Date: Sun, 2 Sep 2001 18:15:00 EDT
From: Angel36745@aol.com
Subject: Angelic 2

  Disclaimer: I don't know BSB or anyone connected to them in anyway. I
don't know their sexual preferences, this is just a story. I made it all up
in my own little twisted world. Well, it's not that twisted but that's not
the point.

  Warning: I don't know where this is going, or what will happen. I've had
this story on my mind for the past couple of months. There may be sex, but
if there is it won't be in the first chapter. So if that's what you're
looking for you might want to look in another place. Now there is one major
super natural kick in this, it deals with Angels. I know first Sryin's,
then Ghosts, then Elf's, and so on but I can't help it, really I can't. :)

   Authors Note: Well I'm back and my BSB kick, and I've left for other
bands alone. Now that most likely won't last for long so don't get your
hopes up. If you have time and like this story check out some of my other
stories. I'll leave a small list at the end of this chapter. I don't have
an editor anymore, so most likely there will be a few mistakes. I would
also like to add that if you have the time to please e-mail me. I love feed
back and in some ways it helps get the next chapter out. Ok I'm going to
explain my symbols and my way of writing. I write in the first person point
of view, so to tell the story better I switch characters. I use these ***
to do that and I also use those symbols to start off the chapter. I will
put the name of the characters name in between the symbols when I start a
chapter. When I change the character in the middle of the chapter or any
part of the chapter the name will be at the end of the symbols. As of right
now those are the only symbols I use. If I add more symbols I will explain,
now on with the story I hope you enjoy it.

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***Loki***

  I turned around and moved toward Brian, he looked a little shaky. The
dark haired man was already running toward his car. I smiled to myself and
moved to Brian's side he looked ashamed.

"I'm sorry that I kept my identity from you, but it had to be this way." He
looked up slightly and nodded, still he wouldn't look me in the eyes. I
pulled my wings back in and picked up my shirt. After I pulled it over my
head I took Brian's hand and walked him onto the bus. I helped him to sit
down, then I sat down right across from him.

"You have nothing to be ashamed of, none this was your fault. You were only
trying to help your fellow band mates. He used your love for them against
you, he shouldn't have done that. I know that you still think you have
reasons to be ashamed, but you don't. Your lifestyle is just that, your
lifestyle there is nothing for you to be ashamed of." He looked up at me
still doubting my words, it was understandable.

"Walk with me, I would like to show you something." He simply nodded and
followed me to the back of the building. I took my shirt off once again,
then released my wings again.

"I'm going to pick you up, and fly to the roof." He nodded slowly and
stepped up closer to me, I then picked him up. I flew straight up to the
top of the hotel, Brain had pressed his face into my chest.

  Once I set foot on the roof I slowly sat Brian back on his feet. I flew
back down and picked the shirt up off the ground without landing. Seconds
later I was back on the roof, where I took my pants off. I placed the
clothing back into the bag and got dressed in my clothing after I had
pulled my wings back in. Brian hadn't taken his eyes off me yet, but that
was ok I liked the attenion.

"Look toward the sun and tell me what you see." Brian looked toward the sun
for a few minutes.

"I just see the sun, nothing more nothing less, am I supposed to see
something?" I smiled to myself, now if he could only understand what I was
about to tell him.

"You're seeing what you should see, but there more in this than a simple
image. The sun is just that, and does what it pleases and doesn't worry
about anything. The sun is just that and it can be nothing more nothing
less. Brian you are who you are, you shouldn't try to be someone
else. Where there is love there is his grace, I hope that someday you
understand that. If you follow your heart you can't go wrong, remember
that. There's a door over there, use it to get back to your friends. I must
leave now, there are many things I have to do." I let my wings flow
outward, then I picked up the bag. I flew straight up into the sky and
continued to head upward until I was beyond the clouds. I turned and looked
back down on Brian, I could see him clearly but he could only look upward.

