Date: Sun, 13 May 2007 11:17:31 -0700 (PDT)
From: John Doe <angelus8201@yahoo.com>
Subject: outside chapter 4

ok how to make this short... if your not gay or dont like gay stories, then
don't read this!!!! if u read it anyways, don't get pissed cause it's all
fiction.

Chapter 4

	The night just seemed like a bad nightmare.  I didn't want to
believe it to be true.  I couldn't believe I broke down the way I did,
especially in front of Chris.  The way I treated him made it even harder to
accept.  Shane was right, in the couple days I knew him, not once did he
ever show any sign to deserve to be treated the way I treated him. I knew
for a fact I had ruined any chance I had with him, even as a friend. Hell I
think I might have ruined the friendships I already had.

	I finally decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and roll out of
bed around one in the afternoon.  I made my way to the restroom for the
morning ritual of piss shower brush my teeth..  I wasn't much of a
breakfast person so that saved a little time to watch some television.  On
the way to the couch I noticed that my answering machine was flashing.  I
must have been really out of it last night if I didn't here the phone ring.
Message one:

Robert "Hey homo! I need you to watch Matt tonight for a couple hours.
Call me when you decide to wake up lazy ass!"  I thought it would be nice
to spend some time with my nephew today to keep my mind occupied.  Plus it
has been a while since I've even seen him.

Message two:

Robert "HOOOMOOO!"

I laughed to my self at the sound of my brothers insult.  Even though I
knew he was trying to piss me off, it just came out funny. That bastard.

Message three:

Chris "Hey Ethan^Å It's me Chris.  Shane gave me this number, but I made
her so don't be mad.  Just wanted to make sure you were okay.  I really
wanted to follow you home last night, I was worried.  I didn't cause Rain
told me not to. Said you'd probably just wanted to be alone.  Anyways don't
think I'm mad at you^Å you just had a bad night, we all have them.  Guess
I'll talk to you at work tonight.."

My heart seemed to skip a beat when I heard Chris's voice.  Why was he
calling and telling me it was ok to act the way I did.  Just a bad day my
ass, I was a dick to him. At that second I was stuck in a state of shock.
I just realized, I have to work with this guy tonight.

	How was I going to face this guy who in just a couple days has been
nicer to me than anyone that I have ever met.  The same guy which I pretty
much told last night to fuck off.  I knew I wasn't ready to do this.  I had
no choice but to call in to work sick.

	I picked up the phone and dialed Calientes.  Hopefully I'd get the
machine and could just leave a message.  Its not like I called in a lot,
just the fact that my boss was a dick. Again my luck David answered.

David "Calienets!  How can I help you?"

"Hey David, it's me Ethan."

David "Ethan, what do you want, I'm pretty busy here."

Busy probably sitting on your fat ass eating off every customers plate.
Did I mention my boss is a dick. Oh yeah and I don't like him!

"Sure.  Just letting you know I'm not feeling good so I'm not going to make
it into work tonight."

David just began to laugh at my news.  I knew he wasn't going to be okay
with this.

David "You see, I'm trying to run a business here, and its kind of hard to
do that if my employees think its okay to pick up the phone and call in
when ever they feel like it."

It was official, he was in dick mode.

"David, I haven't called in in over a year, so I'm pretty sure your not
talking about me."

David "And that's supposed to make it okay tonight?"

"I'm not saying that David.  I'm saying I don't feel good. I need to take
the night off to get better."

David "Ethan you know the rules more than anyone, I need a two three hour
notice and a doctors note."

I knew the only way to beat this dumb ass was for me to go into dick mode
too.

"You right David.  Ill go the doctor and probably get the week off, which
means I wont be there to do all your work!  I'm asking for one night but we
can stretch it to seven or eight, which you have to pay me for.  As I do
recall most of the shit I do in that place your supposed to do.  What if
your boss found out half the paper work your supposed to fill out, isn't
getting done just because I'm on paid vacation cause I got sick one day?"

David "Calm down Ethan, didn't know you couldn't take a joke."

"Of course I can sir.  I even work for one."  I knew David was pissed.  He
knew as well as I did that I had him trapped.."

David "You know what, take the night off today and tomorrow. Also since I'm
such a nice guy, I'll even give you the night off today with pay."

Would it be wrong for me to take a bribe. Well, from him no. Hey I don't
even get a Christmas ham!

"Thanks David, see you Wednesday."

I hung up the phone with David and begun to dial Roberts number.  I figured
I might as well let him know I could watch him longer than what he needed
me too.

Robert "Hello?"

"Hey Robert, it's me Ethan."

Robert "Oh homo!  Did you get my message?"

"Yeah, just wanted to let you know I could watch Matt.  I'm not working
tonight so I can watch him longer if you want?"

Robert "Hey yeah, that gives me a chance to get some stuff done after my
meeting. Ill drop him off at about three and pick him up around nine."

"Okay. Where you going anyways?"

Robert "I need to get a loan for Matt's birthday party."

"If you want I can let you borrow some money?"

Robert "No, it's okay.  I need some extra cash too for some other stuff, so
it a bigger loan than usual."

