Date: Fri, 26 Aug 2005 21:29:51 +0200 (CEST)
From: Marcos Rojas <tulindobebito@yahoo.es>
Subject: Discovering Love 8

Hi guys! Just the usual things, you know! And let me know what you think!
Thanks soooo much for the feedback!!!! :-)

Marcos


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Discovering Love
If you want something badly enough...

By Marcos Rojas

"The greatest love of all is happening to me,
I found the greatest love of all inside of me,
"The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all."
Whitney Houston


>From chapter 7:

Those blue eyes he tried to escape, two blue eyes he thought he would not
see any more, the hoped absolution on the funeral, all the wounds of the
past, all the sleepless nights, all the monsters of his past came
back. Jean felt so small. Just a helpless child, far away from home, and
left al alone. He knew there was no turning back. And he also knew there
was no human power that could fight his son. He had all the pros on his
side, and all the cons have been on his side. It was his punishment, the
one he was running from ever since.

Chapter 8:

Not being able to think at all, Jed found himself heading towards his
room. At least that was what it looked like. Arriving to the door he
realized it wasn't his. After the first shock he looked around and found
himself in the other wing of the house. This was the twin of his room; it
was Raul's. His heart started beating faster. He knew he had to see his
lover. And he was there. Funny how our mind can play its little
tricks. "Freud was a clever guy! I really love him! I love him so much he
even is in my subconscious." Jed thought and put his hand on the door
handle. A moment of peace, of perfect silence where the sound of his
heartbeat could be compared to the one of drums. The door slowly opened and
the darkness of an unknown room welcomed Jed. He didn't bother to turn on
the light, although he knew perfectly where to reach, it was just like his
room. No need for lights, this was one of those moments in life where you
stop using your regular five senses, you stop being a just a normal human
being. Your spirit takes his flight and your body isn't big enough. Then
you can start feeling things without having the necessary senses. Jed knew
the room was empty. He didn't have to check it, he felt it. He knew it. He
arrived too late. Through the filter of tears the room started lighting up,
as he became the regular guy again. Just a boy, whose heart was full of
fear again. The tears started running down his cheeks and the little Jed
fell on his knees. Down on his knees in that place he never knew but where
his one love used to be. One space that remained the only physical bound
between them. Images of Raul sitting near him on their favorite place came
back to him. That very first day where he fell for this little guy, the shy
look on his lover's face, the first night together, the warmth of his body,
the taste of his lips... All the memories came back crushing, breaking all
his defenses. Jed lost control in this roller coaster of emotions. Anita,
his father, all the memories of his mother and now Raul. It was too much
for him.

"I have to stand up! We are meant to be together and I will find you! I
have nothing left that's worth living for! I need you! You are the only
one, my strength, my happiness, my sunshine..." He stood up and sensed the
emptiness of the room again. The few rays of light revealed a fully new
universe. A world that was so close but yet so far for Jed. Turning on the
lights Jed was surprised by this room. It was everything his room
wasn't. It was simple, almost empty. Just a bed, a desk and a closet. The
emptiness welcomed Jed once again. Opening the closet there was only his
gift, the outfit for the wedding. Jed took it out and embraced the piece of
tissue as if it were a human being. Closing his eyes he inhaled Raul. Only
the thought of Raul's skin touching the shirt made him shiver. It was all
Raul, his unforgettable body perfume. Looking again Jed realized the tie
was missing. There were some other clothes too, new clothes, that he didn't
know.

Jed's eyes started misting up. "Angelito... I only I knew... What kind of
life did you have before and at what kind of life have you been forced
here? I was so blind and so selfish!" On the desk there was only one laptop
and some red sheets. These made Jed shiver again. How could he have
forgotten THE letter, that beautiful morning... And now all of that was
gone. The thought hit him like a lightning "He never loved me! Why did he
leave my gift here? He should have taken it with himself to think of me! To
have a memory!" There he was again, the selfish, proud Jed. "You only
played with me!" with that he hit the desk. The sound filled the empty room
for a second and the laptop restarted from the shock. Jed kept on staring
at the screen. There was a welcoming note> I love you forever JED!!! Just a
few seconds and the message disappeared and a serious Jed was staring at
him from the desktop background. It was a zoomed picture; he was on his way
back to the main house from the parking lot, sunglasses on and well dressed
like always. "Idiot! How could I doubt him? His love? A jerk Jed, that is
what you are and will remain one till the end of your days! I don't deserve
him!" Leaning back on the chair he got lost in thoughts again. Feeling his
tears filling his eyes he turned to the left. "Too proud to cry Jed? For
the one who really loves you?" Something red caught his eyes. There was a
piece of paper behind the door, obviously thrown away.

