Date: Fri, 9 Apr 1999 15:01:44 EDT
From: PWnDC@aol.com
Subject: Just-Ryan

Justin-Ryan

*This story is complete fiction. It is not meant to imply anything about
anyone mentioned. This story focuses on Justin Timberlake of NSYNC and Ryan
Phillippe. If you are not old enough to read this due to any laws and/or
you do not wish to read about homosexuality or male/male sex.  I hope you
really enjoy this story. This is my first time writing anything like this
so please understand. If you have any comments good or bad and/or have any
suggestions, please e-mail me at mlnscrm@aol.com. I would appreciate it. I
plan to make this a series unless I get really bad feedback so tell me what
you think.*

**One more thing before you read. I have read a lot of the stories on Nifty
and really enjoyed them all, but the ones I liked the most were the ones
that were more than sex. Don't get me wrong, there will be plenty of sex,
but I plan to put in romance and feelings into these stories as well. Ok,
I'll shut up now. ENJOY!**

Justin and Ryan 
Part 1

	Ryan Phillippe just sat there. Far in the back where no one could
see him. His eyes were fixed on stage where he watched his best friend, and
newfound obsession dance and sing on stage.  He just thought back to how
they had met. How he was so lucky to have met Justin Timberlake.  Ryan had
just finished filming on Cruel Intentions. It was due out in a couple of
months, but of course like everything else in Hollywood, there would be a
big deal and premiere opening before anyone else knew about it. That is
where he first met him. At the premiere, of course everyone was waiting for
the stars of the movie in a big dining room that would soon turn into a big
fancy movie theatre. Ryan had just stepped out of the limo when he saw
Justin and the rest of NSYNC standing really close to the front of the line
waiting to meet the cast. Ryan at first just shook it off. He had found a
couple of guys attractive before, but for one... he knew it would never
work out.  Sometimes he felt like he was the only gay guy anywhere. And
two, his career would be over. He had just started to grow as an actor. He
was getting great parts and he was with a beautiful woman. That of course
was the third... Reese. He was in love with her. The strongest two friends
could have for each other. But love for a friend was all he felt. But as he
had started to walk with Reese beside him down the aisle that the crowds
were making for them and the rest of the cast his eyes kept lingering
towards Justin. He tried to shake it off, but this time he wouldn't allow
himself to let his gaze go anywhere but to Justin. When he finally reached
Justin his paced slowed to an almost dead stop. All the guys of NSYNC soon
started acting like their fans and going crazy. They all anxiously shook
Ryan and Reese's hands and started to talk to them. Ryan took this
opportunity to make friends with Justin. "I can't wait to see the movie. I
have heard a lot about it and I loved Dangerous Liaisons." Justin said
shaking Ryan's hands. "Well, I hope you enjoy the movie... All of
you. Maybe after the premiere we could get together and... Talk about it."
All the guys got really excited. "That would be really cool" Joey managed
to get out halfway calmly. With that Ryan was forced away by Reese pulling
on him. "Come on Rye... we gotta get to our table. Everyone is waiting on
us!" Ryan slowly went with her occasionally looking back at the guys. He
even caught Justin looking in their direction a couple times, but counted
it to wishful thinking. The movie was soon over, everyone clapping and
loving how the movie went. All the cast members started to mingle and this
definitely didn't exclude Ryan. He didn't go straight to Justin's table,
not wanting to seem to anxious, but slowly made his way in that general
direction.
	"That was a great movie." Lance said.  "I totally know what you
mean. I so dug that." J.C.  agreed. They all exchanged comments on what
they thought of the movie until they got to Justin.  They all noticed he
was looking around totally oblivious to what they were saying. "Hey Curly!
Earth to Justin!" Chris yelled. This snapped Justin out of his trance, and
his balance. He fell back on his leaning chair and hit the floor. He heard
muffled laughter's everywhere except from the guys who didn't even try to
quiet their laughter. He felt so embarrassed. He slowly started to get back
up when he felt two hands pull him up like he weighed nothing. Justin wiped
off his suit and looked over and his "savior". There he saw standing with a
smile was Ryan. He must have turned eight shades of red. "Um... Thanks a
lot man... I lost my balance..." Ryan soon cut him off. "It's alright.
