Date: Mon, 26 Jul 1999 23:51:47 -0400 (EDT) From: CJ Subject: My Night With Howie D. Part 14 ****DISCLAIMER: If you are under 18 or homosexual sex and situation offend you then read no further. Also, this is fictional and is not meant to imply that Howie, AJ or Brian are gay...... Now if you are over 18 and homosexual sex and situations interest AND you can remember this is fantasy and NOT reality then read on.... Well here we go again guys (and girls). Here is the next part of the story. I am sorry I kept you all waiting (especially with the ending of 13) but you know I love ya'll and gotta draw out the suspense somewhat ;) Anyways, a shout out to all my friends: you know who you are but I'll say anyways: (Mickey Mouse Roll Call) Aj, Allen, Chris, Jesse, Jessica, Meg, Nicky, Donnie, Rob, Shawn, the Vascardi's, Zaid, those four weirdo's I hang out with and just about everyone else who has ever sent me an email. And of course to my heart: I love you and you KNOW its you I was thinking about when I wrote this aight? And the story goes on......... My Night Part 14 by CJ or Ceej ;) **********just so ya'll don't get confused, the story is told in three parts. Part 1 is AJ, Part 2 is Howie, and Part 3 is Craig*************************** Part 1 AJ I awoke and saw the sun coming through a window and felt Craig in my arms still. I knew what we did last night was wrong. The very thing I did was what I had preached to Howie not to do. But at the moment I couldn't feel bad. I felt good. For months after lusting after Craig, I finally had had my chance. We had sexed and slept. I told him I loved him. Now I just had to wait for him to wake up and hope to hell he could forgive me. I was alternately wondering what to wish for. That he and Howie would make up or that they would be over and me and him could have chance. I felt Craig wake up and he snuggled into me. Wow. So of course I say the first thing that comes to mind. "Good morning Craig." And with that he flies out the bed. I mean literally flies. "AJ?! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?" he screams. "Craig, calm down. Its just me." "Yeah, I know its just you. Its just you, naked, in bed, with me. Oh god, oh god oh god." he starts to chant as he collapses in a chair. Now very concerned I jump out of bed and go over to him. He is starting to hyperventilate. I rub his back and he starts to calm down but then starts shaking. At first I think it is tears but then I hear laughter. He looks up at me and I see I am right on both counts. "AJ, what the hell is happening?? We just slept together didn't we?" "Yeah. We did. Craig, I..." "No let me say something first. I was drunk and i thought you were Howie and things obvisouly got out of hand. I am sorry. And I hope that you can forgive me?" I sit there in shock for a minute. He was drunk. He had thought I was Howie. He didn't know it was me. He thought it was all his fault. And he didn't mean he loved me, he loved Howie. Shit. "AJ? You there?" he asked. I was in love with him, but he was in love with Howie. My best friend. The guy who trusted to me take care of his boyfriend. Fuck. "Yeah I'm here. Look, it was late, you had had a bunch of alcohol and didn't know up from down and it was an honest mistake. I mean we can both agree on that, right?" I asked. "Right, right. And we are both mature responsible adults and understand that things like this happen and we can agree not to say anything, right?" So he was ashamed of it now. The only way I could be with him was drunk. Fuck. Oh man, I could be such the bitch right now and blackmail him. But no, just look at him. Sitting there afraid of losing Howie. SO of course I come to the logical conclusion. "We keep this between us Craig. We can't tell Howie. Look what just happened with you guys last night. No this is between us because I want my best friends to be happy." I said as I felt my heart breaking. He looked at me for a minute and then stood and bear hugged me. It felt good and I hugged back. Then i noticed something, we were both poking each other in the stomach, Craig noticed too and quickly broke the hug. "Sorry about that, morning wood ya know?" he said and scrambled for some clothes. I just sat there watching his naked bod move aroun the room and shook my head when i realized what I was doing. "Hey AJ what time is it?" he asked. I glanced at the clock and responded,"About nine thirty." "Well we better get showered and shit cause I dont know when the guys are getting here." he said 'Meaning Howie' I thought. "No problem." I said and trudged out of the room and got into the shower. But once there thoughts of Craig returned and with my dick still hard I just had to do something. I started to soap and stroke myself. I leaned up against the wall an with one hand stroked and the other toyed with my niples. I heard a noise and looked up and saw Craig in the doorway holding his own throbbin dick. I looked into his eyes and saw something there, not sure what, but something. I decided to see how far I could go. I nodded to him and he slowly came over to the shower. I opened the door and he came in and kneeled down and slowly brought himself closer to me. He reached around and groped my ass and his mouth got closer to my dick. He looked up at me making eye contact and then........ I heard a knock at the bathroom door and Craig telling me to hurry up. I looked down and saw I had shot a load and half all over the shower wall and realized I had been daydreaming. I wiped up and finishedup and got out. Craig had left some clothes outside the door for me. Well, they werent really my style, but they were his and i had nothing else to wear so I changed into them. I came out of the bathroom and made my way down to the kitchen and saw Craig cooking at the stove. "Need any help?" I asked. "Nah just have a seat." he responded. "You know, for someone who got as drunk as you did last night, you sure don't seem to have a hangover." "I know, I'm funny like that. I just got little aversion to brightness, but thats about it." he said. "Well if thats the case I got MANY pairs of glasses you can use." "Haha thats true, exactly how many do you own anyways?" he asked. "Too many!" we said at the same time. Dammit, why couldn't it be us instead of him and Howie? We have the same humor and everything. "Well you know that we gotta get you hooked up, right? I mean I got Brian with Zaid, so why don't you let me do the same for you?" "Honestly Craig, I dont need ya to hook me up. I.....I just need to find my "one". I have had enough of the one nighters and I want someone who will wake up with me the next morning and not think "Oh my god I just fucked AJ!". I want to wake up the next day and they want to be with me like I want to be with them." It was silent and then I looked up and saw Craig looking at me kinda funny. "WHAT?!" "Nothing, its just...........nevermind." he said quickly and turned back to the stove. "Craig?" "How do you want your eggs?" he asked avoiding the question. I stood up and walked over to him. He was cracking egss into the frying pan. I hopped up onto the counter and sat there till he looked at me. "What!?" "HA! Got you to look at me. What's wrong? I hate it when people start to say something and then say nevermind. Spill it or I'm gonna get REALLY insulted and REALLY whiny." I said. "Its just that I hate to see you alone. And......okay without touching on the subject much.....you are a really GREAT guy. I mean you sat there with me while I was drunk as fuck......and well....hehe, your good in bed." he said with a red face. I was shocked. I didn't know what to say. Was this just to stroke my wounded pride or was it more? But before I could say anything we heard the front door opening and the noise of the guys. "Craig? Aj? Where are ya'll?" Kevin shouted. Drats! Foiled again! Okay so maybe I should just give up on Craig. "We're in here Kev," I said. Then I turned to Craig and saw he was about to say something but I couldn't take anymore. I hopped off the counter and as the others were entering the kitchen I exited and went out of the condo. I exoited through the back and came out onto the beach. The sun was pretty bright, but I always have my shades so it wasn't a problem. I just started walking down to the waters edge when I heard someone running up behind me. I whirled around and saw it was just Howie. "Hey you left the condo so fast I didn't have a chance to talk to you." he said. "I just felt like coming out and getting some air." I said. "Well I kinda wanted to talk to you in private anyways." Oh great. "Aight, go for it." i responded. "Well you know how last night you were giving me the speech about leaving Craig alone and all? Well after a full nights sleep........I wanted to thank you. It would have been bad for the two of us to go to bed together instead of sitting down first and talking. I want us to be together so bad, you don't know how much I love him bro." "Actually D, I think i do. Listen, lets get back there and I'll take the guys with me and the two of you can be alone aight?" He hugged me and said.," Your the best friend a guy could ask for." And inside I died. But on the outside we went up to the house talking about how we were going to have to head back to Orlando soon and how the two of them would have sparse time with the conflict in schedules. We got in the house and saw Kevin and Nick waiting for us. "Where's Craig?" I asked. "He's out on the patio. Aj, we are gonna leave and do some shopping and then meet up for lunch with Brian and Zaid. " Kevin informed more than asked. "Yeah no problem, just let me go say lates to C." I went out to the patio and shut the door behind me. Craig was leaning on the balcony. I walked over and looked to where he was and saw mine and D's footprints. "Been out here long?" I asked. Nothing. "Craig?" I asked. Nothing. "Yoohoo anyone home?" I said and this time turned him around. His eyes were glistening with tears. He refused to meet my eyes and just stood there. "Craig, whats wrong?" "I'm scared AJ." "Of?" I asked already knowing. "Howie. He trusted me last night. And I......broke it.....theres no lying......I have to tell....." "Hold up there.....this is a two way thing...You go and