Date: Thu, 11 Nov 1999 05:04:25 -0800 (PST) From: Francis O'Ratigan Subject: From out of the Ashes Chapter 1&2 Hi, every body this is Tim the author of Twist and Turns. The story is getting a face lift. Jason and Kevin will still be in the story. This section will concentrate on the rebuilding of South Fork and Jason's life. Remember that this is fiction and in no way reflects the actual sexual orientation of the BSB or Nsync. If you are minor than you know you shouldn't be reading this so scat and come back when you are legal. If you are an adult than enjoy the story. As usual comments are welcome. Please e-mail to frnceso@yahoo.com. Now on with the story. (From out of the Ashes) The next in the series of Twist and Turns Chapter 1 and 2 Morning dawns and as promised Kevin shows up with a smile on his face. I was still asleep when he arrived. He decided to bug me awake by throwing small pieces of paper at me. HMMM doesn't that sound familiar? I was dreaming that I was in school getting pelted by spit balls. I shook myself awake just in time to get pelted on the nose with a wad of paper. I looked at Kevin and picked up one and threw it back. "Hey that is my game," I scolded. "Go find your own." We both laugh and he came forward and pulled me into a kiss. Unknown to him I had snuck a piece of ice out of my pitcher and promptly slipped it down his shirt. He jumped back yelping. "Speaking of finding your own game," he laughed as he tossed the ice in the waste basket. I was lost staring at him again. His eyes were bright and he had lost his bags under his eyes. He looked so much better. He caught me staring at him and he blushed and looked away. As the day wore on I had all of my tubes removed and had been on three walks. I of course drug Kevin on all three. He went willingly. Finally the time came for dinner. Just as the nurse brought it in we heard the door Knock. Kevin got up to open it. The door flew open and in walked the Members of Nsync. "Yoo Jason, wass up!!" exclaimed Justin extremely hyper. Joey, Lance and Chris came charging in. JC followed up the rear hanging back by the door. Kevin stood up with his fists at his side. "Kevin please, not here and not now, Please?" I pleaded. He gave me a weak smile and sat back down. "Hey guys, what are you doing here? I mean don't you have that court thing going on?" I asked pleased to see them again. "We're taking a break from that and decided to come up for a visit. How are you feeling?" asked Justin with concern in his voice bending down to give me a hug which I returned. He got back up shocked at the weight I had lost and how weak I was. "Much better than a week ago. I'll be my old self in a few days," I lied. He didn't buy it but he didn't say any thing. He sat back down and began to engage in a conversation with Kevin who was no doubt filling him in on the real deal. Next came Joey Chris and Lance. When I hugged Chris his back pack barked I jumped back and he started laughing. He than reached into his pack and took out a squirming puppy named Busta. I laughed too as he placed the pup in my arms. I held him for a few moments. And than handed him back to Chris who stuffed him back in the back pack. "He likes it in there," he explained. I shook my head and laughed again. It felt good to laugh. We all sat around talking for two and half hours. Soon I was alone again everyone going out,(only because I insisted that they take Kevin with them.) He argued of course but I won. JC decided not to go and headed back to the hotel. I drift off to sleep and wake up late that night. The room is dark and I see an outline of someone sitting in a chair beside me. "Hey Babe, what are you doing sitting in the dark?" I asked sleepily. "It's not Kevin," said a chilling voice. I started shaking. I was in no shape to fight him off if he should try some thing. I felt a hand touch my shoulder, I cringed and grew stiff. "What do you want JC?" I asked my voice shaking in fear. I was angry at myself for showing fear. "Don't be afraid, I'm not here to hurt you. I would never hurt you," he insisted. I could hear that he was crying. "Can you turn on the lights please?" I asked. He got up and turned on the lights. When he came back to sit down he looked at the ground his tears flowing freely. My heart went out to him. I couldn't help it he looked so helpless. I reached out and touched his shoulder. He collapsed in my arms sobbing uncontrolably. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," he sobbed over and over again. "I didn't mean to hurt you. I swear. Please don't hate me!" he begged. I was shocked here was the man who had raped me once and tried to rape me again crying on my shoulder begging for forgiveness. I soothed him the best I could. When he finally calmed down to the point where he could sit and talk without bursting into tears I gently pushed him back into a seated position. It was hard due to my weakness. He saw it and started sobbing again. "Shh, it's ok JC really it is. This wasn't your fault," I pleaded. He looked at me and back at the floor again. "So you want to tell me the reason for this late night vist?" I asked pushing the button to raise the head of the bed. "I wanted to talk to you alone. I am the reason we came back. I didn't like the way things ended last time," he replied. "How did things end?" I asked. "Well I tried to take advantage