Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2001 13:06:05 EDT
From: Angel36745@aol.com
Subject: Libra5

  Disclaimer: I don't know nor have I ever met BSB. I don't know or work
for anyone connected to the BSB. This is just a story, it's not real and
did not happen. In other words I made it all up.

  Warning: This story is really weird, like most of my stories. It's really
out there in so many ways. I don't know how it's going to end I just know
the how it's going to begin. There may be sex, so if your under 18 don't
read it. If you don't like stories that involve relationships between two
men then don't read any further.

  Authors Note: As all of you know, well those that have read my other
stories. I've lost my mind, and it reflects on my stories. I want to thank
a few people, the first is Eddi. He is like so cool and my best
buddy. Secondly I would like thank Kenitra, you have helped me so much. If
it wasn't for Kenitra I would have never started writing so thank you so
much. For anyone I didn't put in this, sorry. Ok now on with my favorite
part of my stories, the symbols. Ok these *** mean a character change. If
I'm just starting a chapter I will put the name of the character in the
middle of the symbols. After I've started the chapter I'll put the name
after the symbols. I think that covers just about anything, well there is
one more thing. If anyone reads this story I would really like to hear some
feed back, good or bad. I hope you like the story.


****Nick****

  Jetta quickly brought his sword high into the air and began to bring it
down on him. A sword stopped him and pushed his sword back slightly. Jetta
jumped back about ten feet and prepared to charge again. "Now wait just a
minute young man, it appears we've made a mistake in your fighting
capability." Jetta looked at Arthur and smiled lightly, but he didn't put
his swords away. "I don't care what you've mistaken, you'll die for it. I
refuse to be a slave to any man, that means you. I refuse to bow to any man
no matter his status. I see that crown on your head, and I know what it
means. You think you're better than the rest of us, well I'm going to prove
you wrong." Before Jetta could move forward the area filled with
knights. "We are here my lord, what is it you wish of us?" I noticed it was
a blond hair knight who asked. "I think we should try to persuade this
young man to join us." The knights looked at Jetta and his armor, they
looked somewhat impressed. "My lord he is nothing but a boy, his armor is
great as are his weapons. That doesn't mean he would make a good knight,
certainly not a knight of the round table." Arthur laughed lightly and
patted the knight on his back and pointed toward Merlin.

  Merlin was standing up, he didn't look to upset with Jetta. "This boy
just fought with me, he almost won. If it hadn't been for Arthur I wouldn't
be alive right now, but that didn't stop the boy. In honestly I believe he
still could have killed me if you hadn't shown up." The knights looked back
at Jetta smiling lightly, then back to Arthur. "I would have killed you
both, my armor and swords are blessed by god. I will not join a slave
trader, but I will end your dark deeds. No longer will your kind hurt those
innocent, I will put and end to all traders." Jetta was moving forward with
his swords raised high in the air and his eyes on Arthur. Arthur went to
speak but arrows were already flying at Jetta's chest, they just bounced
off or broke and fell to the ground. One knight charged forward trying his
best to strike Jetta. Jetta simply broke the knight's sword in half then
kicked him in his stomach. The knight's armor bent inward with Jetta's blow
to his stomach, the other knight's looked a little scared. "Wait a minute,
wait just one little minute, we're not slave traders." Jetta looked at
Arthur then to the man laying on the ground, then to us. "Then what are
you, and if you have no slaves how did this kingdom get built. Are you
trying to tell me that this place was built without slaves." Arthur looked
to Merlin and then back to me and nodded.

  Jetta looked doubtful but he dropped his swords to the ground. "What do
you think of slave traders?" Arthur told him his thoughts on slavery, with
each word Jetta seemed to get calmer. "So your kingdom stands for freedom
and justice, all that good stuff?" The king nodded slowly while holding his
hand out. "I believe that you would help me accomplish this goal much
quicker." Jetta looked at him and slowly shook his head, then he looked to
me. "I would love to do nothing more than help you, and I think I will but
I can't exist here. There can be no record of me in this time, or the
others that are with me. We aren't from this time, we were sent back in
time by some force unknown to us. I think we might be able to help but only
if we continue to be unknown to the pubic." Arthur was nodding while Merlin
looked prefaced with the idea of time travel. "You say you were sent back
in time, why do you think it was done?" Jetta looked at Merlin and shrugged
his shoulders lightly. "I don't honestly know, what I do know is that may
have saved my life. I was fighting a god who claimed to be my son, but
before he could kill me we ended up here." Merlin nodded and looked around
for something, he was a very strange man.

