Date: Thu, 10 Apr 2003 11:46:03 -0700 From: Steve Thomas Subject: Leonards-Lust Ch. 5 This is a fictional story. It is based on many experiences and fantasies of the authors. If you are really into graphic sex, it may not satisfy your purpose for coming here. If you like to hear of real love and real teen angst, with a little sex thrown in, you are in the right place. There may be some amount of graphic sex between males. If this is objectionable to you, or you are legally too young to be here, you are cordially invited to press your back button. CHAPTER 5 Rennie Around 7 that night my folks and I sat down in my fathers office. I thought my stomach was about to jump out of my throat and run and hide. God knows that was what I wanted to do. My parents, though, looked somewhat smug. " Well what is this all about?" My father asked. "Are ya sick? Is everything alright in school?" I know this tactic. My father always does this, especially when he already knows what's going on. " No Dad, everything's alright. I just wanted to talk to you guys about some things. We never sit down and talk, just the 3 of us, anymore." Ok, I know I was stalling, but you can't tell me you wouldn't have. Well not truthfully anyway. " Your right dear." My mother replied. "We don't talk enough. Why, you could be married and we wouldn't even know." She gave a side wards smirk at my dad, who suppressed a giggle. "Alright, I guess the direct approach is the best approach -- I'm Gay!" "And?" my dad said. "AND? What do you mean, and?" " Well, Honey, what your father is trying to say is we already knew that, we thought there was something else you needed to tell us. You haven't done anything with Bobby have you?" My mom probed. " Ewww no, Bobby is hot and all but he's like a brother." I can't believe I'm saying Bobby is hot to my parents. Wait a minute, how did they- "How do you know about Bobby?" I asked quite shocked. " You young people" My father started. " You think that everyone over 40-" "Hey! Speak for yourself!" My mom interrupted. "Honey, I think the boy can add it up and tell your age" my father chuckled. " Well that doesn't mean you have to go broadcasting it" my mother stated, quite miffed. " Like I was saying" dad continued. " You think that all us over {pause} 25 {a sidewards glance at my mother} are blind. We've known about you, because you talk in your sleep, But even without that confirmation it's quite obvious to a `parental unit' when their child is of that persuasion. Some of us just ignore the facts and some ignorantly hide from it. We were just waiting for you to tell us. As for Bobby, come on! I mean have you watched your brother in law at a mall? His head turns at every thing with 2 legs and a cock." OMG! Did my dad just say cock? "Well I'm ummm glad you're okay with it, I guess." I kinda stammered. " I didn't realize we had a choice. We love YOU Lawrence" my mom said. " Whether you're attracted to women, men or water buffalos it doesn't change that. We do however worry about your cousin's influence. I mean Morty is way out there. He's into some pretty heavy stuff and we don't want you to get in over your head" "What do you mean heavy stuff, mom?" " Well, Morty has been known to go on some -- well -- binges for lack of a better term. He likes to drink and smoke pot and I don't want you involved in that atmosphere." She replied. "Well Mom, I can handle myself." I started. " Besides you let me go to the BBQ at his house 2 weeks ago." I said in my defense. "I like Morty, and this ban from his company is kinda old." Wow I felt pretty bold just then. Normally that would have elicited a dirty look from at least my dad, but he actually agreed with me. " The boy's right." He said. " I'll tell you what You're turning 18 monday and Morty has been beggin us to do something for you. I'll let you go on one condition... You take Lenny with you." `DUH' I thought to myself. But why would dad want Lenny with me? I asked him. " Well I like that kid and I have a feeling he likes you and wouldn't let you do anything that you might regret later." He responded. I nodded in agreement secretly thinking `they have no idea' " Now unless there's anything else -- Your mom and I had planned to take Joy, Jakey, and your sisters to San Diego for the weekend. We asked Bobby but he said he'd chill at the house with you. You're welcome to come otherwise-" "Naw, I'll stay here with Bobby." I replied maybe a little to quick. " I thought so. Well, I guess this is goodnight. We're gonna turn in `cause we're leaving early to try and beat all the traffic." "Goodnight Mom and Dad. I love you!" I gave them both a peck on the cheek and practically ran all the way to my room. I felt like a giant weight had been lifted off my chest. I couldn't wait to call Lenny. Lenny: I got home and as soon as I stepped in the door, Dad stopped me. "That looks like a Saxophone case, Len. Let's see!" I opened the case and my dad's eyes flew open! "Did