Best thing that has happened all night." Justin smiled and invited Ryan to
come sit with the rest of the guys. They all started to talk... still
laughing at "Mr. Smooth" and his little stunt. Everyone continued to talk
especially Ryan and Justin. It seemed to Ryan and Justin that they had just
started talking, but when the manager of the ballroom came to tell them
that it was time to close up they noticed everyone was gone. They were
literally the only ones in the room. They both laughed and started to head
out. "I'm really sorry. I didn't realize that I was talking so long."
Justin sounded sincere in his apology. Ryan just smiled at him. "No
problem, man. I had fun. I don't really get to have truthful, decent,
meaningful conversations with someone I actually want to talk to. So
really, I should be thanking you." Justin just smiled. "Well, you pretty
much know everything about me and the guys, but I feel like I don't even
know you. So I guess we'll have to change that." Ryan couldn't help himself
from reading into this. He knew that what Justin had said didn't mean
anything, but he couldn't help it. "You know..." Justin now sounded like a
wanting child. "We have a concert tomorrow. I could... get you some
tickets, and backstage passes if you want...." Justin stopped as he saw the
big smile Ryan had stretched from ear to ear. "That would be cool. I
love..." Ryan caught himself. "I mean, I really like your music. It is like
one of the only CD's that I own. It is really good." Justin was more than
happy inside to hear this. He tried to keep himself calm. "Well, it is
really late now, and if I'm not back soon the guys will be on my case, but
when I get back to the hotel I will call my manager and hook you up. I hope
you like the show." Justin said with the excitement. He didn't know what he
was feeling, but he knew he didn't want to leave Ryan. Ryan felt the same
way. He didn't want this night to end, but he knew it was time to go. "Hey,
Just? Do you need a ride?" Justin knew that a limo was waiting for him if
he wanted to use it, but was much more interested in Ryan's offer. "Thanks
man. That'll be great." Justin quickly ran over to the side of Ryan as he
followed him to his car. He stood there and was in love with Ryan's
ride. It was the Jag from the movie. "WOW! They let you keep the car. So
cool!" Justin quickly went around to the passenger side. As soon as he got
in Ryan took off. "Well, I'm glad you let me get in the car first."  Justin
laughed at Ryan's speedy exit. "Sorry about that." Justin wanted to tell
him that as long as he was with Ryan he didn't care, but all that came out
was, "It's alright." They continued to talk as they had at the table until
they pulled up to The Plaza. "Well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow night. I
can't wait to see the show." Ryan did everything he could from not pulling
Justin into a sweet kiss and never let him go. He casually got out and
opened the door for Justin. "You door, Mr.  Timberlake." Justin
laughed. "Why, thank you. I'll see you tomorrow." Justin said as he headed
to the front doors. When he opened them he turned around to see Ryan
leaning against the side of his car watching him. Justin smiled and waved
as Ryan drifted out of sight.  He got in the elevator and collapsed. He
didn't know what had just happened. He was just happy. And recently, that
was a change for him. He slowly got up as he approached his floor. As soon
as the door opened he jumped back to see J.C. standing there. "Wow man. You
scared the shit out of me! Don't ever do that again." Justin slowly
regained his composure. "What are you doing out here anyway?" Justin asked
drawing away from the fact it was 1:30 in the morning. "I could ask you the
same thing see as how I was going to look for you. Where were you?" Justin
didn't know what to say. Should he tell J.C.? They had been best friends
since the MMC and had always told him everything. "I was with Ryan. We lost
track of time. He just dropped me off. I know it is really late, but we
couldn't stop talking." J.C. just looked at him. "There is something you're
not telling me. What is it, Curly? You always tell me everything." Justin
was socked. Was it that obvious what he was thinking? It was like J.C. had
just tuned in on his thoughts. "What do you mean? There is nothing else to
tell." Justin started to raise his voice now. "OK. Sorry. I was wrong."
J.C. said unconvincingly. He knew something was wrong. He just didn't know
what.  Justin looked in his eyes and started to cry. "I'm sorry J.C. I
shouldn't have yelled at you. I'm just." He was tempted to tell him, but
couldn't. "I'm just tired." J.C. gave him a hug. "You know it is OK. I'm
hear for you though if you need me." Justin shook his head. "We better get
some sleep. We have to be at the stadium at 10 tomorrow morning." Justin
and J.C. both started back to their rooms. J.C. wondered what had just
happened with Justin. He didn't know why Justin had burst into tears, but
was not going to let it go that easy. They both went to their rooms and got
some definitely desired sleep.