  "Well, we should get to the castle so I can knight you in front of the
other knights. I know that you wish to remain nameless but I would at least
like to knight you." Jetta agreed and followed Arthur and the other
knights. We just followed Jetta, none of us had any idea how to act. Arthur
was just a fairy tale told to kids, but I never thought he was real. This
place we were walking in was Camelot, but I had never seen this city in my
own time. I had flown all over this area and went sight seeing so many
times it wasn't funny. I had never seen anything like this city before now,
so how could it exist? I had a lot of questions I planned on asking Merlin
once I had the time. We watched as Arthur touched Jetta's shoulders and
head with his sword. Jetta slowly stood up and looked at Arthur, then to
us. "Your friends are they warriors like yourself, or just peasants?" Jetta
smiled and walked toward us with a huge smile. "I think they could be
wonderful warriors, if they would learn how to fight." He slapped me on my
back, and I noticed that with the armor I didn't feel it. "Like I said
before, we're not from this time, we're from the future. Well, kind of,
this time is a little like the time I grew up in. Now their time that they
grew up in is nothing like this time." I was about to say something, but
Jetta stopped me with a hand movement.

  Jetta got the king to give us each a room, then he called all of us
together. "I'm really happy none of you said anything, it could have been
very hurtful. Say nothing of your time to anyone here, not even Merlin. I
know who they are, I knew the second you entered the city. I know that I
could have destroyed history by fighting Merlin, but it had to be done. It
was the only way we could earn his, or Arthur's respect. It's why I asked
to remain unnamed, as will all of you. While we have to stay in this time
we might as well live well." Jetta walked to the window then turned back to
us, he had this darkness in his eyes. "I should I have said you, I'm
leaving in a few hours, now that I know you're safe. I'm going to ask
Arthur to train you, and to take care of you until I can return. I'll offer
him my services in a war in return for taking care of you." He turned to
leave but Brian was blocking the door, he had a distant look in his
eyes. "Don't go, don't leave us again, please stay with us." Jetta looked
at Brian, it was like he was asking Brian to add more to his request. "I
can't right now, I still have to find myself, I'll be back someday. When I
can look at myself in a mirror without wanting to shatter the image. I'll
make sure that all of you are taken care of. I'll also start looking for a
way back to your time." That was the last words we heard him say before he
left.

*****Jetta

  I spent the next year traveling, I hoped the guys were doing all right. I
knew I could trust Arthur to train them to be warriors. I had taken my
armor off and refused to put it back on while I traveled. I had my swords
and I could fight better than most men in this time, not much to worry
about. I didn't have to watch out for anyone but myself, and it felt good
to be on my own. I was even starting to get a following of men that wanted
to train with me. Some even pledged their lives to me, I hadn't known what
to say or how to really act. Six more months passed and I soon had twenty
men that followed me from city to city. I would teach them what I could,
but I couldn't show them everything I knew. I would try to help those that
looked like they really needed it. I still asked them to never write
anything about me down. After another year passed I decided it was time I
returned to the others. I had spent two and a half years just wondering the
land in search of myself. I still hadn't really found anything that helped
but I noticed that I didn't think about it much anymore. I would still kill
any slave trader that crossed my path, even those who didn't look all that
evil. Every time I would kill one I would feel better about myself.

