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Fate Brought Billy Gilman to Me

Part #6

By Paul S. Stevens

While I was waiting for Billy to return, I heard Spencer arrive home from work. Almost immediately I was able to hear Colin and Spencer's voices as they started bitching at each other from the other room. I'm sure Spencer had no clue what was bothering Colin but I did. As I tried to relax, I couldn't stop thinking about Colin's advances. I still had an erection from my encounter with Colin and even though I tried to think about other things, my mind kept returning to him. The image of Colin pulling his shorts down to show me his hard-on kept replaying in my mind over and over again. Seeing his cock like that vividly triggered my imagination as I fantasized about the many things I wanted to do to him. He definitely awakened a latent desire that apparently was laying dormant way down deep inside my subconscious. A desire that began the day I met Colin for the first time. And why wouldn't I fantasize about him? His cock was gorgeous! Everything about Colin was gorgeous. Physically, Colin was Billy's equal, albeit younger and more na´ve. Fortunately, my dangerous obsession with Colin got interrupted by a knock at my bedroom door.

"Come in," I replied.

Spencer poked his head in and asked, "Hey Barrett, have you got a minute?"

"Sure, come on in," I said. I sat up and casually put the pillow in my lap to conceal the tent in my shorts that I was still struggling with. He entered my room and sat down on the bed with me.

"Everything's ready for when Billy gets home tonight," he informed me. "All the equipment has been setup at the restaurant and ready to go for when we arrive."

"Oh, that's great," I said. "I can hardly wait. This is going to be so cool and he's going to be so surprised."

"Wow, I wish Colin and I were as close as you and Billy," he confessed. "He seems to be upset with me about something but he won't tell me what's wrong. Do you have any idea what's bothering him?"

Oh good God, what do I say to him? I knew very well what Colin's problem was all about but I couldn't very well tell Spencer that. I'm hoping that Colin will still do the right thing which should nullify the situation.

"I hate to say it but I think its just immaturity," I began. "Remember, Colin is a couple of years younger than you. He wants to be all grown up for you but he's not. It all comes down to the fact that he's scared. He might feel that he's an inadequate lover to you or he's not satisfying you enough. The next thing that'll happen is, he'll start to think he's loosing you. If that happens he'll surely start to push you away rather than deal with rejection. Take him under your wing and nurture him along. Tell him how wonderful he makes you feel and educate him about the things that turn you on. Another thing you can do is, be more interested in him and take a more active role in his life. Like Billy, he's capable of boundless love and affection. He will undoubtedly mature into an amazing lover! Relationships can sometimes be a daily struggle. Colin is a really good guy, so don't give up on him, he's worth it! You'll find that your relationship with each other is worth the effort!"

"You make it sound so easy," he told me. "I wish I could be as convinced of that as you are. I think that you and Billy have a perfect relationship. I wish Colin and I could get along as well as you two!"

"Well, I make this look easy," I informed him. "The truth is, Billy and I have had some real tough times at the beginning. We've gone through some situations that would've devastated any ordinary couple. You can't back away when times get tough or you'll never discover the wonderful tender moments that await you. Right now Billy and I are doing quite well but that doesn't mean that there isn't something waiting on the horizon that will once again test our commitment to each other. I think that once you start to do the things I suggested, everything will improve for the two of you."

"Alright, I'll give it a try," he said. "Thanks for the advice."

Spencer left my room and closed the door behind him. He was looking good tonight. The cologne he was wearing along with his meticulous black suit was intoxicating. I was finding myself unexpectedly attractive to him. I removed the pillow from my lap to discover my erection didn't soften. In fact I was harder now than I was before Spencer came in. Colin's bold seduction of my unsuspecting innocence started a chain reaction of lust and sexual wanting within me. The four of us have been living together for a while now and we've all seen each other occasionally walking around the house naked or going in and out of the shower unimpeded. These things were beginning to have a profound effect on me. I was now suddenly aware that I was surrounded by a house full of guys who were all dripping with sexual tension. We were four testosterone filled, wonderfully youthful, extremely well built, gorgeously attractive guys who's free flowing pheromones were playing tricks with our sensibilities. I found myself overwhelmingly attracted to Billy, Colin and now Spencer too. This was totally inappropriate for me to be thinking this way. It was wrong but I was at a loss to know what to do about it. The only thing I could think of to do was meditate on it. I put myself in a relaxed meditative state and allowed my negative energy to flow out of me. It worked for the time being and I prayed that would be the end of it.

A few minutes later, Billy came home and Operation `Birthday' began. Billy was amazingly cooperative as we put him through the paces. We managed to get him shaved, showered and dressed appropriately. Right on schedule we were out of the house and on our way to The Hungry Haven Restaurant. As we entered the restaurant, Colin and Spencer maneuvered Billy and me out in front of them, I was equally as surprised as Billy when I observed the birthday banner that read:




All the staff and guests shouted `Surprise'! Even though I had planned for the staff and guests to do this, it still caught me off guard because it now included me! I hadn't told anyone recently that it was my birthday too. It was a mystery how anybody found out. Nevertheless, I was momentarily stunned but pleasantly pleased and impressed with the amount of effort it took to keep this a secret from both Billy and me.

