Date: Sat, 2 Jan 1999 12:08:02 -0800 (PST) From: magik ' Subject: My Night With Howie D. Part 3-5 ***This story is completely fictional and in no way implies that Howie D. is gay. Thanks again to ya'll for the e-mails, I really enjoy writing and hearing that you like what I am writing really makes me feel good. Comments and criticisms are still appreciated and you can reach me at magik77_1998@yahoo.com. My Night With Howie D. Part 3 by Magik In the midst of a GREAT dream, the damn phone started ringing again. I rolled over and knocked it off the nightstand and then recovered it. "Hello?" I asked groggily. "Rise and shine sweetie!" Rosie bellowed into the phone. "Yow! What a wake up call! What's up Rose?" "Well, I was wondering if you would be interested in a bite to eat and get in a few sight before you leave."she asked. "Yeah, I can be ready in a couple minutes." "Okay, I'll be there in the limo in about fifteen. You'll be ready?" "With bells on." I teased. "Promise?" "Your a nut, see you in a few." "Bye" I hung up and got out of bed. The clock said it was a little after one o'clock!! I stretched and went into the bathroom. I started the shower and went over to the sink to shave. After I finished I just looked into the mirror. I had done nothing but dream of Howie while I had slept and even now he was running through my thoughts. I couldn't stop thinking of him. This was scaring me. The feeling going through me right now were like none I had ever felt before. I mean sure, I had been with a few guys, but I had never felt this way toward them. Noticing steam on the mirror I hopped into the shower and quickly cleaned up. I went into the room drying off and hoping Rosie wasn't downstairs yet. I decided to go casual and put on a pair of blue jeans with a green striped pullover. A pair of combat boots and my leather jacket completed the outfit. I looked in the mirror and realized I had just dressed like Aric Carlisle, my character from 'Guys'. I pulled my hair back while it was still damp and decided to go earrringless. The desk hadn't rung up yet so I decided to call Howie on my cell. The hotel said they were still at the studio and when I called the studio I got Dave, their manager, and he said he would take a message and relay it. I told him to let Howie know I was going out with Rosie and would call later and tell him when I would be back. I also left my number so he could call me. Right as I finished the phone rang and the desk informed me that Ms. O'Donnell was there with the limo. I locked up and went down to the limo. Rosie was talking to the doorman and when she saw me she finished up, hugged me and we got into the limo. It pulled away and we started talking. "So where are you taking me?" I asked. "I thought we would go to Luigi's and have a light lunch and then we could see the town." "Meaning?" "Shopping!" she screamed. It was stuff like that, that I loved about her. We talked about her kids and she entertained me with stories about them the whole way to Luigi's. We arrived and the limo let us off at the front door. We went in and got out jackets checked. We were seated at a window table and ordered teas and salads. While we waited for out food, we talked about yesterday's show. She asked me about how the night had been and I told her how I had go out with them and then home with Howie. She was happy for me and I told her what went on this morning. "So he wants to spend the weekend with you?? Impressive, and with the promise of love." she said. "Why do you say that?" I asked. "C'mon, after one night of sex, a man asks you to spend the weekend with him? That means he wants to get to know you more." "Or it could mean he just wants to have sex with one person while he's here." The food arrived and we stopped the conversation and talked about holiday plans. I let her now about the shows I was appearing on and she told me about that the New Year's Bash was a definite because of my "success". She got a call on her cell and took it by the bar. When she got back she was smiling yet, wouldn't say what about. We finished up and took the limo to Bloomingdales and she started in about Howie while we shopped. She insisted that I would be wined and dined all week. After Bloomingdales, we took a ferry ride and she went on about ways to see each other during the holidays. It was about five o' clock now and I tried calling Howie, but ended up having to leave a message at the front desk letting him know I would be back at the hotel by seven and to call me at let me know what we were doing. And then on the way to the hotel she insisted that I would have a birthday to remember. We arrive at the hotel and I had had enough. I turned to her and said. "Okay while all this is very kewl and I would give the world for it to happen, it's not. In fact I can give you reason why it's not." "Go on." she said. "First, I am in Arizona and he is in Florida, how can we have holiday plans?? Second, he does not know when my birthday is so how will it be a b-day to remember?? AND most