	Ryan sped off from the hotel with one thought on his mind: Justin.
He didn't know why he felt so strongly, especially with someone he
didn't even know, but he did. He drove for hours trying to figure out why
he felt this way and finally admitted it. He knew he had had feelings for
other guys before and had come to terms with him being gay. It didn't
bother him that much.  His career was great and he was with Reese. They
were really good friends. Now... all these feelings for Justin were
surfacing. He couldn't handle them. He knew what he had to do now. He had
been preparing to do this for some time now, but he had hoped it would
never come to this. He had played the situation over and over in his mind,
but now that he was on his way to Reese's he didn't know what to do. He
just knew he had to tell her. Didn't he? He owed her that much. But, it's
not like he and Justin would ever get together. They would just be
friends. And he did love Reese. After all the fighting with himself he
passed right by Reese's driveway. He couldn't do it.  Not yet anyway. He
had to see what happened first. He quickly drove home to get some sleep. He
couldn't wait until tomorrow night.  They next morning Justin awoke to the
phone ringing. He slowly opened his eyes. He was not a morning person so
the only thought he had been, `This better be important'. "Hello?" He
answered groggily. "Justin? It's Ryan. Did I wake you?" Justin jumped as he
heard Ryan's voice.  "Oh. No. I was just getting up anyway. What can I do
for you?" Justin was eagerly waiting to know why Ryan had called. "I just
wanted to thank you. My manager called this morning saying he had gotten
ticket and backstage pass for your concert tonight. Thanks a lot man."
Justin was happy he had pleased Ryan. A thought ran through his mind that
changed his happiness though. "I can get some extra tickets for Reese if
you want?" Justin said in a voice that was saying `No. Don't bring
her'. Ryan thought he picked up on this, but wasn't planning to bring Reese
anyway. He had to sort out his feelings for Justin before he could even
have them in the same room. "I think she has.  um. something to do
tonight. Thanks anyway. I guess you'll have to deal with just me enjoying
the show." He said smiling. Justin was relived. He didn't want her tagging
along, not even knowing that she was throwing it in Justin's face that she
had him. "Well, I let you go then. I just wanted to say thanks, and."
Justin heard this and, and wondered, really hoped, that Ryan would say
it. "I'll see you tonight." Justin was a little disappointed that that was
all Ryan had said, but knew he couldn't expect much more. He said good bye
and hung the phone up. He heard the other guys in the hallway and quickly
jumped in the shower to get ready. `I'll see you tonight' Ryan thought to
himself. I should have said. He didn't know. He wanted to tell Justin how
he felt and everything else that ran through his mind. He knew he
couldn't. He went out of his room and into his home gym. He always liked to
workout in the morning. With all that was happening he needed to just
relax. He put on his boxing gloves and went to punching out all his
feelings in his personal gym in the guestroom of his house. Ryan stepped
out of the shower and quickly put on a dark blue suit. It had a hunter
green silk shirt with it and a baby blue tie. (He threw in the baby blue
tie b/c he knew it was Justin's favorite color) He was then ready and soon
had his ticket and backstage pass in one hand and keys in the other. He
sped quickly trying to get there early to see Justin.
	As the limo pulled up to the stadium, all the guys were in
awe. "This place is huge." Lance said in his deep voice. They all
agreed. "So, Just. What time did you get in last night?" Joey
questioned. Being the oldest, the responsibility feel to him to know the
who, what, and where's of the group. "Um. It was about 1:00." They all were
shocked to hear this. After all, he was the baby of the group. "Where were
you at, Curly?" Chris asked eager to know. Justin usually didn't stay out
that late. Even when they guys took him clubbing he was still pretty level
headed and came home early. "I was just talking to um. Ryan." He looked at
their reactions. "Oh. That's cool." They all agreed. J.C. just sat there
remembering last night. Justin prayed that he wouldn't say anything. He
didn't want to explain that to the rest of the guys. Not right now. They
could wait. He did know that he would have to tell something to
J.C. though. He would do it after rehearsal. He just prayed he would
understand and help him. They all headed off to the stage to practice. It
was long and hard so no one noticed Ryan as he sneaked to the top of the
seats and just watched Justin. And that brings us back to where we
started. He stared as they went through the dances and songs. He was
telling the truth. He did love NSYNC's music. He listened to the CD like
every night. After about and hour and a half, Ryan saw that they were
finishing up. Ryan waited until the manager let them go that he decided to
go find Justin.
