon, 8 Oct 2007 13:59:38 -0500 From: Retta Michaels Subject: Beginnings: With-Love : Chapter 4 With Love By Retta Michaels Chapter 4 Disclaimer If you are underage, and if you aren't supposed to read this because you live in an area or country which won't let you, please leave this site as your presence here jeopardizes the rest of us on here. If you are a member of that bastard Fred Phelps clan or cult, then why is your gay ass on here reading? Oh, because God is supposed to hate us! Yeah, right. I'm more blessed today after I found love in this life with a man than I was with being alone, so don't try to sell me that shit. I have a hole in my pocket and just lost my last dime when it comes to buying that shit. Author's Note: First of all, I'm glad to see you made it! Second of all, I'm glad to see the story made it on getting put up! A number of you have stated surprise as to my writting a Gay Romance about people in a prison environment which doesn't have some sort of abuse by one person on another in the relationship. While that does happen in there all too often, there are authentic gay people in there who come from the streets...like 3%...because of stupid laws out here. The other 97% of the individuals in there (who are having sex between two men) were usually straight out on the streets and probably will revert back to it when they go home. The statistics are which I came across from personal experience is 95% of the men in there are fucking around. Of the 5% remaining, 4% are on their knees in the chapel hiding. So, if you happen to come across a man who says he was in prison and didn't fuck around, ask him if he was in the chapel. If he says, "NO", then take a look at him and think to yoursel, "Is this a real man?", or is he a liar? I think, you will figure it out... When I got off the phone, I was wrung out. Talking with my mom on the phone was always emotional. She believed in me when no one had, and she was my staunchest advocate when it came to the administration in this motherfucker. That came about reluctantly when after I was in for two years complaining of a cyst on my tailbone. Nothing was done. It would swell up to the size of a grapefruit and then would go back down. One day, my parents were up on a visit and she saw it. It was the size of a goose egg. She paniced and I calmly told her it was what I'd been complaining about for two years. Suddenly, she was speaking to a guard and wanted results NOW! Since then, whenever I've said I had a problem with anything, she'd be on the phone with either the Superintendant or the Housing Unit Manager. I went to my cell, and when I entered it seemed so empty. I was used to being alone, but without him in here it was really dreary. Lockdown was ordered, and when it's called during a rec period either someone is dead, or they're dying. I can't remember how many times my actions caused everyone to be locked down, but now it seemed so selfish I'd do that to others. Thinking that thought, I realized the changes made in my life in the last day. The sounds of cell doors banging shut just drummed home the fact I was in here alone. I hadn't felt so alone since I first got to prison some 20 years ago. The sounds just drummed home I was depressed without him...without love in mylife...and without his smile to warm me. A sudden yelling through the vent in the back of the cell brought me out of my revery. I could hear Moose and his celly having sex and the sound made me depressed more. Moose had been telling the truth and even though the sounds would have been funny if Francisco had been here; he wasn't, and it made me feel more anguished. I lay down on Francisco's bunk and rolled the pillow over my face to smell his smell. I lay there breathing deeply his aroma and then, a sudden opening of my cell door caused me to jump. With red rimmed eyes, I stood and a man in a suit walked in. I instantly recognized him as the Superintendant and knew my mom had gotten ahold of him. He looked at me and said, "Your mom called me and she's made some really strong charges." I said, "I'm glad she got ahold of you." He said, "You want to talk about it?" I said, "Dude, if I talk, I'll get the bastard on my case more." He said, "Son, you talk and I promise if what your mom told me comes out of your mouth, he'll be out of here when I leave this cell." I looked at him and said, "You promise?" He smiled and said, "I promise." I said, "When I got up here yesterday, I went to the Sergeant's office and was assigned this cell. He told me he put me in here because he wanted me to beat my celly's ass. My celly's gay and that's the only thing I can think of why he'd want him hurt. So, I came up here and met my celly. My celly is a good kid. I got to know him and decided to leave him alone. Today, the sergeant called me over and was pissed because my celly hadn't been beaten up. He made threats and nearly put his hands on me. It wasn't until I told him the skycams would verify my story, he backed off. My celly got put in the hole because his mom died. When I got back into the housing unit, the sergeant said he'd left my celly's things in the cell on purpose and to go through my celly's things to see why he's really in here." The super said, "Do you have verification these conversations took place?" I said, "The conversation in his office. No. The conversation this morning. Yes, with multiple witnesses. The conversation after rec. Yes, but only one witness. And, take a look around you, his stuff is still here." The super said, "I'm going to go pull him out of this housing unit. I'll check the skycam's video and if it shows a conversation of anything between you two, I'll have him out of this prison. The man said he never spoke with you at all." I looked at the super and said, "Did my mom speak to you about Francisco being in the strip cell?" The super said, "Son, the institutional psychiatrist is down there now speaking to him." He smiled and said, "When I came in here, you were laying on the bunk. It isn't yours. What were you doing?" I looked at him and decided to lay my cards on the table. I said, "When I came into the cell it was so lonely, I lay on his bunk and was smelling his pillow." He smiled and said, "I have nowhere in your record that you're a homosexual." I said, "I wasn't until yesterday when I met my celly. Now, I'm head over heels for him." He chuckled and said, "If I leave him in this cell and can guarantee you two will be discrete, will you two keep it quiet and do your best to be a model prisoners?" I said, "Sure, you give me Francisco, and I'll swallow so much pride you'll wonder how I turned into such a pussy." He laughed and said, "Richard, in your incarceration, I see you've had 57 fights you've been in the hole over. A new guideline states when someone gets to that point, we're to give them a new assault case for each violation. I want to see you go home. You want to go home don't you?" I said, "Sir, more than anything in the world...if it means I get to go home to him. But, if anything happens to him, you better promise me you'll put me in the strip cell for a month because I'll be a mental motherfucker." He laughed and said, "Son, there's not many women who are related to inmates in here whom when I answer the phone can speak to me in a tone that reminds me of my mother. Your mom, in fact, is the only one." He looked down and said, "There was a time in my life when I did things which would have gotten me put in here. I'm not proud of it, but it was my mom who pulled me through. Her and her tone of voice." He paused and then said, "You'll have Francisco back in here this afternoon. Just promise me you'll behave." I laughed and said, "Sir, I promise you I won't get caught." He laughed and said, "Do that... and, there'a new notation on your file which says if a write up is to ever be read to you in the future, it's to be read to you by me. You'd best hope I'm not the one who decides your punishment because I'll be lenient the first