"Jed, Mother takes me to" this was the entire message. Again Jed felt like
loosing it.

"Damn bitch! Where did you bring him?" He threw away the note and wanted to
exit. The tough Jed again. But he froze... Going back he took the piece of
paper, the remaining clothes and the laptop with himself. "We can't let
these treasures here now, can we?"

With that he was gone. Locking both his and Raul's room with the key he was
on his way down. Like a hurricane he went by Rosita and in no time he was
in his car. Driving by night was Jed's favorite. Turning the key in the
ignition the engine started immediately.

"That's my boy! Now let's kick some asses!" With that he drove off. There
was a longer avenue which lead towards the gates of the community and the
entire security staff knew the mad white boy by now. So he didn't even have
to show his ID, the gates opened immediately, he didn't even have to slow
down. The ride was quite short. Stopping at the hospital's front entrance
he could already hear someone saying he mustn't stop there.

"Oye, quien eres tu para decirme que puedo hacer?" (Who are you to tell me
what I may do?) The poor guy just raised both hand as in defense. Relatives
can have a weird behavior when coming to the hospital, so it was nothing
unusual for him.

Just one question and he was on his way to his stepmother. "Now bitch,
let's break some more bones!"

The doors opened and a very serious Jed stepped out of the
elevator. 1512B... Here it is! In a hospital bed there was Anita, all by
herself, with closed eyes.

"I told you I don't need anything! Just the damn painkillers!!! But that
you can't give me, can you?" not even bothering to open her eyes.

"Why, if this isn't my favorite mommy! Bitchy as always! Good to know
others are also on the hated-persons list!" Anita opened her eyes in
horror. She was searching for the button that was her only rescue now.

"Don't bother bitch! I won't harm you! Just tell me where Raul is." Anita
still had a horrified look.

The door opened and a pretty little nurse entered the room.

"Nurse, get this idiot out of here! HE broke my nose!!!" the girl just
wanted to open her mouth.

All that it took Jed to find the right behavior was a
look. Single-walking-hormone-bottle. "This shouldn't be hard!" he
thought. With that he put on a worried face and made a sign for the nurse
to follow him.

Once outside he reached under his shirt and started scratching his belly,
afterwards playing with his body hair.

"Miss, look, my Mum is in a terrible shock, you know... She has been
attacked and I was the first person she saw. So my image got into her
brain, and to be honest, I am kind of worried. Did you give her too many
painkillers? Cause she isn't quite herself..." the girl would have eaten
Jed with a fork if it were for her.

"How should I explain this? As I entered the room she started cursing,
telling something about the bitch nurse which didn't give her any
painkillers. Now, I'm sure she wouldn't say something terrible about a nice
young girl like you!" Wink. Ice. Melted ice. Wet outside and
inside. Mission complete! Success 100%.

"Now would you give me a few seconds? Oh, and if she pushes the button
again, don't bother to COME. I'll let you know when I leave." Wink. And
gone he was back into the room.

"Where is the nurse? What did you do to her? Did you kill her too?" Anita
obviously thought she was out of danger.

"No, I just made sure we could talk! So, tell me where Raul is! NOW! Oh,
please, give me break! You know, there is no use for you to push that
button! I told the girl you were so drugged you couldn't think clearly. She
won't bother. Soooo, you have two options: a. tell me where he is, or
b. first I torture you, maybe brake some more bones, and then you tell me!"

Looking very frustrated and disappointed, Anita eventually gave up on
buttoning.

