Date: Mon, 28 May 2001 17:36:03 -0700 (PDT) From: Mel J Subject: Games Of Desire-Chapter 8 Disclaimer! I dont know Nsync or BSB and this has no reflection on them or there sexuality or sexual preference. I have gotten great feedback and I really appreciate it. Sorry it took so long to update!-Mel Games of Desire-Chapter 8 By Mel 2001 The next day, both groups were surprisingly subdued. The only two people that seemed unaffected by anything was Brian and Joey. They seemed oblivious to the undercurrants effecting everyone else. Nick and Chris exchanged uneasy glances. With all the tension, they didnt know if they should do what they had planned, but there was no going back. For the first time in a long time, Nick surprised Kevin by calling a group meeting during a break in recording. It was so unlike Nick, and that made Kevin nervous. He didnt like surprises. Once everyone sat down and gave them his full attention, Nick spoke. "I have wanted to tell you this for a long time. Some of you know, others dont. For starters, I am gay." He watched everyone's face as it sunk in. Howie and Aj of course were not surprised But Kevin and Brian just stared at him. "Your what?!" Kevin spat. His hands shook. He didnt know why he was so upset, It wasnt like he was straight himself. Brian finally closed his mouth. His only problem was that Nick waited this long to confide in them. It hurt his feelings. "I am gay. But that is not all." Kevin looked at Nick with fearfull eyes. He wasnt sure he wanted to know. "I have been seeing Chris from Nsync for a year now." Kevin shot up. "YOU WHAT!" he bellowed. Aj got up and grabbed a shoulder. "Calm down. It's not like your so innocent yourself." Aj's words made him pause. Now it was Nick's turn to be surprised. Kevin turned red and stalked out of the room. "What was that about?" Nick asked, his heart pounding. He honestly didnt expect such a violent reaction from Kevin, he had been more worried about Brian's reaction. "I will let Kevin tell you that when he is ready." Aj said, and gave Nick a hug. Howie joined in. When they pulled away, Brian still hadent said a word. "Brian?" "Why didnt you tell me?!" His voice was full of pain. In another room, Chris was getting ready to tell his bandmates about Nick. They all knew he was gay, but He didnt know how they would react to him telling them it was Nick he was seeing, Nick he was in love with. He honestly didnt think they would have a real problem, it was the uncertaintly that made him worried. "what is it?" Joey asked gently, seeing Chris shake. They all looked at him. Chris took a deep breath. "I am seeing someone." "It's about damn time." Jc said, smiling. Chris just shook his head. "You dont understand. I am seeing, have been for a year, Nick ...Carter." He couldnt look his bandmates in the eye, he was too scared of their reaction. "Holy Shit." Lance couldnt believe it. The rest of the band echoed his words. Chris steeled himself. "Why didnt you tell us?" Justin's words were soft. He knew this was hard on his friend, he didnt want to make it any harder, so he swallowed his hurt. "I was afraid with all the rivalry between the two bands, plus Nick wanted to keep it quiet for a while, not because he was ashamed but he didnt know how Brian and Kevin would handle it." Justin was aware that Chris had not mentioned Aj or Howie. Interesting. One by one, his friends came up and they all hugged him. Even when things got difficult, they supported eachother. Chris was grateful. But also worried. Not for himself but for Justin and Jc. He had seen the expression on Justin's face when he had mentioned Kevin. He had a feeling his announcement wasnt going to be the hardest problem they had ever faced. Nick sat down next to his friend. "I was afraid of what you would say. And to be honest, you have been so busy with Leighanne, I didnt know if you would even care." Brian's head shot up. He saw the pain on Nick's face. He realized that Nick was right. He was afraid to speak, so he just turned and hugged his friend. Howie and Aj discreetly left. They had a lot to talk about. They knew it was just a matter of time before they would have to let Kevin and Brian know about them as well. Kevin was pacing up and down in his room. He was so proud of Nick, and jealous. He wished he had the courage to come out and say what he was feeling. He wheeled around when he heard a knock on the door. He opened it, yanking hard, and came face to face with Justin. Oh shit. He felt his cock rise to the occasion, unable to control it. Justin just stared. Kevin's tight jeans hugged his body, and Justin had to bite back a moan of his own. Damn. "I came to see if you were ok. Chris told us." He explained seeing the confusion on Kevin's face. Kevin stiffened, then relaxed. "Yeah. I am ok." Justin shifted from one foot to the other. Kevin realised that they were having this conversation in the hall. " Sorry, come on in." Justin entered the room, and Kevin closed the door behind him. Ever since their conversation in the bathroom, they had formed a truce of sorts, but they didnt know what to do next. Kevin was concious of Justin's nearness. "You sure your ok?" Justin asked. He could feel Kevin's tensness. He sat down next to Kevin. Kevin turned, and realized how close Justin's mouth was to his.. oh god, how he wanted to kiss him. Justin stared. He clenched his fists, trying to fight his rising desire. It didnt work. He couldnt help it any longer. His lips touched Kevin's. It was like throwing a match on gasoline. They both went up in flames. Nick and Chris met in their hotel room, and within seconds they were in eachother's arms. They sank on the bed, and just cuddled, both relaying what had happened. They were so relieved to finally have let everyone know. "I love you so very much" Chris whispered, spooning Nick. Nick turned his head, kissing his lover. "I love you too, baby." The kiss deepened. Love and desire flowed over both of them. Now that everyone knew it was like a wieght was off their shoulders, and that just made them want the other one even more. It was going to be a long night. Lance knew where Justin had gone. He knew that it wouldnt take long for Justin to make up his mind, and after sampling Kevin the night before, he knew that Jc didnt stand a chance. So he made his move. He followed JC, waiting until the right moment to speak. "You ok?" Jc jumped. Lance smiled sheepishly. "I am sorry, I didnt mean to scare you." Jc smiled back, but the smile didnt reach his eyes. "It's ok. and no, I am not. I am losing him, Lance." His voice was choked with tears. They sat down by the hotel pool, bodyguards a discreet distance away. Lance let JC cry on his shoulder for a minute, until no more tears came. "Thank you, for bieng here." Lance smiled. "I am always here for you, Josh. Always." Jc searched Lance's green eyes. He found himself drowining in them. His body was on fire. Justin moaned in his throat as Kevin's tongue attacked his. His hands tangled in Kevin's hair, urging him closer. Kevin could barely breathe, and didnt care. He needed more. More of Justin. As if reading his mind, Justin slid his hands under Kevin's teeshirt. Holy shit. That was Kevin's last rational thought.