  I soon got word that Arthur was in need of my services. I had been on my
way back to Camelot anyway so it wasn't that hard. I turned to my men and
asked them if they knew the way to Camelot. Once they confirmed that they
knew that I got off my horse and took my clothing off. "I am going to fight
a war soon, and I will not blame you for not following me. I'm going on a
head to Camelot, it has been an honor riding with all of you." Once that
was over with I summoned my armor, the men looked scared. I took my swords
and put them into a rock. I would travel faster without having to worry
about cutting someone in half. I started running as fast a could heading
straight for Camelot, I never looked back once. I knew I was moving at an
amazing speed, and soon found that I could run across water. I had never
tried anything like it before, it was an interesting idea. In two days I
was walking back into Camelot, the city walls looked like they were about
to fall apart. As I walked through the city I noticed that many of the
people would hide. As I got closer to the castle I could hear a war raging
outside of the walls that protected the castle. I looked at the men as they
tried to storm the castle, they looked strong. I could see Merlin in a
tower of the castle, he was sending hell fire down on the invaders. I
smiled to myself and summoned my swords to my hands, I would make short
work of these men.

  I charged forward alone, the men didn't even see what hit them. I was
slicing men one after another, some were starting to understand they were
being attacked. Soon dozens of men charged toward me with their weapons
held high. I spun in circles moving as quickly as I could, but I wasn't
hitting anything. I slowly stopped and looked at the men that had been
running toward me. This look of pure fear was held in their eyes, I smiled
and started to move forward. They were backing away, I also noticed the
other men had stopped attacking the castle. All eyes were on me, I let the
darkest laughter in my heart rip free. An arrow was flying toward my head,
my sword knocked it out of the sky before it hit. Other arrows bounced off
my chest, swords broke as they crashed down on the armor. I started
fighting back ripping the men apart, their screams for mercy fell on deaf
ears. I didn't leave one standing, even the ones who ran didn't make it
far. I fought for more than two hours until I ran out of men to kill. I
looked at all the bodies and smiled to myself. I was proud of myself, I was
a one man army, I was unstoppable in this armor. I started counting the
bodies, there were sixty bodies. I turned to see the gates opening, slowly
Arthur walked out. He looked at the small battle feild, he looked shocked
beyond belief.

  He moved toward me with five knights behind him, I already knew who they
were. "I can't believe you did this single handily." I laughed lightly and
looked around, then smiled to the guys. "Thank you for keeping your word
Arthur, I have kept mine as you can see. I know it isn't over but at least
now we'll have less warriors to worry about." He looked at me like I was a
different person than the one he had met a few years ago. "I see you've
turned my friends into warriors, thank you." The guys looked a little
confused, then they started removing their helmets. Kevin had let his hair
grow out, much like my own hair, only a little shorter. Brian had remained
the same, only his eyes were a little darker. Howie had long curly hair, AJ
had shaved his head, but I had been mistaken. Nick wasn't with them, the
fifth knight had normal armor on, and I didn't know him. "Where is Nick, he
is all right isn't he, where is he Arthur." I looked at the king he almost
back away from me. "He is with Merlin, he decided he would rather learn
magick than sword play." I smiled then slowly nodded as my armor slipped
away returning me to my normal state. "I came as soon as your messenger
found me, I'm sorry it took so long." Arthur shook his head and placed his
arm over my shoulders and led me back into the castle. The castle was in
bad shape and would need a great deal of rebuilding done.

  The guys were right behind us, still they hadn't spoken one word. "Arthur
if you wouldn't mind I would like to have a word with my friends in
private." He nodded and left me with my friends, not much had
changed. "Nick should be down here in a little while, he might be looking
for some new clothing." I laughed lightly as Brian told me what I already
knew. "Do you have any rooms where we could talk a little more openly?"
Kevin nodded and walked toward the main entrance. I followed them up a few
sets of stairs until we reached five connecting rooms. "It use to be a
large meeting room, it was given to us to live in. That's Nick's room, it
has most of the cool stuff and that ones mine, just a few weapons. " I
nodded and looked at Brian a little more closely, he had changed
slightly. I could tell that he had now taken a life, he had that look about
him, the guilt. I use to carry it when I was younger, those days no longer
existed. "You've all gotten so much stronger, I knew you could do it." They
all looked a little more distant now, something was wrong. Nick entered the
room then, he looked exactly the same he had when I had left. I hugged him
tightly and pulled back to see a confused look on his face. I looked to the
others, none of them would make eye contact with me. "Nick was in an
accident one night, he lost some of his memoire. He knows who we are, but
it's like you never existed." I looked back at Nick, to say it didn't hurt
would have been a lie.

