Date: Sun, 17 Dec 2000 19:49:00 +0000 (GMT) From: Adam Subject: Beginnings of Something New--part 3 Title: Beginnings of Something New, part 3 Author: Adam Disclaimer: I do not know the sexual orientation of NSYNC or BSB but this is not meant to reflect on there true status. This is a pure work of fiction and nothing more. No profit is been made; it is being written out of enjoyment. This story contains M/M relationships, and strong language, so if you're not 18 or 21 depending on where you're from please don't read, k? Authors Notes: Hey guys. Here is part three as promised. Hope you guys like this one. It's not going as fast as I thought, but at least BSB are here now! Any feedback, please mail: adam_brittboy@yahoo.co.uk If you wanna read some other great stories; Justin's Dark Angel, Lance In Shining Armour, My Surprise Romance, Forever, Nick and Justin, Kevin and Dustin, Search and Rescue, Dying Eyes, My New Life, Xtreme NSYNC, Studio in the Country...and many more...Now on to the story... Beginnings of Something New-Part 3 Last time on Beginnings of Something New: He was finally in front of Jacob's door. Room 19. //This is it.// Lance thought before moving forward and knocking. "Just a minute." A muffled yell came through the door. A lock could be heard moving around and the door began to open, and there he was. Jacob. (And now, continued....) --With BSB— "Kevin, please just cheer up. You're starting to bring me down!" Brian stated, annoyed at his cousins frowning, face. "Yeah Kev," Nick began. "What's up?" Kevin couldn't tell them what was up. He knew he was gay. He knew women didn't turn him on anymore. Maybe they'd never turned him on, but oh...he needed someone so badly. Someone to love. To share his problems with. Someone who he could call his. Nick and Brian moved away from Kevin on the N64 in the other room, allowing Kevin to sulk alone. Howie entered at this time, AJ trailing behind. "Hey Kev, what's up?" Howie's question the same that Nick had asked only moments earlier. "Nothing, Howie." Kevin stated, matter-of-factly' "Why are you smiling like that AJ?" Kevin questioned his friend, eyebrows furrowing. "We're going to join Nsync!" AJ screamed out, gaining both Nick and Brian's attention from the computer. A series of, huh, what's, when's and why came from the three confused men's mouths. Except from Howie, who already knew what was happening. "We're going tonight. To join Nsync to work on a join video." AJ spoke loudly, saying each word as clearly as possible. "WHY?" Kevin shouted angrily. "Management thinks it would help both bands if we finally showed the fans and press that we are not bitter enemies." "Except for popcorn head!" Nick said, giggling. The other BackStreet Boys all knew Nick's feelings towards there rival bands heart-throb, Justin of Nsync had taken many of Nick's adoring fans from him. Nick hated him for that, much to Justin's confused stares each time something happened. "Anyway," AJ began again, ignoring Nicks comment about Justin. "We'll be there to surprise them tomorrow morning. So guys, get your stuff together and meet in my room in about an hour." AJ finished and left the room, followed by Brian and Nick. Howie stayed Kevin's room, looking at Kevin, as if to read what Kevin was thinking. "Kevin, anything you want to talk about?" Howie asked, attempting to help his friend. "No, nothing Howie. Thanks for asking though." Kevin responded coldy. Trying to show his friend it was not up for discussion. Unfortunately his friend didn't pick up on the angry tone. "You sure, Kev?" Howie tried again. "NO! HOWIE, NO! NOTHING...LEAVE IT ALRIGHT?!" Kevin shouted this time. "Sure Kev." Howie said, hanging his head low, before turning and leaving the room. Howie never showed it but he liked Kevin, more than a friend. Having to struggle with his feeling since his teens, Howie had finally realized he liked both men and women. However, the only man as of yet he found attractive was Kevin, and it hurt him. Hurt him that Kevin didn't trust him enough to share what was wrong. Back in Kevin's room, Kevin was pacing back and fourth, angry with himself for how he had treated Howie. //He was only trying to help// He thought. //You shouldn't have treated him like that. It's not his fault no one wants you!