Date: Sun, 13 Mar 2011 21:42:10 +0100
From: Hasimir Fenrig <hasimir.fenrig@gmx.de>
Subject: Opposites attract

This is a work of gay erotic fiction. It contains very explicit sex scenes
between consenting college students. If this type of material is illegal to
view where you live, or if you are under 18 years of age, read no further.

This story cannot be copied, used, distributed or charged for by any other
party, without express written consent of the author.

I would be glad to receive feedback via the email address:

Hasimir.Fenrig@gmx.de

Please note that English is not my native language. Moreover, this is a
work of fiction.

Any inconsistencies with real life facts are fully intended. So don't
bother to send me corrections. I am not listening. La, la, la... ^^

			     Opposites Attract

I didn't want to return to my dorm room. Not yet. I would indulge in just
one more little delay, before I would have to endure its half-emptiness. A
Latte Macchiato from the college cafeteria would buy me another quarter of
an hour. Josh moving out of our room, which we had shared for two years,
had been devastating for me. He had become more than a roommate. He was my
friend, one of my best friends. His departure after graduation had been an
inevitable fact, a fact which I had been too good at ignoring. Now I was
confronted with its finality and the loss hit me even harder. I missed our
discussions, ranging from simple banter to philosophical discourse. Josh
had been an English major and was an expert on poetry, I had finally
decided on becoming a math major last term. We had spent hours talking
about logic in language, logic in mathematics, logic in general. Even more,
I missed his mere presence, simply knowing that I was not alone.

I didn't have many friends here at college. Besides Josh, there was only
Rob, short for Roberta, who I considered a close friend. She lived in the
same dorm as me, third floor. She was studying to become an electrical
engineer, a person you could trust without reservations and brutally frank.
You just had to love her... or hate her. Rob polarized. There was nothing
"in between" about her. She was to arrive in three days time, on Sunday
evening, and till then I would be on my own.

That wasn't exactly true. Room administration had informed me by letter
that "Kevin Schneider will arrive on Thursday to share room 204 with
you. Kevin is studying physical therapy and physical education in his third
year transferring from State University. Please welcome him heartily to our
learning community. We are sure that you will complement each other well
bla bla bla".

That was the other reason I was avoiding to return to the room. I was in
the paradoxical situation of feeling alone, while not wanting to spend time
with a stranger. A stranger who would enter my life this afternoon.

I had tutored fellow students the entire morning. My third term in Bergmont
College was about to start next week, but the officially sponsored tutoring
program had started weeks before the official courses did. So I had spent
much more time in the loneliness of my room than I really had needed.

Though the program was to blame that I had to be here now, it was also a
welcome opportunity. Professor Smyth, my Calculus professor, had invited me
into the tutoring job to help the "mathematically underprivileged" being
his exact wording. A teaching career in mathematics, especially at a
college, was a very appealing possibility. The program helped me to keep in
the subject and gave me teaching experience... and some extra
frustration. My pupils had the tendency not to be very cooperative most of
the time, though I gave my best to prepare them for the upcoming term. When
Prof.

Smyth was explaining mathematics, it felt like he was revealing the
mysteries of the universe to you. For most of my fellow students, Calculus
was exactly this: an unsolvable mystery. But everyone loved Prof. Smyth's
courses, despite their difficulty. It was still a long way for me to come
to this point.

Having finished my Latte, I was finally on my way to the dorm. Many other
places I would have preferred to be came to my mind, one of them being
home.

I missed Mom and Dad. Our relationship had deepened even more, when I had
come out to them shortly before leaving for college. Mom and Dad had lived
through the standard phases of a kid coming out to them: 1. the "it's a
phase"-phase 2. the "it's our fault"-phase, the dominant mother and absent
father stuff 3. the "it's ok, we love you nonetheless"-phase Perhaps not
exactly standard... in the LGBT meetings at college, I had heard many
stories of parents not being that supportive and worse. I actually called
Mom and Dad after such a meeting to tell them that I loved them. That
frightened the hell out of them, and they asked me whether I was taking
drugs or if I was fatally ill. I was pissed at their reaction then, but in
hindsight, it was funny and I had to grin at the memory. Family... that was
my older sister Tiffany as well. My emotional spectrum for her covered
everything from "my dearest sister, foundation of my heart and soul"

up to "you fucking bitch, go and get run over by a train, please". We had
quite a normal sibling relationship, I assume. She has been married for
three years now to Marc, the best brother-in-law one could imagine.

"He is too good for you" I had said to my sister.

She had shrugged and answered "I know."

Their son Christopher was now two years old and the cutest child in the
world. I was his godfather and though I wasn't at all involved in his
making or uprising, I was quite proud of him.

I had arrived at the dorm. On the days I was not avoiding my room, I very
much liked that building. The dorm was made of red brick, which gave it a
classical touch. Small patches of flowers winded along with the gravel path
leading to the entrance. A solid wooden double door with large glass panes
gave way to the hall. A mismatched collection of couches and armchairs had
been brought here, mostly leave-behinds of former students. During any time
of the day, someone was occupying one of those seats, reading, writing,
discussing with others. A coffee dispenser added its caffeinated aroma to
this place. I loved the atmosphere. Today it was quite, as I already said,
term was about to start next week, but I gave a short wave to the people
lingering there. Our college had a very liberal approach to student
accommodation.

Both genders were not only allowed in one building, each floor (of which we
had three) was mixed. The rooms were not, but that was only a technicality.

When opening the glass door to the stair case, my eyes fell on my
reflection. I was small, really small and skinny. I wasn't exactly happy
with my tiny frame, but my body and mind had resisted any serious attempt
at sports. Under the untamable mass of my black hair, green eyes were
staring back at me, mild self-contempt showing in them.

Another bad hair day, bad body day, bad room day, bad roommate day. When it
rains, it pours.

I mustered a smile at myself, trying to break that pang of self-pity, which
was so unlike me.

Despite my efforts, it didn't help my mood to look at the name plate, which
was mounted left of the door to room 204. It read "Leon Fitzgerald. Kevin
Schneider."

Josh's name had been removed. All traces that he had ever lived here had
vanished.

I sat in my half-empty room, alternating between staring at its white walls
and grey floor. Two study desks stood together right below the only, but
large window of the room. When working, you sat opposite to your
roommate. The desks had been arranged that way by the room administration
to "facilitate communication and exchange". The beds had been placed at the
walls, wardrobes, shelves and filing cabinets had been put up at the walls
with the window and the door. Josh's side of the room was empty, of course,
but my side was decorated with a poster of Bertrand Russell, the
mathematician and philosopher, a Star Trek Voyager poster ("A faggy touch
of nerdiness" ...that was Rob speaking) and a poster depicting the formula
"e^(i*pi)=-1", which was considered one of the most beautiful formulas in
the world, because it connected the 4 most important numbers in
mathematics. Many math books filled my shelf and only a few fantasy and
sci-fi novels could be found there. My parents had given me a stereo with
CD player as a parting gift, which stood in the middle of the joined desks
at the window side, so that both Josh and I had access to it.

Perhaps the new one would like to play his music there, too.

The gloomy mood I had when entering the dorm had transformed and had gained
an edge of nervousness. I did not know what to expect of this Kevin
Schneider. I had been extremely lucky with Josh. A roommate becoming your
best friend that was a rare occurrence. It could only go downhill from
here.

Kevin is doing phys ed.

I hated people, who categorized persons without knowing them. Being tiny as
I was, I had more often than not been put in the 'weak and frail'
drawer. But I couldn't help to imagine him as a dumb jock. I didn't dare to
follow this train of thought to its end.

It had been easy to come out to Josh and Rob, being sure of their
acceptance. I had no idea how to deal with the possibility of living
together with a plain and dull homophobe.

That was completely me: overanalyzing, worrying, pining away with what-ifs
and could-bes. It was 3 o'clock now. He would be here anytime soon.


I startled at the rapping at my door. Nobody in this dorm ever bothered to
knock the door, people just entered.

"On my way..." I said with a sad excuse for a confident voice.

I opened the door... and was staring at the midsection of a man. My eye
level was somewhere between his pecs and his navel. Not that I could see
any of those: he wore a plain white t-shirt and khakis. The t-shirt was
strained to its seams by what must have been the biggest mass of muscle I
had ever seen on a man. His chest could literally rival with the chest of a
bear. His arms could have been branches of a mighty tree. I looked up. He
had bowed down a little bit, so that he could see me and not only the door
frame. I looked into a face under a bunch of curly, light blond hair, with
the most boyish and cordial smile possible on it. When discussing poetry
with Josh, I had always mocked about authors comparing eyes to gems, but
"sapphires" was the only word that could approximately describe the color
and brightness of his eyes. His features were delicate and manly at
once. He was clean shaven and a very subtle hint of his aftershave
surrounded him.

"Hi, my name is Kevin Schneider. Are you..." he looked at the door plate
"Leon Fitzgerald?"

His voice was a deep baritone that gave me goose bumps.

"Um... yes... I am Leon Fitzgerald. You are my new roommate, I assume."

My voice had cracked several times during these few words. I cleaned my
throat.

"Nice to meet you, Kevin."

"Nice to meet you, Leon."

And he extended his hand. I was reluctant to call it hand, because it was
twice the size of mine. Paw would have been a much more appropriate
term. We shook hands/paws and I was surprised, that his grip was firm, but
still gentle considering his mass. I stepped to the side, so that he could
finally enter. Though this entire scene had taken seconds at most, I felt
as if hours had passed. He bowed down a little more and came into the
room. My first impression of him intensified even more: the most massive
man I had ever met. But his powerful body was interestingly contrasted by
his friendly demeanor.

"Leon, I know, most people feel a little intimidated, when they see me the
first time..."

"Even the incredible Hulk would feel a little intimidated by you."

Had I said that aloud? Leon Fitzgerald speaking before thinking? But his
answer was a deep chuckle, followed by "Like the incredible Hulk, I use my
strength only for helping people in distress and I don't have anger
management issues."

The chuckle gave me goose bumps again and now it was my turn to grin.

"I will fetch the rest of my stuff from my car."

I realized that a duffel bag was his only baggage.

"I can help you. What I lack in strength, I compensate with enthusiasm."

Once again he chuckled, a sound I definitely loved to hear.

"Leon, you don't have to. If you have other things to do..."

"The courses do not start before next week. I have more time on hands than
I can usefully spend. After bringing your stuff here, I can show you the
campus, if you like."

"That would be nice!" He beamed at me.

It took less than an hour to bring the boxes and bags from his car to our
room. That wasn't exactly my merit: while I struggled to get one box up the
stairs of the dorm, he easily had one under each arm and a duffel bag
around his neck. I watched his muscles play under the fabric of his t-shirt
and his pants, looked at his biceps bulging, when lifting a box. All the
muscles that nature had denied me had been transferred to Kevin
somehow. But I didn't mind and enjoyed the show. Though second thoughts
followed suit: having the hots for your roommate was the subject of bad
internet porn.

Hitting onto someone, who could easily break me into two halves, was not
the most intelligent thing to do. Moreover, we had to live together for at
least one term.

Friendship good, crush bad.

But given the effect he had on me, I would be in love sometime this evening
and would propose marriage tomorrow. My would-ifs and could-bes came to the
rescue.

Most probably, he is not gay. Even if he is gay, why should he be
interested in me? He could have a boyfriend or more likely a girlfriend.

These thoughts brought me back to the ground with a vengeance. I decided
not to let my feelings overwhelm me. For a mathematician, it was that
easy. At least, I hoped so. He was the most gorgeous man I knew, but I
would strife to be the best roommate I could be and that included not
hitting on him.

"A penny for your thoughts?" Kevin said smiling his boyish smile again.

He had just finished unpacking most of his stuff and had returned from
parking his car in the long-time parking lot of the college.

"Just some math stuff I am thinking about..." I mumbled.

"Right. The letter said you are a math major. I am thinking of taking an
introductory Calculus course for some extra credits. "

"Cool! I could help you learning... if you need to... and want to...Kevin"

The latter part was a stuttered mess, but nonetheless, his smile deepened.

"Yeah, really cool. And if you knew my math performance in high school, you
wouldn't even think about adding 'ifs' to a sentence dealing with Kevin
Schneider and mathematics... and by the way: everyone calls me Kev."

"Okay... Kev... I promised you the great campus tour."

"Can you include some place to eat? I am starving."

"Sure. Then prepare yourself for Deng Long's, the most un-Chinese Chinese
deli in the western hemisphere..."

Deng Long's was really a special place. The owner, whom we all called Deng
Long, but that wasn't his real name for sure, had less Chinese genes than
me. He didn't even look remotely Asian and had a mid-western accent. He
served a wild mix of Asian food, which he all advertised as being Chinese
nonetheless. But all his meals were excellent and Deng Long's was an
institution on the campus. Kev looked a little bit puzzled.

"You will soon understand."

That resulted in one more of those spine-energizing chuckles.

Since Kev was hungry, we started our tour at Deng Long's. We exchanged
knowing glances, when I introduced him to Deng Long himself. The place was
heavily decorated with dragons, the eastern-style, snakelike
dragons. Chinese calligraphies had been put on the walls. One of the
students at the dorm, who was of Chinese descent, had told us that most of
the signs weren't even real Chinese ideograms. But one of the signs
actually read "No parking allowed!" It suited the fake charm of this place
perfectly.

Kev ordered some Cantonese duck with lots of fried rice and I went for the
soup 'Beijing', since I was not really hungry.

"This is great... wanna taste?" Kev said and the fork was already almost in
my mouth.

"Thanks I..." I started and he simply shoved the piece of duck in.

"I meant: no thanks, but thanks anyway" I put on a shy smile.

"Sorry." And a sly grin crept across his handsome features.

He talked about his two years at State U, while we were eating. He
explained to me that in physical therapy it was useful to learn more than
one therapeutical approach and that was the reason, why he wanted to
transfer here. He wanted to specialize in sports injuries and their
treatments. I told him about my plans of becoming a college instructor.

"If you can teach me Calculus, you can teach anyone." One more chuckle of
his.

After our early dinner, I showed him the campus. Lecture halls,
administration buildings, sport halls, our football and baseball fields
were all part of the tour.

"This is one of the few colleges, which participates in college level
bodybuilding competitions and offers a full scholarship based on it. My
former college did, too."

Kevin explained to me, when we were heading back to our dorm.

"I was wondering, which sport requires such level of.... muscle
development."

He laughed.

"Yeah, not many sports require that much surplus mass."

"That was not what I... sorry, no offense meant."

"None taken."

"So you participate in competitions?"

"Sure. The State U team won the national college finals. I was part of the
team."

"Awesome."

We had arrived at the dorm again and got up to our room.

"Thanks for showing me around. That was nice of you."

"You are welcome!"

"Most people need a little time to get beyond that intimidation stuff..."

"Hey, I have to share a room with you. Being afraid of my roommate isn't
exactly what I intended to do this term. And you don't turn green..."

We grinned at each other.

"I would like to try out the training room here. Have to spend time there,
if I want to keep my scholarship." He said that jokingly, but I knew it
held a grain of truth.

"Um, Leon. I haven't got the keys to the lockers yet. Do you mind if I
change here?"

"No prob."

I smiled again, but it was a nervous smile. What had I expected? I had seen
Josh naked and half-naked many times. Of course, it would be the same with
Kev.

Can you get used to seeing this body naked without getting too obviously
aroused?

 I asked myself and wasn't sure, if I liked the answer. Kev had started to
get rid of the t-shirt and the khakis soon followed. I could see the true
level of his definition for the first time. Every single muscle was clearly
visible as a distinct feature. While my body felt soft to the touch, the
same would not hold true for Kev's body. Touching him would be like
touching a granite sculpture.

Stop it!

Having this kind of thoughts would interfere with my intentions not to get
too involved. My resolve did not last long... not when Kevin dropped his
boxers and revealed the most adorable butt, bubbly and muscled, simply
perfect. He put on a jock strap instead, which, of course, didn't cover his
butt. By sheer force of will, I moved my head to look outside of the
window. I wiped my mouth, because I wasn't sure, whether I was
drooling. When I looked again, Kev was dressed in a black t-shirt and grey
track pants.

"See you in two hours then."

He waved and left.

It was now six o'clock. I went from worrying about my new roommate to
(almost?)  drooling over him in just three hours time. This had to be a new
record. I wrote an email to Josh, telling him that my new roomie was a nice
guy. Josh had always been cool with me being gay, but I didn't want him to
bother with my feelings for Kev.

That privilege would be reserved for poor Rob. She would be here in three
days. That meant three days, which I had to spend with Kev and my feelings
alone. That was the moment, I decided that the universe was playing a prank
on me by pairing me with this adorable hunk of a man.

"I'll play along!"  I announced to the universe.

Never get cocky with the universe, because that was when Kev returned. He
was glistening with sweat, his clothes drenched in it. Not once in my life
had I thought of the smell of sweat as sexy before, but living proof was
standing in the middle of the room. Kev radiated a male and musky aroma
that clicked something in my brain.

"Nice session. Very good equipment, way better than at State U."

He looked exhausted and energized at once. I showed him where the dorm
showers were and quickly returned to the room, opening the window to get
rid of that aphrodisiac floating through the room.

"Sorry for bringing the stench... I'll leave it at the locker room next
time." Kev hinted at the open window with a grin, when he had returned.

"That was not the reason, I opened the window. I, uh, always let fresh air
in the evening. Helps to stay focused and awake."

What the heck are you talking there, dude?

Kev's grin broadened into a smile.

"You're too nice for this world. No need to invent cover up stories. I
stink... uh...

stank. The shower helped."

He had dressed in the shower room into another t-shirt / track pants
combination. As far I had seen, he owned quite a lot of those. And they
absolutely suited him. He would look good in almost any clothes, while my
sorry excuse for a body needed special packaging to be presentable.

"I will have to keep my change... for all the pennies I will need for your
thoughts."

"Sorry. It will take a little time to get used again to someone around, who
is interested in what I'm thinking."

I tried to dampen the impact of this sentence by putting on my most amiable
smile.

"Oh yes, Leon Fitzgerald. It's difficult to have secrets from Kev
Schneider. You will learn soon."

We both burst out in laughter.

"And it's difficult to extract them from Leon Fitzgerald."

"Then we'll both have a mission to accomplish."

Kev sat down on his bed and looked into one of the duffel bags, which he
had not emptied yet.

"Can I connect my iPod to your stereo? It's some German band. My grandpa
emigrated from Germany in the 1930s as a young boy. I can't get a straight
German sentence out, but I understand it quite well. And the music is very
cool."

"Sure. Schneider... that sounds German."

"Yeah. Means 'tailor' in English and thanks."

He connected the small device to the stereo and a song was playing at low
volume soon. It was a strange, but interesting, experience to listen to
music and to have no clue about the lyrics, which were sung by a pleasant
female voice.

"The band is 'Wir sind Helden'... um... 'We are heroes'... and the song is
'Nur ein Wort'... that's 'Just one word'... she is pleading to a person,
whom she is in love with, to say a single word to her... returning her
love... as far as I understand it. Their lyrics are full of puns and some
of those I don't get."

"I really like it." I smiled again, but my thoughts were racing.

Why had he chosen exactly this song? Was this supposed to be a hint? Or was
it a coincidence? What-ifs and could-bes again. Sometimes I wished I was
thick like a loaf of bread, that I hadn't to bother with thinking and
started to just live.

We spent the whole evening listening to music. From time to time, Kev
explained a song and I acknowledged his explanations, sometimes inquiring
about a part or phrase of a song. We didn't talk much, but our silence
wasn't bothersome. We were both at ease and enjoyed the music together. At
10 o'clock, Kev told me that he was tired from the long drive and the
training and we both went to sleep. At least, I tried to sleep. I was
pondering about Kev and the situation as a whole. I was still resolved not
to make any move on him, but the afternoon and evening with him had been
more fun than anything in a very long time. Would a constant feel-good-time
wear down my defenses at last? What if I came on to him and the feelings
weren't mutual? I imagined any reaction from a polite rejection to a
violent attack. After too many hours spent with such thoughts, I finally
slid into an uneasy sleep. Dreams and reality mixed into a haunted state of
mind.


I awoke with a start, when someone said my name. I looked up at Kev, who
stood at the side of my bed. It was early morning as a quick glance out of
the window confirmed.

"Leon? I wondered, whether you would like to come jogging with me."

"I...I am not a good runner. I would be more of a burden than a partner."

"I don't mind. Running isn't really part of my training. It's more like a
morning ritual.

To get started... to have some energy for the day. I'd be glad to have you
with me."

"Okay, okay. But don't complain that I didn't warn you."

Kev chuckled and the more often I listened to that sound the more I liked
it.

"Boy scout's promise: no complaint will come out of this mouth." He crossed
his heart.

It was a childish gesture, but it was sincere. The look on his face left no
doubt.

"I'll just change into something more appropriate and off we go." I said.

The both of us running must have been a very grotesque picture. Both
dressed in similar sweat suits, one a huge bear of a man, the other more
like a slender weasel. We talked about my lack of interest in any sports
and Kev's affinity to them. I was surprised at my own stamina. I lasted
through the entire run, which led us through the park like parts of the
campus. I was sweating and panted a little bit, but overall I had performed
quite well.

"Hey, you liar! Not a good runner? You are kidding me!" Kev joked
afterwards.

"A little more training and you simply leave me behind, eating your dust."

"Who is the liar now?" I retorted in mock exasperation.

We both laughed.

"No, really. If you ran every day, you would soon see some progress. Trust
me. You are a natural runner. Remember: I am studying phys ed. I know what
I am talking about."

"With you as my personal trainer... sounds like a plan."

It was intended as a joke, but Kev stopped and extended his hand.

"Deal?"

"Deal." I shook his hand.

"Welcome to Schneider's running school then." Kev's face radiated a
cheerful light and his good mood was contagious.

We arrived at our room.

"What about taking a shower and then some breakfast together?"

"Everything the trainer instructs me to."

Kev raised a finger, like giving me a lecture. But he couldn't keep his
face straight for more than a few moments.

"Ok, my pupil. Then off to the showers!"

Now it hit me that we would be showering together. Moreover, the dorm
showers didn't have stalls. There were several shower heads attached to the
wall in a line. I had wondered before, whether this lack of privacy had
been intentionally created to "give a space to freely exchange thought and
idea even when grooming yourself". My mind raced to find an excuse, a
delay, for not to have to go there with him, but I couldn't come up with
anything plausible. So I gathered fresh clothes, my towel, a bottle of
shower gel and followed Kev to the shower rooms.

Dead man walking.

Why did the mind always resort to irony, when confronted with hopeless
situations?

The showers had a small changing room. The mixed gender policy discouraged
most students to cross the floor clad in a towel only. The shower room had
white tiles everywhere, except on the ceiling. In the changing room, there
were two wooden banks and several hooks for clothing. The changing room was
separated from the showers by a half-wall. Kev was talking to me, but
nothing he said really came through to me as soon as we had started to
undress. I would see him naked, all of him and not only the back side like
yesterday. What bothered me even more was that Kev would see me without
clothes. I felt embarrassed. But this feeling was replaced by shock, when
Kev had finished undressing and had turned to me. I should have seen it
coming: everything about Kev's body was approximately twice the size in
comparison to me. This scaling was obviously valid for all body parts. My
cock was pretty much average in length and diameter, perhaps a little tad
on the longer side of average, but Kev's member was far beyond any mean
value. It was long and thick, veins showing on its surface. I wondered,
whether it would grow much more, when he became aroused. Below his cock
dangled to full balls, surrounded by short blond pubic hair.

Don't stare, don't stare, don't stare...

I wasn't sure, whether he had seen my interest in his groin or not. If he
had, he very convincingly pretended not to have noticed and continued his
friendly chatter.

Showering itself was without incident. I was even able to add to the chat,
which was necessary to distract myself and to avoid getting rock hard. Soon
we were clean, dry and dressed again, back in the 'safety' of our room.

"Any suggestions for breakfast? You are the campus expert."

"The cafeteria by the lecture hall center has pretty decent stuff and quite
affordable prices."

"Affordable sounds good." Kev's mood changed. His bright eyes had lost some
of their sparkle.

"I thought you are on a full scholarship and with some help from your
parents..."

"Full scholarship: yes; some help from my parents: definitely not."

I punched myself mentally for being an insensible asshole.

"Kev, I am sorry, I did not mean to..."

"Leon, there is nothing you have to be sorry for. It's absolutely not your
fault that I have two ignorant, uncaring bastards for parents."

"Wanna talk about it?"

"No. Leon. Not yet. Are we cool?"

"Of course, we are." I managed an encouraging grin and gripped Kev by his
left arm.

"If you didn't know: our personal training contract comes with a full
breakfast provision."

"Leon, you don't have to. I am not THAT poor."

Nonetheless, brightness began to return to his eyes, lighting up his entire
face.

"Kev, I don't have to, but I want to. How am I supposed to feel having you
as a trainer, if I am not allowed to compensate for your time and effort?"

I tugged at his arm and he followed.

"Thanks, Leon." He said, barely louder than a whisper.

It had never occurred to me that other students might be struggling
financially. Who was an ignorant bastard here? My dad was quite a
successful lawyer and mom had a flourishing shop for upper class bridal and
evening wear. My parents paid my studies and gave me a very generous
monthly allowance. Most of it went to a saving account.

I called it my 'picket fence fund', because it was supposed to be a
cash-down for a nice home in the future. Some of it would be diverted to
Kev now. I knew I was skating on thin ice here. He was never to know, what
I was doing. But this nice guy deserved to have some worries eased of him
and if my money was able to buy that, it would do. I would find ways to
accomplish that. I could be very creative, when it mattered.

By the time we had our breakfast on our tablets (scrambled eggs with bacon,
hot rolls and coffee for both of us) Kev was back to his joyful manner. He
told me about his body building training plan. He trained every day, but
concentrated on different muscle groups each day.

"Muscles need rest to grow."

He went on with details about muscle anatomy and, to my own astonishment, I
found myself interested in his explanations. He told me, he would do the
training same time as yesterday. Before training he would have to get done
some paper works with administration and some errands.

"But after training, we can hang out together, if you like?"

"What about cinema? There is this action flick."

"Sorry, Leon. But at the moment I have to sit on every dollar. I will try
to get a job soon, but till then..."

"Don't worry, Kev. I know someone working at the cinema. She sometimes has
spare free tickets for me. If I ask nicely..."