of you and I shouldn't have done that," he admitted. "Correction, JC, you took advantage of me not once but twice. And not to mention you took advantage of Kevin's friendship too," I corrected. "And I am not sure that I am ready to mend fences yet." I admitted to him and myself. "Can we at least try?" he asked. "I mean I would really like to be friends if we can." He said hopefully looking at me. "I suppose so. But don't get mad if it doesn't happen right away," I relented. He smiled at me and I smiled back. "Soooo, JC, how are you and Justin doing?" I asked. He looked down. "He hates me. He wont talk to me and he wont practice with me. I can barely get him to perform with me. It is really starting to show," he said sadly. "Why? I mean I know he likes you a lot," I asked. "I mean anyone looking at him can tell he is head over heals in love with you." "He says he can't be with a rapist. I don't blame him. I can't stand myself," he admitted. 'This guy is tearing himself up over this,' I thought. My eyes lit up with an idea. "I think I know what his problem is. He is afraid of loving you because of me. He thinks that is he shows any feelings towards you he'll loose me as a friend. We have to show him that wont happen," I sudgested. He looked up at me like I was nuts. "Just how the hell are we supposed to do that?" he asked. "We mend fences. I mean, like a said before it will take time. But I think it will work. We need to get you and Justin together. But one thing though," I warned. "And that is?" he asked. "If you and Justin do get together and if I find out that you have hurt him in any way I'll kill you. Do you understand?" I replied. He nodded. I picked up the TV and was shocked to see the front of the hospital on the news. I turned up the volume. "I am standing out side the Front Royal Medical Center where it is reported that the Boy Band NSYNC are inside the Medical Center visiting a friend. We have this footage from an hour ago," said the reporter. The Scene changed to one where it clearly showed JC getting out of a cab and walking into the Center. I turned the TV off. "Dam Press, they'll look for any reason to but into our lives," I grumbled. We spend the next hour and a half talking and getting to know eachother. JC really was a nice guy just a little mixed up. Mean while out side My door. "Hey why is Jason's light still on?" asked Justin looking at Kevin. "Maybe the Doctor is in with him," replied Kevin. Just than they hear JC laugh and a look of horror passes over their faces which increased more when they heard me cry out. "Come on JC stop your killing me," I said holding my side trying not to laugh because of his jokes. The door slams open and in storms Kevin and Justin is right behind him. Before I could stop Kevin he is on top of him ready to beat the crap out of JC. "What did you do to him?" yelled Kevin holding his fist back. "If you've hurt him I swear to all that this holy I'll kill you!" JC struggled to get away. But Justin helped hold him down. "Stop it you two. Leave him alone!" I ordered. Both of them stopped and looked at me like I had sprouted a third head or something. "JC didn't do anything. We were just telling jokes," I explained. They let JC go and he slumped into a chair crying. Justin turned on me angry. "Since when do you talk to Rapists?" he said looking at JC in disgust. "Yea, what are you doing talking with scum like him and alone to?" demanded Kevin walking over to me looking me over to make sure I wasn't hurt. I shrugged him off. "I'm alright, gees we were just talking you know. Don't get bent all out of shape," I wined pissed off because they interupted our chat session. Big mistake Kevin just got madder and grabbed the bedside table and shoved it across the room sending it crashing against the wall. Suddenly it came rushing back at me, Kevin coming at me in a fit of rage. Hitting me out of anger. The past was so vivid that I curled myself up in a fetal position and brought my hands up to protect my face. "Please don't hit me," I begged sobbing in fear. I was shaking anticipating the blows but they never came. I instead felt two arms pull me into a tight embrace. I opened my eyes to see Kevin in bed with me holding me and rocking me gently. "shhh, Jason, it's alright, I'm not going to hit you," he sobbed. Finally I calmed down and sat back up. I saw Justin and JC standing there in shock. I blushed and looked away. "Can you guys leave us alone for a while?" asked Kevin. They nodded and quietly left the room. Kevin continued to hold me and rubbing my back. Finally I fell to sleep in his arms. He laid me down and covered me up. He was shocked again at how small and weak I had become. 