  I watched the tears fall from his eyes, then his lips moved slowly. He
slowly turned and walked toward the door, after he entered the hotel I went
back to the roof of the hotel. I had this strange feeling in my chest, it
was something I had never felt before. I didn't know if Brian would be all
right just yet. I felt that I needed to watch over him more closely than I
had before. He was still in danger, he still needed my help, well that's
what my heart told me. I had to be sure of his safety, and I truly didn't
know why it had meant so much to me. I had this feeling he was going to
tell his fellow band mates soon, and he would need me then. It wasn't that
they would react badly, but I just wanted to make sure. Besides, he wasn't
the only one keeping that secret, but he was the only one that thought it
was going to cost him his soul. I couldn't let my presence be known until
it was needed. If it wasn't needed I could simply leave without further
letting anyone know I had been there. I lifted off the ground and traveled
back to the arena as fast as I could. I dropped the clothing off and rushed
back to the hotel roof, I had to be there before they left. I knew that I
had a lot of time, but since I had revealed myself things might have
changed. I was glad that I had rushed back to the hotel, the bus was
leaving.

  I took to flying higher into the sky and looking down on the bus. The
area it was in had far to many people in it for me to simply land on the
bus. I had to wait until it had at least cleared the city before I could
land. Once the bus was thirty miles out side of the city it pulled over to
a rest stop. I descended until I was just above the rest rooms in which the
guys were using. I then followed Brian to area that contained food, and for
the first time I hungered. I didn't understand the feeling so I pushed it
away and continued to watch him. He then walked a little away from
everything and looked upward toward the sky.

"I know you can hear me now, and I want to thank you for everything. I
wanted to ask you if I would ever see you again. I just couldn't get it out
in time, so now I wonder if I will. I pray that I do, so I can thank you
face to face, I didn't tell the others the truth. I told them that you had
something come up and you had to leave. So I hope that isn't going to get
me in any trouble. I told them that I gave you my cell number and we were
going to try and get together to play some B-ball. So if you ever want to
come back, you have a reason. I'll cover for you, and I won't tell anyone
what you really are, I promise." I was so tempted to show myself at that
moment, but I didn't really know why.

  I stayed out of site and then watched as the bus pulled away. I flew
right above it and then I slowly touched down onto the top of the bus. I
hoped that I hadn't made a sound, knowing myself as well as I did most
likely I hadn't made a sound. I laid my body flat on the bus and listened
to the people inside. They were talking about the concert that was coming
up next. They talked about how much it would mean to them since it was
Kevin and Brian's home town. I pressed my body on the bus a little tighter,
then I pulled my wings back into my back. My clothing looked worse than had
ever looked before, it was starting to get on my nerves. I knew I had to
find some better clothing soon, then I could meet up with Brian again. I
had to find a way to make some money, then I could buy some clothing. Then
it hit me I could sing like the guys in the bus, and maybe I could get some
money from it. Then I could go and buy myself some clothing that I could
wear to meet with Brian. When the bus pulled into a hotel I watched them
walk in, then get into an elevator. I took to the air and started looking
for a place that looked like people could be drawn. Once there I took a
seat on a bench, then I pulled my wings back in. I would have to wait until
the sun came back up since the park was empty for the time being.

  I sat there for hours watching cars pass by, some were cops. I had seen
that in some cities cops would force people to leave the park. That hadn't
happened yet and I hoped it wouldn't happen any time soon. I sat there all
night and just watched the cars, so far none had stopped. When the sun
started rising I smiled to myself and waited for the people to start
walking through the park. It took close to four hours before the park
started getting crowded. I decided that now was a good time to start
singing so I did. In less then a few minutes I had my own crowd. The words
were simple, I spoke of love and happiness. The people looked to be
mesmerized by my voice and the song itself, when I stopped the money
flowed. I had never seen people give so much, it was wonderful. I didn't
know to much about money, but I could count that I had close to a hundred
bills. I looked at the numbers, some of them had twenties on them. I was
highly pleased with myself, and the people. I thanked all of them for the
kindness, then I started looking for a clothing store. I walked for close
to an hour, then I finally found a store with some nice clothing. I entered
the store and looked around a little until I found some black pants and a
black shirt. Then a clerk walked up to me, she looked upset for some
reason.

