Clark Kent/Shawn Farrell
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Clark felt like a hypocrite. Today was one of those times. Times like
this when he and Shawn would grab their gear and head out under the
open sky, pitch tents and lay out on their sleeping bags and talk.
After months of working on the Kent farm, Clark still knew very
little about the blond teen he’d picked up hitchhiking along
Lex had been suspicious of him and no doubt began investigating Shawn
the minute Clark introduced him to his former lover. Whether out of
concern for Clark or jealousy, Clark couldn’t hazard a guess.
All he knew was that a few days ago, Lex had handed him a dossier on
his new friend. Clark hadn’t bothered to read it, but the
cryptic conversation turned argument he had with Lex, led him to
believe there was something in the file that might be damaging.
chided himself for not destroying the file. He hated the small
knowing smirk on Lex’s face when he left with said file in tow.
It was just a matter of time before he opened the thick manila
folder. He wondered if Lex had such a folder on him as well.
for your thoughts,” the silky voice next to him all but
nothing,” Clark lied.
be something. You’ve been lost in thought every since you
visited your ‘friend’ a few days ago.”
shifted on his sleeping bag, turning on his side to face Shawn. “That
hmm. What happened? A lover’s quarrel?”
flinched at those words.
would you say that?” he asked defensively.
rolled over to face the brunette beside him. “Well…I
know he doesn’t like me. And the only reason I can gather is
because I live with you.”
refused to confirm or deny any of Shawn’s suspicions. Instead
he offered to pop popcorn over the campfire.
that why you aren’t together anymore?”
that why who isn’t together?”
laughed. “You and Lex. Was your inability to come out of the
closet the reason you and Lex are not together anymore.”
said I was in the closet or that Lex and I were ever together.”
did, when you offered me popcorn instead of answering my question.”
about you answer some questions for a change.” Clark felt his
shoot.” Shawn was enjoying watching Clark squirm about his
are you really and what are you running away from?” Clark
regretted the words the moment he uttered them.
bounded from his sleeping bag and headed for the tent.
pass on the popcorn. Goodnight Clark.”
Clark called after his friend, scrambling to his feet to go after
him. By the time he entered the tent, Shawn was huddled on the hard
ground, his knees pulled up to his chest. “Shawn, I’m
sorry. Yes Lex and I had an affair and yes I suspect he is jealous of
you and it’s none of my business why you’re here,”
he blurted out without taking a breath.
didn’t want to smile, but looking up into Clark’s puppy
dog eyes just begging for forgiveness, he couldn’t help
himself. Adorable wasn’t a word Shawn would normally associate
with a six foot plus teen. But that was the word that often came to
mind when Shawn was with Clark.
our sleeping bags in and I’ll forgive you.”
bounded out of the tent, relieved that he hadn’t messed up this
friendship so soon. The two arranged the sleeping bags side by side.
They stripped off their boots and jeans. Clark wore long johns
beneath his clothes while Shawn had opted for sweats.
had settled into their respective sleeping bags when Shawn whispered.
“I was in love with my cousin.”
first Clark didn’t know what the blond was talking about. As if
Shawn understood that he clarified his statement. “I left
because of him, among other things.
Clark nodded his understanding in the dark.
Shawn answered bemused. “For over three months, you’ve
been trying to find out more about me. No doubt you’re ex has
probably had me investigated. And now when I open up to you all you
can say is ‘Oh?’
reached for his flashlight and turned it on. He wanted to know if the
anger in Shawn’s voice had reached his face. Shawn tried
maintaining his look of indignation, but without success. The two
teens burst out laughing. When Clark regained his composure, he
managed to explain himself.
have to understand that in Smallville your revelation is small
potatoes compared to other stuff that happens around here.”
that’s true, how come you and Lex didn’t stay together?”
watched Clark still. The lighthearted moment they shared had passed
as quickly as it came.
okay. I’ve never really had anyone to talk about this with. We
kept too many things from each other. Especially me. It drove him
crazy and us apart.”
deep dark secrets could a farm boy from Kansas have?” Shawn
tried to joke.
many,” Clark said. His eyes pleaded with Shawn to drop the
subject. Shawn obliged.
off the flashlight. Let’s get some sleep.”
was at that moment that Clark made up his mind. He would destroy the
file and mind his business. If Shawn wanted to reveal more about
himself, he would. He couldn’t ask Shawn to do more than he was
willing to do himself.
he drifted off to sleep on phrase danced around in Clark’s mind
and brought hope to Clark for the first time in a long time
was in love with my cousin.” Clark hadn’t bothered to ask
if this cousin was male or female.
many secrets,” Clark sighed as he rolled over and tried to get