Date: Sat, 28 Aug 1999 14:38:58 -0700 (PDT) From: Kyle D Subject: Thinking Of You (I Drive Myself Crazy) Pt. 2 This story involves members of the band NSYNC. I am in no way implying anything about the sexuality of any of the members. This is purely a fictional story. Enjoy! This is my first attempt at writing a story like this so please bear with me. Please send any comments and/or suggestions to tommyboy_d79@yahoo.com This is the second part. So far I know there hasn't been much happening between the characters, but I am trying to build up history. So please bear with me :) * * * * * * * The morning sun shined through the window and caught in the mirror and relected right onto my face waking me. I looked at the clock and saw it was 9 in the morning. I lay there and slowly stretched. I looked at the bare walls around me and at the boxes in the corner. Again I thought about how I needed to unpack, but just never had the time. Well, this morning I was free and instead of procrastinating, I would do it. The next thing I know, there is a knock at the door and my aunt enters. She looks around with a look of amazement, then laughs. "Its your 21st birthday and you spend half of it unpacking?? Oh you are definetly your mothers son." "Well I gues thats a compliment. Could be worse, I could be like you Tina." I said with a smile. She came over and hugged me. She is a short frail thing. I can easily pick her up. She looks so much like my mom that its comforting. "Your mom called earlier and is going to call back in a few to talk to you. And before you say anything at least give her credit for remembering your birthday." I loved this woman so much. There were so many times in childhood that I wished she was my mom. And I could never thank her enough for letting me live with her. "Now its noon and I have a lunch being made up for you. So put on some clothes and get downstairs." she said and smacked my butt. That was when I looked down and saw I still only had boxers on. "Ooh if only I was younger and not your aunt." she said. "Yeah but ya still wouldn't be my type" I joked back. "Hey baby, I can be whatever your fantasy desires." she said in a deep butch voice. We both cracked up and she walked out to let me get dressed. I threw on a shirt and jeans and slipped into sandals and was down the stairs. I got into the kitchen and there was my "family". My aunt Tina, her husband John, Kira and the six year old twins: Jacqui and Josh. They saw me walk in and started in on Happy Birthday. I sat at the table and there was so much food spread out that it wasn't funny. My family is big on food. But you wouldn't tell by looking at us. My cousins were diggin in already like there was no tomorrow. We ate and had pleasant talk. My grandma called and over speaker phone wished me happy birthday and talked to us. Then my aunt brought out my cake. It had so many candles it lookd like it was on fire. They joked about that and I blew out the candles. We ate, had coffee and talked. The phone rang and expecting my mom Tina answered. She got a funny look and handed me the phone. "Its for you Cole. Its Trevor." Everyone froze. You could hear a pin drop. I took the phone from my aunt. "You can take it in the den if you want to son. " John said. "Thanks John, but Im alright." I put the phone to my ear and talked. "Hey Trev. Aww thanks, thats sweet. I know. Thank you. OK. I miss you too. Me too. Bye." I clicked it off and sat down. "How is he?" my aunt asked. "He is good. Amanda and him are back in Florida. He's starting school and is excited." I answered. the mood was kind of heavy and then the phone rang again. Kira jumped up to answer. She took it in the den and minutes later came flying out. "Aight, get showered and dressed cause we are outta here." she said with a smile. "What?" But by this time my aunt was pushing me up the stairs and I went along with them.. I showered and got back to my room in my towel to find my three cousins there. "what's this?" I asked. "Its your presents a little early, since you won't be home tonight." Tina said from behind me. She handed me a gift and I opened it to find a new pair of Tommy jeans. I thanked her and kissed her. Jacqui came up and handed me her package. I smiled and opened it and found a green and white striped Tommy jersey. I kneeled down and kissed her and she blushed. Then Josh came and handed me his package. Inside was Tommy socks and boxers. I laughed and he high fived me and gave me a hug. Then my uncle came up and handed me his gift. I opened it to find a