Date: Thu, 26 Feb 2004 22:50:54 -0500 From: JT Poole Subject: Boybands - If I Ain't Got You - Chapter 12 Warnings and Disclaimers: 1) If reading this is in any way illegal in your town, state or zip code because of your age, religion, or other government rules you shouldn't read this. 2) If you don't want to read about male/male gay sexual relationships, go away. You shouldn't waste your time with this story. 3) I don't know any of the members of 'N Sync, or any other celebrities that may be mentioned in this story. This story in no way is meant to imply anything about 'N Sync, and any other celebrities sexualities, personalities, or anything else. This is a work of pure fiction. Questions and commentary can be sent to "jtpoole9@cybersouth.com". I want to hear from everyone out there that is reading this story, tell me what you think whether it is bad or good. ====================================== If I Ain't Got You -- Chapter 12 by JT Poole // The House of Nurse Angela Sebastian // "You have some explaining to do Kevin, what was going on with you two?" Angela asked, sitting across from Kevin in her living room. "Please Nikki, that's something I don't really want to get into." Kevin spoke. "You don't want to get into? You better get into something before I kick you out." Angela spoke, standing up. "Please Angela, that's a part of my life that's quite complicated." Kevin spoke. "Complicated? How complicated?" Angela asked. "Complicated enough that I really don't know how to handle it." Kevin spoke. "Kevin are you gay?" Angela spoke. "No I'm not gay." Kevin spoke. "But that guy was all over you like a cheap fur." Angela spoke, walking past Kevin as she paced back and forth. "You kissed him." "I didn't kiss him, he kissed me." Kevin spoke, getting up now. "Before I noticed you were there, you should have seen me push him away. It's not what you were thinking." "What am I supposed to think Kevin? You talk to me, and then you kiss me on the cheek. You asked me to go out to dinner with you and then I see you in the hospital lobby with a guy kissing all over you like he was your man or something. Talk to me Kevin, I want to know what's going on." Angel spoke, not taking a breath. "I know how it looks but I promise you, I have or want anything to do with JC." Kevin spoke. "I hope you are not lying to me Kevin, if you are I would hate to be you." Angela spoke, walking down the hall. "I am going to shower, I will be out shortly, then I will be ready to go." "I'll be here waiting patiently for you Angela." Kevin spoke, sitting down, holding his face in his hands. "Oh great, that was close. How am I going to break that part of my life to her? I like her and want to be with her, but my past is still out there. Sooner or later it will all hit the fan and she will hate me for it." // Florida Hospital -- The Veranda -- Close to 9 PM // "Justin, Justin are you in here?" Kasai asked, walking out into the Veranda. "Hello, is there anyone in here?" "Shhhh. He's sleeping." Justin stated, still rubbing his fingers in Nick's hair. "I'm sorry Justin, not trying to wake anyone up. Everyone is looking for you." Kasai spoke, sitting across from Justin. "Daddy J and your mom thought something had happened to you somewhere in the hospital or that you had ran away from the hospital or something. " "No, nothing's wrong, everything seems a little bit better in my life now." Justin spoke, looking down at Nick and smiling. "Is he okay?" Kasai asked. "Did something happen?" "He fell asleep a while ago. We were sitting here talking." Justin spoke. "He was telling me about the current events in his life and I guess that took too much out of him." "Oh. Well sit tight, I am going to call Daddy J and let him know where you are." Kasai got up out of the chair and walked towards the door. // Back inside // "Oh God Oh God. He's find Nick, he likes him." Kasai spoke to himself, walking down the hall with tears in his eyes. "There goes my shot with Justin." "What did you say little man?" Steve asked, bumping into Kasai. "I didn't say anything." Kasai spoke in a rush. "Justin is in the Veranda with Nick Carter. Call Daddy J and let him know. I'm outta here." "Kasai are you okay?" Steve asked. "I'm fine." Kasai stated, running away from Steve crying. "What the hell? Kasai! Kasai come back here." Steve stated, running after Kasai down the hall. "Leave me alone Steve, I want to be alone." Kasai stated, walking down the hall that leads outside. "What's wrong with you little man?" Steve asked. "Nothing's wrong with me." Kasai spoke, sitting down. "Oh something is wrong, Talk to me kid." Steve