Date: Thu, 10 May 2007 17:34:01 -0700 (PDT) From: Janus Em Subject: Knights of the Old Republic: Carth Loves Revan part 1 Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic belongs to George Lucas' Star Wars universe. This is only fiction and not any indication of the sexual leanings of the characters involved. Avoid the story if you are not interested in love and sex between men, or if you are not 18 or older. Note: This story takes place just as Revan and the others escape Darth Malak's war ship Leviathan aboard the Ebon Hawk. Carth Loves Revan part 1 by Janus Em The Ebon Hawk shook with a thunderous jolt as Malak's war ship managed to get in one last hit before it burst into light speed. Stars and other celestial bodies zoomed past the windows in the cockpit of the swift maneuverable ship. Carth Onasi, decorated pilot of the Republic made a last check to see that they were headed in the right direction before sitting back from the helm. The Cathar woman beside him in the co-pilot's seat swiveled in her chair giving him a nod. He leaned back closing his eyes. His head ached as wave after wave of emotions swept over him. The chaos of recent events blinded him with conflicting emotions. The confrontation with Malak, Bastila's capture, their narrow escape from the Leviathan, the thought of finding the son he presumed was dead, and of course the horrible secret Saul revealed to him moments before his death, all coursed in and out of his mind. He could focus in on none, not could he push any away. He trembled, trying to terms with each thought, but like a single voice rising out of a chorus, the revealed deception stood out. It was unlike him to be this affected by any of the recent events that sent them to search out the star maps. He was a veteran of the Mandolorian Wars, fought, killed, and witnessed death and destruction over and over. Yet, he never felt the pain and confusion he felt now, never had he put so much faith into someone, to see it come crashing down upon him. He remained at the helm waiting for the man to return to him in the cockpit from the ship's canon. Now, as they coursed through space successfully eluding their captors, the man whom he had so recently come to care so deeply for would return to the cockpit to check their status. As the man entered the cockpit, Carth saw that as usual he seemed controlled, and collected, yet this time with more than just a hint of anxiety. The man kept his eyes locked on Carth's as he spoke to his fellow Jedi. The female got up from the co-pilot's chair, and slinked with her cat-like grace behind the man. She was clearly agitated, fighting to keep her emotions suppressed. Yet, the anger making its way into her voice as she spoke to the man. "What will we do about Bastila..." She hesitated, about to use the name by which they all knew the man, but stopped. Anger burned inside her, anger at the man's deception, the secret revealed, and the capture of Bastila. She knew she had to let it flow through her, not let it consume her. "We have to try and rescue her..." Then vehemently she spat out "...Revan." The man finally took his eyes away from Carth to face her. "There is little we can do, Juhani." He took a step closer placing a hand tenderly on her elbow. "Bastila did what she had to, that which neither of us were ready to do. Now, we must do what we have to do. Find the last star map." Juhani peered at him with all the insight of her Jedi training reaching out to man in front her. She sensed nothing but sincerity, but that frightened her all the same, for she knew that with the abilities of one like Revan, any hint of further deception or upcoming betrayal could easily be cloaked. She had no choice but to trust him, and above all else, she wanted to believe that she could trust him. That this was still the man who brought her back from the edge of the dark side, the man who allowed her to travel with him now in a valiant pursuit of Malak, further maintaining her own pledge to the light. "You are right." She finally conceded. "Plot a course for Korriban." He asked turning his eyes back to Carth who remained silently seated at the helm of the Ebon Hawk staring at the man. Juhani activated the ship's navigational system. Within the field of stars on the screen, the orange brown planet stood out. Korriban, planet of the Sith was the last planet they needed to search for the remaining star map. She let the fear sweep through her, leaving only her resilience. Korriban, planet of the Sith. Both her and Revan's pledge to the light would no doubt be tested there. She turned back to him. "The course has already been plotted, master." "Thank you Juhani." Revan said, his eyes turning back to Carth. Juhani nodded then quietly moved out of the ship's cockpit. Revan followed as far at the end and pressed a button. With a quick rush of air, the metal door came down and sealed Carth and himself from the rest of the crew. Revan sat down at his seat next to Carth. The men remained there for a moment in silence until Revan finally spoke. "Say something." Carth slowly moved his head from side to side saying nothing. "Please..." Revan begged. Carth opened his mouth to speak, but his voice only cracked. He collected himself before speaking. Revan could see tears forming in his eyes, but as Carth finally began to speak, he realized the tears were an amalgamation of grief and rage. "You're Revan!" He yelled in his husky voice. "You're a stranger to me. A man known to me only by the atrocities he committed during The Jedi Civil War!" Carth rushed from his seat and in a fit of rage grabbed Revan by the chest and pulled him up by his Jedi robes. "You betrayed us all! Heroes of the Mandolorian Wars!" Carth pulled Revan in closer tightening his grip. Revan let his body go limp knowing that Carth would do nothing to hurt him. He could feel Carth's angry breath. Carth grunted in frustration, pushing him away but still holding onto him. "How could you?" He screamed squeezing Revan's tunic even tighter. Finally he released Revan from his grasp, falling back against the machinery of the ship. Revan stumbled back looking at the tears fall from Carth's eyes. "Revan..." Carth paused, letting the intense anger within him subside. "I trusted you. Against all my instincts telling me to never trust again, I trusted you. I let you in." Revan remained silent wanting to speak, but not knowing what to say. "You're a monster." Carth quietly managed to let out. "Carth. Please listen to me." Revan thought carefully, knowing