importantly , I am willing to bet when I leave for Arizona on Christmas Eve, I will never see him again." "Okay, I will ignore the fact you left out wining and dining, but listen to this. Planes can get you across the USA in under eight hours. And do YOU know when HIS birthday is?" she asked. "Alright yes I do and I know planes can make the time, but Rosie, I am telling you he isn't into me that same as I am to him. Thats it." "Okay, I'll stop, but I just want you to keep an open mind and do one thing." she said. "What's that?" "If it comes up Craig, LET HIM KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. You may surprise yourself. Now hurry up, its seven o'clock and you need to get to your room." "Right, I'll see you later Rose." I grabbed my bags and we hugged. I went to the front desk and found no messages. I got in the elevator and when I got to my floor, got off and went to my room. With all my bags I had a hard time with the lock and ended up falling into my room. When I looked up, all I saw was roses and candles, everywhere. And Howie laying seductively on the bed. All he was wearing was a purple silk robe and matching boxers with that sexy ass smile of his. He got up and came over and picked me up. Before I could say anything he put his fingers against my lips and took my jacket off. He then took off my shirt and started to kiss me deeply. He started rubbing his fingers around my nipple making them hard and I took off his robe and did the same to him. He took my hand and led me to the bed. He told me to lay back as he undid my boots and took them off and then my jeans. Just laying there in my briefs, he looked down at me hungrily. He told me to turn over and then straddled my ass. He started to rub my neck and shoulders and I finally had to speak up. "She knew." I said. He laughed and said,"Yeah, when I got the message that you were out with her I figured I could plan something romantic, but needed the time, so I enlisted her aid in keeping you out all day." "So that explains all our conversations." "What conversations?" he asked. "About you and the holidays." "Oh?" "You mean that wasn't part of what you asked her to do?" "No, why?" "Nothing." He worked his way down my back and gradually to my ass and started kneading it between his hands. "Are you mad?" he asked. "Do I look mad?" I turned over and pulled him onto me. I kissed him and wrapped my arms around him grabbing HIS ass. He kissed me and then whispered in my ear. "Craig I want to fuck you." "All you had to do was ask," I said. With that he pulled off my briefs. My dick slapped against my abs and he grabbed it and teasingly licked the precum. Then he took it all into his mouth until his nose was in my pubes. He started bobbing up and down frantically until my dick was throbbing and ready to explode. He smiled and sat up. Then he ripped off his boxers and his nine inches bobbed in the air. He reached beside the bed and came up with a condom and a bottle of lube. He put on the condom and started to lube up as I laid back with my knees bent. He came to me and raised my legs and rested them on his shoulders. He pushed the head of his dick into my hole and inched in. I gasped as he slipped through the ring. He stopped. "Are you okay?" he asked worriedly. "Yeah keep going." He slid the rest of the way until his balls slapped against my ass. He pulled out until just his head rested in my ass. It felt great and judging by his expression, the feeling was more than mutual. He shoved back in and started to set a rhythm. He leaned down and stared to kiss me deeply and we teased each other with our tongues. He reached down and started to stroke my dick as he slammed harder and faster. He built up to a fevered pitch and I felt him start to cum and that set me off. I let loose with thick ropey streams of cum that hit his chest. Spent, we embraced and just laid there. I rested my head against his chest and listened to his heart thumping. We started to breath in sync and I felt closer to him at that moment than I ever had to ANYONE before. He kissed the top of my head and got off the bed. He threw me a towel to dry off with as he rummaged through his bag. "I got you something today, I hope you like it", he said as he handed me a package. As I opened the package, he put his boxers and robe back on. Inside the box was a pair of boxers and robe just like his except these were jade green. "Do you like them?" he asked me. "Howie, I love them, but how did..?" "I know what your favorite color was? The same way I know that your birthday is January 14 and all other interesting tidbits of your life. Craig, ever since I saw you on "Guys", I have wanted you. I found out everything there was to know by all those fan web pages about you. I watched the show every week and taped it if I couldn't catch it until you took your vacation. Do I scare you now?" I got up and hugged him and said,"No way. In fact thats the same way I have been ever since I first saw YOU. I have ALL your appearances, the CD and videos. And