stated, setting next to Kasai. "Nothing's wrong Steve, nothing at all." Kasai spoke as he burst into tears. "Everything's wrong." "Kasai what's the matter?" Steve asked, hugging Kasai. "Nothing, everything." Kasai spoke through his tears. "You are not making any sense." Steve spoke. "Does this have anything to do with what you saw back there with Justin and Nick?" "No, yes." Kasai spoke. "Okay you are starting to confuse me. Which is it, no or yes?" Steve asked. "Yes it has to do with what I saw back there with Nick and Justin." Kasai spoke. "What's wrong?" Steve asked. "I like Justin. I wish I was the one he was liking." Kasai spoke, still crying. "I'm sorry little man, but you are way too young for Justin. He's a grown man." Steve said, hugging Kasai close to his chest. "I love him." Kasai spoke just as Mark walked around the corner. "You love who?" Mark asked, walking over to where Kasai and Steve were sitting. "Did you say `I love him'? Who is Him?" "Oh God." Kasai stated, pulling away from Steve and running down the hall out of the building. "Oh great Mark, you upset him. He's upset enough as it is." Steve spoke. "What the hell is going on? What did you do to my son?" Mark asked. "I didn't do anything to him. You need to go talk to him and tell him everything will be okay and maybe he will open up to you." Steve stated. "What's your problem Steve? Why do we end up arguing all the fucking time?" Mark asked. "I don't know, could it be that you are a pompous jerk?" Steve asked, turning and walking away from Mark. "Go find him and talk to him Mark." // Justin's Room // "Is there any sign of him yet?" Lynn asked, walking over to JT. "None at the moment." JT spoke. "He couldn't have gotten far without help from someone here in the hospital." "Where could he possibly be? Oh God I hope he isn't hurt somewhere in this hospital." Lynn stated as JT's cell phone went off. "Hello, JT here." JT spoke. "JT I have found Justin. He's here in the Veranda." Steve spoke. "Well wait are you waiting for..." JT spoke as Steve cut him off. "JT listen, he's here with Nick Carter. They are here together. Just call off the search party and let him stay here a while longer with Nick." Steve spoke. "What are you saying Steve?" JT asked. "It looks to me, those two made a connection." Steve spoke sighing. "Don't break it just yet, let them have some time." "Oh alright. I will call everyone else, but you make sure you stay close by just in case something else happens. Don't let them leave there." JT spoke hanging up the phone. "Was that about Justin?" Lynn asked as Lance, Marshall and Christina walked into the room. "I have seen him at all." Marshall spoke. "Neither have I." Lance spoke. "You can all rest now. Justin is down in the Veranda." JT spoke. "Well let's go get him." Lynn spoke. "That's not necessary. He will be brought up later." JT spoke. "Is there something going on?" Lynn asked. "Let's just say Justin is in the middle of a therapy session." JT spoke. "I will tell you more about this later, Right now, I must go down to check to make sure things are going okay." "May I come along?" Lynn asked, worried about Justin. "I don't care what he's doing, I just want to make sure that he's okay." "I think it would be wise for you to just stay here." JT spoke, moving towards the door. "Justin should be back here very shortly." "Okay JT, I guess I will stay here. " Lynn spoke, sitting down in the chair next to Justin's bed. // Outside in the Parking Garage // "What the hell is wrong with you Kasai?" Mark asked, grabbing Kasai by the arm, spinning him around. "Leave me alone Daddy Mark, just go away." Kasai spoke, walking away. "I am not going away. What's up with you? You have been acting strange for the last couple of days. Are you in some kind of trouble?" Mark asked. "No I am not in any trouble Daddy Mark, just leave me alone please." Kasai stated, breaking down, crying in front of Mark. "Oh God Kai, what's wrong?" Mark asked, wrapping his arms around Kasai holding him. "You won't understand, you just won't understand." Kasai stated, crying into Mark's chest. "What won't I understand. Just talk to me buddy." Mark stated. "I can't, I just can't." Kasai spoke. "Look buddy, I know I haven't been one of the easiest people to talk to lately, but I'm here for you Kai, just talk to me." Mark stated, kissing Kasai on his forehead. "I'm in love with someone and they don't love me." Kasai blurted it all out, crying harder now on Mark's chest. ""Lisa doesn't love you and you lover her?" Mark asked. "No, no, no, it's not Lisa." Kasai spoke. "Then who is it?" Mark