  I backed away slightly and took a seat on Brian's bed and just looked at
Nick. He looked at me, then to the others, he looked frustrated. "Someone
should tell Nick who I am, because I don't think I have the power to."
Brian told Nick everything he knew about me, I just sort of dazed. I
couldn't believe he had forgotten me and not everything else, in truth I
don't know why it meant so much. Once Brian had finished Nick looked at me
with what looked like amazement. Nick left a minute later, Merlin needed
his help with something. "A lot of things have changed since you left J, a
whole lot of things." I looked at all of them, I think I had already
figured that out by now. "So why don't you fill me in on everything that's
happened, it might help." It had sounded a lot colder than I had intended
it to. "Well, we've changed, so have you, but I'm not for sure it was for
the better." I stood up and walked to the door looking outward, then back
to them. "I've grown up, something I never had the chance to do
before. I've gotten stronger, and a lot wiser than I was before. I didn't
mean to sound so rude, or cold toward you, I've gotten use to being a
little harsh. I'm sorry, but look at you guys, you all look so amazing,
real knights." Everyone seemed to calm down a little, well everyone but
Brian, he only tensed.

  I shook my whole body slightly trying to get the kinks out of my
system. "I should grab a bath and get some of this blood off my body." I
walked out of the room and headed toward the bathing room. I hoped it was
still in the same place it had been the last time I was here. I found it
without any problem, it had changed slightly, gotten a little more
modern. I was worried that the guys had something to do with all of this,
well I couldn't change it now. I found an empty tub and started filling it
with water that was already heated. I got in and started washing off, once
I was satisfied I got out. I found a robe and slipped it on then walked
back to the guys room. Brian was the only one in the room, he was waiting
for me I could tell. "So are you back for good, or did the messenger keep
from completing your mission." I smiled at him, then slowly took a seat
beside him, he looked worried. "I'm back for good, I was on my way back
when the messenger found me. If we're lucky we'll have twenty more men to
help fight in this war, but it could take a week or two before they get
here." Brian nodded slowly and turned toward me, he was sweating. "I've
been meaning to ask you something for a really long time now, I just
couldn't find the right words until now." I looked at Brian, he looked
really nervous, he was almost shaking.

  I turned his head until he was facing me, he looked even more nervous. I
slowly pulled his lips toward mine until they met. The kiss was light and
innocent, but I think it helped Brian a little. "I wanted to know if you
would go out with me, I guess this means you will." I just smiled and
nodded slowly, I took his hand in mine and pulled him up with me. "Why did
it take you so long to ask, are you blind or something?" Brian was blushing
majority, it was really cute. "I just didn't know what you would say, and
you've been through so much. I didn't want to push you into anything, why
didn't you ask?" Now it was my turn to blush lightly and smile like a
little kid. "Same reasons, well not exactly, I just didn't think you would
want me. Brian to me your perfect in every way, why would you want me? I
mean think about it, you could have anyone you wanted, while I'm just
used. There were so many times the thought of you and I entered my mind,
and I could only smile. Then all hell broke lose, and I lost so much
control over myself. I just didn't think you would want someone that had
been used so much. Plus I had to find myself, which didn't really happen. I
just learned that life goes on with or without justice, I got my
justice. Still it didn't ease the pain that filled my heart and mind every
second of everyday." I was at a loss for words, I really didn't know how to
describe the way I felt.

  I shrugged my shoulders and let myself relax lightly. "I was losing my
mind, and I didn't know where to really turn. Something told me that I
could turn to you, but I refused to. When we first came to Camelot, I was
thinking about staying, but you left something out of your request. If you
had added yourself to the list of reasons to stay I wouldn't have thought
twice about it. You didn't and that wasn't your fault, it was your
choice. Still it helped me to at least find some kind of peace within
myself." Brian had tears falling from his eyes as he looked at me. "I
thought about asking you to stay for me, but it sounded so odd. I was use
to keeping myself away from anything that would cause Leigh to expose
me. So I stayed away from you, as much as I could, which wasn't easy. That
was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, was to not ask you to stay with
me. I'm so sorry now, if I could just go back in time, try to find a way to
say what I needed to say." I placed my fingers on his lips softly, and
shook my head slowly. "In my journeys I may have found up a way to send us
back. We would walk right back into what we left then. It would mean
killing that one god, or hiding for a little while." I didn't know if I
wanted to tell him the rest, since it would mean ending what had just
begun.

