Date: Tue, 26 Oct 1999 13:38:47 -0700 (PDT) From: Francis O'Ratigan Subject: Twist and Turns Chapters 8 and 9 Remember this is fiction and in no way implies the sexual orientation of the BSB. If you are a minor you know you shouldn't be reading this. So scat! Come back when you are legal. If you are an adult enjoy. Now on with the story! Very Important note I have a new e-mail address. Please send all e-mail to frnceso@yahoo.com Please do not use my old Address Thank you. Twist and Turns Chapter 8 I wake up to see Kevin staring at me. I smile and stretch. "What are you looking at?" I ask with a smile. "One extremely good looking guy whom I happen to be madly in love with," he said with a goofy grin. I smile back at him and pulled him into a kiss. My hand traveled down his chest to his crotch and I reached inside of his boxers and wrapped my hand around his cock. He moaned softly. I began to stroke him off but he stopped me. "Uh Uh naughty boy. I said later on tonight," he teased me. I pouted and stuck my bottom lip out at him which he promptly caught with his teeth. The love bite quickly turned into another kiss. After we lay there kissing for the next five minutes we hear a pounding on the door. "Hey you two love birds! Are you going to lay in bed all day?" Brian whined. "Come one we're hungry." "Actually that doesn't sound like a bad idea," Kevin said. "Which part? The Staying in bed part or the hungry part," I asked softly biting him on the chin. "Both," he replied biting me on the nose as he climbed out of bed. I sit up and stretch. And climbed out of bed to. After getting dressed we head down stairs and into the dinning room. We walk into the room to see everyone sitting at the table. They all smile at us as we take our seats. Lunch consisted of cold cuts and fruit and potato salad. I had gotten my appetite back so I got no more looks from Kevin. I however did noticed that Nick was not eating as much as I thought he should. He was also with drawn. Quite a change from the happy go lucky kid I had seen just a few hours ago. I decided to have a talk with him later that day. "So what are we doing for the rest of the day?" asked AJ. "I need to stay in and get some writing done. I haven't written in over a week now. I've got some ideas I want to get down on print," I said. "Well I want to go sight seeing," said Kevin. Every one except Nick agreed. So after lunch they all head out in the limo. I head off to my study to begin writing. After about three hours of intense writing I am sasitified with what I have and decide to call it a day. I close down my computer and head out of my study and out of the house and out into the yard. I walk down to the oak tree and am surprised to see Nick laying under the tree looking up at the sky. When I get closer I see that he is crying. I grow concerned and sit down beside him. He turns over on his side and faces away from me. I reach over and touch his shoulder. He shrugs it off. I touch his shoulder again. "Go away I want to be left alone," he sniffles. "Ok but I'm here to talk to you if you want," I assured him. I get up and leave him alone. I walk to the front porch and sit down in one of the chairs. Boomer comes over and lays down beside me. I reach down and scratch him behind his ear. He looks up at me as if to say,'your adopted brother is hurting.' "Yea I know Boomer. But he isn't ready to talk about it. When he is I'll be here ready to listen," I assured him. He wasn't sastisfied he gets up and walks down to the oak tree and lays down beside Nick. They lay still for a few moments than Nick sits up and buries his head in Boomer's shoulder. I smile. That was so like Boomer always trying to help. The both of them get up and walk slowly back up to the house. I look out over the field and admire the view. The sun was starting to set and it was going to be a pretty sunset. My eyes filled with tears again as I thought about how my wife loved to watch the sunsets. Nick sits in the chair besides me and Boomer sits down besides me. "Everything alright?" I ask. Boomer looks up at me and than at Nick and barks. "Alright already, I'll tell him!" complained Nick. "Tell me what?" I ask. "What's been bothering me," replied Nick. "Ok I'm listening," I replied leaning forward. "Well Brian told me about that grave marker under that tree and he told me about Nathan," He started. I nodded motioning him to continue. "Well, You see last month I met up with a girl and we got it on," he mumbled tears coming to his eyes. I had a feeling what was coming by the tone in his voice. I stand up and walk over to his chair and knelt down and took his hand in mine. And took his chin in my hand and lifted his head up until