Date: Thu, 9 Nov 2000 16:57:22 EST
From: WiteLiteLeo@aol.com
Subject: Let The Sun Fall Down

*Hey guys, I'm back. Hopefully some of you remember me. I know it has been
awhile, and if you are waiting for my old stories to continue... (my REALLY
old stories) i'm sorry but I have started anew with my life and that means
anew with my writing. My writing especially. But do not worry, b/c I
already have a whole bunch of this tsory written so I'll give you something
new. :) Anyway enough of that.

** This people are not mine... (I have my own people thank you! lol) I do
not know if any of them are gay, and if I did... I wouldn't be writing
about it, i'd be living it. So, hopefully you are reading this for pleasure
or whatever cause it ain't real. Now, on with the story.

** One more thing, this is sorta pre-slash and it will be for juts alittle
bit. I am one of those writers who has to have a story line, and no... this
story will not be all about sex.  sorry but it's now my style. Ok, now
really, on with the story. :)

Let The Sun Fall Down
By: CJ

Close the door and leave the world behind you...

There was a definite plus to leaving the world behind. Sometimes you have
to... more often than not you need to. He understood that. The ceiling was
dark, no contrast to the rest of the room. He didn't mind though. It was
what he wanted. Well, what he had left to do anyway.

Open the window and listen to the breeze blow through the pines...

The breeze had been there all night, ever consistent, urging him to wrap
up, pull something around him to give him comfort but he refused. He was
stubborn and was not in the mood for comfort. There was nothing in that
house, no one in that house that had any comfort left. At least not for
him.

Take a deep breath, what more can you do.

Nothing. If there was something left he didn't know. He didn't want to know
anymore. It hurt too much to go on, it hurt to much to try, so he would
just be. No feelings or thoughts or inspirations of his own, those had been
striped away sometime ago. When he gave up hope. What more could he do?

Let the sun fall down all around you

Yeah. That was gonna help.

***

	"Josh! He's a little kid. We were going to have fun, but we can't
with a little kid!  He is going to ruin everything." Tony was not mad so
much as disappointed. Josh, Keri, and Tony had decided to go and hang out
at the little ice cream place close to the Mickey Mouse Club set. It wasn't
much but they had just turned 16 and they didn't know any better. But
now... JC had gone and invited the new kid. The new kid was intruding on
their time.
	"Tony, that's the point. He is just a kid. I feel bad for him. He
was talking to me during the audition and he doesn't know anyone here. He's
left his school and his friends and now he is one of us. You did the same
for me." JC smiled knowing that would get his friend. Tony nodded and
smiled too.
	"All right. I guess he can come. Like I could ever say no to you
anyway J." Tony said smiling.  JC returned the smile before turning back to
the stage.
	"Thanks.  I'll go get him and we'll meet you up there." Tony nodded
as JC ran the other way. He was glad Tony wasn't mad. He didn't expect him
to be honestly, but the three had talked about going out just the three of
them and JC had brought a fourth. Oh well, it was cool. He saw his new
friend sitting in a chair off to the side in the dark, by himself. He had
his little hand propping his head full of curly hair up and he looked
bored, and tired, and lonely. How could JC leave him there? Truth was, he
couldn't.

	"Hey man!" JC said softly taking a place on the floor next to the
kid. The young man's face lit up with recognition from the day
before. `He's talking to me again. Good He's the only person who seems to
wanna.' The boy though as he turned his chair to face JC.
	"Hey! I didn't know you were here today... I mean I hadn't seen
you. What are you doing JC." The way JC's name came out at the end, it
sounded if the boy was trying to show he remembered the name and was proud
of that fact.
	"I'm doing good," JC couldn't resist. "Justin." He added just
because the other did. They both smiled before Justin turned his head back
to the stage. "So, what are you doing?" JC asked standing up.
	"Waiting for my mom. We got done early and she won't be here for
another hour and a half." Justin said sighing. JC laughed, it was cute to
see the kid sigh. He was only twelve! You'd think they had nothing to sigh
about.
	"Well, me and two of my other friends... we are going to the ice
cream shop right next to the lot." JC informed Justin, then waited for him
to answer. "Oh." Justin didn't quite get the invitation. `Just rub it in
that you have friends and I'm here alone, waiting for my m...' His thoughts
were interrupted by JC's voice once again. "No," JC said laughing.
	"I meant, me and two of my other friends are going to get ice
cream... would you like to come?" JC smiled as the boy's face in front of
him lit up once again.
	"Really!" Justin asked standing too. JC laughed once again, he
couldn't seem to be amused by Justin and how excited he had become.
	"Yes, really. I wouldn't have asked you if I didn't mean it. Justin
nodded quickly, got his stuff and soon he and JC were on their way to meet
up with the rest of the people.

