Long Road Home
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Last time on Long Road Home:
"Yeah, it's me go back to
sleep we have awhile before we stop," I whispered.
As I stretched out he
wrapped his arm around my waist and laid his head on my shoulder which seemed
to be his favorite pillow now. All that I can remember was listening to his
steady breathing and thinking, 'Cody I hope that your daddy is ready for this
journey that we are taking.' Then sleep finally came, and for once in my life I
did not have a worry when I went to bed, just the overwhelming love and support
of my son, four new brothers, and my new found love.
I awoke to a warm bundle on
my chest that was starting to squirm. Once I saw what it was, or rather
who it was I was quite happy.
"Hey little guy, what are
you doing up here with Uncle Joey?"
The only response that I
received was a little thump with a small babble of baby talk. As I sat up
holding Cody up to my chest I saw Chris sleeping on the other chair, and Lance
and JC were at the kitchen table whispering on a cell phone.
"What are you two sneaking
over there," I asked with alarm, which to their credit they tried to hide the
cell phone, but knew that I saw it.
"We were talking to Justin's
mom letting her know that we are on the way home, and should be about 90 miles
from home right about now." was Lances' practiced answer. I could
tell that this was something that they had been up to from the way he spouted
the answer back so fast to me. With that I saw JC mouth the words, `I
will call back later,' and he ended the call.
"Well, I think that this
little bundle of love here needs to see his dada and his hopeful papa," I
let them know as I started to the back of the bus. Once at the door I
slowly opened the latch to peek in which made Cody only want to pull on the
door frame. `Just like your dad... impatient,' kept running in my
mind. With a slight giggle and a little coaxing from me his hand let go
so that I could finally open the door all the way. There was a sight of
pure happiness if I have ever seen one. Cameron was on his back with
Justin on his stomach laying his head on Cameron's shoulder sleeping
soundly. As soon as Cody saw his dad he started opening and closing his
hands as if to say come get me, or take me over there now. I had to laugh
at his eagerness to be with them.
So I gently laid Cody down on the bed, and he started his crawl up to
Cameron's nose. Once he reached his target he grabbed hold and pulled
with all his little might. What Cody did not know was that his dad had
woken up when the door was opened, and was waiting for him to take his
nose. Much to Cody's surprise Cameron blew on his hands and made a phhht
sound, which made Cody jump and squeal his high pitched boy laugh. This
of course made Justin bolt upright at the sound, which is when I decided to
make my exit.
The squeal woke me from a
sound sleep, one of the best that I have had in a long time. I opened my
eyes, only to find the door being closed, and a laughing Cameron being covered
by Cody. So I did what I was supposed to do, and helped Cody tickle
Cameron into a laughing fit. Now was my chance, I picked up Cody, and
gave him a gentle kiss on his forehead. He then tucked his head under my
chin and proceeded to suck on his thumb. Cameron gently ran a hand down
Cody's head to the small of his back, which to my surprise did not even
make him move from his resting spot on me. I was really starting to love
this little guy, he has a way of melting into your heart, and never letting
The sight before me was so
cute to watch. Here was this young man to many, but Justin to me holding my,
no our son Cody. Yes, our son, I liked the sound of that were a family
now. How could you not see the love in Justin's eyes as he looked down at
Cody, yes this is going to be a great time in my life.
"Justin, have you told your
mom, or anyone for that matter that I am going to be on the bus with you once
we arrive at Orlando?" I quietly asked.
"Yes I have, I as well as the
other guys have also talked to our management." was his soft
reply. "I also have spoken with Mom and Paul about our
decision to take things slow. So we are going to let you stay in the
guest house. That way I can be close to you, and you close to me at all
times. As well as mom can be there for Cody if we need her or Paul's
help." Justin quickly stated.
Well, that was quite a bit
to take in at one time, so I think Justin could see this on my face and decided
that at that point I needed a kiss. It was a gentle kiss that conveyed so
much love, but at the same time fear in his eyes as I looked at him. Cody
then decided before we broke apart that he wanted to slobber on both of our
cheeks to let us know that he loved both of us.
"Ahhh baby sugars, you have
to love those!" I laughed out, which made both Cody and Justin laugh
"I guess we should head back
out to the rest of the group don't you think? I mean Cody probably needs a
little bit to eat as well." I inquired while opening the door to the
front of the bus. Once we made our way back up front I could see Joey on
the couch looking at a magazine, Chris was snoozing on the chair, and JC along
with Lance were setting at the table scribbling notes down on a yellow legal
pad. Which they quickly removed from our sight once Justin sat down at
the table still with Cody under his chin sucking his thumb.
"I think its time for a
little snack for my Code man," I baby talked to Cody. Which to his credit
he just smacked his lips and put his thumb back in his mouth. I continued
to the fridge to get Cody something to snack on while Lance's cell phone rang,
and he excused himself from the group to take the call in the back. I
could almost see a smile on his face when the phone rang. What is he up
too, and who is that on the phone that would make him smile like that, I
`I have to go somewhere
private,' I thought. `I cannot let the guys know who I am talking to it's
just too much to handle right now.' "Baby are you there," his voice asked
from the phone.
"Yes, I'm here cutie, sorry
about the blank out on yah." I responded softly. How could I
explain to him that I have not told anyone other than one person about
him? How would he respond if he knew that? Love, hate, fear, or all
of the above? Well, only one way to find out.
"Eric, I have to be honest
with you, I was going to the back of the bus to talk with you so that the guys
would not know who I was talking to." shakily came out of my mouth.
