Date: Sun, 8 Aug 1999 08:04:47 -0400 (EDT) From: Nate Deep Subject: Love-And-Friendship-With-Nsync Part 2 Legal Stuff: If you are under 18 or offended by gay material you know what to do! Disclaimer: This story is fiction and does not imply anything about the group Nsync. Hey everyone! Here's the second part! I made a big mistake in the first part where I accidentally called myself Nate. I'll just make it my MIDDLE NAME okay? Thanks for all the comments on my story! Oh yeah, about "Love Nsync." I'm thinking of putting it back up, but my current project is this one. Email any comments to nate637@mail.com . Also you can email me if you support "Love Nsync" and that you want me to put it back up. So... Let's get started! Before on Love and Friendship with Nsync: Authors Note: I've made a mistake in the first part by accidentally calling myself Nate. Well, now, lets consider that my "Middle Name" that my manager or boss uses. "I'm... I'm gay!" Justin said in a low voice. "You're gay? What the hell? I take it when you were out sick you were faking it and went to your boyfriends house?" JC screamed out loud so that everyone can hear him in the restaurant. "JC, please stop screaming. Please?!?" Justin said with tears falling from his face unstoppably. "Why shouldn't I be screaming? You're a fag! I'm outta here!" "JC! JCCCCCCC! Please!! Wait and talk to me!" "Get the hell off me man, you're out of the group you fag!" "No! Please! No!" Justin fell down to his knees and cried uncontrollably. All in a sudden, he saw JC coming back with an angry face. Justin saw this and tried moving back but he was too weak to even stand. JC started punching him in the face, in the arm, then choked him. Then he fell dead, in black, just lying there, no where to be known and no one to be seen. All by himself, all alone. Mark was sitting next to Justin trying to wake him up. Mark knew he was having a bad dream. When Justin woke up, he took a swing at Mark then Mark just fell on the floor, still absorbing the hit. Justin was crying even more, his hand hurting, wondering where he was. Mark got up and went back to Justin, holding him. "Justin... Justin... its alright. You were having a bad dream. Shh. Shh." He took me and hugged me, crying loudly and hardly on my shoulder. We stood there rocking back and forth. Until he decided to speak. "Mark?..." Love And Friendship With Nsync: Part "Two" "Mark?..." Justin asked in a post-crying voice. "Yeah Justin?" "I'm, I'm so sorry that I..." I interrupted saying, "It's okay now Justin. Don't worry about anything." "Umm. Mark?" "Ye... Yeah Just?" "I'm... I need to (hiccup) I need to talk to you." "What is it?" "Please... Don't tell anyone about this. I... I am not ready." Justin said with more tears starting again. "Don't worry Just, I'll let you decide what to do." "And... Do you love me?" When he said that, my heart stopped, a million thoughts ran through my head. My conscience told me, 'You can't love him. Your career will be over. You will be hated.' In my mind I replied, 'I do love him, I need him and he needs me!' In response, my brain said, 'You barely know him. If you love him, he'll eventually leave you and you'll be alone. You will never want to love anyone. You'll be alone. You'll be alone. You'll be alone.' Suddenly, a sweet voice came into my mind, 'Would you be coming back to him if you didn't love him? If you hear that he loves you and you loves him, nothing can come in your way. Your family and friends WILL get over it and accept who you are. If they don't, they were never your friends or family because those people are supposed to be at your side and support you.' "Mark? Mark?" Justin said in a concerned voice. I snapped out of the thoughts, "Justin. I do love you, but we need to know each other first." When I said that, the tears I had became tears of joy! I felt good to finally say what I wanted to say. Right then and there, everything just felt so right, so secure. Tears of joy also came out of Justin's eyes. "I love you too! But... But I'm scared. What's going to happen to me?" I just took him and hug him, not hardly, not softly either, just warmly and tenderly. Justin felt so safe and warm in my arms, that all the fear and sadness went away. Everything felt right. Justin didn't need an answer for his question because the love he had from me was all the answer he would need. We fell asleep in each others arms looking like a mess. We both woke up earlier than the rest and the sleep was just great. A little sore but nevertheless the sleep was perfect. Justin thinking to himself, 'That was one of the best, but shortest sleep I had and I wasn't angry in the morning.' Justin looked in the closet mirror across from him still in Mark's arms. He looked at himself and almost dropped Mark on the floor stunned at how messed up he looked. "What the hell? What happened?" Mark said with his heart pounding from that shock. "Oh my God, I'm so sorry, I just saw a monster in the mirror." "Oh geez, your