Date: Fri, 2 Jan 2009 10:41:00 -0800 (PST) From: shawn george Subject: All I Have To Give prt. 9 Disclaimer : I do not know The Backstreet Boys , *Nsync , Aaron Carter or any other Celebrity in this story. This story is pure fiction and is not meant to imply on anyones sexual preferences. If you are underage DO NOT READ ! Joey's P.O.V : ( Bam , Bam , Bam ) I knocked on Lance's door and waited for him to answer. Everyone else on the tour had gone out for the night but I stayed behind to talk with him. It was time for us to have it out. He's been avoiding me for the last couple of weeks and I want to know why. Not why he won't talk to me but why he would stomp all over my heart like he did , especially after 12 years of being Best friends. A couple weeks ago I finally told him the real reason for me and Kelly's split last year. I had admitted to her that I was in love with him. I think it's safe to say neither one of them took the news to well she left me taking my daughter with her and now he's avoiding me like the plaque. Man this sucks ! " Geez , Joe do you have to knock so loudly " He said opening the door " No, but I was afraid you would do like you've been doing lately and pretend like you didn't hear me " I said walking past him into his hotel suite " Please come in " He said with a hint of sarcasm. I walked further into the suite and took a seat on the couch in the living room. Lance closed the door and came and sat on the love seat accross from me. An awkward silence filled the room as we both just sat and looked at each other. Finally Lance broke the silence " So Mr. Fatone to what do I owe the pleasure ? " " You know why i'm here Pez " I said looking at him like he was crazy. He sighed and got up walking over to the mini bar " Come on Joe , let's not start that again " " Start what lance ? , explaining why my best friend hates me " I said " I don't Hate you Joe " He told me as he poured two drinks " Bullshit! , You've been avoiding me for like three weeks. When all I did was tell you the truth " I said angrily " Well what the Hell did you expect? You kinda droped a bomb on me " He said as he came back over and sat next to me on the couch. Handing me a glass with brandy in it. " I didn't expect you to completely shut me out. I get it lance really I do. You don't feel the same way about me that I feel about you but that's all you had to say not shut me out. Do you know what it felt like to have you ignore me ? " I was almost near tears so I hurried and looked away " Joey , look at me " He said. I slowly turned my head and looked into his beautiful eyes as tears streamed down my cheeks " I'm sorry. I shouldn't have treated you the way I have your my best friend and you deserve better than that. You just through me for a loop I always thought you were completely straight and when you admitted your love for me it scared me " He told me " Why ? " " Because I have always been in love with you Joe. Ever since the day we met " He said looking me in my eyes. My heart skiped a beat he did feel the same way about me " Why didn't you ever say anything ? More importantly if you love me too. What are you so afraid of ? " I asked " I'm afraid of ... Never mind just forget it " He said " Lance, I'm still your best friend you know you can talk to me about anything. What's up ? " " I'm afraid of what I feel for you joe. I'm afraid of going out on a limb and you doing to me what he did " He said " He who ? " " Reichen " " What does he have to do with this ? " I asked. Lance hung his head and I could hear him start to sob. I didn't know what was wrong but whatever it was it was big. I rubbed his back trying to console him " Hey hey , Lance baby what's wrong ? What did he do ? " " Joe , their are alot of thing's about me and Reichen's relationship that I hid from you " I continued to rub his back as he cried harder " Joe , he used to hit me " I felt like someone had just knocked the wind out of me " He beat you ? " I asked dumbfounded " All the time and when that wasn't enough he would rape me " He answered crying and shaking. THAT BASTARD ! I grabed Lance and pulled him into a tight hug " Baby , I'm so sorry you had to go through that but i'm a different person. You know me I would never hurt you like that " I told him " I know Joe , but it's hard to get over " He said " I know it is baby , It's gonna take some time. I'm sorry for being so pushy with you. We don't have to talk about us untill you're ready. But just know Lance I'm not going anywhere. I love you and I'm here for you. We'll get through this together " He lifted his head off my shoulder so he could look in my eyes again then he whispered the sweetest thing he's ever said to me. " I love you too Joey " End Of P.O.V Ok sorry it's taken me so long to write this but I was having a little bit of writer's block I just got the inspiration to write this last night. Hope you all like it the next chapter should be up soon. Send all feedback to anjel4life2000@yahoo.com. Happy New Year !!!