Date: Sun, 14 Jan 2001 02:25:48 From: Purple Raven Subject: Friends and Lovers 11 Hey all .... Here it is those who still remember it atleast.. Raven aka Sorcha.. Friends and Lovers Disclaimers: Okay this is not real and if you think it is you have serious problems.. If you are under 18 leave and never look back... Raven...AKA Sorcha The story line is moving faster know... I got bored ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Kevin rocked the light of his life in his arms as he sang I'll never break your heart, Raven's favorite song to her. She loved that song it was the only thing that calmed her down even in the hospital she needed to hear his voice if she was going to sleep. The nurses had him record some songs for her, and they told him that it was her favorite they repeated it at night softly by her crib until she fell asleep. "She sleeping?" AJ's voice came floating over the room. "Yeah.." Kevin answered rising and placing her in the crib. "Why aren't you?" "He called again." "Did you talk to him?' 'No I told Tera to tell him I wasn't here." "AJ you need to talk to him, you owe it to her." 'That is just dirty." 'I know and I'm sorry but you need him." "No I need to feel loved and safe." "He does love you." "Kevin I love him, but I don't trust him." "Talk to him, tell him that." "Why?" 'Because she wanted you to be happy and well your name sake deserves it to." Kevin replied closing the door to her room. "Are you taking her home?" AJ asked changing the subject. "I don't know and stop changing the subject." Kevin admonished "Sorry" AJ ducked his head. " I should call him." "Yeah, you have the number to his hotel?" "Memorized." AJ replied, as they walked down the hall past the front entryway, Kevin picked up the phone, "Here call him." Brian rolled over and cuddled close to Nick they were in his Orlando apartment, the only two members of Backstreet home. Brian loved the feel of Nick in his arms, the joy he felt when he woke and saw his baby sleeping there beside him. Nick moaned in his sleep and pulled himself closer to Brian, his hands grasping and teasing him. "Nick" Brian shook him, pulling away from his sleeping lover. When he didn't answer, Brian shook harder, "Nick!" he raised his voice, still the young blond slept and played with him. "NICK!" Brian yelled, scrambling out of the bed when he realized that his lovers hands were no longer on the outside of his sleep pants, but in then fondling him. "What?" a groggy Nick asked as he shook his head, "Brian why are you standing in the cold?' "You were dreaming." 'So?" "A sexual dream." "Brian what is it?" 'Nick we don't know yet?" 'I know and I'm sorry but God Brian." 'Don't take his name in vain." 'Sorry Brian I love you and you excite me," "So?" 'I can't touch you, and you sleep with me every night I know that you are there." "I'll sleep elsewhere." 'No, I can't sleep if you are not here." Nick replied. "Nick I can't keep doing this, I want you so much and we don't even know yet." "Whether or not I have it." 'Yeah Nick we both can't be sick." 'So I won't kiss you." "Nick" "What we can make out without kissing." "Nick when you touch me I have to kiss you or the neighbors would hear." "Oh." 'I love you." Brian said as he sat back on the bed. "Stay with me." Nick flipped open the covers and beckoned him. "We go tomorrow." "Yeah the doctor will know tomorrow." Nick mumbled already half asleep. His warm body surrounding Brian's. AJ stared at the phone in his hand, he wanted to call him he needed to hear that voice so soft and sexy whispering to him as he fell asleep. "Push the buttons, the phone should work." Tera said as she came upon him, Kevin had left him alone and gone to bed so that he could catch some shuteyes, as it was his night to be up with Kaylyn. "I know." "He loves you call him." "What if I wake him?" 'Then he'll be sleepy and will still talk to you." 'I want to so much." AJ wrestled with himself, Tera grabbed the phone and dialed the number, handing it to him. "It's ringing." "Hi, could I be connected to room 879?" AJ asked when the desk clerk answered the phone. Tera left him alone, going back to her cat and her room. "Hi.." a groggy Howie answered the phone. "Howie?" Hearing his husbands voice Howie sat up and cradled the phone close to his ear. "Yeah." "I wanted to hear your voice, does that make me weak?" "No it makes you human, we both are." 'I know but it hurts so much." 'I know and I wish that I could take it all back. I wish that I could be the husband that you needed me to be." 'Howie I still love you." "I'm so glad to hear that. I love you to." "Can we have lunch tomorrow/"? 'Yeah that would be nice. Where/" "I don't know I'll call you in the morning." "Kay, I love you." Howie replied glad to hear his voice and know that he was willing to talk to him. "Howie can you sing to me?" "Sure what do you want to hear?" "Anything in Spanish." AJ replied as he opened the door to his room, and walked over to the bed. "Lay down and get comfortable." "I am." AJ replied as he pulled the covers up to his chest. Howe began to sing the words to Spanish eyes and AJ closed his eyes his breathing steady and even, Howie stopped singing and hung up the phone quickly dialing Kevin's cell. "Howie why are you calling me?" 