Date: Wed, 18 Mar 2009 11:37:19 +0530 From: Apar India Subject: Apar & Krish : Chapter 6 Disclaimer: ======== This is a semi-fictional story with semi-fictional characters. Names have been changed and a bit of imagination added. This is a story about me and what-if scenario with some of my crushes This story involves love and physical intimacy between two consenting adult men. If you do not want to read this or are prohibited by law, house rules etc, please leave. The is a story about relations and not about sex. So there will be very limited sexual acts and even when it occurs, there will be no graphic details. This story is set in Indian College and I would provide needed background where ever needed The reader is at the liberty to stop reading if he or she does not wishes to continue. Apar & Krish Chapter 6 ---------------------- After intense emotional trauma on both sides in an outburst I had confessed my romantic love for Krish and to my surprise Krish called me "intelligent idiot" for not having understood his love for me. The only problem was that when we were making out in a major way Jagan saw us in my bed and disappeared without a word. Even though I had kissed Krish on his forehead to assure him that Jagan wouldn't talk about us yet, I was wondering if I really knew Jagan or not. As I dressed up and started looking for Jagan in the grounds. I couldn't find him and it was getting late. I returned to my room to find anxious Krish waiting there. "You were all that brave to chase me from movie theater and kiss me but now nervous?" I asked Krish giving a wry smile. I took my shirt off and held him close to me as I sat down on my bed. He was still shirtless and had a worried look. "Well I'm not that brave or anything, I just couldn't stand being hated by you or at the worst ignored by you" he rested his head on my shoulders and sighed. "You don't see a huge crowd or jeering outside the room right, so Jagan hasn't told anyone. Come let us get some shut eyes" I pulled him with me to bed. "The door ?" he pointed. Then I remembered that Krish had blasted the latch with his kick when he came in to my room to confront me. "You should have just knocked" I told him as I propped a chair to keep the door in locked position. "As if you would have let me in. I was able to kiss you as you were still in shock" Krish elbowed me. We switched off the light and cuddled together in my bed and drifted off to wonderful sleep. As the Sunday dawned Krish was the first to get up and as he untangled his legs and arms from our tangle, he woke me. "Hey, good morning" he smiled at me, "should we start looking for Jagan ?" "I guess so, come let us get ready for breakfast and then look for him" we got ready and left for canteen. "So all the love triangle or quadrilateral or whatever it was got solved I guess" I heard Ravi call out to us as we entered the canteen. "Hi Ravi. Seen Jagan anywhere ?" I asked him as Krish and me sat next to him. "You didn't know ? He slept in my room. Came in pretty late, he is still asleep" Krish was nervous and asked Ravi " So did he say anything ?" "Nope nothing. He just told that he wanted to sleep. When I asked him if he found you guys, he nodded. So I thought you were arguing and Apar kicked him in the nuts as usual for trying to help him" Ravi gave me a smile. Krish and myself looked at each other, we were now sure that Jagan didn't talk. "Yeah I need to tell sorry to him. You guys have breakfast and I'll check on Jagan" I left Krish with Ravi and hurried to see Jagan. I opened Ravi's room and saw Jagan sprawled on the floor with a spare pillow and sheet. He woke up as the sunlight from the open door hit his closed eyes. "Ravi ?" he asked getting off the floor. "Jagan, it is me" I told as I closed the door. "Oh. Where is Ravi ?" Jagan asked putting the pillow in Ravi's cot and folding the sheet. "Ravi and Krish are at breakfast. Thanks for not telling anyone." I sat on Krish's cot. "What would I tell and what could I tell ? I myself don't understand what I saw. Tell me what I saw last night ?" Jagan looked at me. I couldn't lie to Jagan after y'day "You saw Krish and me making out on my bed" "What do you mean making out ? He is not a girl and it was weird. Don't tell me that all that love story you told me y'day at the temple was about Krish" Jagan had a mortified look in his face. "It is tough to say Jagan, but I like boys compared to girls. I like them in a romantic and sexual way" I sat down and replied Jagan without looking at him any more. "You think that you are a girl then ?" he asked I smiled and replied "No, I know I'm a guy and