Christmas had come and gone. It had been wonderful. Mine and Alex's families got along great! Everyone enjoyed the food that I had prepared and no one objected when it was a little behind schedule. It was my first time cooking a turkey, so shoot me. That night, Alex and I had made love in front of the fire. He had been just as caring and passionate as every other time. He was starting to learn all the ways that he could pleasure me. I was one big erogenous zone around him. He never failed to surprise me. But, before any of that happened, Alex and I decided to exchange gifts early in the morning. That way none of the family members could judge or make anything embarrassing.

I can still remember the way Alex's face lit up when he opened the box which held a locket. Sterling silver with small diamonds placed on the front. The locket had three sections to it; one side held a picture of me, the opposite side had a picture of Alex, and in the middle was a picture of both of us, standing on the beach with our arms around each other. He had teared up a bit at the photos and we shared a passionate kiss. Then it was my turn to open my present from him. We had agreed that one present was enough because our real presents were each other. I had opened my present slowly, unsure and a tad scared of what he had gotten me. It was a small box which had "Hublot" scrawled across it.

"You didn't!" I had almost screamed at him. I quickly opened the box to see a Hublot Exclusive Big Bang watch. He must've seen me looking at it on the internet. The watch was worth $1 million. I carefully removed the watch from the box and looked it over. With the way that the face of the watch was designed, you couldn't see the setting. All you could see were the brilliant diamonds set in throughout the watch and encrusting the clasp until you looked much closer.

"Do you like it?" he asked as though I was going to say that I hated a million dollar watch.

"I absolutely LOVE it, baby, but it's WAYYYYY too much!"

"Oh hush! You never ask for anything and you didn't tell me what you wanted, so I went through your browser history. Just promise me you won't wear it where it will get stolen or damaged. Oh! And in the box there's insurance papers. Yes, baby, I insured it."

I just sat there stunned. I knew he was rich, but come on! He got an especially long and passionate kiss for that one.

*****

It was December 31^st and Alex and I were getting ready to go to Time square to watch the ball drop. We had originally planned to stay in L.A. and party with friends, but Elizabeth had called and explained that Alex's presence was required in New York. So we packed up and headed out. Apparently I had to go too for publicity reasons. I was okay with that, it meant that I got to kiss my man at midnight, I had never been kissed on New Year's before. I was ecstatic to spend the evening with the love of my life.

We had arrived three days prior and were now relaxing in the hotel room, I had found a comfortable position on the plush bed, sprawled across it and staring blankly at the screen. There was much on my mind, the last time I had been in New York...things didn't go so well. Alex walked into the bedroom and spotted me. He walked over to the bed and sat on the edge.

"What's on your mind, handsome?" he asked quietly while his fingers gently danced over my cheek.

"Baby, it's nothing to worry your pretty little head over right now. We have to put on a smile and be happy and everything tonight. What's going on up here-" I pointed to my temple. "We can deal with later. I just want to be the happy couple that we are."

I had closed my eyes and I felt Alex slide into the bed and move close to my sprawled body, as close as he could get anyways.

"Asher, whatever is happening in your head, you can tell me. It won't change anything, I'm still going to love you no matter what. I need to know what's bugging you, I need to know so I can make it better," his presence always felt so good to me and I felt myself moving closer to his body.

"Just hold me, while we talk about this okay? Don't talk...just...listen, can you do that?" I asked quietly. Instantly Alex's arms came up around me.

"Of course I can."

"Okay, what you don't know about me is that my family used to live in New York...forever ago. It brings up bad memories because of the reason we left and moved to LA. When I first really realized that I was gay, and came to terms with it, I had started dating this guy, James, he was awesome. He made me laugh, he made me smile, and I didn't think twice the night that we started fooling around. At first it was playful and fun...but then it got not so..fun..." I didn't want to hurt him, so I spared him the details. "Basically, he raped me. Three times that night, and another two the next. At first I wasn't going to tell anyone, but my mom saw the bruises, she saw the withdrawing. She knew that something was wrong, she made me tell her and I cried. For days. My mom took me to the hospital and reported it...he got arrested and he's still serving time. After that, we moved to LA. I couldn't walk these streets without that feeling...that he was there that he was going to hurt me."

I felt Alex's arms tighten on me, almost as if he wasn't going to let me go. I didn't want him to. I wanted him to hold me forever. When he pulled back and started wiping my tears away, was the first time that I noticed I was crying. I hadn't cried over it in a long time.

"I want to kill him, so badly for what he did to you, but I know that that would do no good. I love you, I always will, I hope you know that. And this changes nothing. Me knowing this, helps me to protect you out there. I won't let you out of my sight. Deal?" I nodded against him and cuddled closer, I just needed his heat against me right now and I think that he understood that. We cuddled for the better part of an hour until a knock at the door alerted us to our suits waiting just outside.