'Hmmm he shouldn't have lost that much weight in just a week. Must remember to ask the Doctor about that. It looks like he is loosing more weight' he thought to himself. The door opened and JC stuck his head in. "Is it alright to come back in?" he asked. Kevin shook his head no and followed JC back out. "So why are you here?" Kevin asked JC. "Would you believe me if I told you that I came to apologies to two friends of mine?" he asked back. "Yea I guess so. Does Jason believe you?" Kevin asked still suspicious of him. "I don't know. I think we made some real progress today," JC replied. "What was that all bout in there?" he asked referring to what had happened. "A jackass made a huge mistake a few weeks ago. And I reminded him of that mistake," Kevin replied looking down. "That Jackass being you?" inquired JC. Kevin nodded. "How bad did you hurt him?" JC asked concerned. "I hurt him more emotionally than physical and I don't think he'll ever get over it. I mean we are still together and working through it but it is going to take a long time before it is back to normal again," he said sadly. By this time Justin had returned with a arm full of coffee and donuts. JC and Kevin looked at him and started laughing. He just glared at them and passed them around. The three walked to the waiting room to talk quietly. "So how are you two doing?" asked Kevin pointing to JC and Justin. Justin shifted his feet and looked down. "Were not really talking," admitted Justin. "Why? I mean you can tell you guys have got the hots for eachother," Kevin stated the obvious. "Because Justin doesn't want to be me because of what I did to Jason," replied JC. Justin looked up angry. "Yea that's right. I don't want to be around a rapist. So let's just drop the subject OK?" he asked storming off. JC hung his head and moved off to be by himself. Kevin shrugged his shoulders and went back to the room. JC used this oportunity to talk to Justin. He walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder. Justin looked up with tears in his eyes. "Damn You JC! Why do you have to be like that?" he sobbed. JC reached out and pulled him into a tight embrace and Justin broke down sobbing into his shoulder. "I love you man. How could you do that to Jason?" he sobbed pounding his fists against JC chest. JC just stood there waiting until Justin had gotten his frustrations out. He looked at Justin in the eyes and asked softly, "So Curly, are you done using me as a punching bag?" Justin nodded yes. "Good let's go sit down and have a talk. One that has been needed for a long time." Leading him over to small quiet corner of the waiting room "So how long have you had this crush on me?" JC asked. "Since the day I met you," Justin admitted. JC was shocked. He remembered that day. Justin was just a little guy back then. "How come you never acted on it?" he asked. Justin looked up at him shocked. "Come on JC, you were larger than life to me back than. I mean if I told you I was gay and had a crush on you, you would have laughed at me," explained Justin. "Yea, but what you didn't know is that I had a crush on you to but you were to young. But now, I don't know maybe, is it possible?" he asked hopefully. Justin looked up at him for a few moments. He studied JC face for signs of deciet but didn't see any. All he saw was a lonely man looking for love. "I guess maybe we can try," he replied smiling. JC face lit up like a light bulb. "But no sex! At least not right away. I mean I like you a lot but I want to take things real slow," he said. "How about if I take you on a date?" he asked. "That would be nice. Let's ask Jason in the morning where a good place it to go?" sudgested Justin. They head back to Jason's room to say good bye to Kevin and me. They walked in the room and saw Kevin sitting in a chair with his head in his hands crying. Justin ran up to him knelt by him. "What's wrong Kev?" he asked rubbing his shoulder. "It's Jason, he loosing so much weight and getting weaker. I don't know what is wrong," he sobbed into Justin's shoulder. "Have you talked to the Doctor about it?" asked JC. "He wont be in until tomorrow," replied Kevin getting up and walking over to my bedside and picking up my hand. "Well why don't you wait until wait until tomorrow and ask him? I mean there might not be any thing wrong with him," said Justin hopefully. Kevin nodded and together they walked out of the room to let me sleep. Chapter 2 (He strikes from the grave) The next morning I awoke to a bundle of roses in my face. I just smiled and asked, "is there anyone behind these?" I hear a giggle and the roses moved to reveal Kevin's smiling face. I laugh and he puts the roses on my bedside table. My food tray was already there. I lifted up the lid and smiled with glee. It was real food. There was ham and eggs and a hash brown and toast. I looked at Kevin and he just looked away grinning. I dug in and was finished in ten minuets. "Damn boy are you hungry?" he laughed. "Hello I haven't had a decent meal in over a week, you damn straight I'm hungry," I stated. I noticed that he was concerned about something. I climbed out of bed and made my way over to him and sit beside him. "What's wrong babe?" I asked. He looked at me and stared. He pulled me into a hug. "You're so thin. Are you sure that is normal?" he asked placing his hand against my cheek. I leaned into it and kiss it. "I don't know. But if it makes you feel better I'll ask the doc when he comes by this morning," I assured him. I noticed my stomach was nauseous and soon realized I was going to be sick. "UHH Kevin--" I said. He saw it too and rushed to get a waste basket. I bent over it and threw up my breakfast. I heard him gasp and I opened up my eyes and looked into the basket and saw blood. I started shaking and he helped me back to bed. He ran out of the room and came back in with the Doctor. "So Kevin tells me that you had some trouble holding your breakfast down," he said looking in the trash can. He frowned when he saw the blood. He turned to the nurse and