"Alright, I'll see you at three then."

Robert "Thanks faggot.  See you in a little bit."

I hated that Robert always was struggling with money.  He lived alone with
Matt and barely made enough to support them both. Still he always managed
to spoil that kid rotten.  I guess when it comes to your kids, some people
would rather do all the suffering in the world to give them a better life.

	I turned towards the kitchen to make sure I had food and drinks for
Matt.  Matt was only four and already had a picky appetite.  Why couldn't
he be like normal kids and just eat macaroni and cheese all day.  After
searching the fridge for some fruit and vegetables, I made my way to the
television.  I decided to kill some time in front of the tube.

	After about twenty minute of television I had dosed off.  I awoke
to a loud pounding on the door which nearly scared the crap out of me.  I
realized where I was and made my way to the door.  When I swung it open I
saw Matt squeeze pass me and his dad and right for my room.

Robert "You better listen to Ethan, Matt!"

Matt "Okay dad, bye!"

"Don't worry I'll throw him in the closet if he starts to bug."  Robert
just gave me a quick punch to the chest at the comment and started to hand
me Matt's bag of crap.  Robert "I'll be back around nine, but call my cell
if you need anything."

"Alright. Has he eaten?

Robert "Yeah, but its been awhile.  Ill see you guys later.  Oh and don't
try to turn my boy gay!"

My brother laughed at his own joke and headed back to his truck.  I on the
other hand laughed for the fact that he didn't know the truth. I closed the
door and headed back to my room.  I knew I'd find Matt being entertained by
my playstation.

"Hey Matt, feel like going to the movies in a little bit?"

Matt just jumped up and dropped the controller and ran to me.

Matt "Yeah, I wanna go!"

"Okay, let me get my shoes on and we'll go."

I grabbed my shoes and sat on the bed.  Mat sat back down and played his
game some more while he waited.  After I had put my shoes on I headed to
the dresser to grab my keys and wallet when I heard my cell beginning to
ring.

	I ran to the kitchen and grabbed my cell to see who was calling.  I
wasn't really in the mode to talk to anyone but still wanted to know who
was calling.  When I turned the phone I saw Shane's name across the screen,
I was tempted to answer but decided not too.  After a few more rings and a
few seconds of silence I saw the phone flashing the new message sign.
Message one:

Shane "I know your home and ignoring my call, I'm at the window bighead!"

I turned at the second she said that and saw Shane staring and waving at me
from the living room window.  I really wasn't in the mood for apologies or
more questions, but then again I didn't want her at my window all day
staring at me.  I really needed to invest into some thicker curtains.

	I walked over and opened the door.  I turned from Shane as soon as
she entered the house and headed to my room.  She followed right behind me
not saying a word.  I called to Matt that we were leaving, grabbing my
wallet and keys.  I turned and passed Shane still not saying a word.  Matt
then ran pass me and Shane and right for the door.  After we all made it
out the door and I had Matt in the car I finally turned to Shane and looked
her in the eyes.

"I'm sorry about last night."

Shane "Me too."

"What do you have to be sorry for?"

Shane "I was the one who told you to tell Mercy first.  If I never brought
it up then maybe all this crap wouldn't have happened."

"It doesn't matter who told me first.  Regardless if you all would have
told me too or not, I would have told her anyways.  None of you knew that
she'd act the way she did."

Shane "So do you hate us?"

I laughed at the sound of her thought and smiled at Shane.

"Of course I do, I've been trying to tell you that for years now."

Shane just laughed and jumped into my arms.  I laughed and tried to pull
her off.  She was like my pet leech.

"Okay get off, you smell funny. Yuck the smell of a girl!"

Shane "You know you want me!"

"Under my car yeah!"

Shane finally let go and headed to the passenger side of the car.

Shane "Where we going?"

"We'll since your in my car, I guess were going to watch a movie."

Shane "Yay!"

"Wait, don't you have to work today?"

Shane "Eh, not in the mood, I'll go tomorrow."

"You called in too?"

Shane "Called what in?"

"You know, work.  To tell David your not coming in today."

Shane "No, David's fat ass, he will figure it out."

As I got in the car, I laughed.  The sad thing was as much as I worked hard
and as much as David and Shane hated each other, she'd probably get back to
work and get a raise.  Wow, I hated her.

Shane "What are we watching anyways?"

"I'm taking Matt to watch Ice Age 2.  You seen it yet?"

Shane "Yay, I haven't!  Oh, oh, daddy, daddy, can I have some popcorn!"

Matt "I want popcorn too Ethan! Please!"

I turned to look at Matt and saw the excitement in his eyes. When I turned
to look at Shane, I couldn't tell who was more excited of the two.

"Yes, you two can have popcorn. Only if you listen and behave!"

Matt and Shane "Yay!"

Matt "Shane, you gonna watch the movie with me too?"

Shane "Yup, is that okay?"

Matt "Yeah, you can sit next to me okay."

Shane "Right on little dude."

	The rest of the car ride as pretty much quite.  I was glad things
were okay between Shane and I.  Now I had to patch things up with Rain and
Ayla.  Chris on the other hand was pretty much a mystery to me.  He sounded
sincere on the phone, but I couldn't understand why.  What kind of person
takes the kind of crap I was giving last night.

