Date: Sat, 19 May 2001 20:19:41 From: Jeff Langdon Subject: Westlife Romance - Chapter 38 This story is pure fiction and involves the members of Westlife. I am in no way implying anything about the sexuality of any of their members. This is purely a fictional story. Enjoy! I would really, really appreciate some feedback on the story...so please send any comments and/or suggestions to jeff_langdon@hotmail.com. I would love to hear from you!! * * * * * * * * * Westlife Romance - Part 38 Kian wiped the tears from his eyes as he struggled to his feet. He had struggled through another day of interviews and photo shoots. Just getting through the day was difficult for Kian. Nicky was becoming harsher and harsher on Bryan and the others and Kian knew this was all his doing. Because of him, Nicky was driving everyone away. The group struggled to keep itself together. Bryan and Kian could hardly work together and Nicky couldn't work with anyone. Shane and Mark struggled to maintain some sense of order but it was obvious that the crisis was taking its toll on the two lads. He remembered how earlier in the day, Nicky inflicted his latest verbal assault on Bryan. He remembered it so vividly... ~ Flashback ~ "Nicky, don't shut yourself out. I hate seeing you like this, Nix," Bryan pleaded. "That's just too bad, Bryan. Things don't always go your way," Nicky answered sarcastically. "One of these days you have to grow up and quit being the spoiled brat that you've been all your life!!" Shane stepped up to Nicky and they stared at each other. Shane was fuming and everyone could see it. "Don't you ever talk like that to Bryan again, Nicky. You're way over the line!!" "Awww, is Shane upset for little Bryan?" Nicky taunted. "Well, maybe you can go fuck him then, since he's so desperate for a fuck buddy." "WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY?" Shane fumed. Mark and Kian had to restrain Shane as he exploded. "SAY IT AGAIN AND I'LL KILL YOU, BYRNE!!" Nicky stood there and smiled, bemused at how angry Shane was. "Fine, Filan. I'll tell you again. I said, why don't you and Bryan go and fuck each other, 'cause he is so desperate for a fuck buddy." Turning to Bryan, "And Bryan. Know when to give up. I'll never love you. I'm way out of your league." On hearing that, Shane freed himself from his restraints and lunged at Nicky, his fists catching Nicky in the abs. The two men began to brawl in the corridor and there was little that either Mark or Kian could do to stop it. Finally, they managed to pull Shane off of Nicky, who by now was sporting a few noticeable bruises. In all this commotion, none of them noticed that Bryan had left the hotel. ~ Flashback Ends ~ Staring at Derek, he couldn't believe how cold-hearted this young man was. He couldn't understand how he could have fallen in love with Derek at all. "Tell me, Derek. Did you ever love me at all?" he asked again. Even though he had asked that question many times before, he still couldn't accept the answer that he got. Derek snickered and walked over to Kian. Grabbing his hair roughly, he shoved Kian against the wall. "You've got one thick skull, don't you, Kian?" he said menacingly. "Let me tell you one last time, Kian. I never loved you. I don't love you. And I never will love you. Face it, Kian, you were just my plaything all along." Kian tried to look away from Derek, not believing how blind he could have been. "Why...then why did you lead me on? Why did you cause me to cheat on Nicky?" Derek laughed again at Kian's questions. "Why, you ask? Did you ever ask that question when you led all those innocent young men on? Using them for sex and then throwing them away. Did you ever ask how they felt?" Despite his hatred for Derek, he knew that he was right. The fact was, he had led on many innocent young men. He craved sex. He craved the power that he felt when he used men to satisfy his sexual hunger. But what Derek didn't know was that Nicky changed all that. He made Kian see what true love was for the first time in his life. Nicky made him a new man. Yes, Kian only had himself to blame for everything. From the day Kian met Nicky, he vowed to himself that he will remain faithful to his lover forever. And for a while, he accomplished that. But even before Derek showed up, things had begun to change. He still loved Nicky, but he was no longer totally faithful. It all happened one night in London, when Kian had sex with one of the lads who worked at the hotel. From there, Kian's sexual appetite grew, as did his unfaithfulness. All in all, Kian couldn't blame Derek for making him cheat on Nicky. The fact was that Kian was unfaithful even before Derek appeared in his life. But this was the first time that Kian admitted this to himself. Only now did he see how disgusting his own behaviour had been. These thoughts brought Kian to his knees in despair. He hated himself. He hated everything about himself. All this did