There were about two dozen party guests present and I was already acquainted with some of them. Of course Billy and I came together with Colin and Spencer. I recognized Derek and even though I had yet to meet Camera, she was easy to single out sitting next to Mr. and Mrs. Gilman. I hadn't told my planning committee to invite them, but on the other hand, I hadn't told them not to either. I just figured they would have a private family get together on their own on Billy's official birthday this Sunday. Jesse McCartney was also present by my invitation and he came with his guests David Archuleta and Selena Gomez. Among those new to me, there were also some record executives, a couple of representatives from M.D.A. and some other local dignitaries. All in all, it was a rather eclectic conglomeration of un-associated executives, celebrities and common folks all in one place. I was starting to have my doubts about the validity of this event and I started to get nervous and developed butterflies in my stomach. A horrifying vision flashed in my head of a newspaper headline that might read:

Billy Gilman's Birthday Affair

The Social Faux Pas of the Season

Once everyone was seated and settled in, things began to calm down. In no time at all, Billy began socializing and took me around with him to introduce me as, `the birthday boy who was sharing space on his birthday banner'. When asked what our association was with each other, Billy simply explained that I was a close, reliable and trusted friend and he didn't know what he'd do without me. Of course he couldn't go around telling everyone I was his lover, so I was quite satisfied with this simple if not completely honest answer. This explanation protected Billy's public identity while at the same time made me look pretty good.

By the time dinner was served, Billy had taken me around to meet everyone present. I was no longer a stranger to the many people I was introduced to and I believe that some career opportunities may have even been opened for me during our socializing.

Dinner had gone well and it was now time for the entertainment to begin. Since I knew most of what was to be performed, I assumed the role of Master Of Ceremonies. I went up to the stage and took charge.

"Good evening everyone," I began. "My name is Barrett Jenson. That's me sharing space on the birthday banner next to my very dear friend Billy Gilman. This Party was intended to be exclusively for him but someone out there found out that my birthday is in a couple of days. It's okay with me though since I am in impeccable company. I would like to thank all of you for taking the time out of your hectic and demanding schedules to be with us this evening to celebrate Billy's birthday. We have a small program of entertainers lined up to sweeten your night while we wait for the staff to prepare and serve our sweet desserts. Please welcome our first performer of the evening, Spencer Trudor who, for one night only will appear as `The Great Spenceeny'..."

The audience warmly acknowledged Spencer as he came onto the stage.

Spencer performed his highly polished routine consisting of several slick sleight-of-hand prestidigitations and dazzling illusions all infused with a bit of comedy. His short five minute act filled with his signature, rapid fire technique and comic misdirection kept the crowd riveted to the very end and elicited a warm audience response. Since Spencer hadn't practiced his routine in front of any of us, we were all genuinely impressed with his talent.

It was now my turn. I came back to the stage carrying Billy's personal guitar. The very sight of it was breathtaking as several gasps cut through the silence. I had created quite a stir with this bold move as everyone started whispering to each other. I was praying I had not overstepped by bounds by assuming to use this highly protected museum piece in a real world application. This was one of Billy's prize possessions that he had brought over from his parent's house when we were all moving our stuff over. It had been presented to Billy as a gesture of appreciation for countless hours of tireless dedication and devotion as The Muscular Dystrophy Association's Good Will Ambassador, signed and presented by Jerry Lewis himself. It was a classic vintage black bodied acoustic guitar by Harmony. It adorned Billy's likeness and signature that had been meticulously airbrushed on it and was inscribed by Jerry Lewis. I had it professionally cleaned and tuned specifically for tonight's performance. Its glow was nothing short of spectacular as it shined in the brightness of the stage lights. I stepped back up to the stage and resumed my role as M.C.

"That was `The Great Spenceeny' ladies and gentlemen," I announced. The crowd lavishly displayed their approval for a job well done. Once the crowd settled back down, I continued. "If you would be kind enough to indulge me now, I would like to perform one of Billy's songs in his honor. This is the title song from his hit album `Everything and More'..."

Absolutely no one present had ever heard me play the guitar or sing before except for Billy when we sang together in bed one morning. The murmur from the crowd died down and I was ready to begin. I sat down on the stool in front of the microphone and began my rendition.

"Everything and More"

You never looked more beautiful

Than you look tonight

In your eyes I see all I can be

And how you change my life

You held on when I let go

Now all I want is to let you know


Your love is like a river

It runs through my heart and soul

It's deep when I'm thirsty

And warm when I'm cold

And when I feel forgotten

I come running to your shore

And find peace of mind time after time

You give me everything and more


When tomorrow comes

I can face the morning

In a different light

You can change your mind a thousand times

Nothing will ever change mine


Cause your love is like a river

It runs through my heart and soul

It's deep when I'm thirsty

And warm when I'm cold

And when I feel forgotten

I come running to your shore

And find peace of mind time after time

You give me everything and more


The sun will rise and the light will shine

Oh everything will be all right

Oh yes it will!


Cause your love is like a river

It runs through my heart and soul

It's deep when I'm thirsty and warm when I'm cold

And when I feel forgotten

I come running to your shore

And find peace of mind time after time

You give me everything and more

You give me - Everything - And more

My hard work and practice paid off as I concluded my nearly flawless performance. A moment of awkward stillness past as I looked around to find I had moved several people to silence. Billy was the first to start clapping and then a roar of the crowd followed. I was surprised by how much I was able to elicit this kind of response. I glanced over at Billy who was seated at the back of the room with his family and closest friends. I took one good look at his face and witnessed him loose the battle as his emotions overtook him. I knew he understood that every word of that song was directed at him personally just like all the times he had sung to me personally. At this point in my life, Billy had literally given me everything and more and I wanted him and everybody else present to know it.

