Date: Fri, 14 Jan 2000 20:41:19 -0800 (PST) From: Ethan Subject: Summer Love This is my first attempt at writing, so be kind. Please over look any grammer or punctuation errs. Remember...This is FICTION. It in no way implies or represents anything of the people mentioned in this story. If this material offends you...Don't read it... My name is Ethan and here is the story of a dream come true and true love found. First a bit about myself I am 19 years old six feet tall 165 pounds with brown hair and emerald green eyes. I am a small town boy and as a result I have never been able to express my true feelings. you see I am gay and I have been aware of it since I was 10. Even going to college now the fear of discovery and retribution has made me hide my true feelings. I have never known love or been in love. I constantly deal with people saying how come such a cute young man is still not dating and with relatives trying to fix me up with this or that girl. I just play along like the good little straight boy but the ache I feel inside and the longing for a true love to come into my life and take me away from all the loneliness I feel. Well the Summer of 1999 was the beginning of the road to a new life and happiness for me and here is the story that changed my life. I should start at the beginning and how I wandered into the path that changed my life. I was desperate to see my absolutely all time favorite band The Backstreet Boys. See I have had a secret crush on Nick Carter since elementary school. I was 2 years ahead of Nicky in school but I think I fell in love with his sweet smile the minute I saw it. I was always so shy and introverted in school no one ever noticed me anyway so I never really got to know him very well. All I know is their music is so awesome it starts my heart racing every time I hear it. Especially when Nicky sings I almost hear my heart melting. Well I had to see the show so I went to Buffalo sleeping bag in tow to camp out at the ticket office the night before the tickets went on sale. I got there and got what I thought was a good place in line. But little did I know that it would sell out in 21 minutes and I would get stuck with no ticket. I was so upset I sat down and cried into my sleeping bag. Now I would never get to see them. So I packed up my sleeping bag and went to my car and drove home. This is the end of chapter 1 more to follow hopefully tell me what you think :)