"Baby, let's get ready, k? You go start the shower, I'll be in as soon as I grab the suits okay?" I nodded and stood from the bed. We had been laying there in our boxers so I tossed him a robe.

"Only I get to see the goods, deal?" I smiled at him and I saw a huge genuine smile break out over his face.

"Always, my love."

I went into the bathroom and started the shower, letting the water adjust to the perfect temperature. I heard the door to our hotel room open and some talking and then the door shut. Alex must've taken the suits and hung them up in the closet because soon enough, he was pulling his robe off of his shoulders and wrapping his arms around me.

"Can I have a kiss?" his tone was playful.

"NOPE!" I pulled away and turned my head, laughing quietly, I quickly shucked my boxers and got into the shower, stepping directly under the water. I let the water drip down my body, cascading over my broad shoulders and down my pecs to my abs. I bit my lip and looked at Alex who was standing there, staring at me, his mouth agape.

"Oh god..." he said under his breath and I could see the obvious tent forming in his boxers.

"Come on babe, we have a little time for fun if you hurry."

That was all it took, Alex's boxers were off and he was in the shower, pushing me against the wall, grinding his hips against mine. I was quickly rising to meet his member and my arms instinctively wrapped around his waist, to pull him to me. My fingers dug into his back as my mouth sought refuge against his. I couldn't control my tongue as it tasted Alex's. Every part of me was on fire from Alex's touch and my hips were pressed to his as my cock grew between us. One of his hands moved from the wall where he supported himself to between us where he grabbed both of our shafts together and stroked us just once. I shuddered at his touch and moaned into his kiss.

It took all the control I had not to cum just from his touch. I claimed Alex's mouth in another deep kiss, my tongue and his mingling and stroking until neither of us knew whose was whose. I pulled back from his mouth just long enough to give him a look, telling him exactly what I wanted. Him in me. He nodded once and kissed me deeply, his hand snaked around back and his middle finger rubbed over my pucker. I shuddered at his touch and he grabbed conditioner. He coated his finger and rubbed some onto my asshole then picked me up carefully, I quickly wrapped my legs around his waist, taking some of the pressure off his arms. Alex fingered me quickly but carefully and got me ready for the intrusion of his thick appendage. I whimpered and pushed against Alex.

"Now baby, don't make me wait!!!" I moaned at him and he quickly slicked his cock with the conditioner and lined himself up to my entrance.

"Ready?"

"Oh my god, yes, please, nowwwww."

He pushed forward just enough for the head to pop in and I gasped and moaned loudly. He always felt so good inside me, no matter how much or how little was in me, it was pure fucking bliss. He continued to push forward, watching my face for any pain or discomfort, when he finally hit bottom, I groaned and clenched around him. The moan that escaped Alex made me smile and slowly he started to retreat from my chute only to replace himself. He continued to thrust in and out of me, his balls slapping against my ass.

The moments like this were special for me. All the moments with Alex were, but when I got to see his raw animalistic side, it made me sick with hunger for him. He made my body ache, my blood boil. I couldn't stand being far from him and I loved every moment I spent with him.

He continued to thrust into me, my moans and his mixing together to make the sweet sound of sex over the rush of the water.

"Oh baby! Yes, yes, yes, right there, ohhh fuck meeeeee!" I was moaning uncontrollably, Alex's dick hitting my prostate right on. He knew just how to work me and my own dick was rubbing up against his stomach when he moved. Pure bliss, I swear to god.

Alex's mouth was suddenly next to my ear, and I heard his haggard breathing and his moans, "You like that, don't you baby? You like my cock up your tight little ass?"

I absolutely loved it when he talked dirty to me and I moaned my approval, quickly approaching the brink. My ass was milking him, clenching and unclenching, clinging to him. He was moaning in my ear and digging his fingers into my hips. I could tell he was getting close and he could tell the same from me. I moaned his name loudly and shot off between us, my load covering both of our chests. I soon felt Alex's cock expand and shoot up into me, he was moaning in my ear, telling me how handsome I was, how much he loved my body, how much he loved me.

Sadly, Alex soon softened and fell from my body, my legs were still jelly and I dropped my legs to the floor of the shower and held onto Alex. He smiled and stroked my back and my arms.

"I love you so much," he continued to whisper over and over as he held me tight to his body. It was the first time that he had ever cum inside me. I wasn't sure how I felt about that part, but right now I was on an orgasmic high and nothing could stop that. I started feeling Alex's jizz slide down my thigh and I whimpered a bit, loving the feel of him still being in me. "Oh god baby, I didn't even think to pull out, I'm sorry. I should've asked. I should've thought about it," his English accent was filling my ears, like music. He was perfection.