not elicit any sympathy from Derek. "What's this?" he sneered. "Is Kian finally sorry for all the harm that he has caused? Well, you are certainly a slow learner." "Why? Why did I have to hurt Nicky?" Kian mumbled to no one in particular. "I'm so sorry, Nicky..." "A little late for that now, Kian," Derek continued. "You should've thought of that before you fucked James." Kian looked up at the towering Derek. "James?" he asked with a confused look. "Oh right, you would never have remembered him, since you've fucked so many men," Derek answered coldly. "Let me refresh your memories. James was my younger brother. You met him in Dublin last winter. You brought him back to your hotel, told him that you loved him. Then you proceeded to take his virginity and his innocence. And even before the sun rose, you told him that he meant nothing to you. That he was just a toy for you!!" As Derek spoke, Kian's memories were revived. He remembered James. He remembered how distraught the young man was. He remembered how he begged Kian not to throw him out. He remembered how James had confessed his love to him. He remembered how he cold-heartedly kicked him out, only to proceed to fuck another lad later in the day. "James...he was your brother?" "Yes, Kian. He was my brother," Derek answered in a hostile tone. "And because of you, because of what you did to him, he was never the same again. You are the one who took him away from me!!!" "I'm so sorry..." Kian whispered. He indeed was sorry. He wished he could turn the clock back. He would do everything differently if he could. He would never have cheated on Nicky if he had a second chance. "Sorry? That's all you can say? You killed James, Kian. You killed him!!" Derek shouted. Kian looked at Derek in shock. "James...James is dead???" "After a month of emotional trauma, he couldn't take it anymore and he committed suicide. Before he died, he wrote in his diary that he killed himself because the one person that he loved deserted him. And this person was you!!!" "Oh God!!" Kian cried as he realized what he had caused. "I never meant to hurt him, Derek. I'm so sorry," he cried as he crawled over to Derek. "I never knew it would end up like this..." "Well it's too late now," Derek answered coldly. "That's why I joined this crew. I needed to make you pay for what you did. And what better way to avenge James than to make you destroy the most precious thing in your life. What better way than to make the one person that you loved suffer at your own hands!!" Derek laughed menacingly again, causing Kian to shiver at the pure evil that Derek represented. "Don't hurt Nicky," Kian pleaded. "He's innocent!!!" "Fuck off, Kian," Derek ordered. "James was innocent too. And who was there to speak for him?? Poor Nicky. He'll just have to blame himself for being your true love. Nothing personal against him," Derek shrugged with an evil smile. "Come to think of it, he's probably the only person in the world stupid enough to fall head over heels for you. After all, even I can see that he deserves someone way better than you." "Don't hurt him!!" Kian demanded forcefully. "You hurt him and..." Before Kian could finish, Derek struck Kian's face forcefully. Kian didn't see it coming and couldn't defend himself. "Don't you dare talk to me that way, boy! I'll have to teach you some manners." And Derek proceeded to strike Kian with his hands and feet, taking his anger out on the young, blond singer. Kian did little to defend himself, partly because he was too weak to do so, but mainly because he somehow felt like he owed it to James to let Derek abuse him. By the time Derek was done, Kian sported cuts on his face and a bruised eye. His ribs were sore and entire body ached. "That'll do for tonight, I suppose. Now crawl out of my sight!!" With that, Derek threw Kian out of his room. Not wanting anyone to see the state that he was in, Kian took the stairs back to his floor. He tripped every few steps and had to struggle back to his feet every time. After what seemed like eternity, he finally made it back to his floor. As he pushed the door open, he could see the long corridor that he still had to travel before arriving at his room. He took a deep breath and began his long struggle to his room. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't walk a few steps without crashing to the floor again. After falling to the floor for the umpteenth time, he tried to get up again, except this time, he saw someone standing in front of him. As he tried to get back on his feet again, he felt a pair of hands helping him. Looking up, he saw a familiar pair of blue-grey eyes looking at him. The last thing he remembered was hearing Nicky whisper his name before everything went black. ...to be continued.... * * * * * * * * * Hope you enjoyed this segment. Let me know what you think!! I'd love to hear any comments/ideas/questions. Please e-mail me at jeff_langdon@hotmail.com.