I have visited every web page about ya'll to find out that YOUR birthday is August 22 and your fave color is purple." He laughed and said,"We sound alot like some of the girls I have met backstage. Hey, throw on your robe and we'll order some room service. Then I remembered what Jeff had said about not being careful last night. "Howie, how did you get into my room?" I asked. "Jeremy brought me up and told the front desk that I had left after he did, no one knows that I am up here with you, your ass is covered." he responded and slapped my bare ass. I threw on the boxers and the robe,which felt very comfortable, and then called up room service. After I ordered I went over to Howie and we embraced and kissed. We must have stayed that way for awhile, 'cause the next thing I knew, there was a knock at the door saying room service. Howie ducked into the bathroom and I opened the door and let the guy in. He was young and not bad looking, but I didn't like the way he was eyeing me and the room. He turned to me and smiled. "Romantic evening Mr. Bingham?" he asked. "Yes, now I'll I have to do is wait for her to arrive." I responded. "Well, won't it be a little akward with some guy in the bathroom?" Shit, he knew!! "Hey, don't worry about it, I understand and I'll admit I wish it was me." he said with a sly smile. "Well, I am a one person guy, so sorry. Your not gonna let this get out are you?" "Why man? I think its kewl and I understand that you can't come out until the time is right in your career. It's no prob, you two have a nice night." With that he turned to go, I told him to wait and grabbed my wallet. "Sir, its charged to your account, you don't have to pay." "I know but this is a tip, I think you deserve it." I gave him $50 and hoped to hell he was on the level and that this wouldn't be in the morning papers. He smiled and left. As soon as the door closed Howie came out of the bathroom. "Wow! I don't know how I would have handled that. You think he will keep quiet?" he asked. "Yeah and even if he doesn't you shouldn't worry, he didn't know WHO it was, he just knew I had a guy here." "Hey, I worry just as much as you do, I don't like hiding who I am but when your in an all guy group there is already the thought that you are gay, and the management isn't sure how it would affect our career if we were to come clean." "We? Who's we?" I asked. "Your kidding right? Brian and A.J. are gay too. You really didn't know? I mean I thought Brian hit on you the first day?" "Well, yeah I guess he kinda did, but I didn't think about it, but A.J.??" "Yep, you know what I mean though cause its the same for you isn't it?" he asked. "Yeah and I hate it, c'mon this kind of talk depresses me, lets eat." We uncovered the food that the bus boy had set on the table. It was two plates of spaghetti and breadsticks. I poured the wine and we started to eat. We kept stealing glances across the table, trying to eat and not be turned on by the other. I notice Howie had sauce on his chin so I leaned over and wiped it for him making him stick his tongue out at me. After that we started laughing and couldn't stop, instead of eating we started playing footsies and getting very turned on. I raised my foot up his leg and found my way to his throbbing cock. Without a word we got up and went over to the bed, losing our robes along the way. We laid down and started to kiss each other passionately while rubbing our dicks. Then I got up and took Howie's boxers off and then my own. I positioned myself so we could '69'. Since we had just gotten off, we were able to last a little longer, not much but a little. I was in heave sucking on his big dick with his balls resting on my nose. I was groping his tight ass and when I started to cum I clenched it. After Howie had drained me he started to blast off in my mouth, I took it all and we parted laying in each others arms. We laid there with the candlelight and moon lighting the room. Howie turned to me with his deep brown eyes and smiled. "What?" I asked. "Nothin', jus' thinkin of something." "About?" I pressed. He sat up and his face looked troubled. He looked at me and took a deep breath. "I need to tell you something, but I am really not sure if I should. I mean, it means a lot to me and the wrong answer is gonna hurt me more than I want, but I feel I have to take this chance." I remembered what Rosie had said and even if Howie was talking about something completely different, I had to say how I felt. "Howie, let me tell you something first. I have only know you for a day and a half and I. . . .well, I have never believed in love at first sight, lust maybe but not love. But with you I am having feelings that I have never felt before for ANYONE guy or girl. I know its not exactly the brightest thing to say after only a short amount of time, but I think I am falling in love with you." He sat there shocked and I knew I was right and Rosie was wrong, it was just sex and I had made a fool out of myself. "Craig, WOW! All of what you just said, you