Date: Thu, 24 Jul 2003 09:28:47 -0400 From: TS Subject: Access Denied **** This story contains ideas, and actions of a homosexual nature. Reader discretion is advised. If it is illegal for you to be reading such materials, it is not the responsibility of the author to monitor the access to this file. If you are caught illegally viewing this material it is neither the fault nor responsibility of the author, and therefore you should leave now. **** ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This is my first attempt at writing a story, so please feel free to email any and all comments or corrections, and i will try to respond to any emails i receive. my inspiration for this story comes from a few things... 1) my fascination for fraternity life, 2) an episode of queer as folk where Emmett is using a chat room pretending to be a controlling top dominating a Nellie bottom, and 3) a movie I watched long ago called Get Real, but it was about a skinny and somewhat nerdy (not so popular English boy) who is deeply in love with the school track star (a popular hunk of a English boy), they fall in love, do the dirty, but cannot confess their love publicly because of the track stars reputation, and family name. And so I begin my story.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- access_denied part 1 Sebastian stretched his arms as he yawned, slowly scratching his bare chest while he stared at his computer screen. ENTER USERNAME: ENTER PASSWORD: | His heart began pounding harder and faster in his chest while his stomach began its aerobics with his insides. Sebastian looked around the room making sure his roommates were still asleep. Confirming he was the only one conscious he entered the requested information and was immediately greeted with the sounds of moans, and images of men contorting in all positions fulfilling every wish and fantasy for him. As he watched the scene in front of him and read the attached chat room being flooded with "fuck yeahs..." and "fuck harder, faster... that's it..." his mind flooded with faces, names and bodies of all his secret obsessions. Soaking in the sights, sounds and words Sebastian resisted the urge to stroke his now pulsing erection. He just couldn't risk being heard. Escaping in his mind into the room clad in soft red velvet fabric lacing the walls and floor, resting on his back on top the plush satin pillows scattered throughout the entanglment of naked bodies, Sebastian imagined being there among the men getting serviced from every angle. Tongues, fingers, hands and every other 2000 touchable part on the human body caressed him, enveloped him, and made love to him. He was far away, in a place that could be no where else but heaven. There was suddenly movement behind Sebastian and in a fury of movement he slammed ALT-F4, ALT-F4, ALT-F4, into his keyboard, just in time as one of his roommates was getting out of bed. "Still up bro?" Roger said wiping the sleep out of his eyes and stepping toward Sebastian. Sebastian watched as his fraternity brother walked toward him wearing nothing but his boxer briefs. He couldn't help but gawk at his friend as he neared him. Roger was one of Sebastian's closest friends and fraternity brother. Roger had been Bastian's (that's what people called him) "big" when he was a pledge the year before. But there was more about Roger than Sebastian let him know. Sebastian had lusted over him since the day he met him. Roger was everything Sebastian desired in a man, tall but not too tall, athletic; Roger was on the soccer team, slightly hairy (you know the thin brush of hair that always clings closely to the skin (think guys from South Africa, or athletic Italians)), dirty dishwater blond hair, but most of all piercing blue eyes that could melt the tallest and thickest ice burgs of the arctic. Sebastian was clearly in love with Roger and had been for 2 years now. "Earth to Bastian!" Roger chuckled snapping his fingers at his "little." "Wha? Oh sorry I was dazed a sec... what'd you say?" Sebastian said shaking himself into reality. "I asked what are you still doing awake at this hour" "Oh I couldn't sleep... ya know." Sebastian replied clearly lying. "Ahh no pussy tonight I take it? What about that bitch that was all over you at the party? She was quite the honey if I remember..." Roger said now groping his crotch almost as if getting himself excited with the idea of pussy. Sebastian became even more nervous than he already was and had to cross his legs to conceal his re-growing erection. "Something like that..." his voice trailed off. "She just wasn't my type..." Sebastian mumbled, now dreading where this conversation was headed. "Not yer type... bro when you gunna learn pussy is pussy no matter who it comes from." Roger blurted out through a laugh. "Yeah... Yeah... I'll have to remember that... So what you doing up anyways?" Sebastian said rolling his eyes, and really, really dreading this conversation. "Oh yeah... gotta piss..." Roger said over his shoulder as he walked out of the room making way toward the bathroom at the end of the hall. Rolling his eyes again Sebastian shut off his monitor stripped down to his boxers, and pulled the waistband open enough to look down at his penis. "Another wasted erection that came and went..." he sighed to himself. Shrugging his shoulders he climbed into his top bunk bed above Roger's and stared at the ceiling. "God what I would give to be with Roger, to hold him, kiss him, rest my head on his muscled chest, to feel what it would be like to have him inside me, to feel him inside... All I want is to be with him... God if he only knew..." Sebastian thought to himself as a single tear crept out of his eye and slowly descended his cheek stopping just above the traigas of his ear. To be continued... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- There it is my first attempt. I hope you all enjoyed it. Please let me know any comments you have. I have always wanted to write a story like this, and would like to know what I need to improve on to make it better. Please email we with your comments or corrections to: zedikia@frognet.net -----------------------------------------------------------------------------