you come into some money I didn't know about? Where did you get a horn like this?" He picked it up and fingered the buttons. "Whew! Well cared for too! Action seems like new!" "It is new, Dad." I did not think I would have to be creative quite this soon. STUPID! "Leonard, Kirk, this is a very expensive instrument! You be careful with it. Is it your new friend's? Are you borrowing it?" "Uh, - well -- yeah!" (That's the ticket!!) "I am borrowing it -- from Rennie." "He sure seems to be a nice boy. What is he, about 16?" "Actually he's almost 18. He said I could keep the horn." Then I added, "As long as I wanted." "Well, see that you take excellent care of it, son. I wonder if he knows the worth of it." "He does. I told him. He already knew. Dad, he used it once two years ago and cast it aside like an old toy." "But, how - ?" "All I can tell you is that his parents are very rich! They have an indoor swimming pool with a two story spiral slide directly from Ren's room to the pool! Does that tell you anything?" "Lenny, I really like Law -- Rennie. But he is a new friend. Just be careful. Take good care of the sax, k?" I was so worried about my story that I didn't quite hear Dad right. "What??" "I said take good care of that Saxophone!. What did you think I said.?" I lied: "I just didn't hear you." I thought he said to take good care of the sex! Well, I have to admit, it was rather dominant in my mind! I had hoped to escape into my room and not be seen, but now it seems it really doesn't matter -- that much. I went to my room. I sat on the couch. I began to wonder how Ren was dealing with telling his parents. All of a sudden I started to tremble. I was shaking with the thought of telling my parents -- my dad! I needed a distraction, so my first thought was a wank. I was thinking about this when my eyes rested on the Sax. I carefully, almost reverently removed it from its case. The mouthpiece was stashed next to it. I stared at the mouthpiece. I never thought before how much a saxophone mouthpiece can look like a penis. Well!!!??? Maybe an uncut penis! I carefully dug it out of its little recess, and put it up to my mouth. When it was that close to my nose, I could not help smelling it. I closed my eyes. MMMmmmm! I don't know if I just imagined that it smelled like Rennie tasted, but then I ran my tongue over it. I felt an immediate swelling in my shorts! Gosh! I was so horny! My crotch jumped again as I stuck the mouthpiece into the top end of the sax. I put it up to and into my mouth again. I wanted to blow it, but the reed was a little dry, so I began to suck on it a little to moisten it up. I was just about ready to try a note or two when I heard the doorbell. I jumped a little, then decided it couldn't be Ren until my dad rapped on my door and poked his head it. It WAS for me. I felt a tingle wash over me, expecting to see Len fill my doorway. My dad stepped aside and walked down the hall away from my room. I guessed that he left him downstairs for some reason. I wondered why. I jumped up and ran down the stairs. Dad was in the kitchen with Mom, and the door was ajar. I looked out the door to see a very large man standing with his back to me. "Hello?" I ventured. He turned around. He was maybe an inch taller than I was, and maybe 23 or 24, I guessed. Let's see, what else was there about him? Ummmmm - - - oh! He looked vaguely familiar. OH! Did I say he was gorgeous? "Hi." He said almost shyly. He immediately looked down and seemed to be stuck for what to say next. I could see that his face was getting redder and redder. I stepped out and closed the door behind me. Finally, "Are -- are you Lenny?" I could not help myself! I did a full look up and then down. Well, not all the way down! My eyes stopped just below his belt. After way too long, I finally said, "Er -- um -- uh -- OH! Yes! I am Lenny." "I thought you were, I mean your dad said you would be right out, so I knew -- that is I - - " "I KNOW you from somewhere!" I exclaimed. "Yes, you do. I'm sorry to take you by surprise like I did. Now that you are talking a little I do remember you!" "Well, I'm happy that you have remembered!" I retorted, almost sarcastically. He turned deep red. I wanted to cut my tongue out! "OH! I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to sound like that!" Now I could feel my own cheeks getting hot. He thrust his hand out. "I'm a friend of Seth's. Rob is my name. Sorry to keep you guessing." "Seth!" I blurted out. "Is he all right?" "Well, not exactly." He said soberly. He has been doing very well since his - - - accident. But just the other day he had a setback. Blood clot in his chest -- lung. He is in a coma. His buddy, Luke was with him when it happened. He keeps asking for you. He can't hear anyone, but he still talks -- mostly gibberish -- but he sometimes asks where Lenny is." "Oh my gosh! Now I remember you!" I suddenly blurted out. "You are one of his -- their -- roommates