I like guys." "How is that possible ? Aren't we wired from birth to like opposite sex ? I know you are bit different but not so different" Jagan was perplexed. "Jagan it is tough to explain. I had done my own reading up. This could be due to many reasons. This could be genetic or the influence of different set of hormones on the developing kid inside the uterus. Believe me it is from birth mostly" "Yeah you are the Biology Wiz kid. So there is a cure for this ? Is this some psychological or genetic abnormality ?" Jagan was hopeful. "There is no cure for this Jagan, as psychologists think that there is nothing to cure about this. Our brain develops this kind of wiring at birth and it is part of who we are and does not interfere without normal function" I was rattling of things from what I have read . "Are you sure? This is tough to believe" Jagan sighed and sat down on Ravi's cot. "Jagan believe me, I have read enough trying to understand myself. It took me nearly 5 years to understand and accept for me. You had hardly 5 minutes. But let us keep this among ourselves and please don't freak out" I patted on Jagan's back. I wondered for the past five years about myself, as I found guys aroused me. I did my own research with minimal information I could procure from my school library books dealing with psychology and genetics. "Do you have feelings for me then ?" Jagan looked up at me. "No silly, you see lot of girls do you fall in love with everyone ? Same here. You are still a very good friend of mine, the question now is Am I your friend still ?" "Apar, I need time to digest it" he left to clean up. When he came back we left for breakfast. We met Ravi and Krish on the way back. I noticed Jagan was avoiding looking at Krish and vice-versa. "So you guys are fine now ? " Ravi inquired. "Yeah I explained things to him and apologized" "Phew so this chapter is now closed and I can live in peace then. Catch you later" Ravi and Krish left for their room. "Does he know ?" Jagan asked looking at Ravi. "No" I replied We ate breakfast and when we were back at my room he noticed the broken latch. He lifted his eyebrow and I told him how Krish burst in. Jagan just sighed and plunked himself on his cot. I understood Jagan is having a tough time getting this whole thing sink in and I left him alone for some time and went to Ravi's room to get hold of Krish. When I reached Ravi's room Krish was reading some class notes and Ravi was busy cataloging his porn books. "I would be done with these books once we move to second year. From then on we would have WiFi internet access and good bye to my book stash" "I agree and we would be allowed to carry cellphone without the fear of being harassed by Seniors." Krish replied looking up from his notes. "Hey Apar come on in, want any of these ?" Ravi pointed to some new arrivals of Playboy, Hustler and some French stuff. "No thank you, I'm good" I said smiling at Krish and sat behind him on his cot. "Man I'm tired after the quick walk marathon of last night. I'm off for a nice post breakfast nap, just I miss our profs' serenades though" Ravi was getting ready for a nap. Once Ravi had covered himself from top to toe (that is how he normally sleeps) Krish turned his head to looked at me and whispered "Did you speak to Jagan ? What did he say ?" I sighed and rested my chin on Krish's shoulders "He hasn't told anyone and promised he wouldn't but needs time to understand us" I rubbed my cheek against Krish's. "We need to be more careful" Krish butted my head with his. "Yeah don't worry. I can do with a nap too." I eyed Krish. "And I need to study. If you want you can sleep in my bed I'll use the chair then" Krish made a movement to get up. "Ok then I'll catch you later" I left Krish's room with a bit of disappointment. I returned to my room and Jagan was not around. I fell on my cot exhausted and dozed off to sleep. There was a knock at the door and by the time I got up Jagan had already opened the door. It was Krish. Jagan looked at me and settled down on his cot. As I got up to freshen up Krish settled on my cot. When I came back I found both Krish and Jagan maintaining an awkward silence. I closed the door, propped a chair at it and said "Guys we need to talk". "Jagan sorry if we shocked you y'day. We were shocked ourselves too and thanks a lot for not telling anyone " Krish chipped in. Jagan looked at me and shrugged "What do you want to talk ?" "Both of us are in the same classes and I don't want this awkwardness persisting. We have been good friends so far and I want to continue that" Krish replied "Same here Jagan" I said as I