"See? Told ya so Mummy!" and he started playing with his fist in a
suggestive way.

"I am so gonna make you pay for this!"

"Skip this part, will you? The place if you care about your looks!" he now
took the scissors from near the flowers and started playing with it. "Come
on now Mum, you know I will do it! I would love to leave you a little
present. A memory of my never dying love for you."

"He's at the airport. He has a ticket and will fly to Mexico City to my
sister. Back there where he was, in that dirty village!"

"Departure time?"

"In 36 minutes. You'll never make it!"

"Good girl! You know I love you too much to kill you! That way you couldn't
enjoy the pain in you nose, and the sound of a dislocated bone." With a
quick move he slightly punched Anita's nose, of course that was enough just
to dislocate her nose again.

"Nurse! She became aggressive! Give her some sedatives! She broke her nose!
I think she is having some kind of SM complexes!"

"You are going to pay..."

But there was no use to listen to her any more. Jed had only one goal
now. 34 minutes to catch his lover. The ride was his best performance, 2
red lights, and a real rally in the city. Crushing into the airport he
looked at the departure table. "Mexico city, come on! Where is it! Gate 21!
Boarding! And 2 more minutes left!"

If the ride was his absolute record this was more than that.

"Come on! Not now! It can't be!"

"Sir, please stop! We finished boarding! You are too late!" The lady tried
to reason but Jed ran into the gate.

"Stop! Call the security! Tell the pilot to stop! Suspect is running
towards the plane!"

And there was again the tunnel. The only way, and the unknown distance,
where the only sound is the one of your heartbeat and of your feet banging
on the floor. A corridor leading into the unknown, and a way you have to
make on your own, all by yourself and too fast. You don't know how the road
looks, how long it is or how much time you have. You just have one goal and
your will. "If you want something badly enough to happen it will happen!"
To the left and there was the plane, and the door still open.

"Stop or I'll shoot!" Jed found himself in front of two security agents on
their knees and two guns pointed towards him.

"Whoa! Easy! It's a family matter! I need to get my brother! Our mother is
in the hospital!" Jed tried to reason. The guys looked at each other and
one stood up. There were some curious faces, probably people from the first
row who couldn't help staring.

"Slowly boy, put your hand in the air!" The agent checked Jed and
nodded. "You are going to pay for the delay, you know that. Don't you?"

"Believe me, money is no problem for me!" answered a smiling Jed.

The whole plane went quiet as Jed entered. All eyes on him. But soon all
eyes disappeared and there was only one scared little frame that was
visible for him. His Raul. The moment was magical. Each inch made him feel
his boy closer to him and a stupid grin appeared on his face.

"Come on Angelito! We are going home!"

"He isn't going anywhere! I have orders to take him with me!" An older man
next to Raul answered.

"Anita is in the hospital! She wants to see her son!" Amazing how easy it
was to lie. Seemed as if all he did his entire life was lying.

"I can't believe you!" The man answered.

"Well, you have no option! Anita can't speak to you! As I said before, she
is in the hospital. I'm taking Raul with me!" With that he grabbed his
lover by the hand and headed out.

"Ladies, pleasant flight!" Just a nod towards the shocked stewardesses.

After taking the corner Jed pushed Raul against the wall. Two misty brown
eyes were looking at him.

"I love you! You are my life! Don't you ever do this to me! Don't you ever
let someone tear us apart! Promise me that!" Jed sounded desperate. He was
like a lost little kid.

"I promise you!" Raul whispered and pressed his lips on Jed's. They melted
into each other in a passionate kiss.

To be continued???

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How about some feedback? Now I have this absolutely wicked idea! Since
there are sooo many lonely persons out there, searching for someone, maybe
someone who should be like this or that guy from this story, why not
telling me about it? Maybe some dreams can get real, and Mr. Dream can step
out of dreamland. Who knows? Even if you consider me stupid or childish,
give it a try. Send me some lines and I'll try to find you a friend, or
maybe more... Even it will Moscow vs. Lima! :-)

Please send me also some feedback! I really love that part you know? OK,
thanks for reading, and till next time, I hope!

Marcos
tulindobebito@yahoo.es