tell D about last night and its my ass too. We agreed that it was better left unsaid. Craig you can't do this to yourself. It was an honest mistake. No one has to know." "But its the trust AJ, if you cant have that then what kind of relationship can you have?" This is tearing me up so bad. All I need to do is say it and they are through. And the funny thing is I am thinking Craig almost wants me to. But.....Howie. Aargh!! I hate being a good person sometimes. "Do you trust him Craig?" "Yes." "And he trusts you. And so do I.. And I know that what happened last night will never happen again with anyone. And you just stay out of the alcohol ok?" "I promise." "Alright. Now I am leaving with Kev and Nick. You kiss and make up with my boy now, ok?" "Ok." I hug him and go to kiss him on the cheek and instead find his mouth. I give him a kiss, and am surprised when I find it returned. I brush my lips against his again and feel them part as I thrust my tongue in and start making love to his mouth. But then I realize what we are doing. And rip away. He just stands there. "Craig? What....how......why?" "AJ, I dont know. You........I.......breakfast.......now.......Howie." Oh god. I was right. I was right. If they would have shown up later.......if only like five minutes more. "Craig....no. Its Howie you want. " There was no disagreement. "Okay, I better go." I said and turned to walk away. "Wait! Aj, we're still friends right?" "The best. NEver forget that." I said and walked back into the condo, The others were standing there waiting. "Aight fellas lets head out and leave these two alone." We started heading to the door and Howie pulled me aside. "Thanks Bone. You dont know how much I owe you." "Don't worry D. Just doin my job." I said and halfheartedly smiled. We hugged and I walked out to the limo and got in with the guys. We pulled away and I felt tears in my eyes. I ignord them and listened to Kev and Nicky ramble on about someting. Soon they were gone and I started thinking of ways to keep them gone. Part 2 Howie I waved goodbye to the limo and turned back and closed the door. I had to pace myself. I wanted to fly to the patio and take Craig into my arms and NEVER let him go. But I know that I can't do that. Just like last night my first impulse was to take Craig to bed and make love to him like nothing had happened. We need to talk first and then we can do this. I came out onto the patio and saw Craig sitting there with a sad look on his face. "Whats wrong baby?" I asked and kneeled in front of him. He looked at me with those gorgeous hazel eyes and smiled. "Nothin, cause your here." I felt a tear escape my eye and he reached down to wipe it away. We held eye contact and our head came together. We hesitated like it was our first time and then we met. My lips brushed his and he pulled me to him. I climbed onto his lap and felt his tongueslip into my mouth. I pushed my into his mouth and felt his arms wrap around me and pull me tightly to him. He rubbed his hands up and down my back and I ran my fingers through his hair. We played a little tongue hockey until I noticed the tears in his eyes. I pulled away and he sat up. "What's wrong?" he asked. "Nothing is wrong baby. We just need to talk remember. Alot of shit happened between us last night and I want to make sure we got everything ironed out. I never want to go through that again. " "Okay." "First, let me tell you that I totally and completely trust you. I know it seems like I don;t becasuse I was so quick to jump to consluions but it was because I love you so much and I am afraid of losing you. And all those three days I felt like I was being dumped. You never had time for me and were always running off to work. I was shocked that you rememberd my birthday. Byut that was just my insecurites. You see I have quite a biut of thoise Craig. I hve never loved someone as strongly as I love you. I think of you every moment and want to be with you always. I knowI cant and when I am not i am scared." I said and looked down, not wanting to see his reaction. "Howie. I love you. And to see and hear that your love for me does this? I don't know what to say. I feel the same. " he said with tears. "Don't cry." "I won't, if you tell me this one thing. Will you marry me?" "yes." He moved me a little and got into his pocket and came out with the ring. He put it on my finger and looked and me. We both hugged and started kissing again. I start moving my ass so it is grinding against his jean encased cock and feel it thickening. He starts dry humpin me and my own cock gets hard. I want nothing more than to make love to him, but not here on the balcony. I stand and pull him up with me and lead him into the condo and up the stairs to the room. We enter the room and I start to remove his clothes. I pull his shirt over his arms and head and when the air hits his bare chest his nipples start to stand. I unbutton his jeans and pull them with his underwear to his ankles. He reaches over and takes my shirt off and pulls my shorts down in one swoop. We lay naked on the bed and.............made love. Two hours later I lay in