pulled up another chair to so that I stay in a neutral zone between Krish and Jagan. "Guys, I had never heard or known about this kind of relationship till now. May be you guys are confused. Just get a good girl and things would be fine" Jagan shared his thoughts "Jagan, I told you before. Atleast from my point of view I like guys in general. But with you, I have always seen you as a good friend and nothing more" I reiterated my point. "According to Hindu Philosophy all souls are genderless. Body and the associated mind are always throw away things for the soul. So even in your case, Sumitra and yourself have souls which are sexless and yet you love each other. We are just the same Jagan" Krish argued. I was a bit taken by Krish's sudden jump to philosophy. "Even if this is so why aren't there guys smooching guys or girls smooching girls all over ? Why is opposite attraction a norm ?" Jagan had his point. "We are just exceptions, just different creations" Krish replied. "By the way Jagan American statistics says that there might be 1 in 10 who would prefer to romance person of same sex" I shared my numerics with Jagan. "Well there are Lies, damned lies and statistics Apar" Jagan replied smiling. "Ok Jagan, why do you think this is too weird for you ?" asked Krish. "Well, just that I'm not used to see romance of this kind" Jagan shrugged. "But are we still you friends ? We don't want any awkwardness among us Jagan" I looked at Jagan "Well you are still my friends. But I might need time to get used to this concept guys" Jagan gave a genuine smile "And please promise me that you won't make out in front of me ? " Jagan took a new latch and few screws handed it to Krish with a smile "You broke it, so you fix it". Krish took it and went ahead fixing the new latch on my room's door. --------------------------------- After this incident Jagan did his best to be normal but his uneasiness showed when Krish and myself are around even amidst our other friends. Krish and myself were using every available opportunity to hold hands or hug each other. But avoided doing anything beyond that since we had either Jagan or Ravi around us. Thankfully with in a week, came my Birthday and as a tradition of my hostel I was hauled out of my room at exactly 1 minute after midnight by my friends, held high up in the air and was given the traditional "bumpers". *Bumpers is where you are lifted by your arms and legs while your so called "friends" give a friendly kick on your butt which equals your age. Krish got me a Photography book on Techniques and Tricks, Jagan & Ravi had got me a Dutch Truffles (It is filled with chocolate and cream) as my birthday cake. I thanked them, shared the cake and after few minutes of chatting with them went to sleep with a sore butt. I was woken up early by Krish. "Hey birthday baby get ready quick, we need to get to the temple" "You already had a bath ?" I was shocked to see Krish who are ready to take me to temple on Nizar's bike. "Given me 15 minutes I'll be ready" I rushed to bathroom to bath and get ready. "You are going to come like this ?" Krish asked shocked as I came out of bathroom with a silk dhoti and Kurtha *Dhoti is the traditional garment of men's wear in India. It is a rectangular piece of unstitched cloth, usually around 7 yards long, wrapped around the waist and the legs, and knotted at the waist * Kurtha is a traditional loose shirt falling either just above or somewhere below the knees of the wearer, and is worn by both men and women "How do you plan to ride a bike in this especially with the cold of early morning " Krish was smiling at me "By the way you look like a groom in marriage" By this time Jagan was half awake and commented "Get him a garland and he would perfectly fit in" "Oh come on, I'll manage it" I told them. Krish and myself left for temple on the hills (the one I visited with Jagan some time back) on Nizar's bike. We reached the temple to the serene early morning ritualistic bathing of the deity. We bought pooja materials and Krish actually bought a small garland for the deity which he knew would be returned to me post pooja by the priest. At the end of the pooja the priest brought out a garland, which interestingly was bigger and longer than what I presented to the deity for blessing. [*Pooja or Puja is religious ritualthat Hindus perform on a variety of occasions to pray or show respect to God, Gods, and guru. The purpose of puja is to communicate with God and the Gods] When I took the garland and kept it in my hand as we walked out Krish kept looking at me with corner of his eyes and was smiling. As we sat on