mean it? Your not just saying it to make me feel better?" "No, but Howie. . ." "Let me finish Craig. What I was going to tell you was exactly what you just said. I have NEVER done this before and the guys think I am a fool and thinking with my dick, but this is coming from the heart. I really like you and I want to see you and find out if I am falling in love with you too." He wrapped his arms around me and started kissing me. "Wait til I tell the guys. They thought I was wrong and you were going to break my heart." "They did?" I asked. "Yeah, we are all protective about each other and they just didn't think that you would feel the same. Especially AJ and Brian, they know how it is when you meet a guy on tour and start to feel something and either you have to leave or they just want you cause of 'status'. Hell, they couldn't believe that I was feeling that way." "I totally understand, and I want to get to know them also, I mean seeing as how they are pretty much your family. I was thinking maybe we could go out before my premiere. That way we can get to know each other and I can let them know that I'm not gonna hurt you." I said. "Definetly, but not tomorrow, thats me and you. How about Monday, we're not in the studio. You free?" he asked. "Yeah after that I am gonna be busy until Christmas Eve, how about you guys?" "We're recording from up til Christmas Eve and then we do a special." he said. "Are you doing, 'This Christmas'?" I asked. "Yeah, we're going to do some Christmas songs. Why?" "Because I am goin to be on it with the cast of 'Guys'." We talked more and then when the candle had burned out and our eyelids were heavy we laid in each others arm and started to fall asleep. As I was drifting off Howie whispered in my ear,"I don't know where this is going and I don't know how long it will last, but this is the happiest I have ever been in my life." And that is the last thing I heard before sleep. Part 4 We slept until almost noon that Sunday and other than Howie calling Kevin and setting things up for Monday and room service, we made no contact with the outside world. We spent the day talking about our childhoods, schools, guys, cars, EVERYTHING! When I fell asleep that night in Howie's arms I felt like I knew him better than I knew myself. The wake up call came at nine the next morning, and I got up and looked over at Howie. He was laying against the pillow with his hair fanned out and he looked so sweet at that moment that I had to lean over and kiss him. He awoke with a smile and pulled me onto him. I could feel his dick beneath the sheets and my own was straining against my briefs. We were necking heavily when I broke it up. "You know we need to be at the hotel or the guys are going to be waiting again. It seems like everytime your with me that happens." I said. "They won't mind, we have time for a quickie." With that he rolled me onto my back and pulled my briefs off with his teeth. He positioned himself so we were '69-ing'. We blew out wads and got in the shower, another distraction. After, we lay there while my stereo played. 'Viva Forever' by the Spice Girls came on and Howie turned to me. "Thats us" he said "thats our song." We finally got out of the room by ten-thirty. We headed over to the hotel where they were staying and went up to Kevin's room. Surprisingly enough, they were just starting breakfast. It seems that we weren't the only one who slept in. They greeted us and we sat down and ate. AJ and Brian exchanged grins and turned to me. "So Craig, how was YOUR weekend?" AJ asked. Everyone started laughing and I blushed. Howie put his arm around me and smiled. "Welcome to the family Craig, god help you." he said. "So Craig, Howie tells us the premiere is on Tuesday night?" Nick asked. "Yeah and I'll get you guys you passes before we get there." I answered. "So any idea of who all will be there?" Kevin asked. "Anyone and everyone probably. I can definetly guarantee Jennifer Love Hewitt, Rosie. Oh yeah and Kyle and Mateo are coming in for it." "No way Mateo Green and Kyle Stone from 'Guys'?? Dude they are finer than hell. Your gonna introduce us right?" Brian asked. "You like them?? Well, I'll introduce you and let you see what jerks they are." "What do you mean?" Howie asked. "Its just to me when you go around and flaunt what you are, its a little shallow. They act like they are gods and expect everyone to do there bidding. And they really hate me because when the series started they were the stars with shows under their belts and I was the unknown. Then after a short time I was the star and they were 'co-stars'. Ever since we haven't gotten along to well." I explained. We talked more about the show, premiere and some groups they had worked with that were alot like my co-stars. We finished up and decided that we would go shopping. It turned out that all of us had basically forgotten or done little Christmas shopping for our families. We took their limo and hit all the stores. It was a great afternoon. Each of them had totally different