	 Justin quickly ran to J.C. as he headed to his dressing room. "Hey
J.C." J.C. turned around. "Can we talk?" J.C. agreed wanting to help his
best friend. They waited until they got to J.C.'s dressing room before
either spoke.  "What's up, Curly?" Justin wasn't sure where to start.
"Well, first, thanks for not saying anything to the guys. About last
night. I really appreciate that."  J.C. just looked at him. "Just, you know
you are my boy. I wouldn't say anything to the other guys or anybody if you
didn't want me to." Justin was relived to hear that. "I know. And thank
you." He just clamed up after that. "Come on Just. What is it that you are
holding back? I didn't want to push it last night, but today; I'm really
worried about you. You go from totally depressed, and then last night you
were happy, and now you are like wigging out. I just want to know what is
going on with you. How can I help?" Justin started to cry as J.C. said
this. J.C. pulled him into a hug and just held him. It was the only way he
could help Justin right now. Ryan was still searching for Justin. Ever
since he had started down the stadium to find him he hadn't seen him. He
was aloud- back stage because of his pass, but mostly of who he was. He
looked everywhere backstage and saw nothing. He went to his dressing room
but still no luck. Where was he?
	Justin was in J.C.'s arms for another 15 minutes before he finally
stopped crying. "This is getting to be an everyday thing, you crying in my
arms." They both laughed at J.C.'s comment remembering that they were like
this last night next to the elevator. "Now sit. And tell me what is going
on." Justin knew now was the time. "J.C., you are my best friend. You have
been since we met. I just don't wanna lose you." J.C. moved closer to
him. "I'm not going anywhere. You are not losing me." Justin just gave
J.C. another hug. "I'm so confused J.C. I don't know what to do anymore. I
feel like I'm losing control. I just..." J.C. calmed him as he started to
cry. J.C. started to think at everything that had happened recently. "Does
this have anything to do with Ryan?" Justin looked up when he said that. "I
thought so. Justin... I know about you... I mean I know that you
are... gay" J.C. couldn't believe he said that. The truth was he didn't
know Justin was gay. He had always guessed and wondered. They had been
friends since they could barely remember, but he just always didn't want to
admit it. But he pretty much always knew. "How did you... I mean do the
other guys know" He was cut off quick. "No, No, No. No one knows. I wasn't
really sure until last night. You have been distant with us, and then in
the elevator last night you were happier then I have ever seen. I have just
one question... How much do you feel for Ryan? I mean do you love him, or
are you just latching on to the first guy that you think you seriously
like?" Justin thought about his question. At first he was mad that he asked
that, but the more he thought about it the more he could understand why he
asked. Justin thought about the other guys he had liked. He thought about
how he felt when he liked them and how he felt last night when he was with
Ryan.  "I... I love him. I have never felt this way before. I know how I
feel about him. Now, how do you feel about all this." Justin waited for him
to storm out of the room, or at least shiver in utter disgust. J.C. stood
up and hugged Justin once again. "I told you I'm not going anywhere. I'm
always here for you. Now what are you going to do about the other guys? Are
you going to tell them?" Just as he said that they both heard a knock on
the door. Ryan opened it. "Hey J.C., have you seen Justi..." He was cut off
when he saw J.C. with his arms around Justin. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't
have..." He started to burst into tears. Justin briefly saw this before
Ryan slammed the door shut and ran off crying. Justin looked at J.C. to
tell him he had to go, but J.C.'s eyes were already telling him to go. Just
as Justin was about to go out the door he turned to J.C. "Thank You" was
all he could say.
	Ryan went straight to the top of the stadium were he had sat
before. He was in a corner balled up crying. He didn't know why he was so
sad. He was in love with Justin. He knew that. He had never felt so
strongly about anything else. But that didn't mean Justin felt the same
about him.  In fact he was sure Justin didn't feel the same. But now it was
different, Justin was gay... but still out of his reach... and in
J.C.'s. He didn't know what to do now or how he felt about anything.
