Date: Thu, 14 Sep 2000 14:03:18 EDT
From: Bangoremail@aol.com
Subject: Jamie's Romance - Ch 23

Greetings everyone,

Here's Chapter 23.

The guys did great at the Latin Grammys.  They looked so good in somewhat
normal clothes!  A note to NSync... you can never go wrong with black
leather!  LOL Plus TIPY sounds great in Spanish!  I can't wait to see the
video next week.

A thanks to everyone that has given me a kind word about the story, and
especially to Nino for helping me think through the beginning of this
chapter.  Hang in there buddy!


As usual: This story is purely fiction and is not intended to imply
anything about the true sexuality of 'N Sync or anyone associated with
their organization.  It is meant for those over the age of 18 only and
those who wish to read stories with sexual content.


******


Jamie's Romance - Chapter Twenty-Three


Justin paced the sidewalk, helplessly looking up and down the street as JC
caught up to him.  "Justin, do you know where he went?"

Justin shook his head, turned suddenly then flung himself into his best
friend's arms.  "Josh, what do I do if we can't find him?  What if
something happens to him?"

"Nothing's going to happen to him, Just.  He'll be ok, we'll find him."

"Why does my mom hate me so much, Josh?"  Justin lost the strength in his
legs and sat heavily on the lawn.  JC glanced toward the house and then at
Joey, Chris and Dani.

"She doesn't hate you, Curly," Chris spoke up.  "She was trying to do what
she thought was best and did a stupid thing.  She knows that."

"You're not just saying that to make me feel better are you?"

"No, J, Chris is telling the truth.  She sent us out here to help you and
even admitted she made a mistake," Joey put in.

Dani knelt beside Justin and ran a hand through his hair.  "So, let's get
moving, handsome, and find that cute boyfriend of yours, ok?"

Justin smiled at her and rose to his feet, helping her up at the same time.
He immediately took charge.  "Ok, you guys go in separate cars.  He
couldn't have gotten far.  There's only two ways to Lance's from here,
really, so cover those.  I'm going to the park.  Jamie saw it on our ride
over and commented on it, so I'll try that."

"Sounds good, Just.  We all have cell phones so if you find him call," JC
advised.  "Come on, Joe, you're with me."

Chris grabbed Dani's hand and they went to Chris' car and took off with JC
right behind him.  Justin slowly walked to his roadster and slumped against
the steering wheel.  'Lord, I've prayed to you before but never have I
wanted a prayer answered so bad.  You've blessed me so much in this life
and I can't believe that you'd start punishing me now.  Please let Jamie be
alright.  That's all I ask,' he prayed silently.

He started the car and headed to the park.  Leaving his car in the lot he
headed first to the kiddie rides and even from the distance recognized the
familiar profile sitting on the bottom of the slide.

Sighing with relief he pulled out his cell phone and dialed JC.  "Hey, it's
me.  He's here in the park.  We'll be all set, so call Chris and tell him
not to worry.  I'll talk to you guys tomorrow.  Bye."  Justin didn't even
let JC get a word in before he hung up, all his attention was to his
boyfriend as he approached him.

------


Jamie sat on the end of the slide deep in thought.  Not having a jacket, he
was thankful the night was warm.  He was trying very hard to hate Lynn
Harliss, but was failing.  'If she had thought of us as sick and perverted,
or even if she thought I was trying to take Justin for his money I could
hate her,' he thought sadly.  But all she was doing was trying to protect
Justin and although he thought she could have handled it better, he
couldn't fault her for that.

He fought within himself about the idea of his relationship with Justin.
As much as Lynn's words rang true with him he couldn't just dismiss his
feelings.  He knew his love for Justin would drive him to do whatever his
heart desired and he loved him too much to just forget and move on.  Lynn's
words, however, were still on his mind.

"So now what?" he asked aloud to no one in particular.

"How about you come home with me and forget this night ever happened,"
Justin answered, startling him.