As much as I would've loved for this moment to last forever, the famous showbiz saying, `The show must go on' popped into my head and brought me back down to earth.

"Thank you very much Ladies and Gentlemen," I humbly continued. "And now we are greatly honored to have three special guests here with us tonight. Here to perform for us their new music video that will be debuting exclusively for the Disney Channel, Please welcome to our little stage, the mega talents of Jesse McCartney, David Archuleta and Selena Gomez!"

Jesse and his guests came to sing and re-enact their video performance of `Body Language'. Jesse used my portable sound system as his accompaniment and the three of them came onto the stage. They were fine-tuning their performance for a music video being shot for an upcoming special event on Disney XD. Jesse sang duet style with David while Selena danced between them as the object of the two boy's affections! Their song went something like this:

"Body Language"

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

'Cause what you want is right here


Oh she, oh she so international

The way, the way she get it on the floor

I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to holler at you

I want to get to know you better


Parlez vous francais?

Konichiwa Come and move in my way

Hey, little Chica from Guadeloupe

That thing you got behind you is amazing


Now, I don't speak Spanish, Japanese or French

But the way that body's talkin' definitely makes sense

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

The way she moves around

When she grinds to the beat

Breaking it down articulately

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body


That make me want to say

Hey... ('ey!) Hey... ('ey!) Hey... ('ey!)

It's her, her body, her body, her body language



Hey Shorty, let me whisper in your ear

Tell you everything you wanna hear

You got my vote: "Hottest Girl of the Year"

Let's have a celebration, baby


Parlez vous francais?

Konichiwa Come and move in my way

Hey, little Chica from Guadeloupe

That thing you got behind you is amazing


Now, I don't speak Spanish, Japanese or French

But the way that body's talkin' definitely makes sense

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

The way she moves around

When she grinds to the beat

Breaking it down articulately

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body


That make me want to say

Hey... ('ey!) Hey... ('ey!) Hey... ('ey!)

It's her, her body, her body, her body language



I'm lifting up my voice to say

You're the hottest girl in the world today

The way you shake

You got me losing my mind

You're banging like a speakerbox

Turn around; the party stops

Universal lady, let me take you away


Now, I don't speak Spanish, Japanese or French

But the way that body's talkin' definitely makes sense

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's the way she moves around

When she grinds to the beat

Breaking it down articulately

It's her, her body, her body, her body language

It's her, her body, her body, her body


You make me want to say

Hey... ('ey!) Hey... ('ey!) Hey... ('ey!)

It's her, her body, body, body language



Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear

'Cause what you want is right here!

It was an outstanding performance by all and we felt quite honored that they would share this with our small intimate group. Billy was quite pleased that he had taken the time to prepare this piece in his honor. Jesse's appearance at our party was a sign that things were still on track with the collaboration that he and Billy had talked about when we were all in New York City together.

Directly after this last performance, the desserts were served. After displaying the elaborately decorated cake that Camera had baked, the staff preceded to cut and serve the party guests. Billy asked me to stand with him at the doorway so we could thank each parting guest personally as they made their way out. Jesse and his guests David and Selena were the first to leave. They had a long drive ahead of them as they needed to get back to New York for another engagement they had committed to. We thanked them for their amazing performance and praised them for giving us a gift that would leave a long and lasting impression in both our memories. Selena and David walked on ahead and Jesse remained a moment at the door to say a personal farewell to Billy in private.

"It was really nice to see you again Billy," Jesse said. "And I'll be seeing you again in November when we start recording our `Outlaw Album' together."

"I'm very excited about it," Billy said. "And I think we're going to make history together."

"I know we will because that thing you got behind you is amazing," he summarized. Then he turned to me and winked, "You take good care of my boy now!"

"Oh I will," I promised. "Good night and drive safe!"

Once Jesse left, Billy turned to me looking quite confused.

"What did he mean by that?" Billy asked.

"By what," I said.

"He said something about what was behind me," he said.

"Do you mean when he said `That thing you got behind you is amazing'?" I wondered. "Like he said in his song?"

"Yeah, that," he said.

"When he says `That thing you got behind you is amazing', he means `You got a great Ass'!" I said dryly.

"Oh, I see!" he said.

"Am I going to have to be with you two every minute that you're together with each other?" I questioned.

"I don't know," Billy said as he looked at me like he had just been caught again. We both looked at each other for a moment and then I busted out laughing.

"What's so funny?" he said confused.

"He's just yanking your chain," I said. "Jesse knows what's up between us and he respects that, I know he does, he told me so himself."

Billy stood there for a few more seconds looking awkward and self-conscious.

"Here comes some more party guests," I said. "Now smile."

As I continued to assist Billy in this formality, I got a chance to meet and converse with all the guests a second time. Not only did this help me to remember each person better, it also gave them a chance to make their comments to me for doing a wonderful job with my performance.

By the time we said our good-byes to most of the parting guests, the only ones left were Billy and me along with Colin and Spencer. Camera also stuck around with Mr. and Mrs. Gilman. Now that nearly everyone had left, Billy and Colin's parents decided it was as good a time as any to let some of their evil prejudicial slurs slip out. Colin, Spencer and I kept busy breaking down the stage equipment and loading the car with the stuff we brought with us. Even though I was engaged in this activity, I caught the comments that were made to Billy in seclusion.

"How could you have been a party to such a gathering Billy?" his Father asked.

"Do you know how all of this looked?" his mother added. "Good thing you didn't invite the media and there wasn't any reporters here to witness all this fagetry!"

"MOTHER," Billy screamed.

