Date: Fri, 21 May 1999 12:46:25 -0700 (PDT) From: CJ Subject: My Night With Howie D. Part 13 General Disclaimer: This story is purely FANTASY and does not mean that Howie D, Brian Littrell, or AJ McLean are gay. They are just characters in a FICTIONAL story. SO therefore if YOU have a problem with homosexual versions of them then READ NO FURTHER. If you have a problem with gay sex or relationships READ NO FURTHER. And if you are underage, or this is illegal where you live READ NO FURTHER. Aight now that THAT is out of the way, I want to say I am sorry for taking so long, but c'mon guys I have a life too. I hope you all like this version. There have been at least 20 different ones and I decided to go with this one. Of course I want ALL your reactions sent to me at magik77_1998@yahoo.com GOOD OR BAD And before we begin I want to give a shout out to all my pals: AJ, Jon, JM, JJ, Nicky, Meg, Jess, Chris, Leprechaun...I feel like I am forgetting someone but if I am you know I love ya :) And thank YOU the readers. I love getting responses from all of you. And I was touched when ya'll wrote and were worried about me, scared when I got threats of guns being held to my head to write faster, and confused by one in particular, YOU know who YOU are. My Night Part 13 by CJ "Don't even talk to me. I can't believe a word you say anymore." This kept echoing through Howie's head as he walked to the condo. And so did the image of giving Craig back his engagement ring. And the look on his face when he did it. Then the reason for it all came and he put the tears out and concentrated on the task at hand. Going into his birthday party and pulling off happiness in front of family and friends. And here comes the first test. As he got to the condo the guys were standing there. "Howie? What happened? Where's Craig?" Kevin asked. "He's on the beach, we....ummm...well we had an argument." Howie responded. "How is he? Is he okay?" AJ and Zaid asked simultaneously. "I guess." Howie responded and walked in the house. The guys all exchanged looks and without a word Kevin, Nick and Brian followed Howie, while AJ and Zaid went to find Craig. They followed him into the condo and saw him being mass attacked by family and friends with the usual "Happy Birthday's". He looked strained, but smiled and made the rounds. He ended with his family who immediately began the questions. "Where is Craig at?" Paula asked. "He's out right now, but he should be in soon." Howie replied. "And what is this news you have for us that is so big it has to wait for us to be here in perso?" Hoke asked. "Umm, well I still want to wait and tell you guys when its a little more one on one, ok Dad?" "Well we are going to be here all tomorrow. Our flight doesn't leave until 6 pm so we can spend all day with you and Craig." he replied. "Well, maybe we can just have some family time." Howie said and they all looked at him oddly. Meanwhile on the beach, AJ and Zaid had found me. I was sitting on the beach just watching the waves and toying with the ring. They came up and sat on either side of me. "What's up?" AJ asked. "Howie thinks that me and Zaid are fucking. We are over. He gave me back the engagment ring. There is a party going in my uncles condo that I really should get to, but right now can't face all those people just yet." I responded. The two of them just sat there shocked and looked at me. Finally Aj broke the silence. "What do you mean engagement ring?" "Oh well you see when we first got here, I had it all planned out. I was so in love with Howie and thought he was with me too so I figured that it was the thing to do. And he accepted." I said. "When was this?" Zaid asked. "Before the guys got here." I responded. "So why does he think the we are fucking?" "Remember all those times I went out with you and the guys and told him I was at the studio? Well he called one day to get me a message and found out I hadn't been there. And then he saw us having lunch and put those together and came up with us fucking." "Well all we have to do is set things straight. Zaid is with Brian and you were meeting with us to set this party up." Aj said. "No, its not that simple AJ. I lied to him. He's right. I shouldn't have. And now he can't trust me. And without trust how can you have a relationship. No, the ball is in his court." "Okay, but what do you want to do right now? We can go to the party or we can take you somewhere else." Zaid said. "No, I have to do this. Besides, what if he wants to talk and I am not here?" I said. "Good point, okay you ready to go then?" AJ asked. "Yeah." We got up and made our way to the condo. We walked in and saw the party was in full swing and everyone was having a good time. Zaid went off and found Brian but AJ stuck to my side. We went and got some drinks and bumped in to Howie's parents. "Craig!! Long time no see." Paula exclaimed and embraced me in a hug. "How are things with you?" Hoke asked. "Pretty good. I am filming three episodes for the series and looking over scripts." I said and saw Howie coming over to us. "Well there