That wasn't exactly the truth. I did know someone working at the cinema, a
fellow math student. But she never had any spare free tickets. Nonetheless,
I could easily afford two tickets, popcorn and stuff. I felt a little
guilty for lying to Kev. However, he would never accept me paying for
cinema.

"Cool. I'll be finished with training by eight o'clock. Showering,
dressing... I could make it for a nine o'clock show, okay?"

"Sounds fine for me."

We parted our ways. I did tutoring lessons from 11- 2 o'clock, had a small
lunch by myself and went to the city by bus to buy the tickets. They
offered gift certificates for popcorn, candies and soft drinks, their
design being very plain. So I bought one of those as well. Seemed like I
had found some creative ways to hide my funding schemes.


Kev returned by 8:30, fully dressed. We took the bus and I showed Kevin the
tickets and the certificate.

"Cool. Entertainment and food." He grinned.

I could have sworn that there had been a slight frown on his face, when he
had looked at the tickets. But the lighting in the bus was poor.

We had two trash cans full of popcorn, at least the buckets were the size
of trash cans, some candy bars and two cups full of cola. The movie was a
very typical action flick: high body count, extensive use of explosives,
cheesy one-liner dialogue. Perfect entertainment! We replayed parts of it
in the bus on our way back home; Kev being the hero and me being the
foul-mouthed sidekick. It was hilarious. The other passengers on the bus
may have differed, but we didn't mind.

In our room, we both quickly dressed for bed and kept talking about the
movie. But after another hour, we finally switched our bed-side lamps off.

I let the day pass by in my mind and realized how wonderful it had been:
from the running to the showering (that hadn't been so wonderful live, but
was definitely good on the replay), to breakfast and finally to the
cinema. Even tutoring lessons had felt less frustrating today.

"Leon?" Kev's voice came hushed from the other side of the dark room.

"Um?"

"Free tickets normally don't come with credit card numbers on them, do
they?"

Fuck, fuck, fuck!

So much for being creative. The plan had been good, but had flatlined due
to lacking attention to details. How stupid do you have to be to pay "free"
tickets by credit card? The frown had been for real then...

"Kev, see... I... "

"I should be angry, because you lied to me..."

So I had succeeded in turning this wonderful day into a catastrophe.

"... but I can't remember when someone did something that nice for me the
last time."

Kev switched on his bed-side lamp and was looking directly into my eyes.

"You asked me how you should feel, if you were not allowed to pay for the
training. I ask you: how am I supposed to feel for being dependent on
charity?"

I had no answer to that question.

"Promise me: you will not pull such a stunt again? Okay?"

"Kev... I didn't do it to embarrass you or make you feel small. I just
wanted to treat you to something nice. I just wanted to share."

"Promise?"

"Yes, I promise."

He gave me a short nod and a smile. Kev switched off the light again.

"And Leon?"

"Um?"

"Thanks for caring for me." He added in a very low voice.


I had slept surprisingly well given the events of last night. Once again, I
woke up being called by Kev.

"Leon? Time to get up. First training lesson." Kev was back to full
grinning mode. At least, he gave no hint that he was still holding a grudge
against me for buying the tickets.

With a night's sleep distance, I was clearly aware, what I had tried to do:
overcompensating for my feelings for Kev. Giving money to Kev was just
another way to express those feelings... and a bad way for sure. My mom was
the kitchen psychologist in our family, but I was more like her than I
sometimes wanted to be true.

It was 7:30 now.

"Starting late, because it's Saturday. I thought on weekdays, we'll start
at 6:30. So we'll be in time for the courses. Okay?"

"Okay... I think..." What had I agreed to? That sounded like real work.

"Get up, sleepy head!" Kev snatched my pillow away and threatened me with
it, still beaming at me.

"I'm coming, I'm coming."

We changed into training clothes and started our run. Kev gave me some
general hints on keeping a steady running rhythm and some good advice on
breathing. He showed me how to check my pulse and to adapt the pace
accordingly. Though most of his tips were simple, they helped. We covered
the same distance in approximately the same time as yesterday, but I wasn't
as exhausted as I had been the day before. I told Kev so.

"Leon, I've told you. You are a natural. With a little guidance, you will
become one hell of a runner."

"Must be the excellent trainer I have."

"Thanks."

That one was muttered and he had dropped his gaze to the ground. Kev was
cute, when he was embarrassed.

We had returned to our room. On our door was a post-it telling me that a
parcel had arrived for me and that Sean and Keith, our room neighbors, kept
it for me.

Oh, fuck!

I had completely forgotten about that one.

"Wanna fetch it before showering?" Kev asked.

"Um, sure."

There would be no way to get the parcel without Kev inquiring about its
contents.

I knocked at our dorm mates' door, thanked them for accepting the parcel
and returned to our room.

"Considering the look on your face there is nothing nice in there, huh?"
Kev pointed at the box in my hands.

"Kev... um... I... you..."

"Okay." He drew that one out. "What's in it?"

I opened the parcel and produced two track suits, one my size and one Kev's
size.

"I know that brand. They are made of one of those high-tech
materials. Really good stuff. I read about it in a sports magazine... but
those are $200 each..."

I kept silent, avoiding his gaze.

"How did you plan to explain those?"

"Packaging error... no return policy for sportswear..." I admitted in a low
voice.

"Exactly my size? Oh, what a coincidence..."

"Prepared a nice speech about probability and statistics. And I had looked
up your size in one of your pants."

"Please remind me to never sleep with my back to you, you sneaky..."

"Son of a lawyer." I completed his sentence. That caught him off guard. I
went for an offensive.

"I ordered those, before we left for the cinema per overnight express. So,
technically they are not covered by the promise."

"Technically? Son of a lawyer. How fitting."

I interrupted him.

"Kev, look at it as some kind of fine for fucking it up with the
cinema. And yes: son of a lawyer and son of a shop owner. Money has never
been important to me, but not losing a friend about some shit like this
that is most important to me."

Kev's face was working, hinting at the thoughts that were running through
his head.

"You call me a friend? We happen to know each other for less than 48 hours
and you consider me a friend?"

"Pretty desperate and pathetic, isn't it?"

"No. It's pretty desperate and pathetic to call someone his best friend
after less than 48 hours. Come here!"

Kev drew me into a tight bear hug. And 'tight' should be read as 'crushing'
here.

"Kev... if you want your best friend to live...loosen that grip." I had to
groan.

He let go of me.

"Did I hurt you?" There was worry written on his face.

"Not as much as I hurt you." and I pointed to the track suit.

"It's okay. The way to hell is paved with good intentions." He smiled
slyly.

"Please, keep it. You have real use for it. And it will remind me to never
ever fuck up like this again."

"But it's too expensive..."

"Remember the part about money not being important?"

"Wow. In not quite two days, I acquired a roommate, best friend and a
pimp."

"I would prefer to be considered a patron, not a pimp."

We both burst out laughing and Kev drew me into another bear hug, which was
much gentler than the first one.

"Much better dosage of strength. Keep in mind that your best bud is quite
frail."

He released me, raised his fists into a defensive position, made a parody
of an angry face and mock punched me on the shoulder.

"You are sturdier than you think." And laughing he added "And: in just
seven days, I can make you a man."

"Rocky Horror Picture Show? You know it?"

"Know it and love it." He grinned.

"Hey, there is a fan club here on campus. They use every excuse to show it
as often as possible. Today being the last Saturday before semester is
enough for an excuse.

Wanna go? It's free."

"Sure. That'll be fun. Two movies in a row, but that's Rocky Horror."

"They make every participant wear a badge with the name of the role on it
you resemble the most. That will be Rocky for you, I fear." I made an
innocent face.

"And you are Frank-N-Furter!" he poked his tongue out at me.

"I've got the legs for it."


Showering with Kev wasn't as intimidating as it had been yesterday. He was
still the most physically attractive man, I had met in my life, but the
added dimension of our starting friendship had taken away a certain edge
from this attraction. I was quite sure now that this would work out
somehow. I could live with him and be easy about it.

"What's on your mind? You are grinning like a Cheshire cat."

Kev had just started soaping up and was looking at me.

"I am thinking about us. How lucky I have been with my new roommate."

That wasn't even a lie. At most, a lie of omission.

"Amen to that." He beamed at me.

"Who's the Cheshire cat now?" I teased him.

We both chuckled.

Kev and I spent the whole morning together: first having breakfast,
afterwards hanging out in our room. I told him about my family including my
sister, her husband and Christopher, my godchild. We talked about, when we
had seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show for the first time and how we both
had grown to love it. We exchanged many of those small tidbits of
information giving us a more wholesome impression of each other. The more
time I spent with Kev, the more I grew attached to the person he was. The
pin-up fantasy, that had entered my room on Thursday, was gradually
replaced by the real Kev. And the real Kev was by far more interesting and
attractive than the fantasy. The sexual tension had not exactly waned, it
had transformed. It had gained a butterflies-in-the-stomach quality. I was
well aware that this wasn't the best of developments in terms of my resolve
not to start anything with Kev. Ultimately, this could lead to more pain
than simple physical attraction, much more. There was happening too much in
too short a time. But that was the 'privilege of youth', as my grandma
would have put it, to rush in with flying flags. 'Enjoy it while it lasts'
would have been her next advice.

"I'll be early for training today. Coach wants to meet me and most of the
team is already here, so I can meet them as well." Kev informed me during
our lunch made up of some sandwiches we ate in our room.

"Rocky Horror will start at eight o'clock."

"That'll be no problem. I think I'll be back by seven o'clock." He got up,
shoved the last piece of sandwich into his mouth, grabbed his sports bag
and left, but not without waving me good-bye.

Today there would be no tutoring anymore, so I was free to do what I
wanted. I started with checking, whether I had registered for all the
courses I wanted to take using my notebook. Prof. Smyth offered a special
course in complex analysis and had personally invited me to participate. I
double checked whether the reservation for this course was valid. I printed
out my timetable, which was quite convenient this term.

No tedious pauses between courses, I had at least one hour of lunch time
every day and on Friday my academic day ended on 12 o'clock. That was
really nice, because Kev had told me that his bodybuilding competitions
would take place mostly on Friday afternoons. And I planned to attend every
single one. The rest of the afternoon, I spent revisiting some facts about
complex numbers and ended up reading a fantasy novel, which I had begun to
read an eternity ago, but hadn't bothered to finish. While reading, I
listened to 'Wir sind Helden' again. Kev had insisted on me using all of
his stuff as if it was mine.

"If I ever need a tent, I will go for one of your t-shirts." I had joked.

"And of course, all of my stuff is for you to use, too."

"Cool. So whenever I need warm toes, I can use your t-shirts."

Reliving this banter and having the music, his music, playing gave me a
warm feeling.

He's gone for three hours and you already miss him.


The afternoon passed and I changed for our visit to the college movie club,
before Kev had returned. I felt like dressing up, though I wasn't exactly
sure what for.

For him, of course.

That nagging little voice in my head had to add. I let this comment slip
by. Who am I to contradict myself? I chose the pair of blue jeans that were
tight on my ass, but loose on the legs. As a top, I decided for a black
longsleeve. It had those almost rectangular applications on the shoulders,
which made me look a little bit broader.

It takes more than a little cloth to look broader than him.

Ignoring the more petulant part of me, I finished my clothing by going for
the red chucks and getting that nice beige jacket out of the closet. It was
September and the nights here could already get a little chilly.

He can keep you warm.

 "Oh, shut the fuck up!" I said aloud.

Fine, talking to oneself. One of the sure signs of a healthy mind. I
fetched my wallet and checked it for the student's id card, when I dropped
it to the ground.

Well done, Clumsy Smurf.

I bent down to get it up.

"Oh." Kev's voice came from the door.

I turned around quickly and straightened myself. For one heartbeat, Kev's
gaze lingered, where my ass had been a second ago. His cheeks turned the
slightest shade of red.

"Um... that's not good for your vertebrae... bending down like this... I
mean..."

Had I really caught him red handed looking at my rear? That would have been
too good to be true. I decided for my own mental health that I would simply
ignore it and that he had not stared.

"You dressed up really nice for the evening. Expecting anyone special?"

"Only you."

I played on his embarrassment, hoping to get away with it and to avoid
further inquiries.

Hide in plain sight.

You could see on his face that he was processing that last retort of
mine. After some seconds, which seemed to stretch out excruciatingly, he
settled for me having pulled his leg. That sly grin grew on his face.

"Well. If you dress up for me, I will return the favor. Let's see, what I
can come up with."

Whether he intended to or not, the clothes he chose really did the job for
me. He was wearing a pair of grey jeans, which firmly snuggled to him. A
white shirt with short sleeves covered his upper torso and was tucked into
his trousers. He hadn't buttoned it up completely, so you could see quite a
lot of his bare chest. In his hand, he was holding a blue sports coat.

"Satisfied?" he moved up and down his hand as if advertising himself, the
well- known sly grin plastered to his face.

"It will not be too embarrassing to be seen with you."

My heart was beating in my throat, he was looking amazing.

"Close enough."


We arrived early at the college's movie theater, which was used mainly for
educational purposes, but was free to use in the evenings by the various
student's clubs. We got our name badges reading 'Kev Schneider is Rocky'
and 'Leon Fitzgerald is Frank-N- Furter', our names added by one of the
students with a marker pen. Additionally, we got handed a small stack of
paper cards, having 'Rice', 'Water', 'Toast' etc. written on them.

"What's that for?" Kev asked.

"Some...um... rituals have formed around watching this movie. There are
scenes where the audience throws rice or slices of toast or shoots a water
pistol. The fan club had some trouble with campus administration regarding
the cleaning afterwards. So they came up with those." I raised the small
package of cards.

"Oh. I have heard of it. But when I am supposed to throw what? I've never
done that before." Kev was frowning in puzzlement.

"The fan club has integrated little cues into the movie, subtitles telling
you to prepare a certain card and the exact moment when to throw it. There
are some interjections by the audience as well, but these are subtitled,
too. Like Karaoke. It's the 'Dummy's Guide to the Rocky Horror Picture
Show'." I smirked.

"Awesome. I like that one."

Kev held up a card that simply read 'Card' and chuckled. That sound still
hadn't lost its effect on me.

The movie itself was great. It was heartwarming to watch Kev. He was
enthusiastic like a child... a very big child, indeed. We even joined the
crowd dancing the Time Warp. Kev was a good dancer; more flexible than one
would expect a man of his stature to be. It was the third fun evening in a
row and all of them had one thing in common: Kev.

On our way back, like the day before with the action movie, we replayed
scenes. We had fun singing the songs. We didn't sing them well, but full of
verve. Much too soon, we were back in our room, where singing wasn't an
option any longer, not without pissing off our fellow students. We changed
for bed and talked.

"We have to go next time as well. That was even more fun than just
watching. Let's do the Time Warp agai-in." He sung the last part in his
deep baritone voice.

I cackled.

"As I have already told you: they don't need much encouragement to show it
over and over again. We will have plenty of opportunities to see it."

"I liked especially watching it with you."

That was borderline awkward, but I decided to go with it.

"Same here, Kev. Was nice to see someone as captivated by the movie as
me. And nice hip action on your side."

That earned me another of his smiles. My heart was close to a meltdown.

"Oh, I haven't told you yet. I'll have a job interview tomorrow at the
fitness spa in the city, close to the cinema. They are looking for an
instructor. I phoned the owner today and he was quite impressed with my
qualifications. So keep your fingers crossed for me."

"Sounds great. Good luck then, Kev."

"Thanks. The work hours would go very well with my timetable. I hope for
the best.

Would be nice to have some extra bucks. Just in case my pimp... beg my
pardon... my patron gets tired of me."

"You won't get rid of me that easily, Kev. We are stuck to each other." I
pointed a finger at him while saying it. The effect would have been better,
if I had kept a straight face.

Kev laughed, but his eyes showed that this little act had moved
him. Somehow, he had felt the affection that was hidden in my words, had
seen behind the fa‡ade of banter. These were the same mechanics at work
by which I perfectly knew, what he had felt. It was one of those rare
moments, where emotions were communicated directly, transcending cumbersome
words.

"No-one wants to get rid of you." Kev said almost too soft to hear.

The moment had passed and in its wake had left behind a feeling of loss and
emptiness, which was almost tangible in the room. We didn't say another
word and just switched off the lights.


Like the two days before Kev woke me up for our running session the next
morning.

He was wearing the new track suit, I had ordered, and was smiling at
me. The bizarre ending of the last evening now seemed distant and blurred;
it had faded away like a dream. I smiled back, got up and dressed in the
new outfit, too. Kev had some more running tips for me and this time I
performed even better. Not much, but notably. I could tell by his look that
Kev was very proud of me. It made me happy beyond reason.

During breakfast, we discussed his upcoming job interview, what he should
say and what he shouldn't say. We decided together that it was better to
wear a shirt and a tie, though he was applying for a job as a fitness
instructor. A good first impression could tip the scales in his favor. Kev
also talked to me about meeting Coach Derringer and that he liked the way
he had planned out his training. His team mates had been very open and
friendly, too. And it was the first time that I told him about Rob.

"You will meet Rob this evening." I grinned.

"Rob who? Did you already mention him?"

Kev was even cuter, when he was puzzled, just like Winnie the Pooh figuring
something out.

"If you think, Rob is a 'he'... then I didn't."

"That wasn't helpful."

"Rob is short for Roberta, Roberta Wilkins. But never....listen... never
call her Roberta. Don't even tell her that I told you her real name."

"Um, sounds like a nice person."

"Oh, she really is. She is a very good friend of mine. But be warned: her
ways of social interaction take getting used to."

"What about those intimidation issues I mentioned to you?" He gestured at
himself.

"Rob? Intimidated? She is capable of calling you plow horse to your face
the moment she meets you... thinking about it... she probably will."

"Now I have something to look forward to." He smiled an uneasy smile.

"Hey, you are a big and strong boy. You can take it. And if you get to know
her, you'll love her, too. If I had to pick a single person to cover my
back, she would be my first choice."

"Not me? That makes me sad." He pouted, but only for a second. A grin could
not be kept away from this face for long.

"I would choose you for covering my front. More surface for cover." Now it
was me gesturing at him.

"Hey, you." He got up quickly, grabbed me in a headlock with one hand and
tousled my hair with the other.

"It took hours to get that special hair style." I giggled. Kev laughed
along.

It hadn't evaded me that some of the people in the cafeteria had stirred
when Kev had grabbed me. They had relaxed as soon as I had started to
laugh, but it was my first glimpse of what Kev called 'intimidation
issues'. It was absolutely clear that I was in no danger, but in their
eyes, Kev was one of 'those types', someone who was well capable of a
public outbreak of violence, just because of the way he was built. It made
me sad and angry and it showed on my face. Kev, who had sat down again
opposite of me, frowned.

"What's up?"

"Haven't you seen?" I moved my hand to indicate the room.

"I did." He answered in a low voice.

"It makes me sick. They don't know you." I didn't bother to lower my voice.

He grabbed my hands and said in a voice even softer than before "Thanks."

My anger melted away looking into his grateful eyes, but I couldn't oppress
a glare at two guys sitting at a nearby table. They had made the mistake of
looking up at my outbreak.

"For goodness sake, I hope I will never be at the receiving end of this
glare. Did you know that your eyes turn to a much darker shade of green,
when you are angry?"

I looked back at Kev and couldn't help but laugh. Kev joined in.

"I have a good feeling that you won't."

I realized then that we were still holding hands.


The rest of the day dragged along. The activity on campus had
increased. Students returned to the college for the upcoming term. Kev had
left early for training. His job interview would be in the late afternoon,
five o'clock, and he wanted to be done with training before that.

He returned to our room to get dressed for the interview by four
o'clock. Kev had decided on a pair of blue jeans, not as tight as the grey
ones had been, a white shirt with long sleeves and a tie with grey and blue
stripes. He tried three times to get the knot of the tie
right... unsuccessfully.

"Come here, big boy." I said in jest.

He looked at me with helpless eyes, tie dangling down in one hand.

"Now, it finally pays that my mom is working in the upper class fashion
sector. I could tie those, before I could tie my shoes. Sit down."

I was sitting on my bed and Kev sat down in front of me before the bed,
facing away from me. I quickly went through the very familiar movements. It
helped that by the way he sat it was like creating the knot for myself.

"A full Windsor. Given the size of your neck, that's a good choice." I did
some final adjustments to the knot. "Go. See for yourself."

He got up and looked in the mirror, which was on the inside of one of the
wardrobe's doors. He looked around the door, beaming at me.

"I've never looked that good in a tie."

"Fashion and math: my fields of expertise."

Kev chuckled and that alone had been worth the effort.

"Thanks. I owe you one. Wish me luck."

"Break a leg!" I winked at him.

With another smile and a wave he was gone.


An hour after Kev had left, the door burst open and an all too familiar
female voice was booming through the room.

"I am back, little one."

Rob kept calling me 'little one' just to annoy me. And to be frank: she
towered me by a full head's length, so it wasn't exactly inaccurate.

"My soul, if that isn't Roberta Wilkins."

Using her full name never failed. Her face distorted into an angry mask.

"What did I say about calling me that and wanting to have all your fingers
intact?"

"You wouldn't knock someone around, who was smaller than you." I said in my
sweetest voice.

Her face relaxed, she smiled.

"You know me too well. Come here, little one."

And we hugged. Her hugs could be as crushing as Kev's, despite the
considerable difference in stature. Rob wasn't exactly a beauty queen, but
she wasn't ugly either.

She had dark blond hair that touched down on her shoulders. She had brown
eyes and her complexion tended to be almost a shade of olive. Her heritage
was so mixed that no one bothered to give exact fractions (1/8th Spanish,
1/16th Italian etc. you get the gist). Wilkins family reunions resembled
international conferences. Been there, done that. Her body was athletic,
but still lithe. In high school, she had been a cheerleader and quite a
good one according to some articles you could find on Google. But like her
full name, her cheerleading career was a soft spot and she would violently
deny she ever did it.

"Missed me, little one? Pined away in agony and boredom?"

"Of course, I missed you. Except the pining part."

"Ouch. That hurt, bastard." But she smiled saying that.

That was our normal way of communication. A delicate balance of
pleasantries and insults, filled up with trivia. We both excelled at this
game and that was part of why we came along so fine.

Her gaze fell on the clothing that Kev had discarded on his bed.

"How's the replacement Josh?"

"He is not a replacement Josh... and he is nice."

"Nice? Oh, my fucking God. You fell for him head over heels, didn't you,
little one?"

"Don't use the Lord's name in vain." I tried to distract.

"Don't play the smart aleck on me. You did fall for him?"

"It's that obvious?"

"You can't hide much from your 'alternative' part-time fag hag." She did
the quotation marks with her fingers. "But no one else would notice, I
swear."

"I would prefer, if you do not call yourself my 'alternative' part-time fag
hag, when he is around." I mimicked her quotation marks.

"Ah, in love and not even out to him. You haven't been diagnosed with
pathological masochism, have you?"

"As always, you are the helpful guide to the shallows of my gayness."

"You are welcome, little bitch. What does he look like?"

"He is big."

"Big as in having a zip code of his own?" She raised an eyebrow in
disbelief.

"No. Big as in making He-Man look like a wimp."

"Yeah, that's more your type. And I have to refine my diagnosis: add severe
self- destructive tendencies to the pathological masochism."

"He is nothing like that... violent... or such."

"If you say so."

That was when someone knocked at the door. Kev opened the door carefully,
looked around it and entered.

"I heard voices and didn't want to intrude."

These small things made Kev even more likable. But Rob was somehow immune
to any form of chivalry.

"We still have our clothes on."

Uncertainty spread on Kev's face.

"As if anyone would like to be around you naked."

I had added a liberal amount of venom to this sentence. At least, it had
struck hard enough to silence Rob for the moment.

"Rob Wilkins, bad mouthed friend girl, meet Kevin Schneider, my new
roommate."

Kev relaxed visibly at the usage of the term 'friend girl'. He extended his
hand, put on his grin and said "Nice to meet you, Rob Wilkins."

"Nice to meet you, Kevin Schneider."

They shook hands. Only I would know that she was mocking him by using his
full name as he had done and gave her a warning sideway glance.

"What do you normally do with these hands? Compacting trash cars?"

Her face showing nothing but pure sincerity.

"No. Usually, I do uproot trees with my bare hands. But today is my day
off."

Kev was smiling.

I looked up at him and couldn't suppress a grin. He had gone for the
offense, the only way to deal with Rob. That should have earned him some
points in her book.

"Oh. They sent the funniest one of the barn."

A friendly sentence by Rob's standards.

"I even won a prize at the state fair." And Kev whinnied.

I started to laugh, Kev and Rob joined in.

"Touch‚!"

"Hey, I have to unpack and the trip was quite exhausting. See you tomorrow,
you two."

She was almost out of the door, when she turned to Kev.

"The little one is mostly a pain in my ass, but the Lord may have mercy on
you, if something happens to him."

She slammed the door shut.

"What was that about?" Kev gestured at the door.

"Mother complex." I shrugged.

We both snickered.

"Kev, it may not have looked like it, but that went exceptionally well. You
have been cordially welcomed by Rob."

"Lucky me." He made a funny face.

Kev started to remove the tie.

"Don't tantalize me, Kev. What about the job?"

His face turned sour and I started to regret my question.

But then the familiar grin grew back on it.

"You are talking to Kev Schneider, assistant fitness coach at Dave's
Holistic Fitness Spa."

"Holistic? Like in ...?" I asked, imagining nude people jumping around,
burning incense sticks and imitating animal sounds.

Kev chuckled.

"They offer Yoga and Qui Gong courses as well, nothing too weird."

"Okay. Though it will take some days to get rid of the imagery that had
just popped up in my mind."

Kev's chuckle turned to full out laughter.

"Congratulations, Coach Schneider."

"Assistant Coach Schneider." He corrected, still laughing.

We had a small dinner in our room, consisting of cup noodles, after we had
both changed into something more comfortable. We compared time tables and
to our delight we could have lunch together every day except on Fridays,
when Kev would have a regular two-hour team meeting from 12 to 2.

"Just to warn you: I will be on my new nutrition plan starting
tomorrow. Mostly proteins and not too many carbohydrates or fat. You may
find my meals a little strange."

"I had to live with my sister, who must have tried every nutrition plan
that has ever been invented. She never had weight problems, but was a
little paranoid regarding her body. So, I've seen almost everything
meal-wise, I can assure you."

We both smiled at each other.

"You are close to your family, aren't you?"

"Yes. I am. Mom and Dad have always been more like friends than
parents. They let me find out things for myself. Tiffany and I, we had our
quarrels, but nothing serious.