right, look at you!" I said jokingly. "Oh shut up Marky! Now if you don't mind, I need to look good again." Justin retaliated also laughing a little. I shook my head at his remark and laughed and thought, 'Looks like I have a whole lot to learn about him then I thought.' "What are you laughing at?" "Oh, just how am I going to get to know you more? I've learned that you are conscious about... Oh geez, stop staring at me, you're scaring me, now go to the shower and freshen up!" I said with a laugh. "Oh so that's how it is? Come here you little joke!" He charged at me like a bull. He sure looked like one. "Ahhhhh... Looks like someone is goin' up for a fight." With that, I just flipped him over on the bed not knowing my own strength and put him in a locking position. I started to tickle him. "Oh NO! Stop! Hahaha Stop!" He couldn't help but laugh and suffer. I stopped and said, "Note, Mr. Timberlake weakness is tickling. I am going to have some fun with this guy." When I stopped, he broke free and took me in for a kiss. I regretfully pushed him away and said, "Nah ah ah! None of that till we know each other a little more." "Awwwwwww" He said as he pouted. "But there will be a lot of this!" I took him and tickled him again. I saw him suffer so much, and how much I wanted to do this, I had to stop. "Well, it's umm 7:30 and we have to be at Shoreline at 10, and I wanna be ready for my first tour with you guys and get some breakfast before we leave." "Okay, I'll go take a shower and look better." "I think you're right!" I said joking again. After we took a shower and YES in different bathrooms, we started to make some breakfast. JC, Joey, and Chris weren't awake yet and Lance was already in the shower. Justin went up to wake up the rest while I continued to make breakfast. There were only two bathrooms available so I let JC use my master shower. After Lance was done, he went down to help out Justin and me. Everyone was already in the dining room ready to eat. Justin, Lance, and me set the food and plates on the table. The first few minutes were silent because they were all digging in like people who haven't eaten in weeks. Justin decided to break the ice an so he said very nervously, "Umm. Guys? I have something to say." All the guys stopped and looked up at Justin allowing him to know that they were listening. It was the same for me too. "I don't know how to say this, but umm. I'm... I'm gay." Justin said that as he looked at the table and started to have tears. The room was silent for a few seconds that seemed like a few hours. Each took turns on saying something. "Hey man, so? Who cares if you're gay, you're always the same person I always knew, and I feel closer to you now." Joey said with care in his voice. "Same here! What made you think that I'll hate you for being gay? It's totally your life." Chris said as he looked over to Lance and so did everyone else. "Hey, you won't have to worry about it, I'm cool with it." Lance said with such a nice and caring voice. Everyone suddenly look at JC who was going to get up. Justin suddenly got scared at JC's action as he started to walk over to him with a serious face. Justin's smile faded away as he looked at JC walking towards him. Lance said very nervously, "C'mon JC don't do this." Everyone else said the same including me getting scared about what was JC going to do to Justin. JC just ignored everything and Justin grew with more fear. He was also having flashbacks of that dream he had last night. JC just picked up Justin and gave him a deep hug. "I love you Justin you're everything to me and nothing about being gay or anything else will ever come in between us." Everyone including Justin sighed in relief and started to laugh at JC's reaction. Justin gave back the hug also with deep feeling. After the little laugh, everyone else came up and gave Justin a hug. Justin said, "Thanks guys for being the best friends of my life. I love you guys!" "Wow, Justin saying he looooovvvveeeesss us? Aww how sweet!" JC said jokingly. Everyone else laughed. "Umm. Guys, I also have something to say." I said rather more comfortably. Everyone now looked at me with curiosity. "I'm bisexual." "Cool! Now can we start eating again, I'm really hungry!" Joey said smiling. Once again, everyone laughed at his remark, and got up and hugged me. "Umm. Justin and me. Are also together." "Wow! That's good to hear! Good luck! Now, I agree with Joey and lets start eating!" Chris said. Everyone else said positive things about the relationship and started to eat again. Before I knew it, we were at Shoreline rehearsing, doing sound checks, and getting ready. The concert went by and it was great. After the concert, we were all beat, and we didn't want to do anything else that night. We also noticed that we hadn't eaten too much before and after the concert. JC suggested that we go to Burger King because it was the closest fast food restaurant. That was my favorite by the way. We decided to eat inside and not go