asked. "Justin Timberlake." Kasai spoke. "Justin Timberlake? Kai, he's a guy. I'm I missing something here?" Mark asked. "Daddy Mark I'm gay." Kasai spoke. "Are you sure buddy?" Mark asked. "Yes I'm sure. I'm sure as a heart attack." Kasai stated, wiping his face on his shirtsleeve. "Be honest with me Kai. Have you had sex with someone?" Mark asked, looking at Kasai closely. "Daddy Mark, I don't want to answer that questions." Kasai spoke. "Why won't you answer that question? Sounds like you have already done the deed already." Mark spoke. "I don't understand Kai, what about Lisa?" "Daddy Mark things have changed. I don't have the same feelings for her anymore." Kasai spoke. "Is it something we did?" Mark asked. "Something who did?" Kasai asked. "Is it seeing me and JT together corrupted you?" Mark asked, looking at Kasai strangely. "What! No, you and Daddy J had nothing to do with my feelings." Kasai spoke. "Then why are you standing here telling me you are gay? You can't just wake up one day and say you're gay." Mark stated, turning away from Kasai. "Daddy Mark, oh what's the use." Kasai spoke, running off away from Mark. "Kasai come back here!" Mark screamed out to him. "Oh great, what have I just done?" // The House of Angela Sebastian // "Kevin I have changed my mind. I think I would rather stay in tonight." Angela spoke, walking out of the room wearing a pair of sweats. "Okay Angela, I guess I should leave." Kevin spoke. "If you want to leave you can, I am going to call and have some food delivered. You are welcomed to stay and chat with me." Angela stated, picking up the phone and dialing some numbers. "Are you sure Angela?" Kevin asked. "I'm sure. The choice is yours. You can seat here and get to know me or you can go and find that JC guy and let him hang all over you. It's your decision." Angela spoke with sarcasm dripping from each of her words. "Angela please." Kevin spoke. "Please what?" Angela asked. "I'm totally confused with you Kevin. Tell me the truth, I still have this aching feeling that you are not being totally honest with me." "Angela I have been honest with you. There's nothing you have to worry about. I want to get to know you and see what can possibly happen between us." Kevin spoke. "I don't think you have been completely honest Kevin, my women's intuition is telling me that you and JC had some kind of relationship." Angela spoke. "Okay Angela, I have said my peace. You can either believe me or not." Kevin spoke, getting up now. "Well I believe you have left pieces out of your story. Like the stuff you told me about Nick. If he's gay then I am quite sure you can be implicated to with the things I saw in the hospital lobby earlier. All this stuff is telling me that you are gay or at least bisexual." Angela spoke. "Angela could we stop talking about this please?" Kevin asked, getting upset a little bit. "Fine, if it's a touchy subject, we can talk about something else." Angela spoke. "Why don't you tell me about the relationship you and Nick didn't have." "What?" Kevin asked. "What do you mean?" "Tell me about the relationship that you and Nick didn't have." Angela spoke. "Me and Nick didn't have a relationship." Kevin spoke. "We are only friends, almost like brothers." "Well I can understand that, but Nick wanted more from you." Angela spoke, walking over to the fireplace still looking at Kevin. "Kevin your past doesn't really matter to me, I just don't want to get hurt in the end. He's in love with you and I am sure that the JC guy is too. That's enough to make anyone think you had a shaky past." "Well considering that I am here with you and not with him or Nick, what does that tell you?" Kevin asked. "You saw me push him away when he kissed me, you heard the stuff I said. Isn't that enough for you Angela?" "I don't know Kevin, I don't fully know what I am getting myself into. I feel like you are hiding a great deal from me Kevin and basically, you seem like someone that I would be happy with, but would you be happy with me? Can you honestly answer that question?" "You are a nice and beautiful young woman, of course I would be happy with you." Kevin spoke. "Do I have the right equipment for you?" Angela asked. "What is that supposed to mean Angela?" Kevin asked. "Just what it means. Do I have the correct equipment for you Kevin?" Angela asked, sitting next to Kevin. "Angela I refuse to answer that question because it's a stupid one." Kevin stated. "Do you want me to stay here with you or do you prefer it better if I left?" "I would like it if you stayed, but Kevin promise me that you won't hurt me." Angela spoke. "That's