silver and gold Fossil watch. I was stunned, even moreso when he bear hugged me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I thanked them all and they stepped out, except for Kira. "Aight, get dressed in the pretty new clothes and meet me in your jeep." she said and closed the door. I got my new stuff on and grabbed my keys and wallet. Just as I was heading out the door the phone rang and my aunt told me it was my mom. I grabbed it and started talking. "Hey mom." "Happy birthday honey. How is the day so far?" "Had lunch with the family, got presents and am heading out the door to be surprised by Kira. " "Well my gift should be there about now." And at that the doorbell rang. I answered and it was Federal Express. I signed and took. "Now open it and tell me what you think." I opened the package and saw inside was a photo album. I opned it and saw baby pictures, family shots and more. Confused I asked," Mom what is this?" "When you get back from your trip take a close look at it all. I know that I have never been there when you needed me baby. I am sorry. But I hope this shows something." Then I noticed a checkbook. "whats the checkbook for? Are you trying to makeit up with money again??" I asked with anger. "No. Cole let me explain." but before she could finished I hung up. I put the stuff in my room and went down to the car. Kira was waiting impatiently. "What took so long?" she asked. I hopped in and said," don't worry. Now what are we doing?" "Your mom eh?? Aight, we are heading to the Hilton. I have to pick up some papers from Melinda." Kira was an intern for a studio this summer in Florida. She still holds a title and whenever a band is in town she does stuff for them. Makes for some pretty interesting stuff. When she was in Orlando this summer she hooked up with one of the boy bands and found that a few of the members were people that she had know from all the summers the family used to go down there when she was little. "So who is it this time?" I asked. "Well dear thats part of the surprise." she said. We turned on the radio for backgroung noise and pulled out of the drive. The Hilton was about 45 minutes away from us so we had a drive. Being Saturday morning we had the top 40 going. "So what happened with Mom's??" she asked about ten minutes later. "Nothing new. Trying to show her affection through money again." I said. "Oh." she reached over and turned up the radio and "My Own Worst Enemy" kicked in. Its no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy Cause every now and then I kick the living shit out of me Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk I didn't mean to call you that "Lets not discuss her then. Umm, Trev?" she asked hesitantly. "he's fine Kira." AT THE HILTON "Alright guys Kira and Cole are on their way over. The plan is this. Kira is going to have Cole sit in the room and go to Melinda and grab the papers. And we are going to come back with her and surprise him." Lance said. "Hey its Cole?? Man why didn't you guys tell us that earlier? Cole is the shit!! THis is gonna be fun." Justin said. "Uh oh that means the competition just got fiercer JC." Chris said. "Why's that?" he asked nonchalantly. "Becaue I remember last summer." The last summer had been a busy one. The guys had just been getting started and they had been in studios and rehearsals so much it wasn't even funny. But when they had time to break they went out with Kira. They met her cousin during this time. He had just got out of a relationship and was bummed. And JC had fallen in love. Only Chris knew this. And it was something he hated. He loved Cole as a friend. He wanted the world for him to smile. But when JC had come to Chris and poured his heart out it had killed him. Being nasty, Chris convinced JC that Cole needed time to recover. It had killed JC. SO the two had been miserable and watched Cole drift from one guy to another while JC sobbed in silence. "Oh, THAT. Well I think we have moved past that now." JC said. "How so?" Joey asked. "I 'm seing someone." A chorus of "whats?" were heard around the room. "Who?" Joey asked. "When?" Lance asked. "where?" Justin asked. "I don't beleive you." Chris said. "His name is Dan. I met him right before we left. At the marina. We spent the last week together and have promised to be true to each other since. I talk to him whenever I get the chance on my cell and if you want Chris I can go get my bill for you." JC answered. They all sat there in silence. "If, IF this is true then why have you been competing with me?? How