that he had to be completely honest with Carth, tell him everything, and it would be in him to forgive. He kept his eye on Carth using the Force to sense the pain he caused, although the pain was clearly visible on his face. Carth moved in a daze backing up to the hatch that led to the ship's corridor. He turned his back on Revan and hit the switch to open the door, but nothing happened. He winced. The pain and anguish were taking their toll on the strong man. He still suffered from the injuries endured during their escape from the Leviathan. He felt the blood still on his brow from blaster fire from the last sentry robot he destroyed before their encounter with Saul. He wanted to rest, let his mind find a peaceful moment. "Let me go." He managed to ask as he let his head rest against the thick metal of the hatch. Revan made no response, only the sounds of the ship's mechanisms echoed around them. Carth winced again, the physical and emotional pain were overwhelming. He needed to leave, but couldn't muster the courage to face Revan again, to face the man who could still be deceiving him. "Let me go... Revan." "Please, listen to me." Carth slowly turned around still leaning against the closed hatch. "I don't know what to say." Revan began. "I'm not that man anymore. I have only vague memories of my life before meeting you. I don't remember what happened to me, how I let myself be consumed by the dark side. You've seen me these past months, I've done nothing to indicate that I'm that same person. We've worked so close together on every planet. You've been my constant companion. How many times did I ever give in to the dark side or let my actions be dictated by anger or revenge?" Revan exhaled, "I'm not that monster. That's not me! I was just as surprised, and sickened as you were to hear the truth. I don't remember being that Revan, of waging war and killing innocent people. I can't imagine what led me down such a path of evil. I can't remember what happened to me that I would attack my own people." Revan paused. "But let me tell you what I do remember," he continued. "I remember waking up on Taris, hurt, scared, feeling extremely vulnerable. Unsure of where I was or how I got there, but comforted because I wasn't alone. I saw you standing over me. You took me to safety, watched over me. I couldn't think straight or remember anything, just images that I couldn't understand, a person I couldn't remember being, images from my old life. But you were there. Your kind words, your strength, your wisdom made me fell safe, that we could do anything we had to do to get off that planet." He moved closer to Carth putting his hands on his arms, "You kept me grounded, guided me as we made our way to Bastila. Reminded me of what was right, what was wrong. Even when you weren't around, I did things the way I knew you would, then pleased to see you again, knowing that I did what was right. Carth, as long as you are by my side, I know I'll never turn to the dark side again. I want to be the man you fell in love with, the man you believed I was." Carth looked deeply in Revan's eyes leery about believing in him, wanting to believe in him. Revan moved in closer, looked up at the wound at Carth's brow. He closed his eyes giving Carth a soft kiss. With his eyes still closed, he let his forehead rest against Carth's. Faintly at first, Revan's skin luminesced into a brilliant, quick flash. Carth could feel the energy of the Force flow through him, illuminating his own skin. Instantly he felt better, less dazed, his energy and strength returning. After a second flash, he felt strong, even rested with no hint of the pain that only moments ago weighed heavily on him. Even the clotted blood at his brow blew away with the wave of light, his wound completely healed. Carth took in a deep breath. His feelings for Revan were rekindled, and he knew that he was right to let his guard down, to let this man into his life. He pulled Revan in closer by placing his hands at the sides of his head kissing him repeatedly. They embraced tightly pulling in the other. Carth could smell the blaster fire lingering in Revan's hair as he kissed his way to his neck. The power of the Force emanated from the Jedi. Carth could feel the light moving in and around Revan as they continued their kisses. Revan, fueled by desire, let his passion consume him. It was the last of all the emotions he allowed to take over him. He loved Carth and still felt the very human need of expressing it through the carnal lust he shared with him. Carth fell to his knees and hurriedly fumbled with the belt of Revan's Jedi robes. It opened exposing Revan's finely chiseled torso. Carth kissed the other man's navel and chest, taking in the manly scent of him. He continued his kisses up and down Revan's smooth chest, inhaling deeply, savoring him. He licked at Revan's nipple, playfully taking bites at it. In a smooth, gliding movement, he moved his tongue down Revan's stomach to his crotch continuing his playful bites through Revan's trousers onto his erect penis. Revan let his tunic fall to floor, closing his eyes letting his head fall back. He ran his fingers through Carth's hair massaging it before moving his hand to waist where he unhooked his belt letting his lightsaber gently fall onto the ground. Within moments he could feel the air on his erect penis as Carth exposed it. The rush of air was replaced with a warm wetness as Carth took his penis into his mouth. Revan winced, blindly delighted at the mixture of pleasure and excitement consuming him. Carth expertly tickeled the head of his penis with his tongue then took in the entire length of it moving his mouth on the base of it to the soft patch of his pubic hair. Carth repeatedly brought his mouth to the end of Revan's penis, circled the head with his tongue then swallowed it down again onto his pubes. Carth's movements gained in their quickness and intensity. Revan's body held on as long as it could, but finally jerked as he released his orgasm into Carth's mouth. Carth could feel the power of the force flowing through him as Revan released everything into him. He gladly took it, took anything and everything this man had to give him. There was still so much to think of, but at that moment, he let only the thoughts of Revan and his love for him into his mind. He slowly stood up and embraced the half naked man in front of him. His lips gently touched caressed Revan's ear as he whispered into it, "I love you. I love you, Revan." Send comments to Janus Em