Date: Fri, 31 Aug 2001 20:34:36 -0500
From: thumper1561@hotmail.com
Subject: Whispering Your Name Chapter One (Gay) Joey/Justin/JC

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This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true
sexuality of the celebrities mentioned or any personal knowledge about
their private lives.

I do not know the true sexuality of any members of Nsync.  If you are not
at least 18 years old, or are offended by homosexual material, then, this
story isn't for you. And what are you doing here in the first place!

'Whispering Your Name' Music & Lyrics by Jules Shearer, Vocal Recording by
Allison Moyet

Chapter One  (JC)
Whispering Your Name

'When he said that you were through
I thought there was nothing that I could do
Just because he ran right here
Doesn't mean I interfered
Now I'm wondering if we can't feel the same

Cause he keeps whispering your name
He keeps on whispering your name
Like he's just waiting...'


	It is a beautiful sunny morning in New York. The hotel coffee shop
is mostly empty as JC thought it would be. It is early, too early for
anyone in the group to be up. JC checks his watch and waits for his
appointment. He stares at his coffee cup, hoping he can see the future in
there. He looks up when he hears a thud on the booth across from him. Joey
is wearing a backwards baseball cap and is unshaved. For about the one
millionth time, JC wonderes what Justin seesw in him. Joey orderes coffee
and then JC sends the waitress away.
        "You summoned me?", Joey begins sarcastically.
        JC narrows his eyes. "You know why we're here."
        "Yea, I know."
        Both look down at the table.
        JC remembered the first time he saw Joey and Justin together. At
that club in Orlando, where Chris had brought them to discuss forming a
singing group. He remembered the way Justin's eyes had lit up at the big
Italian with the Brooklyn accent. He remembered the stab of pain he
felt. He had tried to keep Joey out of the group. He did it subtly and
never actually opposed him while Justin clearly pushed for Joey. Chris,
seeing a way to make sure of Justin's participation, had backed Joey all
the way. JC gave in gracefully. He was relieved when Joey turned out to be
a huge flirt. He flirted with boys, girls, dogs, trees. He couldn't help
it.  He was also a goof. Very funny sometimes, even JC would admit, but he
was just too...well...too goofy for Justin. Justin had a serious side that
JC was confident would get tired of Joey's antics. JC had been sure that
nothing would ever happen between Justin and Joey.
        JC had realized he was gay after leaving the MMC. He had some
experiences in Nashville where he moved after the Mouse Club was cancelled
but he wanted a career more than a relationship. When Justin called out of
the blue to tell him that Chris wanted to meet with about forming a singing
group, he was thrilled. When he saw Justin for the first time in almost two
years it was an unexpected punch to the stomach. Justin was growing up into
a very handsome teenager. His blond, curly hair and deep blue eyes and
pretty mouth struck a very deep chord in JC. His combination of maturity
beyond his years and childish delight in everything also were appealing to
JC. He didn't do anything about it though.  He kept his feelings to himself
and concentrated on the group.
       Those early days had been the best. There hadn't been much money
around but they had a great time together. Every day was a new adventure,
their first trip to Europe, their first fans, first autographs, the
travel. It all seemed to be a fantasy come true.  They all hung out
together and JC was with Justin constantly. That was enough for JC. He
believed that in time Justin would come to him. And he did, but not in the
way JC hoped. Justin first came out to JC by telling him that he was in
love with Joey. JC was stunned but he still believed that Justin would get
over it quickly. After all, what could he possibly see in him? JC comforted
Justin and assured him that everything would be okay. He told Justin that
Joey was not the most dependable guy in the world, no matter how charming
he seemed. JC didn't confess that he was gay as well. He told himself that
he wanted Justin to feel comfortable talking to him.  It had been a big
mistake he now knew. As the two grew even closer, with Justin confiding in
him all his fears about his family and friends, JC didn't reciprocate. He
kept waiting for the right moment and it never seemed to come.
        Then the unthinkable had actually happened. They were in South
Africa. They had been booked into Capetown and were staying in a beautiful
beachfront hotel. Joey and Justin missed breakfast. Then they missed
lunch. For Joey to miss two meals, something big had to be going on.  JC
saw them from his balcony. Two figures in white, leaning against a palm
tree, kissing. As they headed back to the hotel hand-in-hand, JC saw
clearly it was Joey and Justin. He turned and ran for the bathroom. He
retched until he his throat was sore and then laid down on the cool
bathroom tiles. He never wanted to get up.
        Nothing had been the same after that. Justin burst into his room
the next day and gave all the details to JC excitedly. JC tried to be
supportive but excused himself by saying he had eaten something bad. Joey
and Justin told Lance and Chris and both took it in stride. All agreed that
the band came first and it needed to be kept quiet for the sake of their
careers. JC watched from the sidelines and bottled up his feelings. He
watched as within a year Joey began fooling around on the side with both
men and women, but Justin always forgave him and took him back. JC's anger
at their relationship led him to act out in some stupid ways. He cruised
the Internet looking for anonymous sex places in the towns they visited. He
sucked off dozens of tricks in dozens of cities. He let strange men fuck
him in dirty restrooms.  If he couldn't have Justin, then it didn't matter
what he did. Eventually Justin discovered some of what was going on when he
accidentally caught JC on his knees giving a club bouncer a blow job after
a gig. JC remembered the hurt look on Justin's face as he deliberately
turned away to finish off the guy.  When Justin tried to talk to him about
being gay, JC shut him out. In time all the guys got at least a vague idea
of what JC's lifestyle was becoming and all worried about him but no one