through drive through because the order always would turn out wrong. I went out first while the guys stayed in the car putting back on their jackets. "Hello my name is..." The girl serving us was about to scream. I put my hand over her mouth. "Shh. If you will be quiet, I will give you an autograph. The guys hadn't come in yet, so she didn't know about them either. After my saying to her, she just nodded. No one else saw us because the rest of the people working were dedicated to their job, didn't know me, or were older than the age when people listen to the music I play. I took out a piece of paper only because I don't carry pictures around with me. Later, about 2 minutes after this little incident, the guys walked in, looking tired and really hungry. By then, the girl serving us almost fainted at the scene. She almost screamed, but she remembered about what I said to her and she just calmed down. All the guys signed a group picture for her too. We FINALLY got all of our food and headed for a secluded table. We all sat and started eating. "Hey, so Mark. How did you two hook up?" JC asked, looking so serious. "Umm. Well. Umm. I don't feel like discussing that here." I replied looking over at Justin who just smiled at me. He was sitting next to me, with him in between JC and me. The other three were on the other side. Justin spoke up, "C'mon Mark, you can tell them, I don't care." I kind of frowned a little at his remark because he said 'He didn't care.' I took it the way I did and my heart sank. I thought, 'He doesn't care? What if later on he doesn't care for me anymore?' I shook that out of my head and said rather normally but with a little touch of sadness that Justin noticed immediately, "When I went to Justin's room to check on him, I saw him, well, crying. I tried helping him out. At first he refused by lying to me, I decided to take a risk of trying to get in the situation more. I told him, you need help and he needs someone to talk to and that I was there for him. He started to cry a little more and I took him in for a hug by instinct and tried to calm him down. Then it came to me that it should be him to decide when to tell and not me. Then after what I said, he just looked up at me, and kissed me. The kiss, was well, it was shocking and surprising. I had never expected it. I just stood up and left the room. I walked out and stood by his door leaning against it thinking and regretting for what I just did. So I went back to his room, and I saw that he cried himself to sleep. I was wondering why he kept tossing and turning, I had noticed that he was having a really bad dream. I had this heartache, seeing him go through this. So then I tried waking him up, so when he woke up, he took a swing at me. I fell no the floor, still absorbing the pain that he hit me with. I came back up to him to hold him and calm him down. He was crying badly. We just stood there for a while, until he finally calmed down and decided to say something. He apologized for hitting me but before he could finish, I said it was okay, I knew the swing at me wasn't intentional. He then told me or well asked me with tears, if I love him. Then a million thoughts as it seemed ran through my head, saying No, you don't love him. And what will happen to you when people especially friends and family find out. What will they think? What will they do ya know what I mean? A gentle and supporting voice finally came into my mind telling me it was going to be okay and if it wasn't, my friends and family weren't meant to be. It was a long thought so Justin called out my name. I snapped out of my trance, and I was smiling on the inside. I told him I love him, but we have to know each other more first. By then, the tears of fear, turned into tears of happiness and comfort. His tears also turned into tears of joy and he returned the love to me, but he was scared. We hugged so tenderly that I felt so safe and warm with his arms around me. We then fell asleep in each other's arms. We woke up looking like a mess too. Then the sadness turned into happiness. I had tears running down my eyes. The guys were amazed at the story. Justin looked at me with tears in his eyes and smiling. He took my hand that was on my lap, and held it, tightly, lovingly, tenderly, peacefully, and warmly. I returned the same grip and just looked at him straight in the eye and smiled. I also thought, 'Maybe he does care, I love him and he loves me' Luckily the place was pretty empty around us. Everyone just smiled at us. By the time, we were finished eating and decided to go back to my house. As we got in the car, Chris and Joey fell asleep. Lance spoke up first, "So. Umm. Justin?" Everyone who was awake except for me who was driving which then I just listened, looked at Justin. "Yeah?" "What was in your dream that night?" Justin hesitated to ask, I sensed his problem and took his hand and held it, giving him support. I also didn't know what his dream was, I never asked, it just seemed that