time. The second. I'll be harsh. The third. You'll be transferred to supermax with a new case against you to get ten more years." I looked at him and said, "If someone comes up to hurt Francisco, you'll be lenient if I protect him?" He said, "If it comes to a write up son, I'll look over the skycam video and do everything I can to get you cleared. Your job is to make sure things happen in view of the camera." I smiled and he said, "Son, I'm not giving you a free reign. I'm giving you your heart. It's obvious you have feelings for him and if it helps promote safety and security in this institution, I'll do what I can to achieve that." Just then, I remembered the altercation out on the yard. I said, "Sir, when you watch the skycam, you'll probably see an altercation involving Francisco and another guy with me hitting the other guy. I want you to be aware of it before you see it. The other guy has a guy enslaved and I became aware of it. We're attempting to get the kid over to this wing and into a cell with a friend of mine who can protect him." The super said, "What's the kid's name?" I said, "I don't know. He's in D-Wing. The guy who's doing things to the kid is named Venito." The super said, "Is the kid celled with Venito?" I said, "I don't know, but references were made to it." The super said, "Who are you wanting to get the kid put in with?" I said, "I have a friend on the bottom walk who goes by Brick. Brick's promised to protect the kid." The super said, "Brick has a lengthy record too." I said, "Yeah, and he's wanting the kid." The super said, "Is Brick a homosexual?" I said, "On the record? I can't tell you." The super smiled and said, "If I said I'd put the kid in the cell with him, would Brick agree to the terms I've given you?" I said, "Sir, I think Brick would be really appreciate it and would agree to those terms." He smiled and said, "So, you're telling me that every bad assed guy in this institution would suddenly lay down arms if I got him a homosexual celly?" I said, "Sir, I'm not sure about that, but for the past 20 years, my world's been dingy, dark, and depressing. Since yesterday, I've suddenly had a world which went from that to having hope and love in it. I've got a taste of it now, and I want to be able to carry it on out of here and on out of this life." He smiled and said, "Son, do me a favor. If you ever get wind of any other guys who need...mmm...celled up, get word to me and I'll get it done." I laughed and said, "Sir, Can we get our own wing? Because if we could get our own wing, then no one would be harrassing others." He smiled and said, "On the record, I'd say I hoped there weren't going to be that many people I'd have to offer amnesty to... But off the record, I'd say, if it promoted the inmates of this institution to get along better and to stop the warring, I'd get it done." I nodded and he came over and put his hand on my shoulder. He said, "Son, you've given your word. Don't make me regret I gave you mine." I said, "Sir, you won't. Just get me my heart back." He smiled and said, "Son, keep your cell clean because of now, there's not going to be any supervision over your cell. That means the only time a guard will have permission to be here is on the other side of that door." I looked at him and said, "Sir, what did my mom say to you?" He said, "Richard, it's not what she said... it's how she left one sentence open. The sentence, 'If I have to come down there...' sounded so much like my mom, I didn't want to find out what would happen if she did. Then, on the way over here, it occured to me you were probably just like me and the only difference was you've had some hands dealt to you which weren't so good." I nodded and said, "Sir, yesterday, I got dealt 4 aces." He smiled and left the cell. I went to the door and watched him leave the wing. When he went into the sallyport, he went directly to the sergeant's office. Just about that time, the doors popped and in-wing rec was announced for the rest of rec period. My door popped and as soon as he could, Moose was entering my cell. The smile on his face was huge. I looked at him and he said, "You lucky son-of-a-bitch, you just got handed amnesty! I heard the whole fucking thing! I said, "Moose, You're not going to tell everyone are you?" He said, "Boom, Hell No! I'm not telling, but one thing I do want is put on that list. If we can get a wing in which we have amnesty, and I'm guaranteed I won't lose my celly, then I'll be able to lay down and lick my nuts." I smiled and said, "Whos nuts" He laughed and said, "Well, you know!" I said, "Moose, I'll get word to him, o.k.?" Brick came into the cell and said, "Dude, what was that all about." I said, "Brick, remember the conversation the sergeant and I had?" Brick nodded. "My mom called the super. Now, he's in getting the sergeant out of the prison. Now, do you want the good news?" Brick said, "It gets better than that!" I said, "Oh fuck yeah. This afternoon, you're getting your boy over here and in the cell with you. The deal is you have to cell with him and you have to lay down and lick your nuts...ummm, or his nuts. But, if anything happens out on the yard, the only thing it can be is if you're protecting the kid and it has to be in view of the skycam. If you don't then the first write up gets read by the super and he'll be lenient. The second gets you a harsh punishment, and the third gets you out of here with a new case. Now, do you want the boy?" Brick said, "What do I get out of it besides that?" I said, "Complete and total amnesty. No guard will check your cell and no guard will catch you and the kid having sex and give you a write up." Brick said, "You're shittin' me!" Moose said, "No, I heard it all through the vent. Boom here negotiated like a motherfucker and got the sweetest deal I've ever heard. And not only that, he's getting it for anyone who wants to cell up and be lovers with their celly!" Brick looked shocked and said, "The dude is going along with it?" Moose said, "Brick, not only did he take the deal hook line and sinker. He shit it out and tied it in a bow and handed it back to Boom on a silver platter!" Brick laughed and said, "Is he going to do anything about getting Francisco back up here sooner?" I said, "Francisco will be up here this afternoon." Just then, Francisco walked through the door and said, "I'm here now. Why's everyone having a party?" I immediately went over and hugged him and kissed him. I looked at him in the eye and said, "Are you o.k. babe?" He smiled weakly and said, "Boom, I knew it was going to happen. I'll be o.k., she's now in a better place." The guys got quiet and said, "Boom, Francisco, we'll leave you two alone." They left and I held and hugged Francisco. My back was to the door and I looked into his eyes and gave him the most tenderest kiss we'd ever shared. Tears sprung into my eyes and I said, "Honey, I'm so sorry I wasn't here." Francisco said, "Boom, there's nothing you could have done. But, from what I hear, you got someone down there faster. So, you did everything you could." He put his head on my shoulder and then suddenly froze up. I said, "What's wrong babe?" He suddenly sprung back from me and I turned around. The super was standing there and said, "Richard, your problem is taken care of. He's out of this house and as of this afternoon, he'll be lucky if he ever gets to step back in this prison." I went over and shook his hand and said, "Thank you." He said, "Boom, the thanks I just got was watching you two just a second ago." I said, "Sir, you got a moment?" He said, "Sure." I said, "What we talked about earlier, Moose wants on the list." The super looked at me and said, "God Damned, three of my top ten are taking themself off my 'worry list'! I'll go see Moose personally and shake his hand." I said, "He lives right next door and heard everything we spoke about through the vent." The super nodded and said, "O.k., well, thank you again Richard." I said, "No. Thank you." He left and