tastes and personalities and during the course of the afternoon I was entertained greatly. We finished about five o'clock and decided to go eat. All afternoon we had lucked out and hadn't been mobbed, there had been alot who recognized us, but they had been cool. When we got to the restaurant though, that changed. We got hit at the door by a group of girls and it took almost ten minutes to sign and chat. Finishing we went in laughing and sat down to eat. I was sandwiched between Brian and Howie. During the meal I felt a hand rubbing my leg and getting closer to my crotch. I elbowed Howie and told him to wait til later. He looked at me funny but the rubbing stopped. Then Brian nudged me and we started talking which seemed to make Howie mad, so I tried to include him but he turned to Kevin and talked. We finished and left the restaurant and headed back to the hotel. The others were either going to hit clubs or chill. Howie had been silent the whole way and when they guys got out I grabbed his hand and pulled him back into the limo. Kevin poked his head in and I told him we would be out in a minute. He closed the door and Howie sat there. "What's wrong? You haven't said a word to me since the restaurant." "Nothing. You were just busy I guess." he said and looked out the window. "What? I talked to Brian and you mad at me? Why? All it was, was about Kyle and Mat. Nothing else." "Yeah well, it will be." "What the hell are you talking about?" I asked getting pissed. He turned to me and I saw he was trying hard to hold back some heavy emotion. "Its just that everytime I meet a guy Brian tries to get him from me and it always works. It hurt with the others, but I don't want to lose you Craig." he said as a tear rolled down his cheek. "Howie, I am with you. No one else. I don't go for swinging. And I'm not even sure Brian was flirting. I told you how I felt and you said you feel the same. If you do then you know you can trust me like I know I can trust you." I said and hugged him. "I trust you Craig, but not Brian. That was him rubbing you, not me." I was shocked. I had assumed it was Howie, and now I understood what he was upset. We kissed and then Kevin knocked on the window. We rolled it down. "Hey, sorry to break it up, but we need to be at the studio in the morning and I don't want to have the same problem we did last time Howie, so maybe you should stay here tonight." he said. "Yeah just I'll be back after we drop Craig off." Howie said. "Okay, see you later Craig." Kevin said. "Later." He went into the hotel and we told the driver where to go. Howie raised the partition and turned to me smiling. "There's enough time for a quickie." he said. "Let's do it." We got our dicks out and started sucking each other off. In no time at all Howie had me cumming and he followed right behind. The limo stopped and we had just enough time to get our clothes right before the chauffeur opened the door. Howie walked me to my room and we made out for a few. He told me he would call me the next day when he had a chance. We all had decided earlier that we would go to the premiere separately. We parted and he left. I undressed and called Jeff to see what was on my agenda. He told me we would be in his office going over some papers in the afternoon. I hung up and fell asleep and dreamed of Howie. Tuesday went by quickly and before I knew it I was in the limo with Jeff on the way to the premiere. I was nervous but excited. The limo stopped and the cameras started. I was wearing a suit and felt like I was suffocating. We went into he theater and Jennifer came up to me. She gave me a hug . "So, nervous?" she asked. "Yeah, I hope this goes well. How is the new movie going?" I asked. "Pretty good and the cast is great. Brandy is pretty cool to work with and its moving along without problem. It should be out in the summer." We talked more and then Jennifer clasped my hand tightly. "Look who's coming over." she said. I looked and saw the Backstreet Boys had arrived and were coming. She was excited and when they came up I did the intros. She was checking out Nick and he was looking right back. We chatted until I saw Rosie and I pulled Howie along with me. We talked and they had a laugh when he told her how I had reacted the other night. Then the movie was ready to start, so we went in and took our seats. I was next to Howie and he took my hand. The movie started and my stomach started to unclench, and by the end I was amazed and how the movie was. the lights came up and the applause started. I turned to Jennifer and we hugged and stood up to take a bow. We all went to the after party and I was congratulated by everyone from Sandra Bullock to Tom Cruise. The guys all mingled but Howie stayed by my side the whole time. It was a great party and Jeff was VERY happy. He told me that I would definetly have offers after New Years. The party started to wind down at midnight and since the guys had to record they were ready to get going. Since Wednesday was going to be busy for both of us, Howie