"Baby, sh," I put my finger over his lips, silencing him. He kissed my finger gently and then I continued. "It was perfect, and I know you're clean, I'm clean, it's perfect and it's fine. We're golden."

He smiled that sweet smile at me, his green eyes twinkling. His beautiful face was shining with that post sex glow. He was absolutely stunning.

"Baby, you're beautiful," I was smiling and staring at him, I ran my hand over his prickly cheek and giggled softly. "Please shave before we go, you look so handsome clean shaven."

"Alright baby, just for you," he rubbed his stubble covered cheek against mine and I giggled loudly.

"Stoppitttttt!!!!!!!" I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly, kissing him sweetly. "You gonna help me shower, or are you just gonna stand there? Go out all covered in my cum?"

"Oh god, I would love to just walk around covered in your cum, but alas, that would not smell good," he turned us both towards the spray and he started washing my body slowly, covering my skin in suds, his touch was light, loving. I was grinning when he stood and started washing my hair, running his hands through my thick locks. "God, you're so fucking perfect."

I blushed, but kept quiet and once he had finished washing my body, I repaid him that favor. I washed his body slowly, carefully, I traced his tattoos with my fingers, kissed his abs gently then moved up, kissed his lips and washed his hair. There was constant touching, we didn't let each other out of our grasps. I couldn't even fathom being a foot away from him.

We slowly finished our shower together, this time, taking our sweet time. Alex was even taking longer than usual. We exited the shower and wrapped towels around our waists. We both walked to the vanity and started to shave, brush our teeth and pamper ourselves just a bit. Once I was finished washing my face and taking care of my face ritual, I started drying off then dropped the towel in the little hamper and walked naked to the bedroom.

"Hey baby."

"Yeah?"

"I forgot to bring boxerbriefs, can I borrow a pair of yours?" I asked him, knowing that boxerbriefs was basically all that he wore.

"Yeah baby, you know where they are."

I went to the dresser and grabbed a pair of boxerbriefs from it, I slipped them over my legs then made my way back to the bathroom where I blow dried my hair and then wrapped my arms around Alex as he got himself ready.

"I fucking love you, you gorgeous, gorgeous man," I muttered into his ear then gave it a quick lick, quickly did my hair, making eyes at my man in the mirror.

"So, at this thing, I have an interview and I hope that you'll be holding my hand during it, and then they have the music and whatever, we can dance and drink. And thennn the ball drops, and I kiss my man," I blushed and smiled at him, nodding.

"Of course, I'll be by your side all night, if you want of course."

"I wouldn't have it any other way."

I just smiled and then moved back into the bedroom, he joined me and we dressed slowly, exchanging glances and gentle touches. When the time came to leave, Alex grabbed me in his arms and kissed me deeply.

"I love you more today than yesterday, and less than tomorrow. You're my one and only and I wouldn't have you any other way. You are my life, my everything and I need you in my life, always. Don't ever leave me because I won't be able to survive it. If you left, you'd take my heart with you and I can't live without my heart. So please...don't leave me."

"I'll never leave you baby," I whispered as I pressed my lips to his one more time.

"Alright, let's go," he grabbed my hand, laced our fingers together and we headed out of the room, making sure we both had our key cards and our wallets. "If you wanna leave at any time, just let me know, I'll find a way for you to get out of there and then I'll leave as soon as I can. But I really hope that I'll be able to kiss you at midnight..."

"Baby, hush, I'm staying all night with you, and I WILL kiss you at midnight. I've never been kissed at New Year's...ever..." I blushed bright red and Alex hugged me tight to his side as we entered the elevator and went down to the main floor.

Once in the lobby, we could see the chaos around us. Everyone wanted a piece of Alex, having found out that this was where he was staying. I moved away from Alex a bit, a force of habit, he pulled me back to him.

"Baby, they know about us, I want you here, against me," he looked so sharp in his tuxedo and I smiled.

"Let's go out the back way?" I knew that they had a limo had the back for this moment.

"Yeah, babe," we made our way down the hallway to the backdoor where there was a sleek black limo waiting. We got into the backseat of the vehicle and Alex pulled me tight to his side. I felt something weird in his pocket and when I went to grab for it, he intercepted and took my hand then moved his suit jacket away.

"What's that????" I was super curious, I wanted to know what was in there.

"You'll find out later, I promise," he kissed me gently to distract me and I smiled.

"Alright, I'll leave it alone," I was smiling, I couldn't help it. He just brought that out in me, I couldn't stop.

It took FOREVER to get to time square because of all the stupid people causing stupid traffic. Dumb.

Anyways, we parked and we were whisked out of the limo and off to get our hair and make up done. Oh my god, why is this so much work? I watched Alex out of the corner of my eye, he kept making funny faces and I couldn't help but laugh which got me an evil glare from the girl working on my face and hair. I saw Elizabeth walk up and I grabbed her.