	We pulled up to the theater and found a parking near the front.  I
let Matt out of the car and headed for the big blue building.  Shane, as
usual ran ahead to be first in line.  I had to hold Matt's hand tight to
keep him from chasing after Shane.

Matt "Hurry Ethan! Shane's gonna leave us!"

"Don't worry Matt, Shane's saving us a spot."

Matt "I know but we better hurry before she forgets too!"

"Okay, jump up."

I made sure my car was locked and ran for the theater with Matt screaming
in my arms.

Matt "Faster Ethan! Shane's forgetting! Look!"

I looked towards the theater line and noticed that Shane wasn't there. I
looked around some more till I found here chasing a stray cat down the
parking lot.

Matt "I told you she'll forget."

I just laughed at Matt's comment as I made my way to the ticket window. It
was sad, even a child knew how easily distracted Shane could be.  Matt just
stared at Shane from my arms laughing at here endless struggle.  Who knew,
one day she might actually catch her self a stray.
	It was a nice hour and a half escape from reality. A chance to
laugh at the stupidity of cartoons.  Shane and Matt were both lost in the
movie the whole time.  We made our way out and towards my car.  Matt had
fallen asleep at the end of the movie so I had to carry him once again.  On
the way to the car I heard my name from a distance.  When I turned around
and saw who was calling me, I nearly made a dash for the car.

Chris "Ethan!"

I didn't know what to do. I wanted to run and hide and at the same time run
to him and beg for forgiveness.  I stood there frozen not knowing what to
do.  I decided at the last second to let Chris do all the talking first as
he walked up to us.

Chris "Hey man.  So how you holding up?"

"I'm better. Thanks."

Chris "Hey Shane."

Shane just waved and took Matt from my arms and headed for the car.

Shane "Yeah I'll leave you two alone."

We both stood there for a minute without saying a word to each other. I
stood there nervous with thoughts of Chris lashing out at me.  I couldn't
take the silence anymore so I decided to speak up first,

"Chris, about last night^Å I'm really sorry.  I had no.."

Chris "Stop.  I told you, I'm not mad.  It was just a bad day so drop it."

Wow, this guy is weird.  If I was him I'd already kick me in the mouth.

Chris " Your ok now?"

"Sure. I mean I'm trying."

Chris "Well just know if you ever want to talk, I'm here."

Could this guy be more perfect.

"Thanks man, really appreciate it but it's kind of personal."

Chris "I know, but in case you change your mind."

We just stood there smiling.  We didn't make eye contact and we didn't say
another word for another minute.  I finally decided to look up and our eyes
met.  We just stared at each other and smiled.  Another minute seemed to
pass with me lost in Chris' eyes.  So lost in each other than neither one
of us noticed we weren't alone.

Guy "So am I interrupting something special here?"

I kind of jumped when I noticed this guy out of nowhere just standing next
to Chris.

Chris "Oh, sorry.  Ethan, this is my roommate Michael. Michael this is my
friend Ethan"

At that second Chris turned to me and kind of whispered.

Chris "Friend, right?"

I smiled at him and even blushed a little.

"Yeah."

Michael reached out his hand to me and smiled.

Michael "Hey, what up man."

"Hey, how's it going."

When I took Michaels hand, he had a nice firm grasp to go with his nicely
toned arms.  By the look of his body, you could tell this guy worked out a
lot.  I took a better look and noticed his shaggy blond hair and blue eyes.
If it wasn't for his strangely shaped nose, he could be a model.

Chris "So Ethan, you never told me you had a kid."

I looked back at my car just then remembering I had my nephew and Shane
with me.  Luckily they both were passed out in the car.

"I don't.  I'm watching my nephew for my brother for a few hours."

Michael "Well nice to meet you Ethan.  Chris I'm going to get in line for
some food, here's your ticket."

Chris "Alright, be there in a sec."

"Later man."

Michael walked away and left Chris and I alone once again.

Chris "so you heading to work?"

"No. I called in.  Had to get some stuff done today. You?"

Chris "I'm off tonight.  David said I have to earn my hours.  I don't see
how if he only put me to work twice this week."

I just smiled at Chris' comment.  I didn't want to seem to girly.

"Don't worry.  I'll get you some more hours. You just need to know how to
work David, or be Shane."

Chris just laughed at my joke, then flashed me his smile.  At that second
all my worries were gone. I knew we were ok.

"Thanks Chris."

Chris "For what?"

"Just because.  But I need to go. Have to take my kids home."

Chris "Me too, but call me later. If your not busy."

We exchanged numbers and parted ways.  I drove the whole way home smiling
to myself.  Things were not as fucked as I thought.

	My brother came around nine to pick up my nephew.  Shane decided to
stay the night so she passed out on my couch.  I sat at the kitchen table
sketching some pictures and listening to Shane's breathing.  I started this
day feeling miserable but now was feeling ok.  All I needed to do now was
fix things with Ayla and Rain and things would be back to normal.  I guess
normal isn't half as bad as last night.

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