Supernatural: Outer Beings


"Cas, why couldn't I have gone with Sam and Dean?" I asked as we walked into an empty apartment, "Or at least have gone back to my place."

Castiel looked around, "Because it's not shielded." He said looking around, "This is the most secure place."

"What, exactly, am I hiding from?" I asked.

Castiel's eyes looked around the room and fell darkly on me, "Because they will be coming for you."

"I'm a demi-God...what can hurt me?" I asked.

"Gods can be hurt. The Father is the only being that cannot be hurt." Castiel said, "Whether you want to live or not, the world needs you."

"I'm nothing more than a murderer now." I frowned, "The world is better off without me."

Castiel looked at me, "You're not a murderer. Yes, you murdered people, but it was under the guise of divinity." He said, "No one blames you."

"Sam and Dean weren't exactly..."

"They don't think of you as a murder and even if they did, it doesn't matter what they believe..." Castiel said.

"Because they're mortal?" I asked.

Castiel looked at me, ignoring my growing concern.

"Unlike us." I said sadly.

Chapter 48: Who I'll Never Be Again

I stood at the window, looking down at the street. I wasn't human. I don't know what I am anymore.

"It's true that you're no longer just human, but you're more than that." Castiel said, "Divine."

"Whose bright idea was it to make me a God anyways?" I snapped.

Castiel looked up, causing my eyes to slant upward.

I sighed, "You've got to be kidding me." I frowned.

"He's never wrong." Castiel said, "It was your destiny."

"How did you figure it out? You were gone for a few minutes." I asked.

"I knew immediately. Your hints and actions alerted me." He said.

"So, what's the story?" I asked, "If I'm some supernatural bigwig, why didn't I know?"

"You have always been." He offered.

I looked at him oddly, "As in I've always been alive?" I asked.

"Yes." Castiel nodded.

"But I have parents and I'm only twenty." I frowned.

"To protect you, you were reborn using the DNA of the Gordons." Castiel said, "They are your parents, but you are not twenty."

"How old am I? Why did they want to kill me and who are they?" I asked, "What did I do?"

Castiel now stood at the window and I stood in the kitchen area across the room. He was quiet, in contemplation.

"The whole witch thing...Am I a witch? Or was I just a God with a witchy complex?" I asked frantically.

Castiel turned to me, "Your mother was a witch, so it's only natural that you be one too. Even without your godly powers, you were a formidable witch. But your powers were breaking through, especially at the end. You weren't experiencing an aneurism, you were ascending." He explained.

"That was ascending? They should give you medicine for that." I said angrily, "That was like dying without the promise of..." I stopped.

"Your peace was not ripped away, it's all still possible." Castiel said.

"So, what, I've got the capacity to end up with Sam?" I asked, "I hate to tell you this, but most of the people that Sam dates dies. And he's going to end up with a girl."

"How can you think that?" Castiel asked, "While it's true that everything's in turmoil, it was always your optimism that drove you and kept you sane."

"Don't get me wrong, I love Sam and all, but if I were going to end up with him, there'd be signs or something, right?" I asked.

"Not everything can be as out in the open as you'd like." Castiel said.

"Like the fact that your whole body is radiating with lust?" I asked, "Do angels...are you even allowed to lust?"

Castiel looked at me, trying of figure me out.

"Don't ask me how. I just feel it." I said, "Is...are you lusting for me?"

"I cannot help it." Castiel said, still standing across the room, "It's part of your pull."

"Is that why you're standing all the way over there?" I asked, "And why you barely look at me? Because you've got the hots for me?"

"'s a part of being a God, the attraction, especially from more divine beings." Castiel explained, "Humans will love you and not know why. Other beings will love, and maybe even lust for you...some will even worship you."

"Great." I said, "Not that you're not an uber-sexy angel. I mean, I've had dreams about you taking off that coat and..." I stopped, "Too much info."

"Yes." Castiel said, "Perhaps a little."

"I mean, me being a God and being so old would explain why I don't like clubs or...parties...or, you know, other teenagers." I shrugged, looking down with contemplation.

"You dream about me?" Castiel asked.

I looked up from my contemplation, "You know, I tried the whole `live as a college student' thing for a couple of months. It really wasn't my thing. Going back to school and the parties...Once you know what's out there, it's a little useless to try and be innocent again." I frowned.

"You haven't lost your innocence." Castiel said.

I smirked at him.

"Well, yes, that but..."

"Why are they after me?" I asked.

His eyes narrowed to me, "You are new." He said, "You are neutral."

"New? I'm centuries old, remember?" I asked.