Francisco said, "Boom, you didn't sell your soul to get a deal made did you?" I turned and looked at him and said, "Babe, if you'd asked me yesterday if I would have considered the deal I made 'selling my soul', I'd have told you that you were a crazy motherfucker. But, today, with guarantees of having you in my life until you're out of here and with complete hands off. I'm just thankful I've got you. The deal I made is so good, both Brick and Moose have already signed onto it." Francisco said, "What's the deal?" I said, "Babe, lay down here so I can lay down with you." Francisco said, "Boom, are you sure we're not going to be in trouble?" I said, "Eiley, and there's going to be no more troubles." He looked at me and said, "You made a deal for amnesty on all grounds!" I said, "Well, no. If I beat anyone up now, it has to be under the skycams and it has to be defending you. If I do it for any other reason, then my ass is grass. But, for me laying down my arms, our cell doesn't see a guard one in it and no guard's going to be writting us up for sexual misconduct." Francisco looked at me and said, "Boom, why did he go along with it?" I said, "My mom called down and she put the fear of her wrath into him!" He said, "Your mom?" I said, "Oh hon, she spoke to him like a mother who was pissed off...basicly she said, 'If I have to put you over my knee, you'll be sorry!' and the guy listened." Francisco laughed and said, "Boom, until you said that, I didn't think I'd miss my mom." I looked at him and saw the tears. I held him in my arms and said, "Honey, I'm sorry. I really wish I could have met her to let her know her baby was in good hands." He smiled and said, "I wish you could have met her too. Then, she would have known I made a good choice and I'm in love." I said, "Me too honey." I said, "Francisco, where are you from? My mom wants to send flowers to your mom's funeral." He looked at me and said, "Boom, my mom didn't have any money. Her body is going to be donated to science." I looked at him and said, "Oh honey, I'm sorry." He said, "Boom, my mom was in a nursing home. If your mom would like to send flowers, do you think she'd send a rose to every old woman in the nursing home in my mom's memory?" I said, "Babe, let me go give her a call and see. Where's the nursing home?" Francisco said, "She was at Southgate Nursing Center in Jefferson City." I said, "O.k., do you feel up to speaking with my mom? I'd like for you to meet her and let her know you're o.k.." He said, "Sure, do you think your mom's going to like me?" I said, "Honey, she's going to love you." We went down and I called home...amazingly, we got through again on the first try--sometimes wonders never ceased to amaze me with this phone system...on the first ring, my mom answered. I said, "Mom?" She said, "Richard, did that man get ahold of you?" I said, "Mom, he locked down the whole prison and came to my cell to visit me." She said, "Richard, he's a good man...a little rough around the edges like you, but good just the same." I said, "Mom, I have someone I'd like to introduce you to. His name's Francisco and he's the person I told you about." She said, "Oh good, I'm glad they got him out of there." I laughed and said, "Mom, you didn't leave him any choice!" She laughed and said, "Honey, I just talked to him like I used to do you!" I said, "Here's Francisco." Francisco got on the line and I walked a few steps away. I was just far enough away I heard mumbles, but none of the conversation. They spoke for a while and then when I was afraid they were taking the whole rec. period, Francisco nodded his head and helf the phone out for me." I got on the line and my mom said, "Richard?" I said, "Yes, Mom." She said, "Richard, he's a sweet boy. You be good to him and I know he'll be good for you. Now, you do me a favor and get a photo taken of you two and I'll get it put up on my wall with your brothers and their wives." I smiled and said, "Mom, you don't have to do that." She said, "Richard, that wasn't a request. I'll send you the money, but I want a photo so the rest of our family will get used to the idea and will welcome that child home with open arms." I smiled at the thought and said, "Mom, I love you." She said, "I love you too and that's with a w not an o!" I said, "I'll tell him mom." She said, "Richard, I told that superintendant to leave you alone and pick on someone his own size." I laughed and said, "Mom, it's his job." She said, "He doesn't get paid that good to mess with me." I laughed and said, "Mom, good bye." She hung up and Francisco came over to me and gave me a hug in front of the whole wing. He said, "Your mom welcomed me to the family and said, I have a home to come to when I get out. You had already told her you loved me and she was proud of you for telling her. She said, anyone who loved someone enough to profess it to her like you did had her admiration. She wants a photo of us together so she can frame it. And, she wants me to write her letters." I smiled and said, "I need to write my mom more, but after so such a long time of saying nothing changed in here, I finally was done telling her the same thing. Until today, I didn't have anything worth telling her that mattered in my life." Brick came over and said, "Francisco, I need to speak with you. It's rather important, so I need to interupt." Francisco walked over to the ice machine with Brick and I saw them talking animatedly. I had a suspicion it was Brick getting permission from Francisco on getting the kid to be celled with him, but I wasn't sure. They stopped talking and Francisco came over and said, "Boom, you need to come over here because Brick's not understanding there's no possible way I can own another human being." I said, "Hon, in prison, you can. You bought him when you k.o.'d that asshole. Now, do you see why I was dragging my feet on hitting the dude? I don't believe in ownership rights, but your actions said you did." Francisco looked at me and said, "Boom, I'm sorry. I thought you were just dancing with the guy and putting on a show. I figured if that's what it was going to be, I'd show you the guy wasn't going to ever submit and I'd just hit him for you. I had no clue I knocked him out and I sure don't want that guy and I don't want to give him away and have Brick thinks he owns him neither." I said, "Did you explain that to Brick?" Francisco looked at me and said, "Boom, he kept insisting I owned the kid." I said, "Babe, under prison law you do." He said, "Well, get Brick to tell you he wants him as a boyfriend and he won't own him, and Brick can have him as a boyfriend. Not as property." I said, "Francisco, Brick will insist on paying you." Francisco said, "Tell him I don't want the money." I said, "Francisco, how about if you tell Brick you'll take the equivalent of 3 pairs of sweat pants and 3 sweat shirts for him and a pair of tennis shoes. Then, as a token of friendship, give the items to the kid." Francisco looked at me and said, "I'll do it." I said, "Brick, come here bud." Francisco stood in front of me and I put my hands on his shoulders. I said, "Brick, first of all. Francisco didn't know that when he knocked out dingleberry over there, he'd get the kid for his efforts. Second of all, he doesn't want ownership of him, but understands now that prison law dictates he must take ownership. In third, he'll sell you the kid only if you will agree to set the kid free in return for loving the kid as a boyfriend on equal terms. The price of the transaction will be 3 pairs of sweat pants, 3 sweat shirts, and a pair of tennis shoes which will be turned over to the kid in an act of friendship on behalf of Francisco to the kid. Do you agree to these terms?" Brick said, "Kind of steep, don't you think?" I said, "Brick, now just this morning, you were saying that Francisco deserved the name of Mack truck for the way he hit the shit-for-brains asshole over there. Now, you have the results of Francisco's conquest laying at your feet. Are