Normal sibling stuff. I've told you about her husband Marc and their
toddler, Christopher."

"That sounds nice." A subtle sadness had found its way to his eyes.

"Hey. You will happen to meet them all... and then you'll regret that you
did."

The sadness persisted. We talked a little bit more, listened to some music,
but having in mind the pending start of the term, we called it a night
early.


The next weeks passed by in no time. Courses had started, lots of work was
the result.

Kev had taken up his job at the spa. The situation between Kev and Rob had
finally calmed down and there was even a budding friendship between the
two. Befriending Rob wasn't easy, but rewarding. At last, she was convinced
that Kev meant no harm for me. We spent the evenings together, sometimes
all three of us, more often just Kev and me. Our friendship deepened every
day and it seemed that we were still far away from hitting rock
bottom. Likewise, my other feelings for Kev grew stronger. Every time I
thought that I possibly couldn't like him more, he did something, a small
friendly act or it was a thing he said, that made him even dearer. Our
daily lunches were something to look forward to, when a course dragged
on. The running training, which Kev and I carried out meticulously, was
most important for me. My progress there made me feel good. The training
gave me something I was good at beside mathematics. During all the time we
spent together, not once did we speak about relationships or love
interests. For me the reasons were obvious, but I couldn't come up with an
explanation, why Kev was avoiding that subject. Given his looks, there had
to be someone interested. Ignorance was bliss. Repeatedly, I had been close
to come out to Kev. But telling him about me being gay was inseparably
intertwined with me admitting my feelings for him. So I kept silent.

It was now the first week of October, a Wednesday. Kev had just returned
from the spa. And he looked like hell, deep dark rings around his eyes, he
was pale and beads of sweat glistened on his forehead. He went straight for
his bed; he didn't even bother to change his clothes.

"I think, my head will burst any time now." He moaned.

Again and again, he had fits of coughing. The sound of his coughing
terrified me to the bones: it was a dark and hollow bellowing sound. By ten
o'clock in the evening, his breathing was accompanied by a rattling
noise. I panicked. I fetched my cell phone and with shaking fingers, dialed
the number of the doctor, who had an office in the city.

"Do you have any idea, what time it is?"

He wasn't too delighted about my call.

"It's my friend, he's coughing and there is this rattling sound, when he
breezes."

"You are aware that a house call this late is rather expensive?"

"Money's no problem." I said coolly.

It was beyond me, how the doctor could barter with me for dollars, when
there was something terribly wrong with Kev.

"Okay, okay. Can you give me the address, please?"

I described in detail, where the doctor would find us on campus. It would
take him 45 minutes to get here. I grabbed my wallet, took out the credit
card and left our room, heading for the ATM on the ground floor.

Expensive? How much is expensive?

I chastised myself for not having inquired about the exact rate. I settled
for $1000, which should be more than enough to cover even the most
exorbitant invoice and the most exotic treatments. In hindsight, it was
ridiculous to get so much money, but in the state of mind I was in, sober
thinking was not an option. I returned to our room.

"Kev, can you hear me? The doctor is on his way."

He didn't answer me; he barely awoke from his fitful rest, nodding an
acknowledgement, just to fall back in this half-state between sleep and
consciousness.

I waited; waited for an eternity, so it seemed.

Finally, the doctor arrived. His unfriendly demeanor on the phone had made
place for a more professional kindness. He examined Kev, while I stood
right beside the bed, watching terrified.

"I have to apologize for my reaction on the phone. It is good that you
called me. Your friend is suffering from a severe bronchitis. The earlier
we start the treatment, the better. I can inject him an antibiotic, which
is fairly new on the market. It will help to get a fast response from the
immune system and support it in the fight against the illness. The therapy
is then continued with standard antibiotics."

"Okay."

"Problem is: even if I charge you the wholesale price for the shot, it will
be $250.

That's just the injection, being students that might be too..."

"Do it, Sir. As I told you on the phone, money is no problem." I
interrupted the doctor, looking at him pleadingly.

"Sure." He gave me an encouraging smile.

He prepared a syringe with a liquid that had a blue tinge in the dim
lighting of Kev's bed-side lamp. He disinfected Kev's right crook of the
arm and injected the content of the syringe into one of Kev's veins.

"Don't worry. Your friend will be alright. Apart from the bronchitis, he is
strong and healthy. Here, I prepared the prescription for you. There is a
pharmacy on campus.

They should be able to order that special drug. If you go there early in
the morning, they should have it by noon."

"Thanks, Sir."

"You are welcome. The shot I gave your friend contains a strong sedative;
he will probably sleep straight for the next 16 hours. Idea is that the
self regeneration of the body works better that way. As soon as he awakes,
start giving him the other antibiotics. One pill, three times a day. There
should be at least six hours between two pills. Make sure that he uses up
the entire package, even if he doesn't show symptoms anymore. And give him
lots of mineral water, at least two liters. Any questions?"

"Is there anything else I can do for him?"

"Love and chicken soup. That's what my grandma always gave me, works
wonders...

no kidding." He smiled at me and I managed a small smile myself.

He wrote the invoice and I paid him cash. Considering the price of the
shot, the overall amount seemed ridiculously small. The doctor seemed to
have refrained from charging any extra for the house call.

"Thank you again, Sir."

"He should thank you for looking out for him."

We shook hands and said goodbye.

Though I knew that I couldn't do anything, I stayed awake and watched
beside Kev's bed.


In the morning, I went to the pharmacy and to Prof. Smyth. I told him that
I would not be able to attend his course today explaining to him the
situation.

"Leon, you are such a good student. You can easily catch up, what you'll
miss today.

Take care of that friend of yours. Mathematics can wait, friends sometimes
can't."

He clapped my shoulder. I called Kev's employer, Dave, and told him that
Kev was seriously ill and wouldn't make it to his job for the rest of the
week. Dave was sympathetic and ensured me that that wasn't a problem at
all. Finally, I informed Kev's coach and his professors of his illness.

Around twelve o'clock, I fetched the antibiotics and bought a thermos jug
at the campus store. With the jug I paid a visit to Deng Long's and he
filled it with his famous chicken soup.

Love and chicken soup. I can give him both.

Back in our room, I resumed my position at Kev's bed. He was still fast
asleep, as the doctor had predicted. The time between his coughing fits had
already lengthened notably. The coughing itself wasn't as severe as the
night before. He had regained some color and he didn't sweat any more. I
laid my head on his bed and fell asleep at once.

"Leon?" Kev's voice was frail, his hand touched my head.

"Shhh. You are still weak." A glance at the watch told me that it was a
quarter past three.

"I am thirsty... and hungry."

I poured him a glass of mineral water and helped him drinking it. Another
one followed. I fetched the thermos jug and put some of the soup into a
cup. It was a considerable effort to rise Kev into an almost upright
position, his back resting at the bed's head. He weighed at least twice as
much as I did. I held the cup in one hand and a spoon in the other. I fed
him spoon by spoon, encouraging him like a little child to take just one
more. He managed to eat the entire cup. I smiled at him and he returned my
smile weakly. I poured him another glass of water and gave him the first
dose of antibiotics. I helped him to lie down again.

"Don't leave me alone." He sounded desperate.

"I'll stay right here." I took his hand.

He closed his eyes, smiled and fell asleep at once.

Two hours later, Kev awoke again. He was shivering now.

"I am feeling terribly cold." he muttered.

I fetched my blanket and wrapped it around him. But it didn't seem to help
much. His trembling didn't subside.

There was only one thing left in this room that could warm him... me. I
lowered myself down on him, tried to cover as much of him with my tiny body
as was possible. He wrapped his arms around me bringing me close to
him. After some minutes, the shivering stopped. We both fell asleep as we
lay.

"Leon?" His voice was stronger than it had been some hours ago.

"Um?"

"I don't know how to say... I need... I have... to go to the restroom."

It was eight o'clock now. I hadn't considered that, obvious as it was. He
hadn't been to a restroom for 24 hours. Moreover, I had made him drink
three glasses of water and fed him one cup of soup.

"Can you make it there, if I support you? Carrying you is not an option, I
fear."

"It'll work." He gave me an encouraging grin.

I helped him to sit up in bed and he moved his legs out of it. Considering
our vast difference in height, I couldn't lay my arm around him and support
him this way. We settled for me to walk upright and Kev rested with his
forearm on my shoulder. Kev tried to carry as much of his own weight as he
could, but half of it still pressed down on me. Half of him was still a
full me. The restrooms were on the floor, directly right to our room, but
it took us five minutes to get there and to place Kev in one of the
stalls. Same procedure for the way back. I realized that Kev was still
wearing yesterday's clothes. When we were back in our room, I asked him
"Can you stand another 5 minutes?"

"Sure."

"Do you mind, if I change your clothes and wash you?"

"Of course not."

I undressed him as quickly as I could, rubbed him with a damp wash cloth,
strictly avoiding his pubic region, and redressed him in pajamas. It felt
especially awkward putting on his underwear. In less than the five minutes
I had requested of him, he was back in bed. Time for another glass of water
and another cup of soup, I decided. He did comply. The coughing had almost
stopped by now. I wrapped him into the two blankets and he went back to
sleep. My grumbling stomach reminded me that I hadn't eaten anything this
day. I went for cup noodles, checking for emails on my cell phone while
eating. Only one message sent by Prof. Smyth was of interest: he described
the content of today's course, gave me some pages in a book as a reference
and told me that he had excused me from Prof. Hallman's course, which would
be tomorrow. I thanked him in a short reply. So, I had the whole of
tomorrow for caring for Kev.

Since all my papers for this week had been ready the day before yesterday,
I could fully concentrate on him. I sent the paper for Prof. Hallman by
email, thanking him for the sympathy regarding the situation. Kev was still
sleeping. At ten o'clock, we had to manage another visit to the rest
room. Kev had regained some more of his strength, so it went more smoothly
than before. It was time for more soup, water and the next pill.

I spent another night half-cradled on the side of his bed.


"Leon?"

It was the next morning and Kev's voice showed only the slightest hint of
weakness, a small slur.

"How are you doing?"

"Still a little dizzy, but way better than yesterday. Don't you have to
attend a course at 10:00?"

"Took a day off." I joked.

"The spa...training...courses..." he bolted up, but I stopped him.

"I phoned Dave, your coach and your professors. You are excused for the
rest of the week. Relax."

"You thought about everything." he smirked. A good sign.

"Tried to." I managed a grin myself.

I fetched us breakfast from the cafeteria, bringing along some sandwiches
for lunch, completely ignoring Kev's nutrition plan for once.

He didn't sleep, but he was drowsing most of the time. I made use of this
time by reading the material Prof. Smyth had pointed out. Complex analysis
was a really interesting subject, so it was almost fun working. I even read
some chapters in advance. Kev managed to go to the restrooms alone now,
which was quite a relief.

So the day just went by.

In the evening, we ordered pizza. Kev's appetite had returned, definitely
an excellent sign. I made sure that he didn't forget the antibiotics and
the water.


In the evening, as so often, we listened to some music together, lying in
our beds.

"Leon, I don't even know how to start to express my gratitude." Kev began.

"Was nothing." I waved it off with my hand.

"Nothing? Leon, you got the doctor...oh... I owe you money, don't I?" That
hadn't occurred to him until then.

"You owe me nothing, Kev, do you understand? Nothing. One thing there is:
you owe me to get well again."

"But..."

"End of discussion." My gaze made clear that I meant it.

"Okay, for the moment. But besides money: you watched over me, fed me,
warmed me, carried me to the restroom, washed me, dressed me...That is
quite a lot of nothing!"

"It's what a best friend is supposed to do, isn't it?"

"I am your best friend?"

"The best I ever had." I added softly.

It was the truth. Even Josh or Rob couldn't rival with Kev, not
anymore. They were good friends, very good friends, but in comparison to
Kev the relationship with both of them seemed shallow. The added dimension
of my other feelings for Kev made our friendship more profound. It was that
very moment, when I had realized that. Kev had called me his best friend on
our first weekend, now I was able to return the sentiment.

Kev's answer was a smile that went straight up to his eyes and didn't even
seem to stop there.


Of course, we did not resume our running training on Saturday, Kev was
still not at his best. But I realized, how attached I had become to
running, how much I missed it.

Though Kev hadn't fully recovered yet, he was close enough. His cheerful
manner had returned, together with his irremovable grin. I was reading
again in one of the books that Prof. Smyth had suggested to me. It was
pretty advanced stuff, but I could handle it. One problem, which regularly
returned during terms, was the stiffness in my neck. When I had to read and
write most of the day, the muscles in my neck just cramped. I
absentmindedly rubbed my neck.

"Do you have problems with your neck?" He approached my desk.

"It's okay. Just a little overstrain."

"Lemme see."

"It's okay."

"Hey. I am the physical therapist in training here. I'll decide, whether
it's okay."

That left no space for arguing. His hands touched me; softly in the
beginning, applying gradually more strength over time.

"You are all tense. I can feel the knots. Lie down on your bed. I'll give
you a massage."

"You don't need to."

"Yeah, and you didn't need to call the doctor, watch over me, feed me, warm
me, carry me around."

Again my possibilities for arguing were severely limited. Reluctantly, I
lay down on my bed.

"Um, Leon. You normally take your clothes off for a massage. At least get
rid of the sweater."

I had seen that coming.

So, I was lying there with my bare torso on my stomach. Kev straddled me at
the height of my butt, but due to the vast difference in size, Kev's legs
or groin didn't even touch me. I neatly fitted beneath him. His hands
touched my neck again. Like before he started softly, but increased the
intensity of his touches. His hands moved slowly down, his kneading
movements covering more and more of my back. His touches sent bolts of
electricity into my skin. I realized with relief that he stopped the
treatment at the small of my back. His tender (and not so tender) treatment
had had its effect on my groin: I was sporting a rock hard erection that
pressed painfully against my underwear, pants and, ultimately, my bed. If
his hands had ended anywhere near my ass, I would have come at once, no
need for touching anything in the front. It took all my strength not to
moan out.

"Done. Better now?" Kev got off my back.

My neck felt much better now, which could not be said of the lower parts of
my body. I realized with a start that I could not get up from the bed
without him noticing my 'predicament'.

Think of Mom in swim wear, flowers, little kittens, 'Every function, which
is holomorphic on the entire complex plane and is bounded, is constant.'
That was the most creative application of Liouville's theorem that I was
aware of. But it did the trick. Sadly, I would never be able to share this
special application with the mathematical community.

"Much better, thank you." I turned around very slowly to give me a little
more recovering time. But Kev was standing at my desk, his back to me, very
interested in one of my math books.

"We'll repeat this for the days coming."

I had been afraid to hear exactly this.

"Just looking at your books... could you explain to me what convergence of
a sequence and a series is? I didn't exactly get that in the Calculus
course."

"Sure."


After some more days, Kev had fully recovered. He had insisted on the
massages, re- creating the same reaction of my cock every single time. At
least, now I was sure that I knew most mathematical theorems by heart.


Time passed by and soon November was about to start.


"He made you do what?" Rob asked in a shrill voice.

"He didn't make me do anything. He asked me, whether I would help him
oiling up for the fake competition they would do for training."

"Which you did?"

"Sure. See, for some people friendship does mean more than exchanging
insults."

"Perhaps, he figured out you are gay and is now trying to kill you by
sexual tension or wants you to make a move to get away with 'self defense',
that psycho." Once again quotation fingers.

"Now add aliens and the government and you have one heck of a conspiracy
theory and I only know one psycho... hint one... in this room... hint
two... it's not me."

After a short pause I added "How could he have figured out?"

"Perhaps you going all Florence Nightingale on him tipped him off?"

She had made a valid point.

"Or he likes... me."

"Don't go there, little one. Don't go there." She grabbed me in a tight
embrace "That will just hurt you."

It was one of the few instances, I saw the more compassionate side of
her. She really was worrying for me this time.

"Thanksgiving. He has nowhere to spend it, so he'll stay here. I'll spend
it with him."

I hadn't told her yet. I hadn't dared to.

"You will what?" She pushed me away. "And your family?"

"Mom and Dad are on this cruise to celebrate their 30th anniversary. They
apologized a hundred times for it taking place on Thanksgiving."

"Tiff and Marc?"

"Of course, they have invited me. They are planning to visit Marc's
family. Nice people, but I barely know them. By the way, am I in some way
related to the parents- in-law of my sister?"

"In my family, yes. It would be as having married Marc yourself. In your
All- American-dream family, no. Back to topic."

"Mom and Dad sent me money. 'Spend it as you please... if you want to go
visit your sister... or anything else.' I've decided for 'anything else'."

"Don't come back crying to me, if he kills you."

"Rob, I promise you: I will not come back to you, if I am dead." I
emphasized the last word, pointing out her blunder. The whole sentence had
dripped with sarcasm.

"Dorm Haunting, part one: Return of the Fag. That would suit you. Leon, the
unfriendly ghost."

I couldn't help, but laugh. Rob glowered.

"Just don't get hurt, in any way. Got it, bitch?" She added softly.


I waited even longer to tell Kev. It was the Monday before
Thanksgiving. When he returned from the spa, I stood by my desk, beaming as
if I had lost it.

"What's up? Found the missing step in the proof you were working on?"

"I did, but that's not the point."

 I was teasing him.

"So, what IS the point?"

 Kev was puzzled.

"Guess, where I'll be on Thursday?"

"With your family? It's Thanksgiving."

"Nope. I will spend it with this best friend of mine. I don't know, if you
know him: tall.... muscular..."

"But..."

I explained to him the situation with my parents being on the cruise and
that I didn't want to celebrate Thanksgiving with Marc's family.

"Whoa. After all, it seems like this will be not just another lonely
holiday." Kev grinned, resting both of his hand on the back of his neck.

"Best is still to come."

 I teased him again.

Another one of those Winnie-the-Pooh-style puzzled looks his reaction.

"What's Thanksgiving without eating till you are full up? I reserved a
table at Rosenham's for the two of us."

"Rosenham's? That's an expensive place."

I told him about the money, which my parents had given me to ease their
conscience.

"It's bribe money. The bad karma has to be set off by using it for
something extraordinary fun and sharing it with someone else."

"And classy." Kev didn't give up.

"Yep. Formal wear required."

"Um, Leon, you know the tie I have, the one with the stripes? That's about
all the formal wear I own."

"Mmmm. That's a problem... oops... look what I've found under my desk."

I produced a cardboard box with "Fitzgerald's" written on it in a loopy,
golden writing.

"You didn't buy me..." Kev started.

"No. I never commit the same mistake twice." I smirked.

"And..." he pointed at the box.

"It's a rental suit from my mom's shop."

"Thought your mom is on a cruise."

"Beth, her assistant, is running the shop at the moment. You are a wary
one, aren't you?"

Kev grinned apologetically.

"I asked her to send those as well." I was holding a pair of black leather
shoes in my right hand.

"I know your size and I described you to Beth. Better you try on the suit
and the shoes. We can still get replacements till Thursday." I handed him
the shoes and the box.

Kev handled the box as if he was carrying a selection of the most precious
china in the world. He put it down on his bed and opened it.

"Um, Leon, the label says 'Armani'. It's fake, isn't it?"

"You are lucky that my mom didn't hear that. It's genuine, fall collection,
prˆt-a- porter." The last part I said with a thick French accent that
was definitely fake.

He took out the trousers and the jacket. The color was a light gray with a
very decent pinstripe pattern some shades darker. Beth had added a simple,
but elegant, white shirt and two ties, from which he could choose. He tried
them on and it seemed as if this suit had been tailored just for Kev. Even
the shoes were a perfect fit. He undressed again and carefully folded the
clothing back into the box. He caressed the outside of the box with both
hands.

"Never in my life have I worn such nice clothing." Kev was close to tears.

"And there will never be a nicer guy in them."

Kev looked at me.

"What if something happens to them, if I ruin them?" He was about to panic.

"You know, I am very close to the shop keeper..." I crossed the middle and
ring finger of my right hand, imitating the gesture you often saw in hip
hop video clips "... she's a cool bitch."

It had the desired effect: Kev relaxed and chuckled.

"Does your mom know what you call her behind her back?"

"I hope not."

We burst out laughing.


Officially, only Wednesday to Friday were without courses. But
unofficially, the whole week was very relaxed. The courses took place, but
the professors told tales, showed movies or started discussions very
unrelated to the courses' topics. As a strange coincidence, the entire
faculty forgot to bring along the attendance lists. They told us that they
would have to fill them out by memory, which meant that they would tick off
every single name on it. It felt like a blink of an eye and Thursday was
there.

Kev was very excited in this charming, childlike way of his. He talked
about the restaurant the whole day, the suit, what to drink, what to
eat. Finally, evening came.

I had already dressed in my suit, a black one made of very fine cord, and
wore a white shirt with a grey tie. I had just laced my shoes, when Kev
stood before me, the light blue tie from the box in his hand, a questioning
grin on his face.

"Sit down." I snickered.

When I was finished binding his tie, he put on his shoes and the jacket. He
looked at me.

"What do you think?" He turned around.

He was looking like one of the models from a fashion catalogue. It was like
one of those men had stepped out of his paper prison.

"Very nice." I understated. "Me?"

"Very nice as well." He grinned, of course.

"Pretty overdressed for the bus."

"Who said we would go by bus?" I asked mysteriously.

"By taxi?"

I made a noise like in one of those game shows, indicating a wrong answer.

"Try again."

Kev shrugged.

"Then you'll have to wait and see for yourself."

"Oh, I almost forgot." Kev moved to his wardrobe and got out something that
was long and thin, wrapped up in white paper. He opened it, revealing two
white carnations.

"For the final touch."

He attached one of them to a button hole of my suit, doing the same with
the other one on his suit.

"Perfect." I remarked.

"Yes, indeed." We stood side by side at the mirror in Kev's wardrobe. And I
could have sworn that he had looked at me in the mirror, when he said it.


At the dorm's entrance, the secret of our transportation was finally
revealed: a black limousine was parking right in front of it. A portly
driver in a uniform held open the door and greeted us "Gentlemen."

We climbed into the car and soon we were heading for Rosenham's.

Kev couldn't decide, whether looking accusingly at me or grinning up to his
ears, his face constantly changing between these two extremes.

"That must have been very expensive."

"My parents had a very bad conscience." I smiled slyly. "It was their first
time to buy the love of their son, so they went for safety."

That cracked Kev up.

"Gentleman. No one has ever called me gentleman and meant it." He added
laughing.

I joined in.

Rosenham's was really an exclusive place. We were greeted by the maŒtre
d' and he politely asked us to wait at the bar until our table would be
prepared. Places like this did not ask for id and both of us were close
enough to be legal. The bar consisted of a counter made of a very dark
wood. On the backside, a selection of exquisite beverages had been
arranged. Since neither Kev nor I were experts regarding alcohol, we
followed the suggestion of the bar tender: the house's special cocktail. It
was sweet and creamy, not too strong.

It didn't take long, until we were led to our table, well secluded at the
very back of the restaurant. It had been arranged with white table clothes
and a simple, but elegant flower arrangement. A thin long candle was
burning in the middle of the table. Kev looked uneasy at the arrangement of
forks, spoons, knives and glasses.

"Just follow my example." I winked at him.

"You've been to such places before?"

I simply nodded. Having a lawyer and a shop owner as parents meant business
lunch with family attendance more often than not.

The maŒtre d' approached our table.

"Mr. Fitzgerald, you have ordered a special five-course menu for
tonight. An excellent choice, if I am allowed to comment. I would recommend
our house champagne to accompany the entr‚e?"

"I would be honored to follow your suggestions." I said politely.

He nodded and smiled friendly at both of us.

When he had left, Kev said in a low voice, grinning as usual "I don't even
know what an entr‚e is."

He was soon to find out. All five courses were delicious. The main course
consisted of turkey, roasted in a very special way using honey and
mustard. Even an upper class restaurant like this couldn't ignore that it
was Thanksgiving.

The meal was over much too soon. We were well fed and overall content. Both
of us have had a wonderful time, chatting away and enjoying our company.

I had settled the bill, not forgetting to include a generous tip, and the
driver took us back to our dorm.

Kev was looking absentmindedly out of the tinted windows of the limo,
silent for most of the trip.

"A penny for your thoughts."

Kev laughed a short laugh.

"That's my line."

"What's up?"

"You know when people say that something is 'to die for'? I could drop dead
now and wouldn't mind. That must have been the nicest evening in my
life. Pretty morbid, isn't it?"

"I know, what you mean."

We sat the rest of the ride in silence.


Back in our dorm, the gloomy mood of the trip was forgotten. We still were
completely dressed in our evening wear. Only the light of my bedside lamp
illuminated the room. Kev was standing right beside his bed, while I was
putting my wallet back into the drawer.

"Leon. I want to thank you for this really awesome evening. Thanks for
staying here with me for Thanksgiving. You are really a dear friend." Kev
sounded like he was reciting a prepared speech.

"You are welcome!"

I smiled at him.

"Oh, come here."

That was more like Kev.  He seemed to have abandoned the script and had
decided to ad-lib. He crossed the room and I was bracing for another of his
bear hugs. For a change, he dropped to his knees, before pulling me into
his crushing embrace. For once, my face wasn't buried somewhere below his
chest, but my chin was resting on his shoulder. My arms were hanging slack
to my sides. Even if I could have moved them out of Kev's grip, they would
have been too short to fully return the embrace.

That hug lasted longer than any of the many others before. I let the
muscles in my neck relax and laid down my head on Kev's shoulder. That was
the moment, when something happened with Kev. Nothing physical, but it was
as if something within Kev had snapped into place. As if he finally had
reached a conclusion.

"Leon... this evening... it felt like a date." He said softly.

It wasn't a question but a statement.

It must had been that last glass of champagne or his proximity, his warmth,
strength and aroma, washing over me, or all of those, but my defenses were
forgotten for the fraction of a second.

"Perhaps it was."

It took me exactly three heart beats to realize, what I had said. Then all
hell broke loose inside of me. All the scenarios I had concocted around
coming out to Kev welled up in me simultaneously, struggling for my
attention.


Mild, but decided rejection...


Kev moving out of the room, leaving me behind alone...


Being beaten to a bloody pulp by his relentless arms...


I wasn't able to determine, which one of those was about to become true. I
felt like falling. Since I wasn't able to decide, I started to blurt out.

"I'm sorry...sorry...Kev...don't leave me...don't go...don't hurt me."