Jamie looked up at Justin with a haggard look.  "You know that's not
realistic, Justin."

Justin sighed and nodded sadly.  "I know."  He moved over and sat behind
Jamie pulling him into his arms.

"I'm sorry I just ran away like that.  Not very smart considering I have no
idea where I am."

"That's ok, I'm glad I found you.  I guess my mom was pretty hard on you."

Jamie nodded "She's pretty insistent.  She led me right into my
insecurities and blindsided me with them."

"I know we were gonna talk tomorrow, but I think now's the time, huh?"

Jamie took in a deep breath.  "Some of what you're mom said has been what's
on my mind about us.  Justin, I know I hurt you pretty bad in December.  I
feel bad about that."

"Listen, we've gone over that.  We both know why you did that and I don't
fault or blame you at all.  You were protecting yourself in the only way
you knew how.  You were scared and not thinking right."

"You can say that again.  I'm just so very sorry."

Justin pressed his cheek against the side of Jamie's head.  "It's ok, sweet
pea, besides, you must've been off the deep end to break up with a world
famous, strikingly handsome, sexy Pop star."

"I can't argue that," Jamie laughed.  "So how did you know about me and
Joey?" he kidded.

Justin laughed and tickled Jamie.  They settled down and sat silently for a
moment listening the night around them.

"Do you want to talk about what my mother said to you?"

Jamie sighed and nodded.  "I think we have to.  Justin, don't be mad at
her.  In her strange and misguided way she was only trying to protect you.
I don't hold that against her and neither should you."

"No, Jamie, she was out of line.  She had no right to say the things she
did to you.  If she felt that way she should've told me and not ambushed
you, that wasn't fair."

Jamie sat for a moment.  "In a way your mother was right, though.  Our
relationship -is- dangerous to your career and it could be disastrous to
'NSync."

"I know, it pains me that I can't tell everyone that I'm in love and who
I'm in love with.  I can't kiss or hold you anytime or anywhere I want to,
but to be honest, not many gay men can do that in public either.  They run
the same risk of ridicule, harassment and the prospect of losing their
jobs.  I don't think we're that different from most of the gay community
except that I have a more high profile job."

"Ya, but if they slip and get caught holding hands in a restaurant they'll
get a few hostile stares and maybe asked to leave.  For us, the feeding
frenzy in the media would be enormous."

Justin agreed.  "That's true, but the fact still remains that this is a
risk I'm willing to take and Johnny and the guys are behind us 100%."

"Justin, I don't think I could live with myself if it happened, knowing I
helped cause it."

"Jamie, let's not kid ourselves here.  We all know that 'NSync has a
limited shelf life.  We have another 2, maybe 3, years at best before this
runs it's course.  We're all prepared for that, we knew going in that it
couldn't last forever.  But I'm willing to put some faith in our fans.
Sure we'd lose some, but we'd gain others as well."

Jamie turned his head and looked deeply into Justin's eyes.  His heart
leaped in his chest.  'God, I love him so much,' he thought.

"Lance, Josh and I talked a bit about this last week.  We are preparing
ourselves.  All three of us are actually looking forward to being gay role
models.  Think of the good we can do for gay teens and young adults, and I
know we won't be alone.  We know Rosie will back us up and so will others."

"You've given this alot of thought, haven't you?"

Justin nodded.  "Ok, so let's forget about my mom for right now.  What's on
your mind other than what she said?"

Jamie shivered in Justin's arms.  'Will this end it now?' he asked himself.
"Justin, do you love me?"

Justin was a little surprised by the question.  "Yes, of course.  You know
that."

Jamie nodded.  "Yes, I do.  Ok, then are you in love with me?"

Justin was now confused.  "Yes, I just told you that I love you, more than
anything."

"No, Justin, it sounds the same, but there's a small difference."

"I don't understand."

Jamie tried to find the words so Justin would understand what he was trying
to get at.  "Let me put it this way.  You can love vanilla ice-cream, but
you're not 'in love' with it.  I know you love Josh, but are you in love
with him?"