said. "Ok let's get some lab work done. I want a CBC drawn on him and get him set up a cat scan of the abdominal region," he ordered. "Don't worry Mr. Gibson we'll get to the bottom of this," he assured me walking out of the room. So in fifteen minutes they had drawn blood started another IV and I was headed down for a cat scan. Kevin insisted on coming with me. I had thrown up five more times. One Half hour later I was back in my room sleeping. Kevin was sitting in the chair beside my bed. The door creeps open and Justin sticks his head in the door. "Hey Kevin," he says cheerfully. Kevin looks up and smiles and motions him in. Justin comes in the rest of the way. "How is he doing?" Frowning when he saw the IV back in. "He not keeping food down," He said sadly. "They ran a bunch of tests on him today to see if they can find out what is wrong." Kevin looked at Justin and immdeiatly noticed a chage. He was very happy and glowing. Kevin smiled at him, "Soo, do you have something to tell me?" he demanded. Justin blushed and looked at his feet. "OH my God you and JC are going out!" exclaimed Kevin. Justin nodded. "We are taking it real slow. No sex yet. He's been real nice about it so far. But enough about us. How are you holding up?" Justin asked. "I don't know Justin, I mean it's one thing after another. I am afraid I'm going to loose him," replied Kevin reaching over and stroking my face. I moan out his name and they both laugh and I wake suddenly. "Hey what are you laughing at?" I demanded. They just laughed harder. I finally give up and sulk. This worked. "We were laughing at you babe. Your cute when you moan my name in your sleep," giggled Kevin. I slugged him in the arm. "Ouch that hurt!" he complained. "So how are you feeling?" he asked. "I'm hungry," I complained. "Sorry babe but the Doc doesn't want you eating until we know what is going on," he said sadly. I nodded my head understanding. I looked over at Justin who staring at me. I waved my hand infront of him. "Hello Justin? Are you in there," I called out. "Yea sorry I was just thinking about something is all," he said. "Uh Uh something is wrong now tell me what it is," I pushed. He glared at me for a moment and than smiled. "I'm just worried about you is all. You've lost a lot of weight. And your getting weaker," he admitted. "Well don't worry about me. The doctors have it all under control. They will find out what is wrong with me," I assured him. He seemed somewhat sastified with that answer and started talking about JC and him. I warned him to be careful and he assured me that he would. I shooed them out so they could get lunch and I went back to sleep. When I awoke I found a puppy staring me in the face. I laughed at him and reached to pet him. "Hiya Busta, how did you get in here?" I asked scratching behind his ear. "I snuck him in for a visit," said JC picking him up and setting him down in his lap. "I wanted to see how you were doing," he said. "I've been through about a hundred test and they are using me as a pin cusion now I pointed to my IV. But other than that I am fine," I lied. He frowned at me and Busta barked. I could tell he didn't believe me. "OK OK I'm scared to death alright? I mean since the last month I've been in and out of the hospital been shot a total of four times lost my home, wife and son. And all I want to do is go home! Hell I can't go home because I don't have a home to go home to!" By this time I was shouting. JC just sat there letting me shout and get my frustrations out. I picked up the water pitcher and tried to throw it but couldn't. I dropped it on the floor and started crying. The next thing I knew JC was hugging me and telling me it was going to be alright. At some point I fell back to sleep. When I awoke all of the guys were there including Kevin and curled up beside me was Busta sound to sleep. I stretched and yawn and looked around Kevin came around and hugged me and kissed me. "So did you get it all out of your system?" he asked kissing me on the top of my head. I looked at him confused. He nodded toward JC. "Tattle tale," I shot at him. He just smiled and shrugged his shoulders. "He really didn't have a choice. I walked in on you two. He was holding you and you was crying and Busta was worried to," said Kevin. "I'm sorry that I got upset JC," I apologised. "Mention not Jason. We would have been worried if you hadn't reacted at all," consoled JC. Just than the Doctor arrived. He looked worried. He paused at the door and looked at the gang frowned at Busta but didn't say anything to him. He instead looked at me. "Hey ya Doc, What's up?" I asked cheerfully. "Can we talk alone?" he asked. I shook my head no. "These are friends as close as family. What you want to say to me can be said infront of them. That is of course if they want to hear it?" I said looking at them. They all nodded. The Doctor sat down beside me and took a deep breath. "As a Doctor I am often the bearer of bad news. This is no different. I have the results of your tests. Jason I am afraid that you have----" ************************************************************************** Well that is it for these two chapters. Yea Yea I did it again. So sue me. Ha Ha! No just kidding. I am sure I am going to hear it from Tony and Nate and a few others. If you like or hate please e-mail me at frnceso@yahoo.com Bye for now.