he is." Howie proclaimed and put his arm around me. I was shocked and by the looks of it so was AJ. Especially when Howie leaned over and kissed me. "Just go along with it ok?" he whispered. I nodded and got involved in the conversation with his parents. Then his sisters Angie and Pollyana and his brother John came over and we were being asked about getting engaged and everything and I picked up the fact that Howie hadn't told anybody and that he wanted them to think everything was alright. This gave me some hope, cause if he was hiding the fact we broke up, then maybe we were gonna make up? Finally breaking away from the conversation, AJ and me went to get drinks and Howie drifted with his family. The evening rolled by and we had the usual festivities. His cake and the presents. At about midnight his family left after making us both promise we would meet them for lunch the next day. After that Howie cold shouldered me and AJ was my companion for the night again. The music was going , people were dancing and the alcohol was flowing. And the more I drank the worse Howie got. It seemed like he was flirting with every guy and girl in the place. To me at least, everytime I turned around he was with someone new and they were all smiles and giggles. I tried to ignore him but couldn't handle it anymore and went out to the balcony. Of course AJ followed. "Craig, stop this. You guys are going to make up eventually but in the meantime YOU are going to have a hangover from hell in the morning." he said and took my bottle of vodka. I sank into a chair and sighed. "Why does this always happen AJ? When everything is going great I do something. Last time it was that stupid argument over coming out. This time I lie to him and make him think I am screwing around. Maybe this is a sign that we aren't supposed to be together." I said. "Don't say that!! Everytime I see you and Howie, I think to myself that that is what I want. Me and D are best friends Craig. Ever since we started the group there has been no time for love. There is never time or anything. But then D met you. And everything changed. It didn't matter if you were in Cali while we were in Canada. The fact that he knows he has you is all he needs and THAT gets him through everything. Look, we are like a second family and even WE couldn't help him through Caroline. YOU did. He loves you Craig. And he wouldn't tell his parents about the fight. Do you know why?" "No I don't." I said. "Because he doesn't want to tell anyone its over until he knows it is." Kevin said as he walked out. "What?" I asked. "Thats how D is Craig. He may blow up, but then he needs time to cool down and think about it." "Okay, then what about inside. Why is he flirting with everyone?" "What are you talking about?" Kevin asked. "Craig, he is talking and dancing with his friends. How much have you had to drink?" AJ asked. Too much obviously. Meanwhile inside, the party is winding down and after everyone leaves its just Howie, Nick, Brian and Zaid. They are all sitting in the living room after picking up the mess. Howie in a chair glaring at Zaid. Seeing this Brian brings up what he has wanted to all night. "Howie, we need to tell you something." "What, that you knew Craig and this guy were fucking." Howie spits out. "No that Zaid and me are fucking." Brian says with a wicked grin. "What?" "Yeah, Craig hooked them up when we first got here Howie. About three days ago." Nick continued. "Wait a minute. You guys have been here for three days. Why didn't you tell me?" "Because we were planning your surprise party with Craig. THAT is why he told you he was at the studio on all those days. And the reason you saw him with me and lunch was because we were talking about....well how I feel about Brian." Zaid said and blushed. "So you mean Craig was doing all this for me?" Howie asked. "Yeah. And he actually was at the studio today. Working his ass off to get here in time to get YOU out of here for us to set up." Kevin said walking in from the patio. "Oh shit. And I sat there and accused him of screwing around on me and I gave him back his engagement ring!" "Engagement ring?" Brian, Nick, and Zaid asked. "Yeah, he proposed to me when we got here. I said yes. But on the beach I threw it in his face and told we were over! Oh god I am such a fucking jerk its not even funny. Where is he Kev, I need to talk to him?" "He's out on the patio with AJ, but Howie, he's REAL drunk so be careful." Kevin said. Howie went out on the balcony and saw Craig on a lawn chair with his head in AJ's lap. Aj was stroking his hair and consoling him. He knew it was just AJ being a friend, but he still couldn't help but feel jealous. He shut the door and AJ looked up. "Is he okay?" Howie asked. "Yeah, he's just really drunk and his head is alternating between throbbing and spinning." AJ answered. Howie sat down next to us and took my hand. "Craig, I really want to talk to you, but I don't know if now is a good time or not." I lifted my head and a thousands lights went on, i grimaced but held my head up. "Howie, I