The jerky movement, which accompanied that mess of a sentence, caught Kev
off guard and he let go of me. I stumbled back one step and sank down to my
knees, still well within range of Kev's arms. I had started to cry, tears
flowing down my cheeks.

Kev stretched out his arms and took my face gently into his hands and made
me look at him.

"Leon... don't apologize... please... don't apologize for the very thing I
wanted from the first moment I saw you... don't take it away from me by
apologizing!" Tears welled up in his eyes as well.

"And no, Leon. I will never leave you. I will never go. And I'd rather die,
than hurt you." His tears started to flow.

My mathematically trained mind was used to process information step by
step, to follow a logical reasoning up to its end. But it took time to
think that way. I put my hands on Kev's, which were still holding my
face. I let my head slump on one of his hands, giving my mind the time it
needed to come up with its conclusion.

One step is missing, the proof is incomplete...

I raised my head again and let my hands slide along Kev's arms. With one
hand I gripped his chin; with the thumb of my other hand I wiped away his
tears. I took his face into my hands like he was still holding mine.

One step is missing, the proof is incomplete...

My mind requested proof, where the heart had already decided a long time
ago.

"Kev, say it, please." I whispered looking into his eyes.

He had understood.

"Leon, I love you."

Quod erat demonstrandum.

The walls made of what-ifs and could-bes crumbled down in a mighty roar,
finally releasing the four words, which they had guarded so meticulously.

"I love you, Kev."

We closed the distance till our foreheads touched, still holding each
other's face.

At last, our lips found and we kissed; tender at first, but soon tongues
asked for entrance and a fierce fight commenced. The entire tension that
had built between us over the past months was grounded in this single kiss.

We parted.

"Whoa." We said simultaneously, looking at each other.

That single no-word described it as well as a thousand pages full of
elaborate verses.

Poetry wasn't created by quantity, but by quality.

Kev looked at me.

"The invitation to this evening..."

"The oiling up and the massages..." I continued.

"You nursing me..."

"You looking at my ass..."

"When you had dressed up for me..."

"And you dressed up for me..."

"The track suit and the cinema tickets..."

"Accepting both gifts... forgiving me..."

"You looking at me in the showers..."

"Taking me with you for running..."

"Coming with me for running..."

"Playing that special song..."

"Helping me moving in..."

"Looking into your eyes for the first time." We simultaneously concluded
our list.

We had traced back together all those moments we had had; every single one
almost insignificant by itself, but now absolutely necessary in the overall
picture, each being a link in an inevitable chain of events. In hindsight,
it was almost painful to see how obvious our love for each other had been
from the first moment. I shared this conclusion with Kev.

"What a pity. We could have been lovers from the very beginning."

"But we became friends, before we became lovers. That must be good for
something."

I nodded.

"Kev, nonetheless, let's make a promise. No more tip-toeing around each
other, no beating around the bush. Truth and honesty. Boy scout's promise."
I crossed my heart like Kev had done before.

"Truth and honesty. Boy scout's promise." Kev crossed his heart as well.

The promise was sealed with another kiss.

We ended up stripped to the underwear in Kev's bed, snuggled firmly
together, kissing each other time and again. The idea of having sex didn't
occur to us this evening.  We were too emotionally spent for anything but
resting together, being close.


I woke early in the morning. I heard Kev's steady breathing behind me, his
warm and firm body close to mine. One of his arms was slung around me. From
the outside this may have looked possessive, but I felt protected and
safe. I knew for sure that Kev had no other intentions on his mind. With my
index finger, I softly traced along his arm, starting at his very finger
tips. I felt for every detail on his arm. I followed the bulge of his
biceps, probed every square inch of his triceps and all the other muscles,
whose names I didn't know. I once had wondered, whether Kev would feel like
granite. I had been wrong. He was firm, but still his skin was soft to the
touch, a soothing warmth radiating from him. Touching Kev felt a
thousand-fold more complex, more delicate than even the most exquisite
stone could feel. I lifted my finger off his arm.

"Please don't stop."

A trace of desperation was vibrating in his voice. I lowered my finger
again, which resulted in a soft intake of breath of his.

"Did I wake you up?"

"If I have to choose between this and sleeping, I do prefer this." He
chuckled.

Since all my defenses against Kev had been annihilated the night before,
this sound could penetrate my deepest core now. In addition to the goose
bumps, a shiver of pleasure shook my body.

"What was that?"

"That little chuckle of yours has its effects on me. It always had."

"Oh really..." He was close to my ear now and chuckled again, the result
being the same as before, but twice as strong.

"Leon, that is how I feel every time I see you." He whispered into my ear.

"Kev, why me? You could have every single gay man out there... and also
some of the straight ones."

"Leon, let me return the question. Why me? You are the most caring and
loving man I know. You possess an angelic beauty. No one in his right mind
would turn you down."

"Because I love you."

"And that is my answer to you. Because I love you."

We kissed and, in silence, we let these words sink in.


At last, we got up and decided to stick to our running training today. The
campus was deserted, an almost eerie place. We held hands during the entire
training, each of us afraid to awake from this beautiful dream, once we
would let go of the other.

We had just returned to the dorm and were now undressing in the changing
room of the shower. Having got rid of our clothes, Kev said "Truth and
honesty, Leon?"

"I don't understand..."

"You are allowed to look at me, all parts of me." Kev was grinning now.

I realized with a start that I was still avoiding to look at Kev's private
regions. I had brainwashed myself so thoroughly that I would not have
noticed myself, what I was doing. Or not doing.

Kev bowed down to me and said in a very low voice, directly into my ear "I
even wouldn't mind you touching me down there."

I knew that he was joking. Though only two hands full of students had
stayed in the dorm, this changing room was still a public place and someone
could enter at any moment.

"I will definitely come back to this offer." I smirked.

"Truth and honesty, Kev?"

"Go ahead." The grin still plastered to his face.

"Does it grow even more, when it gets hard?"

The grin widened into a full smile.

"You will have to find out for yourself. As the son of a lawyer you
wouldn't accept hearsay, would you?"

That said he walked into the shower. I followed suit.

When Kev started to soap up, the raunchier part of me gained the upper
hand.

"Let me do that."  I had added a purr to my voice.

"Sure."

If Kev had smiled any more now, his face would have split into two. He
handed me the shower gel. In soft rubs, I started with his chest and went
down to his abs. To tease him, I moved up again to his armpits and took
care of his back... strictly the upper parts of it, of course. Though my
touches had been anything but sexual, Kev was already panting and his cock
was hard as a rod of steel, bent up at a very nice angle. His cock and mine
thought obviously alike, since I was sporting one heck of an erection,
too. Furthermore, I had the answer to my previous question.

"Ah, exhibit A shows obvious signs of gaining considerably in length and
girth, when stimulated."

"Objection. Exhibit A hasn't been stimulated yet." Kev said, breathing
hard.

"Sustained. This omission of duties should be rectified at once."

My soapy hands grabbed Kev's cock, resulting in a growl of his. Though hot
as it was, it still was a little terrifying. Not me touching Kev's cock,
that was simply heaven. The fact, that both of my hands together could
barely cover two-thirds of it and that its diameter slightly exceeded the
diameter of my wrist, made me uneasy. My experience in man-to-man sex was
limited, but I knew that I would be in for a rough ride. Pun intended.

The noise of the door opening made us both freeze in mid-motion.

"Sorry, there. Wrong door."

An unfamiliar voice came from the door, which, to our relief, was closed as
fast as it had been opened. The half-wall had kept us hidden from view.

"Oh, exhibit A doesn't react too well to shock." That was Kev speaking.

Both of us had become flaccid again. We burst out in laughter.

"We better adjourn this hearing." I said, still laughing.

"Agreed."  Kev commented, his laugh fading into a grin.

Seemed as if both of us were not into public sex... at least not yet.


Back in our room, we had fits of laughter again and again. Almost having
been caught at touching cocks, seemed hilarious in hindsight. But it had
raised another question.

I wasn't quite sure how to tackle that subject, so I decided for a slow
approach.

"Kev...um... exactly how much privacy do you think is appropriate for our
relationship?"

That could be coming straight from a publicly funded gay awareness web
campaign.

I mentally smote my forehead. But I couldn't come up with anything sounding
more relaxed.

"Getting it on in the showers seems to be a no-go." Kev smirked.

"No kidding, Kev! How important is being tender in public for you?"

>From web campaign to college LGBT meeting.

"Do you feel embarrassed by me?" Kev's voice was filled with sadness.

I grabbed his hand and kissed it, for his lips were out of range.

"Kev, you dumb jock." I said tenderly "I want to go out there and announce
to the world that Kev Schneider is mine and mine alone. I want to hold your
hand out there, smother you with kisses. I want to rub it in everyone's
face. Anyone who is unlucky enough to cross my path."

Kev kissed me on the top of my head, whispering.

"Sorry."

"Kev, I love you. I've never been so sure about a thing in my life."

Another kiss was planted on my head.

"I love you, too." Still a whisper.

"So what about the public hand holding and the smothering?" I said, trying
to lighten up the mood again.

Kev chuckled.

"I would like that." He pretended to think, as if he had to convince
himself about it.

"Can it interfere with your scholarship?"

In a perfect world, it couldn't. But this was real world, expert at fucking
up your life since ten thousand B.C. So much for lightening up the mood.

"It's granted by the college itself. With all that diversity stuff going on
here, I don't think they would mind, quite the contrary. Coach is cool. The
team... not quite sure."

Kev didn't sound as confident as I had liked him to. My thoughts wandered
to my 'picket fence fund'. In a worst case scenario, it could pay for
another one and a half year of college. Whether Kev would accept my money,
was a different question. I kept this idea to myself, but having a plan B
helped to ease my worries.

"I'm not planning to become a professional bodybuilder. That could be
awkward.

Gays and professional sports don't mix well."

Sad, but true.

"Leon, as you have said I want to show it to the world. I want everyone to
know that Leon Fitzgerald is mine and mine alone." Kev started to grin at
the last part of his sentence, echoing my words from before.

I smiled back at him. Together we would make it.

"Um, Leon. Could we rehearse this smothering part? I don't want to ruin the
show because of stage fright."

I grabbed my pillow and smacked Kev hard with it... and then we thoroughly
rehearsed the smothering part.


The spa was closed over Thanksgiving and the following weekend, so we could
spent the day as we pleased. It was early afternoon, when Kev announced to
me he would skip his bodybuilding training session. It was obvious that he
was uncomfortable about it, since he had already skipped it the day
before. But it was obvious as well that he wanted to spend as much time
with me as possible. I had come up with an idea.

"Kev, I haven't seen you train. I haven't seen any bodybuilder train, to be
frank."

"It's boring to watch."

"I think it's up to me to decide." I smirked and added "I think, watching
you is anything but boring."

"No one will be there except me. Some company would be fine." Kev's face
had lighted up noticeably.

He packed his sports bag and we left together for the training hall. In the
light of our previous decision, I linked arms with Kev. He liked it, if the
smile on his face was any indication.

I had seen training machines in movies and on television, of course. But
close up, they reminded me of torturing devices and contraptions only
aliens could come up with.

Kev mainly trained on those machines that day, because no one was there to
spot him.

Spotting, that was a person watching out for another by securing the
barbells, as he had explained to me. I knew that Kev was strong, but
associating real numbers with his strength through the weights he was
lifting, put his power into a new perspective for me. Those numbers
exceeded my own weight by far. We didn't talk much, because I didn't want
to interfere with his training. I just wanted to be an observer. I had
never seen Kev that focused, concentration showing on his face. His
movements were controlled, revealing a routine that had been acquired by
years of practice. I couldn't deny that this display of strength was
sexually arousing.

After some two hours, Kev had finished his training and ticked off a list,
which was attached to one of the walls. Kev's eyes fell on a note that the
coach had put up on Wednesday, according to the date in the upper right
corner. It was likely that Kev was the first team member to see besides the
coach.

"Nice. Coach got our team into the college competition at the Hardwood
Contest. It's sponsored by billionaire Lars L. Hardwood, hence the
name. Very high prestige. A good ranking there and we are a sure pick for
the national college championships."

The note said that the competition would take place on December 15th, a
Friday.

"Short notice, isn't it?" I asked.

"We are well within our training goals. We should fare okay. It's difficult
to get into that contest. Likely that coach had to move heaven and earth to
do so. Perhaps, some team bailed out at the last moment and we are
replacing it."

"Larkville, that's not far from here?"

"It's a one hour drive. Why?"

"The Bergmont team will have at least one fan supporting it." I said, my
smile infecting Kev.

On our way back to the dorm, he explained to me that college level
bodybuilding was following a more natural approach than professional
bodybuilders did.

"We are striving for the best definition possible, but extremes are frowned
upon by the jurors at this level. We don't bulk up, either. Bulking up is a
special phase of weight loss and muscle gain that professional bodybuilders
have to endure before a competition."

Kev gave me the layman's explanation of professional bodybuilding, but at
least I could follow him that way. He hadn't showered at the training hall,
having decided to do so in the dorm. A plan was forming in my mind, fueled
by the sexual tension that had built up watching Kev's training session.

In our room, Kev had just grabbed fresh clothes and was about to leave for
the showers, when I put my scheme into action.

"Kev, could you give me another one of your massages. My neck is killing
me." I rubbed it for effect.

That wasn't quite the truth, the tone of my voice making that obvious. Kev
grinned.

"Just let me get showered and my hands are all yours."

"Please now. It hurts so terribly."

"But I'm all sweaty and sticky and smelly."

"I don't mind. Not at all..."

I had a flashback of the day of Kev's arrival, remembering his return from
the training, his musky smell then and its effect on me. Kev's thoughts
seemed to have strayed to the same event.

"You opened the window, when I returned on that first evening."

"Not exactly, because I didn't like your smell."

Understanding dawned on Kev's face.

"And I think after that massage, we will need a shower anyway. Did I
mention that I am not planning to wear any clothes this time?"

I put off my shoes for a start, before slowly pulling up my sweater.

"Let me help you."

Kev tenderly removed the sweater. He slowly unbuttoned my jeans, pulling it
down in a smooth motion while sinking to his knees. Kev bowed a little more
to kiss my stomach in many different places. His hands caressed my back and
my thighs. It was a small struggle to get me out of my briefs, my hard cock
interfering with the attempt.

Kev snickered.

"Don't laugh. It's all your fault." I joked.

"Then it's time to exact revenge on me."

Since he was kneeling before me, I could remove his t-shirt despite our
difference in height. It was clammy and I brought it to my nose, sniffed
it. I deeply inhaled Kev's aroma.

"No need to go for the substitute."

Kev had raised his arms to reveal his armpits, short blond hair covering
them. I let my head sink into his right armpit and reveled in the sensation
of his musk, its intensity being larger by magnitudes compared to the piece
of cloth I had just discarded to the ground. My tongue probed for Kev's
skin. A salty taste washed over me, intensifying my perception of his smell
even more. Kev moaned. I could feel his hard cock twitching, pressed
against me through the fabric of his pants and the jock strap. I motioned
him to stand up, Kev reluctantly complied. I lay my head on his waistband
and started to pull down his pants. I let my head slide down right after
the pants, my cheek rubbing along the jock strap. The aroma down here had a
different texture, darker, more vibrant. When the pants had reached the
ground, I put my head back in the position, where it had started its
descent. I repeated, what I had done before, starting to move down the jock
strap and letting my head follow shortly after. This time my cheek brushed
along Kev's tool, which had sprung up freed of its prison. Kev was
breathing heavily and was groaning almost constantly. I started to move my
head back up again, now using my tongue to trace the length of his
dick. Kev shivered with delight. He was already on the verge of coming. But
he obviously didn't want it to be over that soon, because he lifted me up
like you would do with a small child, turned me to the side till I was
cradled in both of his arms. He moved to my bed, carrying me.

"I am still owing you a massage." He said in a gentle tone.

He lay me down on my bed, back first.

"We have completely neglected you front side during our massages."

He straddled me, so that his cock was resting in the crack of my butt. He
bowed down to kiss me on the lips, neck, pecs, stomach. His hands rubbed up
and down my torso in circling motions, making my breath come in short
gasps. While his left hand continued the caressing, his right hand had
found my dick. Kev started to stroke it in a slow, but steady pace. At the
same time, he had started to move his hips synchronously, his cock brushing
against the soft skin of my ass cheeks. The rhythm increased, gained more
urgency. I could feel the muscles in Kev's groin tense, before a long groan
of his and a sticky, warm wetness on my butt marked his climax. The
intensity of his orgasm swept me along, making me spurt thick wads of cum
onto my own chest and stomach, panting. Kev let himself slump on me, most
of his weight resting on his arms beside me, his head lying on my chest.

His baritone voice resonated in my body.

"I will never shower again after training."

I snickered.

"I second this plan."

We cleaned each other with paper towels and I changed the sheets of my bed,
before we took a quick shower together.

We didn't want to leave our room for dinner, so we decided on Deng Long's
delivery service. 'Wir sind Helden' playing in the background, we made out
the whole evening, unable to keep our hands off each other. Once again we
ended up in Kev's bed, Kev spooning me, one of his arms around me and
drifted off into a blissful sleep.


On Saturday morning, we did our running training as usual. Again, we held
hands, not willing to miss any second of possible contact. After showering,
we headed for the cafeteria for breakfast. We had just started eating, when
Kev snatched one of the flyers lying on the table.

"They are showing 'The Wizard of Oz' in the city cinema this evening. I
love that one, too."

"Who doesn't?" I said laughing "Wanna go?"

"But this time, I will buy the tickets and the food." Kev grinned.

"Okay, okay."

Kev's job at the spa paid well enough not to have second thoughts about
accepting the offer. It would be our first date. At least, the first date,
where there was no doubt about it being one.

On the way back to our room, we checked our letterboxes in the dorm
hall. Kev had an officially looking envelope with the college's seal
waiting for him. He didn't seem to be in a hurry to open it, because he
just walked to the stairs leading to our room.

Once we had arrived there, he dropped it on his desk and picked up a book
about sports didactics to put it back on his bookshelf. I was starting to
worry.

"Looks important..." I said nervously, nodding in the general direction of
the envelope.

"The letter?" He started to laugh.

I went from worried to confused.

"These are just the results of my monthly health check." He finally opened
it.

"Yep. It is." He confirmed some moments later.

"They do all kind of tests on the team every month. They test for almost
everything: standard blood levels, steroids, drugs, STDs, whether we eat
our Lima beans..."

"STDs?" I inquired.

"Sure. Why?"

I opened one drawer of my desk and produced a white envelope.

"Two weeks old." I explained.

"You get tested for STDs?" Now it was Kev looking puzzled.

"When I was fresh here at college, I attended every single LGBT meeting
taking place. In one of them, they hammered into us, how important regular
testing is.

Compliant, little Leon has been at every single screening day, the LGBT
guys offered.

Though there has never happened much to warrant so much caution... till
now." I grinned at the end of my sentence.

"I am clean. Want to see?" Kev held out his results to me, grinning too.

"Me, too... clean... I mean."

I stretched out my hand, but retracted it, before taking the letter from
him.

"Kev, I trust you. If you say, you are clean, I'll believe you."

"So do I." He said, looking into my eyes.

"That means..." I started.

"Oh, wait!"

Kev moved over to me and knelt down before me, taking my hands into his.

"Leon Fitzgerald. Do you want to have unprotected sex with me?" Mock
sincerity was showing on his face.

"Yes, Kevin Schneider. I do." I said, playing the shy guy.

We couldn't help, but laugh.

However hilarious that 'proposal' had been, it still had been true to its
own nature. We had dedicated us to each other. What else was a proposal
meant for? Thinking about it this way made a warm feeling spread in my
stomach.

"What about right now?" Kev said with a sly grin and a nod to my bed.

He didn't wait for my answer. He swept me up and threw me onto my bed. Kev
followed with a jump, somehow managing not to crush me. Deep kisses being
exchanged, his body tenderly rubbed against mine. He moved his mouth to my
ear.

"I want you to fuck me." Kev whispered.

I stopped dead in my tracks. That had come unexpected. We hadn't talked
about it, but I had implicitly assumed that Kev would be the top, I would
be the bottom. I could have lived with that role allocation, lived with it
very well. The surprise must have shown on my face, because Kev was smiling
at me.

"Just because I am the big guy with the big dick, doesn't mean I'll leave
all the fun to you."

So much for the typecasting. I drew Kev into another deep kiss. If Kev had
more of these surprises up his sleeve, our relationship would never be
boring for sure. A thought urged into my mind.

"I've never fucked someone before..." I whispered after breaking the kiss.

"Then it's about time we get you started."

That sentenced finished, Kev got out of his longsleeve. I did likewise with
my hoodie, the sensation of our naked torsos touching heating up my desire.

"Just wait a second."

Kev jumped off of me and got a small dispenser bottle with a clear, viscous
fluid from one of the drawers of his desk. He placed it on my bedstand.

"We will need that," Kev said smirking, lowering himself down on me again.

One of his hands had gone for the button fly of my jeans and opened it. He
slid his hands into my briefs, making me moan. In small movements, he
caressed my cock and my balls. Not that this treatment had been essentially
necessary, since I was already sporting one heck of an erection. I enjoyed
it nonetheless. Each of my hands had grabbed one of Kev's ass cheeks
through the fabric of his track pants.

"Time to get rid of those as well."

He removed his pants together with the boxers he were wearing, me following
his example short after. We were lying on our sides now, looking at each
other. I started my way down Kev's body, planting a kiss here and there. I
had quick pecks for his cock and his balls, too, but I hadn't reached my
final destination, yet. Kev knew, where I was headed and lifted his legs
up, holding them fast with his hands. His wonderful ass, for which I had
fallen the first time I had seen it, was lying before me.

I touched the soft skin of his cheeks, before tracing the crack of his butt
with my fingers. I felt the tender tissue of his hole, which was already
twitching in anticipation. Kev made a whimpering sound, obviously enjoying,
what I was doing. I lowered my lips on his right cheek and kissed it
softly. The left one was in for the same treatment. Finally, I closed in
for his butt hole, giving it some short licks, before leisurely exploring
it with my tongue. The whimpering had stopped to be replaced by a gasping
sound. The longer I probed around, the more Kev's rosebud relaxed, allowing
my tongue to penetrate him deeper.

"Here... use it...on my hole..." Kev's voice was strained, coming in short
gasps.

He was holding out the bottle to me. I complied, applying a liberal amount
of the gel to his ass hole.

"Now stick a finger in there... prepare me...for more..."

I could feel his muscles clamp around my intruding digit. But after a short
while, they relaxed and I could let my finger wander around. I hit a walnut
shaped bump, extorting a feral roar from Kev. I had found his prostrate, my
theoretical knowledge about it now substantiated by practical experience.

"Second finger..." Kev whispered, coherent speech not being possible for
him.

My two fingers roamed around Kev's chute. I was avoiding his prostrate now,
knowing that further excitation there, could push him over the edge, before
we had really started.

"Third..."

I did as I was told.

"Now...cock... lube...then slowly..."

My erection had even intensified during the treatment of his ass. I
slickened it up with a liberal amount of the clear fluid. We had adjusted
our position, Kev's legs now resting on my shoulders. I positioned my dick
at his hole, my cock head only slightly pressing against it. His rosebud
opened up and by the smallest increase of pressure, the mushroom-shaped tip
vanished into Kev's ass. The tightness surrounding my member was
overwhelming, shooting up bolts of electricity along my spine. A frown
formed on Kev's face, accompanied by a hissing sound.

"Okay... take it slow... let me get used to it..."

Even if I had wanted to, I couldn't have moved right now. I had to cope
with the sensations flowing through my body myself.

Kev's face had relaxed, being my cue to go for more. Slowly, I shoved in
more of my cock, giving him time to adapt once in a while. All too soon, my
pubes were pressed against his butt. I pulled my dick out a little bit,
just to slam it back in immediately.

Kev had started to take care of his own pecker and worked on it in long
strokes. I grew more bold, removing more and more of my cock, before going
in the full way again. Our moans came in unison. I increased the pace,
intensified the rhythm. I reveled in the sensation of Kev's muscles
clamping and unclamping around my length.

The bolts of energy that had crept up my spine returned to my groin with a
vengeance.

That energy seemed to pool there, to build up towards a final purpose. I
looked at Kev, who was totally consumed in his own ecstasy. Having his
powerful body lying beneath me, knowing that it was me, who was giving him
ultimate pleasure, had me on the verge of coming. If I wanted to last any
longer, I would have to stall for time. I lowered myself down on Kev,
grabbed him tight and tried to roll on my back. He had anticipated my
intentions and went along. The movement was one smooth flow, my cock never
leaving Kev. He began riding me, while he resumed the stroking of his own
dick. I was out of the frying pan, but in the fire now. I hadn't seen it
coming that Kev towering above me would be even more arousing than having
him beneath me. I succumbed to the energy in my groin. With a yelping sound
escaping my mouth, I started to pump my cum into Kev, spurt after spurt
shooting up his ass. Feeling the contractions of my cock inside him, Kev
couldn't withhold it any longer.

Accompanied by a mighty growl of his, Kev placed long threads of semen on
my stomach in a criss-crossing pattern. I needed more of Kev's body, needed
something to cling to. So I raised my upper body and slung my arms around
him, bringing our torsos as close together as possible. Kev moved back a
little bit, so that my weight was now resting on him. My legs followed my
arms in hugging Kev; I was now sitting on his thighs, my cock still buried
deep down inside him.

"Seems to be another thing you are a natural at." Kev said after a while.

The smile was mirrored in his voice.

I kissed him, a feeling of gratitude and love for him flowing through me.


"We're off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of Oz..." I sang.

It was time to leave for the bus stop, if we wanted to get to the cinema in
time.

"Alright, Judy. Do we have to wear badges this time, as well?" Kev joked.

"This time I'm not quite sure, who you would be." I mused.

"The Tin Man... no heart... gave it all to you..."

"You are more like the Scarecrow... no brain... forgot that you got my
heart in exchange."

Kev kissed me on the forehead, before we left.

In the bus, we got some strange looks. Two guys holding hands, cuddled
together on one of the benches, was still something the people had to get
used to here in this city.

Being of such different physiques caught attention, as well. Kev and I
pretended not to notice any of those. At the cinema, we went straight for
the ticket counter, where a teenage girl was cheerfully tending to her
customers.

"Wizard of Oz, two tickets, please." Kev smiled at her.

"And, oh, you do have couple seats, don't you? Can we have one of those,
please?"

he added.