he was looking me in the eye. "You can do this you know. You're a lot stronger than you know," I encouraged him. He nodded and took a deep breath and continued. "Well she called my management last night and told them that she was pregnant," he finished. I stand up and walk to the porch railing and leaned on it. "I don't even remember her name. She was just someone that I did it with. It didn't mean anything," he sobbed. I turn around. "Come on Nick let's go for a walk," I said walking down the steps from the front porch. Nick got up and followed. Boomer heard the word walk and followed too. We walk down the driveway past the oak tree and down the built in bike trail and towards the bank of the river. "You know Nick you're wrong. It did mean something. There may be a child involved here. So what is your first step?" I asked. "I have no idea what to do. Management said it's my problem and I got to handle it," He said throwing a rock into the river. "I would like to help you if I can," I ventured. "Would you?" he asked with a smile. "Of Course, I mean what are "kinda sorta adopted brothers for?" I asked. Before I knew it Nick had pulled me in a hug. I see Kevin walking towards up and he is pissed and balls up his fists. I pull away to try and get between Nick and Kevin. But I am too late. "What the Fuck is going on here?" Kevin yells at the top of his lungs. Grabbing Nick by the shoulder and punching him in the face. Nick falls to the ground and gets back up. "Kevin, stop!" I yell putting my self in between Nick and Kevin. "It's not what you think!" I said holding up my hand. To my horror Kevin grabbed my hand and twisted it around my back causing me to cry out in pain. He than rammed me into a tree hitting my shoulder the one I had been shot in. I scream out in pain. "Oh yea I'll tell you what I see," he rasped in my ear. I was trembling now. I couldn't understand how some one so loving and caring could turn so angry so fast. " I see a fucking whore that turns to next stud available when my back is turned," he yelled. He than punched me in the back and in the face. I fall to the ground and pull my self into a fetal position. Kevin than kicks me twice in the side. I wanted to die. I don't know how long I lie there. I vaguely remember Nick coming to my defense chasing Kevin up to the house. Finally I feel two strong arms wrap themselves around me and help me to a sitting position. It was Brian, I looked up at him and he had tears in his eyes. "Come on Jason, let's get you up to the house," he said helping me to stand. My lip was swollen and my shoulder hurt something terrible and my ribs hurt. Once on the porch I sit in the rocker. "What happened Brian?" I sobbed. "I mean how could he do this? I thought he loved me," I cried. Brian quickly pulled me into a hug. "Nick and I were just talking." "Kevin is a very jealous person. And he can be violent at times. This isn't the first time something like this happened," Brian replied wiping my tears from my face. Suddenly I got angry. Angry for getting myself into an abusive relationship. I was so angry that I started to shake. Brian got this scared look on his face and started backing away. "Well Brian, this may not have been the first time but I'll tell you this, this will be the last time!" I yelled. "Jason, don't do it man. We talked to him and he understands what he did was wrong," pleaded Brian. "Who talked to him?" I demanded. "Nick and I," Brian replied. "AJ and Howie don't know yet." "Where is he?" I demanded walking past Brian. Brian grabs my shoulder and I shrugged him off. I storm into the house. "Where the fuck is the bastard!" I screamed. "I'm not telling you. Not until you've calmed down!" Brian yelled back. I plopped down on the stairs and put my head in my hands. Brian sits besides me and rubbed my shoulder. I vaguely hear some one walk down the stairs. I look up and see Kevin standing there looking at me. He had been crying his eyes were all swollen and red. I looked at him and walked past him leaving him standing there. I walked into my study and slammed the door. I walked past a mirror and look in it. I was shocked. My lip was swollen and bleeding and the left side of my face was scraped up where he had rammed me in the tree. I picked up a glass and threw it at the mirror. It shattered into a million pieces. I made my way over to the bar and grabbed a decanter full of brandy. I looked up and saw the large painting of my wife. "Liar!!" I screamed at it. "You said we were perfect together. You lied to me!" I hurled the decanter at the picture in a fit of rage. It shattered against the picture soaking it with the brandy. I grabbed the corner of the mini bar and threw it to the