Date: Sun, 02 Dec 2001 12:35:26 -0500 From: Kris Eshleman Subject: Tender Love and Care: Chapter One Tender Love and Care, A story about Ashley and Jacob from the boyband O-Town, Ashley cries over the loss of his first love, and Jacob proves it's worth looking for a second. Copyright by Kristopher Eshleman Disclaimer: I don't know anybody who knows anybody who ever knew anybody who knows or has anything to do with O-Town. In fact I never really thought about them much until two days ago when there was an enormous Making the Band marathon on and I just kind of fell in love with the idea of Ashley and Jacob. I'm not trying to say anything about the real people I'm portraying in my story. This is just fiction for the readers enjoyment. That's it. Pairings: Ashley and Jacob Rating: NC-17 Dedication: For all those people who believe that both Ashley and Jacob looked better before they got their new haircuts. Come on Jake^... what's with the dreads? Author's Notes: I want to start more stories, and get people readers involved with them If you are interested in being a part of this experiment in democracy please email me at uninspired_teen@yahoo.com or come visit my message board that just recently opened at http://pub101.ezboard.com/bsurrealisticdreams71971 or lastly you can visit my personal web page at http://www.geocities.com/uninspired_teen P.S. Please give me feedback^... I don't know how to improve if people won't tell me. *~*~*~* There was music playing softly in the background, but Ashley couldn't remember when he had turned it on. He couldn't remember when he had first laid down on his bed. He couldn't remember when he had started crying. He couldn't remember because this night simply seemed to be an extension of every night before it, he couldn't remember when he did anything else. Some people thought that he was overreacting. Some people told him to just get over it. Some people thought he was acting silly and childish. What those people didn't know was how much he was hurting. Why couldn't those people remember how hard it is to lose your first love? It felt like someone had clawed out a part of his chest. Sometimes it hurt so bad that he couldn't breathe. Ashley felt like he had lost the most important thing in the world, and all he wanted to do was be alone so that he could cry without anyone looking at him and judging him. As he heard the door open however he knew he wasn't going to get his wish, he didn't care who it was, he just hoped they would say whatever they had to say and leave. `At least', he thought to himself, `Whoever it is can't see my tears with my face buried in my pillow.' "Ash? Are you okay?" Jacob quietly closed the door behind him. He knew that his friend had been upset for most of the week. He didn't know what he could do but he wanted to do something. "I'm fine^..." The words were little more than a mumble from the bed. Jacob smiled as he walked over and sat beside Ashley. One hand instinctually reached out to rub his friend's back comfortingly. "Excuse me I couldn't hear you through all the fabric and tears." Ashley couldn't help but laugh a little at that. Collecting himself a bit he turned his head and body so that they were facing Jacob. With a little of the old playfulness that he used to always be filled with he hit Jacob with the pillow. "I said I'm fine." "Oh that's good then, cause I was sure I heard you say `I don't know what to do Jake, and the only thing that keeps me from losing it is that you are the best musician I have ever met, and a great inspiration to me, and I will always look up to you as a role model. Because you^...'" Ashley couldn't take the narcissism any more, so Jacob was quickly reintroduced to the pillow he had met moments earlier. "I'm pretty sure I just said `I'm fine'." "Sure?" "Positive." "Its okay to look up to me though, you don't have to feel bad, lots of people do." "I'll bet." Jacob smiled at Ashley; he knew that this was helping somewhat, but it wasn't going to get to the heart of the problem. Until that happened moments like this would only be a temporary reprieve from the pain. "Ash^... you know I'm here for you if you ever need to talk right?" Ashley looked into Jacob's eyes, and he felt like crying again, because there was so much emotion there. "I know Jake. What I don't know is what to say." "Its not always important to know what to say, sometimes its enough to just talk." That sounded goofy to Ashley but it also made a little bit of sense. Unconsciously he pulled his knees up to his chest as he leaned back against the headboard of his bed. "I'm just afraid Jake." Taking Ashley's lead Jacob sat cross-legged in front of him near the base of the bed, his arms resting casually on his legs. They had been around each other enough to not even realize their state of undress. Ashley wore a simple white t-shirt and blue silk boxers, while Jacob wore baggy jeans with no shirt, his own white boxers peeking out just a bit over his belt. "What are you afraid of?" "That I'll never love someone as much as I loved her^... and that I will end up alone^..." There was such fear and pain in Ashley's eyes, that Jacob himself felt like crying as he watched unshed tears start to glisten in his friend's eyes. He felt helpless, like there was nothing he could possibly say that would make Ashley understand that there would always be someone. He just decided to do the only thing he could think of. Slowly he crawled over to his friend and wrapped his arms around him. Sinking into the embrace Ashley's tears started to flow freely, he didn't have the strength to hold them back anymore. He buried his face into Jacob's warm chest, and his arms wrapped around his waist. "Shhhh^... Ash^... that's not true. You'll find someone, and when you do you are going to make them the luckiest person alive." Jacob stroked Ashley's back comfortingly; he knew that Ashley was holding to him like a lifeline. Something about that felt right, he had never been as comfortable as he was right then, with Ashley's arms wrapped tightly around him. For his part Ashley had not felt this secure in months, maybe even years. He leaned back a bit, and