Brittany, that was what her name tag said, looked at both of us and
grinned.

"The two of you? Oh, you look so sweet together."

In a much lower voice, she added "Two boys are so hot."

Kev and I had to struggle not to laugh out loudly. Kev moved closer to her
and whispered "Steaming hot..."

Brittany's cheeks turned red, but not because she was embarrassed. The
cinema in her head was playing something X-rated. We had a fan.

She handed us our tickets and added a coupon giving us 20% off at the snack
bar.

"Have fun, you two." She said with a wink.

When we were out of hearing range, we both had to chuckle.

"That was cute." Kev said.

"Indeed."

We stocked up on candy, popcorn and cola.

Cuddled up into the seat, which looked liked a small sofa, we enjoyed
Dorothy's adventurous trip back to Kansas together.


We were heading for the bus station, performing 'Follow the yellow brick
road' together. We even tried to do the choreography, walking to and fro,
crossing our legs behind us. Kev and I had to learn the hard way that
dancing often looked easier than it was. Two times, we almost stumbled and
caught something to hold on to in the last moment. We had fits of laughter.

"So much for our career as ballet dancers. I had it all planned out in my
mind." Kev commented, when we arrived at the bus station.

After a short while waiting there, I started to shiver, the night being
quite chilly. Kev stepped close behind me and crossed his arms in front of
my chest. Tightly drawn to him, my trembling soon subsided. Those small
gestures I enjoyed the most.

"Sir, would you please let go of the man and step back."

Kev and I turned our heads. Two young police officers were standing close
by, hands on their weapons. From their point of view, it must have looked
like Kev was threatening me. Anger welled up in me. Once more someone had
jumped to a conclusion, was utterly misjudging Kev, because of his looks. I
stepped around Kev and extended my arms to both sides, trying to shield
him. The rage was clearly showing on my face and in my voice.

"Thank, you officers. But I don't think that my lover, who is the most
gentle and caring man you will ever meet, will mean any harm to me. Go,
protect and serve someone who really needs it." Biting sarcasm was dripping
off every single word.

Of all the things, the two policemen hadn't expected that.

"Sorry, sirs." One of them muttered and both of them were in a hurry to get
away as fast as possible. Despite my tiny frame, I could obviously be very
intimidating.

"Would you have caught the bullet?"

I was still standing with my back to Kev.

"Of course." I answered, turning around.

I now could see that Kev had been joking, a grin still plastered to his
face.

"Isn't the big guy supposed to jump in front of the small guy?" Kev added
chuckling.

"Depends..." I was chuckling, too.

Kev stepped closer and kissed me on the top of my head, mumbling "My brave
lioness."

"What?"

I looked puzzled at Kev and he started to roar with laughter.

"'The brave Lioness' was a cartoon movie that I loved as a kid. I watched
it over and over again. That was a video tape, pre-DVD time. In my favorite
scene, a hunter is pointing his gun at one of her kittens and she jumps
between them."

"What happened then?"

"The hunter was so moved, that he left them alone. Kid's movie." Kev
shrugged.

I motioned Kev to bow down and kissed him tenderly on his lips. Okay, he
had just compared me to a large, female pussycat from a cartoon, but I
loved the sentiment.

Shortly after, the bus arrived and it took considerable effort not to tear
each other's clothes off during the trip home.


The clothes were gone as soon as he we had entered the privacy of our
room. We were beyond tenderness, raw desire had taken over.

Earlier that afternoon, when Kev had been to the training, I had been
roaming the web. It had started with checking some forums I participated
in, but soon I had been following link after link, letting the web guide
me. On one of the pages, an ad banner praising an all male porn page had
caught my attention. It had been describing one of their model's
proficiency in deep throating, using very graphical language and
pictures. The site had not interested me, but the idea of completely
swallowing your lover's cock had me intrigued. I had searched for FAQs and
How-Tos, which all boiled down to deep throating being about relaxation of
your throat and practice.  I knew for sure that given Kev's size a lot of
practice would be necessary, but I was determined to give him that act of
devotion as a gift. The first lesson was about to start. We had ended up in
Kev's bed this time. I had slowly moved down his firm chest and six pack,
kissing, nibbling, licking. Kev was already hard as rock when I arrived at
his cock. I made a little detour to his balls, taking them into my mouth
one by one, caressing them with small pecks. I moved back up the length of
his dick, tracing its length with my tongue. Kev was breathing hard. I
followed the rim of his mushroom head with my tongue, sizing it up for my
further intentions. Kev was now whining in a low tone, his face tense by
pleasure. I let the head slip into my mouth. It felt as putting my own fist
into my mouth, the tongue amplifying the sensation of size even
more. Watching not to touch it with my teeth, I moved the cock head around
in my mouth. I built up suction and released it again, letting a rhythm of
its own take over. My tongue resumed its probing of the most welcome
intruder. I took more of him into my mouth. My research had prepared me
well, because I had not to gag when the tip of Kev's cock hit the back of
my throat. I felt content, having accomplished more than I would have
thought possible the first time. I gave up control, let my body and my love
for Kev decide what to do next. The indulgence in the sensation of his dick
cleared my mind of all thoughts. I felt lust, but peace and tranquility
flowed over me and through me. An unhuman sound and a tickling sensation at
my nose intruded into that trance-like state. I opened my eyes, which were
unable to focus due to the proximity of the object they were looking at. I
realized with a start that I was buried deep in Kev's groin. The sound was
coming from him and the tickling was caused by his pubes. When I had let
myself go my body had decided to take him in, all of him.

The shock made me almost gag. I closed my eyes again and desperately
grasped at the last strands of the calmness that had permeated my mind mere
seconds ago. It did the trick. The urge to get rid of the cock in my throat
waned. I started a bobbing motion with my head. Kev's cock left my throat,
just to enter it again moments later. The impossible was ridiculously easy,
now it had been accomplished once. It took me some time to figure out a
pace and a rhythm that allowed me to pleasure Kev and to breathe. Kev
refraining from humping my face helped a lot. My thoughts wandered to
him. My sensations were overwhelming, but what Kev felt had to be even more
intense. He didn't last much longer.

"Leon, I am coming."

Kev started to pull away from me, but I didn't want him to. Following with
my entire body, I managed to keep his cock head in my mouth. The first
spurt of his cum lashed across my tongue. An unknown taste spread in my
mouth. I knew descriptions of that flavor, calling it salty or sweet. But
this characterization couldn't do the true experience justice. I likened it
to some exotic spice in a foreign meal, the sensation of something you are
exposed to for the first time. Load after load followed the first, but not
a single drop was wasted. The idea of swallowing cum had always felt
disgusting, but with Kev it was the most natural thing to do. I wanted Kev
to be part of me. He had finally expended himself, his body going limp. I
opened my eyes and looked at him, unprepared for what I saw. Tears were
flowing down Kev's cheeks. I scrambled up the bed and rested his face
against my chest, caressing his head. His sobs rocked my body.

"What is it?"

"That was beyond everything I have ever experienced or felt."

His voice was frail and trembled with his crying.

"Hush, hush."

"Know when people say that you can love someone so much it hurts? I've
always found it ridiculous. Man, was I wrong."

His sobs subsided at last. It was the first night that Kev rested in my
arms.


When I woke up the next morning, Kev's head was still resting on my
chest. My arms were slung around him as far as they could reach. He was
sleeping peacefully, his face relaxed, a hint of a smile playing around his
lips. The realization that he needed my protection as much as I needed his
brought me close to tears myself. Kev opened his eyes and looked at me. He
drew me into a passionate kiss.

"Promise me to never let go of me."

A whisper, barely louder than silence.

"I will be by your side forever."

The strength of my own voice shocked me, though I had kept it as low as
Kev's. We kissed again.

Finally, we had left the bed and had enjoyed our daily morning routine of
running, showering and breakfast. The day passed by. We didn't talk much,
but words were not necessary. The events of the last night had elevated our
relationship to a new level of intimacy. Though we did not speak, we
touched and kissed every time we got close enough to do so.

By afternoon, the reality of our studies had caught up with the intimate
space we had created around us the last days. Kev was sitting at his desk
and was working on a paper about anatomy. I was doing likewise, reading a
book about integration theory, taking notes from time to time.

"Sounds familiar."

I looked up at Kev, who had talked to me. I realized with surprise that I
had been humming a melody without noticing myself. My mind had strayed to
the night when we had watched the Rocky Horror Picture Show together. I
started to laugh when I became aware of the song.

"Touch-A, touch-A, touch-A, touch me, I wanna be dirty. Thrill me, chill
me, fulfill me, creature of the night."

I sang out aloud, adding sex to my voice.

"If that's what you want."

Kev had shot around the desk, grabbed me and thrown me on my bed, before I
knew what was happening. He pinned me down with his body. Kev grabbed both
of my wrists in one of his hands and pulled them over my head. I knew he
was only using a fraction of his strength, but even if I had wanted to, I
couldn't have broken free. His other hand had formed into a fist and was
dragged along the line of my jaw.

"Creature of the night."

A sly grin accompanied his sexy hiss.

The door flew open and Rob's voice echoed through the room.

"I'm back, little..."

In a blur, she had crossed the distance between the door and my bed. She
grabbed a fistful of Kev's hair and pulled him back.

"Let go of him, you son of a bitch!"

I had seen Rob angry before, but her features were contorted beyond
recognition.

"Rob!"

She didn't react.

"Roberta Wilkins!"

That never failed. Her glare went from Kev to me.

"It is not what you are thinking."

"What is it then, Leon?"

She hadn't called me by my given name for a very long time.

"It is when you normally say 'It is not what you are thinking'."

It took her some moments to comprehend.

"Oh."

A weak sound.

"Oh."

That one had been much stronger, fueled by realization.

"I'll... you two... I'll..."

I gestured at Kev. Rob had forgotten that she was still holding Kev by his
hair. She released him. He rubbed his scalp, pain showing in his face.

Without another word she left our room, leaving the door open.

Kev looked at me and a grin formed around his lips, while he continued the
caressing of his own head. That had been hilarious and I broke out in
laughter. I wasn't angry at her as I had been with the policemen. I knew
that her concern was genuine, given her former sentiments towards Kev, and
the situation had been very ambiguous.

"You better talk to her."

"Shouldn't we both?"

"I think she'd prefer to talk to you first. Furthermore, my head isn't too
keen on another treatment of hers."

We laughed together. I nodded and left for Rob's room.

I knocked at her door, given the unpleasant experiences we had made with
forgetting about this basic courtesy recently. Though no answer came, I
entered. Rob was alone, her roommate had not returned yet.

"What?"

"Rob..."

"Was about time, both of you fucked each other's brain out. I couldn't bear
being close to you two any longer with all the sex sparks flying around."

I ignored her fa‡ade for once.

"Rob, it is more than just fucking our brains out. Much more."

"You think the pin-up hunk loves you?"

"Rob, I know that the pin-up hunk loves me."

My calmness had penetrated her defenses. Understanding formed in her face,
spreading from her eyes.

"And you love him, little one?"

"More than anything else."

She began to smile.

"I am glad for you. Both of you."

 "You are the first to know, if it means anything to you."

"Your family?"

I startled at the mention of my family. It hadn't occurred to me yet that I
had to tell them. But my parents were still on the cruise. They could be
contacted by satellite telephone, but they would return by the first
weekend of December. It could wait till then, but not for any much
longer. They deserved to know. I shook my head in reply to Rob's question.

"You can tell your giant baby of a boyfriend that I will not harm him as
long as he doesn't hurt you. Next time, I won't let go of him."

We burst out in laughter.

"I love you, Rob."

"I hate you, little one."


Courses, training and Kev's job at the spa had resumed on Monday, but Kev
and I spent every free minute together. With Kev I had learned the
distinction between sex and making love, always thinking of them to be
synonymous before. Kev hadn't fucked me yet. I hadn't asked for it and he
hadn't insisted, for which I loved him even more. I was still afraid of his
massive cock being rammed up my ass, but I was on my way to overcome my
fears. I owed it to Kev, owed it to myself. I wanted to be one with him in
any way possible.

The phone call with Mom and Dad had been awkward at first, but had
transformed into a moment of true closeness between a son and his
parents. We had talked for two hours. I had given a detailed description of
Kev and the events leading to our profession of love on Thanksgiving. I was
especially moved that my parents did not doubt the sincerity of our
feelings once. When they had learned that Kev wasn't on good terms with his
family, they had immediately invited both of us for Christmas.

Later that evening, Kev and I lay cuddled up together in his bed, looking
at each other.

"My Mom and my Dad have invited us for Christmas."

It was the conclusion of my call's recount to Kev. He didn't say a word.

"Do you want to go?"

I would have understood if he had not been ready to meet my family.

"Of course."

He kissed my fore head.

We stayed silent for another quarter of an hour. I knew what was going on
in his mind, but had to collect courage, had to convince myself that it was
time to ask.

"Do you want to tell me about your family?"

Kev looked into my eyes, their clear blueness piercing deep into me. He
finally had found there what he was looking for and nodded.

"I came out to my parents, when I was 16 years old. Perhaps 'coming out'
isn't the correct term. Dad had caught me and a boy from the neighborhood
making out. After throwing him out of the house, Dad confronted me. He
asked whether I was that kind of pervert. I simply nodded. He stormed up
into my room and soon after, my stuff was piled up on the front lawn. He
made clear in no uncertain terms that I should better join my belongings."

"Did he hurt you?"

I only dared to whisper.

"No. I was as tall as I am now and had begun my training, though I wasn't
as defined.

He was afraid of me. But I would have never hit him back, never."

"And your mom?"

"My Mom?"

He laughed a cold laugh.

"My Mom did whatever he said. No, he never touched her, either. But he had
his ways to make her do his bidding. There are worse things than being
hit."

He had to pause for a short moment.

"I moved in with my Grandpa, Grandpa Schneider that is. He was more
tolerant than his son. But my Dad knew where I was and confronted his
father about me. Grandpa had stood up for me, had defended me against his
only child. But I knew that his heart would ultimately break, if he had to
put up a fight against my Dad. So I left for good, never to contact any of
them again."

"Where have you lived?"

"As far away as possible. I found a shelter for homeless youngsters in a
small town some thousand miles away from home. I intensified my training,
being the only distraction I had. Later I instructed other kids how to
train and was allowed to assist the nurse, who helped out at the
shelter. Shortly before finishing high school, I learned about the
scholarship at State U. It was the luckiest day in a long time, when I got
accepted. I moved to the State U dorm then. But the people at the shelter
are still what resembles a family the most for me."

Kev had finished his story. I was shocked at how cruel his parents had
been. At the same moment, I was grateful for his grandfather and that he
had found the shelter and that those people had taken good care of him. It
was close to a miracle that Kev had emerged as the cheerful and almost
unscarred person he was. But there were scars. His reluctance to accept my
gifts, his feelings of inadequacy, his uncertainty whether he deserved my
love, sometimes hinted at the ill-healed wounds that he had suffered.

Everything I could have said would have sounded hollow and
inappropriate. It was time for action, not words. I kissed him on the fore
head, as he had often done with me. I placed his head on my chest, rested
one hand on his cheek and the other caressed the back of his head. Kev
should feel that my love was unconditional, that he hadn't to do anything
to deserve it. He already had all of me and I had given it willingly.


 After that evening, Kev had relaxed about the visit to my parents. Having
shared what he had never shared with anyone before had broken down a wall
inside of him.

The childlike enthusiasm I liked so much had taken over. He had even asked
me about gift ideas for my parents and Christopher in special. Tiffany,
Marc and their little son would spend Christmas at my parents' place as
well.


It was December 15th now. I was waiting at the exit of the college's
parking lot. Kev and I had decided it would be most convenient if we took
his car to go to the Hardwood Contest together. That decision had been
followed by a small quarrel about who would pay the gas. We compromised on
sharing the bill and had reconciliation sex, so there hadn't been much of a
fight to warrant it. Kev's grey, well used car stopped right before me and
I got in. He was tense, lost in thoughts about the upcoming competition. I
tried to cheer him up with chatter, but I hadn't much success.

He remained silent most of the drive. We arrived at the Larkville sports
center. I hadn't expected that so many people would be interested in a
bodybuilding competition. A colorful crowd had gathered before the doors of
the stadium. I could make out several sound trucks of various TV stations
parked there. Some of those were even of national stations. Kev and I
separated with a kiss, he heading for the athletes' entrance and I
following the masses into the building. Inside the noise of hundreds of
people talking and laughing with each other was buzzing in my ears. I loved
that sound, liked to let it flow through my mind, grasping at fragments of
dialogue here and there. The college competition itself took place in one
of the smaller gym halls of the center. Some thousand people had found
their way here, filling the hall to its brim. I had been early and got a
good place close to the podium where the athletes would pose.

"Do you mind if I take that seat, my son?"

A middle-aged man, having an athletic body himself, was smiling at me.

"Sit down, sir."

I smiled back.

"Call me Cameron, my son."

"Leon."

We chatted about the competition and he told me about other contests he had
visited.

The crowd was mixed, but many were of my age, most likely being students
supporting their college. Some of them had prepared banners firing up their
respective team.

The competition began with the group posing. The bodybuilders entered and
were frenetically welcomed by the audience. I waved at Kev, as he entered,
and he gave me a short wave back. I hadn't seen so many muscular young men
in one place before.

They all were very well defined, but in my eyes Kev was the biggest
one. Another thing occurred to me, when the group line-up had begun. All of
them were smiling, but it looked strained, artificial, when they did the
posing. Then again, Kev's smile was genuine and friendly. He had enough
practice in this special pose.

After the group posing, the single performances began. Cameron gave
comments on the athletes, pointing out to me their strengths and
weaknesses. Kev had entered the stage.

"This is Kevin Schneider. A very promising young talent. A little more
symmetry to his deltoids couldn't hurt, though. But overall the most
interesting boy here."

"I know."

I smiled a broad smile. Cameron couldn't know that I was indeed interested
in this one Kevin Schneider only.

At the end of the competition, Bergmont had achieved the third place in the
overall ranking. That was an excellent result and would entitle them to
participate in the national college championships. I was proud of Kev,
because he had received the special commendation of the jurors and he was
wearing a light blue sash now.

Since spectators were not allowed anywhere near the athletes, I waited at
the car for him. He was coming towards me, grinning, sash loosely draped
over his jacket. I greeted him with a deep kiss.

"Congratulations, my big guy."

"Thanks."

His ears had turned red by embarrassment.

"Coach and the team wanna celebrate at Deng Long's."

We had just left the parking lot of the Larkville sports center and were on
the one- hour-drive back to the college. I had expected something like this
and smiled at him.

"Have fun!"

"Um, coach and the rest of the team asked whether you would like to
join..."

"But..."

"They know about us. I talked to Coach and the team mates shortly after the
Thanksgiving weekend. Must have forgotten to tell you."

The sly grin on his face left no doubt, that he had not forgotten. It had
been a set up.

"Sure."

I felt very happy that everything had worked out just fine for Kev,
forgotten our discussion about possible reprimands.

Kev's coach and his five team mates were already occupying a group table at
Deng Long's when Kev and I arrived.

"Coach Derringer, team mates, meet Leon Fitzgerald, my boyfriend."

We all shook hands.

"Nice to finally meet the one who lit up the fire under Kev's butt."

Coach Derringer winked at me and we all had to laugh at his comment, even
Kev. A small round of introductions followed. The coach had ordered a wide
selection of meals, which were now on the table for everyone to choose
from.

"What do you think of Kev's performance, boy?"

Coach Derringer had addressed me. I remembered Cameron's words.

"A little more symmetry to his deltoids couldn't hurt."

The look on Kev's face was priceless, shock written in his handsome
features.

"If you don't listen to me, listen to your boyfriend, Kev. I've told you
what, a thousand times?"

I solved the mystery of my sudden insights into bodybuilding and told them
about my acquaintance at the competition. We burst out in laughter,
remembering Kev's reaction. I liked those guys.

Later that evening, I was returning from the restrooms and Timothy, one of
the team, was headed for them. I smiled at him, but he only stared at me,
contempt in his eyes.

"Listen, fag. You may have twisted Kev into your fucking perverted life
style, but keep away from the rest of us. If I ever meet you alone..."

He never finished that sentence and brushed my shoulder hard when
continuing his way, making me stumble. I somehow knew that 'the rest of us'
was only him. I turned my head to the table and realized that Kev was
looking at me. I sat down, Kev's gaze never leaving me.

"What was that about? You made a funny face."

I couldn't tell Kev the truth, not without causing unrest in the
team. Timothy lived off-campus and was studying constructional
engineering. I had never seen him before.

The probability of meeting him alone was non-existent.

"He asked about a mathematical problem. You know how my face gets out of
control when I am thinking hard."

I put on a convincing imitation of a smile that was answered by a genuine
grin of his.

That little confrontation had ruined the evening for me. The happy feeling
I have had when Kev had talked about his coming out to the team had turned
sour. What startled me the most was when Timothy returned and continued his
friendly chatter, even addressing me. This one was dangerous.


Back in our room, I had locked up the evening into the darkest corner of my
mind. I had other plans for rest of this night. We were already undressed,
when I got the sash that Kev had been awarded this day.

"Due to your exceptional accomplishments today the jurors think that a
special reward is appropriate."

I put the blue piece of cloth on Kev, having him to bow down to do so.

"What might that be?"

I crooked my fingers, motioning him to come close. I brought my mouth close
to his ear.

"I want you to fuck me, Kev."

It was a mere breath into his ear.

Kev straightened up and was looking into my eyes.

"Leon, you don't have to. I know how big I am. There are nicer things than
having it shoved up one's ass..."

I put my index finger on his lips and shook my head.

"Tonight there isn't anything else I want, but to have you inside me."

To give point to my words I grabbed Kev's cock and massaged it gently. Kev
closed his eyes and laid back his head. It didn't take long to get him
fully aroused. I maneuvered us to Kev's bed, making him lie down. In the
drawer, I found the bottle with the lubricant.

"We gonna need this."

We grinned and kissed, our tongues teasing each other. Kev grabbed me and
gently put me on all fours. I lowered my torso, stretching up my ass to
him. His strong hands caressed the cheeks of my butt. He drew his tongue
through the crack of my ass. Up and down and up... the bolts of energy
shooting through me once again wreaking havoc with my spine. He started to
nibble at my rosebud, his tongue probing there time and again.  I lost
track of time, reveling in the sensations Kev was creating. I felt a cool
wetness at the hole of my butt and Kev's index finger entered me. The
finger alone was of immense size, at least from the point of view of my
ass. But the intruder was completely forgotten, when Kev had found my
prostrate, softly rubbing against it. When it had been bolts of energy
before, it now was a supernova of feelings, taking everything with it in
its wake, expanding through my whole body. I was so consumed in these
sensations that I hadn't noticed Kev's middle finger joining the
first. These two fingers together were bigger than most cocks, but I wanted
to feel Kev inside me, wanted more of him. I couldn't wait for the third
finger to follow. I felt empty when he removed his fingers, but were
shivering in anticipation of what was about to replace them. Kev lifted me
up again, turned me around and lay down on his back, still holding me.

"I want you to ride me. You shall decide how much to take."

Kev's giant tool was already slick with the gel-like lubricant. I placed
myself over him, let his mushroom shaped cock head rest at the entrance to
my ass. I lowered myself down and it slipped into me. A sharp pain lashed
through my groin, a whimpering sound came out of my mouth. The muscles in
my ass tensed. I looked down into Kev's face. He was commiserating with me,
his features showing as much pain as I was feeling right now. He began to
lift my body up, but I shook my head and he stopped. I had to relax
myself. I reminded myself that I was doing it for Kev and let my love for
him take over. Slowly, the muscles in my butt unclamped. The pain lost its
sharpness and transformed into a feeling of pleasant fullness. Inch for
inch, I lowered myself down on him, giving myself time to get used to
it. With closed eyes, I allowed my body to decide for itself. Kev's pubes
touched my ass. Once again my body had made the impossible a simple
feat. My body and I had the same desire, we wanted to take as much of Kev
as possible. I lifted myself up by the fraction of an inch and lowered
myself down again. Now it was Kev who was whimpering. I increased the pace,
lifted myself higher and higher, before going down again. Having Kev all
the way up in me gave me a sense of union which I hadn't felt before. His
enormous girth was a constant excitation to my prostrate, causing unending
currents of electricity through my groin. Once again I looked down at
Kev. His face had changed. Something primal was showing in it. His eyes
glowed of lust, an aggressive lust.

"I want you to fuck me, pound me."

Kev grabbed me, got up from the bed and put me on his desk, his rod buried
deep inside me. The animalistic part of Kev had taken over and I was fluent
in its language.

"Fuck me hard, Kev. As hard as you can."

He was in a frenzy. With hard thrusts in an unhuman rhythm he was beating
away at my butt. I hadn't realized that I was rock hard myself and I came
without having touched me once. The contractions of my orgasm ripped
through my groin. I took Kev with me, I could feel him tensing up and
starting to unload. An animal-like growl escaped his mouth through his
entire climax, becoming louder and more feral over time. He slumped down on
me, both of us panting heavily. His body was slick and glistening with
sweat. I looked once more into his face. The animal had gone, a most tender
smile playing around his lips. I couldn't help but to smile back. He picked
me up and placed me on his bed again, more gentle than the transfer to the
desk had been.

He lowered his lips onto mine, his tongue softly brushing against them.

"That was..."

He couldn't find the words to describe what has happened.

"No-one has ever taken me fully or begged to be pounded harder."

I didn't feel the slightest jealousy, though he was comparing me to his
former experiences. Having outperformed those helped a lot, to be frank.

"I scared the shit out of myself. Weren't you afraid?"

"No. Not at all."

That was the truth.

"Why not? It was wild, violent..."

He was terrified by himself, being confronted with the uncontrolled aspects
of his self.

"It was still you, Kev. However primal and animalistic that side of you has
been, it was still Kev, my Kev. And no harm will come from you for me. I
know that for sure."

We kissed again, our tongues performing a wild choreography of their own.

"And obviously, I am into some rough stuff."

I hinted at the drying strands of my semen that stuck to our stomachs. I
started to chuckle and Kev joined in.

We didn't even bother to clean ourselves and fell asleep holding each
other.


It was the day before Christmas Eve. Kev had insisted that we took his car,
another quarrel about the gas, another round of reconciliation sex. Kev's
small car was loaded to the brim with boxes, bags and stuff. The ride would
take us approximately six hours. We had left at 9am, so we should arrive by
afternoon at my parents' house. At the beginning of our trip Kev had been
cheerful, chatting away, singing along the Christmas songs playing on the
radio. But the closer we came to my parents, the tenser he got. When we had
crossed the city limits, Kev was silent and his hands were trembling,
almost unnoticeably, but they did. I put my hand on his arm and smiled at
him.

