Date: Mon, 27 Aug 2001 11:26:15 EDT
From: PrettyLilTeacup7@aol.com
Subject: My Big Brother

Title: My Big Brother
Author: Joyful ( PrettyLilTeacup7@aol.com )

Archiving: the DAE boards, Nifty, and anyone who wants it, if they ask
first.

Summary: TxJ, unrequited. Taylor has a crush on someone who can't love
him back, and needs comforting. Very short.

Rating: Um, PG-13, at most.

Disclaimer: I don't know, nor have I ever met Hanson, Jonny Lang, and/or
his new wife. I do not mean to imply anything by this story, it's just my
take on a possible reality. However, it's FICTION.

Author's Notes: This is for me, 'cause it's the first thing I've written
in a long time that I didn't hate. Unfortunately, that probably means it
sucks. This is also for all of the people who've asked me to update and
finish "WABAT,OM!" I'm sorry, that story just kinda died in my head. But,
here's a nice lil giftie-fic for you!

Feedback: YES YES YES, pweese? If I ask REALLY nicely? ..:gets down to
grovel on the gravel and kiss your feet:.. Ooh, nice shoes. ;-)

~My Big Brother~ (Original, eh?)

I love him. I know it's strange, and wrong. I know that I can't say it
out loud, since he's straight, and married, a but I love him. Yes, I,
Taylor Hanson am in love Jonny Lang.

It started when he first started working with us on "This Time Around."
He'd come in to the studio, and just play these unbelievable,
mind-blowing, guitar riffs. His voice was so deep, and kind of scratchy
sometimes, kind of like mine. It was the ultimate phone sex voice. Isaac
caught me staring at Jonny one day. "Dude, Tay, cut it out, you can't be
so obvious!" He whispered to me. He was right. He and Zac and Jessi knew
I was gay, but our parents didn't. With their strict Christian morals,
they either would have killed me, or had the antire church lay hands and
pray for me. Or both.

I couldn't help it though. His beautiful, soulful eyes, and deep voice
made me shiver with goose bumps. When our eyes met, I thought I had a
chance, until that day. The day he announced hi engagement to Hallie.
It's actually somewhat ironic. Everyone always thought that it was Isaac
who was crushing on Jonny, because of the way he'd cover for me when I
would talk him into taking me to Jonny's concerts, or buying me Jonny's
CDs. Isaac takes so much flack for me, he always has. He sticks up for
me, covers for me, and goes out of his way to make sure that nobody ever
knows I'm gay. Even if people start to think that he is, in the process.
I love my big brother. But not like I love Jonny.

When Jonny made his big announcement, we were there, because we had been
invited to the engagement party, since he considered us friends. "I have
an announcement to make," Jonny said to the room of his and Hallie's
friends. "I've asked Hallie to marry me, and she said yes." And as
everyone began to applaud, I ran from the room, not even waiting until I
was in the bathroom for the tears to begin. Isaac followed me. He found
me in the bathroom, sitting on the floor, against the wall, crying into
my knees. "Sh, Taylor, it's going to be okay." He whispered in my ear as
his arms enveloped me in a hug. I rested my head on his shoulder and
cried, as he rubbed my back in that comforting, big brother way. Now we
both know that there are so many of our fans who would like to think that
we sleep together, but unfortunately for them, we don't. However, we do
love each other, though not like that, and Isaac is the most amazing big
brother there is. The fact that I'm gay and crying over another guy
doesn't scare him away. Instead, he sat there and held me until I was
done crying, and then he smoothed my hair and waited while I splashed
water on my face and made myself look presentable. And then he never
mentioned that day again.

I love my big brother.

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