Understanding dawned on Justin's face.  "I see," he said softly.

"I need to ask this, Justin, because I've been asking myself the same
question almost daily.  Are you in love with -me-, or are you in love with
the idea of being in love."

Justin stood suddenly and knelt in front of Jamie taking both his hands in
his.  Tears were in his eyes as he spoke.  "I can't believe you would
question this, but let me answer you once and for all.  Jamie, you are my
life, the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.  I truly think I
would die without you.  I'm realistic enough to know that there are no
guarantees, look at what happened to my mother and father.  But I want to
try.  I know deep down inside that you are the one for me.  I can be there
for you and help you through this pain you still have."

Tears poured down Justin's cheeks as he looked up at Jamie.  "So let me ask
you.  Are you in love with me?"  Jamie looked back sadly but didn't say
anything right away.  Justin hadn't really answered the question himself.

Justin was crushed by Jamie's silence and sobbed bitterly as he dropped his
head into Jamie's lap.  "Oh God, no."  Jamie put a hand on Justin's head
and ran it through his curls and let Justin continue.  "I just wanted you
and me to spend the rest of our lives together, grow old and maybe have a
family.  I need you, Jamie.  All I've ever wanted was someone to love and
love me back.  Someone who was there for me and support me, and lately,
someone outside of all this madness to bring some calm into this crazy life
I've gotten myself into.  I just wanted someone I could come home to and
hold me.  Someone to tell me it's all going to be ok and that I'm a good
person and that they loved me.  Is that so much to ask for?"

Jamie's mind swirled then snapped to full clarity.  Justin was baring his
soul to him and telling him everything he needed and wanted to hear.  Jamie
started to cry with the knowledge that this was the real thing.  Justin was
the one he could trust fully and completely.

Justin looked up at Jamie again, his eyes red and swollen.  "I hoped that
you'd be that person for me.  I need you, Jamie.  Please answer my
question."

Jamie cupped his hands on Justin's cheeks and wiped his tears away with his
thumbs.  "Justin, I love you more than anything I've ever loved, even my
own family.  You make me feel loved, needed and whole.  I am so in love
with you I can't imagine not feeling this way."

Justin sighed through his tears and hugged Jamie to him.  "I'm the happiest
guy in the world right now.  Jamie, whatever happens in our lives I will
always be there for you, for us.  I promise that I will never leave you and
you'll never be alone."

New tears rolled down Justin's cheeks as Jamie leaned forward and kissed
him.  "And I promise you the same thing, my love."

Justin pushed him back to lay on the slide and crawled on top of him and
put his head on Jamie's chest.  "Please hold me," he asked.  Jamie gladly
wrapped his arms around Justin's back.  They both finally felt at peace and
content.

------


Some time later they arrived back at Lance's house.  Jamie suggested a walk
in the back yard to enjoy the night air some more and they headed to the
back door.  The house phone rang as they crossed the kitchen.  Justin
noticed that it was JC's cell from the caller id and hit the speaker
button.

"Hey Josh, got you on speaker.."

"Justin... Jamie... how are you two doing?"

"Everything is fine, Josh.  Actually better than fine," Jamie answered
smiling at Justin.

JC sighed with relief.  "That's great to hear."

"Where are you, buddy?" Justin asked.

"Back at the compound.  I had some mixing I wanted to get done so I could
spend time with Lance when he gets back.  Joey's hanging out here with me
so I'm not alone.  He's hunting up some food in the kitchen.  I'll say hi
for you."

"Did you call Diane?" Justin asked hesitantly.

"I just got off the phone with her a minute ago."

"So how's it going for them?"

"It's all good, Justin.  Lance laid a big bomb on them about him and us and
Diane had a hard time dealing with it, Jim even tougher.  They said alot of
things they regret and Lance got angry and it all went to hell pretty fast.
Thanks for Stacey.  Lance had told her on Saturday and she's been acting as
peacekeeper."