something I can't promise you Angela. I don't think anyone would be able to make that promise to you or anyone else for that matter." Kevin stated, getting up, heading to the door. "Where are you going Kevin?" Angela asked. "I think I better just go. I don't think this was a good idea." Kevin spoke, opening the door and walking out of Angela's house. // Back at the Hospital -- Nick's Room // "Aaron where's your brother?" Jane asked, walking into the room. "I just got a call from someone here saying that he hasn't been back here for over two hours." "He's downstairs on that patio thing." Aaron asked. "And you left him down there?" Jane asked, walking over to Aaron. "Are you out of your mind?" "No mom, he told me to leave him alone. I left him alone." Aaron stated. "You know in his condition, he could possibly do anything to himself while he's by himself." Jane stated. "He's not alone, Justin Timberlake's with him." Aaron spoke, flipping the page in the magazine he was reading. "You left him with Justin Timberlake, why?" Jane asked. "Because I think Justin can help him mom. I told you how he was the other day in the therapy session. As soon as he saw Justin and heard his voice, he was trying to snap out of it." Aaron spoke, getting up. "I think Justin can help him mom, let him." "How so Aaron?" Jane asked. "Nick's gay and so is Justin. They both have been through a lot of crap lately and I think they need each other." Aaron stated. "Aaron..." Jane called out. "Just let things happen mom, and don't interfere with them." Aaron stated, walking out of the room. // Down in the Veranda // --- Justin's POV --- I feel so content right now with Nick lying here in my lap. I know he might think I feel pity for him, but I don't. From what he says, he's gone through a lot lately. I just don't know what to say about what Brian did to him. I was taught never to wish death on someone, but to force yourself on someone as innocent as Nick is just wrong. This beautiful angel deserves better than that. I just wish I was able give him what he really needs. "Nick, Nick wake up." I whisper to him, placing a kiss on the side of his face. "Huh, what's going on?" He asked me, sitting up, wrapping his arms around me. "You fell asleep." I tell him, holding his hand in mine. "How do you feel Nick?" "Okay Justin. I feel a little better now." He tells me, hugging me again. "How long have we been here?" "I don't know Nick, I think I have been here about an hour or so. You were here longer than me." I tell him. "I think I will tell someone to bring me a watch so I can keep track of time." "Who cares about time, I have you here with me and I could care less about the time." He tells me just as the door opens and JT and Steve walk into the room. "So here you are." JT spoke to me. "You know your mother is having a fit about you being missing for the last couple of hours?" "That's ma for you. I should have told someone I was coming in here. I just wanted to get away and be by myself." I tell him. "Well seems you are not by yourself. How are you doing?" JT asks me. "Okay, just keeping my new friend here company." I tell him, grabbing Nick' s hand again and placing a kiss on it. "Hello Mr. Carter." JT speaks to him. "I just got a call from Jane Carter, trying to find out where her son was. I assured her you were okay. I assume she has calmed down some." "I hope so, I am happy right now and want to stay that way." Nick spoke to JT, looking strangely at him. "Who are you?" "I am JT, Justin's physical therapist and soon to be counselor." JT spoke to us. "You are, what happened to Danielle?" I ask him. "Well she's going to be only dealing with the patients that need her help, you don't need her, you need to get your bottom up and walk." He tells me laughing. "I thought you told me you couldn't walk?" Nick asked me, looking at me with a somewhat strange look on his face. "I can't walk." I tell him. "But he just said..." I cut him off. "I can't walk, but I might be able to regain the ability to walk one day, I just have to work at it." I tell him, causing his strange look to turn into a small smile. "Okay, for a second there, I thought you were lying to me." He spoke, leaning over, placing a kiss on my cheek. "Are you two somehow romantically link." JT asked, sitting down in front of us. "I think we are." I tell him, turning to look at Nick. "Only if he wants me like I want him." Nick speaks, looking down at our entwined hands. "You know I want you, that's something you never have to wonder about." I tell him, leaning over, placing a kiss on his lips, causing him to blush. "Well I hate