"You will like them."

"That's not..."

"And they will like you."

Kev's smile was uneasy, but it was a smile. Of course, it was
nerve-wrecking to meet the parents of your lover. Given the situation, I
would never meet his parents. I wasn't relieved about it. It made me sad
forming a lump in my throat.

"Here, Kev. Here it is."

Kev turned to the right and drove up the white gravel path that led to the
house.

"You didn't mention that your parents live in a mansion."

I cackled. It wasn't exactly a mansion. True, it was upper class; its size
was luxurious for a family with two kids. Money had never been a problem,
but we were not rich by any means.

"Laugh as you want. It is a mansion."

Kev was grinning as we got out of the car. I was glad that his tension had
eased though my elation had been a little early. With every step we made
towards the front door, Kev sank in a little more. I took his hand and
pressed it to reassure him. We rang the doorbell. The following scene had
to be an almost exact reenactment of Kev and me meeting for the first
time. Mom is around my height, my Dad is one head taller than me. When they
opened the door, they were looking straight at Kev's midsection.

Shock written on their faces, they moved their heads up, till they were
looking at his face. Kev was smiling at them. It took them some moments to
recollect themselves.

"Mom. Dad. Meet Kev... Kevin Schneider. Kev, these are my parents."

Kev extended his hand, still smiling. I had to suppress a chuckle. When
they had seen the sheer size of his hand, the shock had returned. It was my
Mom who came back to her senses first.

"Come here, Kevin."

She moved past his hand, put her arms around him, not quite reaching around
him, and embraced him. Now it was Kev who had to recover.

"Welcome, Kevin."

Kev was returning the embrace now, watching not to apply too much strength.

"Nice to meet you, Mrs. Fitzgerald, ma'am."

Mom let go of him and looked at him sternly.

"Don't you dare call me Mrs. Fitzgerald or ma'am. My name is Dolores."

She was beaming at him now. I had my mother's eyes, I must have looked very
alike when I was smiling.

"And I am Anthony."

They shook hands, Kev once again adjusting is strength to a comfortable
level.

After I had been hugged by both of my parents, they finally invited us into
the house and led us to the living room. Tiffany and Marc were sitting on
the couch, Christopher was playing on the ground with some building
bricks. When Kev had entered the room, Christopher's bright blue eyes had
widened. He was staring at him in blatant, childlike curiosity. He got up,
moved close to Kev and motioned him to come down.

Kev was beaming at the little boy, went down on his knees and bowed down
till they were on eye level. Christopher brought his mouth close to Kev's
ear.

"Are you a shiant?"

Christopher had tried to whisper, but like so many kids, he wasn't good at
it. We all had heard the question. I came to Kev's rescue.

"Yes, Chris. He is a giant. But he is a good giant who is always nice to
people."

Christopher looked in astonishment at Kev who nodded in acknowledgement,
still smiling at my nephew. A grin grew on the little man's face.

"I like shiants."

I introduced Kev to Tiff and Marc.

"Sorry for that."

My sister had an uneasy look on her face.

"If me being a giant makes the little man happy, I am a giant."

Marc and my sister laughed, but Tiff was still troubled. I could read it in
her eyes.

"I am sure the two of you want to get your baggage and bring it to the
guest room?"

My mom was looking at me.

"The guest room?"

I had expected that I would sleep in my old room, while Kev would occupy
the guest room alone.

"Leon. We are your parents. But we are not off this world. You share a room
at college, no need to separate you here. The milk has already been spilt."

It took her some moments to realize how dirty a pun she had used without
intention.

Mom turned beet red. It was my Dad who burst out laughing, all of us
joining in.

"Dolores, don't give them ideas."

When we all had calmed down of another fit of laughter, Kev and I left for
the car and fetched our stuff. We took it up to the guest room, where a
king size bed occupied most of the space.

"Was it that bad?"

"Your parents are awesome. And your nephew is adorable. As is his uncle."
Kev kissed me on the top of my head, I caressed his cheek in reply. We
joined the rest of my family in the living room again. We chatted about all
and nothing. After some time, my Mom asked Tiff and me to help her in the
kitchen. Marc and Dad had left for some last pre-Christmas shopping. Kev
and Christopher had started to play together. They had built some weird
thing with the construction bricks, both of them chuckling time and
again. The contrast between the high-pitched kid's laughter and Kev's low
rumble was heartwarming. In the kitchen, Tiff was restless.

"What is it?"

I knew that something was on her mind.

"Is it such a good idea to leave him alone with Christopher?"

She made a gesture at the general direction of the living room.

"Tiffany Morton. What are you talking about?"

The voice of my Mom was harsh. But I took Tiff by her arm and led her to
the door of the living room. Inside, Kev and Christopher had given up on
the construction bricks.

Christopher was riding on the back of Kev, who was holding him secure with
one hand.

"Hold on, little bear. Big bear is in a hurry."

Kev made jerky movements, like a rodeo horse. Christopher was giggling
without a stop.

"I know he looks intimidating. But I assure you: he is the most gentle and
caring man I've met in my whole life. Look at the two of them."

I waved at Kev and Chris. Both of them waved back, still laughing.

"Trust the assessment of your little boy. Kids see with their hearts, a
trick we adults have unlearnt."

Tiff's gaze was resting on me now.

"The way you are looking at him. You really do love him, don't you?"

"With all my heart and soul."

"I hope that little Chris won't want us to be the horses, when Kev isn't
around."

We laughed on our way back to the kitchen.


In the evening, we had dinner together.

"Kev, you are studying physical therapy and physical education?"

"Yes, Anthony."

"And the bodybuilding? Are you planning on a career as a professional
bodybuilder?"

"Oh, Anthony. Leave the poor boy alone and let him eat."

Mom was glowering at my Dad.

"It's alright. And no. I'm not planning to become a professional
bodybuilder."

"Sorry, Kevin. It's my job. Sometimes I can't stop the questioning, till
someone raises objections."

We all, with the exception of Kev, moaned. We all had had our fair share of
paternal questioning. Dad laughed, because he knew how carried away he
could get.

"Kevin, it's Fitzgerald family tradition to buy a tree and decorate it on
Christmas Eve.

You will join us, of course."

Mom hadn't even bothered to put it in the form of a question. About the
tree, she was adamant.

"Sure, Dolores. I'm really looking forward to it."

Kev and I volunteered for the dishes after the dinner.

"Now, I do understand why you love your parents so much."

"Believe me, sometimes their love is just a little too much."

"I have a lot to catch up. It will take some time, before I get an
overdose."

I looked at Kev, fearing that the thought about what he didn't have would
pull him down. But he was smiling at me. For once, I was grateful that my
parents were the loving pains in the neck they were.

We joined them in the living room. Kev and Dad talked about sports. Dad
finally had found someone to share his interest in it. I talked to my Mom
about the progress of my studies and the campus life in general. We called
it a night soon. We would need our strength for the upcoming holidays. In
our guest room, Kev stood before the bed.

"Oh. Looks comfortable. King-size."

"It's not the only king-sized thing in here."

Kev looked at me with a sly grin, before he grabbed me and we put all the
king-sized things in this room to a thorough test.


In the morning, Kev and I did our running training. Close to the home of my
parents was a small park, which we circled several times. It was chilly,
but it hadn't snowed yet. The forecasts were predicting a white Christmas,
so it was about time for the flakes to fall. When we arrived home, Kev and
I had the idea to prepare breakfast for the family. We had put the dishes
on the table, afterwards Kev made the coffee and I prepared the dough. I
wasn't much of a cook, but my pancakes were famous. Though, the lack of
practice showed. I gave Kev one of the first pancakes, whose form only
remotely resembled a circle.

"This is excellent. My boyfriend is a secret cook."

He snatched another one from the plate, grinning like a bobcat.

"Hey. Leave some for the others... stop it!"

He had pilfered a third pancake, while I was talking. I threatened him with
the spatula. He started to run around the oven which was at the center of
the large square room. I followed him, still wielding the cooking device
like a weapon.

"I surrender, I surrender."

He fell to his knees. I lowered the spatula. A careless mistake. I had
fallen for the ruse, because Kev grabbed me with both arms and pulled me to
him.

"Kiss the cook."

He announced to me, before lowering his lips on mine. I lost track of time,
as always when Kev was kissing me.

My mother's voice came from the door.

"Leon. I'm not an expert, but are those pancakes supposed to smoke?"

I jumped up, just to realize that I had fallen for another ploy. The
pancakes were still alive and healthy. Kev and Mom laughed out. After
glowering for some moments, I couldn't help but join them.

"That's sweet of you to make the breakfast. I'll go and fetch the others."

Having a meal with the entire family was always nice, at least for some
days in the year. I got compliments for my pancakes.

"They have been made with love."

Mom commented, exchanging a knowing glance with Kev and me. The three of us
chuckled, leaving the rest of the family none the wiser.

After breakfast, Mom commanded my Dad, Marc and Kev to accompany her to buy
a tree. Even the Pope speaking ex cathedra couldn't have more authority.

"Good luck, soldiers."

I yelled after them. Kev gave me a puzzled look. I only smiled, knowing
what was expecting them. I watched as the car drove away. Tiff, Christopher
and I spent the morning together, playing games. Tiff and I brought us up
to scratch concerning the things that were happening in our lives. Kev was
the biggest news in my life, pun intended, my growing interest in complex
analysis the other thing I told her about.

Marc had been promoted to lead accountant of the department he was working
in. It meant more money for them, but also some overtime hours. Tiff had
finished some freelance web design projects at home. Caring for Christopher
was more important than work for her at the moment. Before we knew, it was
past noon. The car was coming up the gravel path, causing that typical
crunching sound. I looked out of the window. On the car's roof, a giant fir
tree had been mounted. Mom exited the car first, beaming over her entire
face. Her three male companions followed shortly after.

The trauma of shopping was written in their faces. They looked exhausted,
their skin grey and deep dark rings showing around their eyes. I had to
suppress a pang of gloating, biting on my lower lip. When the three had
removed the straps securing the tree, Kev carried the tree into the house
alone.

"No, Dolores. It's not too heavy."

Kev forced himself to smile. I could tell. I knew Kev's smiles well.

"Let him alone, Dolores."

Dad was beyond smiling.

"At least, we have one strong man in this house."

Mom was looking directly at Dad, her smile not wavering a bit, though her
eyes were shooting daggers.

Marc had the courtesy to keep silent and hugged Tiffany longer than a
simple greeting would have warranted. The most critical phase of a
Fitzgerald Christmas had been overcome, with a minimum of casualties and
almost no collateral damage. I bit my lip harder not to burst out laughing.

It was part of the tradition to have coffee and a chocolate cake after
positioning the tree in the living room. Tiff and I had the theory that one
needed the endorphins from the chocolate to dampen the trauma of buying the
tree to a tolerable level. Whatever the mechanics, it worked. The family
members had calmed down and were chatting away at the table. The upcoming
decorating of the tree would be real fun.

All of us participated in putting the ornaments on the tree. We had
Christmas baubles in different colors and sizes, garlands and small figures
made of straw. Mom wasn't too fond about colored lights, so we had settled
for using white ones. The tree was radiating a festive mood. But one thing
was still missing: the angel sitting at the tree top. That special angel
was ancient. It had been in my Mom's family for generations.

It looked like a doll dressed in a white gown. Two large wings were
attached to its back, the golden plating almost completely gone. The
porcelain face bore an eternal smile and friendly eyes were looking back at
you. Light blond and long hair framed the delicate head. By family
tradition, the youngest member of the family had the honor to place the
angel on the tree. Christopher was holding the doll in his small hands, his
face solemn. He may have been too young to really understand, but somehow
he knew he was about to do something important. He looked up at Kev, his
eyes bright. An idea had formed in his young mind.

"Kev, lift up?"

"Of course, Chris."

Kev gently took up my little nephew and sat him down on his
shoulders. Christopher could now easily reach the top of the tree and
positioned the angel with great care.

When Kev had put him down, Christopher motioned him to bow down and planted
a kiss on his cheek.

"Shank you!"

 "You are welcome, little friend."

With an abrupt motion, my Mom left for the kitchen. I had seen the
glistening on her face and followed her. She stood at the window, looking
at the garden, dawn already draining its colors away. In the glass, I could
see the reflection of her tears.

"What is it, Mom?"

"I'm just one lucky mother, dear. Both of my children have found themselves
loving and caring men. What else can a mother wish for?"

I closed the distance and hugged her from behind, my chin resting on her
shoulder.

"I love him, love him deeply."

"I know, my son. I know."

She patted my head.

"It's time for an old, sentimental mother and her son to join their
family."

Her reflection was smiling at me.


We returned to the living room, but not for too long. Another tradition
required the children to get one present on Christmas Eve, right after
dinner. So we all dressed up for the evening. Dinner on Christmas Eve was
always very simple, having in mind the upcoming days of feasting. This year
it was potato salad, sausages and corn bread.

Holding my hand under the table, Kev told us about the Christmas Eves he
had spent with his family. Following German traditions, they had enjoyed a
simple dinner on Christmas Eve, as well. Moreover, he had gotten all his
presents on Christmas Eve. I was feeling a mix of proud and relief that Kev
was able to speak about his parents so freely. It showed me how very much
at ease he was with my family. I squeezed his hand and he understood.

After cleaning the table together, we all gathered in the living room. My
parents wouldn't allow us to give them any presents this evening, children
and grand-children only. Kev and I had sat down on the sofa. Christopher
was the first to get a nicely wrapped box. Another set of construction
bricks, but by the look on his face you knew that those were the ones that
had been missing so far. Tiff and Marc were next.

They got a very nice set of silken bedclothes, which was shimmering in the
dim light of the Christmas tree. Surprise was written on Kev's face when he
got a parcel, too. It had the same shape as mine, his being larger.

"But, I..."

"Hush. Hush. Santa delivered it for Kevin. That's what the sticker read."

Mom winked at Kev who beamed at her in reply. We both unwrapped our
presents simultaneously and opened the beige cardboard boxes which we had
found inside.

We produced identical pairs of running shoes, except for the size. I looked
at Kev. He was in shock, his eyes staring at the trainers. I knew those
shoes from advertisement posters you found everywhere. They had an
innovative shock absorbing bed made of a gel-like substance. And I knew the
price. Furthermore, I knew how Kev reacted to expensive gifts.

"But these are..."

"... the least we can give to the very man who made Leon do sports. Not to
mention, the very man he is in love with."

Dad was grinning at Kev who was now staring at my Dad.

"Anthony, you always go at the gate like a bull!"

But Mom wasn't really upset. Her eyes had that gentle gleam when she was
looking at my father. Dad just shrugged, still grinning.

"Exactly my size..."

Kev's gaze had returned to the shoes.

"The Lord may bless Beth for being the orderly person she is. She filed
away the note on which... quote... Your son had ordered a rental suit and
shoes for this really big fellow student of his... unquote. It didn't take
rocket science to come up with that being you."

Mom was smiling now. Dad had laid his arm around her. Kev's hand had found
mine.

Like before at the table, I gave it a light squeeze.

"Thank you."

Kev had muttered the words. But then he jumped up and swept both of my
parents into one of his bear hugs. Tears had welled up in his eyes, but
they didn't start to flow. Eventually, he let go of them.

"You are welcome, Kev. It's really not too much for a great guy like you."

Dad caught the elbow of my Mom for this comment. She whispered one word
only.

"Bull!"

It was Tiff who broke out in laughter first. It was contagious. Soon all of
us were holding our stomachs of laughter.


Next morning, Kev and I were awakened by the loud sound of small feet
rushing down the stairs, accompanied by hearty laughter. Kev was looking at
me.

"Merry Christmas, Leon."

"Merry Christmas, Kev."

We kissed, just a tender brushing of lips. I cuddled close to him and
buried my face in Kev's chest. I wanted to revel in his closeness. One
small pause, before the activity of a family Christmas would keep us busy
for the rest of the day. Kev caressed the back of my head.

"They are waiting for us."

The comment was directed more at me than at Kev. I let go of him
reluctantly. Kev just nodded. We got out of bed and dressed. With the bags
full of our presents for the family, we descended into the living
room. Christopher had already created a mess of wrapping paper. Games,
children's books and more construction bricks were lying around him in a
small circle. In the center sat Christopher, beaming up to his ears. I had
given money to Tiff to get something for Chris. But Kev had insisted to buy
something of his own. Kev gave the gift to Christopher.

"Santa wanted me to give it to you."

Though I had not thought it possible, my little nephew smiled even more. He
tore away the paper. Inside was a stuffed rabbit with long, floppy
ears. Christopher was a rabbit fan and I had told Kev so. The little man
pressed the rabbit to his chest and closed his eyes. Only children could
love that much.

"What's his name?"

Kev had knelt down besides Chris. After thinking about it for a short time,
the little boy looked at Kev.

"Kev."

"That's a nice name."

Kev chuckled. From that moment on, Kev the Rabbit was the constant
companion of Christopher.

Now the adults exchanged presents. Kev and I had teamed up on the rest. Mom
was into everything that only remotely was feline and we had found a nice,
semi-abstract black marble cat for her collection. For Dad, it was a signed
copy of a book from one of his favorite authors, a lawyer writing essays on
the history of law. For Tiff and Marc, we had been inspired by Mom and
Dad. We had bought them silk sheets matching the bedclothes. From the looks
on all their faces, no-one was disappointed.

Kev and I got presents, too. Tiff and Marc had gone for the funny present:
"The Kama Sutra for Gay Men. A richly illustrated book of love".

"There will be prep tests. So work with it."

Marc had a special kind of humor which I liked very much. Kev seemed to
share this liking, because he laughed out loud. Mom and Dad gave Tiff and
Marc an envelope, having an identical one for Kev and me.

"Open them, children."

Mom was as excited as little Christopher had been. Kev and I sat down on
the sofa to open the envelope together. It was a gift certificate for a
weekend trip.

"You can select time and destination yourself. The company has quite a lot
of options to choose from."

Dad explained to both the couples. Kev and I were looking at each
other. Our first holiday together. We embraced each other first, before we
remembered to thank Mom and Dad. I had hugged both of them and Kev had
hugged all three of us.

Kev and I had taken seat again on the couch, before we finally exchanged
the gifts we had for each other. I insisted on Kev being first to open
mine. Kev burst out laughing when he had opened the small, flat and
rectangular parcel. It was a DVD copy of 'The brave Lioness'. I had found
it on the web site of a small shop which had specialized in children's
movies of all decades.

"Look inside."

I tried to keep my face as blank as possible. Still the smile kept creeping
back on it. He did as I had told him. A silver necklace with a small "L" as
a pendant was hidden in the DVD case.

"So you will not forget me, if I am not around."

I allowed the smile to come to my face. Kev chuckled. It wasn't quite the
reaction I had expected. He handed me a small cube-like box.

"Open it."

The well-known sly grin had grown around Kev's lips. Inside that box was a
silver necklace with a small "K" attached to it.

"So you will not forget me, if I am not around."

Kev's grin widened into a full smile. I started to laugh.

"Great minds think alike."

After a short pause I added.

"Let me put it on you."

I took the necklace out of the DVD case. Kev turned away from me and slid
down a little bit so that I could reach his neck. I was pleased to see that
I had chosen the right length.

"Now you."

It was me who turned away from Kev now and there was no necessity to make
myself smaller. With his gentle hands resting on my shoulders, he closed
the tiny lock. I turned back to face Kev again and hugged him, whispering
into his ear.

"As if I could forget you."

"Or I could forget you."

I realized with a start that the room was absolutely silent. Kev and I
turned our heads towards the others. Everyone, including Christopher, was
looking at us with a smile.

"Look outside!"

My Mom had noticed first. Snowflakes had begun to fall and covered
everything with a blanket of white velvet.


Due to the snow, we had to postpone the first run with the new
shoes. Instead the entire family went for a walk. Later that day, we
fetched my old sled from the cellar and Kev, Christopher and I went for the
park. It was the first time for the little man to slide down a snowy,
little hill. He was scared at first. But when Kev told him he would hold
him fast, Christopher agreed for the ride. I had forgotten how much fun a
sled can bring. Like that afternoon, the rest of the Christmas days went by
in a rush.

We had wonderful meals together, talked in the living room and played with
Christopher. Unfortunately, Kev and I had to leave on the day after Boxing
Day. All of Kev's team members were supposed to return, because training
had to be resumed for the national college championships that would be in
March. Kev had suggested that I could spend some more days with my family,
but I didn't want to leave him alone. The farewell had been as hearty as
the welcome. Christopher was very sad that Kev had to go, but when Kev had
promised to see him again soon, my little nephew was back to his cheerful
self. Christopher's good mood had infected Kev for the whole trip. I felt
glad that Kev and my parents had gotten along just fine.

Kev and I spent wonderful days together at the college. We finally were
able to break in our new shoes. It was like running on feathers. On New
Year's Eve, we had a little celebration of our own. This had been the best
Christmas break I ever had. All too soon, the rat race of being at a
college had started again.


I had been walking through the aisles of the library for hours now. At
least, it felt like hours. The library computer insisted on the book, a
text on measure theory, being here.

I had asked one of the librarians, but he could only confirm that the book
should be here and that it most probably had been sorted in at the wrong
place. Since I needed this book for a paper, I had no choice but to search
for it. I had made my way to the engineering section. At least, the
librarian had been able tell me that the book's binding was bright red,
because they had images of all their books in the system. So I scanned the
shelves for red books. Fortunately, those were not too numerous. I was
completely absorbed in my search when I bumped into someone.

"Oh. Excuse me, I..."

My heart fell. Of all the persons I could have jostled, it had to be
Timothy, Kev's teammate. I quickly glanced up and down the aisle, but there
was no-one to be seen.

"Look! What have we got here? The fag."

A sneer formed on his lips.

"I am sorry, I will..."

"What have I told you about hitting on me?"

The sneer had vanished. It had been replaced by pure anger, distorting his
features.

"I didn't..."

He grabbed me at the collar of my shirt.

"I will teach you to leave normal guys alone."

He drew back his fist. I closed my eyes. It hit me hard on my left
cheek. Timothy had released his grip, so the momentum of his punch knocked
me to the ground. A metallic taste and a warm trickle on my chin made me
aware of the fact that I was bleeding. My shoulders and my back ached. In
my ears, a screeching noise dampened out all other sounds. My eyes were
still closed, but I saw whirling dots of light moving in a wild dance. I
didn't dare to open them, bracing for the next hit or kick that was sure to
come. The uproar in my ears began to fade and I heard a voice...no...

more than one voice. I opened my eyes. It took some moments to get them
focused.

Hayden and Jaleel, two other members of the bodybuilding team, were holding
Timothy. He was glaring at me with cold eyes. I now could understand what
they were saying.

"Dude, are you crazy? That's Kev's boyfriend."

"Answer us, Tim."

Timothy didn't say a word. Hayden turned to me.

"Are you alright... Leon... that's your name, isn't it?"

"I am... yes, Leon... I..."

Hayden had made a step forward and extended his hand to help me up. Jaleel
still had Timothy by his left arm.

"Why do you help the fag? It's all his fault."

Timothy said this without any emotion showing in his voice, echoing the
coldness of his eyes.

"First, he corrupted Kev and now we are next."

Hayden and Jaleel looked at Timothy in disgust.

"You are talking shit, dude."

"Piss off, Tim. Just go."

Jaleel pushed Timothy down the aisles and motioned him to go on. Timothy
pointed a finger at me in silence, but turned around and left in a slow
stride.

"We are sorry, dude. Tim is just one crazy asshole. We hadn't a clue."

"We'll take you to the college nurse."

"I don't think that that is..."

"We insist."

Hayden was still holding me and started to move, making me follow
him. During the trip to the nurse they kept apologizing for Timothy.

"What have you done to this poor boy?"

Nurse Garland glowered at Hayden and Jaleel.

"It wasn't them. They helped me against... the attacker."

I felt reluctant to reveal Timothy's name.

"It was Timothy MacFarland. One of our team mates."

Hayden had made the decision for me. In a certain sense, I felt
relieved. But I also wondered what would happen to the team. I would have
to assume responsibility for that.

"Sorry, boys."

Nurse Garland's eyes had softened. The two bodybuilders simply nodded.

Nonetheless, in both of their faces shame was showing. The nurse cleaned
the laceration. I was elated to realize that I still had all of my
teeth. Nurse Garland gave me a note which listed the symptoms of a
concussion and instructed me to immediately see a doctor if any of those
would show. Hayden and Jaleel escorted me to my room, though I had
repeatedly told them it wasn't necessary. I thanked both of them, another
apology their reaction.

It was 5 o'clock now. Kev would be at the spa for another two hours. In the
loneliness of my room, the realization of what had happened hit me. I
started to shiver. I was afraid. I was furious. The lack of a logical
explanation for his attack drove me mad.

The fact that I hadn't been able to do anything against it enraged me even
more. I opened the door of the wardrobe and looked into the mirror. My lip
was bruised and where his fist had made contact the skin was red. I knew it
would turn black soon.

For the first time during this terrible event, I started to cry. I watched
the tears flow down on my reflection, as if a stranger was crying.

Not quite a quarter of an hour later, the door flew open. I jumped up from
my bed, just to sit down again. It was Rob.

"Oh, little one!"

She ran over to my bed and hugged me, still standing.

"I heard about it. All of it. This bastard will regret the day he was
born..."

Rumors spread fast on a college campus. And Rob was some kind of hive
queen. All information reached her at an amazing speed. I didn't know what
to say, so I stayed quiet and hugged her back. She sat with me and kept on
talking about all kinds of stuff. She wanted to distract me. I remained
silent.

At 7:30, Kev returned from his job. Rob was still sitting by my side and
held her endless monologue.

"I'm ba..."

Kev had crossed the distance from the door to my bed in a blur. He was
kneeling before me. His face reflected my own pain. His hand came close to
the bruise, but Kev retracted it slowly, afraid to hurt me.

"Who has done it?"

I looked at Kev. My tears had returned. I shook my head.

"It was Timothy MacFarland."

I turned to Rob. I had intended to glare at her, but couldn't find the
anger to do so.

Kev jumped up.

"I will kill him!"

I grabbed Kev's arm.

"Don't."