you going to tell Francisco to his face what he fought for wasn't worth those few tokens? Because if you are, I'll tell you now I'm going to step back because Francisco is going to probably hit you." Brick looked at Francisco like he was worried and Francisco said, "Brick, either you want love, or you don't. It's not an option of you owning him." Brick said, "I don't want to own him either." Francisco said, "Then what's the issue?" Brick said, "I don't know if I'm ready to commit like you two have." I said, "Brick, just this morning, you said you wished you had what we have. Now, are you telling me you are a liar?" Brick said, "Oh fuck no. It's not that. It's that I'm not sure if the kid will even like me." I said, "Brick, you're a damned nice guy. You're my best friend. And, I think if given the chance, you'd give someone your heart. So, what's it boiling down to that you think you're inadequate for the kid." Brick said, "Bud, do we have to talk about it here!" I said, "No one is around us and I'm partners with Francisco. Whatever I hear, he'll hear in the cell, so you might as well say it in front of him." Brick looked anguished and said, "Boom!" He looked like he was going to have tears in his eyes, so whatever it was, was strong stuff for Brick mentally. I almost gave in seeing him this way, but somehow I knew if I gave in, Brick wouldn't be better for it." Brick said, "Boom! It's embarrassing, but....but.... well.... I'm not hung like you." I about busted out laughing, but instead swallowed and said, "Brick, maybe the kid doesn't want dongzilla!" Francisco started to snicker and Brick smiled. I saw the look on Brick's face and Francisco snorted and soon, I couldn't hold it in. I started laughing and Francisco said, "Dongzilla!!! Oh jeez, Boom, you're killing me!" Brick was laughing his ass off and so was Francisco and I knew the situation was defused. Hell, even I got a good laugh out of it. Francisco went over and hugged Brick and said, "Brick, if that's what you're worried about, why don't you let the kid decide. I think if given the opportunity of having someone who actually loves him freely, the kid will not be worried about the size of you, but will look at your heart." Brick said, "Francisco, I'll take the deal." I said, "Brick, the kid is moving in with you this afternoon, so you have to get your celly packed up as he's going to be moving." Francisco and I went up to our cell and I said, "Sweetness, do you know when I came up here earlier, the cell seemed like it was so empty and lonely without you? I was just overwhelmed and depressed. Finally, I lay on your bunk and smelled your pillow to smell you on it. I missed you." Francisco hugged me and gave me a kiss. He said "Boom, tonight, we're going to make love and if your old ass wants a nap, then you should get one." I looked at him and he said, "Sweetheart, you are older than me and if your hearing isn't good, maybe me need to get you a hearing aid." I said, "Oooh, kid, you're cruising for a bruising." He laughed and said, "You know I love you, right?" I said, "Honey, I love you too. Without you in my world, it's not the same." He said, "So, take your nytol and geritol and get some shut eye." I laughed and said, "You can be a smartass when you want to, did you know that?" He said, "Me? My aged man must be getting alzheimers!" I laughed and said, "If I'm going to take a nap so I can get some of that sweet ass tonight and get you to take mine, I'm absolutely insisting you lay down and snuggle with me." He said, "Oh, is that all you were waiting on? Then why didn't you say it?" I lay down and he lay down next to me. Holding him in my arms, I said, "Francisco, this morning after you went in, I came out to Brick. Then we went to Fat Cat so I could give Venito to him. Technically, you should have owned Venito too, but I gave him to Fat Cat. The deal with Fat Cat is he'll just run Venito's ass off as a servant for a few months and then it will be someone new for the Cat. The cat doesn't believe in sex, I don't think, and in the time I've known him, he's not been into pimping anyone...like some of these other guys. What the Cat gets into is having an army of guys who pledge loyalty to him for their freedom. His protection comes from counting on his army. The Cat owes me favors and if you ever need an immediate favor out on the yard, you get to the Cat. He'll handle the situation. Whatever you do, be careful out on the yard tonight because the Cat was up at the Muslim's corner this morning. For the Cat to be up there, he's at war with someone and it's going to be bad. I don't want you getting caught up in whatever it is." Francisco said, "Boom, you are so up on all the prison law and what's going on, I don't know how you do it." I said, "Babe, years of experience and a crash course in it has taught me. When in doubt, you need to pay attention to the signs. Watch people and see where they are. If the yard ever goes quiet, take a look at where they're looking because that's the direction of where the trouble is located...or is going to come down. Now, between you and I, we need to have a bucket in this cell with laundry soap, comet, and water. I'll get some of that muriatic acid they use on the showers." Francisco said, "Boom, what's on your mind." I said, "Babe, if there's going to be a war, then most likely it's going to happen. If it's big, then you need to know there's going to be bloodshed. If the bloodshed happens, and any gets on our clothes, the muriatic acid will make it so there's no way they'll find blood on it. I'd rather walk around with a huge white spot on my grays than be sitting in the county jail with a new case." Francisco said, "I've seen the bucket in other people's cells, but I thought if I kept ahead of the laundry, I wouldn't need the bucket." I said, "The bucket is their insurance, not the fact they're wanting to do laundry." He said, "Boom, if a war happens, get to the house." I said, "Honey, the reason I'm telling you is today I gave my word to the super I'd lay down my arms. If you're running into the house, I'll be on your heels. If you're not, I'll be dragging you. Normally, I'd be out there in the middle of war taking care and settling old scores. I've been in three riots and the first one, someone came after me with a sword. The man had blood in his eyes and he didn't care who he killed, he just wanted to kill someone. Fortunately, someone else distracted him and I saw him stab the guy clean through and take the guy down to the ground on the sword. When the sword came back through the guy, it had been embedded in the mud and it pulled the mud all through the guy's intestines. They guy now shits out of a bag because of that. And, on top of that, the guy who had the sword never got caught. There was too much other shit going on at the time." Francisco said, "Boom, where'd he get the sword?" I said, "They only build these places for honest crooks. If you wanted a sword, all you'd have to do is take the side off of your bunk here and rub it on the concrete long enough to get it sharpened." Francisco said, "So, what do you think is going to happen?" I said, "Babe, I didn't ask the Cat. It wasn't my business. BUT, I will say this. I've seen the Thundercats ride before and it wasn't nice. They went on one guy 4 deep and stabbed him 19 times with an ice pick. On the way out of the scene, they stabbed anyone who was careless enough to get in their way. That's why I'm telling you to be careful. Now, whatever it is, I don't think it's happening tonight because Fat Cat said he'd meet me tonight when yard opened to give me the boy. If possible, I'll introduce you to the Cat, so he knows you're mine and I don't want you hurt. I'll also use the time to tell him if you come to him with a problem to handle it no questions asked and I'll get with him later on it." Francisco said, "Boom, you sure are putting eyes out all over the place to protect me, aren't you?" I said, "Babe, when you own a house, you put