is that staying true to "dan"?? Huh Josh?? Tell us!." Chris spit out. JC sat there with a struck look.. He opened his mouth but nothing would come out. His face turned red and he jumped up and ran from the room. "Chris why the hell do you push his buttons like that for?" Justin asked between clenched teeth. "He's gonna lie then Im gonna call him on it." he replied. "No, he won't give it up to you so your trying to make him miserable. You suck as a person and as a frined. I'm going to see him." Justin said as he left. "Whats the brats problem?" Chris said and sat back. "He's right Chris." Joey said. "Oh yeah right. The kid who goes out and fucks and dumps. I'm supposed to take moral advice from HIM. I think not." "Yeah he may do that Chris but he's not dumping on his friends." Lance said. "Chris we know how much you love JC. We do. But you have to realize that its not being returned. And when you pull stunts like that it doesn't help him want you anymore." Joey said. "okay, let me go apologize to him." Chris said. "Give him time with Justin first." Lance said. "okay." IN JC's ROOM Justin tapped on the door and when he didn't get an answer he walked in and found his best friend on the bed sobbin. He went over and sat next to him. He put his arm around JC and hugged him. Eventually the sobbing subsided and JC sat up with red, teary eys. "You want to talk now?" Justin asked. "Yeah." "Okay first tell me why you felt you had to lie to us like that." "i.... Just.....I am lonely......I want....no I need love.....do you know how much it suck to sing about love all night and come back to an empty hotel room?? To know that if I wanted to I could get laid, but thats not love. I want someone to tell me they love me. To hold me. To want me." "Okay, I get that." Justin replied. "How?? You are with a different girl in every town!" "hey! I am looking JC. Besides, before you all decided to judge me as a player did you ever ask what I do?" "No. What do you do Justin?" "I bring them back to the hotel and talk to them.. I want love like you do, but I know I am not going to find it on the road I occasionally have sex, but for the most part it is company." "Wow, Just, I'm sorry about thinkin...." "No, it alright. I know how it looks and never said anything about the guys suspicions. So its alright. Now back to you." "Okay, so Chris is always getting guys to come back with him. And I'm supposed to compete right? So I try, but I cant do it Justin.. I cant give up my virginity. Thats special. Its something I give up with the one I love. So when Chris brought up Cole, I had to do it." "Why?? What does Cole have to do with this?" "I am so in love with him Justin. But he just sees me as a friend." "Like Chris." "What?" JC asked. Right then there was a knock at the door and Chris poked his head in. "Just, Lance and Joey want you. Its about time to go to Melindas room." Justin looked at JC to see if he was okay and JC nodded. Justin leaned over and hugged him and whispered, "I'll tell you later". he got up and left. Chris sat down next to JC. "Josh, I dont know what happened. But I am sorry. Really sorry. I didn't mean to embarass you." JC looked at him and smiled. "Can't stay mad at you Chris. Otherwise I would only have Curly to talk to. And lets face it, he aint one for gossiping about nice asses." "HAHA!! Only cause he don't like us checking out his." With that they doubled over laughing. They hugged and went to join the others in Melindas room. BACK IN THE JEEP "So tell me Kira. What are we doing?? Its 2 in the afternoon. We'll be getting there by 3. What are we doing tonight?" "Well we are going to have fun. I'll tell you that much." "You suck!" "Yeah but you swallow." "Thats sick Kira." "Then don't share with me next time!" We laughed and then the dj came back on and announced the next song. "This is a request called in this morning. Its sent out to our birthday boy Cole. Happy Birthday!" I turned to Kira and she was busting up laughing. "You had Dave do this?" "Yup." Dave continued,"Here it is Cole baby, your birthday song. its Nsync "U Drive Me Crazy". U drive me crazy Why are you messin' with my mind U drive me crazy Why are you tellin' all these lies U drive me crazy Stop doin' all these things to me U drive me crazy 'Cause all I want is to be free I'm feelin' weak, I cannot sleep My head is burning, I feel cold down to my feet I wanna yell somebody help Is there a cure for what I got? Somebody tell me I need your lovin' face I need your sweet embrace 'Cause you are my only medicine U drive