  I smiled at her and held out my hand, her whole body shook lightly. Then
she waved her hand in my face as if to tell me to back off.

"Listen I don't really think you can pay for that, so why don't you just
leave you bum." I was a little taken back, then I felt a small amount of
anger. I pulled the money out from my pocket and held it out to her, still
smiling.

"I think I have more than enough to buy this, you superficial insect." Her
face changed quickly as she looked at the money.

"So if you wouldn't mind, I would like nothing more than to buy this and
leave your little store." She turned around and walked toward the counter,
I followed her. She took the pants and shirt and put them through the
register.

"That will be forty-five sixty please, and I'm sorry I was so harsh toward
you." I looked at the money and pulled three of the twenties out and handed
it to her.

"Don't be, it is who you are, and you can't change that. Maybe in time
you'll learn to be a little more open to people. Because if you don't,
you'll find yourself sitting in a very warm place, that isn't to nice." I
took my clothing and left, I didn't worry about getting any change. I took
the rest of the money and gave it to a man sleeping on the street. I then
took my old clothing off and sat it aside. I made two long cuts in the back
of the shirt.

  I had to make sure I could use my wings at any time, and since it was my
clothing there wasn't a problem with that. I waited until the sun started
setting, then I took the skies, hoping I wouldn't be spotted. I didn't
really have to worry about air planes trying to chase me down. To their
machines I was just a bird flying around, but I did have to worry about
people seeing me. So I went as high as I could then started looking for the
hotel, when I found it I landed on the roof. I entered the hotel and looked
out every door on every floor. When I found guards standing just outside
the door I knew I had found the right place. I ran back up to the top of
the hotel and slowly flew down to the floor I had seen the guard. I looked
in every window until I found Brian rushing around his room trying to get
dressed. He looked so cute rushing around in his underwear, then he moved
to the door. I went back to the top of the hotel and sat down, something
was happening to my body. I felt strange and the lower part of my body was
tingling slightly. I tried to shake the feeling off, but it just wouldn't
go away. When I saw the bus pulling out of the hotel I followed it. Twenty
minutes later it pulled into another arena, I touched down in the back of
the building.

  I pulled my wings in and moved to the shadows, hoping to stay unseen. I
wanted for Brian to know that I was around, but not just yet. I wanted to
wait until he needed some kind of help. I didn't want to just barge into
his life, it wasn't the way I had lived my life. I had to wait until he
needed me, then I would reveal myself once again. So I watched over him
from a distance, always staying a step behind. This lasted for two months,
I watched him and I noticed that he was starting to get depressed
again. Still I kept my distance, he had to have his space to make his
choices. I would be here if he needed me, but I couldn't interfere with his
choices. My time finally came when they pulled off at a rest stop. It was a
really nice area and the ocean was just over a cliff, it was really
beautiful. Brian was pulling all of the guys together near the cliff, I had
a really bad feeling about this. He looked scared, but there was something
mixed with that fear, but what I didn't know. I moved closer staying behind
the small amount of trees that kept the area shaded. I could feel what was
about to happen, and instantly my wings tensed slightly. Brian had his
reasons for moving so close to the cliff, and now I understood why. He was
the only one near the edge as the others just looked on with
confusion. When he turned around I could see the tears falling from his
eyes.

  He was taking deep breath and looking at each of his friends. Nick had
tried to move closer to him but Brian had held his hand up.

"What I have to tell all of you is very important to me. It's very
important to the band, and I should have said something years ago. I was
afraid that if I did, you would kick me out of the band and replace me. So
I lived a lie for as long as I could, and I had people help me. Leighanne
has been a saint in so many ways, without her I wouldn't have made it this
far. She isn't the only person that helped me so much. Loki gave me a lot
of strength to do what I'm about to do, he gave me courage. He made me
understand that who I am isn't something I'll go to hell for." He looked
toward the ocean again then back to his friends.