love you and don't want to lose you, but if I don't get up right now I am going to make a mess all over the three of us." With that they jumped up and AJ picked me up and ran like hell to the bathroom. He got us there just in time and I started hurling in the toilet. He sat there and held my hair back while I did this and rubbed my back. Howie stood in the doorway taking this all in and started getting ticked. After I finished and he was sure I wasn't going face first into the toilet, Howie asked AJ to step out and have a word with him. They got into the hallway and closed the door partially. "What the hell is going on AJ?? You trying to get with Craig or something?? You know that we are only fighting and that he is still my boyfriend." Howie yelled. "Hey calm the fuck down aight? I am NOT trying to move in on your territory. Its just that while your my best friend, Craig is also and he has been hurting all night and needed someone. I AM that someone. There are some things that need to be discussed between the two of you and they should be done when he is sober. So I am being both your friends when I say that you guys need to spend the night apart." AJ said. "WHAT??" "Calm down! Think about it Howie. You accused him of screwing around and gave him back his engagement ring and pretty much told him your through, right? Okay, then he gets totally shitfaced and is in need of someone and you come along and help him through it when he is VERY vulnerable. If you are to get back together it needs to be fairly. I am not trying to stop it, just keeping the sides good." Howie thought for a minute and grudgingly saw AJ's point. "Well, let me just go in there and make sure he's okay." Howie said. Aj let him pass and he walked into the bathroom and knelt down beside me. I felt horrible and more than likely looked the same. He took my hand and kissed it. "Craig, I love you and I want you to know that we are gonna sit down tomorrow and talk through ALL of this, okay? But for now I am going back to the hotel with the guys. I'm gonna have AJ stay with you alright?" "NO!! Stay with me Howie. I love you and I need you and...oh god..." I said and pushed him out of the way and started throwing up again. But he just stayed there. He still held my hand and talked to me the whole time I hurled. Then when I stopped and collapsed against the tub, he helped me up and half carried me to the room. He laid me in the bed and kissed me on the forehead. He whispered,"I love you", and then left the room. I laid there for awhile drifting in and out of sleep until I felt someone taking off his clothes. "Whu?" I asked and looked blindly in the dark. "Shh, I'm just trying to help you." At first the voice was unfamiliar and unable to see in the dark I didn't know who it was, but then it dawned on me. It was Howie. I sat up quickly and the room starting to spin. I had had WAY too much to drink. I moaned and felt him grab me. After the spinning stopped I realized I was in his arms and suddenly wanted to kiss him. I lifted my hands and felt his face and stroked it gently. "I just want you to know, I am sorry about tonight and want to make it up to you." I said. And with that I kissed him. Surprisingly he resisted. But after minute of me kissing the lips parted and a tongue came out to play with mine. We stayed locked like this for what felt like an eternity. Then I pulled back and started to remove his clothes. "Whoa!! Wait! We can't...I mean we shouldn't...we should stop" "NO!! I want this, just let me, please?" I begged. He still protested, but those protests stopped once I got his cock out of his pants and went down on it. Soon he was thrusting harder and faster into my mouth and blew his wad. Although I had not done much, the alcohol was definetly hitting me now, and I laid back and almost passed out. But then I felt my pants being taken off and my own cock getting sucked. Either it was the alcohol or Howie was doing something different, but I found myself unable to hold back and shot off what seemed like a weeks worth of cum. And he wouldn't let go until my cock had gone totally soft. Both exhausted we laid there in each others arms. I felt his fingers running through my hair and before drifting off to sleep I whispered,"I love you." And he said" I love you too." The next morning I awoke with a funny taste in my mouth and strong arms wrapped around me. At first confused, but then the previous night came back to me and I remembered it all. The fight, the confusion, the drinking. But it was okay now because I was in Howies arms. Naked. Pressed up against each other all night long. I felt Howie stirring next to . "Good morning Craig." And with that I leapt out of the bed. That wasn't Howie's voice and when I turned around what did I see?? AJ. Naked. Having been in bed with me all night. After having sex. Oh. My. Gawd. **** To Be Continued ***** Don't ya just hate that? ***** -- I'll be the one Who will make all your sorrows undone I'll be the light When you feel like there's nowhere to run I'll be the one -Backstreet Boys- The One