"And another thing," his father interrupted, "How can you let your gay lover boyfriend play your guitar when you never ever let anyone touch it, not even your mother and I?"

"DAD," Billy yelled out. "That's enough. This was a surprise party that was put together by the caring and thoughtful efforts of my only brother Colin, my life partner Barrett, my best friend Derek and my new tenant Spencer. They all worked very hard planning and pulling this party off and I saw nothing wrong with any of it!"

"Then your going blind," his mother concluded. "It's bad enough to do this shit in private but when you flaunt it about in public, it's just disgusting!"

"Remember, you're a public figure," his dad reminded him. "Many celebes have lost their careers from less than what transpired here tonight and we're not rich enough to buy our way out of it if we needed to. You've got to keep your sick gayness more to yourself. No one really wants to see it except those who are out to ruin you!"

"You guys just don't understand," Billy huffed.

"You're right, we don't understand," his father shot back. "Your mother and I didn't raise you and Colin for this kind of life! What happened to you? Where did we go wrong?"

"You and Mom didn't do anything wrong," Billy explained. "And Colin and I didn't do anything wrong either, we just found love, that's all! Shouldn't we be allowed to live with the people we love?"

"We're sorry honey," his mother said. "We didn't mean to bring you down. This is all still very hard for your father and I to accept. We're both trying though, really, even though it doesn't seem like it right now."

"I know," Billy acknowledged. "I love you both and so does Colin, I know because we talk about you every day. I know it doesn't seem like it but Colin and I are behaving ourselves, really we are!"

"All right Son," his Dad said. "We're going to go home now. We'll see you on Sunday okay?"

They both gave Billy a hug and kiss and then went over to Colin and did the same before making their way out the door. Now that Billy's parents had left, Derek and Camera stayed behind to help the four of us finish cleaning up. Camera came over to talk to Billy next and I was close enough to overhear every word that they said to each other.

"Your Mom and Dad are not dealing with your relationship with Barrett very well are they?" she noted.

"No they're not," he said, "and how about you? Are you okay with it?"

"Well I wasn't at first," she began. "I spent many nights torturing myself wondering what it was I was doing wrong or what I could do to satisfy you and make you love me again. Now I can see that it wasn't me at all."

"Yeah, I'm really sorry about that," he said. "I really didn't know what it was I was looking for until it fell into my lap one day. The one thing I can say about it with all certainty is, I'm very happy with Barrett and I'm convinced that he's the one for me! I hope you'll find it in your heart to forgive me. I never meant to lead you on but there was a lot of pressure on me to have a girlfriend for my public image and you were the perfect choice, especially where my parent's were concerned. They really wanted to see us get serious and some day, settle down and have a family. We've been through a lot together and I have grown to be extremely fond of you. You are very dear to me and I hope I never loose you as a friend. I would never feel whole if you weren't in my life somehow. I could never hope for a better friend for life!"

Camera demonstrated her commitment to remain friends for life by giving Billy a very heartfelt kiss, a kiss that he returned with equal fervor. I suppose I should have felt a wave of jealousy wash over me but actually, I was okay with it. For the first time, I felt secure about my relationship with Billy and believed that nothing was going to come between us anymore.

I went over to Camera and thanked her for coming and baking such a wonderfully delicious and professionally decorated cake for Billy and me. I told her how everyone recognized the love that she had poured into it, evidenced by the fact that not a single crumb had been passed over. Then I gave her a kiss on the cheek to let her know that, `any friend of Billy's was a friend of mine'. She was a little taken aback from it but I'm sure she would come to know my sincerity in good time.

Once Camera had left, the last guest to remain was Derek. Again, it was not my intention to eavesdrop but I did overhear his comments to Billy.

"You've got a full house now don't you?" Derek asked.

"Yeah, there are four of us in a three bedroom house," Billy answered.

"You know, when I helped you pick out that house and then helped you move in, I always thought you were going to ask me to live with you," Derek confessed. "We even talked about doing it years ago, don't you remember?"

"Oh sure but we were just kids then," Billy indicated. "I didn't think you were serious about it."

"I was as serious as a heart attack," he said. "You know, I've been saving myself for you all these years."

"What?" Billy questioned. "You did what?"

"That's right," he admitted. "I waited for you. I waited for you while you screwed around with girl after girl, breaking heart after heart. I waited for you while you experimented with guys when you thought nobody knew. I waited for you while you paraded around with Camera, pretending to be as straight as an arrow to the public. And I waited for you while you groped after your latest hot little twink of the month, Barrett. I believed we were the perfect couple when we used to fool around with each other and kiss as kids. I knew I was gay long before that, just like I knew you were gay as I watched you deluding yourself with one failed affair after another. It was supposed to be me in your bed, not that Barrett guy!"

"I never knew you felt that way," Billy said.

"How can you say that?" he asked.

Even from across the room with me pretending to be too busy to notice, I saw the tears start to fall from Derek's eyes as he continued.

"Who was there for you to hold you and make you feel better every time you came looking for someone's shoulder to cry on? Me! Who was there to help you through all those times when things went wrong behind the scenes? Me! Who took you to all those places and did things with you to try to give you a normal life away from being a celebrity? Me! Who stepped in and took the rap for you time after time when you got yourself into trouble and did stupid shit? Me! And who spent the night in jail and got raped and beaten the time you and I got drunk and you had that car accident. I switched places with you before the cops came, saving you from being the top story on the evening news? Who was that guy, that's right, me! And you have the nerve to say you never knew? I love you Billy, I can't remember a time that I wasn't in love with you. I feel I've spent my whole life loving you!"