the rock overlooking the cliff Krish said "I think you should wear the garland" "I'll end up looking like a groom and it would embarrassing" I refused. "How about for me ? Pleaseeeeeeee" Krish pleaded making a cute face. "Then two conditions. One I'll wear it only for few minutes and then take it off and second you would garland me" I smiled at him. Traditionally there is exchange of garland ceremony as part of Hindu weddings and Krish garlanding me is a symbolic gesture for me. With the garland safely tucked in the bike we were on our way back to college. I hugged Krish around his waist with my head rested on his back all through the ride. [Men being touchy feelly is normally not considered gay or weird in India, thank God for that. But that is changing in metros with Western influence ?] Sadly it was a not a weekend and I had to change over to Jean and shirt for my classes. Guys had planned an outing later in the evening for me to treat them on occasion on my birthday. I could hardly wait for the last subject for the day to get over and returned with Ravi to his room. I found Krish already busy writing something. "Are you not getting ready for Apar's treat ?" Ravi asked as he dumped his books on his table. "Yeah I'm that is why I bunked my afternoon session to finish this assignment" was Krish's reply "Would you finish on time ? Where is Jagan ?" I inquired Krish "Yes give me 15 minutes and Jagan will adapt from my assignment once we are back" An hour later we all met up and the four of us went to a local restaurant for a traditional vegetarian south Indian food served on a plantain leaf. This was the best meal of the day and with our stomachs filled we reached our hostel. We reached Ravi's room which is on ground floor and when I about to bid good bye to leave to my room with Jagan. "I'm staying here for some time. I need to adapt Krish's assignment and some more guys would be joining me. Krish can stay with you in our room " Jagan was smiling and so was Krish. When I left Ravi's room with Krish I asked Krish "So was this planned between Jagan and you ?" "Well let us say that Jagan owed me favors" Krish mentioned as he bolted my room's door. Krish moved slowly and hugged me tight. He started with a gentle kisses to my neck and moved on to the sensitive part of behind the earlobes. "Could you please to change to your silk kurtha and dhoti" Krish smiled as he held my face and gave a soft peck on my lips. I changed to them as instructed and Krish backed me against the wall started to slowly rub his cheeks against mine as he interlocked his fingers with mine. "You look so handsome Apar, I wanted to kiss you in the morning as soon as I saw you in this. But Jagan was around and I had to plan it" Krish started kissing my cheeks, forehead, eyes, nose tips and just brushed past my lips teasing me. When I tried to hold him tight he pinned my hands against the wall and said "Patience buddy, Patience. You need to savor it, not like last time in a hurry" He softly kissed my lips one at a time. He opened my lips with his and slowly let his tongue get it. It was an interesting feeling and I tried to do the same with him. He unbuttoned my kurtha near the neck with his teeth and kissed me slowly down my neck and the upper chest. "Your skin is smooth as the silk kurtha Apar" Krish murmured between his kisses. Krish slowly took my kurtha off me and placed it on the table and he removed his T Shirt. He started to kiss me on the chest and shoulders. Suddenly he lifted me off my feet and carried me to my cot. He laid on top me me and slowly started to kiss his way down to my navel. As he kissed my belly button I pulled him up and kissed him passionately and held him tight. We felt the heat between us and could sense the hard protrusion below our waist. Krish started to dry hump as I held him close. I had the most intense orgasm ever in my life with Krish on top of me with my lips locked on to his. Krish rolled off me and we held each other as we gently kissed each other. "Happy Birthday Apar" and drifted off to sleep. Then there was a knock on the door. I jumped off the bed, quickly fixed my dhoti to cover my wet shorts put on a T Shirt and opened the door. Jagan was out there facing away from the room. "So can I turn around now ?" He asked. "Yeah sure Jagan. Thanks by the way" Krish was behind me with this T Shirt on "Catch you later Apar" he gave a one arm hug and left for his room. Jagan came inside and took stock of things. "I won't ask what happened" he said as he saw me in dhoti. "Well thanks for understanding Jagan. Good night" I wished him and went back to bed.