Everything that had once made sense came crashing down on him when he
opened that door. He did know that he had to leave. He couldn't stay any
longer. He got up and wiped the tears from his eyes. As soon as he opened
them he saw Justin standing in front of him. "When you didn't go to your
car, and you weren't backstage, I knew you had to have come up here."
Justin smiled and that made all his tears come flooding back. Justin walked
up to him. "Listen Just. I'm really sorry that I walked in like that. I had
no right. But don't worry, I would never tell anybody if that is why you
came up here. I consider you to be a good friend and I wouldn't betray you
like that." Justin started crying too. "Actually, I came up here to talk
about something else. What you saw was no what you think. I know it
probably seemed that way but..." Ryan cut him not wanting to hear
anymore. "We have not even known each other for 2 days. You don't have to
explain anything to me. What you do is your business." That hurt
Justin. "You are wrong. I do have to explain myself to you." Ryan looked at
him confused. "I don't understand. Why?" Justin knew it was now or
never. "Would you want to continue our friendship if what you saw in there
was exactly what it appeared to be?" Ryan thought to himself. No. It was
hard enough to be friends with him knowing that he was straight where he
had absolutely no chance. But to be friends with him knowing he was gay and
with J.C., he couldn't do it. He also couldn't say that. "Yes. Of course."
Ryan knew he didn't sound to convincing, but didn't know what else to
say. "Well, you don't have to worry about me having feelings for J.C." Ryan
let out a sigh of relief and the same disappointment he had had since they
met. "Because all my feelings belong to you."
	 Ryan looked up and stared into his piercing blue eyes looking for
something that made him disbelieve this. He found nothing but love. He
slowly walked towards the crying figure that he had fallen for
completely. He placed his arms around Justin's waist and pulled him closer.
"Ever since I met you I have thought of nothing but you. I can't explain
it, but I wanna be with you.  I just got jealous when I saw you in J.C.'s
arms. I didn't know what to do." Ryan said as they both were in tears in
each other's arms. Justin couldn't believe that he was hearing this. He
thought it would never be. "Now that we know how we feel, what do we do?"
Justin finally said something.  Ryan stared down at the beautiful body
wrapped around his own. He didn't know what to say so he just leaned in
slowly and placed his lips on Justin's. Justin immediately took over
forcing his tongue in Ryan's mouth. They searched each other's mouths until
they forced to come up for air. They just held each other in their
arms. They didn't want this to end. J.C. just stood in the darkness of the
doorway listening to what they had each said. He was happy that Justin had
finally found what he was looking for. He slowly left the two to hold each
other. "I can't believe this?" Ryan broke the silence. Justin looked up at
him with confusion. "What?" Justin said. "I'm just trying to take all this
in. How I ended up so lucky to be with you. I still can't believe it." Ryan
said smiling. He never thought he would get to feel this way. He had
figured that he would marry Reese, have some kids, and have the normal
life. But now he was in love and genuinely happy. Things were all changed
now. "Anyway, we have four hours before I have to get back here. Five and a
half till the concert.  So what do you wanna do for four extra hours?"
Justin said smiling while rubbing Ryan's chest.  "As long as I'm with you,
I don't care." Justin smiled at this. "Well, then maybe we could go out for
dinner and... just talk." Justin knew they had to take it slow. He didn't
want to rush this and lose what he had wanted for so long. Ryan smiled and
kissed him again. "I think I'm going to love to be able to do that now."
Justin smiled at his flattery. "C'mon. I got to tell the guys where I'm
going and then we'll head out."
	J.C. walked back down to where the rest of the guys had been
sitting. "Hey J.C.!" Chris yelled out. "Where ya been?" J.C. didn't know
what to say to them. He knew it wasn't his place to tell what was going on
with Just and Ryan. Luckily he was saved as Justin walked in laughing with
Ryan close at his side. Everyone turned to see them. All the guys got up
and went to talk to Ryan.  "Hey man. Wuz up? I didn't know that you were
here." Joey sounded happy to see him.  "Yeah, I was planning to come to the
concert tonight and Justin told me it would be cool to see you rehearse."
