Date: Sat, 18 Jul 2015 07:34:29 +0000 From: T Kennedy Subject: Climbing The Walls Hey guys. so last week I stumbled accross this amazing show called 'The Fosters' and since I have caught up on every episode so far. I love that it is about real issues faced in life and would recommend it for anyone who hasn't watched it. One of the storylines is about a devloping friendship between two 13 year old boys that slowly over time becoms more, as they deal with the issues of sexuality and coming out. It is an incredible story and while watching it I couldnt help but imagine a few things. This story is set in season two episode 18 when they finally kiss (On-screen.) It is my thoughts on what they were feeling and thinking and what might have happened afterwards the show cuts to another scene and the boys are next seen at school. I have quite a few other story pairings I am interested in exploring f the response to this is good maybe. So please send any and all comments to me at mrtkennedy@outlook.com Finally I don't own anything or anyone to do with The Fosters but have a lot of respect for all of those who do. Please enjoy. Climbing the Walls (Jude's POV) I didn't look up from the game I was playing as I said in a slightly cold voice. "Its not nice to lead people on." When I looked up I could see hurt flash across Connor's face but I was really getting sick of these games we seemed to be playing. "Okay, well Im not." I could tell he was a bit confused, and this only served to confuse me even more. Did he think I was talking about Daria? When I didn't respond but instead just kept playing my game he slapped my foot. I ignored it at first but when he did it again I told him to stop. But then when I looked back down, he tried a third time and I mind of snapped. I lashed out with my foot and kicked him square in the ribs. Connor buckled over in pain, and I instantly felt bad I quickly got off of my bed and kneeled in front of him. "Are you okay? Didn't mean to kick you that hard." I was scared I had hurt him. Connor came up so he was also on his need and facing me still grimacing in pain. He looked at me. "Why did you kick me at all?" He looked confused hurt and more then a little shocked. I considered lying but all the tension our the last while, my mixed feelings, his dating Daria, his treatment of me, everything that had been going on just pushed e our the edge. "You kissed me remember?" said it a little louder then had planned. "In the tent." Like I said I was fed up feeling this way, I was fed up with not knowing what was going on. Connors instant reaction was a look of shock and still slight confusion. It looked like he was going to say something but I needed t et everything out first. "And then at the movie theatre you held MY hand... And now all day you're been..."I didn't know what to say, I thought we had even flirting, maybe I was wrong. There was a small apart of me that wanted to stop there, I have never felt so confused in my life. But kneeling there looking at Connor my best friend, I realized if I didn't say it then our friendship would probably be ruined. Connor looked like he was going to speak so I pushed the thoughts out of my head and shook my head, I think I was about to cry. "I just...I Don't get this... I don't get you?" (Connor's POV) I couldn't believe this, Jude had kicked me and then he said all of this, I've got to admit I felt terrible. I didn't realize I was causing him my best friend so much hurt it wasn't just what he had said, I could clearly see the hurt on his face and in his voice. I had been doing my damnedest to hide from how I felt, that night in the tent, it had been so quick I told myself that we could move past it, I mea I had loved it but I didn't want it to ruin our friendship so I tried to push him away by going out with Daria, then at the movies we had the arm rest down and his hand had been sitting there and I couldn't resist. When he had wrapped his finer around mine after I did his I knew deep down I was in low with this boy. But then after the movies Jude acted as though nothing had happened so I did too. I continued seeing Daria because I thought that as what was best for all. Plus it had managed to get my Dad if of my back about Jude. But now here I was and Jude was telling me I was hurting him. I was kind of panicking a part of me wanted to o but an either big part of me wanted to stay, and as I knelt there I looked at the soft features of his face his lips and I couldn't stop myself without another thought I leaned down and slowly in towards Jude, as I was closing my eyes I saw a slight look of bewilderment cross his face then he tilted his head slightly to match mine and as both our eyes closed our lips touched. It was electric, way better then the first one, even though it only lasted a few seconds before Jude broke it, I knew somewhere deep within that with that kiss everything was right with the world, that Jude was beyond all shadow of a doubt the one I was in love with. When I opened my eyes I was afraid that Jude would freak out, but he didn't really react at first, we kind of just stayed there staring at each other, I could see in his eyes a little uncertainty but also I could see a look of happiness and I inwardly sighed with relief. (Jude's POV) He kissed me...HE KISSED ME!!! Okay I know we kissed before but this time it wasn't rushed, this time we talked before, well I kind of yelled at him, but still this kiss really felt like it was meant to happen, I still have knots in my stomach from how great it felt ho right it felt. We sat there in silence for close to a minute just staring at each other. Connor had a very small smile on his face and I couldn't help but smile too. Finally Connor broke the silence. "I'm sorry Jude." I waited for him to say more and for a few moments it didn't seem like he was going to then he looked down at his hands. "I really like you." "You do?" Even though he had kissed me AGAIN I was still a little bit confused about what exactly it was that was going on between us. "What about Daria?" He looked up at me in surprise. "Daria is nothing, she's a good friend its you I like, how many times do I have to kiss you to figure that out." He let out soft giggle at the end which was really cute. I was tempted to make a smart arse comment but the moment was too serious for that. I was finally getting the answers I had wanted for a while now. "Jude... Do you like me...like Like LIKE me?" Connor looked so scared when he asked it I thought he light even cry. I sighed quietly, I have been trying to avoid asking myself this question for months been before the first time we kissed I knew I felt something for y best friend. I mean its not like the concept of being gay is foreign to me I mean after all I have two Mums. But Im thirteen still getting used to a lot in life and Im not sure Im ready to label myself anything. After not responding for a few minutes I could see Connor was getting more and more upset so I raised I needed to explain some things. I took a deep breath. "Yes Connor I do really like you..." "But?" He looked disappointed and I rubbed my temples as I thought of the best way to say what I had to. "No buts, I do like you a lot." I paused and sighed again. "What about everyone else?" He made a bit of a face and then he bit his bottom lip. "Well my Dad can't know he will kill us." He seemed to think a bit more. "I reckon we could tell you're family we know they would be cool with you being gay and all." "NO" I almost screamed it out, even though it hadn't been my intention. Connor jumped a little in surprise. I quieted my voice. "I don't want to tell them." I passed then slowly continued. "At least not yet, I mean why rush things." He looked a little hurt at first, than he smiled but it was a little thin. "Okay that's cool." There was a little but of an awkward pause afterwards until Connor looked at his phone and realized his Dad had messaged him and he was on his way. "Crap my Dad is going to be here any minute." We both stood up but then neither of us moved for a few moments. I saw Connor lower start to lower his head and so at the same time I raised up on my toes a little bit so our lips touched this time I didn't close my eyes and I got to watch how into it he was, it was so adorable. Again the kiss only lasted a few seconds but this time I let Connor be the one to end it and when he did he bit his bottom lip as he watched my reaction I could only smile back at him like the cat that had swallowed the canary. "Okay then I'll see you tomorrow at school." Connor turned towards the door send started to head downstairs as we heard his Dad knocking on the front door. THE END I really hope that you enjoyed this story and if you haen't seen the show I really recomend it. All comments positive or negative are welcome. Thanks for reading.