a fence around it so no one comes on your property. When you own a car, you put an alarm system in it so no one breaks the perimeter. In this case, we're people, and we need someone looking over our shoulders. When you get more wise into the life, you'll be more sure and you'll know more about prison law. Right now, you don't know it well and without trying, you could inadvertantly step on someone's toes. For instance, on the handball courts, there are certain courts you don't play on without permission. The reason being is because there's a crips court, a bloods court, and then there's some courts which were called even before those gangs came into the prison. The old heads ran this prison before they came, and they damned well get preferential treatment. When I came on the scene, it was under convict law. I had a friend who looked over me (like I'm having them look over you) who had a 10000 number. That means he was the ten thousandth inmate in the entire department of corrections. If you ever see a number that old, I don't care where you are, or who you are, you immediately fall to the ground and bow to them. Got it?" Francisco said, "If you say so." I said, "Francisco, without them old timers, the prison system wouldn't be where it is today. They put their blood on the line so you'd be able to have it as good as you got it. Back then, those fuckers all had to go out and work on chain gangs. They ate shit, because that's all they were given. They slept on cold limestone floors without mattresses. We don't have to do it today because they got wise and sued. Think about that, and I bet you'll be giving thanks to them for it." Francisco said, "I didn't think of it that way. Heck, you're number is old too." I said, "Yeah, it's old, that means I was in the 39000's. With the explosion of the prison system and them realizing they could make a fortune off of us, the prison's are overflowing. Your number is over a million. That means someone like me had to see 900,000 other motherfuckers before I got to see your sweet ass. Believe me, after seeing ugliness for that long, I sure was stunned by your beauty." Francisco said, "Well, for one thing old man, I sure know you had plenty of opportunity to learn to spread bullshit!" I laughed and said, "Well, I speak the truth. Your ass is a piece of artwork...well, the rest of you is too, but not even the Mona Lisa could give me a boner like your ass does." I was boned up speaking about his ass and thrust forward into his backside. He said, "Boom, after being celibate for that long, I'd say you definitely had a case of the hornies." I said, "Well love, it wasn't just a case...I had me a whole fucking keg of it!" Now, be quiet, grandpa needs his rest. Francisco said, "Oooh, now you've went too far. You're not grandpa, because I don't do grandpas." I laughed and said "Hon, If I had me a kid before I went to prison...and I could've...that kid could have had a kid at the age of 20 and I'd be a grandpa. Francisco said, "Well thank God you still have your teeth!" I busted out laughing and he rolled over and kissed me. He said, "Boom, you know I'm joking when I joke about your age, don't you!" I said, "Babe, I told Brick this morning after you knocked out Venito, I told him you were the only person who could do what you do and make me love you for it. All you have to do to defuse me is smile and I love you for it. Brick even admitted that was powerful. Oh by the way, your nickname out on the hill now is Eiley." He laughed and said, "Tell me you thought of it." I said, "Yeah, and Brick figured it out, but he's going to tell everyone it's surfer jargon which means powerful!" Francisco chuckled and said, "You two are friends?" I said, "Babe, until today, I wouldn't have said we were...but, now, I'll proudly call him my best friend and he will me." Francisco said, "Boom, you're changing a lot because of us aren't you?" I said, "Honey, no one else could ever get me to lay down my arms. With you, you didn't have to ask, I did it just because I wanted there to be an 'us'." He looked at me and said, "You love me that much?" I looked at him and said, "Babe, the short answer is yes, but the long answer is I'll admit it to everyone else, but they won't see an ounce of tenderness out on that yard. I want you to know that because if I show weakness, the game's over. O.k.?" He said, "Boom, do I have to put on a game face?" I said, "No, you just be you. I'm doing it because I don't want anyone to see me as being less. If I do, we not only borrow trouble, we are going out looking for it. I'm not going to do it like that, but I won't make you look like my boy out there either." He nodded and said, "Boom, if you have to, then I don't mind." I said, "Well, babe, sometimes thats all these dumbasses will understand, but even though I don't like it, sometimes I might have to give that perception. Just the same, if I do, I'm going to do my best when we're out of the crowd to go back and let the person I gave that deception to an idea of what's really going on." He said, "So, you're going to come out to everyone?" I said, "If I need to, yes. If I don't have to, then I won't...at least not in this motherfucker." He said, "Boom, you do what's right for us and I'll trust you." I said, "Babe, I need to ask you something so I have it in my mind as that's what's going to happen." He said, "O.k....what are you talking about?" I said, "Babe, your mom was your only source of family out there right?" He said, "Well, there's my dad's parents someplace, I think, but I never met them. I don't even know where they live. I could have aunts and uncles and cousins on that side, but I've never heard." I said, "Well, the reason I'm asking is because I'd like to know if you wanted to have me out on the streets and if so, do you want me to come to your town when I get out, or do you want to come to mine?" He looked at me with wide eyes and said, "Boom, do you realize you're talking about getting out of here instead of saying you're never gettig out?" I said, "Yes, babe, and that's because of you....well, there's another bit of good news that I've forgotten to tell you. This morning, Brick told me they've reclassified what a life sentence entails and he said, they've commuted them to 22 years which means I could be out in 2 years." He looked at me and said, "You mean we could be out of here about the same time?" I said, "Well, I don't have an out date yet, but it could be possible." He said, "Oh Boom, do you realize that would be like a dream come true!" I said, "Yes, I do. In fact, it was the first thing I thought about when Brick told me. I was only my way to tell you when we saw you being taken down the hill." He said, "Oh." I said, "Yeah, but as soon as I saw you, I was instantly saddened and angry with myself for not being here with you. Well, I was sad I didn't get to meet your mom." He said, "Boom, she would have liked you. Let's just think of her being in another place where she's looking down on us and helping to make all the good things happen." I said, "Babe, Brick said the same thing to me when I was giving myself hell over it." He said, "Well, Brick is your best friend, so I'd say he told you right." We continued to lay there and took a nap together. Having the confidense to know we could sleep together without the guards harrassing us was almost like being free. In most prison relationships, we would have had to sneak around and not get caught by the guards. If the guards would catch us, then they'd write us up and when the write up was read, we'd be split up and sent to seperate cells. To say the deal the super gave us was 'more than acceptable', would be an understatement. It gave me hope." When the horn sounded for lockdown at the end of rec. I was nearly dozed off. I rolled over and Francisco spooned up closer behind me. Someplace after I'd been asleep, someone put a blanket over us. I came awake with a start because I knew it wasn't Francisco. I looked over and to the