They all were happy that Ryan had come. They all had talked last
night. Even though Justin and Ryan clicked more than anyone did, and they
had only known Ryan for two days, they all felt like they were close
friends. "Well guys, me and Ryan were just going to get something to eat
before the concert. We'll be back..." He was cut off as all the guys jumped
at the opportunity to eat. He was kinda mad that they invited themselves,
but smiled when he turned to see Ryan laughing. "What are you laughing at?
This was are 'alone time'." Ryan then thought about it. He was right, but
he knew that that would not be the only 'alone time' that they would
have. "Are the guys going to be with you after the concert?" Ryan said only
half-joking. Justin smiled and took him by the arm. "C'mon on!" They all
piled into NSYNC's limo just talking about what was going on with the guy's
tour and Ryan's up coming movies. Finally they pulled into Denny's. It
wasn't close to anything and they guys knew it would be empty so they came
here anytime they were town.  "Where are we at?" Ryan asked stepping out of
the limo. "Isn't it great. We found it the first time we performed in
LA. We were starving after a concert one night and all the hotels and
restaurants were packed. We didn't know what to do so we just
drove. Luckily, he ran into this place." Lance explained. "Wow. That is
pretty cool." Ryan said staring at Justin. He was interested in what
everyone was saying to him, but his eyes and concentration always fell back
to Justin. They all sat and talked over dinner. Before they knew it, they
had blown three and half-hours. "Oh my God! We better get going. You know
David (the groups manager) will have a fit if we are late." Justin said
looking at his watch. "You are right. I didn't even realize we had been
here so long." Joey said as he went to pay the bill. All the guys got up
with Ryan and Justin slagging behind. "That was really fun." Ryan said
grabbing Justin's pinky with his. It was too dangerous to hold hands until
they told the guys, but they got as close to it as possible. "Whatever. You
are probably sick of us already. I think they have told you pretty much
everything about us." Justin didn't want Ryan to get uninterested in them
by telling him everything... at least all at once. "Are you kidding? I
enjoyed it.  I loved hearing about you guys." Ryan was telling the
truth. They both laughed as they got in the limo and it pulled away.
	All the guys ran on stage making it on time... barely. They were
instructed to go through the routines again and make sure everything was
set. They all thought it was boring but Ryan found it very interesting. He
had never known that singers had to work this hard for shows and such. He
never really thought about it until now. Until he had a reason to think
about it, Justin. He watched as Justin moved along with the music in
perfect synchronization with the other guys. He smiled as he was caught
staring at Justin when Justin did a 360 turn during a song. Justin saw his
eyes bearing down on him and that just made him worked harder. He wanted
Ryan's first concert to be the best. It was hard to believe that Justin was
doing so good considering his mind was completely on Ryan. He had never
felt like this with anyone. Even with his first crush, his best friend then
and now, J.C. Of course he never told anyone about it, but he had pined
over J.C. for almost a year before coming to terms that their friendship
was too important to ruin it with his feelings. But even then, he didn't
have this feeling that made him smile every time he thought about it. He
didn't know what it was and didn't care. For the first time he was happy
and that was all that matter. Time seemed to fly while Justin was thinking
because soon the manager was yelling at them to go get rested and ready for
the concert. Justin instantly ran to Ryan. "That was great, babe. I'm
really impressed." Justin smiled. "You expected something else." They both
laughed. "So, what do you have to do now?" Ryan asked wanting to spend some
time with him. "Well, I get to rest an hour before I really have to do
anything." Ryan got an idea. "Maybe we could go to your dressing room and
have some of that 'alone time'?" Justin smiled as he remembered the
conversation earlier.  He started to say it wasn't a good idea being at the
stadium, but was cut off by Ryan making a sad puppy dog look. Justin gave
up. "I don't know what I'm going to do with you." Justin thought about what
he had just said. "I have a few ideas." Ryan said with a devilish
grin. Justin grabbed his arm.  "C'mon."
