Date: Tue, 08 Mar 2005 00:45:24 -0500 From: Djaggie2004@aol.com Subject: Confusing Life/Second Chance Chapter 3 Disclaimer: This story deals with a realtionship between to consenting adult males. If you are not of age 18 or 21 depending on where you leave or if this offends you. then leave now...Othe wise enjoy Thanks eveyone for the support and emails since the last chapter. I am sorry it took so long to get this new chapter out and hope that i didn't lose yalls intrest. Second Chance Chapter 3 "Hi" He said "Hi, come in" I said after I swalloed the lump in my throat."Do you want something to drink" "No I am fine" He went and sat down on the couch and i went and and sit in the chair next to the couch. It got quite for a couple minutes before anyone of us said any thing. Then we both started talking at the same time but I let him go first. "Dustin, I am sorry for what I did to you, to us" "I am to, Will you answer me one question?" I ask "Yes, only if you anwser one for me" He said "Ok, why did you leave?" "I was scared, I was terrifed of what would happen, I fell in love with you and it scared me. You knew me better then I knew myself sometimes and that scared me."He said looking right in my eyes."Ok, my turn, why did you let me leave that night?" "I was angry, hurt. I really didn't know what to feel and I wanted to be alone. Plus part of me thought you would come back, and it didn't sink in til I heard you where with Len that you wern't comeing back" It got really quite for a couple minutes and I went to get something to drink. "You want something?" I ask him "Water will be ok" He said I finished getting the drinks and took him his and he took the glass out of my hand and I didn't let go for a minute. Just getting to feel him again caused so much of what we had come back to me that I started crying when I pulled my hand away and I went and sit down. "D whats wrong?" He ask and I could tell he was really concerned. "Nothing" I said regaining my composer. "That night when I left, after I left your house, I drove out to the river to the spot we always went to when we wanted to be alone, and I cired like a baby for ever. I kept thinking of how much I hurt you and how much I loved you and cared for you . I sat there until the sun came up thinking about things and how much I had scrwed them up with one phrase. D, I will admit that I wasn't perfect and that I made alot of mistakes, and hurt you more then I could ever imagine. But I will also admit that I am still in love with you." "I still love you to" I said verly above a whisper."I never wanted to admit it to myself or to anyone. As much as i tried to hate you I never could. You said that I knew you better then you did at times, it was the same way with you. Even when i found out you started dated Len, I couldn't hate you, the only person I could hate was him, for betraying our friendship and trust" "I started dating him because I thought it would make me stop having feelings for you but it didnt' work, He got dragged into this by me and had nothign to do with us breaking up or anything." Paite said looking at me to see my reaction. "Would you mind if we went outside for a minute i need a cigrett really bad right now?" I ask him. "SUre" We went outside and kept talking and talked for a couple hours. We ended up on the couch togeather and I laid down with my head in his lap and he looked down and at me "Do you have any plans for tomororw night?" He asked me. "No, not really, why?" " Well I was wondering if you wanted to maybe go have dinner and catch a movie or something, I know that I am asking alot right now but I want to try again and start over with a clean slate and make it work this time. I am tired of wondering what might have been, We can take things as slow as you want them to go, but I am tired of you not being there." "I want to try again to, but on one condition, I want you to promise me that this time there are no more secrets and if there is a problem we talk about it." "I promise" "ok, then yes Paite I will go out with you tomorrow night" I said as I leaned up to kiss him. We talked a little while longer until we both fell alseep on the couch with him holding me. The next morning I woke up and went outside to smoke and Kate, my roommate's girlfriend was outside. I sat down next to her and she kept looking and me and grining. "What" I ask her. "Yall are adorablly cute togeather, I am taking it the talk last night went well" She said handing me the lighter. " Yea, we are going to start over and try again. We both admitted that we do love each other still and that we made alot of mistakes, but we are going to take things slow and be honest with each other this time." "Good so does this mean that you will stop moping around the house all the time?" "hahahah, not funny" "There is something on your desk for you" "ok?" "I took a picture of yall when me and Shane came in last night, it was to cute not to" "Kewl, Well i better go in there and wake him up so he can go home, I have to study for a little bit today before we go out tonight" I said tossing my butt in the ashtray, and going inside. When I got in Paite was awake putting his shoes on. "Good morning" "Hey" he said "So what time should I be ready tonight?" "I will be here to pick up up at 6:30" "Ok, well I really need to do some homework and stuff today" "Yea I need to go home and do landry and stuff, I will see you tonight" He said as he leaned in to give me a kiss. "Bye, I will see you tonight" ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Ok so i didn't get to the first date part, so sue me I wanted to atleast get this part out before my life got totaly nuts. There might be a delay in posting for the next chapter because of me hopefully getting my new job. But I will post updates on my web page www.geocites.com/djaggie04 on a somewhat reagular basis. DJ AIM:dja778 yahoo:djaggie04 email:dja778@aol.com