'Go and hang up the phone. Alex has it." Howie replied before he hung up. Kevin smiled and climbed out of bed, he walked softly down the hall, opened AJ's door and padded over to the bed, grabbed the phone out of his hand and quickly left closing the door on his way out, and taking it into his room. He flopped onto the bed and quickly fell back asleep. Howie climbed back under the covers and cuddled to the pillow, he had sprayed it with Alex's cologne, and he couldn't sleep unless he was holding it. It was a poor substitute for his husband but it was the only one that he had. At least he was going to be able to see him tomorrow, and be near him. Even if Alex wouldn't let him touch him he would be happy to be near him. The joy at being able to see his husband, to be given the chance to fix it, make it all better, had Howie calm enough to finally sleep. **************************** Brian paced the floor in the waiting room, of the doctor's office he wanted to be with him to hold him, he needed to feel and see that he was okay. "Mr. Littrell?" "Yes." Brian turned to the nurse. "He's fine, he'll be right out." "Thanks." Brain flashed her his stunning grin. "Hey that is my smile." Nick said as he walked out the door, he reached Brian and pulled him into his arms. "They'll know in a few days, but he says that I probably do have it, so no kissing." "You have mono?" 'Probably, I'll be fine it's not fatal." "Tired?" 'Yeah can we go home and sleep?" 'Sure, I'd love to hold you, after. >" "You call Kevin and see how they are?" 'Yeah." Brian pulled his younger blond lover out the door after him. After he tucked Nick into bed, Brian reached for the phone and dialed the now familiar number. "Hello/" "Hey Tera is Kev around?" 'Yeah he's in the living room with Kaylyn." "Can I talk to him? 'Sure let me go get him." 'If he's sleeping get AJ instead." 'AJ is out with Howie." 'Really?" 'Yeah they went to dinner." 'Great they are talking then?" 'First time today." 'Ah. So they haven't made up yet?" 'Nope but Kevin isn't giving up." 'Good, I'd, we'd be there." 'How is he?" 'Probably Mono." "Ahhhhh, he'll be fine." 'I know that but he is my life and I can't bear him to be sick." Brian glanced back into the room and watched his lover sleeping. "Here's Kevin, he's half awake." Tera's voice brought Brian back to the land of the conscious. "Hey coz." "Hi Kev, how is she/" 'Better, she sleeps a lot more and she gained all the weight that she needed to, she's eats more and I love her so much." 'Are you going to be able to leave her?" "I have to, Tera is better for her, she has a stable life and a job that doesn't take her to the far ends of the earth for eight months at a time." "But she isn't family." 'She is to me, and to Kaylyn." "To you?" "I know that isn't what you want to hear, but she is family, she takes care of both of us." 'How so?" 'Tera made sure that I slept and ate while Kay was in the hospital, she looks out for me." "That is good...." "Brian I'm not saying that she is going to replace Raven, but she is there and she loves my daughter, and she knows so much more about Raven then I do, she grew up with her that is what my little girl needs." Kevin finished, glancing down at the angle that was sleeping in his arms. "When are you coming back?" 'Why are you ready to go and record?" 'Sort of, but Nick isn't" 'Why?" 'He's sick," 'Brian are you okay?" 'Yeah, he probably just has mono." "Oh... do you need me?" 'Not as much as your little girl, stay with her, and please fix those uncles of hers." "I'm trying." "Good, tell them that I called, I need to go hold him." 'Alright, hug him for all of us, I'll send more pictures soon." "You better, you mom is chomping at the bit." 'I know I talked to her earlier." "See you soon." 'Hopefully." Kevin replied, mumbling under his breath not, as he hung up. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ AJ sat in the restaurant, he was early, really early, and nervous. Who ever thought that he would ever be nervous about seeing his husband. "Hi." Howie said, standing in front of him. "HI, sit." AJ motioned to the chair. 'Thanks." Howie sat. "How are you?" "Better know that I see you." 'Don't" 'What?" 'Please don't be charming, I hate that." "Why?" 'I makes it hard to hate you." 'Do you?" "Hate you, sometimes, and yet I love you." 'I love you to." 'I don't trust you though." AJ replied, his eyes full of pain. "I want you to trust me, I need that, but I know that I have to re-earn that trust, so help me tell me what to do." "I need to have space, I need to be able to think, and when we see each other I need to decide that at least for now." "I can do that." 'Howie, I need to be back in the studio, I'm going home. I plan to stay with Brian and Nick if they will let me." "Kay." "I want to be able to see you, come back with me, we go slow." "I was hoping that you'd ask." Howie smiled, AJ missed that lovely smile so much, and he wished that his heart would let him reach out and touch the man he loved across from him. "Do you still want to have supper?" 'Yes, I do." AJ replied, picking up his menu. Howie reached for his and casually brushed against AJ's hand. "Don't" 'AJ please, don't ask that of me." 'Why not?" 'Because I missed touching you," 'Nothing intimate." "I understand." Howie agreed. The conversation strayed to music and Howie's family, how they missed AJ and how he missed them, they stayed away from their relationship for the rest of the night, and Howie waved goodbye to his husband as he drove away in the cab after supper. %%%%%%%%%%%%% Kevin was sitting in the living room waiting for AJ when he walked in the door. He wanted to know how the date went and what they had decided. \ "Hi Kev, We're going home, and not together." "At least you are going home with him, you both need the time." Kevin replied. "What is this, Kevin you must be sick you aren't pushing anymore." 'No I still want you two to work things out, but I decided that Raven wouldn't like me pushing so I'm backing off for now." Kevin qualified. "I get it." AJ laughed. "Brian called" "How are they?" "Nick could have mono, and Brian's worried." "Ahhhhh, they are so cute." 'You are to." 'Kevin." 'Sorry couldn't resist." 'I know" AJ replied they all knew that Kevin wouldn't be Kevin unless he tried to fix all their problems. $$$$$$$$$$$$ End for know... Sorcha.. Comments to purpleraven81@hotmail.com