floor. Glasses and decanters and ice came crashing to the floor. I stumble back and surveyed the mess I had just made. I than stumble to my desk and slumped in to the soft leather and turned it towards the picture window and stared outside. The moon was full and you could see the entire front of the property. I saw a set of headlights pull into the front gate. It was the limo. AJ and Howie were returning. I had no idea how they would react. I decided not to leave the study. I heard someone knock at the door. "Go away!" I shout. The door opens and in steps AJ. "I thought I said to go away," I said half heartedly. I turn away from the front of the study so he can't see may face. "What do you want AJ?" I asked. "Turn around Jason," he demanded. I sat still. There was no way I was going to let him see me like this. The door opened and two more people walked in. "I said turn around!" he yelled. When I didn't he grabbed the back of my chair and turned it around himself. A look of shock and horror crossed his face quickly replaced by anger. "That fucking bastard. He did it again. First he does it to me than Jason. Where is he?" he yelled turning to go out of the room and running right into the waiting arms of Nick and Brian. He tried to get past them but they restrained him. "Let me go. I'm going to beat the shit out of him!" he yelled. "Not until you calm down. There has been enough violence for one night," instructed Nick pointing to his eye. It was almost swollen shut. AJ slumped down in the leather sofa and put his head in his hands. Brian sat down next to him and put his arm around his shoulder. AJ leaned into Brian and sobbed. "He promised me Bri. He promised that he would never hurt anyone again. He promised, he broke his promise. I hate him for that." AJ sobbed over and over again as he relived his abusive experience with Kevin. I sat there staring at AJ in shock. "What do you mean this happened to you?" I demanded. Brian looked up at me and sighed. "AJ and Kevin use to be lovers. That was until it got violent. Kevin walked in on what he thought was an affair and ended up putting AJ in the hospital with a broken jaw." "That wasn't the only time Brian. Tell him everything," ordered Nick. "No Nick, I've already said enough," refused Brian. "Dammit Brian quit covering for your fucking cousin. Tell him now!" yelled Howie. Brian shook his head no and looked at the floor. "Kevin was going with this kid named Ryan. Well the same thing happened. Only the kid ended up in intensive care for three days. Kevin was lucky the kid didn't press charges," explained Howie. I just sat there and stared out the window. I couldn't believe what was happening. The man I loved was an abuser. I felt someone touch my shoulder and I looked up and saw Nick standing there. "What are you going to do?" he asked worried. "I don't know Nick. I love him so much. I don't want to loose him man," I sobbed. I sat there in silence for about fifteen minutes and looked around the study. I had really made a mess of the place. AJ and Howie were cleaning up the place. Nick and Brian were arguing over what to do with Kevin. The door opens and in walks Kevin. Everyone pauses and looks at him and than looks at me. AJ starts walking towards Kevin he is angry and ready to fight. I motioned to Brian to stop AJ. Brian and Howie move in to stop AJ and Kevin walks into the room and walks to me. He had been crying and he was shaking. My heart went out to him. I walk up to him and pull him into a hug. He breaks down and starts sobbing uncontrollably. AJ swears. "Fuck it man! It worked with me Kevin but don't expect Jason to buy that crap. He knows the whole fucking story. Ryan and me. He knows it all. I hope he presses charges on your worthless ass!" he yells storming out of the room. Chapter 9 I continued to hold Kevin until he gets control of himself. Than I push him away. He looks up at me shocked. "I'm sorry Jason. I didn't know the whole story," he pleaded. I shook my head no and walked out of the study and out of the house. Kevin followed me. Once out on the porch I sat down and motioned him to a chair and he sat too. "Is that what you said to AJ and Ryan when you beat them up?" I demanded. Kevin looked at the ground and nodded his head yes. I got angry and slammed my fist on the arm of the chair. "Dammit look at me you coward!" I screamed. He jerks his head up and I see anger in his eyes. "What? Are you going to hit me again?" He stood up and started towards me. I got up and shoved him back into his chair. "Listen to me you little Fuck. You got your way once. It won't happen again. You ever lay a hand on me in anger again and you will die!" I yelled. He looked scared. "Understand this, I love you man. I love you with everything that I am. I have never been unfaithful to you. And I never will. You hurt me tonight. And I am not just talking about the physical abuse. That will heal. I am talking about the verbal and mental abuse. Those leave wounds that don't heal man," I was yelling and tears were running down my face. Kevin was sobbing to. "You called me a Fucking Whore. How could you? I love you, you jack ass," I fall to the floor and pulled my knees up to my chest and start rocking back and forth and sobbing over and over again. "I love you, can't you see that?" Kevin gets up and goes to me and tries to pull me into a hug. I shrug him off. 