  Brian looked really happy with my idea, there was only one catch. I
couldn't find the strength to tell him the whole truth. The spell would
send them back to their rightful time, but it would also do the same to
me. I didn't belong in their time, I had never really belonged in their
time. The spell would send me back to right before I was turned into
stone. I would still be in the same body, so it would be like pushing out
the old and in with the new. I would summon my armor and truly fight
Jupiter, then I would change the gates of their kingdom. I would end their
race forever leaving only the history books to tell of them. In doing this
I knew that I wouldn't be turned to stone, that I would in fact die. I
would never see Brian, or any of the others that I cared to much about
now. I knew that Nick would still exist in his time. I just didn't know if
he would still be himself, I would no longer be apart of his soul. I also
knew that most likely he and Brian would find each other in new ways. I
would go as far to say that they would fall in love with one another. I
would miss them all, but it was the only way I knew to get them back to
their time. They wouldn't even remember me, that thought hurt me so much
that I could feel it in my very soul. No history book would ever tell the
story of me and the other warriors that fought the gods. No one would ever
know I even existed, my heart ached to tell Brian everything.

  I stood up slowly and moved away from him, looking out the window. I
would keep my word to Arthur and help him win this war. I just didn't think
it would do any real good, because once this was over it meant I was never
here. Everything in history would be as it should have been, and that was
ok with me. I looked at Brian and did everything in my power not to let the
tears fall. He stood up and moved to my side, he took my hand in his. He
pulled it up to his chest and looked deeply into my eyes, that very second
my heart gave way. "There's more you should know about the spell, but it
changes everything." He looked worried, but I went on and told him
everything I knew about the spell. "Then we can't do the spell, we'll just
have to find a different spell. You can come back to our time, we'll help
you fight the gods. We're warriors now, we could help you, and Nick, hell
he's been studying magick. He could really help you stop the other gods,
please Jetta, don't let this happen. I just got together with you, and now
you're telling me that I won't even remember you. Look if you do this, I'll
still be stuck under Leigh's control." Brian was giving me dozen's of
reasons to not go through with this plan of mine. I just didn't know if
there was another way to set things right, and I was tired of looking.

  I wasn't in the mood to face the others just yet, not with the new news
being told. I just stayed on Brian's bed and listened to them. "You're
right Bri, we can't do the spell, not now anyway." When Nick entered the
room and was informed, he was silent for a short amount of time. "Well, I
don't see why we can't just do it, I mean think about it. It would end all
of our problems, and we would be home. We wouldn't miss him, it would be
like he never existed." I wasn't to shocked when the words left his lips,
but it hurt. "How could you say something like that Nick, are you
heartless?" I stood up and walked out to join the others in their
conversion. "Nick's right, it would end a lot of problems and you wouldn't
miss me. He isn't being heartless, he's only being real about it that's
all." Brian looked at me and shook his head, then he looked back at
Nick. "If you could just remember, then maybe you would be on the same page
as the rest of us." Nick raised his eye brow and looked at me closely. "I
don't really see the need in remembering him, when the spells done it won't
matter." I closed my eyes and nodded slowly then left the room. I left the
castle and walked outside of the city gates as quickly as I could move my
legs. I knew the guys weren't that far behind me, but that didn't really
matter all that much.