and me decided that we would try and see each other Thursday morning, since the special didn't start til six. I got back to my room and went to bed alone again and decided that I definetly like falling asleep with Howie better. Wednesday flew by with me and Jeff going over scripts that he had just gotten and deciding which offers to appear on talk shows that I should take. I talked to Howie about ten times during the day and that night after my dinner with Rosie and Penny Marshall, I tried calling. The front desk told me he was out, I asked for AJ and he was in so we talked. At the premiere, AJ and I had bonded and had a good time talking. He told me that Howie had gone out with the others to this club and that he was planning to come to my hotel in the morning. We talked about all the stars we had seen at the party. Its funny, just because your famous yourself doesn't change being a fan. We talked for an hour and after I hung up, I just couldn't sleep so I started to read. At about eleven there was a knock at my door. Confuse since the front desk hadn't called up I answered warily. It was Jeremy. I opened up and let him in the room. He said he had something in his room that he wanted to show me. We went and it turned out he had gone shopping and gotten all his X-Mas gifts. He had been my assistant for five months, but was still quiet around me. He asked my opinion though and it blew me away. He had a boyfriend back in California!! He smiled at the shocked look on my face and explained that while he knew I was gay, he wasn't sure if he should let me know or not. He told me about the boyfriend and showed my a pic and after a couple of minutes I went back to my room. And laying there on the bed was....Brian! "What the hell are you doing here?" I asked. "C'mon Craig, you know you want this more than Howie. I see the way you look at me everytime we get together. You want me as much as i want you." "No Brian, I like you as a friend and thats it. I am in love with Howie and I am not going to do anything with you. Your cute but, thats not worth fucking up with Howie." I said. "You don't know how glad I am to hear that." Howie said coming out of the bathroom. "You guys set this up?? After that talk of trust you had to do this?" I screamed. "Calm down Craig, I didn't think it was a bad idea. I just.." "You just didn't trust me Howie. Get out. Both of you, just get the fuck out right now before I call security." I yelled. Brian jumped off the bed and headed out looking like a kicked dog. Howie, however, stood there. "I said get out. I don't want to talk to you or see you anymore Howie. Do you realize how this feels. When you love a person and they do something like this?" I asked. "Wait a minute, you said in love." "Yeah, in love, but not right now. Please Howie, jut leave and let me think. I know you thought this was okay, but its not. And right now I need to be alone." "Bullshit, you need me. You know why? Because I love you to and I am not leaving until we work though this." he said as he wrapped his arms around me. I tried to walk away but he wouldn't let go. I started to cry and he hugged me harder and kissed me. All my anger started to melt and I kissed him back. We moved to the bed and undressed. Naked, Howie sat atop me and stroked my dick with his. He kissed me and started toying with my ass. Soon I was writhing on the bed. "Howie, I want you in me right now!" "Let me lube first." "NO! I want you now." With that he took his dick and pressed the head against my hole and spit on it. He shoved and his whole length slid into me. At first it felt like I was being ripped open but then it faded and he started pumping. Without the lube it was more intense and I could feel everything. He pumped harder and his balls were slapping against my ass and his tongue was in my mouth. Then he pulled out and started shooting all over my abs and I started shooting also. After we finished he lay on me and our cum gushed between us. We fell asleep and when I woke in the morning I was wrapped in his arms and my life was great. Part 5 Here it was Christmas Eve morning. And where was I? In the shower with Howie. We woke at ten and after laying in bed for an hour fooling around, we got into the shower. He was scrubbing my back for me. After he finished I did the same for him. When I got to his ass I started to rub it. He turned to me. "I have never asked anyone this before, but Craig, will you fuck me?" "Your kidding right?" "No babe, its never felt right before, but with you it does. Will you?" "Sure, let me get a condom." "No, I'm clean and you are too, give it to me raw." I didn't need anymore than that. I used the soap to lube up his ass. I was going to finger fuck first but Howie pulled my dick to his hole . I gently put the head in and he shoved back forcing it all in. He groaned and I started thrusting while stroking his cock. It didn't take long for him to cum with my dick in his ass. And when his ass muscles started to spasm my dick was ready to blow, I started to pull