"But you've only just come back to your destiny." Castiel explained, "And though you murdered with good intentions, you murdered."

"I knew it would come back to that." I said quickly, "What do I have to do?"

"Survive." Castiel said. He stared at me for a second before quickly looking away.

"Don't take this the wrong way, but I think I like it when you stare at me." I chuckled.

Castiel nodded, "How could anyone take that the wrong way?" he asked.

Just then my phone rang and I picked it up, "Hello?" I asked.

"Where in the Hell are you?" Dean asked.

"I'm with Cas...didn't he tell you?" I asked, "We're...I don't know, in some little town."

"Where exactly?" Dean asked.

Castiel took the phone, "I cannot say." He said.

I could still hear as clear as day.

"What in the Hell do you mean you can't say?!" Dean asked, "Cas, you left with him a day ago without telling me and Sam anything! If you weren't an angel, we would be kicking your ass."

"I understand, Dean, but if I tell you where we are, there is a chance they could be listening." Castiel said.

"Demons?" Dean asked.

Sam's voice was in the background, "Demons? What about Demons?" he asked.

"Not just demons." Castiel said, "I'll explain later."

"No, you'll explain now!" Dean said angrily, "You drop the bombshell that our resident witch is now a God and we're supposed to just sit back and wait for whatever's after you?"

"Dean, what are you doing at this very moment?" Castiel asked.

"We're on our way to Scotland to help Bobby." Dean said.

"What's wrong with Bobby?" I asked.

Dean must have heard me because he explained about Bobby's soul and the demon Crowley.

"We will explain everything, I promise. Right now, it's not safe for him outside of this apartment." He said, smacking himself against the head.

"Seriously? You are really good at this." I chuckled.

"Is he alright or not?" Sam asked, "Let me talk to him."

Castiel handed me the phone.

"Are you okay?" Sam worried.

I glanced over to Castiel, "Yeah, except the pervy angel that's lusting after my body?" I smirked.

Castiel was embarrassed.

"Castiel what? Dude, he's supposed to be an angel!" Sam said angrily.

"Chill, it's a Demi-God thing." I said, "Apparently, he's attracted to me now because I'm all divine."

Sam sighed, "That's really annoying." He frowned.

"Says the guy with the hooker." I said.

"How'd you know about that?" Sam asked.

"Dude, I'm a freakin Demi-God." I said, "Besides, we're not dating or something."

"We're not?" Sam asked, "Look, Bobby really needs our help."

"And you should help him." I said, "Don't worry about me. If I can handle a couple of horny, drunk frat guys coming on to me...Too much info."

"What do you mean? You're not making much since. Maybe you need to rest." Sam said, "We need to come and get you."

"No can do. I think I'm going to stay with the sexy angel." I said quickly.

"That's not funny." Sam said seriously.

"Oh, come on, it's a little funny. I mean, he's hot and all and he's all `the end is nigh and I don't ever get laid'." I chuckled, "I think I'll be okay. Have fun in Scotland. Oooh, totally catch a leprechaun or the lochness monster for me." I said, ending the call.

"Your levity astounds me." Castiel said.

I smirked, "I love messing with him. He's just so freakin easy." I said, sitting on the floor, "You know, you are totally like one of those guys from the chess club that I would make fun of and secretly want to date."

Castiel raised an eyebrow.

"Relax, I have no plan to seduce you, at least not right now." I said, "I don't think I like this."

"Like what?" Castiel asked.

"This whole flirty, Demi-God thing." I said, "What was I God of?"

"It's very entertaining." Castiel said deadpanned, "I'm laughing on the inside."

"I think I'm the God of Easy." I said, disturbed.

Castiel winced.

"Oh come on, I'm a self-deprecating Demi-God." I stopped.

"What is it?" Castiel asked, looking worried.

"Something's calling me. It's pretty strong." I frowned.

"Fight it!" Castiel said, moving towards me.

But I felt it, stronger and stronger and suddenly, I was not where I once was.


I looked around at my surroundings. I was in a barn, a very familiar barn, but a barn nonetheless. It was dark but there were candles everywhere, shedding some light on the barn. There was a flash of lightning, revealing that there were more than a few people around me. I didn't really need light to see that, though. I could feel them. They brought me here. They were pretty powerful.

"You know, I went to a party like this once...of course, they all kind of wanted to run a train on me, but..." I stopped, "You summoned me here, what do you want?" I asked.

"Dude it worked!" One of the robes said.

I raised an eyebrow and looked between them.

"Hush, Toby," A large robed figure said, stepping forward. He pulled off his robe to reveal his beautiful face and his dark hair.

I looked at him, wide-eyed, "Do I know you?" I asked.