'God it hurt to do that. But I must if I was ever going to make him understand.' I look up at him and see the hurt expression on his face. "Don't touch me Kevin. At least not tonight. I have a lot to think through," I ordered. Kevin takes a few steps back and starts sobbing again. "You hate me don't you?" "No Kevin I don't hate you. I love you and I am very angry at you right now. I want this relationship to work in the worse way. But it can't be on terms like this. It has to be a relationship built on love and trust and it has to work both ways. I need to be alone tonight. I'm not calling it quits I just need to be alone. I love you." I stated smiling alittle. Than I turn and head into the house. I see Brian sitting in the living room so I go in and sit next to him. "Your cousin is hurting Brian. Go to him. Let him know that you love and support him," I requested. "Are you going to be alright?" he asked. I nod my head yes and smile and motion him to go outside. He gets up and heads out side. I switch on the TV and turned it to the news channel. I watch the news until it was over. Before I realized I had drifted off to sleep. I woke up late that night to someone crying. I looked around it was dark and I could see that Kevin was up and sitting by the fireplace. He didn't see me. I get up and leave the room and left him crying by the fireplace. I wondered into the kitchen to get some water. I get a bottle out of the refridgerator and sit at the kitchen bar. The double doors open and in walks or should I say shuffles Nick. "You can't sleep?" I asked. He shakes his head no and gets a coke out and opens it. I laugh, "oh yea I can see that working real well. That stuff will keep you awake all night." He makes a dirty face at me and takes a swig. "So do you want to talk about what you are going to do about her?" I asked "I don't know man. I've never gone through something like this before," he said shaking his head. "Well I think the first question I should ask is do you want the child?" I asked. He looked up at me shocked. "Of course I want the child. I mean I didn't expect to be a father so soon. But I always wanted children. So yes I definitely want to keep the child," he replied smiling. "Good, now the next question is, Is she really pregnant and if she is, is the child yours?" I asked more to myself than to him. "Why would she lie about something like this?" he asked taking another drink of his coke. "People do strange things Nick. I mean if there is a buck to be made out of this an if she is the type of person to do it believe me she would. So our first step is to contact her." I sudgested. "That we can do. Management gave me her phone number this morning," he says jumping up to grab the phone. "Uh Nick, I think we should wait until later on today," I said pointing at the clock. Nick looked up at the clock and blushed. It was just past three in the morning. We sit up and talk some more and than we decide on what to do in the morning and we go to bed. As I head down the hall towards my room I pause at Kevin's room and place my hand on his door and push it open. I peer in and see my love laying in bed. He is asleep. I sneak in and sit in the chair and watch him until I fall to sleep. I awoke the next morning to see Kevin sitting up in bed and staring at me. I stretched and yawned. My ribs still hurt from yesterday and I groaned in pain. Tears came to Kevin's eyes. "I am so sorry I caused you pain. I never want to hurt you again," he cried. "Well the damage is done. Nothing to do but move on with our lives," I replied without emotion. I could see the hurt raging through Kevin's mind. He gets up and shuffles over to me and kneels down and puts his head in my lap and continues to cry softly. I gently run my hands through his hair. "Shhh, Kevin don't cry, we will get through this. And we will get through this together," I said bending down kissing him on the top of his head. Big mistake my lip was still swollen and sore. He gets up and walks into the bathroom and I go