bed with Craig's head upon my chest and my fingers running through his hair. He is asleep and I am hapy. We are together and not fighting. And in an hour we are meeting my family for dinner. I smile and hug Craig. After this last obstacle we can do anything. We lay like this for about twenty minutes and I wake Craig up so we can get ready. He showers and I call my parents to confirm My father picks up on the second ring. "Hello, Dad?" "Howie? We were getting worried. So you and Craig will meet us in an hour and the restaurant?" "Yeah Dad, thats what I was calling for." I smiled. "We are reserved under our last name if you get there ahead. We will see you then." "Okay, love you dad." "Love you to Howie." Craig gets out of the shower and I see him standing there with just a towel wrapped around his waist and.......well you know what i want to do. He put on a black Tommy dress shirt with a pair of tan slacks. I went for a white one with a pair of khaki's. After we finished primping in the bathroom we hopped into the Jeep. As we were driving I was deep into thought and Craig had to repeat himself a few times. "Howie!" he said and I snapped to attention. "Yeah babe?" "What are you thinking about?" "Craig, I want to tell my parents about our engagment." "Okay, how do you want to do it?" he asked. "I don't know yet but will you follow my lead." "I'd follow you to the ends of the earth babe." I smiled and leaned over and kissed him. We arrived at the restaurant just as my parents did. We all hugged and greeted each other. I was glad tosee how much my family like Craig. They totally approved of him and were very supportive of us being together. We went in the restaurant and were seated. We ordered and started small talk. It was a big round table and I was between my parents and Craig was between my sisters. My bro was between my mom and Pollyana. "So Craig, Dad tells us you are going back to the series?" John asked. "Yeah, its a three part cliffhanger. After that I am going to be making appearances. And my agent is trying to get me to do another movie. But I kind of want to keep my schedule open until the guys get their recording and touring schedule set. Then we can work out something." Craig responded. "I think that is so sweet! You are keepin your schedule clear for my baby bro!" Angie said. I blush and that makes everyone laugh. But it is good. I feel right. My family and Craig. I want to tell them now but I want towait til we are done with the meal. Besides there are a few things I want to do that will lead up to it. "SO you two are like the perfect couple, aren't ya?" Pollyana askd. "I like to think so" Craig answered. "Actually. We have our fights. We just got over a big one." Isaid. Evreryones eyes were on me. Especially Craigs. "What do you mean Howie?" my mom asked. "Well I accused Craig of some pretty bad things. I was being insecure and jealous and I almost lost him. Luckily, he loves me and was able to forgive me." "You will defiently fit in with our family Craig." my dad said with a smile. "Now if you'll all excuse me I have to go to the restroom." I said and got up. WHile I was away they all told Craig incidents of how I could be pigheaded, but was quite the one for an elaborate make up. Little did they know what was coming. My surprise was about to happen. The waiter came up to the table and said," Excuse me, your dinner will be delayed for another five to ten minutes." "Why is that?" my dad asked. "The entertainment has arrived." the waiter said and pointed to the corner. They all turned and saw Kevin, Nick, Brian and AJ. And me in front with my guitar. "This song is for you Craig. There was somethin about the way you treated me from day one. Something I never realized, but your tone is always timid and your way is always in love with me. This....is Timid Voice." Oooh, oh Oh, ho Mmm, yeah baby [Howie] Not just anyone Could take my gray clouds away Not everyone Can make me smile everyday And I don't have to be near you To know that you are there with me Cause you have my heart And deep down within in me Chorus I can hear your timid voice Telling me everything's okay I can see your gentle eyes Looking into a new day And when I'm lonely I just think of the way you are And everything is fine Because your love is in my heart [Howie] Not just anyone Can take my hand and guide me You're not just someone Loves me for what's deep down inside of me And you couldn't hurt me And I would never say goodbye Because you have my heart And deep down, deep down inside Chorus I can hear your timid voice Telling me everything's okay I can see your gentle eyes Looking into a new day And when I'm lonely I just think of the way you are And everything is fine Because your love is in my heart Bridge It doesn't matter Whether you're here or not Because I'd rather Tell the world about our love [Howie] Your timid voice Your gentle eyes Your caring hands Your sentimental heart And I love you baby And only you Chorus I can hear your timid voice Telling me everything's okay I can see your gentle eyes Looking into a new day And when I'm lonely I just think of the