Date: Wed, 6 Sep 2000 18:40:00 -0400 (EDT) From: Candy Subject: The singing madman 3-4 Since part 3 is so short I'm going to send part 4 out with it.... DISCLAIMER: This fiction is fiction and I am not implying that I know Nsync is Gay, or that I know Nsync at all. The Singing Madman Part 3 By Candy -J- Lance told me I should write whats in my head down, so, that's why I'm starting this Journal. I'm calling it "J" because that's what we call Justin. Justin, Justin, Justin. I love his name, I love him. At first I wouldn't admit it. I couldn't conceive that I, a straight man, was in love with him, but now I know we are meant to be together. -4-ever. I could deny my love for him until I was blue in the face, but fate says we belong together. God, I love his. He is amazing. Beautiful, sweet, caring, his voice, his ass, his eyes, HIM!!! I know that God spent a lot of time on him. He is my God, my everything.. he is my Justin. I wander if Lance will want to see this? Lance watches me. He doesn't think I know, but I do. Maybe he likes me. I hope not. He is a great guy but I love Justin. Dani is coming this weekend. I get to see my goddess!! She is a Goddess and Justin is a God. That's the only way I can describe their perfection. Michael.. I hate him. He doesn't deserve Justin. I DO!!!! We are soul-mates. He wants me, he jut doesn't know it yet. I have to go, Concert is about to start. I'm going to get to hear his voice. Chris 8-31-01 ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; Part 4 (This is in Lance's Point of View) Worried? Yes. Scared? No.... not till now. Dani, Chris' Girlfriend, called me. She said he was going to talk to me about something. She was really worried about him. She asked me to watch out for him till she got here next weekend. (Witch tomorrow) Chris came to me shortly after that. He told me every thing. He said he was in love with Justin and that he had to get Justin in his life. He said that he and Justin belonged together and he would be with him one way or another. He also said that Justin and Dani were Gods and that they were so perfect. He said that he had to prove that Michael was cheating oh *his* love. Justin couldn't be with anyone *but* him. They _belonged_ together. No one and nothing could ever separate them Their love was immortal. I was sworn to secrecy. I can't even tell JC. I called Dani. I probably shouldn't have. It was a lot worse than she though. She had no idea she was his goddess. I swore I wouldn't tell but I'm so worries.He is falling fast into a world of his own delusions. I have gotten to where I watch him 24/7 I even payed off the hotel to say that they were over booked so I could get a room with him. For lack of better words , I'm scared shit-less. I told him he needs to keep a journal, something- anything, to put his thoughts down. Maybe if these thoughts were written down, he can be saved, maybe he wont go crazy, not just the crazy we all know and love him for, but insane. I wanna tell someone so bad but I can't. Now all i have done is watch him 24/7. And I can't help but notice, he is nothing more than a singing madman.