"Why do I have to have this done? I looked fine when I left the hotel."

"Because, you're going on TV with Alex, and I won't have you looking like crap, just let it happen," she pecked my cheek gently and then moved over to Alex who gave me an apologetic look.

I smiled at him and blew him a kiss then my attention was taken away by the makeup artist and I focused, letting her do her thing. I waited until she was done and then stood and then went over to Alex.

"You owe me," I winked at him and stood back a bit, admiring the full package. "Fuck, you're sexy."

"Ahh...thanks babe," Alex blushed. HE BLUSHED! Oh how cute. I made him blush. I did a little dance in my head and he smiled at me, like he knew what was going on in my head.

I heard music and I smiled at him, I held out my hand and he stood up with me, we started dancing around the small area, giggling and pretending to be regal.

Fuck he's cute. That's all I could think.

****

After he had done his interview and the night was closing in on midnight, Alex looked like he was getting nervous.

"Baby, what's wrong?"

"Oh, nothing, I'm just worried about making this kiss one to remember."

"Alex, honey, every kiss with you is one to remember, you short circuit my brain. You do not need to work at this at all, okay?" I kissed him gently and heard some slow clapping behind us, I turned and I my entire body tightened. "What are you doing here?"

"Oh, I just heard that you and your little boyfriend were going to be here, so I came for a visit. I couldn't miss seeing you acting all rich and pompous," James muttered.

"You're supposed to be in jail," I moved closer to Alex who had alerted security, James seemed none the wiser.

"I got out early for good behaviour. Is he tapping that fine, tight ass yet?" James hissed at me.

I wanted to vomit. I wanted to purge everything from my system. Throw up. I watched James and then I looked at Alex who was shaking with anger.

"Alex, hey...monkey, listen to me. We're gonna go, okay?" I was forcing him to look at me and when he looked into my eyes and saw how scared I was, he just nodded and grabbed my hand.

"Let's go," he said and turned with me, we started to walk away when James came running up and grabbed my arm.

"Where do you think you're going?" I wanted to scream. I almost did but Alex put his hand over my mouth and nodded at the security guards who quickly grabbed James and pulled him away.

"He needs to be taken to the police station. Inform them that he broke a restraining order that Mr. Lennox had put against him. Thank you," he grabbed me and pulled me tight to him. "Breathe Asher, breathe for me baby, just take deep breaths, I'm here, right here."

"How did you know that I had a restraining order against him?"

"I guessed, I knew that your family wasn't stupid to just let him rot in jail without a safety blanket. Let's go behind stage and find a trailer to sit in for a few minutes and then we'll watch the ball drop okay?" I nodded against him and we moved through the crowd to the stage, we saw Matthew McConaughey and Alex pulled him aside and whispered in his ear. Matthew nodded and Alex and I disappeared into his trailer, we sat in one chair, Alex underneath me. He was holding me tightly, which I needed, I needed his strength.

I leaned against him and kissed him over and over again, needing that closeness, needing him like no other.

"I love you so much, and I hope that you know that, I hope that you know that I would do anything for you if you asked me to. I love you so fucking much. I couldn't have done that without you, thank you.." I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly, I squeezed hard, not letting him talk, just hugging him.

"You're okay, we're okay. I love you, and I wouldn't have had it any other way than for me to be there with you. I'm sorry that he was here and I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I'm so sorry that that ever happened to you. He's a horrible person and he hurt someone that I care so deeply about. That is not okay and he will pay baby. I promise you, he will pay."

I just nodded and we continued to cuddle in the chair.

****

We left the trailer just before the ball was about to drop, then we went out to the stage area, where we could see the ball and I smiled at Alex. This was perfect, me him, together.

Just before the ball was about to drop Alex looked at me.

"Asher Lee Lennox, I love you so much. There is no one in this world that I would rather be with, I couldn't imagine my life without you in it. I need you like I need air. I love you like a fat kid loves cake," I laughed softly and watched him, blushing a bit as a crowd started to watch us. The ball started to drop. "There's not much I can say. I love you, and I will always love you. You are perfect for me." He got down on one knee and I gasped softly. "Asher, will you marry me?"

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak, I just nodded and Alex swept me into his arms and hugged me tightly as he slid a simple silver band onto my finger. His lips pressed to mine just as the New Year rang out.

"I love you," I breathed as we pulled apart.

"Not nearly as much as I love you," Alex whispered. He rested his forehead against mine and I stared into his eyes, smiling and blushing.

"You're perfect."

I couldn't believe it. Had he really just proposed to me? My god, I just...wow. I'm getting married to Alex FUCKING PETTYFER! OH MY GOD! I'm engaged to Alex Pettyfer.

I'm marrying him, who wants to come?

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