door. I saw the super walking out it. I said, "Did you need something?" He said, "Richard, I'll talk with you later." I went back to sleep and we slept until the next horn which was medical release before chow. I nudged Francisco and said, "It's chow time, I'm going as they're having fried chicken." Francisco said, "Boom, you can have mine." I said, "You don't like the chicken? It's the best thing they serve." He said, "Boom, to me, it's disgusting." I said, "O.k., but if there's ever anything you like that I don't, I'll get you gobs of it." He laughed and said, "With your connections, I imagine you would." We were up and ready when the doors popped. We left and met Brick with his new celly down on the walk. About the time we got there, Moose showed with his celly. He came over to us and said, "My celly and I are ready to take the step of coming out in the wing." I looked at Moose and his celly and said, "Moose, whatever you want, I'll support you." He smiled and said, "Boom, be careful tonight on the yard. There's going to be war." I nodded and said, "I had a feeling." He said, "I'm not sure who, but I heard skuttlebut." I said, "The Cat was up at the Muslims this morning." Moose's eyebrows raised and said, "Whomever it is is likely to die then. The Cat having to go to the Muslims to get a favor means he had to get permission." I said, "Moose, I was only going out to get Brick's celly, but since he's here now, I think we're staying in." Moose said, "Boom, you're really laying them down, aren't you!" I said, "He's worth it Moose." Moose smiled and said, "Boom, I think were either old, or we're getting soft." Francisco said one word. "Senile" Moose smiled and said, "Hey whippersnapper, I'll remember that 20 years from now and by then, you'll be the age I am now!" Moose's celly went over to Francisco and held out his hand. Moose said, "He wants to get to know you two so we can be closer." I said, "Moose, that'd be great. I think it's time we join ranks and have us a family." Moose smiled and said, "Back at the walls, if we'd ever talked like this...we'd be wearing hot pants!" I smiled and said, "Moose, we're getting old. These young kids have no clue what that shit was like." Moose nodded and said, "Boom, do you realize I saw a 2500000 number yesterday!" I said, "Oh jeez, that's huge!" Francisco heard and said, "Damn, I feel old!" Did a stretch and put his hand in his pants while making a face like he was cleaning his dentures. I smiled and Moose said, "the kid's a fuckin' comedian! I hear you through the wall laughing and Boom, I don't think I've ever heard you laugh before." I looked at Moose and said, "He's powerful man. He's changed me." Moose nodded and said, "I understand, that one over there's got my heart and could play basketball with it if he wanted to." Brick came over and said, "His name's Toby. He's from the same town as me. We're really hitting it off. He's really gay and not some turn out." I said, "Is he going to accept you?" Brick smiled and said, "He said he's happy about that and when I described 'dongzilla' to him, he couldn't believe it." Moose started laughing and said, "I'm fully well knowing what the hell you're referring to, and I'm not in this conversation because that would be admitting I've looked in the shower." I smiled and Moose said, "Dongzilla is an accurate depiction." Francisco snorted and I think he heard the conversation. I turned to look at him and his face was so red from trying not to laugh, he was turning purple. I said, "Babe, you be the dongzilla slayer all day long." He snorted again and started laughing. Moose was watching and started laughing too. Brick being close by started laughing which had everyone looking. When Brick laughs, it's kind of like a 3 Stooges whoop...whoop...whoop...or a fast version of a sinking ship claxon. So, when he laughs, everyone starts laughing. By the time they released our wing, we had about 35 guys all rolling out with laughter...and most of them weren't even sure what the joke was. They were laughing just because of Brick's laugh. We got to chow, and I saw Fat Cat. He had Venito with him and Venito gave a sneer. The Cat cuffed Venito upside his head and said, "Venito, you will apologize to Boom because if he'd wanted to, he could have had you turning tricks." Venito looked at the Cat and said, "Boom, I'm sorry." I smiled at the Cat and said, "Venito, it's bad now, but you'll be thankful for it some day." I said, "Cat, you got a moment?" He said, "Sure dude, what's up?" I said, "Cat, I got the kid this afternoon, so I'm letting you know I won't be out tonight. I didn't want you out there waitting and thinking I stood you up. By the way, the word is out about whatever's happening tonight. Be careful." The Cat looked at me and said, "Well, you know how people are, they talk." I said, "Just be careful dude. If it's your army, then stay back and let your soldiers do the deal. I want to see you on the yard tomorrow and not hear you went to the hole." The Cat smiled and said, "You know how I work. I'll be there." I walked away and thought to myself. I'm glad it's not me and I'm glad I'm seperating myself from that life. I'm getting too old for this shit. We got through to the serving line and someone made an overture to Francisco with a piece of chicken. He said, "You know you want to lick it. Just put your mouth up on it, and I'll hold it real still." I grabbed the piece of chicken and said, "Either serve the piece of chicken right or you'll find me across that line shoving it up your ass." Moose was behind us and said, "Listen up dumbfuck, I just refused taking a piece of chicken from you. Now, go over and get your boss and tell him I want to see him over here. I'll hold the line until you're back...so, hurry up." I decided to pocket the chicken and get another piece. Francisco was looking at me like he was sort of embarrassed but understood the score. The cook came over and said, "What's the hold up over here?" Moose said, "That dumb motherfucker you got serving the chicken just sexually harrassed that boy over there with it. Now, I'm refusing to take a God Damned thing from him. So, you going to do something about it?" The cook turned and looked at the guy and said, "Get out of here! The guy probably thought about coming across that line." He turned and said, "I'm serving you all now, where were we." I pointed at Francisco. He got his and then I held up my tray again. I took the extra piece of chicken as a reward for the time lost from eatting. At the end of the line, I saw they were serving bananas. Francisco took his, and I got mine. Moose said, "Oh shit, we know what the fuck happens when you try to leave the chow hall tonight!" The deal with the bananas is that it never failed that when I walked out of the place, the guard doing a pat down would feel my cock and then have me in the back doing a strip search. I'd throw out my cock and then would say, "if I get all the way undressed, you're getting fucked.". The game was the guards all knew I'd do it. If a new guard was on, well...you know who got the job. The problem was, the other guard would tell him, "I want the guys pants so I can run the wand over them." The new guard being alone in a room with me and hearing what I said to him, would freeze up and not know what to do when the guard outside of the room was asking for the pants. Tonight, the kid who was the guard looked like a model. Cute, blonde, and a real slight build. The kid took me to the back and I hauled out my cock. I said, "If I get undressed, you're getting fucked." About that time, the kid locked eyes with my cock, and he was like a hound dog on point...totally transfixed. The guard outside said, "Well, we don't have all day, get his pants out here!" The kid looked at me and I said, "You can have my pants, but just as soon as mine come off, you're better too." The kid looked up at my eyes and I slapped my cock in my hand. The kid said, "Dude, you're not going to tell anyone are you?" I