Both Justin and Jamie sighed with relief.  "Well at least it's not as bad
as we thought."

"Right, it's gonna be ok.  They are both really sorry for the way they
acted and are worried sick about him.  They have no idea where he is.
Stacey thinks he's on his way back here."  JC started crying a little over
the phone.

"He's ok, Josh.  He'll be back tomorrow sometime if that's what he's
doing," Jamie consoled him.  "Remember what I told you this afternoon, ok?"

"Yes, Jamie, thanks.  Diane was incredible.  Both she and Jim both told me
that they loved me and couldn't be happier that I was the one he fell in
love with.  She said to tell Lance when we saw him that he will always be
their son, they loved him no matter what and that they want him to call."

"We'll tell him Josh when he gets here.  I guess we'll see you tomorrow
after lunch then?"

"You bet, Curly.  You guys have a good night."

"We will, bye Josh.  We both love you very much," Jamie said.

"I feel the same way, bye," he said before hanging up.

Justin threw his arm around Jamie's shoulder and Jamie snuggled in.  "So
how about that walk?"

They went out onto the lawn and walked down to the pond enjoying the quiet
solitude.  Listening to the crickets they didn't feel any need to speak,
being comfortable just being together.  Eventually they found themselves at
the hot tub.

"How about a soak?" Jamie suggested.

"Sounds good, let me run up and get some trunks."

Jamie smiled at Justin and shook his head.  "I don't think we need those,
do we?"

Smiling, they stripped off their clothes and sank into the hot tub naked.
Jamie sat in Justin's lap and put his head on his shoulder.  They sat in
silence for a long while letting the heat and water jets relax their tense
muscles.

"Been a hell of a day, huh, sweet pea?"

Jamie sighed.  "What else will be thrown at us, Justin?"

Justin rubbed Jamie's back as he hugged him tightly.  "I don't know, nobody
said life would be easy.  But I do know one thing."

"What's that?" Jamie asked moving his head off Justin's shoulder to look
him in the eyes.

"I know that we'll do it together.  I promised you that I'd be with you
forever and I meant it.  I keep my promises."

Jamie smiled broadly and leaned in to kiss the man he loved more than
anything.  Justin closed his eyes anticipating the feeling of Jamie's lips
on his.  When their lips touched they both felt the shock of energy that
told each of them that this was right and meant to be.  Soon the kiss
became heated and Justin's tongue came out to caress Jamie's lips.  Jamie
grabbed it and sucked it into his mouth making Justin moan with pleasure.
Their tongues dueled back and forth as they moaned into each other's
mouths.

Justin had a grip on Jamie's shoulders with one hand while the other
lightly stroked his thigh beneath the water.  Jamie groaned loudly as
Justin moved his hand slowly up his thigh to lightly cup and rub his balls.
Jamie loosened his grip on Justin's neck and caressed Justin's full pecs.
He felt Justin's hardened nipples pressing against his palms and rubbed
them in a circle.  Justin broke the kiss and cried out in pleasure.

"Baby," he panted, "you know what that does to me."

Jamie smiled smugly and returned his tongue to Justin's mouth.  He felt it
almost being sucked out of his head as he lightly played with Justin's
nipples with his fingertips.  Justin's hand moved to lightly grasp Jamie's
growing cock.  He felt Jamie tense as he gently stroked up and down his
length.  He kept stroking and Jamie relaxed, growing harder in his hand.

The only thing on the minds of the two boys was each other's pleasure.
They lost themselves until the timer on the tub shut the jets off.  Jamie
could feel Justin's erection pulsing between his thigh and Justin's
stomach.

"Guess time's up, babe," Jamie said pretending to be sad.

"It may be here, but I'm far from finished," Justin said seductively.  He
grabbed Jamie around the back and under his legs and stood with Jamie in
his arms.