me crazy Why are you messin' with my mind U drive me crazy Why are you tellin' all these lies U drive me crazy Stop doin' all these things to me U drive me crazy 'Cause all I want is to be free You're on my mind I'm so uptight I feel sensation in my head, down to my spine Goin' insane, can't stand the pain Is my condition permanent? Somebody tell me I need your lovin' face I need your sweet embrace 'Cause you are my only medicine U drive me crazy Why are you messin' with my mind U drive me crazy Why are you tellin' all these lies U drive me crazy Stop doin' all these things to me U drive me crazy 'Cause all I want is to be free 24/7 you are on my mind, I'm going crazy You are the cure and you know but you don't care Girl, you're drivng me insane You can say what you want to Do what you want to As long as you love me, girl, I won't front you You're the sweetest thing Let me be your man Let me hold your hand Or let me be your friend Meanwhile I will set the house up on a hill Girl as you know, it's all about the dollar-bill Gonna treat you like a queen Like a lady Chica, chico, you drive me crazy You're always on my mind I need you all the time So come and get with me Cause darlin', you're the one I need Someone to hold me tight 'Cause I can't sleep at night You are my fantasy Girl, you drive me crazy U drive me crazy Why are you messin' with my mind U drive me crazy Why are you tellin' all these lies U drive me crazy Stop doin' all these things to me U drive me crazy 'Cause all I want is to be free "There you go folks. And for those of you who don't know tomorrow is JC's birthday and to celebreat we are giving away backstage passes to their concert on Monday. So call in and be caller number nine and get your passes." I turned the radio off and turned to Kira. "Pray tell WHAT was that for??" I asked. "Well I thought the song fit. And hey did YOU KNOW that people in Florida hear this same broadcast!" she said with a smirk. It was then I caught on to it. "Yep. They heard it. I made sure." "There are times that I love you and there are times I hate you and then there are times that I don't know." I said with a smile "Love me baby, cause the day aint over yet. And theres out turn. We pulled into the Hilton and the valet came up to the Jeep. I handed him the key and we walked into the hotel.. Kira went to the desk and told them who she was and they called Melinda and soon after we were shown up. We got out of the elevator on the 11th floor and went to the room. It was empty. "Take sit and I will be back real quick ok?" I nodded okay and she walked out. I walked to the window and looked out at the view of the desert. I heard the door open and I said," Hey bitch can we get a drink or something?" "Damn boy you better get down on your knees first." this male voice answered. I whipped around and saw five of the coolest guys I knew standing there with smiles. I went to them and as we hugged and I got the happy birthday's. JC and Chris were the last two to hug and I almost felt like it was tug of war. JC hugged me and held on and then Chris almost pulled me away so he could hug and Iended up getting sandwiched between. Which was no problem, because these were my favorite two guys. We all brok and sat down around the room. "So the big 21. That means we get to go CLUBBING!" Joey said and danced. We all broke up laughing. Kira walked into the room and immediatly was hit by Joey and Justin.. Lance just sat back and watched, while Chris sat next to me chattering. "So what made you change from Florida State to Arizona??" he asked. All eyes were on him. He realized what he said and looked at me for my reaction. For some reason I had never noticed is cuteness. Its not as obvious as JC and Justin, but its there. "Well I needed a change of scenery and people. I was out of the relationship, but I felt like I was being drowned because I couldn't get away from it. So I moved here. " The conversation then jumped from school to music to Chris's new clothing line. I noticed at some point that JC wasn't with us, I excused myself and went out into the hall and found him at the end looking out of the windows. I walked up and saw he was deep in thought. I wasn't sure if I should disturb him.. Out of all the guys I knew him the least. But he was the one I wanted to know the most. He drew me to him. It was weird like he was the magnet and he was the steel. I took a chance that he would want company and walked over next to him. I leaned on the rail next to him. He was lost in thought. I leaned over and whispered