"Now what I'm thinking may send me to hell but that's ok. I have to tell
all of you that I'm gay, and that's not going to change in anyway. I know
this could destroy the band, so I came up with something you could use. You
see if the world ever found out it would hurt all of you more than me. So
I've decided that since I can't live a normal life, I won't live one at
all. This way the world just thinks this was all one big accident, but you
could go on." With that said Brian ran and jumped off the cliff.

  I was right behind him in less than a second, he was falling so
quickly. I caught him one-tenth of a second before he hit the water. I
pulled him into my arms and flew upward slowly, he looked shocked. I held
him tightly as my foot touched back down on the ground, the others were
still in shock, they hadn't moved.

"If you mean him harm you will have to go through me, and trust me you
don't want to do that." Kevin had slowly started moving forward, but he
didn't look angry.

"Brian, please don't ever do something like that again, I thought it was
all over. I don't give a damn if your gay, you are who you are, and I love
you for you." Brian was shaking slightly, and I found that I liked Kevin a
lot. I was on the other hand confused by the fact Kevin hadn't said
anything about my wings.

"As for you Loki, thank you for saving my cousin." I nodded slowly, but I
knew I would pay for interfering again. I just hoped it wasn't as bad as
last time, then again this wasn't so bad.

"Kevin have to totally missed the fact that this guy has wings, and can
fly?" Kevin looked at Nick and smiled lightly.

"Well, not really at first I had thought it was amazing, but to be honest I
had an idea. You see I went looking for Brian and Loki after they had left
the hotel. I walked around the corner when Loki decided to fly Brian to the
roof. Then he came flying back down and grabbed his shirt." I looked at
Kevin with worry overriding everything in my being.

  If he could have seen me than maybe others have too. I knew that I moved
with amazing speed, almost at a blinding speed. Well, at least when I had
no other choice I could move like this. That was when my body was consumed
with pain, I had never felt pain before, not like this. Everything got dim
and my hearing was fading so quickly, but I could still see and hear. It
was just at a much lower rate, it was at a human rate. I couldn't move, I
knew that I had fallen to the ground. I could feel hands moving over my
body trying to lift me. I pulled my wings in hoping it would help in some
way, it only took seconds. I took in a deep breath, then tried to regain
some control over myself. My stomach felt like it was being stabbed over
and over again. I didn't understand I hadn't eaten anything, or drank
anything. I was now on something soft, and I could open my eyes but I felt
so weak.

"What's wrong, why is this happening to you?" I had to take some time to
pull my thoughts together.

"I interfered with your life, I'm not allowed to do that without paying a
price." Brian looked heart broken, almost to the point of tears.

"Don't worry I've done this before, it's why I'm stuck on earth, I have a
problem with not interfering. The first time they took my healing powers
away, then sent me to earth. I guess now I'm becoming more human, do you
have anything to eat?" I knew why my stomach was hurting now.

  I was eating apple after apple, and it was helping slowly, the pain was
fading. I still felt tired, so I knew I would need sleep soon. I wondered
if I still had my wings, that and a few other things. I forced myself to
stand and move toward the make shift kitchen on the bus. I found a knife
and placed the blade against my arm, I closed my eyes and made a quick
movement. I didn't feel any pain, so I opened my eyes to see that it hadn't
even broken skin. The others were looking at me like I was nuts, then when
they didn't see blood it was ok.

"I had to know if I still held any angelic gifts, it's good to see that I
do." I couldn't let my wings flow outward, the bus was way to small.

"So you're an angel, or you use to be right?" I nodded, and Nick had made
the correct statement, since I no longer knew if I was. I touched Nick's
fore head quickly and tried to look into his mind, I couldn't. Another gift
was gone, but I could live without it, I guessed.

"Sorry just checking something else out, it's gone." I moved back to the
couch and laid down, it felt a lot better to just lay down. I slipped away
into a deep sleep, it was peaceful and filled with wonderful thoughts. I
didn't need to dream of wonderful things, I had lived in the most wonderful
place. So my thoughts were like dreams in a way, filled with wonders most
waited their whole lives for. I had seen the best and the worst this world
had to offer, and I feared none of it.