"My strong boyfriend," Jamie cooed.  Justin kissed him on the nose and
carried him across the lawn and to the back door.  Jamie helped by opening
the door and Justin shouldered it shut before heading up the stairs to the
bedroom.  He lay down on the bed Jamie still in his arms.  Jamie shifted
and lay fully on top of Justin, their erections rubbed against each other.

They rolled on the bed so that Justin was on top of Jamie.  He started
kissing and licking down Jamie's body.  Jamie sighed happily as Justin
licked at the patch of hair in the center of his chest then nibbled at each
of his nipples.  Continuing down he licked at Jamie's navel and he grasped
his hard dick.  Stroking lightly he watched as a drop of precum started
sliding down over the head.

Justin smiled and lapped it up savoring the taste of his boyfriend.  He
took the head into his mouth sucking it for more.  He rubbed his tongue
around the ridge and was reward with another larger squirt.  Letting the
head out of his mouth he licked down the shaft to Jamie's balls and sucked
each of them making Jamie squirm.  After they were coated with his saliva
he returned to his cock and started taking the length into his mouth and
throat as Jamie hissed in pleasure.

Justin bobbed up and down Jamie's length, his throat easily getting used to
the thickness.  He stopped when he felt Jamie tense and his cock grow
steely hard.

"Oh, Justin, I'm so close," Jamie panted.

"I know, but I don't want it to end just yet."

Jamie pulled Justin up to him and kissed him.  He licked his own precum
from Justin's lips and tongue and rolled them over so he was on top.

He kissed his way down Justin's muscular chest his tongue reaching for one
distended nipple.  Justin sucked in air as Jamie took it into his mouth.
Biting gently he rubbed his tongue around the nub making Justin shake and
cry out.  Jamie repeated with the other nipple leaving Justin limp and
panting.  He kissed his way down Justin's abs past his navel.  Closing a
hand around the base of Justin's cock, he watching it throb.  Precum ran
from the large, swollen head covering it, the shaft and his hand.  Smiling
up at Justin he noticed his glazed expression, his eyes rolling up into his
head.  Grinning he lapped at the large cock in his hand cleaning it.  He
took the head in his mouth and started sucking fiercely bringing a groan
from Justin.  Bobbing up and down slowly he gradually took more and more of
him into his mouth and throat.

Justin started tensing.  He ran his hands over Jamie's shoulders and
through his hair.  Jamie sensed that Justin was close and started going for
it.  Suddenly he felt himself being pulled away and back up to Justin's
face.  Justin shoved his tongue in Jamie's mouth, kissing him passionately.

"Oh, sweet pea, that was great, you almost made me cum."

Jamie grinned.  "I know, that's what I was going for.  Why'd you stop me?"

A serious expression crossed Justin's face.  "Jamie, please make love to
me.  I need to feel you in me.  I want you to be my first.  Jamie, please
fuck me."

Jamie's eyes widened at the request and he kissed Justin forcefully.
"Baby, are you sure?"

Justin nodded.  "Yes, now.  I want you to take my virginity."

Jamie smiled and pecked Justin on the lips.  "Let me get the lube from my
kit."  He jumped off the bed and quickly went into the bathroom, grabbed
the lube from his shower case and crawled on top of the bed, sitting
between Justin's legs.

Jamie squirted some lube onto his fingers while Justin spread and raised
his legs.  He noticed Justin was a little tense so he tried to ease him a
little.  "If someone had told me a year ago that I'd be doing this with one
of the hottest Pop stars on the planet, I would've thought they were
crazy."

Justin smiled broadly and relaxed a little as Jamie brought a finger to his
hole.  Pushing gently, it slipped in easily.

Justin exhaled a little.  "That feels good."

Jamie smiled and pulled it out then added another.  There was a little
resistance and Justin sighed with pleasure as Jamie worked them in and out
spreading the lube.  Jamie noticed that Justin's hardon had wilted a
little.  The head was sitting on his stomach in a small puddle of precum.
He worked a third finger into Justin as he started lapping at the head of
Justin's dick.  It surged back to full hardness almost immediately and
throbbed strongly against Jamie's lips.

