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The Pastel Cowboy
by Carl Holiday
14 – Fuck Me, Part 2
He was falling.
There was no
dream. No image of the world dropping away, only a sense of falling,
falling. It seemed to go on forever. Warm lips pressed against his. He
his mouth and accepted the probing tongue. There was a scream off in
distance; so far away he couldn’t be certain it was human or something
tried not thinking about it.
Zach opened his
eyes to a
darkened room. He felt a presence next to him and turned to see Bruce
“Twice in the same
said, “must be some kind of record.”
Zach smiled and
eyes. He had no reference to time other than Bruce was off work. He was
very hungry. He couldn’t remember if he’d finished breakfast. He must
they took him to see Doctor Cunningham. Was this how you went crazy?
Or, was he
already saddled and off on a journey to oblivion with a bed sheet
tight around his neck? He didn’t want this, hadn’t asked for it, and
figure out how to get rid of it. Maybe he should go into the hospital
drugged senseless for an eternity and come out a new man ready to
streets of Seattle in filthy clothes searching for, for who? Who would
Zach opened his
turned to Bruce, but no one was there. It had happened, again; or, was
He sat up and
looked at the
clock beside the bed. Eight-ten. Morning? Night? He didn’t know. His
were drawn, but it was summer so there would be a little light coming
the edges. Was this a dream, too?
Falling. He was
Zach felt warm lips
touch his. He opened his eyes and saw Bruce’s face close to his.
“Uh, huh! No
said. “You’re not supposed to open your eyes when you kiss. It’s a
“Are you a dream,
“No, I’m the real
weren’t quite awake so I went back to the living room to watch porn
“You didn’t either.”
“At least I went to
living room. David is gone somewhere and Paul is willing to take us to
no I guess it’s going to be a late night snack the way you’re getting
“What time is it?”
asked. Except for the endless sense his was falling, he wanted to go
sleep. He stared out past Bruce and felt his mind empty, as if it
“Past nine o’clock, so get up and put some clothes on,” Bruce
“You’re practically naked.”
“If you took off
clothes, you’d be naked.”
“Yes, but that
won’t get us
“I have something
you can eat,”
Zach said as he pulled out his half hard cock. He looked at it, but
will it into an erection.
“There’s not enough
nourishment in that thing to feed me,” Bruce said as he got off the
on, put some clothes on. We haven’t got all night.”
“What’s your hurry?”
“I want to get some
me so we can come back here and, well, you know.”
“I know what?”
“You know, um, get
uh, you know.”
“I don’t know about
you know there’s something I’m supposed to do and, well, I don’t want
asleep doing it.”
“Oh, you’re not
going to fall
asleep. I can assure you of that.”
“Are you going to
“What should I
asked. The question was so innocent. It slipped right of his tongue
thought to back it up.
“I don’t know. Put
anything, on so we can go get some food. I’m practically starving.”
Zach felt it up on
crawling down toward his left hand. He couldn’t decide what to wear.
had to make a decision, a simple decision and not doing so was going to
another episode. The last thing he wanted at the moment was that
empty feeling when his mind became so confused, so unable to do
than shut down. He had to stop it.
“Bruce, um, could
you do me
favor and select some pants and a shirt for me,” Zach said in slow,
monotone, even though speaking seemed to worsen his situation. “I seem
a problem making decisions right now.”
Bruce looked at
growing sense of awareness washed over his face.
“Oh, sure, no
about what you wore earlier?” Bruce said as he walked over to the valet
picked up a pair of blue jeans and a Kenny Chesney t-shirt. “I don’t
we’ll get into anything fancy this late.”
“No, I want a
shirt, just in
case Paul knows of a good fish place,” Zach said as he watched his left
if daring it to twitch. “Do you like seafood?”
“Yes, I like
seafood. Do you
“What’s that?” Was
question okay? He didn’t know.
“Oh, that’s right,
from Nowhere, Oklahoma,” Bruce said as he walked over to the closet
began rifling through Zach’s clothes. “I keep forgetting you’re a
who hasn’t been across the street for years.”