aren't you? Rob! That's right!" "Yeah, that's me. I was wondering, - do you think you could come to the hospital and talk to him? I don't know why he calls for you, but maybe you do?" "Well, I took care of him a bit after Luke came -- from Hawaii, wasn't it?" "Yeah. Luke is pretty broken up about it. Can you come?" "Of course!" I opened the door and said, "Mom, Dad, I am going with Rob to the hospital! Remember Seth, the kid on the gurney?" Both my parents came out of the kitchen. "Of course we remember him! Is he in the hospital again?" Rob spoke up. "He had a blood clot stick in his left lung. He is not in very good shape. He needs a reason to fight. He has been asking for your son, from his coma." "Leonard, if you have time to change, maybe it would be better to have some shoes on at the hospital." My dad said. My mom added, "and maybe you can replace those shorts with a pair of pants. Does he have time for that, - er -" "Rob! My name is Rob. Of course. This is not an emergency. I ran toward the stairs, then checked myself. I came back. "C'mon up stairs with me while I change clothes, okay?" He followed me up the stairs to my room. As soon as we were in, and I closed the door, he spotted the sax on my bed. I went to my drawers and started pawing through clothes. He gingerly picked up the sax, - again almost reverently -- and then said, "WOW! Is this yours?" I had just shed my shirt and my shorts. I was only clad in the pair of white boxers that Rennie had given me. My back was to him. I didn't even think of what I must look like as I turned and replied, "Oh! Yeah! Nice isn't it!" Then it hit me how crummy that must have sounded. "OH! It -- well -- it IS mine, but - (Sigh!) it was a gift!" "Wow! Some gift! Do you have any idea what these cost?" "Actually I don't! I knew it was an expensive instrument. I was afraid my dad would not let me keep it." "Well, if you dad knew, he may not have. This is a real collector's piece -- besides being about the best there is!" "Wow, how do you - -" "Would you mind - - -?" He gestured to put it to his lips. I saw his lips purse a little and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. This guy was sooo hot! I think -- no I KNOW my crotch jumped, and when it did, his eyes flew down to it! I immediately turned around and stammered, "sh-sh-sh- sure!" I was afraid to turn back around. Then I heard such a wonderful mellow sound coming from behind me. By this time I had some jeans on, and I turned back around, my mouth agape! When he saw me turn he stopped. "Don't stop!" I pleaded. Then I noticed his eyes sweeping over me! From top to bottom! And just as my eyes had a few moments before, his stopped on my crotch! I turned back around, sparing him some embarrassment. I found a shirt and then put on my best sport shoes, and said, " guess we can go now." He almost reluctantly put the sax down. I walked over to him, removed the mouthpiece, and stowed it and the sax, back into the case. I was hoping he did not see me put the mouthpiece up to my nose just before stowing it "Weren't you going to blow it out -- drain the spit hole?" He remarked. Well, I couldn't imagine after that short workout it had it would need it, bit I looked at him, and I SWEAR he was almost drooling! His full lips were shiny! And as I looked at him he licked them! I was SURE it was the sax he was drooling for! I racked my brain as we walked out to his car. He had a red Trans Am convertible, fully tricked out. As I remember, he was dating Seth's cousin -- girl cousin. I put my emotional tongue back in my mouth! GOOD GRIEF! I had just left Rennie! How could I be having such strong feelings for this straight dude? "I never saw this car at Seth's place." I said. "I would have remembered it!" "OH! I just brought it down from home. I didn't have it here before. Didn't need it. I just drove my -- well, Carries car. That's Seth's cousin. We were - - going together - - sort of." He sounded embarrassed. "But that's all over." As soon as we got going, he pulled out his cell phone and pushed a button. "Hi! Yeah, he's with me now. What? Oh. Okay. See you in about an hour." "Some kind of therapist is there." He said. "We need to chill for about an hour. Had dinner?" I actually just came from eating Renate's feast, and sick as I felt earlier, I did not chuck it! But I was not going to turn this guy down for anything. I nodded then shook my head. I felt like a scum! I felt guilty! I rationalized it was just a meal -- and it was! Perfectly innocent -- except in my mind I was making it more. Only in my mind. But just the fact that it WAS in my mind disgusted me! But I could not drive it out! I couldn't keep my eyes from stealing over to his hands, his face, those lips, and then again down to - - -. "So, Leonard, how did you meet Seth? Oh sorry! Guess you were in deep thought." I was indeed! I jumped when he spoke! "OH! Well, it was the first day of school. When he came into class, I really