"You're absolutely right about all of it," Billy said. "You have saved my life over and over countless times and I do love you as a life long friend and confidante. You are perhaps the most important person in my life. I don't know where I'd be today without you in my life and the last thing I want to do is hurt you but I don't love you in that way, romantically I mean, I just don't see us in that way."

"Well, you can just kiss my ass!" he said as he stormed out crying.

Billy started to run after him and I ran to the door to stop him.

"What are you doing?" he yelled, "let me go!"

"Don't run after him," I told him. "Let him go! Just let him go."

Billy started crying and I held him tightly for a moment.

"I fucked up again," Billy cried. "Why do I keep doing this?"

"Well, at least I know now why Derek hates me so much!" I stated. When I enlisted his help in planning this party, I could tell that he did it for you, not for me. I don't know him all that well but let me tell you what I do know."

"Okay, I'm listening!" Billy said.

"Derek has been carrying this burden around with him for a long time," I began. "When you sent him to pick me up from the airport when we were in New York, he told me some things in the car that only now are beginning to make sense. He's allowed you to do anything you wanted to do even when it hurt him deeply and he never said anything to stop you. And when things backfired on you, he was always there to console you as he waited for you to notice him. Well instead of noticing him, you started taking him for granted knowing that whatever happens, good old Derek would be there for you, waiting with his arms open. Having Colin and Spencer move in with us put an end to any hope of you asking him to live with you. He also thought that any day now you were going to get sick of me and toss me out and when all that didn't happen, his life started to unravel. Tonight, with all of us celebrating your birthday and everybody looking like they were finally happy for the first time in their lives, it all came to a head. He started drinking too much wine early in the evening and by the time the night was over, he lost his inhibitions. The little bit of self control he's been holding on to all this time simply vanished into thin air!"

"I have to talk to him," Billy said.

"Yes you do," I said, "but tonight is not the time. You have to let him sleep it off and regain some of his self control before you do."

"You seem so calm," Billy said. "You've obviously been hearing everything that's been happening tonight and yet it doesn't seem to be disturbing you! Why the hell aren't you getting mad or scared or something?"

"It's all an illusion Billy," I stated. "Actually, I'm scared to death. I worry about you being in the middle of all this, taking the brunt of all this pressure, pressure that might drive you to do something crazy. I worry that your parents are never going to accept us. I worry that I might do something stupid that would put your career in jeopardy and I would rather die than to ever let that happen. I worry about Derek's fragile state of mind and what he might be driven to do to you, to me or even to himself. It's been a long hard stressful day for both of us. This was supposed to be a fun-filled night full of good food and great entertainment. I wanted you to be able to loosen up and enjoy yourself. I think we've been here long enough. Let's just go home and make love."

"Now that's the best suggestion anyone has made to me all day!" Billy sighed. "It's definitely time to go!"

The four of us and all the party equipment that had been set up earlier in the day got squeezed into my car and we made our way home. When we got there, everyone pitched in and helped unload the car and in minutes, we were all heading for a little private time with our respective partners. I took Spencer aside and suggested that this would be the perfect opportunity for him to implement the things we talked about earlier. Spencer took the hint and invited Colin into his room for the night. I knew they were going to be quite preoccupied with each other so I took advantage of that time to do a little preoccupation of my own with Billy.

"Colin and Spencer are going to be very busy with each other tonight so we are going to be free to play," I informed Billy. "I have a special gift for you that I'd like to present to you now, is that okay?"

"Sure, go ahead!" he smiled.

"I'd like for you to kick off your shoes and put your feet up," I instructed him. "Relax and get comfortable, I'll be right back!"

Billy was quite tickled by the mystery as he smiled and got cozy on the bed. I returned a minute later carrying Billy's guitar and one of the bar stools from the dinning room. I set myself up and prepared to begin.

"I know I caused quite a stir tonight with this beautiful instrument," I said. "So I hope you'll allow me one more performance with it and I promise I'll never touch it again.

"Don't worry about it," he indicated. "I'm over it now so please, continue."

"I prepared two songs for you," I explained. "The first one was for the party and this one is for you personally. This song pretty much sums up how I feel about you!"

I gathered all the strength I had in my body to be able to get through this song without falling to pieces. I took a deep breath and then plunged into the song with everything I had!

"Coming Home"

When you change the way you look at things

The things you look at change

I can see the world so differently

Seeing things your way

There's a path that's right in front of me

That's been calling me for days

And I know that when you walk with me

It will be for always


You give me everything I have

Everything I need

You are the reason why I believe

All my love

I wanna give to you all my life

I wanna see you in my dreams

You opened up my eyes to a world I have never seen

I'm coming home


When I see the way the early dawn drives the night away

To reveal a world that's holding on to see a brighter day

I can only hope for everyone to feel the way I do

Live their life to love someone the way that I love you


You give me everything I have

Everything I need

You are the reason why I believe

All my love

I wanna give to you all my life

I wanna see you in my dreams

You opened up my eyes to a world I have never seen

For always I will remain faithful to the faith you have in me

Can't believe how much I have grown with you

I'm finally coming home


Through you I see the light that will take me home

All the days of my life


For always I will remain faithful to the faith you have in me

Can't believe how much I have grown with you

I'm finally coming home - I'm coming home.

Once I was finished with the song I took one look at Billy and the two of us released the flood of tears we both had been holding back. Suddenly we heard Colin and Spencer clapping and cheering though the walls. They had been listening intently to my performance and wanted to express their approval. Our tears turned to laughter as their show of appreciation lightened our mood.