over to the mirror and inspect the damage. It was getting better. The swelling was going down and the scrapes were almost gone. I looked like I had been in a fight. I took a good look at myself in the eyes. I had the look of man who had been both physically and emotionally abused. I hated that look. I felt used, ugly and betrayed. I was getting angry again I picked up a bottle of Kevin's cologne and hurled it at the mirror shattering it into millions of pieces and than I left the room. As I walk down the hall I spot another mirror needless to say six mirrors met their fate in about 30 seconds. By this time all of the guys were up and out into the hall way looking at each other in shock. Brian saw the broken mirrors and nodded his head in understanding. He made up his mind to go and talk to Kevin about me. Poking his head into Kevin's room he spots him laying face down in the bed crying to himself. Brian walks over to him and sits on the bed and gently rubs his Cousins back. Kevin turns over and stares up at the ceiling. "God Brian I love him so much and I fucked it all up. I think I am going to loose him," wimpered Kevin. "You will only loose him if you don't get some help," Brian consoled him. "You mean talk to some one?" asked Kevin. "You mean like a God Dam Thearapist don't you?" he shouted looking away from Brian. Brian grabbed him by the chin and forced him to look at him. "Yes that is percisely what I am talking about," Brian insists. Kevin gets up and walks to the broken mirror and starts picking up the broken pieces. "I'm not sure I can do something like that," admitted Kevin. "Than you are a stupid Jack Ass and you are going to loose him for sure. Don't go crying to me if you do," yelled Brian as he stormed out of the room. Kevin thinks about what Brian said and he picks up the phone book and finds a number dials it. He lets it ring until a pleasant female voice answers the other end. "Doctor Joseph O'Riely's offce, can I help you," inquired the receptionists. "Yea uh this is Kevin Richardson and I would like to make an appointment to talk to a Doctor," he said into the reciever. "This is in regard to?" she asked. "I am in an abusive relationship," he said. "Sir are you the victim?" she asked. Kevin was silent for a moment thinking about what he did. 'I don't want to loose him. I wont lose him' he swears to himself. "Uh I am the abuser," he admitted sobbing into the phone. "I don't want to loose him. And I am afraid if I don't get help I'll loose him forever," "Ok Sir calm down. Your doing the right thing by calling for an appointment. We will be able to see you at 1:00 pm today. Is that alright?" asked the receptionist. After verifying the appointment and placing another call. Kevin gathers his strength and heads out of the room. He runs into the Butler who is cleaning up the broken mirrors on the carpet. Niles just glares at him and continues to clean up the mess. Shrugging his shoulder he heads down the stairs and into the dinning room where he meets up with everyone else. He surveys the table and spots Nick. His eye was still swollen and it was black. He than spots AJ who refuses to look at him. He heads to the buffet and gets a plate and starts putting food on it and sits besides me. AJ Swears and gets up from the table and starts to leave. "AJ, please sit back down?" I pleaded. AJ glares at me and slumps back into his chair. "Ok every one let's get this all out in the open." I sudgested. "last evening Nick came to me with a personal problem. I agreed to help him with it. Kevin caught us in a brotherly hug. He over reacted and attacked us. End of story," I stated. "No, not the end of the story!" yells AJ. " this isn't the first time that he has attacked someone and I want to know what we are going to do about it!" AJ yelled. "We are not going to do anything about it. It is Kevin's decision. If he wants to hang on to this relationship than he has to make the first move," I replied looking at Kevin. He puts down his fork and takes a deep breath and looks at every one at the table. "I've already done something. As of 9:00 this morning I am taking an indefinite leave of absence from the band," he said loudly and clearly for all to hear. Silence feels the room. I look at Kevin with my mouth hanging open. AJ storms out the room slamming the door. "There is more I --," That is it for Chapter 8 and 9. I am probably in trouble again for the Cliffhanger but it is fun. Left you all hanging again!! Let's see that is twice now. Let me know what you think. Next time on Twist and Turns "What do you mean you're leaving the Band!" yelled Brian slamming his fist down on table. "It is for the best Brian at least for now," replied Kevin.