Date: Wed, 08 Aug 2001 22:02:02 -0500 From: Danni Bailey Subject: No More Secrets - Chapter 7 Disclaimer: This story is purely fiction. I don't know any members of NSYNC personally (unfortunately) and this story is not meant to imply anything about their sexual preferences. If you are offended by homosexual themes, if you are too young to be reading the material or if you are a huge Nick Carter fan and are easily disturbed by him not being portrayed as a "good guy" read no further. I'd love to hear from the readers. I haven't gotten much feedback on this story, so I would REALLY appreciate your comments, both good and bad. Dannibailey@hotmail.com Thanks and enjoy, Danni "So, now that we finally have some time, how did your appointment go?" "I think it went really well. He wants to see me once a week for a while, and eventually he wants you to be in there with me. For now, he said he needs to deal with me one on one." "Well, whenever he wants to talk to me, I'll be here." Justin smiled widely. "I know. That's what I told him. That I was married to the most wonderful guy in the world. That you're always there for me, even when I'm an asshole." You laughed. "You have your moments, but so do I. It's not like I haven't been a jerk at times." "Yeah, but you don't do stupid stuff. I make really bad decisions." "Nick was the only REALLY bad decision you've made. You've acted at times without thinking, but trusting Nick was something we all warned you about." "Gary, I've known him forever, since we were kids. Why did I see him so differently than everybody else did?" "Probably because you wanted to. Nick was a fun guy to be around. He loved to party, and at a club no one had as much fun as Nick. I know you enjoy that, so do I to a point, but Nick always took things to far. Nick's lifestyle consists of living for the moment. All the drinking, all the sex. He never considers the consequences." "You're right," he said softly "but why was I so drawn to him? I love going to clubs, but I can go all night and just have a couple of beers. When I was with him I felt like I had to keep up." "I'm not sure. Maybe you felt like he wouldn't be as accepting of you if you weren't into what he was. To be honest, I never really enjoyed being around him. I always felt like I needed to watch my back." Justin sighed. "Once again you were right." You moved your arm so that you were now resting on your elbow staring down at Justin with his head on your pillow. "It not a matter of being right. It's a matter of not wanting him hitting on my husband." As you talked, your hand playfully pulled at the waistband of his boxers. "If anybody is gonna hit on you, it's gonna be me." He broke into laughter. "That was funny!" You had no idea what he was referring to. "What was funny?" "Its gonna be me. You know, like the song." You shook your head. "So you think its funny do you?" You sat up and straddled him and he anticipated your next move. "No Gary, please don't!" he pleaded. His pleas went unanswered as you began to tickle him. It wasn't until tears of laughter were streaming down his face that you halted your assault. "Had enough?" you teased him. He could only nod as he was still trying to catch his breath. You couldn't help but to tease him further. "Sorry, you're so winded. I was planning on making love to you, but guess I'll have to put that off until another time." He was still struggling to breathe, but a smile covered his face. "Give me a minute, just one minute. I'll be fine, I swear." You leaned down and gently kissed his lips. "I don't think I can wait that long." After being with him for almost 14 years, making love to him was just as exciting now as it had been in the early years. There was definitely something to be said for long term relationships. Sexually, you knew each other so well. Had you wanted to, you could have brought Justin to an orgasm within a few shorts minutes. You knew exactly where and how to touch him. You had even made a bet with Chris once when he mouthed off that `no matter how good you are, nobody can get to the finish line in under 5 minutes.' Three minutes later and $100.00 richer, you proved him wrong. Over the years, that had been necessary at times, with schedules so jam- packed that there was little time for romance. Tonight was not such and occasion. Tonight needed to be slow and gentle. A time of intimate passion, forgetting about the past and focusing only on the future. The touch of your lips on his still carried that same electrical charge, and you could feel yourself becoming hard even though the kiss was one of tenderness and not passion. He moaned softly as your hand ran across his chest, tweaking each nipple slightly as you did. Your lips returned to his, this time with passion. His mouth opened, welcoming your intrusion. Suddenly