Date: Thu, 01 Apr 2004 02:48:56 -0500 From: Djaggie2004@aol.com Subject: College/Confusing Life/No Longer Alone 5 Disclamier: This story is about a gay realtionshp between consenting males, so if its illegal for you to read it or it offends you don't. This story is copy righted to me only. (someone tried to post it on another website). I want to thank the ONE person that emailed me on the past chapters..... "If you love something let it go.....if its ment to be it comes back" that is something a frined told me that helped me get over some stuff and be able to move on with my life. Never dwell on the past, you might miss something that is staring you in the face. No Longer Alone 5 "Hey we will be back in a little bit, we are goin to my house to look at the couch and stuff" Paite said to me as they where getting ready to leave. "Oh ok, who is all going?" I ask just wondering "Me, Cam, and CJ" "oh, see you when yall get back then" I said. So this is the third time this has happend since we got back from the camping trip. Paite, Cam and CJ would all go over to his house to look at stuff and I would be stuck at home. A little while later they came back and CJ and Cam left to go do something. "Babe, do you want to go do something tonight" Paite ask "I don't care" I said flatly and not looking at him. "Is everything ok?" "Everything is FUCKING perfect?" I said and went to my bedroom and laid on my bed. A few minutes later I heard the door open and Paite walk in. I didn't even look at him I just stared at the celing. " Ok whats wrong and don't you dare tell me nothing" Paite said " I think you know what is wrong" I said coldly " You know why I didn't ask you to go with us to my house" he said " Yea your scared that if your sister meets me that she will think you are gay, but yet you take CJ who is more gay acting then I am" I said harsly " Why does this bother you so much, do you want to meet my sister that bad" "No, it bothers me because, it makes me feel that you are asshamed of our realtionship and don't want anyone to know that we are even frineds. The only way I know any of them is that we run into them when we are out togeather and you can't hide it from them, how would that make you feel if i did it to you?" I half yelled at him "You are making a big deal out of nothing you know that" He said "GET THE FUCK OUT" I screamed at him, he just stood there "No, I am not leaving, we promised that we would never leave if we where fighting" He said. I got up off the bed and went and walked into the bathroom and closed and locked the door. A little while later i heard the door open and close and I went out to the living room and Paite was on the front porch. I stopped in the living room and sit down on the couch. A little while later he came in. "You are right" he said "About what" " That I have been hiding our realtionship, baby I want you to know that I am not ashamed of you, I just don't think it is anyones buissness" he said "I know Paite, I just really hurst sometimes, I feel like you are ashamed to be seen with me or for people to know that we even know each other" I said with tears in my eyes "You are my world right now, you mean more to me then anything and just sometimes I don't feel the same from you" "Why would you think that, you know that you mean more to me then anything right now. Somedays you are the only thing that gets me going and I find myself rushing home from work so I can see you, baby I am not ashamed of you, I never have and I never will be" He said with tears running down his face I ended up going and sitting in his lap and he held me. After a little while I layed down with my head in his lap. "I am gald you didn't leave" I said " I know that you didn't mean it" He said and leaned down and kissed me. We ended up going to bed shortly after that. That night laid in bed and thought that this is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. The next morning Paite had to get up and go somewhere early and he let me sleep in. When I got up Cam was in the living room watchin TV. "Yall where out late last night" I said "Is everything ok with you and Paite" Cam ask "Yea everything is fine, why would you think something is wrong" I said trying to brush things off " Me and CJ came back to the house last night, we heard the fight" He started " Everything is ok, we just had an agruement" I said "Ok" Cam said CJ and Paite got back later that day and we ended up just louging around the house the rest of the day. That night we ended up all going on dates. Me and Paite ended up going to the movies and to dinner and acutally went back to his place afterward, his sister and roommate wern't home,. Then next day me and CJ had lunch becuase, Paite had some stuff to do and Cam had to study. "Do yall have any plans for next weekend?" CJ ask me. "Nope, we had talked about getting away but hadn't set anything definate yet, why" I said " Well Paite had mentioned something about wanting to go to Astroworld and I think getting away would be a good idea for the two of yall, Cam is coming down next Thursday and I thought maybe you and Paite could come down on Friday and we could do the couples thing Friday night and then Saturday go to Astroworld." He said " That does sound fun" I said Well everything ended up working out and we ended up going down for the weekend. We had a great time at astroworld and in Galvaston the night before. Me and Paite ended up coming back Saturday night so we could have some time alone togeater before Cam came back, he was going to come back to but I convinced to him stay another night. That weekend I saw a side of Paite I hadn't seen in the time we had been togeather, he didn't care what people thought he held my hand as we walked along the sea wall and on the beach and kissed me on one of the piers over looking the water. When we got home Saturday night we where laying in bed talking. " I had a great time this weekend" I said to him " I did to, we needed to get away for a little while" he said We ended up laying there holding each other for awhile not talking. I ended up starting to dose off so I curled up to Paite. "I love you baby" I said to him right befor I fell to sleep. After a few mins and I think the thought I was asleep he leanded down and kissed me on the cheek. " I love you to baby, you have no clue how much" he wispered. I think the thoght I was asleep and wouldn't hear him say it. But I was still awake and heard him. I sunggled up closer to him and fell asleep knowing that for once I loved someone and they loved me back. The rest of the week was spent helping Paite and CJ get ready to move, Cam had went to Houston to help CJ get stuff loaded and moved up here and of course I help Paite. We spent most of the day Saturday moving stuff, well me and Paite did anyway. Paite was pissed that Cam and CJ hadn't offerd to help us any. That night we where supposed to met up at our house to go out and do something but me and Paite called and cancelled saying we where tired and where going to bed early. We ended up just hangning out with each other and cuddling on the couch and going to bed early. The next morning we got up early and went and ate breakfast and went back to my house. There was a message that Len had called the night before so I called him back. "hello" "Hey is Len there" "Yeah, hang on" "Hello" Len said "Hey its DJ, i got your message that you called" " Kewl, I was just calling to let you know that pride picnic is next saturday at 2" "Ok, kewl i will see if we can make it" "Ok, well i need to go me and Bran are goin to Houston today" "bye" "bye" Me and Paite talked about going to the picnic and finally decded that saturday morning to go. We went and met up with some friends that we both new and Len and his bf. We decdided that some of us where all gong to Pride weekend in Houston togeather the following weekend. Little did i konw that, this was a decission that I would soon regrett makeing. Well that is chapter hope you enjoy it Email: dja778@aol.com AIM: dja778 Yahoo: djaggie04 Preview: Tust betrayed and the hardest time D, Cam, CJ, and Paite have faced yet