I hadn't talked for hours. My voice was frail and almost too soft to hear,
but Kev froze in mid-movement. I realized in that moment how much power I
was having over him. A single word had stopped this giant of a man. At the
same time, I became aware where this power was coming from: trust. That
trust was mutual. Kev held the same power over me. I brought his hand to my
face and let my bruised lip touch his skin.

"Don't, Kev. Indeed, you'd kill him, even if you don't intend to. I need
you here."

Kev sank back to his knees. Tears were now streaming down both our
faces. He laid his head into my lap. I let my fingers glide through his
soft hair.

"Leon, you don't deserve this. I wasn't there to protect you."

I made Kev look into my face.

"It wasn't your fault. Don't you dare assume responsibility for this. Do
you understand me?"

In a much softer voice I continued.

"I love you too much to let this happen."

I kissed him, ignoring the pain that seared through my lips.

"I'll kill him for you, Kev."

My ability to glare at Rob had returned.

"You are better than Timothy. You won't descend to his level."

That struck harder than any threat of expulsion or prison. Rob continued in
an uncharacteristic, low volume.

"Rumors have it that Nurse Garland has reported him."

"Hayden told her who attacked me."

"Hayden?"

Of course, Kev didn't know what had happened. I recounted what had
transpired in the library and the role of his team mates in it.

"Hayden and Jaleel are cool guys. But I would have said that about Tim if
you had asked me an hour ago."

"Remember the celebration after the Hardwood Contest?"

My voice was meek.

"Sure."

"He threatened me."

"The funny face!"

I nodded.

"Why haven't you told me then?"

"I didn't want to hurt the team. I thought it unlikely to ever meet him
alone."

"Probability is not on your side then."

Kev and I turned to Rob. She shrugged. I looked into Kev's eyes.

"Can you forgive me?"

Kev's face showed pain again, after I had asked my question. He caressed
the healthy side of my face with the back of his hand.

"Can YOU forgive ME? That's the question. I should have known better,
should have seen what kind of man Tim is."

"You are even."

For once, I was grateful for Rob's habit to comment on everything. We burst
out laughing, the tension of the moment broken. Kev and I looked at each
other and we both realized: there was nothing to forgive.


It turned out that the reporting by Nurse Garland was more than a
rumor. Timothy had been suspended with immediate effect. Three days later
an official hearing took place. Timothy, Hayden, Jaleel and I had been
summoned to the conference room, where three professors, one administration
clerk and three students had to decide about Timothy's fate. I told them
about the threat after the contest and the event itself. Hayden and Jaleel
reported how they had found me. Hayden, with a determined look at Timothy,
made clear that he had reported him to Nurse Garland. It was a nice
gesture. Timothy remained silent when he was asked for his reasons. To my
amazement, the chairman of the hearing, one Professor Layten I didn't knew,
asked me what kind of punishment I would find appropriate.

"Sir, I..."

I turned to Timothy. The coldness in his eyes which had haunted me in my
dreams was gone. He looked broken, almost pleading. I had a feeling that
determining the sentence was too much to ask of me. I wasn't angry at him,
not anymore. I felt pity. I looked back at the chairman.

"Sir, I don't think that an expulsion is appropriate. I would even allow
Tim back on the team, if they accept him. That'll be difficult, especially
for my boyfriend. But if the team wants to stand a chance at the national
college championships, Timothy has to participate. For punishment..."

I looked at Timothy again.

"... I suggest social work at the LGBT club here at college. Perhaps he
will see that we... fags... don't mean any harm to him."

I was aware of the irony of my last sentence, but knew it had hit bull's
eye.

"Mr. MacFarland, it looks as if you have an advocate in Mr. Fitzgerald. To
be honest: I would have suggested expulsion to the committee. Diversity is
one of the main pillars this college has been erected on. And you have
violated this core principle by assaulting Mr. Fitzgerald for his sexual
preferences. But since the victim does not press charges, I follow his
suggestion: one semester of social work at the discretion of the LGBT
club. Are there any dissenting votes?"

No-one objected.

"Be warned, Mr. MacFarland. Any further incident, however minor, will lead
to immediate expulsion. If the LGBT club expresses any discontent with your
work, Coach Derringer has offered, in his pictorial manner of speaking, to
kick your sorry ass from campus himself. Do you accept the ruling of this
committee, Mr. MacFarland?"

"I do."

He looked to the ground, his voice weak.

On the way out of the conference room, Timothy approached me. Hayden and
Jaleel were standing near me and watched him with vigilance.

"Thank you."

I nodded and he left. Hayden and Jaleel gave me an envelope, both grinning
insecurely. Inside was a 'Get Well!' card with some dumbbells on it. I felt
like a fraud, because all I had was a bruised lip. The entire bodybuilding
team had signed the card. Timothy's signature was missing.


The bruise on my lip had healed. The wound inside had not. I wasn't afraid
of Timothy anymore, but every time I left my room alone there was an uneasy
feeling nagging at me. Subtle, almost too faint to realize, but a constant
companion I had learned to detest. I had declined the offer of visiting a
counselor. I was too ashamed to share these feelings with anyone but
Kev. He would listen, he would hold me, but when he was gone, the wound
opened again.


I had accompanied Kev to the national college championships which took
place in Huntington City, home of last year's winner. Bergmont ranked on a
respectable fourth place. After the competition, Kev and I met at the
boards around the posing area.

"Congratulations."

I gave Kev a quick peck on his cheek. I was beaming at him, but he seemed
not to be too enthused.

"Hey. Fourth place in a national competition is not that bad."

"That's not it."

His face sagged a little more, almost a tortured look. I touched his cheek
with my hand.

"What is it, Kev?"

"Don't freak out, ok?"

I slowly retracted my hand. Fear started to form a lump in my stomach. I
nodded.

"The guys want to do a celebration again. They would like you to come with
us."

"He will be there, won't he?"

My fear of Timothy had faded, but meeting him again, acting like nothing
has happened, seemed unreal, almost surrealistic.

Now it was Kev who simply nodded.

"I don't know."

My voice was soft. My head was hanging. It felt as if I was letting down
Kev. That hurt the most.

"The team wants to make up for what has happened. But if you can't..."

"I'll come."

My head had shot up. The decision had been instant. No thinking about it,
no pining away in what-ifs and could-bes. Something had started to change
me and I had a strong suspicion that this something was standing in front
of me. Kev face lighted up, beginning from his eyes.

"What doesn't kill me makes me strong. Confrontation therapy!"

I had raised my fist for effect. Perhaps if I pretended to be confident,
the real thing would follow. Kev chuckled, causing the regular symptoms
around my spine.

The celebration took place in a Greek restaurant in the city. Kev and I
arrived last, like the last time. The guys jumped up when they saw me, but
I motioned them to sit down again. I had plastered a smile to my face which
was as real as the decoration of this place. Shaking hands would have meant
to shake hands with Timothy as well, so I opted for a wave. Kev and I were
seated as far away from Timothy as possible.

Whether that had been arranged for intentionally, wasn't clear to
me. Nonetheless, I was glad about it. The team members discussed today's
events, but I stayed silent most of the time. Kev's and my hand had found
each other under the table. Today, he was the one who had to squeeze mine.

 "Leon?"

I froze at the sound of his voice. He was standing behind me. I had to
close my eyes.

I breathed in slowly and let go of the air again.

"Leon, I would like to talk to you."

Kev turned to Timothy and opened his mouth to speak. I put both our hands
on Kev's knee, signaling him to remain silent. Still not looking at him, I
replied.

"Good. Talk."

"Can we go somewhere more private?"

The entire team had stopped their conversations. Everyone was looking at
either me or Timothy. It was Coach Derringer who spoke out the obvious.

"That's not such a good idea, Tim."

"I won't even touch you, Leon. Please!"

He wouldn't harm me that was clear. I just didn't know whether I wanted to
talk to him. Curiosity won out. I got up.

"Outside?"

It was the most private place I could come up with.

"Sure."

The night outside was neither warm nor cold. It was one of those nights
which lingered on the door step between winter and spring.

"Leon. First, I want to thank you again for speaking out on my behalf
before the committee."

It was the first time I really looked at Timothy. His hair was black as
mine and as wild, his eyes a light brown. It was astounding. I had looked
into his eyes, had shivered at their coldness, but I had not remembered
their color. He was taller than me, who wasn't, but not as tall as Kev. His
muscular frame was just a silhouette against the city lights. There was
nothing terrifying about him now.

"I am not a vengeful person."

It sounded colder than I had intended.

"Uh-huh. Second, I want to apologize for what I have done. I can't give you
any reasons, but not because I don't want to, I can't. I don't know
myself."

"And that's supposed to help me?"

"Leon, you have all right to hate me and you don't need to accept my
apology. I have been told my whole life how wrong it is to be a..."

"Fag? Queer? Gay?"

He looked to the ground and nodded.

"I accept."

He looked into my eyes.

"I accept your apology."

I extended my hand. Timothy looked at it in terror.

"I promised not to touch you..."

"I won't tell anyone."

He raised his head to look into my face again. I started to chuckle, which
grew to a full out laughter soon. Timothy joined in. Finally, he shook my
hand.

"Would you like to join Kev and me at the table and tell us about your work
at the LGBT club?"

"Sure."

The table turned silent again when we returned.

"I didn't harm him."

My face was a mask of sincerity and I motioned in Timothy's direction when
I said it.

It took the guys full three seconds to realize that I was joking. When the
laughter had subsided, Timothy sat down with us. I gave Kev a look and a
curt nod to indicate that everything was alright. Timothy told Kev and me
about his work with the LGBT crew. He actually had started to like it, even
had made friends there.

It would take more time to heal, but the thorn had been removed from my
wound.


At last, Kev and I had made up our minds about the travelling certificate
from my parents. We had searched the web together. That had taken longer
than expected.

First time, I had been sitting on Kev's lap before my notebook. After a
short time the computer had been completely forgotten. Next tries included
lying on the bed, lying on the floor and standing at the desk. The result
had invariably been the same. We had then decided to make love before
looking for a place to spend the trip. That had done the trick. We had
discovered a nice hotel on Hawaii. Neither of us had ever been there and
the warm weather appealed to both of us. Furthermore, a little rainbow flag
icon was to be found in the description, indicating a gay-friendly place.

It was Friday afternoon, the last Friday before summer term would start. We
were sitting in the airplane which was about to land. The flight must have
been a torture for Kev. The distance between the seats wasn't nearly large
enough for Kev to sit straight. This plane had not been constructed for
people his size. He had folded himself together somehow to fit in. I had
tried to distract him by kissing his neck up and down while talking
sweetly. It had worked, but I could see his elation when the plane had
finally come to a hold and we were allowed to exit. The next problem was
only minor: two teenage girls greeted us with kisses and leis. Kev's girl
had a little struggle to get the lei around his neck, a situation that was
not helped by Kev still being stiff from the plane. A small bus took the
group of 16 guests to the hotel.

Before taking us to our room, we were all welcomed with a cocktail served
in a pineapple. Kev and I got engaged in a friendly chatter with a couple
during the little reception, Brady and Terry. Both were twenty-somethings,
but closer to their thirties.

Brady was one head smaller than Kev which still made him one of the tallest
persons here. His built was athletic and his chiseled face was framed by
dark blond, wavy hair that ran down to his shoulders. The color of Brady's
eyes was a cool grey. Brady was attractive for sure, GQ material. Terry was
his wife. She had approximately Brady's height which was quite
extraordinary for a woman. Her blond hair was straight and gathered in a
sloppy pony tail. Like Kev she had blue eyes, but many shades darker than
his. Though I wasn't an expert, her bosom seemed enormous. Brady and Terry
made up a nice couple. Their cheerful manner was infective and they asked
us to join them for dinner at the hotel. Since we would have enough time
for just the two of us, we accepted.

After unpacking our stuff, we went for a little tour. Kev and I had slung
our arms around each other, walking side by side. We decided to take a look
at the beach. The sand was white and still hot. The sun had begun to set,
casting its red light on the palms and the sea. The smell of hot sand and
the sea were mingled together in an exotic aroma. We took off our shoes and
walked barefoot in the sand. Most of the people had already left. We
attracted some looks, but those were of friendly curiosity and we were
already used to be the center of interest, at least for some minutes. Our
looks were too different for not to draw attention. Kev and I strolled to
the sea and let the water wash around our feet. It was surprisingly warm.

"I apologize in advance."

"What..."

Kev picked me up and was holding me like a toddler. He started to kiss my
neck, slowly following up its line. Kev's firm body was one with mine. His
musk was added to the mixture of smells, beguiling my senses. He continued
kissing my jaw and my chin. His lips had found mine. He nibbled softly at
my lower lip, before enclosing my mouth with his. His tongue asked for
entrance, most tender. I parted my lips and welcomed him with my own
tongue. Time melted away. We were at the center of our own universe,
nothing in it except the both of us. Kev put me down with greatest care.

"Couldn't resist."

He grinned slyly.

"No need for apologies."

I looked at him and was overwhelmed by my own feelings. I bear-hugged him,
wanted to be as close as possible, buried my face into his chest. His arms
closed around my back. I shivered when I became aware of their strength,
but now they were holding me in infinite tenderness.

"I love you, Kev."

"I love you, Leon."

Barely louder than a breath.

When we arrived back at the hotel, it was already time to get dressed for
the dinner.

Brady and Terry had reserved a table for four persons. They were already
waiting for us, though we were early. We greeted each other. Soon we were
talking lively, getting to know each other.

"You two are what, friends?"

Brady asked after the basic information of age, job and home had been
exchanged.

"We are a little more than just friends."

Both of us grinned at Kev's remark.

"Boyfriends then? Cool."

"You are a really cute couple. Cute by contrast."

Terry's smile was genuine.

"So you don't mind us being gay?"

"Nah. We are, uh, a non-conventional couple ourselves."

The slyness in Brady's grin rivaled with Kev's.

"In how far? Oh sorry."

Curiosity killed the cat, but I couldn't resist.

"No prob. We have an open relationship, sex with other partners, you
know. And we are not too picky about the gender, either."

I hadn't seen that coming.

"Whatever floats your boat."

I shrugged. I often mocked about the Bergmont diversity, but it was one of
the reasons I had chosen that college in the first place. It suited my view
of the world.

"Now I owe Terry a cocktail..."

Kev and I looked at each other. The wrinkles on Kev's fore head mirrored my
own puzzlement.

"We made a bet. I'd said both of you would run away screaming when you hear
about our, uh, arrangement. Terry said you wouldn't. The loser has to buy
the winner a cocktail."

"You don't seem too upset about losing."

"Two more possible victims... just kidding."

I wasn't too sure about that, but smiled. Knowing the different shades of
Kev's smiles, it was safe to assume that he had similar thoughts than I
had. But we stayed away from this topic the rest of the evening. It had
been nice to talk to another couple, something we didn't do at college. I
wondered why.

Back in our hotel room, I was waiting for Kev to return from the
bathroom. Kev was completely naked when he entered the room, as I had
anticipated. I had gotten rid of my clothes as well. My lips were curved
into a suggestive grin. With a small sprint I crossed the room and jumped
at Kev, slinging my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. He
caught me with his arms as well. Before Kev could say anything I brought my
mouth close to his ear. In a breathy voice I did my little confession.

"Shall I tell you what I've done? My naughty butt hole asked me to
lubricate my finger and shove it in. That greedy thing wanted even
more... a second finger... a third finger."

I moved my head back, so that I could look into Kev's face. I was pouting.

"It's still asking for more."

I sighed for effect.

"Ah, there is something that could scratch that itch."

My words had not failed. Kev's cockhead was touching the crack of my ass. I
brought my mouth back to his ear.

"Pound me hard, I've been naughty."

Kev was guiding his dick with his hand while I lowered myself down onto
it. I craved that moment when the head slipped into me for the first
time. Pain and pleasure converged into a single emotion. A shockwave of
desire propagated through my body and my mind. I had learned to harness
this sensation. It allowed me to fully take Kev at once, no need for
tedious pauses. I slid down the entire length in one smooth movement. Kev
grabbed me by the ass and lifted me up, just to let me glide down again. He
didn't seem to even notice my weight. His breathing had become faster and
sweat covered his entire body. I buried my face into his neck and let my
tongue taste the saltiness of his skin. In small licks first, but then my
tongue grew more bold. Kev's musky aroma and the sensation of his sweat
magnified each other. My hands, still slung around his neck, felt Kev's
muscles work, felt the rhythm of tightening and relaxing. He had increased
the pace and intensity of his pounding. Kev growled. I had lured the animal
again. It was time to unleash it.

"Wouldn't you like to do to my face what you are doing to my ass now?
Shoving that cock down my throat without any mercy?"

I looked into Kev's eyes. They pleaded at me. His growls came in short
bursts.

"Bed. Now."

He lifted me of his rod and threw me onto the bed. I turned onto my back
and let my head hang down the bed's edge. I opened my mouth and looked at
Kev, inviting him to ravage me. He rammed his cock in, one quick movement
till his pubes were in my face and his balls slapped my forehead. His hands
were holding both sides of my head, fixing it in place. The dark smell of
Kev's groin entered my nose, making me shiver. In quick and long strokes he
pummeled away at my throat, his balls hitting me over and over again. I
could feel his cock swell, before he came. He didn't bother to pull it
out. Fully down my throat, he pumped his jizz into me. When he finally
retracted his monster, I licked at the last drops of cum on it. I wanted to
taste him, at least a little bit. The animal wasn't done yet. He went for
my dick, swallowing it whole. Kev's tongue caressed the underside of my
cock, while the muscles of his throat massaged its head. I didn't last
long, before I unloaded spurt after spurt into Kev's mouth. When my
twitches had subsided, Kev let go of my dick and kissed me with untamed
lust, almost violently. I could taste my own cum on his tongue. The kiss
became more tender, the animal faded and the gentle giant returned. I had
once said that I was fluent in the language of the animal. My grasp of it
had expanded. I was able to speak in verse now. I was poet and poem at the
same time. Kev was my pen and poetry itself.

Next morning, I woke up still cuddled into Kev's arms. I laid my head onto
his chest, careful not to wake him up, and listened to the steady beating
of his heart. I reveled in the peace that sound brought me, my eyes closed.

"Good morning."

His voice rumbled in his chest.

"I didn't mean to wake you."

He pulled me up till our lips could touch. His tongue licked at my upper
lip, just brushing it. My hand trailed up and down Kev's arm, probing once
more the paradox of its firmness and its softness.

We had to leave bed, if we wanted to get breakfast. We joined Brady and
Terry again.

"Tonight, there'll be a Luau. You'll be here?"

Brady's sly grin was an inseparable part of his character "Sure. That'll be
fun. Kev?"

"If I get to see you in a hula skirt..."

Kev was talking to me and was obviously engaged in a slyness contest with
Brady.

"We'll see about that."

Brady and Terry laughed out. The rest of the breakfast we talked about our
plans for today. The couple would do a tour of the island, we had decided
to go the beach.

After breakfast, I excused myself for the restroom. When I returned, I saw
Kev and Brady standing together at the hotel bar. Brady had a look on his
face that spoke of disappointment, his eyes directed to the ground. He
looked up in my direction and with a short nod to Kev he left. My stomach
cramped when I realized what I had observed.

Kev and I had found ourselves a nice place at the beach, right under a palm
tree. We had helped each other with the sun lotion, now lying on our sides
looking at each other.

"What's up, Leon? Something's wrong, I can see."

His hand touched my cheek.

"I saw Brady and you together."

"And?"

"He was hitting on you."

My stomach cramped again. I was sure Kev would decline any offer. Still the
mere thought of the possibility to lose him was devastating for me. Kev
began to laugh.

"Don't laugh at me."

Both hands were now touching my cheeks.

"I'm not laughing at you. It's just... he wasn't exactly hitting on me."

"Huh?"

"He was asking me to... um... borrow you from me."

"He did what?"

Kev laughed again.

"If anyone has a reason to be jealous, it is me. Terry and Brady follow
some codex which includes asking a partner before going for a victim. I
hope I didn't overstretch my authorities when I declined in your name."

"Me?"

I still couldn't believe it. If anyone had to choose between Kev and me,
how could his choice be Leon Fitzgerald?

"Leon. I've told you before: you are the most attractive man I've ever
met. Of course, other men want you."

This idea was new to me. I've never considered myself handsome or
attractive.

Furthermore, no-one had let me know before.

"I only want one man to want me."

Kev surprised me with a kiss, his lips enclosing mine.

"This man is completely lost for you."

"And I'm crazy about this man."

"He's one lucky dog."

"I hope he won't be wagging his tail when I do this."

I straddled Kev's stomach and let my body slump on his chest. I let my
hands glide up his arms, over his shoulders and to his face. While doing
so, I was planting kisses on his chest. When my hands had reached their
destination, I moved my body up till our lips could meet. I moved down
again and rested on him.

"I'm sorry."

"What for?"

"Being jealous."

My voice was meek.

"It shows me you care."

His arms crossed behind my back.

"But if you insist on being punished."

Quickly, Kev got up, holding me pressed against his body. He shifted me to
his right arm and let me hang down from his hip. The ocean was approaching
fast and I giggled. When Kev was knee-deep into the water, he rearranged me
into the position in which we had started our sprint for the sea, only a
little higher. He planted his mouth on mine, still running. Suddenly he
lunged forwards and both of us immersed into the water, our lips locked in
the kiss. A feeling of intimacy rippled through my mind, since we were
breathing each other's air. Stars were already bursting in my vision before
we broke the surface again, both of us panting.

"The punishment has been enforced."

I kissed Kev one more time, tasting the saltiness of the sea on his lips.

Eventually, we returned to our place at the beach, dried each other and put
on another layer of sun lotion. We laid down for a sunbath, holding
hands. After a short while, a shadow was cast over us and I opened my
eyes. A small, old lady, perhaps in her seventies, was standing before
us. Her face was wrinkled and bore a friendly smile.

Despite her age, her eyes were sparkling in a bright green that reminded me
of the color of my own eyes. She was wearing a white summer hat with a
large rim and a bath suit with floral decors. In her hands, she was holding
a jar of pickles.

"Honey, you look like you could help us with our predicament. Henry, my
husband, and I tried our best, but the manufacturer did a little too much
for the freshness of this."

She chuckled and extended the hand with the jar in Kev's direction.

"Of course, ma'am."

Kev sat up, took the jar and with the slightest effort removed the lid.

"Thank you so much, honey. What's a beach picnic without those?"

She chuckled again and planted a kiss on Kev's cheek.

"No problem, ma'am."

Kev smiled back at her.

"My name's Estelle, honey. You two, one can see that you belong together."

Kev and I looked at each other, shock on our faces. Estelle laughed.

"I may be old, but I'm not a narrow-minded prune. Two men or not, you are
meant to be together."

She went back to her place and joined her husband who gave us a short wave
of gratitude.

When I had recovered from that surprising turn of events, I looked at Kev.

"Seems like I have reason to be jealous."

I hinted at his cheek. Kev rumbled a laugh. Two thoughts crossed my
mind. First, it was nice to see that there were people, strangers, who were
not afraid of Kev, who could look beyond his intimidating form and see the
tender man he was. Second, I pondered about what Estelle had said. I looked
at the two who were feeding each other with sandwiches and pickles. Their
love had lasted for centuries, I assumed. I turned my head towards Kev. He
was looking into my eyes, a hint of a smile playing on his lips. He must
have been thinking the same thought: opposite of me sat the man whom I
wanted to spend the rest of my life with.


We had changed for the Luau. Kev looked great in the hula skirt.

"My Tiki warrior."

He flexed his biceps and grinned.

"Kev come to get best looking mate for him. Choose this one."

He said it in a low rumble, grabbed me and hung me over his shoulder. I
laughed. He put me down again in a gentle movement.

We met Brady and Terry at the bar. A group of locals were already
performing a dance show. The presence of Brady felt a little awkward, now
that I knew what he had asked from Kev. That feeling intensified when he
looked at me.

"Really a pity that you don't want to. You are such a cutie."

I had to try hard to keep my face blank.

"Hey, no need to worry. I'll keep my hands off you."

I managed a hollow smile.

"Do you grant me at least one dance?"

The dance group had invited the guests to join them. I looked at Kev. He
grinned and gave me a short nod that no one but me had noticed.

"Okay, Brady."

He and I joined the other guests on the dance floor, Terry and Kev
followed. Each time Kev's and my gaze met, we smiled at each other.

"I wish both of you all the best. No-one can say that Brady Waynard is a
sour loser."

I laughed and thanked him.

The rest of the evening went by in a rush, as did the next morning. We
exchanged contact data with Brady and Terry. All too soon, it was Sunday
afternoon and we were on the plane back. My parents had chosen a present
that Kev and I would never forget.


Despite the day to day business of college, training and spa, Kev and I
always found time for a little romance. Small things, like eating in our
room by candlelight or renting a boat to spent the day on the nearby lake,
but the love behind them gave them gravity and significance. It was almost
June now and even after six month of being a couple my attraction to Kev
hadn't waned. Quite the contrary.

Kev had just returned from his job at the spa and was holding a flyer.

"The Rocky Horror fan club does another show."

He handed me the slip of paper.

"This time they do a costume contest."

I looked up from the leaflet.

"They often do."

"Wanna go?"

"Sure. Why not."

"With costumes?"

 Kev had surprised me with his proposal.

"You're sure that you want to wear nothing but golden swimming trunks and
boots?"

I realized what my costume would look like.

"And I'd be dressed in a corsage, nylons and suspenders."

"You've got the legs for it."

Kev smirked. I had to laugh. He had thrown my own words back at me.

"If you go, I'll go."

I extended my hand. Kev shook it.

"Then it's a deal."

I hadn't considered how embarrassing the shopping for the costume would
be. I had asked my mother, but her shop wasn't specialized in this kind of
underwear. A trip to the city was inevitable. The course of events was the
same in every shop. A friendly salesgirl would approach me and ask what I
was looking for. I would state my request and then the question for the
size of my girlfriend would come up. The shy answer of 'Approximately my
size.' would result in a short pause, a pitiful smile and then a nice
selection of lingerie. The explanation of these clothes being part of a
costume would invariably be answered with 'Of course.' accompanied by a
wink. At last, I may have lost my dignity, but I had one hell of a
dress. Kev and I had decided not to show each other's costume in
advance. He would be surprised.

On the Friday night of the show, the greatest of humiliations was still to
come: I had to ask Rob to help me with the make-up.

"I knew it was only a matter of time before this would happen, little one."

Rob had a little too much fun for my taste. I glowered at her.