he pulled away and sat on the edge of the bed with his back to you. "Gary, we need to talk." "Now?" you asked in a shocked voice. "Yeah, before we go any further." He turned to face you and the smile had vanished. "Gary, we're gonna have to use protection. I was tested today at the counselor's office, but the results won't be back for a while. He gave me some condoms to use. I don't want you taking any chances. It's bad enough I put myself in this position." "I had no intention of taking any chances." You rubbed your hand gently across his cheek. " So can we continue now?" He looked at you as if you had not comprehended a word he had said. "Are you serious? Do you realize what we're talking about here?" You pulled him close to you. "Of course I do. I also realize that as much as I hate Nick Carter, I don't think he's stupid enough not to use protection on a regular basis. If he didn't, he'd be dead by now. Yes, there is still some risk and I'm not foolish enough to think that it couldn't happen, but to be honest I'm not really concerned. This fits Nick perfectly. He knows we've been together and exclusive for 14 years. Sex with you would be safe. Its just another perfect example of how Nick takes advantage of every available opportunity." You cupped your hands under his chin and brought his face close to yours. "Until your tests results come back we'll have to use protection. It's not the ideal situation, but we'll deal with it." Relief covered his face and he brought his lips to yours. "I love you, Gary." His lips touched yours and the hard-on that you had lost during your brief conversation returned immediately. You wanted him and needed him, almost as much as he needed you. As your lips still pressed tightly against his, you allowed your hands to begin to explore the body that had been absent for the past several days. It was like a rebirth, even though you had only been apart for less than two weeks. You were fully aware you had missed him emotionally, but until now you did not comprehend how much your body had yearned for this physical touch as well. As your fingers traced the outline of the muscles on his stomach, you found it almost impossible to take things slow. You wanted desperately to make love to him. To feel the tightness of his body around your rock hard cock. Allowing your fingers venture lower, they brushed over the soft hair of his love trail and you could feel the dampness of the pre-cum inside your boxers. Your hand slid beneath the waistband of his shorts and you could hear Justin moan softly as you removed them allowing you to see his throbbing organ. Within seconds your tongue was teasing him, running slowly up the length of his cock until finally your mouth enclosed around it and the familiar taste of leaking pre-cum excited you further. Justin's body quivered as he enjoyed every moment of your seductive game. Your gentle touch and warm caressing mouth was a haven for his body as well as his soul. His body ached to have you inside of him, not only for the physical pleasure, but for the reassurance. As it had been for the past 14 years, he needed to know the depth of your love. His insecurities had only heightened during your separation. You pushed his body to the edge several times, backing off only when you knew he was close to loosing control. While your mouth worked feverishly on his cock, your fingers had entered him amid soft moans and his whispers begging you for more. Finally, your willpower succumbed, and you stopped long enough to awkwardly slip a condom on your increasing impatient dick. You had never used one before, and weren't particularly thrilled about it now, but your body and mind were willing to compromise. With Justin on his back you pressed yourself against his waiting hole, pausing briefly knowing how eager he was for you to be inside him. "Gary please," he pleaded. "My God, you're driving me crazy. Don't stop now!" You entered him slowly and the two of you lay motionless for a moment savoring the intimacy. He ran his fingers softly across your ass and you began to slowly pump your dick inside the velvety softness of his tight ass. Again, with your hand stoking him and your dick rhythmically moving inside him, you brought his body to a frenzied state time and time again. You could not remember any time during the 14 years that you had been together making love for so long before allowing your bodies their final reward. Finally, you could feel his entire body constrict and his hot fluid shot onto your chest. As you plunged deeply inside him, his hands held your ass close to him as you body exploded time and time again. You collapsed onto his chest, both of you covered with sweat and unable to speak. The two of you stayed that way for several minutes, not saying a word. Not needing to. You wondered how long it would be before you had the strength to move. You had almost drifted off to sleep when Justin, trying desperately not to disturb you, got up and went to the bathroom. He returned moments later, with a warm moist towel and gently wiped the sweat and cum from your body. When he was finished, he curled up next to you and gently kissed you as he tossed the towel on the floor. Moments later you both were sleeping soundly, wrapped in each others arms. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Justin rolled over slowly and felt a gentle touch on his cheek. He opened his eyes to Mandi's face only inches from his. He glanced over at the clock on the night stand. 6:30!! He smiled widely at her and lifted her up so she could lay on top of the covers resting her head on his chest. "Girl, don't you ever sleep?" he teased. He was playing with her curls and nearly asleep, when the phone's ring startled him. "Hello?" he asked. It was 6:45. No one ever called at this time of day. All of your family and friends knew that you and Justin were not early risers. "Justin, its Chris. We're on our way to the hospital. Can we drop the boys off with you?" "Sure, no problem," Justin answered as he tapped lightly on your shoulder. "Would it be easier for us to come get them?" "No, your place is on the way to the hospital and Danni is, uumm how shall I say this….. ready to leave now." Justin chuckled. He knew Danni so well after all these years together. You knew she had this whole scenario orchestrated. Bags were packed, for her and the boys. Important phone numbers were posted on the frige, and extra meals had been made and frozen so that Chris could just re-heat them and the "gang" would be taken care of. That was Danni, she never missed a detail. "Well, just load the boys in the car. We'll fix breakfast for them when they get here." "Thanks Justin. We'll be there in about 15 minutes." Realizing that the tap on the shoulder had no effect, Justin leaned over and kissed your neck softly. "Hey, sleepyhead. You need to get up. We're about to have some company." "Company?" you mumbled. "Who's coming over at this hour?" "Chris is dropping the boys off," he answered as he struggled to pull on his boxers amid the twisted covers. "Danni's having the baby." Reluctantly, you sat up and ran your fingers through your hair. Damn, that bed had felt good. Then the realization hit you. Five kids! Justin had taken Mandi downstairs, no doubt to heat up a bottle for her, and you headed into the shower. The hot water was soothing. Last night had been exhausting and you were hoping the shower would work its magic and take the stiffness out of your weary body. You hurried your routine more than you would have liked knowing that shortly the boys would arrive and calm that was now present would vanish. As you stepped out of the shower you picked up on the scent of two of your morning favorites. Coffee was brewing and bacon was frying. You dried off quickly and threw on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt before heading downstairs hoping to enjoy a quick cup of coffee with Justin. You were too late. As you reached the landing to doorbell rang and before you could reach it, the door opened and in rushed Chris' two youngest boys each carrying a backpack evidently filled with essentials for an overnight trip. "Hi Uncle Gary," they yelled in unison as they ran past. "Hold on a minute you two, don't I even get a hug?" Both boys stopped in their tracks and ran back quickly, hugging you and nearly knocking you off your feet. "That's better" you informed them. Still, the third brother had yet to enter the house. "Darren where's Jarrod?" "He's in the car, talking to mom and dad. Then grinning he added, "He's in trouble." His timing couldn't have been worse as Danni now stood in the doorway. "Darren Christopher, come here! Shocked, he walked slowly over to Danni and softly said "Yes, ma'am?" "Do you think it's funny that your brother is in trouble?" "No, ma'am," he answered in his most innocent voice. Danni smiled at him "I didn't think so. Now why don't you see where Uncle Gary wants you to put your bags. "Hhhmm, let's see. How about we let Blake sleep with Kyle and you and Jarrod can share one of the guest bedrooms? Is that okay?" "Yes, sir" he said agreeably as he headed upstairs with his bag. You leaned over and kissed Danni's cheek. "You okay?" "I'm fine. We just didn't need Jarrod's attitude today, but I'm pretty sure Chris is taking care of that." She peered over your shoulder obviously looking for something. "Where is that precious angel?" At that moment Justin walked in from the kitchen with Mandi firmly planted on his hip. "I'm right here," Justin beamed. "Not you! I was talking about that beautiful baby girl." Mandi wiggled in Justin's arms and