  I did on the other hand fear for the human race itself, and it's
home. The human race was destroying the world they were given. I myself
didn't know how long it would continue to support them. Then you had the
other beings that wished the human race more harm than any other. The
demons, the fallen angels still walked the earth at times with nothing to
stop them. It was a given that they weren't powerful on this plain, but
that didn't mean they couldn't harm people. Most of the time they would try
to trick humans out of their souls. I had interfered more than once with
that little act, but I never got in any trouble for it. Now I was among the
human race, and the fallen angels, I worried about my life. While nothing
human made would ever end my life, something a fallen angel made could end
my existence. It was the same with weapons that an angelic being
created. We could attack them and take them out of existence as well, it
was something both races tried to avoid. Now that didn't mean they wouldn't
strike us down given the chance. Now that I was on earth and almost
powerless I would become a target. I could still fly into the skies, or so
I hoped, if I couldn't than I was a sitting duck. I pushed all of those
thoughts out of my mind and tried to rest while I had time to do so.

*****Brian

  I looked down on Loki as he slept, he looked so peaceful. He had saved my
life today, and given my life back a short time ago. Now he was starting to
pay for everything he had done to help me. An angel that was now becoming
human because he couldn't stop himself from helping people. He couldn't
stop himself from helping me, and I wondered why I was so special. There
was no doubt that I had always had faith in god, and I think everyone in
the world knew that much. Still it didn't mean I should get special
treatmeant, or be saved by an angel. I was starting to wonder if there was
even a small chance that I could talk him into going out on a date with
me. He had said that there was nothing wrong with me in any way. So maybe,
just maybe he wouldn't mind being my boyfriend. Then again he may not have
that ability just yet, so I decided that I should wait. Give myself and
Loki time to get use to everything that had and was taking place now.

"Brian, would you please lay down beside me, I'm not use to sleeping. I
think it would make it easier if I knew you were here with me." I laid down
beside him, and I don't think my heart could have beat any faster.

"Would you mind holding me while I slept, I know it's a lot to ask?" I
stopped him by wrapping my arms around his lower body. I listened as his
breathing started to even out again, and felt his body push against mine.

  It was like heaven, and had to be the most peaceful rest I had ever
had. When I finally woke up the next morning I found many eyes on me and
Loki. Loki was starting to wake up as the guys decided it was time to leave
us be.

"Brian, could I ask you a strange question, I mean well it's not strange to
me, but to you it might be." I was trying to find my voice, so I just
nodded slowly hoping he felt it.

"You see there's this problem I'm having, and I don't really know what to
do about it. Apart of my lower body is really hard and there's a small
amount of pain." I didn't even think of laughing as I pulled back and
helped Loki out of the bed.

"I believe you have to use the rest room, if you want I can help you." Loki
nodded and followed me to the restroom where I told him what to do step by
step. Not that there were many steps but I wanted to make sure everything
was clear. I turned my back to him as he started taking a leak. When he was
done I told him to wash his hands in the sank.

"I'm done now you can turn around, and thank you for helping me." When I
turned around I found that Loki's pants were still around his ankles and he
wasn't limp just yet. I had to take deep breaths to keep myself from doing
anything that I shouldn't.

"You forgot to pull your pants back up, maybe you should do that now." He
bent down and pulled his pants back up, then buttoned them and zipped them.

  I found myself in a daze while the bus pulled into the parking lot of the
hotel. I couldn't keep my eyes off of Loki, and I had to keep myself from
following him around. He was talking with the others while he stuffed his
face with food and juice.

"You know I never knew I was missing out on so much. This stuff is
wonderful, and the different flavors are amazing." Nick was trying his best
not to laugh, while the others looked on with smiles. Loki didn't seem to
really notice anything that was going on, he just continued to eat.

"Come on guys off the bus and hurry before we get spotted, I said move your
asses." I looked at Eric out newest PR agent, he was a nice guy until you
pissed him off. Everyone but Loki stood up to leave, he didn't look like he
was going to move until he finished eatting. Eric walked over to him,
seeing him for the first time and smiled lightly at him.