"I've been waiting for you for centuries." He said.

"Centuries? Are you, like, immortal? Oh God, you're a God. We knew each other, didn't we?" I panicked, "This is all gross. We're really old."

"No." The man said, "We have been searching for you for centuries."


"We are your worshipers." Toby said, again out of turn.

"So, you know what I am...I mean, who I was?" I asked.

"One of the most bad-ass Gods in the whole...well, what do you call a place full of vampires?" The man asked.

"Who remembers?" I asked, "What's your name?"

"You don't remember? Or just know?" The man asked.

"Dude, I'm not a virgin anymore. My patience is way out the window." I frowned.

The man cleared his throat, "Reid." He said.

"Anybody ever told you that you look like Chris Redfield?" I asked.

"Totally," Toby said, "Like, post Resident Evil 5."

Reid looked over at him.

"Your arms are so...big." I said, catching myself, "What exactly are you guys?"

"I used to be a hunter, but my family worshipped you." Reid said, "Like the rest of us here."

I looked around, "So, I've been here before. With Sam and Dean, only Andrew was leading you. You were here?" I asked.

Reid nodded, "I took over after he was...well..."

"After I killed him?" I asked.

"You killed one of your followers?" A woman asked.

"Long story." I said walking to the altar, "You were sacrificing someone for me, to get me here?"

"And it worked." Reid said, "We weren't okay with it, but he said it would get you here."

I was shocked, "Oh my. And it summoned me. That's how I knew he was here." I said consciously.

"We've been studying you for years, but we've never been able to contact you. You've always been with the Winchesters or..."

"Don't." I warned.

"I am truly sorry." Reid said, "It was a tragedy."

A horrified look washed over my face, "His death...did it restore me? Did it bring me back to..." I paused, "Was he a sacrifice?"

"We don't know." Reid frowned, "It's possible."

"You will usher in either the end or the beginning of the world." The woman said.

"And you don't know which one?" I asked, "Why worship me if I could bring about the end?"

"It's better than not worshipping the one who could lead us into salvation." The woman said.

I looked to Toby, "You said I was bad-ass. What makes you all think I'm not just bad?" I asked.

"Because you did what you wanted when you wanted. You took no prisoners when you were ready and never apologized." The woman answered, "You weren't evil's instrument."

"Evil's instru...can we possibly take a leap into the future?" I asked.

"I am sorry," She said, revealing herself to be a brunette with piercing blue eyes, "It's hard to believe you're only twenty."

"Tell me about it." I said, "This barn, it's hidden, isn't it?"

"After the last time, we had to." Reid said, "I hope you understand."

"I'm Rose, by the way." The woman said. She looked like Shannen Doherty.

"You look uncomfortable, is there something we could get you?" Reid asked.

"My friend's going to come looking for you." I said, "This isn't safe. You know the dangers, right?"

"Of course." Rose said, "But we have hunters laced among us."

"No one needs to die and if demons come, people will die." I said quickly, "I don't want you to follow me into oblivion."

"Dude, just because you're gay..." Toby started.

"Not because I'm gay!" I frowned, "You think I'd go to oblivion because I'm gay?"

Toby shrugged.

I stopped.

"What is it?" Reid asked.

"I haven't said it lately." I frowned, "I don't say it enough."

Suddenly, there was a flash of lightning and three people stood by the door of the barn.

"Who are they? More followers? Demons?" Toby asked.

I rolled my eyes, "Just call them the God squad." I frowned.

They all looked at me.

"Okay, so, not really what God wanted and they're not doing his bidding so maybe we just call them annoying." I sighed.

"Will you come with us willingly?" The middle angel asked.

"Seriously? I'm a Demi-God." I frowned, "You can't threaten me...I don't die, remember."

The middle angel pulled out a silver dagger, one that can kill an angel, "Maybe not, but you can be hurt."

I pulled out an identical dagger, "Did you really think I'd be unprepared?" I asked.

"You can't take on three of us." The one on the right said.

The barn door exploded of its hinges and Castiel stood with a dagger.

"My hero." I smiled.

"Sorry it took me so long." Castiel said, noticing everybody else.

"Castiel..." The middle angel said.

"Ba..." Castiel started.

"Dude, I don't want to hear this angel vs angel crap. Either take it outside or shut up!" I groaned.

"Angel?" Reid asked.

"Who are all these people?" Castiel asked.

"His followers." The angel said.

"Pretty cool, huh?" I asked.

"Why would angels want you?" Toby asked, perplexed.

"The same reason the demons want him and we want to be in his good graces." Rose said, "His power."