way you are And everything is fine Because your love is in my heart [Howie] I can hear your timid voice And everything.... Everything is okay, baby The whole restaurant applauded and I could see tears in Craigs eyes. We went to the table and he jumped up and hugged me. Right there in front of everyboy. I love him so much. "Family., I wanted to wait until later to tell you this, but oh what the heck! Me and Craig are engaged." The reactions were instantaneous. "I am soo happy for you guys" Pollyanna gushed. "Way to go bro." John said and slapped me on the back. "Its about time." Angie said smiling. "You couldn't have picked a better man." my dad said and shook Craig's hand and then pulled us both into a hug. And mom. She just sat there and evilly stared at us. NOT (haha! got you for a second there ;) And mom? She had no words . She hugged us both and kissed us. After we had all calmed down we sat and our dinners arrived. The guys pulled up a table and their food was brought also. This had all been worked out ahead of time. We all ate and had a noisy loud conversation. We finished and over coffee discussed plans. Then it was time to take my family to the airport. In the Jeep Craig drove. "I love you so much Howie." "Not as much as I love you babe." "Well, its nice to know what you writing about all that time." he said with a smile. "You thought it was something bad?" He smiled and said,"Yeah like maybe a plot of revenge or something.:" We both laughed and he grabbed my hand and held it. We arrived at the airport and got my family checked in and went to their gate where the plane was beginning to board. "You are both coming to Orlando and we will start the arrnagments. And I will be talking to your mom and get the plans underway." my mom said. "See Paula THIS is why I told Howie we should tel yuou. you and mom can do al the work for us" Craig said and everyone laughed. "And thats another thing. Your gonna be another son now so you better start callin me mom" she said and hugged him. "Sure thing Pau,....I mean mom." With that she smiled and we all said goodbye. They loaded and the plane took off safely. The guys asked if we were interested in catching a movie. We all agreed and they said they would meet us at the condo. But once we were in the Jeep Craig changed his mind. "I just feel like going to the condo and sleeping Howie. But don't let me stop you ok?" "As long as your there for me to hold when I get home I will be ok." We got to the condo and I told the guys the plan and I said a long personal goodbye to Craig in the front hall and then joined the others in the limo. I looked out the window and saw Craig waving to us. Part 3 Craig Howie left with the others and I breathed a sigh of relief. What was wrong with me? I was totally and completely in love with Howie. But last night with AJ wasn't just the alcohol I knew on some level that it had been him and not Howie. And this morning when he was in the kitchen what he was talkiong about. If I wanted it, I could have something more than sex with AJ. And god, why was I even thinking this? If I loved Howie then AJ shouldn't even be a thought. I started pacing the condo. Howie and me were engaged. I loved him an totally and completely. Yet I wanted to have more with AJ to see how deep it could get. AARGH!!!!!!!! Not able to take anymore, I grabbed the Jeep keys and left. I started driving down the coast. My cell rang and I picked up. "Hello?" "Hey Craig." "AJ! Umm what's up?" "Not much, I am at the hotel. I couldn't go out with the guys. I needed to talk to you." "umm ok." "What is happening between us? All I know is that I have loved you and wanted you for so long and last night it all came true. But it wasn't suppposed to cause your D's. But I dont regret it. And I am getting the signs from you that you liked it as well and I want to know that i am wrong. Tell me I am wrong Craig." "I can't. I would be lying. But AJ I love Howie too. I am engaged to him and hapy to be. I don't want to lose him." "I see." It started to rain and my luck had left the top off. SO there I was getting wet. "AJ, I dont know what to do." I sobbed. "Craig, where are you? I am hearing a lot of background noise." "I am in the Jeep. Look AJ, I need to go. I'll talkt to you later ok?" "Sure, but Craig. Dont do anything harmful ok?" "Ok." We hung up and I concentrated on the road. For all the good that did. I took the next turn TOO fast and the next thing I know I am slicing through the guardrail and the Jeep achieved flight. Shortlived though bevcause what goes up MUST come down. And that I did. Right on the rocks. The End? The credits: I want to thank JM for writing Timid Voice for me. It is beautiful song and I was able to use it for my "one". Allen, you need to be thanked for kicking my butt into writing. As do all my readers who emailed me and kept asking when I would write this. And remember all questions and comments (good or bad) go to magik77_1998@yahoo.com === I'll be the one Who will make all your sorrows undone I'll be the light When you feel like there's nowhere to run I'll be the one -Backstreet Boys- The One