love overpowered nightmares, that the dream didn't matter, or well nightmare I should say. Justin, came out of his hesitation, and brought up courage. "In the dream, I was at a restaurant with JC. I was telling him I was gay and he got all pissed, called me a fag, screamed at me that everyone in the restaurant can hear and was lookin' at us. I asked him to calm down, but he asked me why he shouldn't be calm, and just left me on my knees crying, calling out his name for him to come back. Then he told me that I am out of the group." It took long for Justin to say all of this. It wasn't in a fast way. Justin and I then had tears falling out of our eyes. What I listened to was hurtful but something inside told me that it was just a dream for him and that the real world was the pure thing and that everything was okay now. Justin was almost sobbing, I tried my hardest to comfort him, it only worked a little. JC said, "I was like that in the dream? Justin, you know I can never be like that in real life." He put a hand on Justin's shoulder to also support him, which made Justin finally stop the tears and feel better. Lance didn't say anything and put his hand on Justin's other shoulder. No one said a word the rest of the ride home. I still held Justin's had, but I only took it off, every time I had to shift gears on my stick shift. As we pulled up, all of them were sleeping, even Justin. I had to wake them all up. "Hey! Guys! Wake Up! We're here and all you guys can sleep in the beds instead of here. Wouldn't you like that better?" All the guys were pretty grumpy, but still got up. Justin on the other hand woke up and smiled at me. "What?" Was what I asked him. "Huh? Can't I smile at my boyfriend? Well, I'll tell you about it when we get settled in." "Okay." I sighed. We all got into the house and the four went to their bedrooms while me and Justin just waked to our room holding hands. We went to Justin's room. I closed the door behind us and we started to talk. "So what's up baby?" I asked. Justin looking a little shocked at me for calling him baby, but he just smiled at the thought. "Well, I just wanted you to know that in the car I had a dream of you." "Really? Uh-oh, good or bad?" I asked half serious and half joking. "I wouldn't be smiling if it was bad ya know! Well, the dream was about me and you, getting some dinner, in a room with candles everywhere you look, red roses as the centerpiece of the dinner table, rare white rose pedals spread all over the place, me and you alone with a fancy dinner, expensive wine, love floating about in the room, and the two of us, sitting together, eating, talking, and loving each other like no other couple in the world can ever experience." Justin said with such passion. I cried listening, imagining, thinking, and most all, smiling at what he said. "I... I never knew that you were so affectionate, so gentle. I... I love you so much!" "And I... And I love you like no one can love anyone." I took him in for a light kiss, which grew with more love and passion. We stopped about 10 minutes later and we just looked in each other's eyes and smiled greatly. Justin, gently put his head on my shoulder and we sat like that, communicating with the sounds of inhales and exhales of us. That was the only way of communication we had, hearing breathe after breathe and holding each other tightly, feeling so safe, so warm, so secure. "Instead of sleeping here, you can sleep with me in my room. I will not do anything else but love you the way I do now." He agreed with me and I helped him up. I took all of his things and carried them to my room. He offered me to help, but I replied, "With my love for you and yours for me, I can be the strongest person in the world." He smiled at me and I led him to my room, with him closing the door behind us. We stripped down to our boxers and wife-beaters. I tucked him in, like a child, but I thought of him as my one and only I can care for and never lose. I crawled up next to him and put my arms around his chest and kissed him on his neck, then I snuggled my head so my nose was barely touching his neck. "I Love You Justin Timberlake." "I Love you too Mark Vallejo." I fell asleep peacefully. Justin was a little awake; he just wanted to feel the breathing of this special man, breathing upon his neck. Inhale...Exhale...Inhale...Exhale, is what Justin felt and heard. Slowly, he fell asleep, happy and no longer lonely of true love. To Be Continued... Hoped you liked that part. I hope it didn't take too long for this to come out, but I do have work and I am trying to make this work out with a lot of detail. Part 3 should come out in about a week. Thanks for ALL of your wonderful comments. If you didn't get a response, TELL ME so I can get a response back to you. I've been tied up also. So what do you think so far? Good? Bad? Tell me what you think about this story and if you have any suggestions, I would like to hear them. Email them to nate637@mail.com Part 3 coming soon!