loosened his grip on Jacob so that he could look up into his friend's eyes. He had never seen a look on Jacob's face like the one he was wearing now. He looked^... at peace. Like everything was just right. Guided by instinct Ashley raised himself up on his knees, so that he was eye level with Jacob. Ever so slowly he began to lean forward. He had never though about kissing another guy before, and he wanted to give Jacob every chance to say something to stop him. But Jacob simply closed his eyes and leaned forward as well. Their lips met softly, this was new territory for the both of them. Jacob had never considered kissing a guy either. Ashley felt Jacob's tongue against his lips, and slowly parted them. He sighed softly as Jacob's tongue slipped into his mouth, and one of Jacob's hands came up to caress the back of his neck. After a small eternity in bliss they parted. "Ash^... I^..." "Shhhh^..." Ashley placed one finger against Jacob's lips. He wanted this night to be free of any more words or doubts. He wanted to just follow his instinct, and go as far as it and Jacob would take him. He needed this more than the air he had been struggling to breathe. He smiled when Jacob nodded in understanding and leaned in for another kiss. He was content to let Jacob take the lead; he was unsure and needed Jacob's confidence. He felt goose bumps rise on his flesh as Jacob guided him down to the bed. He had never been underneath a guy like this before, and it turned him on in a way he didn't think possible. He moaned softly as Jacob's tongue and lips explored his neck, and his hands slowly reached up underneath of his shirt. His back arched involuntarily as contact was made with one of his nipples. He had never realized how sensitive they were. It was completely a new sensation to be the person who the lovemaking was focused upon. So often it was he that was working to make sure that his lover was experiencing pleasure, this was a welcome change. He was glad that Jacob took him arching his back as a sign to take of his shirt. He had wanted nothing more than to be free of the restricting garment. He smiled up at Jacob as his friend^... no as his lover leaned back over him. He opened his mouth for another kiss as Jacob's hands began to slowly explore his body. Another sigh of pleasure escaped Ashley as one of Jacob's hands began to explore the sensation of his soft silk boxers. The sigh became a moan when Jacob's hand gripped his cock through the material. "J-Jacob^...ohh^..." "Ssshhh, just relax Ash, I just want to make you feel good." Ashley's hips bucked up against Jacob's hand, desperate for more friction and his head lolled back as Jacob's tongue began to circle one of his nipples before beginning to suck at the tender flesh. "Jacob^... please^..." Knowing what Ashley wanted Jacob lifted Ashley's hips and slipped off the boxers. Ever so slowly and carefully Jacob gripped Ashley once more. This was the first time he had ever held another guy's cock before. Experimentally he began slowly stroking Ashley the way he himself liked to be. By the sounds that Ashley was making he was pretty sure that he liked it as well. "Is this good Ash?" Ashley was running on sensory overdrive, he knew that Jacob knew the answer to his own question so he opted to continue to moan and writhe under Jacob's ministrations rather than waste valuable breath of forming a coherent answer. It seemed to be enough because just when Ashley thought he was going to get control of himself he felt Jacob's hot lips wrap around him. He couldn't believe it. He never would have imagined himself on his back under Jacob Underwood. But he was sure that had he imagined it, it would not have been as good as this. Once again his hips took on a mind of their own and started bucking up against Jacob's mouth. When Jacob used one of his arms to hold his hips down and started caressing his balls with the other one, Ashley thought his brain was going to explode. His hands reached down to caress Jacob's hair and neck, encouraging him even more "Jacob^... I'm^... c-close^..." Jacob didn't respond, he wanted this, and he was determined to give Ashley the best blowjob of his life. His tongue continued to tease him toward completion, and his arms kept Ashley from making him gag by bucking up against him. Letting out one last moan of pleasure Ashley gave in and let his orgasm wash over his body. He couldn't stop writhing around under Jacob though because Jacob wasn't stopping. He just continued to suck on him and lick him and caress him and Ashley was sure his brains were going to leak out of his dick soon if Jacob didn't stop. His eyes began to roll back up in his head and he couldn't stop whimpering with sheer ecstasy. His hands tried to pull Jacob back up his body but Jacob wasn't ready to relinquish him yet. Finally Jacob let Ashley fall limply from his mouth, and slowly crawled up his body. He leaned down to kiss his new lover and Ashley was completely sexy in that mind blown best blowjob of my life ever kind of way. When Ashley tried to caress Jacob's cock through the jeans he was still wearing Jacob reached down to stop him. "Tonight was for you, just sleep now my beautiful angel." "But^... I want^... to^..." Jacob couldn't help but smile at Ashley's dazed state. He knew his lover needed sleep. "Don't worry about me I'll be fine." With one last kiss Jacob got to his feet and covered Ashley's naked body. He then headed for the door. As he was about to close it he heard Ashley's voice, sexy and husky from his orgasm. "Tomorrow will be for you^..." Jacob couldn't wait. *~*~*~* Okay that's it^... do you want to see a chapter two? If so give me some feedback^... write a review or email me at uninspired_teen@yahoo.com Thxs go out to everyone who has been so supportive of me. I'm working on creating a message board and possibly a complete site for this story and my others. If you are interested in seeing it or maybe helping, I'm going to have contests and such for plot twists readers would like to see in the story. If interested please email me at the above yahoo address or visit the link at the top of the story. Thank you all.