"I don't really know who you are, but you seem to be a guest so I'll ask
you nicely to follow me." Loki looked up at him and smiled bright before
swallowing another bite of the eggs.

"I'm Loki, and it's nice to meet you Eric, I've heard so much about
you. Could you please just give me say, another minute to finish this. Then
I would be more than happy to follow you into the hotel." Eric looked at me
and shook his head in amazment then slowly turned back to Loki.

  "Ok, I tried being nice, so now let me try something a little more
rude. Get your ass up and get off the bus, or I will carry you off the
bus." Loki looked up at Eric and laughed lightly as he took his last bite
of the eggs. He stood up and brushed his clothing off and started walking.

"You know kindness is a really big plus in the big book, you should look
into it." Eric looked more dumbfounded than ever before, so he just walked
off the bus. I followed shortly after grapping my bag and books, no need to
have to come back later. Loki was standing just outside of the hotel, he
looked confused and lost. He slowly looked over to me, then walked into the
hotel. I ran up behind him and tapped him on his shoulder.

"You look a little sad, is there anything wrong Loki?" He looked at me and
then back to the front desk.

"It's just that's a little hard to remember somethings that I should
know. I use to always have a path to heaven in my mind so I would never get
lost when I came to earth. Even if I couldn't return I always knew how to
get there, now it's gone. There are other things that I'm finding I don't
know anything about, that I use to know. I'm starting to understand it now,
and it's really scaring me. I learned almost everything I know from one
human. Now that human is dead and everything I learned from him is fading
from my mind. I still know everything about you and the others, but if you
or the others ever die I'll be lost forever."

   "I use to know what a shower was, and how to take a bath. Since last
night those memories have faded away. I never really looked into that part
of your mind, I didn't need to know it then. Now I can't look into anyones
mind and I find that I can't remember certain things. I can't even remember
what sex is, well I know what it is,but not how to do it. I use to know how
to do it, my human told me, but now it's all blank. Then add the problem of
being able to feel everything like a normal human and I can't just fly
off. From what I can tell I still have my wings, only I can't really use
them. As you know the higher up you go the colder it gets. Normally that
wouldn't be a problem since I couldn't feel everything, now I can. Like
when I touch your arm now, I don't see your thoughts, I just feel how warm
your skin is. I just don't know what to do anymore, everything's gotten so
confusing. My thoughts and feelings are no longer dense, I feel things I
never thought I really could. Things that humans but angels aren't allowed
to feel because it would get in the way. It's one thing to love a human,
it's another to fall in love with a human." His last words dug into my mind
so quickly it almost made me dizzy. He looked away again and then moved
away following Nick. All the guys liked Loki and he had a place in their
hearts because of his past actions.

  Even knowing he would pay a price he had saved my life. That was enough
for the guys to take him under their wing and watch over him. In some ways
he was now like a child which made me want to keep my distance. Well, not
stay away from him, just try to stop thinking about him in other ways. I
had to give him to time to find himself and understand the world again. It
didn't matter how long that would take, for him I believe I could wait
forever. There was this little fact that I was still somewhat recovering
what had happened months before. After pulling myself out of my thoughts
long enough to get to the hotel room I found that Loki wasn't in my room. I
shrugged my shoulders knowing I shouldn't have excepted it. Kevin had most
likely gotten him a room to himself since he was now Kevin's project. Kevin
had a really hard time leaving things the way they were. So he could do
everything in his power to help Loki, even if Loki didn't really need or
want it. It was cool cause I knew that Kevin wouldn't do anything that
could hurt him in anyway. Nick was knocking on my door like he always did,
like a little kid.

"Hey Bri, why don't you come help me teach Loki how to swim." I didn't
remember buying him and swimming trunks. I looked at Nick who had this
really wild smile as he turned and walked away.

  To Be Continued
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Other stories that I've written: Falling, The Sryin, The Lost, Broken, It's
A Wonderful Life, Gemini, Ghost, Where You Are, Libra, Simple Twist Of
Fate, Double Take, and The Last Kiss Good Night.