"Thank you," I shouted through the walls, "I love you guys, thank you!"

"Come here you..." Billy called to me.

I went over to him and he reached out and gave me the most sexually provocative yet physically overpowering hug I've ever received from anyone in my whole life. He grasped me so tightly I couldn't breathe, yet I didn't complain. I felt the sincerity of his appreciation emanate from the top of his head to the tips of his toes. I intuitively understood the depths of his unspoken acknowledgment in a way that no words could ever convey. My cock began to respond both from the erotic hold he had on me and the sheer lack of oxygen to my brain. Once he released his grip on me, I quickly took a deep breath and then fell into his lap.

"That was the best birthday gift anyone has ever given me," he said. "I feel the same way about you Barrett. I love you! I think we've both come home!"

I stayed put in Billy's lap for a while, sharing the warm loving feeling that my heartfelt tribute had created. This was one of those once in a lifetime memories that I would cherish and treasure all the days of my life. Then I remembered that there was more to Billy's birthday celebration yet to come.

"I have one more gift for you," I told him. "I'll be right back."

I grabbed up the stool and Billy's guitar and left the room. I returned his guitar to its rightful place of honor, put the stool back and returned with a package that was brightly wrapped with multi-colored foil and a big bow.

"I know you're going to be at your folks' house on Sunday," I said, "because that's your official birthday, so I thought I'd better give this to you tonight.

"Okay," he said, "but you'll have to wait for your official Birthday next week to get yours."

He ripped off the foil wrapping and tore opened the box. He stared into it for a few moments with his mouth open. Then he looked over at me and busted out laughing with that famous Billy Gilman belly laugh!

"Well, what do you think?" I asked him.

"I don't know," he chuckled.

He reached in and started pulling out the contents one by one.

The box was filled with a wide assortment of adult novelties. As he pulled each one out of the box, I explained what they were and what I knew about them.

"This first item is a dildo authentically fashioned after a world famous gay porn star named Jeff Stryker," I recited. "Jeff Stryker's cock measures 10 inches in length and 7.5 inches in circumference. This cock has realistic balls that move when you squeeze them, just like the real thing."

"And you know this... how?" he queried. "I'm thinking you got this one for you because this thing is just too fuckin' big for me."

"Pretty soon it won't be," I said.

"The hell you say," he quipped back but smiled a quizzical `Thank You'. He laid this first item down on the bed and reached in and pulled out the next item. It was a small box that contained an amber-colored bottle.

"This stuff is imported from England," I said. "It's called `Hard On', it's an exclusive ultra premium black label head cleaner. One whiff of this stuff and you'll never want to orgasm without it again."

"Okay, this one has some promise," he said as he laid it down next to the first item on the bed. Next, he pulled out a medium-sized frosted plastic bag. He opened the bag and removed the two objects inside.

"These two technological wonders are called `The Premium Buzz'," I explained. "Each one is a cock-ring with a vibrating bullet built right into it. It consists of two rings in one. The larger ring directs the vibrations around the base of the cock and balls while the second, smaller ring directs the heaviest vibrations onto the shaft. When you position this bad boy around both your cock and balls, the sensation is fuckin' awesome. It's made of TPR Silicone which makes it ultra stretchy and extremely durable. It's comfortable to wear for hours at a time and will never pinch or cut off your circulation. There are metal beads infused into the silicone that help intensify the vibrations evenly around the entire ring. The vibrating bullet is completely water proof so you can jack off in the shower with it on! I got a red one for you and a blue one for me and they both glow in the dark. Now we can play with these when we shower together or in total darkness under the covers!"

Billy found the on switch and turned it on for a second and then off again. "Wow, that sucker really packs a punch," he commented. "That should aught to do the trick don't you think! I'm starting to get turned on now!"

"Just as I planned," I said. "I'm getting quite aroused myself."

Billy put the rings back into the plastic bag and put them along side the others. Next he pulled out what looked like a vitamin bottle and examined it.

"This little bottle contains the newest rage from China, it's called Blue Bull. This is the official Chinese medical grade formulation. It's as effective as Viagra and Cialis but its all natural, which means there are no harsh chemical side effects to it. You take one tablet about twenty minutes before having sex and then you're off to the races. I've tried this stuff once and believe me, it will blow you away. It gets you rock hard and keeps you that way. You can make love with it all night long and then have the most erotic dreams while you sleep. Even after all that, you'll still feel horny the next morning and want to make love again and again! It's not like either one of us needs this stuff but it's a whole lot of fun to play around with once in a while. This stuff is kind of expensive though. There are just six pills in this little plastic bottle, three for you and three for me. You can try it for yourself and see if you don't fall in love with it!"

"I'm intrigued, he said raising his eyebrows at me. "Lets both take one right now!"

"Okay," I said. "You open the bottle and I'll go get us some water to take them with."

When I returned with the water, we both swallowed down our pill and then he continued exploring the titillating treasures I had assembled. There was one more item at the bottom of Billy's birthday box, the largest item of all. Billy pulled it out and indicated that he had heard about these and always wanted to try one.

"This model is called `The Ice Jack Mouth' by Fleshjack. It gives you a voyeuristic view of your own cock as you masturbate with it. The clear version of the `superskin' allows you to watch yourself as you move in and out of it, witnessing your own climax! You can use it right along with your vibrating cock-ring in the shower. You can use it by yourself or with your partner, me! I can show you some of the tricks I've learned with it that'll blow your mind! I've had one for a long time and I love it, I think you'll love it to."