out but Howie said no, so I blasted up his ass. He turned and kissed me. We finished up the shower and went into the room to get dressed. "Craig, after tonight we're not going to be together again until New Years Eve. So I want to give you this." He took a box out of his bag. He handed it to me and I opened it to find a gold id braclet laying in it. "Howie, its beautiful." "Read what it says." I looked at it and saw my name on the front, on the back was "'Viva Forever' D." "Howie, I love you." "Look at this," he said as he pulled another box out. I opened it and it was the same bracelet except for it had his name. It also said "Viva Forever". We put them on each others right left wrists. Not to be outdone I grabbed my own package and handed it to him. Inside was a silver chain with a a heart pendant with the inscription "'Love Forever' C" "Its beautiful, help me out it on." he said. I did and then we hugged and kissed. Noticing the time, we got dressed and took off for their hotel. I brought the gifts that I had for the guys. We arrived and found the guys all in Howie's room. They also had gifts for me. We all exchanged. AJ had got me these really kewl earrings, Kevin had got me "Wizards and Glass", Brian got me a bottle of Escape with a note that said "use daringly..trust me", and Nick got me a two disc dance CD that we had talked about. I thanked them and they thanked me. Howie showed off the necklace and the bracelets and we all had a good time. We ordered room service for lunch. About an hour before we had to leave, I went back to my hotel and packed my stuff which would be delivered to the airport for me. Finished we got the guys and rode to the taping together. When we arrive it was chaos. It was going to be live in an hour and only half of the people had shown. Kyle and Mateo were there and for once were cool towards me and I notice that Brian and Kyle were close. Soon everyone had arrive and we were briefed. Kyle, Mateo and I were doing a skit with Christina Ricci. And throghout we would appear in others skits. At the end we would all carol. It started and went off well and we all congratulated everybody on good jobs and went off. My flight was scheduled to leave at eleven and it was ten, so we all decided to go to the airport and wait together. Kyle and Mateo were on the same flight with me and the guys flight was leaving a half hour after ours. At the airport we were brought the VIP Lounge and we relaxed. "So, you'll be back for the New Years special then Craig?" AJ asked. "Yeah, you guys too right?" I asked. "Yeah, we have from now til then free so we'll be with our families." Brian answered. "When are you coming back?" I asked. "Probably the thirtieth. You?" Howie asked. "I get in on New Year's right before the taping." I answered. We all discussed what we would be doing on our vacations. I was going to my family's cabin in Tucson. Kyle and Mateo were going to Monterey. Nick, AJ and Howie were going to be in Orlando, while Brian and Kevin would be in Kentucky. Then before we knew it our flights were being called. We were escorted to the plane. Howie broke away from his group and came over to me. "I want to kiss you." he said. "SO why don't you." "You think anyone watching?" I looked around and other than the guys I didn't see anyone. I turned to Howie and pulled him to me and kissed him. We batted our tongues into each others mouths until the guys started cheering. We broke away from each other. "You got my number so call me anytime you want." I told Howie. "And you have mine, so we can talk all the time right?" "Yeah." We hugged and parted. I got in the plane and through the window saw Howie and the guys. They all waved as the plane took off. I sat back and put my headphones on and put the dance CD in. This way I could ignore the guys. I looked forward to going home, but knew I would miss Howie. New Years seemed like a long way off. The flight had a layover in Dallas for an hour and then went right through and I arrived in Phoenix at four in the morning. I had told my family that since I was getting in late that I would rent a car, but as I got off the plane I saw my sister. I went up to her and we hugged. In the time I had been gone she had grown. She looked way older than a sixteen year old. Then the guy next to her spoke up. "Aren't you going to say hi?" he asked. I looked at him and in a horrible gut wrenching moment realized WHO he was. My ex best friend and first boyfriend, Jesse Marks. Ysela let me go and he hugged me. "Your parents invited me for the holidays, guess who's bunking together." And with that my world tilted. We had broken up and our friendship had never been the same. But once I became famous I heard from Jesse and the one time we had met he told me that he wanted to get back together again. I hadn't wanted to, but he thought that I just wanted to wait until I had the time, regardless of what I told him. Now thanks to my mom, I would be with him for the next week. Where was Howie when I needed him? To Be Continued...