said, "OH Hell no. Because the kid was willing to get fucked in order to do his job." I went to the door and said, "Guard, I need you in here. The other guard came in laughing his ass off and said, "Well, inmate, why don't you have your pants off?" I held my dick in my hand and said, "It's not a god damned banana and this isn't fucking Dairy Queen, so either I'm out of here or this is sexual harrassment." The guard knowing the score started laughing and the kid realizing in was a joke on him looked relieved. I looked at the kid's name tag and made a mental note to suggest the kid get moved to our housing unit. It would be better to have a gay guard in a gay friendly environment than a homophobe. The older guard let me leave and I saw Francisco dragging ass on the walk. Just about the time I was looking where he was, I saw Venito jump out from behind the handball court wall and run over towards Francisco. I yelled 2 o'clock and then took off running. Francisco saw Venito and fast as a flash, his arm swung out and Venito went down. I ran up and Venito came up swinging. With a boot to his head, Venito was out. The guards seeing the altercation and seeing Venito down came running. Francisco walked on and I was told to stop. I was taken to medical and told to strip. I did, and just about then the guard telling me to strip got a call on his talkie to release me. He looked perplexed and I said, "They've just veiwed the cam and I'm cleared." He looked at me and said, "You're on our side!" I said, "No, just got promised amnesty today for not doing anything I'm not supposed to do." The guard looked at me and said, "Don't say a fucking thing about what you just heard." I said, "I won't, but you just told me volumes." We had a guard undercover in our housing unit and I had a real strong clue who the hell it was. A guard showed up and escorted me to the housing unit. By the time I got there, I'd thought about it and knew it wasn't Moose's celly as they'd been being sexual. Francisco, had already done some, but how far would he go? He apparently had been in the cell a year, so I didn't think it was him. That could only mean it was probably Brick's celly. That's why we got amnesty. I entered the wing and Brick came to his door. I said, "Brick, do me a favor. See if you can do anything for your celly before rec tonight." Brick looked at me like I'd went insane speaking out in the wing like that in front of everyone. I gave him a look like "I know what the fuck I'm doing, just trust me on this..." Brick nodded and I saw him disappear. I went up to the cell and when I entered, Francisco came over and gave me a hug and a kiss. I kissed him and said, "Francisco, I want you here and now." Francisco looked at me and said, "There going to be delivering mail here in a moment." I said, "Francisco, I just got out of medical where the guard just told me we had a guard undercover in this house. I got amnesty today for a reason and I'm wanting to know if it's you. Now, if you aren't a guard, you'll drop your drawers and get over here and fuck me. If you are, you'll refuse and you'll be out of this cell as soon as you do. When that happens, I go out on that yard and I start killing me some guards because if it's a set up, I'll take as many of you motherfuckers out as I can." Francisco looked at me and said, "Boom, I'm not a guard." I said, "Then come over here and fuck me." He said, "BOOM!" About that time, I heard Moose yell through the vent. "Boom, get to your front door now!" I went to the front door and looked down at Brick's cell. Brick was standing at the door and said, "You had a package delivered and it's down here!" I turned around and said, "Francisco, I'm sorry." Francisco looked at me and said, "Boom, I love you. I can understand why you were paranoid. Now, are we going to have sex, or are you going to stand up at that door all fucking night!" I looked at him and said, "Babe, I'll be there in a second. I've got some severe sucking up to do." Francisco smiled and said, "Well then..." In his church lady's voice. I cracked up and he said, "Boom, I love you and I want us to not have to worry about the clock. I intended on us making love the first time and it lasting all night. Only, my intention was it was going to be after 10 p.m....but, since you want to start early, throw a towel over the window of that door." I put a towel up to the window with a pencil...privacy curtain immediate...I walked over to him and said, "I'm going to undress you and I'm going to nibble parts of your body you never knew could turn you on. Then, when I'm done with that, I'm going to suck your cock..." I began kissing him and when he began to really get into it, I broke it off and went back to nuzzle his ear. I licked it and sucked on the lobe and then grazed my way on down his jugular. When I got to his shoulder, I softly bit it. He tensed up and I licked my way on back up. I whispered in his ear, Baby, I love you more than sanity." He moaned and I nibbled my way on down his neck again this time, I went on down to his right nipple. I licked around it and then softly took it in between my teeth. He said, "Boom, that's so fucking hot!" I went over to the other one and did the same thing. When I took it between my teeth, I squeezed the other one between my fingers. He moaned again and I went between his nipples and softly planted a kiss. I began to move slowly down his abdomen and licked my way to his belly button. When I got there, I licked around it and then flicked my tongue on the upper rim. He tensed up and then when I dove my tongue in, he nearly doubled up. I flicked my tongue quicker and he moaned really loud. I pulled away and headed down his treasure trail until I got to the top of his cock. He tried to thrust up but I skirted my way around the base and went down his nutsack. Licking, I got to the midsection of it and begin to suck inward. One nut popped into my mouth and I sucked gently and then went to the other one. Soon, I started alternating back and forth, and went he was in the rhythm of it. I stopped and went over to the crack of where his thigh met his midsection. I licked the area and kissed my way down until I had to lift his leg to go lower. I licked across his perineum to the other crack and then licked and grazed my teeth back up along it. When I got up to being even with the base of his cock, I slid over and then licked my way up the shaft. I looked into Francisco's eyes and softly said, "I love you" He smiled and said, "Oh baby, I love you too!" I smiled and then engulfed the head into my mouth. I began to suck softly on the head and after a moment, I began to do a slow milking massage by sucking in and out on it. He clasped my head and guided himself further into my mouth. The whole time I went slowly down his shaft, I was massaging his shaft with my tongue and soon, my throat muscles. When my nose met his pubic hairs, I began my slow slow trek upward. When I reached his head, I dove back down to his bush swallowing him whole. I came up slowly and began deep throating him. As the sensations got to be more and more greater for him, he began to thrust deeply into my mouth. I began to breath on each upstroke and out on each downstroke. He cried out and said, "Boom, I'm going to cum" I sucked harder and just when I thought I felt the first flash of his seed in my mouth, I took him all the way down my throat and milked him until the waves of his ecstacy subsided. Afterwards, when it got to be a bit much for him, he pulled my head off of him and I dove up his body for a kiss. He chuckled and said, "My God, Boom, that was incredible!" I laughed and said, "So, it was good?" He said, "It was the best!" I said, "O.k., well, I guess that warrants giving you my cherry!" He smiled and said, "Boom, I'm spent for right now, but please make love to me." I said, "Babe, how about we wait until later to do that." He looked a little disappointed and said, "I want to do it for you." I said, "It's going to