to cut this short, but I have to get you back to your room." JT tells me as Steve gets up and helps me back into the wheelchair. "Please JT don't do this right now, can I stay a little longer with Nick?" I ask him, pleading with my eyes. "Right now you can't, the only thing I can suggest is you two take this up to your room. I must warn you that your mother is there and she's a little worried about you right now, so she might not agree with this right now." JT tells me. "Well the way I feel right now, she's going to have to deal with it or else. I just found Nick and I am not letting him get away from me." I tell him. "Don't worry about me Justin, I am not going to get away form you." Nick tells me, kissing me on the cheek as Steve pushed me towards the door. "I will be thinking about you Justin." "I will be thinking about you too Nick." I tell him as we exited the room. // Orlando Police Department // "I don't care what the deal is, get your ass down here and get me out of jail." Brian stated, talking on the phone to someone. "Sorry Brian, there's nothing I can do right now. You are stuck until your hearing in the morning." Alexander James McLean stated over the phone. "Get your ass up and come bail me out." Brian stated, looking around the jail cell. "I can't come get you Bri, sorry, but you should have thought about what you were doing before you did it. You are staying put until your hearing. I hope the judge throws the fucking book at you!" "What the fuck! I told you I didn't do anything. It's all a lie, a bold face lie!" Brian yelled as the police officer returned and grabbed the phone from his hand. "Hey I wasn't finished!" "Oh you are finished touch guy." The officer stated, hanging up the phone and walking away. "Hey guy, what you in for?" One of the guys behind Brian asked. "I'm here for nothing. I didn't do anything and these bozos lock me up because someone can't handle the fucking truth." Brian spoke, walking away from the guy and sitting on the other side of the room. "Hey guy we all get arrested for something or another." The guy spoke. "I' m Trent, you are?" "That's none of your business." Brian spoke, getting up and moving again. "Well fuck you man, I was just trying to be polite." The guy stated. "You can be polite over there, just stay away form me." Brian stated as the guy got up and slugged him in the face. "Fucking twat, you are on the inside now. Who's going to protect you now? I can't stand you snobbish preppy boy types, I ought to kick your ass right now and take you as my bitch." The guy stated. "You are one of the cute ones. I bet you have a nice little ass that's begging to be fucked." "Guard!!!!! Guard!!!!! Help me! I need to get out of here!" Brian screamed out as the man approached him. "Shut up Littrell! I'm not going to tell you again!" The officer yelled from down the corridor. "I need help man!" Brian screamed again as the guy jumped on him, holding him down on the floor. "Shut up like the pig said. Let's see what you are hiding under those clothes." The man stated, pushing Brian's head into the floor. "I think I want to test you out right now. It's just me and you in here, I think I need a work out." As Trent continued to hold Brian down on the floor, the lights went out in the cell and corridor, causing Brian to panic. Once the lights were completely out, Trent unzipped his pants and then yanked Brian's pants the rest of the way down. "Hot damn, you have a nice little puckered hole there boy, I looks like it wants to be fucked." Trent spoke. "Leave me alone man please." Brian begged, still struggling to get away from the man. "I will leave you alone after I have sprayed your insides with my seed." The man stated, pulling Brian up off the floor, throwing him down on the bed, straddling his ass and spitting. "This should only hurt for a minute." "Please don't do this man, just let me up and we can act like none of this ever happened." Brian stated, crying a little bit now. "Oh come on, you'll love the feel of my dick pounding your ass boy. You better get used to it, from what I see, you will be getting this kind of treatment regularly." The man stated, inserting his dick into Brian's ass while covering his mouth with his hand. "Oh yea boy you got a tight ass, this is some good shit." As Trent continued to pound in and out of Brian's ass, all Brian could think about was how he had treated Nick a week and a half before. The very thing he had done to Nick was now being done to him. Fucking karma. ====================================== TO BE CONTINUED... 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