He pulled off the shrink wrap and removed the item from the original packaging. He studied it for a moment and inserted his finger inside.

"The bumps and ridges inside this thing feel strangely erotic," he said.

"If it feels that good on your finger, imagine what that's going to feel like on your cock!" I suggested. He thought about it for a moment and announced his decision.

"I want you to teach me how to use these three things tonight!" he said as he handed me his new Fleshjack Ice Jack Mouth, the two Premium Buzz vibrating cock-rings and the bottle of Hard On ultra premium head cleaner.

Billy watched me as I prepared these three items to be used for the first time. First, I installed the batteries into the vibrating bullets and then inserted the bullets into the two silicone cock-ring's bullet receptacles. Next, I removed the tamperproof seal from around the bottle of the `Hard On' head cleaner. Then I detached the protective foil from the spout before replacing the cap tightly. Lastly, I removed the Fleshjack skin from the casing to take it with me.

"You should get yourself undressed while I'm gone," I instructed him. "I have to run some hot water over these items before we can use them. I'll be right back!"

I took the Superskin of the Fleshjack and the two silicone cock-rings into the bathroom with me and I ran hot water over them until they became soft and supple. Billy got undressed while I was gone and when I returned, I found him totally naked and sprawled out on top of the bed sporting the biggest hardest erection I've ever known him to have.

"Shamey, Shamey, Shame on you, you naughty boy," I teased. "Just look at that roaring hard-on of yours. Wow!"

"It's been twenty-five minutes since we took the Blue Bull," he informed me, "and I can tell you right now, it's definitely working!"

I re-inserted the Superskin into the Fleshjack case and adjusted the suction plate so that Billy could take it on its maiden voyage. Then I explained to him exactly what it was I had in mind to do next.

"Do you recognize the phrase, `One shot of pain, One splash of love, You better watch your step, This stuff is dangerous'? I asked.

"Designated Driver," he said.

"That's right," I told him, "and tonight, I'm gonna drive you down dream street. With the pedal to the floor and the keys to your heart, I'm your `Designated Driver' and tonight we're going to make love using that hot steamy sex driven song dripping with raw Billy Gilman sex appeal!"

Music can have a profound effect on lovemaking if it's the right song and this one was Hot! I can tell that Billy never imagined that one of his songs could ever be used for this purpose. Every porn movie I've ever seen has had music infused into the action. Well, I was about to show Billy just how sexy his song is with me as the `Designated Driver', Billy and I were about to knock on heaven's door. I put Billy's self titled CD into my boom box, selected repeat and programmed in the song `Designated Driver'. I got undressed and joined Billy on the bed.

"Are you ready?" I teased him. "Here we go!"

I pushed the play button on the player and let it fly. This is how the song goes -

"Designated Driver"

Slow down, get real

Those innocent eyes can't conceal

You're lost, can't find your way

You don't belong

Behind the wheel


Your designated driver, that's me

And we're drivin' down dream street

With the pedal to the floor

And we're headed for heaven's door

With the keys to your heart, I'm your

Designated driver


The party's over, you've had enough

One little teardrop is one too much

One shot of pain, one splash of love

You better watch your step

This stuff is dangerous


Your designated driver, that's me

And we're drivin' down dream street

With the pedal to the floor

And we're headed for heaven's door

With the keys to your heart, I'm your

Designated driver


You look nervous, losin' your balance

You're gonna have to walk the line

'Cause baby you're gonna be mine


This ain't no limousine

But it can take you places

You've never seen


Your designated driver, that's me

And we're drivin' down dream street

With the pedal to the floor

And we're headed for heaven's door

With the keys to your heart, I'm your

Designated driver

The music started with the lyrics: Slow down, Get real! I instantly knew that with Billy's song playing in the background to put rhythm to our passion combined with his newly-acquired collection of erotic paraphernalia, we were going to experience one of the hottest, wickedest most primordial sex sessions we've ever had!

I started things off by slipping on his new vibrating cock-ring onto his rock hard column. I accomplished this by stretching the first larger base ring around his balls, pulling them firmly together. Once that was snugly in place, I pulled his cock though the second smaller ring positioning the bullet across the top of his cock focusing the stimulation directly on his superior dorsal nerve. He looked so hot wearing his new red ring that my cock began to throb with anticipation. I immediately put my blue ring on in the same manner that I had done with his. I turned on the vibrating bullets on both our rings and in seconds, we began moaning a vocal symphony of approval.

"Oh My God!" he said. "This thing is fuckin' awesome. I can feel it from deep inside my balls stretching and all the way up to the tip of my dick."

"This is just the beginning," I informed him. "Wait until you get a taste of the next surprise!"

I reach over to the nightstand and grabbed Billy's amazing bottle of Pig Lube H2O. I put a generous amount into his Ice Jack orifice and prepared to send Billy `Down Dream Street'. I got him comfortably laid out on the bed. I spread his legs apart and positioned myself in between them and demonstrated to my partner the incredible versatility and magic that made Fleshjacks famous around the world.

First I teased him with the lips of the orifice, gently touching the skin of his ridged pole, gliding up and down the length of his cock and then across his firmly gathered balls packaged together by his flaming red cock-ring. This tender stimulation caused his stone column to come to life with a pulse throbbing dance that kept time with the rhythm of his beating heart.