take time to get you ready for this thing and I want to ask Moose how they do it so I don't hurt you." He smiled and said, "O.k., Well, lay back fella because I'm going to return the favor of giving you head at least!" I lay back and we began kissing. He did everything I did to him, and the sensations I felt when his tongue met my ear were tremendous. Whoever thought licking an ear would be so intense! That intensity ceased when his mouth grazed down my neck. A chill went up my spine and when his teeth met my collarbone, I was already moaning involuntarily. He went back up and when he met my ear again, the sensations previously were surpassed. How they could get better, I never knew, but wow! As he trailed his tongue down to my nipple, it tickled and felt warm and then got cold as his saliva was exposed to the air. The hot and cold sensation was awesome. His mouth met my nipple and I now understood how he could involuntarily just moan continuously. Then he bit. The different sensation between a glorious tickle and the mock pain was incredible. He then sucked and began sucking my nipple in and out of his mouth. My moans began again and suddenly, he stopped and slid over to the other. He did the same on this and the sensations were mirrored from what he did to the other. When he began carressing the one in time to what his mouth was doing, I was lost in a zone of pure pleasure. He bit and suddenly I was pulled back out of the zone only to be thrust back in with him sucking the nipple in and out. To say I was in lala land over what his mouth was doing to my body is pure understating how he was playing my sensations like a fiddle. Then he stopped and went to my sternum. I have a cleft there, and he ran his tongue up and down it several times until the warm wetness had me feeling like he was tongue fucking the groove. I was into the feeling when he started his journey downward. Before he got to my belly button, he nudged the head of my cock to the side and began lapping the pre-cum up. Then, he got to my belly button! All I can say is the sensations I felt previously hadn't prepared me for this. Wow! The movement of his moist tongue around the edge and diving into it, had me doubling up like he did and then the quivering of his tongue in it, was already having me feeling like I was about to cum. When I thought I might, he moved on southward to the base of my cock and then onto my balls. Him sucking in my left nut was a sensation of both pleasure and pain. He nursed on it for a moment and when the sensations got to be more pleasure than pain, he moved to the other. He repeated the effort and my body responded likewise. Just when I thought I was totally into it, he moved to my thigh crack. Him licking up and down it was different, but the moist sensation wasn't as nice as other part had been. The kneading massage he was giving my inner upper thighs was wonderful and I made a mental note to do this to him in return the next time. The trip upward took him to the base of my shaft and when his mouth made contact, I don't know what happened, but I had a huge spurt of precum that hit my chin. It wasn't cum, it was clear and gooey like the precum. As he came up the shaft of my cock, my cock oozed precum out to the point the head of it looked like it was just doused in it. His mouth made contact and the sensations of my cock thanking his mouth were awesome. He moaned and the vibration of his mouth went down my cock, up my cock, and vibrated inside my brain. A moan began in my lower throat and as his mouth began to do the same as I had done to him, my body just gave itself over to him completely. It refused to follow my brains commands and went only for what he was doing. I was in a zone and as his mouth began milking my shaft further down, his hands did the same to the lower part of my cock. I had wondered how he would ever get it in his mouth, but I guess he figured it out with what his hands were doing because it all felt like his mouth on my cock all the way to the base. He began to glide up and down and all I knew was as he continued to go faster, my moans excaping my throat were connected to his mouth. A warm creep began up the base of my cock and as it got nearer to the head, it started signalling to my brain I was going to cum. I don't know how, but by this time I was already doing a grunting sound from within my throat and as the sensation reached the head of my cock, it went to an ah ah ah sound. He started focusing his sucking on the head and his hands were really gliding up and down the shaft. The motions of his tongue were causing white spots to flail around inside my brain. I don't know when I came but all I know what inside my brain was like a fucking discotech. I was seeing strobes and flashes of light all over the place. From what nearly everyone in the wing said later, I must've forwarned all of them I was cumming with the shout I let out...because they all said they heard me. Not one person now didn't have a clue I was making love with my celly. As I came down from my cum, I was left just panting and breathing hard. Francisco kissed his way back up to my mouth and by this time, I was back within control enough I ravaged him with kisses. When our mouths broke apart, I said, "Oh my god...oh my god babe, that was incredible." He smiled and said, "Boom, that was awesome, you really let yourself go!" I said, "Damn babe, you nearly killed me.....With Love! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------- Author's Note: Writting a scene where two individuals make love is probably one of the hardest things I've done in my life. When I write, I like to convey emotions and feelings. The scene just written took about 5 days for me to write because each sounded too clinical. I'm sure you've all read those..."he put it in, he jiggled it around...he came..." sorts of stories. I told myself when I started writting, if I can't make mine better, then I'm not putting it out there. I hope you got that from this story. To those of you who are writting. I am reminded of Sally Field's acceptance speach, "You like me...you really, really like me!". Please don't write with corrections on that, Lord knows I probably messed it up, but the point was made. I'm surprised and thankful. The depth of thankfulness can't be conveyed, but it always makes someone feel good when their work is appreciated. Just the same, if you don't like the work, let me know that too. The reason I say that is maybe I didn't put in my best effort and deserve a chewing; or, maybe I left a word out and it changed the whole paragraph...or maybe the whole story! As much as I edit and as much as these are read before they go out, it never ceases to amaze me the mistakes I see when it hits Nifty. I find it an embarrassment, and for those snafus, I apologize. Lastly, if you've been writting, you know I have 4 more stories in the works, either completed, or being editted for completion. The next one will be released probably on Friday. More people read on the weekends and I want it to be up at the top of the list so it gets the most exposure. Yeah, call it vanity, but I like it when the numbers of viewings are up on a page. It's what gets a story on the "Best of Nifty" page. BestofNifty dot org. If you've gotten this story by email, please go to visit the story on Nifty as they go by viewings of pages. If you aren't aware of it, Nifty has a "Best of Nifty" page. I found it by accident by doing a search while looking for one of Mike Arram's stories. I didn't just go out and promote, Mike's work for no reason, but if you want to read a good story, then look at his....hint....hint....wink...wink! Don Hanrady and Ardveche write beautiful stories too. This chapter is long...hella long. There was a lot to put into it, and I wanted to make sure I closed it with them finally making love. One thing I'm going to do with this opportunity, I'm going to start signing off like this.... From my keyboard to your heart, Retta "With Love"