really understood what was driving him. No one except Joey.
         The merry-go-round went on for a few years. Their success became
greater and greater.  America fell to the boys charm and upbeat
dance-pop. Flush with money and fame, the great salves of celebrities'
pain, they partied at clubs and dreamed of even greater things. The need to
stick together was greater than the tensions pulling at their insides. Who
knows how long it might have gone on if it hadn't been for one night. JC
was awakened by someone pounding on the window of his bedroom. Outside in
the rain, he saw Justin. He was drenched and the expression on his face was
frightening. JC let him in and Justin collapsed into his arms crying like a
baby.  All JC could do was to hold the young man in his arms and try to
soothe him.  As Justin calmed down, JC tried to get find out what had
happened but Justin refused to talk.  Then JC finally noticed that some of
the dampness on Justin's body was blood. Whatever darkness had brought him
here, JC knew he had to keep him safe. He called Johnny and got a discreet
doctor to make a housecall. The doctor recommended hospitalizing Justin but
Johnny was afraid of the publicity.  Teen pop idols do not make suicide
attempts, at least not at the height of their careers.  Instead, Justin was
left at JC's house and the doctor would make daily visits. Even Justin's
family was to be left in the dark. Johnny took care of disposing of the
wrecked truck. JC called Chris and Lance and informed them of the
situation. All three assumed it had something to do with Joey but no one
knew the specifics.
         Finally, Chris managed to get a hold of Joey and found out the
truth. Joey had gotten a girl pregnant. Not just any girl either, but his
'good friend' Kelly.  Everyone knew Joey had sworn up and down to Justin
that he and Kelly were just friends despite Justin's suspicions.  Moreover,
Kelly had decided to keep the baby and Joey was going to support her
decision. He had confessed to Justin and Justin had run away. Joey asked to
see Justin but JC refused. Justin was virtually catatonic on the couch
where he watched TV all day and night, never saying a word.  Joey went to
JC's house and stormed and threatened but JC held his ground.  Every night
Justin slept in JC's bed and JC held him. Whatever his dreams or
nightmares, Justin refused to talk about the fact that he usually woke up
calling for Joey. JC ignored his own pain to help his young friend. He did
whatever he could to bring back the old Justin. He played old MMC videos of
the days before NSYNC. He got Justin to shop for shoes. He did stupid
impressions and played games and stood on his head and gradually, Justin's
depression began to lift.
         There was a new album to record and a tour to plan. Their careers
couldn't be stopped just because of a personal crisis. It was arranged that
Joey not be in the studio at the same time as JC or Justin. Joey's baby had
been born and little Brianna Fatone instantly became the apple of her
daddy's eye. Justin refused to see the baby or Joey. He assured JC that
that part of his life was over. One night after a late recording session,
JC came home to find the place lit with candles. He followed a series of
notes to the bedroom and found Justin naked on the bed. He had fallen
asleep on his stomach while wating and his perfect ass was framed by the
royal blue satin sheets. JC shook him gently and Justin awoke with a lazy
smile. He reached up and kissed JC. He told him he wanted to start a new
life and he knew that JC wanted him too.  Despite JC's misgivings, he gave
in to the sweetness of Justin's lips. They made love that night. When JC
felt himself cum inside Justin, he burst into tears at the happiness of the
moment. It seemed that everything would work out. Then in the morning, as
JC stroked Justin's golden hair, he heard Justin whisper for Joey. JC
decided to pretend it never happened and didn't tell Justin about it when
he awoke.
         Tour rehearsals were the beginning of the end. Justin, though a
pro, had always been a terror during rehearsals. Filled with self-doubt and
expecting the worst, he got tense and irritable and the only one who could
calm him was Joey. Joey had a trick of coming up behind Justin and wrapping
him in his arms and whispering to him. You could visibly see Justin tense
and then watch it wash out of his body until he was relaxed and ready to
move on. After a couple of days, it was clear JC wasn't capable of doing
the same thing. His own perfectionism drove Justin further into self-doubt
and chronic sniping. Joey stood silently as Justin's rages and mood swings
escalated. Johnny pressured JC to get Justin under control and JC's own
feelings of inadequacy started to get the better of him. He clearly
couldn't help Justin the way Joey had been able to. The knowledge that Joey
was there and seeing his failure made him even angrier. His anger began to
turn on Justin as he shouted at him to snap out of it. Everyone was feeling
the tension when the stage malfunctioned and Joey's leg was trapped. A bolt
shot through it and cut him to the bone. Justin ran to Joey's side and held
him in his arms until an ambulance arrived. JC watched Justin climb into
the ambulance with Joey and ride with him to the hospital.
           JC followed the ambulance to the hospital, feeling inside it was
a mistake. He watched as Justin was turned away at the emergency room door
while Joey was wheeled inside.  He watched as Joey's parents and Kelly and
the baby arrived at the hospital.  He watched as they pushed Justin
away. As Justin left the emergency room, JC caught up to him. They had
their worst fight. Justin looked crushed but JC couldn't help tearing into
him and telling him that Joey was gone forever and he better accept it and
shape up. It was only the first in a continuing series. JC knew he was
pushing Justin away but he didn't know how to stop. When Joey had returned
and the tour began in earnest, JC performed professionally and gave the
audience his best. Still, anyone could see that the loose camaraderie of
the bands' early days was gone. A stiffness and discomfort pervaded
everything they did.
          In bed together, although the lovemaking had stopped, JC listened
as Justin whispered for Joey in his dreams.


	To be Continued..

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