	Justin didn't have any problems with friends after that. Keri and
Tony had laughed along with JC every time Justin did something like... like
he was twelve. It seemed so far ago for the older three it was nice to see
what they were like. Justin didn't mind, he had figured out they were
laughing at him, but it wasn't in any bad way. He knew right from the start
JC was a person who would never laugh at him to hurt him. He just knew. And
the other two, if they were JC's friends, they had to be somewhat like
him. So it was cool. And since the three liked Justin so much, they
introduced him to everyone, showed him the ropes, and even invited him
places that no of the other little kids were allowed to be part of. And
Justin knew it was all because of JC.

***

`I wish things were like that again. It was so much simpler, so much easier
to handle things. Now, it just seems wrong. Everything is out of place and
everything is anything but "n sync."' His thoughts were interrupted by that
one menacing doubt that always showed up. Sometimes, when no one else could
hear his words or his thoughts, and when he could go back and regret saying
it... he wished that the call was never made. His life would have
definitely not turned out like this.

***

<Maryland>

	"Very funny Greg. You wish you could play ball like me... you wish
that you could take me down... but let's face, you're a girl.!" JC laughed
at his joking and after a second so did Greg.
	"Hey! There is nothing wrong with being a girl!" All the guys
laughed at Stephanie's mock protest as they sat around the drive way. They
had all took a break from studying and decided to play some basketball.
	"On that note, I'm going to get something to drink. Does anyone
want anything?"  JC asked, but as soon as someone opened their mouth he
headed inside. "Guess not" He laughed.
	"He's such a butt!" Rachel laughed as she stood up and started
dribbling the ball with Greg and Stephanie.
	"What do I want, what do I want?" JC stood in front of his
refrigerator. Truth was, he was cooling down more than looking for a
drink. H e dreaded going back out there. He was tired! RING RING `Oh, saved
by the bell.' JC said to himself as he walked over to his phone.
	"Yo, this is JC, how can I help you?" JC said quickly into the
phone. It was his new way to answer. The line was quiet for about five more
seconds before JC spoke again. "Hello?" JC said a little louder. "Alright
then, I guess you don't have anything to say..."
	"Josh?" The voice that interrupted was low and JC couldn't believe
he heard it over his own rambling.
	"Yes, who's this?"
	"Oh, um, it's me, Justin." Finally the voice was loud enough for JC
to hear, like he could ever forget that voice! It had been awhile since
they talked. MMC was over, Justin went back to school, as did JC. They had
talked one or two times since the end but not really. JC was busy and
Justin was busy and... for some reason for the two friends, it just didn't
happen. But Justin had called.
	"Oh my gosh! Hey! I cant believe you called me. That's.. great!
Hey!" JC hoped Justin could tell the smile he had across his face. Justin
was the one who always gave it to him. JC heard Justin giggle.
	"Hey to you too. It has been awhile, I know. What are you up to?"
Justin asked politely.
	"Not much, school and hanging out. How about you? Anything new and
exciting?" JC smiled at Justin though he were there.
	"Actually, that's what I was calling you about. I um, got asked for
something recently." Justin said to JC almost nervously.
	"Really, what, you know I want details." JC waited patiently and
that was when his invitation came. Just like he had gave Justin a chance so
long ago to eat ice cream, Justin had a chance for JC... well really a
chance, a plane ticket, and a place to stay as long as he needed it while
he tried out with Justin. They were going to try to become members of a
band.

***
TBC So...? :)