reached over hoping Danni would hold her. Other than you, Danni was the only person that Mandi would leave Justin for. Danni sat down to enjoy a few moments with Mandi when Chris and Jarrod came in from outside. It was obvious that Chris had come down on him pretty hard as the usual carefree demeanor was absent. "Sorry guys, we just had a little disagreement that we needed to clear up." Chris said apologetically as he glared at Jarrod. "We really appreciate you taking the boys. I know you kinda have your plate full right now." Justin put his arm around Chris' shoulder. "No problem, the more the merrier. Now why don't you and Danni get going. The boys will be fine." Chris gave Justin a hardy hug. "Thanks man, I know they will be." He turned to Danni. "You ready baby?" Danni laughed. "That's an understatement." With Danni and Chris out the door, Justin turned his attention to Jarrod. "You okay buddy?" "Yeah, I guess. Dad is just really mad at me for not wanting to come over here. He said I had an attitude and was being disrespectful." Justin was surprised. "Why didn't you want to come over here. We've always had a great time together." Jarrod realized how his comment must have sounded. "No, no, its nothing like that. I love spending time with you guys, but now I'm surrounded by little kids. I don't think I need a babysitter. I could have stayed home by myself." Justin grinned. "Well, if you hadn't come over, we would be missing out on some time to work on the album. I've got a couple of tracks I wanted you to listen to. I think we can probably use you on more than one of them if you'd be interested. I understand the pay is pretty good." "Oh my God!" Jarrod yelled loudly. "Are you serious? I'd do it for free. Do you know how awesome this is gonna be?" "I thought you might like the idea" Justin remarked as he dodged Mandi and Blake who were feverishly chasing each other throughout the house. "You know how to use the equipment in the studio, right?" Jarrod nodded excitedly. "Okay, listen to tracks four, eight and eleven and see what you can come up with. As soon Gary and I finish up with breakfast we'll buzz you on the intercom and you can grab something to eat. Then I'll listen to what you've done so far. Is that a deal?" Jarrod was already headed out the backdoor to the studio. "Sounds great! Thanks Uncle Justin." You walked up to Justin with a freshly brewed cup of coffee just as he and Jarrod has finished talking. "What is he thanking `Uncle Justin' for?" Justin took a sip of his coffee, heavily doctored up with extra cream and sugar before he answered. "Nothing much really. I just told him to go listen to a couple of tracks for the new album and see what he could come up with. I think we can use him on more than one." "Justin, do you think he's ready for that? He's only 12." "Almost 13," he reminded you. "Gary, he's very good and he needs a little something extra right now. I think he's kinda overwhelmed being the oldest kid with all these little ones. Think about it. He's got 2 younger brothers and baby sister coming home in a few days. On top of that, every time we all get together the kids kinda pair up and he's left out of it, except to help take care of them." "You got a point there. I just hope he isn't in over his head." "Gary, the three tracks that I'm having him listening to are easy. I'm not gonna set him up to fail. He'll be fine." You looked around the den which was now filled with legos and matchbox cars. Kyle had heard the commotion and now joined the others. You found it amazing how quickly four kids could destroy a room. You looked at Justin as he continued to sip on his coffee and commented jokingly, "Jarrod may be fine, but what about us?" 48 hours later, your life had returned to normal. Danni had easily given birth to Ashley Danielle Kirkpatrick, who just might be the most beautiful newborn you had even seen. The boys had stayed with you an extra day, allowing Chris and Danni some quiet time alone to get settled in with Ashley, and other than their constant quest for food, the boys had been no problem. Justin had been right. Jarrod had sounded great when he had played along with the three chosen tracks and Chris beamed as he listened to his eldest son. Remarkably, you had even had some time to discuss with Justin the upcoming court appearance requested by the judge and although you could have predicted his initial reaction, he was resigned to making the best of the situation. Tuesday would not be pleasant, but you both had survived unpleasantness before. Justin had met again with his counselor and he began to speak more freely to you about the issues that had haunted him over the years. You had always known he was insecure, but now Justin was able to see it as well, and more importantly could discuss why. To be continued....