	He pulled him into his dressing room. As soon as he had the door
locked Ryan came up behind him and put his arms around his waist. Justin
laughed as Ryan picked him up and spun him around. He slowly brought Justin
down so they were facing each other. They both stopped laughing and stared
at each other. Ryan noticed how subtle Justin's once piercing blue eyes
were.  He couldn't stop himself as he slowly moved in and placed his lips
on Justin's. They remained there dancing ever so softly until he finally
went for it. He started to move his tongue in Justin's mouth to find it
open and willing. Justin had waited to long for this to control himself any
longer. He took his hands and moved them up Ryan's shirt and rubbed his
chest up and down. Ryan let out a moan of pleasure through the kiss, but
soon resumed like he had never left. Justin had his hands on Ryan's chest
for about 15 minutes before he started to move down. Before Ryan knew it,
Justin's hands were struggling to get his pants undone. Ryan didn't know
what to think. Justin had wanted to take it slow and now... he was
definitely speeding up. Ryan was over whelmed with pure love and pleasure,
but knew Justin had been right to want to go slow. As much as it pained
him, Ryan pulled from the kiss. Justin looked in his eyes with a wonder of
what he had done wrong. "Justin, I want this more than anything, I do, but
you were right. We should go slowly. We are both in something now that is
all new. I just want every moment of it to be special. Don't worry. We will
have plenty of time for that. I'm not going anywhere. Let's just...."
Ryan's voice was cut off and replaced as Justin finished his
sentence. "Hold each other." Ryan smiled as his head fell on the younger
shoulder. Justin held him for another 15 minutes. Ryan lifted his head and
soon the two were another passionate kiss. They would take it slow, but not
that slow. Justin somehow managed to move them both to the bed he had in
there for late night rehearsals. They both just held each other in their
arms still in their kiss not wanting to let go. However, they were forced
to when they heard a knock at the door. Justin was so shocked that he
rolled off the bed taking Ryan with him.  They both burst out laughing.
	 "JUSTIN... RYAN... are you in there?" J.C. said through the
door. Justin saw the look of fear in Ryan's eyes. "It's ok. J.C. knows
about us. That was what I was telling him when..." Ryan let out a
sigh. Justin finally remembered about J.C. and quickly got up to open the
door. J.C. stood there with a smile on his face as he saw Justin's clothes
messed up and Ryan straitening his shirt in the background. "Sorry, I
didn't mean to interrupt. Just, it is time to go out. The crowds are
here..."  J.C. slowly turned around. Justin felt something as J.C. said
that to him. "You know..." J.C. turned around to face Justin again. "It
wasn't what it looked like." J.C. turned back around and started
walking. He felt, almost mad when Justin sad that. He wasn't sure why, but
just shook it off as he heard Justin's door close again. Justin turned to
face Ryan who was laughing. "What is so funny?"  Justin said trying to keep
from laughing. "I guess you need to go now." Ryan said with a sudden rash
of seriousness. Justin heard this. He walked over to him and put his arms
around him. "You don't worry. I'm not going anywhere." Justin kissed him
softly. "Besides, you'll be right next to me backstage the whole time. The
concert is only 2 hours then... we will be together." Ryan knew that it
would feel like an eternity and not 2 hours, but what could he do? "Well, I
suppose." Ryan said smiling. They both started to hug again before a
banging came on the door. "LET'S GO!" Joey yelled. Justin broke their
embrace. He looked at Ryan like he needed approval. Ryan just smiled at
him. "Go. I'll see you there." Justin gave him one last kiss and went out
the door. Ryan fell on the bed and just smiled. He couldn't stop. He was
happier then he had ever been. About 20 minutes he heard the announcer
through the loud stadium speakers. He knew he had to go if he wanted to see
the concert. He quickly got up and headed towards the stage. The announcer
spoke loudly and the crowd was yelling as the music for 'Tearin Up My
Heart' came blaring through the speakers. All of a sudden the crowds volume
increased as the guys came running and bouncing on stage. They begin
singing as Ryan came up from the dressing room. He looked on stage in
awe. He was amazed as he watched Justin sing his heart out. He knew that he
loved Justin, but now he was feeling something more. He didn't know what it
was and he didn't care. He had analyzed his whole life, but now he was
happy. He wasn't going to ruin it by trying to understand it. He didn't
want to know. He just wanted to be in love. Ryan listened to song after
song and just fell in love with Justin all over again. He knew there was
something more to it than love every time Justin would look at him while he
was singing. Finally, NSYNC announced there last song, 'Sailing'. Then
Justin said something before the music started that made Ryan's heart
overflow. "I would like to dedicate this last song to a special person that
has made my life a better one. I love you." Justin finished it looking over
at Ryan. Ryan knew that this was only the beginning.

T.B.C.
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