"Listen, I don't really care why they want me. I'm not some very ancient toy." I frowned.

"You're dangerous to every being here." The third angel uttered.

"We only want to help." The middle angel said.

"You want to help by force? Cute." I said.

"If he will not come willingly..." The second angel said.

Castiel moved towards me but the third angel bum rushed him through the opening at the front of the barn. The two angels advanced towards me. I twirled my dagger and smiled. I dodged two attacks at once, ducking under one dagger and whirling around the other with sudden grace that I hadn't had before. As they both moved quickly again, trying to bring the daggers down at me, I caught both with my hands. I caught one with the left and the other with the right and brought them from eye level to level with my torso. I smiled as I pushed the daggers and the angels away, causing them to slam on opposite ends of the barn. I heard fighting from outside the barn. I centered on the fighting and soon the third angel kneeled before Castiel, about to stab him. I strolled over and grabbed the angel by the collar and threw him across the room!

I helped Castiel up, "Are you alright?" I asked.

"Yes." He said, bewildered, "Thank you."

The angels regrouped and stood a few feet away.

"You are going to leave." I said, "You can leave a mark or you can leave through the door."

The angels looked at each other and proclaimed that it wasn't over before disappearing. I turned to my "followers", who all looked at me with shock and most with awe.

"You're all going to back to your lives. Forget everything you've seen and know about me. I'm not a leader." I said quickly.

"You're more than a leader. You're a God. You just proved it." Reid said.

I looked around at all of them. They felt connected to me. Suddenly, there was a pulling in my body like before.

"Fight it." Castiel said, walking towards me.

Before he got there, I was gone. I slid into place just before someone hit the ground. I looked on in horror as an older me hit the ground. It wasn't too far in the future, but I was wearing very different clothes, clothes that I hadn't even bought before. I was bleeding and broken. I watched as a robed figure glided out towards me, its hand in the air as I writhed in pain. As I watched, the robed figure turned to me and the other me looked up at me, trying to say something. I stood there in a daze as the robed figure glided towards me. Just before it reached me, I closed my eyes and opened them to find myself back in the hotel room and Cas standing a few feet away, staring at me.

"Where have you been?" He asked, "I've been calling you for a week."

"What?" I asked.

"I haven't seen you since the barn, a week ago." Castiel said, staring me over.

I looked at him oddly.

"Dean thinks something is in Sam's body." Castiel said, walking to the door.

"No shit." I frowned, "I felt him, Cas, and he felt...soulless."

"Soulless?" Castiel asked.

"Weird for me to say, but Cas...there's nothing there." I said quickly.


I rolled over and my hand hit someone's chest. It was Jack, the vampire I had helped a while ago. I was lying on his arm and he didn't wake when I rolled over, he just smiled in his sleep. I turned, sliding out of the bed as gently as I could, still looking at him. I grabbed my underwear off the floor and noticed shoes while I was knelt down. I looked up at the owner of the shoes.

"Cas..." I sighed, closing my eyes and standing.

"This is wrong and you know it." Castiel said.

I looked back at Jack, who was still sleep, "He's not..."

"This isn't the first time." Castiel said, "You're heading down a dark path."

"Haven't we had this conversation before?" I sighed.

"No." Castiel said angrily, "He is a demon. Soulless."

"He's my friend." I frowned.

"I can see your faith is shaken." Castiel said, reaching out to me, "Come with me."

I looked at his hand.

"Something is after you, feeding off your soul, your powers..." Castiel said, "You have strayed so far, but it hasn't been your fault."

"Strayed?" I asked.

"Yes." Castiel said, "I have to go."

"Go? You just got here?" I asked.

"I am sorry." Castiel said, disappearing.

"I hate it when he does that." I said softly.

"Who?" Jack asked.


I stood at a door, knocking. I wasn't tired and I didn't feel drowsy. I didn't sleep, really. This world hadn't changed much since I left it. There was much denial and repression and I couldn't help but feel immune to it. I was standing at this familiar door, waiting for the person on the other side to answer. It had been a short while, but it felt like lives ago. I needed to see someone who didn't know what I had become, that didn't look at me as someone who could hold the worlds in their hands. The door opened and Nattie, John's sister, opened the door with a soft smile.

"Hey, Nat." I smiled.

She hugged me. I savored the feeling, the feel of her human heart and skin. Her soul on mine and I wondered did I have one. So long ago, she had touched mine. She had loved someone that I had loved. She had been touched in her heart the way I was. So, we just stood there, hugging.


Hey guys! I just wanted to say that if you like my story, shoot me an e-mail because I'm not sure if I'm continuing this story. But if I get some e-mails, I most definitely will.