could not see him. He was covered with bandages. There were rumors that - " I stopped, embarrassed. "I know. He admits it." Rob said sadly. "Seth has seen way too much grief in his short life." "I know." "I doubt if you know it all. He was the victim of attempted murder -- twice!" "You're shittin' me! I knew he lost his lover -- that doctor!" "Well, anyway, he's been through a lot!" "Well, anyway, At first it was curiosity. I felt sorry for him. And I made friends with him. Then I began to "baby-sit" for him -- you know to give Luke a break. Then Luke and he had some kind of disagreement and I thought I was home free! Oh! Did you know that I am gay, too?" I blushed deeply. So did he, as he answered, "Yes! Seems like there's a lot of that going around." "That's right," I said as we pulled up to a very nice restaurant. I chuckled and continued, "You are rooming with a bunch of poofs aren't you?" "Yeah, I guess you could say that. I -- er -- well -- uh -- I just recently had to admit to myself that I am- that is -- well, er -- you know!" My GOD! What was this he was telling me!!?? After a long, embarrassing pause, I said, "Hard to say at first, isn't it?" I smirked a little in spite of my self. "You got that right!"" he retorted. "I have been struggling -- in denial -- for years! Then I ended up room mates with Chris -- that's Seth's brother -- and Craig. Well, Craig was about as oblivious to his own sexuality as I was. It was I who got them back together when Craig went home to Detroit. He was trying to escape his feelings. I brought him back, still denying that I felt the same way. I was dating Carrie, Seth's cousin, and telling myself that I was so strong for "keeping myself clean" from sex. Truth was that I was just not that turned on sexually. Finally it was Carrie who recognized what was the problem." "Really!!!???" "Yup! She confronted me one day and accused me of being like her brother!" Rob said. "I was furious! I stomped out of her house and strode up the stairs to my flat three steps at a time. I came in and in two steps was in my room and slammed the door!" "Wow! Was anyone home?" "Heh! Yeah! In about two seconds, there was a light tapping at my door. It was Seth. He opened it and peeked in. He was still in his wheel chair or I would have probably slammed the door shut!" "But you didn't." "No, with tears in my eyes, a came out to the living room and sat down. I looked from Seth to Luke, to Chris, to Craig, then back to Luke. `Luke, come here, please?' I asked" "Luke came to me. I stood up. `I need a hug,' I said." This was usually a signal for everyone to give a group hug. They all moved in that direction. `no! Just Luke' I said, looking at Luke -- and then Seth - for permission. Seth sat there in his wheelchair looking bewildered." Rob stopped talking for a long moment. "So, did you hug him?" I asked. Very quietly he went on. "Yeah -- and more!" "What???!!!" "After the hug, I looked at Seth and asked, `Do you mind?' He nodded. I then asked the same of Luke. Then I kissed Luke!" "Wow!" "Yeah, that's what it was like!" He said, his face all of a sudden turning crimson, as if he just realized what he was telling me -- practically a stranger! "Then I said, `I Guess I'm gay!' They all started laughing. Now THAT hurt my feelings! Until I looked into Seth's eyes, and he quietly said, `duh!'" "Seth and Luke slept with me that night, Seth proclaimed that I should not be alone this first night after I made this discovery -- a discovery which practically everyone but me knew about already! They showed me a couple things that first night!" "First night?" I said incredulously. "Yeah." He could not look into my eyes. There were a few like that!" "WOW!" I said. I then saw his eyes stray over to my growing crotch, then quickly back in front of him. We were already stopped, in a parking spot, but he backed up and pretended he was straightening the car up. When he was finished I did something completely out-of-character for me. I looked one way, out beyond where he was sitting, then I looked beside me to the right. The top was down, so I looked out the back as well. No one was anywhere to be seen, so I leaned over and put my lips on his. He almost jumped and then looked around for himself. Assured that no one was near, he grabbed me and pulled me into a passionate kiss. Then it ended as suddenly as it began. "I'm so sorry!" He said. "But -- but -- this is all so new to me!" "I think," I said, "That I started it! You just finished it. And with some style!" I added. "How old are you?" He asked. "17." "Shit!" "I'll be 18 in a week!" "Oh!" He said, relieved. He blushed. So did I! He smiled. So did I. Then the guilt set in again. Notes: Don't even say it! I have been jealously guarding Rob! But it just happened! And don't try to second guess where guilt may take these boys! Comments are welcome to Steve and Ken at s4d@hotmail.com. Please mention "Lenny" in the subject line. Thanks and love!