// Another voice in his head yelled angrily. The internal argument continued as he started to get his things together. (Meanwhile, with the Nsync guys) "What do you think Lance is gonna say?" Joey asked Justin, curious. "You know Lance, man," Justin began. "He's good with his words, and he's got the cuteness factor. Plus," Justin pretended to be Lance. "He had that BIG—DEEP---VOICE!" Justin finished in laughs, along with Joey after trying to sound like Lance. However, Chris was not so happy. "We don't know one fucking thing about that guy! He could be a murderer for all we know!" Chris argued. JC had the same thoughts as Chris, but trusted his friends' judgement. He knew Lance would be careful, and could handle himself. Chris however was expecting JC's support on this. "JC, don't you agree?" "I think...I think we should have a talk with him when he comes back." JC finished, sighing. Justin looked at his best friend in anger. "You know Lance, JC!" Justin shouted. "Has he ever done ONE thing that showed he wasn't always thinking straight. NO!" Justin answered for him. "Fuck, JC!" Justin ended before he got up and entered the Limo that had arrived only moments ago. Joey followed, and Chris had a smile on his face from his friends' support. "You know we're right, JC. We can't let him just pick a guy off the street." Chris ended, before heading for the Limo as well. JC simply sighed, shaking his head at what to do. It looked from where JC was sitting that Lance was falling for that Jacob guy, and falling fast. //Probably already in love from the looks of things.// JC thought. If he tried to separate Lance from Jacob, he could end up with Lance despising him and his friends' heart broken. If he didn't though, Chris would probably try something himself, and everything would end up the same. JC continued his thoughts as he entered the Limo and he and his 3 band mates went back to the hotel. (Jacobs Place) "You, eh...better come in." Jacob said, moving back from the door so Lance could enter. Lance moved forward, brushing against Jacob as he went causing them both to shiver in pleasure. //He feels so good// Lance thought. //I can't stay mad at him, I want him// Jacob thought at the same time. As Lance walked by Jacob and into his small apartment, Jacob smelt Lance's sweet scent, taking him into a daze. //I could have such a good life with him. Make love to him every night. Have someone to hold when I want, wake up to on a morning. I need someone to love. I'm so lonely.// Jacobs thought's echoing those of Kevin's earlier. "JACOB!" Lance shouted, bringing Jacob out of his oh-so-good daydream. "What?" Jacob asked, slightly irritated. Lance heard the slight annoyance in Jacobs's voice and felt crushed. //How can he effect me like this after only knowing him an hour?// Lance thought, slightly elated from his strong feelings. Jacob saw the pain after he spoke maybe a little more angrily than he intended did, and he was about to apologize when he remembered he was the one that should be angry. His stubborn side coming back with force. "Jacob," Lance started, hoping Jacob wouldn't hear the pain that was racing through him. "I wanted to say I was sorry. I really am. I wanted to..." Lance's voice trailed off, unable to finish. "You wanted to?" Jacob asked, his voice still holding the irritable tone. Lance looked up harshly at Jacob, realizing he was going to be made to do everything. "I WANTED TO KNOW IF WE COULD MAYBE HAVE SOMETHING TOGETHER ALRIGHT?" Lance shouted, although his voice still held more pain than anger. "You mean..." "YES!" Lance cut Jacob off. "I want to start something with you. See if maybe we could have something. I know this is sudden, but I feel something for you. More than I thought possible. I don't know how to handle these feelings. I need to be with you, maybe we could help each other?" Lance asked with hope. "And what makes you think I share your feelings?" Jacob asked. //Oh Fuck!"// Jacob thought, even as he was saying it. //I do have those feelings to Lance!// His mind screamed. //I want there to be an, us!// But he couldn't get the words. Only able to stare in an emotionless gaze at the pain he had caused, shattering any hopes Lance was holding inside. Jacob continued to watch as he saw through Lance's impossibly emotion full eyes, his sweet Lance's heart braking. His feet felt nailed to the floor when Lance quickly wiped at the tears that had started to pour down his face. Lance's beautifully green eyes were red with stinging tears, and he was hiccuping after the crying got so bad. Falling to his knees Lance attempted to cover his face from Jacob. Though it was a little late to be hiding his emotions, he couldn't let his what-would-have-been boyfriend how much he was hurting. //Fuck this!// Jacob thought, forgetting his stubbornness. Kneeling down beside Lance, he quickly pulled the sobbing man into his arms. Rocking Lance gently and muttering several "shushes' "B-But, you don't w-w-want me." Lance stuttered. "I do Lance." Jacob sighed. "I do." To Be Continued