"Do you know what you are doing?"

I hadn't seen Rob wear any make-up so far.

"Each and every of my cousins is a cosmetician. I've learnt one or two
tricks. Don't bitch around, little bitch."

I took her a full hour to complete it, but the result was breathtaking. In
the mirror before me, Frank-N-Furter was staring back at me.

"Nice job."

I whispered.

"Told you so, little one."

I was already wearing the costume, but had dressed a sweatshirt and jeans
over it. I sneaked back into our room, hoping not to meet anyone. It would
be hard to explain the make-up without the costume. I had to evade two guys
in the stair case, but made it back unnoticed. Kev had already left for the
changing room in the showers. I had gotten rid of the normal clothes and
had just finished some minor adjustments to my suspenders when Kev entered
the room. He had straightened his curly hair somehow and was wearing a
golden brief with matching golden boots.

"Wow."

We said simultaneously and grinned at each other.

"This time there will be no need to wear a badge."

"No, Rocky, definitely not."

We were lucky that the day had been very warm and the night promised to be
mild as well. I was weary when we left the room and we attracted some
strange looks by the people in and around the dorm. But the closer we came
to the cinema, the more persons in costumes crossed our path. There was a
wild display of Brads, Janets, Riff- Raffs, Franks, Rockies, Magentas and
Columbias. A few had dressed up as the narrator and one person in a
wheelchair was disguised as Dr. von Scott.

"Are you here as a couple?"

The question of the student passing out the cards seemed a little too
curious for my taste, but we answered it truthfully. We got name tags, but
the role wasn't written on it this time. Kev had to attach the tag to his
briefs which made me grin. Inside, a party was already going on. The fan
club had prepared a little buffet and offered drinks.

Music from the movie was playing in the background. The decoration followed
the theme of the Rocky Horror Picture Show and gave the room the charm of a
haunted castle. My insecurity was gone, now that almost everyone was
dressed up as someone else. Kev and I enjoyed ourselves. After an hour, one
of the fan club members entered a little stage and addressed the party
guests.

"Ladies and gentlemen, our jury is confronted with a very hard task this
time. You have outdone yourselves."

Applause roared through the room.

"We have decided on three duos from the movie, but the final decision is
still to be made."

Another round of cheers followed.

"The nominees are: Kathy and Warren as Janet and Brad."

The couple joined the guy on the stage and was greeted with applause and
catcalls.

"Next couple: Desiree and Carl as Magenta and Riff-Raff."

Again the welcome was very noisy.

"And last but not least: Leon and Kev as Frank-N-Furter and Rocky."

I realized it with a start: the funny question of the guy with the
cards. He had asked us whether we would like to join the contest, though
not using as many words. The crowd was already cheering, it was too late to
back out. Kev and I looked at each other with encouraging smiles. I took
Kev's hand and we both entered the stage.

"So, ladies and gentlemen. The jury has decided. The envelope please."

Another student joined us and handed the host the envelope he had asked
for.

"And the winners are..."

He made a pause for drama. The crowd was silent.

"Frank and Rocky, Leon and Kev!"

The room roared of applause again. The two other couples congratulated us
and left the stage. We were handed a small trophy with a plaque stating
that we were the winners of the 'Only Original Bergmont Rocky Horror
Picture Show Costume Contest'.

"It is a cherished tradition that the winners of our contest do a little
performance."

The crowd started to chant 'Playback! Playback!'. Kev and I looked at each
other again, this time worry on our faces. We hadn't prepared anything.

"I think 'I can make you a man' suits your costumes? What do you think?"

We nodded, not having much of a choice. The host warned us that the two
parts of the song from the movie had been cut into one piece. Since our
entire show would be played by ear, this wouldn't make much difference.

Soon Kev and I were standing on the stage alone and the first notes of the
song were playing. I had seen the movie often enough to rip off the
performance of Tim Curry, rubbing myself up and down Kev's body. But the
further we came into the song the more I dared to enter a personal touch
here and there. Kev was brilliant, first, playing shy and flinching at my
touches, later flexing and posing with confidence. The song ended in a
distorted version of the wedding march. I jumped into Kev's arms and he
carried me to the back of the stage, his back to the audience. We smirked
at each other. For an improvisation, we had pulled off an amazing show. The
party guests seemed to share my assessment, as they were clapping their
hands and cheering ecstatically.

Kev and I kissed on the stage. For the fraction of a second, the entire
room went silent. Then the roaring returned with a vengeance accompanied by
catcalls.

It was time for the movie. During the Time Warp scene, everyone wanted to
dance with Kev and me. These were our fifteen minutes of fame and we
enjoyed them.

Later that evening, back in our room, we played out the scenes that were
only hinted at in the movie...


The next morning, we did our running training as usual. Kev's predictions
had come true. I was already outperforming Kev and had to hold back to not
leave him behind.

He didn't mind at all and was very proud of what we had achieved
together. After showering, we went to the cafeteria for breakfast.

We hadn't seen this coming. When we entered the dining hall, we were
greeted by cheers and more catcalls. I was confused. Not all of these
people could have probably been at the party. Nonetheless, Kev and I waved
back at the crowd with a smile. The situation cleared up when a fellow
student approached us with a hardcopy of today's college blog entry and
asked for autographs. We had made the campus media. We asked another
student if he would show us the blog on his laptop. A small series of
pictures had been posted, showing scenes of our performance and the
kiss. Kev and I burst out laughing every time we looked at each other. It
seemed as if our fifteen minutes of fame had been extended to a full half
hour. A tangent thought entered my mind when I became aware of the full
extent of the acceptance around us: the wound that Timothy had inflicted on
my soul had healed. The fear had gone without me realizing it. I kissed a
surprised Kev.


It was Thanksgiving again. This year we would spend it with my
family. Christopher had wrecked the nerves of Marc and my sister when he
had learned that he would see Kev again. He and Kev the Rabbit were still
inseparable. Kev and I had arrived on Wednesday. When Tiff and her family
arrived on Thursday morning, Christopher ran to Kev and hugged his leg. Kev
picked him up and the little man planted a kiss on Kev's cheek, beaming
over his entire face. My little nephew whispered into Kev's ear.

"I am three years old now. I know you are not a giant, but I think you are
cool."

"And I think you are cool, too."

Kev put him down and now Christopher had time for his grandparents. But Mom
and Dad didn't mind, they loved Kev and Chris too much for any misgivings.

The morning and the afternoon whizzed by in preparation for the feast. We
had helped Mom with the turkey and the other treats and Kev had accompanied
Dad for some last minute shopping. The entire day I had been nervous and
had checked the pocket of my jeans over and over again. Feeling the smooth
surface of its content had given me enough strength to carry on.

In the evening, the family started to gather in the dining room. Mom
approached me.

"Everything is prepared, darling. Little Chris has kept him away from the
living room, that cunning rascal."

I tried to smile, but I could only grimace.

"Leon, don't be nervous. It'll be alright."

She caressed my cheek and I grabbed her hand.

"Thank you, Mom."

Her smile was genuine.

We joined the others in the dining room. I had to use all my strength to
act as usual, knowing that Kev would realize any irregularity. Though I
wasn't hungry at all, I pretended to eat with pleasure. Though my mind was
racing, I participated in the friendly banter. Though my heart was beating
fast, my outer appearance was calm.

Dessert was finished and according to the script my Dad addressed me.

"Leon, could you please fetch a bottle of wine from the cellar?"

"Which one?"

"The red one, last shelf to the right."

I rose from my chair, but instead of heading for the cellar, I went to the
living room. I had exactly 5 minutes. Then the script demanded my mother to
send Kev for the lighter she had last seen in the living room. More time
would have raised suspicions about my whereabouts. I quickly changed into
the clothes which my Mom had folded onto the table: the black cord suit,
the white shirt and the grey tie. Moreover, she had arranged candles all
over the room which I lit. I checked one last time the cubic shape which
was now resting in the inside pocket of my jacket. 4 minutes 32
seconds. That was the exact time I had needed for these tasks. 28
seconds. That was the exact time left, seconds that stretched out. Each of
them became an indeterminate length in the continuity of time.

"Sure, Dolores. On the table?"

A chair moved along carpet.

"Yes, darling."

Steps came closer. The door knob was turned. The door opened.

My gentle giant was standing just inside the room, had stopped dead in his
tracks when he had taken in the scenery, when he had seen me. I closed the
distance between us and dropped to my knees. I got the small box and opened
it. Two plain golden rings were inside. I looked up into his eyes where
tears had welled up.

"One year ago, it was you who was brave enough to make the first
step. Today it is my honor to make the next. But courage? No, it does not
take any bravery. What I am going to ask you is a necessity for me, like
breathing. My life would end without you, because you are my life, its very
essence. In mathematics, one and one is not necessarily two. With you and
me, one and one has become one again. Kevin Schneider, I ask you, do you
want to marry me?"

Kev dropped to his knees as well. He seized my hands, the rings still in my
right.

"Your question doesn't take courage, my answer doesn't, either. Leon
Fitzgerald, all the time that is left in this universe, I want to spend it
with you. Yes, all I want is to marry you."

Kev released my hands. I took the larger of the two rings and put it on the
ring finger of his left hand. He did likewise with the other ring on my
hand. We closed the distance between us until our lips met. I put my arms
around Kev's neck and he closed his arms over the small of my back. Tears
started to flow down our cheeks.

Small fingers wiped away the tears from my face and Kev's face. Our lips
parted.

Christopher was standing besides us.

"Uncle Leon, Uncle Kev. No crying. It's a lucky day!"

We smiled at the little man. Now I saw the rest of my family standing in
the corridor.

Tears were glistening on their cheeks, too.

"You have heard, Christopher. It's a lucky day!"

Mom stormed towards us and hugged both of us while we were still kneeling
on the floor. Dad, Tiffany and Marc joined her embrace. We were
surrounded. Kev and I smirked at each other.

Dad opened a bottle of champagne and we celebrated the whole night, me
being in a trance-like state of mind.

It wasn't before the next morning that I fully realized the events of the
evening, though I had initiated them. Kev was spooning me, his arms around
my chest. My eyes fell on the ring on Kev's finger. I put my hand next to
his, tiny in comparison.

Kevin Schneider, my fianc‚.

We were engaged. Nothing had changed, but everything was different. Our
marriage would be the outer sign of what had become a simple fact of my
life: Kev and I would stay together and love each other forever.

"Good morning, my soon-to-be husband."

Kev's voice rumbled in his chest. He planted a kiss on the top of my
head. I turned around to face him. We kissed softly. A thought crossed my
mind.

"Guess how much I love you?"

It had never hit me before how much Kev and I resembled the two nutbrown
hares from the children's book.

"We love each other all the way up to the moon and back."

I cuddled Kev as closely as possible, allowing no distance between the two
of us.


The next four months were full of planning, organizing and executing. My
parents had insisted on paying for the wedding feast. The ceremony was to
be held in their garden, as was the party. A close friend of my Dad, who
worked for the civil registry office, would marry us. My home state fully
recognized same-sex-marriages.

Unfortunately, most of the other states didn't. It wasn't very romantic,
but Dad had suggested concluding mutual agreements covering aspects of the
marriage like hospital visitation rights. Those would be legally binding in
all states. We kept referring to those agreements as our marriage contract,
though that wasn't the exact term and drove Dad mad. There were some touchy
points in this contract.

"I don't want your money, Leon."

"After the marriage there will be no such thing as 'my money', Kev. Marital
community of property."

I couldn't understand Kev's resistance. That special agreement would only
expand a legal fact in this state to the other states.

"I'm no gold-digger."

Kev was sitting at his desk and stared to the ground, his voice low. I sat
down onto his lap and lifted his chin up, making him look into my eyes.

"Kev, I know. You would marry me, if I had nothing but the clothes I wear."

"Damn right."

"So what is it?"

"I can't give you anything."

"Kev, this isn't about getting even. There are so many things that you
offer to me that I can't return. The feeling of resting in your strong
arms, the absolute security..." and laughing I added "... being carried
around."

"Those aren't worth much."

"Are you kidding me? Those are the most precious things in my world."

Our lips met in a deep kiss.

Eventually, Kev accepted that part of the agreement. But his face was
priceless when he learned afterwards that my picket fence fund amounted to
$75000, being every spare penny saved from my tenth birthday on.

Another subject which caused a little unrest was the choice of name. The
state allowed to keep your family names, but also offered to choose a
common one. Kev had stated that he wanted to assume my name.

"Kev, are you sure?"

"My name's Schneider on paper only. All ties that bind me to my family are
severed."

"It's the last thing that connects you to them."

"Exactly. I've got the unique opportunity to choose a new family for
myself. And becoming a Fitzgerald is probably the best choice one can
have."

Kevin and Leon Fitzgerald.

Yes, that sounded right.

We decided on a guest list. My family was set. I wanted Rob and Josh to be
there.

Kev proposed to invite his bodybuilding team. I made sure that the
invitation included Christopher. Coach Derringer and Prof. Smyth were the
next people who came to our minds. Kev asked whether he may invite some
people from the shelter he had lived in. We had talked about visiting the
shelter on various occasions, but we had never actually made it there. Of
course, they would be welcome at our marriage. We even included Brady and
Terry on the list; they had taught us one or two lessons about jealousy. It
was a pity that we had no way to contact Estelle and Henry. It would have
been a nice touch to show Estelle that her assessment of our relationship
had been correct. Laughing, I proposed to include Brittany, the ticket
vendor at the cinema. It would give her the hots. Kev came up with the two
police officers whom I had put to the flight.

No member of Kev's family had made the list. It was his decision and I
respected it.


The day of our marriage had finally arrived. It was 11 o'clock. My parents
had prepared a reception before the ceremony and many of the guests were
already scattered in the house and the garden, talking and laughing. All
the people we had invited had accepted. Kev and I still were in 'normal'
clothing. We had extended the superstitious notion of not seeing each other
in our wedding suits to both grooms.

Mom had taken care that both of us had something new, something old,
something borrowed and something blue. Furthermore, we had sixpence pieces
to put in our shoes. Even mathematicians weren't immune to popular beliefs
held by their mother.

A special moment for me was when the bodybuilding team arrived. Christopher
embraced me without the slightest resentment and I was overjoyed to realize
that I wasn't holding any grudge against him.

The arrival of Avery and Susan, the couple leading the shelter, was as
moving for Kev as for me. Kev had once said that these two had been his
only family for a long time.

Avery, an Afro-American in his mid-thirties and almost as tall as Kev,
greeted both of us with bear-hugs. I had a suspicion where Kev had acquired
his habit.

"Take good care of Kev, Leon. If there is one boy who deserves it, then it
is him."

"Oh, Avery. Don't scare him. Look at both of them and you'll see they love
each other."

Susan, also in her mid-thirties, probably of Irish descent and of my
height, embraced us, too.

I was sure that everyone on the list had arrived, but the door bell rang
again. Kev was absorbed in a lively conversation with Avery and Susan. I
smiled to myself, because happiness radiated from him, giving him a warm
glow. I didn't want to interrupt and decided to answer the door alone.

An old man and a woman around Mom's age were waiting outside. I hadn't seen
them in my whole life, but one look into the sapphire eyes of the woman and
I knew who was standing in front of me.

"Mrs. Schneider, Mr. Schneider."

I was in shock and couldn't say more than just their names.

"You must be Leon, mein Sohn?"

I nodded, still unable to form words. A hand touched my shoulder and I
turned around. My Mom was standing behind me.

"I've invited them. You may not understand, Leon. But when one of your
children or grandchildren gets married, at least, you want to have the
choice of being part of it."

The sound of glass shattering interrupted her. Kev was standing besides us.

"Mom... Opa...."

Mr. Schneider was smiling, but his eyes glistened of tears. Kev's mother
had brought her hands to her face, her tears flowing freely. Time had
frozen.

Suddenly, Kev lunged forwards and gathered the two in his arms, pressing
them to his body. He was crying now. I sought the hand of my Mom behind me,
my cheeks wet. I could feel her sobs as well. Kev released his grandfather
and his mom.

"Dad?"

Mr. Schneider shook his head. Kev's mom looked at him.

"He didn't want me to come, either. It was time to stand up against him for
once."

It was implied in her voice that her decision to come here included the
decision not to return. After a short silence, something occurred to Kev.

"Oh. Leon. This is Emily Schneider, my Mom. And this is Hans Schneider, my
grandpa. Opa, Mom, meet Leon Fitzgerald, my husband... at least soon he
will be...

and his mother, Dolores Fitzgerald."

We shook hands and finally invited Kev's mom and grandpa into our
house. The effect was strange, but not unknown to me: the more you had to
say to each other, the longer you hadn't seen someone, the more difficult
it was to find a beginning.

"Kevin, mein Junge, today is your day. We'll have time to talk later. Not
today, perhaps not tomorrow, but the time will come. I just want you to
know that I love you, I always have."

I knew Mr. Schneider for a couple of minutes, but I already liked
him. Mrs. Schneider seized Kev's hands.

"Yes, Kevin. I won't ask you to forgive me. I've been a coward when I
should have been strong and should have protected my baby. But today, I
just want to see you happy."

I put my hands on theirs and smiled. There wasn't much that I could say,
but I wanted Kev and his mom to know I would be there for both of them. Kev
looked at me and I could feel his love for me, shining through his eyes.

"It's time for you both to get dressed. I'll see for the guests to gather
in the garden in half an hour. Mr. and Mrs. Schneider, you will of course
join my husband Anthony and me in the front row."

Mom shoved us in the direction of the staircase while issuing orders to
everyone who was unlucky enough to be too close to her. Chuckling, Kev and
I made our way up.

"Everything alright, now that your mom and your grandpa are here?"

"I am glad that they came. I have heard what Dolores said. She is probably
right."

Kev's fore head wrinkled in thought.

"They must care for me if they are here. Weird thing is I still love them."

I touched his cheek.

"That's not weird. Kev, you don't know how not to love. And that's one of
the reasons why I love you."

Kev pulled me into a hug, words unnecessary. He let go of me and grinned.

"If we don't hurry, death will do us part by the hands of Dolores before we
even get married."

We kissed a last time as fianc‚s and went to the two rooms Mom had
prepared. Kev and I had each decided on a best man and a best woman. My
choice had been Josh and Rob; Kev had chosen Avery and Susan.

On the bed of my old room, Mom had draped my tuxedo. It was classic, black
with dovetails not too long. A white shirt and a grey bow tie completed my
outfit. The shiny black leather shoes suited it perfectly. I had just
finished donning the trousers and the shirt when someone knocked at my
door. It opened, giving view to Rob and Josh.

"Come in, you two."

"I had hoped to see you nude, little one."

Rob was grinning.

"You wish."

"Been there, done that."

Josh made his smug face that could be mistaken with contempt. But I was
close enough to him to know better. I had never seen Josh in a suit
before. Josh had Rob's size. He was wearing his dark blonde hair shorter
than he had during his college time.

I had never found an appropriate term to describe the color of his
eyes. Gold, honey, amber were all a little off.

"Sorry, Josh. We haven't had much time to talk, have we?"

"Don't worry, Leon. You have other things on your mind today. Your problems
may be weighing way over 225 pounds, don't they?"

The smug face was now supplemented by 'The Smirk'.

"Shut up, Josh. It is my exclusive privilege to mock about barn boy."

"You better both shut up, if you don't want to enjoy the exclusive
privilege of being smashed by his 100-pounds-groom."

We all burst out laughing.

"Leon. I don't know Kev. But I know you and if you have chosen him, he must
be one hell of a guy."

"And he's hung like a horse."

Josh and I both looked at Rob.

"What? It's true. The Rocky costume didn't leave much to the imagination."

We couldn't help but to laugh again.

"Who needs enemies, if he has got friends like you?"

I had finished dressing.

"You look great, little one."

"Indeed, Leon."

I looked at my friends and I loved them. This very moment, I couldn't help
it.


In the garden, white chairs had been arranged, forming an aisle which led
to a dais.

On the dais, a white bow had been erected, decorated with flowers. For Kev
and me a step had been built before the rostrum to stand on. It was a sunny
day, some white clouds floated across the sky. All the guests were already
seated while Mr. Whitmore, Dad's friend who would perform the ceremony, was
standing on the dais. Kev was waiting for me at the end of the aisle. I had
been trembling of excitement on my way down to the garden, but now seeing
Kev calmed me. He was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with,
so there was no reason to be nervous. Like me, he was wearing a tuxedo. Its
color was a dark grey, contrasted by a white shirt and completed by a black
bow tie. He looked breathtaking. When Kev saw me, his lips formed the word
'Wow!'. I answered him with a silent 'I love you.'. All the guests were
either looking at him or at me. It felt weird to be the center of so much
attention.

Christopher who was looking cute in his suit carried a small pillow with
the rings on it.

A string quartet began a solemn melody and the guests rose from their
seats. Chris started to lead the procession. Kev and I followed. Behind us
Rob, Susan, Avery and Josh formed the end. Little Christopher was absorbed
in his task, a slight frown hinting at his concentration. He placed the
pillow on a pillar right beside Mr.

Whitmore who smiled at my dutiful nephew. Kev and I ascended the step while
our friends assumed positions left and right of us. The strings finished
the piece and the guests sat down again. Mr. Whitmore began to speak.

"Today, we have all gathered to unite these two young men. During the talks
we had in preparation for this ceremony, I was delighted to see how
dedicated these two are for each other despite their age, how abundant
their love for each other is. A marriage built on these foundations is sure
to prosper. But a marriage is more than the outer sign of love. It is a
promise to take care of your partner, to stand by him even in difficult
times. I have no doubt that Kevin and Leon will succeed in this. They have
prepared their own vows to express their love for each other."

Mr. Whitmore nodded to Kev with a smile.

"Leon, you have once told me about a mathematical definition, an essential
singularity. You explained some interesting properties to me, in terms even
a bodybuilding jock like me can understand."

A small chuckle ran through the audience.

"Essential singularities are fascinating places. A function assumes every
possible value close to it. And that is what happens to me when I am close
to you. Around you I can be everything. I can be everything including
myself and still I can be sure of your love. I want you to know that you
can be as sure of my love. I will be yours forever."

I had to swallow away the lump that had formed in my throat, had to blink
away the tears that wanted to form in my eyes.

"Kev. On the day of your arrival, I felt lonely. This feeling was only a
dim memory the very moment you were standing before me. I was attracted to
you at once, an attraction that grew into love in no time. I remember that
you feared I would be intimidated by you. But I was never afraid of you. I
saw from the very beginning that you are caring and loving, a gentle
giant. And best of all: now you are my gentle giant.

My love for you grows every day and I am intimidated by only one thing:
that I have to spend a single day without you."

Kev had to fight the same fight with his emotions than I had before.

Mr. Whitmore continued.

"Kevin Schneider. I ask you: do you want to take Leon Fitzgerald as your
husband?

Do you vow to love him and care for him?"

"Yes. I do."

"Leon Fitzgerald. I ask you: do you want to take Kevin Schneider as your
husband?

Do you vow to love him and care for him?"

"Yes. I do."

"Please exchange the rings."

Christopher fetched the small cushion again and presented it to Kev and
me. Our wedding rings were made of white gold. They had been polished in a
stripe-pattern, alternating between matte finished and shiny bands. Inside
the date and both of our names had been engraved. Kev took the smaller one
and put it on the ring finger of my right hand. His face wore the smile I
had fallen for during our first meeting. I put Kev's ring on his right hand
looking into the blueness of his eyes. We turned to Mr.

Whitmore again.

"By the power and authority vested in me by this state, I pronounce you
husband and husband.  You may kiss each other."

Our gazes met again. Both of us bearing a blissful smile, we closed the
distance between us until our lips met. The guests got up from their seats
and started to applaud. As always, I lost track of time when locked to
Kev's lips. After a short while, cat calls were added to the applause by
the bodybuilding team. It was our cue that we had used up the maximum time
for a decent kiss. Laughing, we let go of each other and turned to our
guests. The string quartet began to play another tune, a more lively and
happy one this time. Kev and I linked arms and moved down the aisle,
followed by our best men, best women and Chris. The guests threw rice at us
which my Mom had prepared in small silken pouches. We went inside the house
into the living room. A table had been prepared for our wedding gifts. Kev
and I stood before it and the guests filed in to congratulate us and to
give us their presents.

In the meantime, the garden had been prepared for the wedding feast. Tables
had been arranged in a horseshoe-like manner. Before and after the meal,
many of the guests held a small speech, more or less voluntarily. It had
taken considerable effort to make Rob do it.

A dance floor had been created in the inner horseshoe. Instead of a band,
we had been able to persuade Mom to hire a DJ. We had not been successful
at talking her out of the traditional waltz which we had to open. Kev and I
had practiced that dance in the privacy of our dorm room, but still I was
feeling nervous when we were standing alone in the middle of the floor. But
the touch of Kev was soothing and after the first few measures of the
waltz, my anxiety had waned. I looked up at Kev, smiled and voiced the
words 'I love you.' 'I love you, too.' was his silent answer. After another
minute, someone tapped my shoulder. It was Mr. Schneider. Kev had been
approached by my Dad. Kev's face showed as much surprise as mine, but we
waltzed on with our new partners. All the other couples who joined us on
the dance floor were same sex couples. Rob was dancing with Tiff, Marc was
dancing with Avery, Mom was dancing with Mrs. Schneider. That had been
Mom's idea for sure and I smiled at her when our eyes met, she winking at
me. I was shocked by the next person who tapped my shoulder: it was
Timothy. We smiled at each other and started to dance.

Kev was now waltzing with Prof. Smyth, while my Dad was almost floating in
the arms of Coach Derringer. I had to suppress a laugh.


After the wedding we had stayed two days with my parents. Hans and Emily
had joined us. To be frank, my Mom hadn't left them much of a choice. We
had promised to visit both of them after our honey moon trip to finally
talk.

Kev and I returned to the college, before leaving for our honey moon. It
had been more convenient to book flights that started and ended close to
the college. We had just ascended the stairs and were walking down the
floor to our room. Administration had already changed the name plate.

"Leon Fitzgerald. Kevin Fitzgerald."

I touched the plate.

"One and a half year ago, I'd been anxious when reading your name here."

I turned to Kev.

"Now it is the most wonderful thing to see."

He closed the distance between us and raised me until we were on eye
level. Our kiss was tender and full of love for each other.

"It is time to carry my husband over the threshold."

Of course, Kev was smiling. His handsome features would have been
incomplete without it. He opened the door and carried me into the room
where everything had begun.