"Um Lance, I know that you
have not told anyone about us yet, but you don't ever have to be scared to
admit that babe, I love you for who you are, not what you are." Eric lovingly
responded. `How in the world did he always know what to say to me that
would make me smile and fall in love all over again I will never know.' It reminded me of how Eric and I had met.
** FLASHBACK **
I met Eric my
freshman year of high school, and it was love at first sight. He was a
junior on the football team, and indisputable prize catch of the
school. He caught me staring at him in the lunch room about half way
through the first year, and to my surprise he came over to me, all alone and sat down and looked at me. I was scared, I mean
really scared, he could have beat me to death or worse. Now that I think
about it I think he could see that in my eyes. His only words to me were,
"I thought you might need some company." `No, at that point I
needed a doctor,' I thought.
"I'm Lance," I introduced
"Yeah, I know who you are,
I'm Eric, but I think that you already know that." he smugly
"I have noticed you watching
me over the last few months, and I must say that you either like me, or have
good taste, maybe both?" Eric smoothly inquired.
"Um, um well yeah I do kind
of like you." I squeaked out afraid of the punch that was to come.
Instead all I got was a huge smile, and a phone number on a napkin that said: 'Call me tonight.' Then he turned around and walked back toward the sea of
students in the lunch room. Though, upon his leaving, I received several odd
looks, some of the kids, especially some of the cheerleaders were either giving
me a look of awe, or downright disgust. For it was a well known fact that Eric
never gave out a phone number to anyone unless they were something to
him. Not even his best friend got his phone number until almost a year of
friendship. Eric, it seemed, took awhile to judge the character of the
person before he would open up fully to them. Now here I sat with the
golden ticket of the entire high school in my hands scribbled on a dime a dozen
napkin. This, to this very day is still with me in my wallet for good
luck. That's how it all started, and now here I am on the road, and
on the phone with the one man that has my heart.
Return to Lance's POV
"Eric, I miss you so much
right now, I think I am going to have you come over, and meet everyone when we
get home, because I want you with me, I am tired of hiding." I admitted
"Well, you just let me know
when and where I will be there baby, oh and remember I love you baby." he
cooed back to me.
"I love you too, but I have
got to go. I will call you later we are about 50 miles or so from Orlando now,
I will let you know when we get there." I waited for the sound of the dial tone,
and then disconnected the call.
`What are you about to do Lance?' I thought to myself. What ever it was I felt that I would have
the support of my four brothers and Cameron. As for my family well I
would just have to see about that.
Feeding Cody with these
clowns around proved out to be a challenge. Chris and Joey just tried to
keep his attention, while Justin watched as if he was trying to study every
little thing that was eaten or done. I could feel that Justin was trying
to remember what I did and how Cody liked to eat incase he ever had to jump in
and give it a try. It was kind of cute to see his forehead bunch up as if
in deep thought. Then his eyes to light up when Cody would babble back to me
about something that I'm sure was important to him. When I finally got
him feed and cleaned up, Joey and Chris had taken to playing a game while JC
studied something that appeared to be a song. Lance had finally returned
from the back of the bus, but he was in a very strange mood and Justin, well let's
just say that Cody felt that Justin would look better with applesauce and
bananas on his shirt than in his tummy. So I sent him to wash up while I
decided to talk to Mr. Face of stone Lance.
"Ok what's going on?" I
gently asked him.
"It's nothing Cameron and
everything at the same time." Lance huffed out. "I just have a lot on my
mind that I have to deal with in a very short amount of time. I have less
than 50 miles amount of time. I have been keeping a secret from the guys
for a long time now, and I am afraid of what may come from it if I let it be known."
Lance rambled out.
"Well, from the sound of it
I would say you have two options. One is to not say anything and try to
keep up the charade of lies and feel horrible. Two is that you can come
clean to the guys tell them what is going on and hope for the best. Lance
they know you better than most friends know each other, I think that whatever
it is they will be by your side all the way. I feel that I know what it
is, but it is not up to me to say anything. I will say that if it is what
I am thinking, all that I ask is that if you do tell them I want to meet
him." I gently whispered the last part to him.
That did it then, his big
green eyes began filling with tears, and slowly started to run down his cheeks
and drop off of his chin. It was at that point that Cody decided that
Lance needed a hug, or should I say smother Lance around his neck. Kids
seem to know when something is up, and Cody hugging Lance was one of those
moments that could have lasted a lifetime and never gotten old. So I did
what was logical I joined my son in the hug a thon for Lance. The other
guys seemed to not notice our little exchange in the kitchen area of the bus
which was good I felt because Lance was so emotional about the issue I felt he
needed to let it out before he went face to face with his friends.
As he dried his tears and
kissed Cody on the head he handed him back to me and stated, "I think it's time
for a group meeting."
He then proceeded to head
toward the front of the bus where Chris and Joey were with JC busy writing down
on his pad and Justin still in the bathroom trying to clean up. He made
it clear that I could join if needed, but I felt this was a time for the guys
alone, and that I should stay out unless needed. He knocked on the
bathroom door told Justin to meet in the back for a group meeting in five
minutes, then proceeded to tell the rest of the guys in the front that it was
time to have a talk. Before the door shut I could tell Justin knew what
was up, and did not want to say anything from the half smile-frown the he gave
me when he went through the door and closed it behind him.
Author Notes: Well, there it
is another chapter is complete. I cannot thank you all enough for your kind
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