in his ear,"Hey." He jumped a mile and then looked at me with a scared look. I couldn't figure it out. So I put my hand on his shoulder and smiled. "Hey Cole, sorry about that. I was just........thinking about something." "I know, I do that alot." I smiled. "So how's it feel to be 21?" he asked. "No different than all the other ages. Hows it feel to be turning 23 tomorrow?" "No different." he smiled back. We talked about school then. He asked what I was doing in my spare time and I told him about being the fitness trainer. "You know our trainer left us a while back. Its not like we need one cause all the dancing we do keeps us fit, but you know if you ever wanted to just come along sometime, we could use that as your excuse." I was thrown by this. Why had he said that?? "well it would be hard to get away from school. And its kinda my bread and butter right now. Gotta pay those bills you know." "Yeah, I know. It was just an offer if life ever gets too much y'know?" he said sheepishly. "Hey no problem JC. I just may take you up on that sometime. Hey do you..." "HEY GUYS LETS GO!!!!!" Justin yelled down the hall interrupting me. "You were saying?" he asked with this look. "Umm nothing, lets go see what we're doing." We got back to the room and found everyone getting ready to leave. I looked at my watch and saw it was 6. Wow, I had been out for awhile with JC. And I noticed Chris looking at us strangely. Then I noticed that JC was right next to me. Interesting. We all agreed to grab a bite at On The Border. We would take the limo. We got tothe lobby and there were no girls. The public still didn't know that the guys were here so we should be safe. We got in the limo an the seating arrangement puzzled me. Kira took the back seat facing the road with Joey and Justin on either side of her. Lance was on the side. And I took the seat with my back to the driver and Chris and JC were on my sides. The puzzling thing was Lance had been sitting next to me when Chris jumped in to get it. We got to the restaurant and saw that most of the wait staff were my and Kira's friends from ASU. We were sitted in the back conference room.. This was my favortite Mexican restaurant. They had good food and good atmosphere. We were seated and the waiter came and got our drinks and orders. "I'll take the sampler." Kira said. "Umm that has everything right?? Ill take that too." Joey said. "Me too." Lance chimed in. "I will have the chicken chimi platter." Justin said. "I want the grilled steak fajita." Chris said. "I'll take meal #19 with no lettuce or onions." I said. "Whats that?" JC asked. "Its a chicken enchilada in white sauce, chicken burrito with cheese, chicken taco and rice." I answered. "Hmm I'll try that one." he said and got a look from Chris that he didnt notice. We sat there munching on the chips and salsa that were laid out and sippin on our drinks. I noticed that no one had ordered alcohol. We talked about the clubs to hit. There were a variety and it depended on the kind of music and people you want around you all night basically. We got it down to three options. The Plaza: an alternative club where they wouldnt be recognized. The Cage: a college bar with pop music where there was a good chance of being noticed. And IBT's: the club where anything goes. Gay, bi straight, they all go there. The food arrived and we ate and talked. We all traded food and tried a little bit of everything. We were laughing and having a good time. The waiters that we all knew came by to wish me a happy birthday. We finished and Kira paid. We got into the limo and decided on IBT's. It would be fun and they wouldn't get too mobbed. So we headed there. We got to the door and Justin almost didn't get in. But the guy at the door was a fireman from the gym who I knew and I settled it. We got in and eveybody got beers and started drinking and dancing. The music was techno and loud. The floor was packed and we got out into it. No one seemed to notice the guys and that was good. But then "Tearin Up My Heart" started and I freaked. But then I noticed as the song progressed, no one noticed that the guys were out on the floor with them. I was dancing with Chris, JC and Lance. Kira was with Joey and Justin. We were having fun. It was about midnight and I had to get some air, so I went on onto the patio. It was cool with a breeze. I went to the balcony and looked out over the town. Good view. Then I felt someones hand on my shoulder. I turned and looked into those most deep blue eyes that I had ever seen.................