"Any pain?" Jamie asked as he worked his three fingers in and out of
Justin.

"None, please, do it now."  Justin was panting, a lustful expression
crossing his face.

Jamie withdrew his fingers and lubed himself up then tossed the tube on the
night table.  Looking into Justin's eyes he pressed his head against the
hole.  "Ready?"  Justin nodded his eyes closed.  With a gentle shove he
felt his head pass through the muscles of Justin's sphincter.  Justin
gasped and held Jamie's hips keeping him still.

"Oh God!  That feels incredible."

"Any pain?"

"Just a little at first, but it's gone now."  Justin pulled on Jamie's
hips.  Jamie's cock slowly sank into him until they were pressed firmly
together.  "Ok, now baby, make love to me."

Jamie pulled out a little then pushed back in slowly.  He did it a second
time and Justin convulsed.  His cock spewed in an intense orgasm as he
cried out Jamie's name.  The first shot hit him on his mouth and chin and
each successive shot hit lower and lower until he was covered.  Jamie
leaned over and licked Justin's seed from his chin and lips.  They kissed
sharing the taste.

"I think I just died, babe," Justin joked when he caught his breath.

"That was intense.  You should've felt it from this end, you almost brought
me with you."  Jamie continued to kiss Justin as he continued to move
slowly in and out of him.  Jamie wanted to make sure that Justin's first
time was completely pleasurable.  After awhile he felt Justin's cock
rubbing against his stomach, regaining his erection.  Jamie picked up the
pace a little and Justin sighed beneath him.

Jamie was in heaven.  Justin felt so good under him.  He strained to keep
the relaxed pace to slowly bring them to orgasm.  As he felt himself coming
closer to orgasm, he increased his speed and force of his thrusts.  Justin
wrapped his arms around Jamie's shoulders and legs around his waist pulling
them closer together.  They kissed deeply as Jamie worked them both toward
climax.

"That's it, Jamie.  Fuck me," Justin groaned.  Jamie forcefully thrust
again and again into Justin bringing himself right to the edge.  Reaching
down he stroked Justin's cock.

"Oh baby, I'm almost there."

"Me too, Jamie."

They both cried out loudly as they came together.  Justin again covered
himself, the pulsing of his orgasm around Jamie's cock making Jamie shoot
harder than he ever had before.  They collapsed against each other
breathing heavily.

"I love you, sweet pea," Justin said his eyes already closing.

"Love you too, JuJu."

They stayed in each other's arms dozing into a heavy sleep.  Just before
his eyes closed, Jamie noticed that they had been making love for over an
hour.  He grinned as he fell asleep listening to Justin's heartbeat.

------

Something woke Jamie from a pleasant dream.  He tried to figure out what it
was as he blinked his eyes clear.  Looking at the clock he saw it was only
5am.  He was laying on Justin, his head tucked on his chest, their arms
were wrapped around each other.

Leaning up on his elbows he grimaced when his stomach sort of stuck to
Justin's when he pulled off him.  He smirked remembering just how much
pleasure Justin experienced last night that caused the stickiness.  Jamie
moved Justin's arms from around him and carefully got off the bed.  Justin
turned on his side whining a little but didn't wake.  He snuggled up to a
pillow and resumed his soft snoring.  Jamie brushed the curls from his
forehead and kissed it.  Justin sighed and smiled in his sleep.

Jamie then heard the shutting of a car door from the driveway and realized
what woke him.  He walked over to the window and noticed a strange car with
Mississippi plates in the driveway, the trunk open.  Knowing immediately
who it was he grabbed some boxers and a t-shirt from a drawer and pulled
them on as he ran out of the room and down the stairs.

He met Lance as he came into the house and threw his arms around him nearly
bringing both of them to the floor.

"Well, glad to see someone's happy to see me," Lance laughed with no real
emotion behind it.  He dropped his bags and returned Jamie's hug while
sobbing into his shoulder.


tbc...


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