  Nick was right and I should have just kept my mouth shut and done the
spell. I could have done it alone and they would have never of known. They
wouldn't have even have been pulled back to this time to begin with. I had
the spell memorized, it was the only way I could keep track of it. I knew
that I hadn't done the spell for a reason, now only it seemed childish. I
had wanted Brian to change my mind, I didn't want him to forget me and move
on. I had been selfish and childish, now I was going to do what I should
have done in the first place. "I know what you're thinking about doing, and
it isn't fair. Once you opened your mouth you made this a group choice not
a solo." I turned and looked at Kevin, he looked determined. "No, because
once it's done, you won't even care. You'll go back to living your lives as
stars. I'll go back in time and do what I should have done and not be a
coward. I could have fought Jupiter, I know that now, and I plan on making
the right choice this time. Hundreds of men gave their lives up to help me
before the end came. I should have at least put up a fight, I hurt him, but
I could have killed him. If I had I could have taken on the rest of the
gods and saved my son. I could lived my life out raising him the way he
should have been raised. If not that then I could have at least gave him a
better future." I looked at all of them, even Nick had decided to join us.

  I walked up to him and smiled lightly, I owed him for clearing my
mind. "Thank you for helping me see the light Nick." Right after the words
left my mouth something covered my mouth. Then my arms were pulled back,
the guys were trying to stop me. I pulled my body in, then pushed
outward. I sent them all flying back even Nick had fallen. Only he wasn't
getting up, his head had hit a rock. I could see blood slowly pouring out
of his skull. I moved to his side and knelt down slowly pulling him into my
arms, I couldn't believe what I had done. I picked him up and ran toward
the castle, I had to get him to Merlin. I just hoped the old man could help
him, the others chased after me. I didn't know if they had seen what
happened or not. I ran through the castle gate and up the stairs to the
tallest tower. I ran into Merlin's room he was sitting in a chair like he
had been waiting for me. I sat him down on the bed, then looked to Merlin
waiting for him to do something. "The bleeding will stop in about thirty
seconds, he'll be fine Jetta, nothing to worry about." I looked at him like
he was nuts, he had a small smile on his lips as he stood up. "I would have
thought you would know that I could see the future. I know there are many
book's written about me in Nick's time." I looked at Nick, now I could kill
him, how could he let this information out.

  I didn't care how good the old man was, he couldn't know about those
books. "Nick didn't tell me anything Jetta, I know that's what you're
thinking. For me tomorrow is as clear as glass, while yesterday is what
confuses me." I looked at him a little confused, but I was starting to
understand. "The future is constantly changing, how can you know about all
the changes?" He smiled lightly and finally stood up and walked over to
Nick. "Simple, when something changes, like say your arrival I feel it
happening. It's how I knew you would be running up those stairs, and how I
know that others will be here in two seconds." I counted it off and the
others ran into the room looking a little worried. "Then maybe you know how
to help us, maybe you could modify it." Merlin smiled and nodded his head,
so I wrote the spell down for him. I knew that to speak the spell aloud
would invoke it, not something I wanted to really do anymore. "It's a
really simple spell, I've seen it used before, it normally works
perfectly. Now changing will take a few days at the most, so check back
with me then. Oh by the way when Nick wakes up he's going to be really
upset with himself. He'll regain his memoire of Jetta, by the way you
should get out of sight. I think Nick needs to feel a little bad about his
actions, so leave now." I didn't even question him, I just left with the
others right on my tail.

  Two days passed, and everything was going great, Nick kept telling me how
sorry he was. I told him it was ok, that he shouldn't really worry about
it. Brian and I were getting closer with every passing second. We spent a
good amount of time together just talking and working out together. I was
trying to teach him everything I had ever learned over my years of
training. He wasn't learning as quickly as I had, but he was slowly getting
there and he was getting stronger. I checked in with Merlin, he was still
working on the spell, but he was in a good mood. "I would really like it if
you and your friends stayed until the war is over." I looked at him, there
was something in his eyes that told me he was trying to change something.
"Is it really that war, the one Arthur died in, is that why you want us to
stay?" Merlin looked at me with very old and very sad eyes that spoke with
so much love. Merlin didn't love Arthur like I loved Brian, but he did look
at Arthur like he was his son. I understood him better than he would ever
know, I would try the same thing. "I'll leave it up to you, if you really
want us to stay then we will." Merlin didn't smile he just looked away as I
left the room. I knew he had a very big choice to make, one that could
change everything in the history books. He knew that as well, if he was
still willing to carry it out then I would help him. He was going to send
me and my friends back to our time, I owed him one.

  To Be Continued