That was my cue. I tightened the suction plate on the bottom of the Fleshjack and with one swift stroke, I plunged Billy's cock all the way into his Ice Jack as I watched it disappear into the device, swallowing his cock whole. The immense stimulation caused him to swallow a deep breath as his entire body shuttered from the shock. I had definitely just taken Billy to `A Place He'd Never Seen'. Now that his cock had popped the cherry of his new Fleshjack, I gripped it with both hands and began to pound his shaft with it.

With the suction dialed in at maximum, it took a great deal of strength and endurance to work him up to a fever pitch. His moaning grew louder and higher in pitch until he started overpowering the boom box. I was doing some moaning of my own as my workout with Billy's Fleshjack and his vocal ovations were turning me on. My vibrating cock-ring was doing its magic too as it subtlety kept me stimulated. The Blue Bull was also working its magic keeping me aroused and hard. I felt a far-distant orgasm approach as we both moved beyond the normal range of excitement and I could tell, if things continued this way, I was going to have a hands free orgasm.

Just then, we started hearing Colin and Spencer going at it in the next room as I'm sure they were clearly hearing us. Our screams of delight and moans of passion were having a therapeutic effect on them as they put their own pedal to the floor. Hearing these sounds come from the next room was definitely fueling my fire as I started to blur the line between Billy and Colin. I started to imagine I was pounding both of them at the same time. Billy started to reach for the Ice Jack as he announced he was getting close.

I handed him the bottle of Hard On and told him to twist off the cap and inhale deeply into each nostril and then recap the bottle. As he did that, I slowed my pace down to allow Billy to edge a little as I permitted the aromatherapy to take the time needed to work its way through his body and take effect.

"Oh fuck that feels good," he started chanting. "Oh My God that feels so fucking good. Holy shit! Oh, I'm cumming. Man I'm cumming. Oh fuck, this is the best orgasm I've ever had."

I continued to stroke him slower and slower. I was going to keep doing this until his cock actually started ejaculating. I wanted to go as far as I could with the Fleshjack before I pulled it out to watch his sperms fly free into the air. Billy started taking deep breaths, deeper and faster.

"Fuck, this is the longest orgasm I've ever had," he continued. "I can feel my balls contracting. Okay, this is it, here it... aahahh..."

Before he could finish that sentence, Billy took one last deep breath and held it. This was the sign I was waiting for. I pulled the Ice Jack off of him just in time to witness his semen shoot farther than Billy had ever shot a load before. I grabbed a hold of his slick rod and stoked him to keep the pressure rising as he shot eleven more jets of boy cream across his body, jerking and convulsing all the way.

Billy's extraordinarily intense display of hot male magnitude caused my oncoming orgasm to suddenly leap closer to the edge. I scooped up a handful of Billy's freshly deposited semen he had just bathed himself with and I used it as lube on myself. It was still hot and slippery which turned me on even more. Billy saw what it was I had just done and decided to give me a helping hand. He instructed me to lie down next to him and he scooped up some of his own semen into his hand in the same manner I had just done. He started to stroke me and my stiffening body reactions and breathing patterns let Billy know that I was already close to my climax. With his free hand, he passed the bottle of Hard On to me and I wasted no time at inhaling a deep double whiff from it. My lover was indeed a fast learner as he implemented what he had just learned from me and slowed down his pace to synchronize my orgasm to the peak effectiveness of this uniquely explosive aromatherapy.

Billy and I were not the only ones in the house erupting with sexual pleasure. Colin and Spencer were climaxing at nearly the same time we were. Their auditory screams of delight reverberated through the walls. We were able to hear them climax over the sound of the boom box. This fueled a new fantasy in me. Colin's recent sexual advances had sparked a desire in me that had lain dormant until now. A new scenario was now invading my thoughts of a fantasy where Colin, Billy, Spencer and I all get together for a mind-numbing foursome.

This fantasy took control of me and caused my oncoming orgasm to take another giant leap forward. All this combined with the Blue Bull feeding my desire, the vibrating cock-ring summoning my seminal fluids right out of my balls and Billy's cock pounding precision culminating together with the combined effects of the Hard On vapors denied me the little control I had left.

"Oh Billy, the erotic feeling of your hot semen lubricating my cock is conjuring the sperms right out of me," I said between breathes. "And here they come now! Oh God, here they cum!"

Billy's timing was impeccable as he proceeded to pull me over the edge, finishing me off in a cataclysmic eruption of spewing fire and brimstone making my head spin and my sperms fly.

"I beat you," he said.

"You sure did," I agreed. "You beat the holy living cum right out of me!"

"No, I mean I shot it farther than you did for a change," he corrected.

"Yeah, that was so fuckin hot!" I said. "You just made me look like a prepubescent teenager squirting an immature load next to you, you hot stud!"

"Well Thank You, Thank You Very Much!" he paraphrased Elvis using his best Elvis impression.

"Well, it seems that we're both covered in cum," I said. "Do you want to shower together?"

"Great idea," he said. "Let's go!"

We got out of bed and headed for the bathroom. At the very same time, Colin and Spencer had concluded their lovemaking session and also got the idea to shower together. We both opened the door to our bedrooms simultaneously and in a split second, we all found ourselves standing together in the hallway, stark naked. After an awkward moment of silence, each one of us began looking each other over. Unfortunately, after all the fantasies I had been having lately about Billy and my three roommates having group sex together, my body reacted by popping a huge boner. In seconds, Billy, Colin and Spencer all popped boners of their own and all four of us were facing each other, all sporting roaring hard-ons!

To Be Continued ...

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