Date: Sun, 10 Mar 2002 20:17:30 -0500
From: steelo64@msn.com
Subject: Angels Wing 26

***Out side view***

9ice had moved into a complex that was combined with N'sync by a foot way
management idea to save money, Shane, Rajin, and Jelani had deposited all
of there stuff and went straight to N'sync place. They were greeted with
hugs and kisses.

Jc almost exploded when Lance kissed Shane.

They were all now in he living room. With Rajin sitting in Justin lap,
Shane was in the corner talking and holding hands. Chris and Jelani were
making out in the bean bag chair with Chris mutter constant saying that
something was wrong with the rug of the chair because he kept getting
Shocked. Jelani just laughed and kissed him again.



Justin and Rajin wasted no time in making up for lost time as they played
cutesy on the couch. Shane and Lance were sitting on the love seat when
Shane leaned in for a kiss and Lance stopped him.

"Shane we have to talk." "I know, but I'm so excited to be back."

Lance was about to speak when Shane interrupted him. "And Lance I got you
something, I just hope you well..." Shane was reaching in his inside jacket
pocket.

Rajin knew what he was going to do and he tapped Justin to watch as he saw
his extremely excited brother pulling out Lance's gift.

"Listen before you get all excited can we talk."

"Yeah baby sure what's wrong?" Shane asked immediately calming down.

"Shane I don't know how to tell you this but, I I'm well,... I'm not gay."

Shane's head jumped back. "What?"

"I said I'm not gay." Lance repeated a little bit louder. From where Justin
and Rajin was sitting Rajin heard every word and he was fuming mad. Just as
he was about to do something Justin yelled out in pain. Rajin head snapped
to see.

"Justin what's wrong?" He asked panicked. "I don't know something burned
me." He cried holding his hand that was Rajin's a minute ago.

After a bit Justin calmed down still lost at what burn him. Rajin on the
other hand had his sites set on Shane and Lance.

"Wha-what do you mean, is it something I did?" Shane asked on the verge of
tears.

"No it's not you, it just that I don't thin I am capable of loving you like
that any more."

As much as that was meant to help that didn't sound good either.

Surprisingly Shane laughed "I know what you mean, I was feeling it to, I
just didn't want to say anything."

Lance jumped in surprise, "Really wow, well I guess it worked out for the
best then." Lance smiled

Shane gave a weak smile and stood back up. "Well I am kind of tired I guess
I should go unpack. Goodbye lance." Shane wave as he kissed his cheek.

He hurriedly made it to the door, closing it quietly only allowing 3 pairs
of eyes to really know he left. A surprised Lance, a pissed off Rajin and a
Irate Jc, who had got up from his chair as soon as he seen the door close.

He ran out to see Shane looking over the railing into a field of tall grass
that flowed like a golden brown sea. Jc let the door close letting Shane
know he was there. Upon hear it close Shane head shot in Jc's direction
with bright eyes only to dim in realization.

Jc walked over to Shane and tilted his head up to look in his eyes, trying
to apologize but not being able to verbalize his feelings. But Shane
understood. Jc pulled him to his chest letting him cry telling him it would
be ok.

Jc was rubbing Shane back when something fell out of Shane's pocket. Jc and
Shane didn't even notice but Rajin and Justin did as they watched the two
from the balcony.

"What did Lance say to Shane?" Justin wondered aloud. "I don't know but I'm
going to find out Rajin hissed as he unwrapped himself from Justin's grip.

"Rajin honey, before you go fight Lance why don't we ask Shane 1st."

Ok Rajin let Justin go ask Shane what was wrong telling Justin he'd be down
cause he had to use the bathroom.

Justin went downstairs and out the door and found that Jc and Shane were
already gone, Justin looked to see if he could see what Shane had dropped.

He found it under the swinging chair. It was a small velvet box with a tag
hanging from it, reading "Please B mine 4evr."

Justin inhaled deep finding a solid silver band in side.

Justin was walking back inside when he heard Rajin talking to Lance.

"What did you say to him?" He questioned only inches from Lance's
face. "What do you mean?" Lance tried to stall seeing how pissed that Rajin
was. "Don't play blonde with me, I am not in the mood."

"Me and Shane broke up." Lance answered. "What why.?" Rajin had to ask
cause he thought they were getting along good. "Because I told him, that I
wasn't gay." Rajin's mouth was agape. "But he said he was feeling that our
relationship was failing anyway and that he felt the same way." Lance tried
to reclaim his good name.

"You idiot he just told you that, if you had noticed what was really going
on around you except what you want to see than you would know what he
really wanted to happen to night.

"You don't know what your talking about!" Lance countered Justin anger
built up and over flowed he raised his fist and would have hit Lance if
Rajin had caught it. He easily diverted it.

"Don't baby, don't even waste your time." Rajin pleaded as he pulled Justin
to their room. Before they walked up the stairs Justin yelled to
Lance. "It's you who don't know what your talking about." as he chucked the
ring box at Lance hitting him square in the chest.

Lance opened the box and read the card. Cursing to himself as he cried into
the loveless night.

The next day was one that none of the guys were really ready for. Rajin and
Jelani were already over Justin, Jc's and Lance's house. And Chris and Joey
had just come in with Remy with donuts.

While most of the houses residents knew what was going on the other four
had no idea. They tried to carry on like nothing was wrong until Chris had
asked where Shane was.

A unsettling quiet had settled amongst the group. "Umm I'll go see if he is
up." Rajin offered, Justin was going to check to but Rajin asked him to
stay.

Rajin proceeded over to Shane's house and saw a light dancing through his
thin white curtains. Stepping in he had to step over a chair that was
blocking the doorway to the living room. The a wisp of incense was detected
in the air as Rajin moved towards the living room. What he saw is a sight h
never thought he would see again.

***Rajin***

Shane had cleared his whole floor and placed down matting in front of him a
bowl of incense and his prized katanna. The normal lights were replaced by
that of candle light. He sat in his black silk rode as if he was entranced
by the flame.

I knew he only did this when he was truly upset cause I do it two, the last
time we had both done this was when Grandma had pass away.

"Hey Rajin." He greeted without opening his eyes.

"Hey." Was all I could great back. I mean even as were growing up we were
trained in the arts. Shane and I was well skilled in the sword, but he was
very reluctant to use it even show it. But now he was burring his pain in
it.

"Shane are you...,are you ok." "Me, yeah don't think that this thing with
Lance is messing with me. If fact it stopping from realizing the truth, we
are here on a mission. So I see we know what your base may be." Shane
smiled faintly, it amazed me that even thought he was going through a
trying time in his life he still had time to worry about me.

"Yeah I guess so, but at least it wasn't to strong as to hurt Justin."

Shane laughed his most innocent laugh , one that you only received from a
truly happy child. "I remember that I thought I burned Lan..." The
brightness in his eyes faded again. "Look the matter at hand still
stands. We have a mission.." Shane began to stand and as he did he grabbed
his blade as he did. "And we will be ready."

He turned and walked out of the living room in a grand showing of the
sweeping capability of his robe into the back field.

I walked back realizing that Shane didn't want to deal with this Lance
thing, instead he was going to bury it deep inside and take on another fate
set task, but I fear that his feelings left unresolved could hurt him more
than anything we could ever face.



1 Luv & I'm Out

S.Collins a.k.a Steelo