“Hey, are you
trying to pick
a fight because I’m incapacitated?”
“If you can say
that many syllables, you ain’t incapacitated.”
“Don’t say ain’t.
gonna talk like a farmer, the proper word is airn’t.”
“Is this shirt
“Uh, well, I,
stammered as he stared at his left hand. He thought he saw a quiver and
his eyes. “One, two, three, four …”
“Oh, sorry, let’s
see what my
lover boy should wear,” Bruce said. “I suppose since I’m going to have
all your decisions from now on, I can start changing your wardrobe to
a little queerer. You’ve got too many straight clothes. All these
they’re all country western. We’ll have to get rid of those first. And,
where is it, where does my bottom boy put it? Where is it?”
“You’re not Cagney
isn’t a remake of Mister Roberts,” Zach said when he opened his
couldn’t help smiling at Bruce who was rummaging through the dresser.
you looking for?”
“Eye shadow, if you
to fuck you, you’re going to have to where at least eye shadow,” Bruce
“Oh, no, you’re not
me into one of you.”
“Already have, I
put the pod
in the closet. Here, put this shirt on and, I think, you’ll look good
“No! Not black.
black,” Zach said. He practically slammed his eyes shut and started
again. He felt Bruce embrace him and after a brief moment when every
went taut, he succumbed to the offered comfort.
“Sorry, I’ll get
rid of the
black jeans. You only have a couple pair anyway. Just stand still and
dress you. Come on, relax. I wonder if we should change our underwear,
Ooh, what’s this? Don’t open your eyes. Whatever you do don’t open your
Zach felt fingers
exploring his cock and balls. He thought of Jeremy and heard Bruce gasp
slightly. He was almost fully erect and, in his mind, saw Jeremy put
moist lips over the blood engorged head. The tongue went around and
back around and up.
He and Jeremy were
on a beach
somewhere. Waves were thundering on the shore behind him. They kissed
to undress each other. He looked at his lover’s young body as it slowly
before him. He reached out and felt the soft hair as Jeremy’s mouth
inside. A hand was on his balls and he felt a finger begin to trace
faint seam of skin leading back to where Jeremy’s tongue would soon
The other hand was
stroking him as the warm, wet mouth drew him further back toward the
of, of, of, of, Bruce’s throat. He was in his bedroom and Bruce was
cock. He tried to think of Jeremy to get back that image of the beach,
fingertip was entering him and his balls were tightening. His entire
and he definitely wasn’t going to hold back. He felt the twist of the
band holding Bruce’s ponytail and pulled up the nearly two feet of hair
from it. He bunched it up and ran his fingers through the hairs and saw
sucking his cock. His eyes flashed open as his orgasm exploded out of
balls. Then, as Bruce tried to swallow the flood, Zach shut his eyes
at Amy’s breasts.
He’d only seen them
each time marveled at the excitement they created in his dick. They
while his fingers carefully explored each one and she giggled slightly
brushed the nipples with his work worn hands. Meanwhile, one of her
stroking him and when he felt the orgasm begin to overtake his senses
pinched one of the nipples. Come erupted out of his cock and splattered
bare tummy. Her tongue was down his throat and he felt her shudder as
came at that moment.
Zach opened his
eyes and he
was fully clothed, including socks and shoes. Bruce was standing very
watching him. Could it be possible he wasn’t’ gay? But he enjoyed
having a dick
up his ass and come spewing down his throat. You couldn’t get more gay
that. Could you do that and not be gay? He felt Bruce’s lips on his and
accepted the kiss.
Or, had that memory
another manifestation of the insanity that was trying very hard to
him? He loved her. That much he knew. And, then, he came back from the
trip and was branded as a homosexual. She wouldn’t even speak to him,
when he got her alone late one afternoon in the high school parking
tried to state his case, plead his innocence, but she shut her eyes and
away from him. He saw a tear dribble out of her eye and he never tried
to her again.
“Are you okay
enough to go to
dinner?” Bruce asked.
“Yeah, I’m okay
Zach said. He ran a palm over Bruce’s ass and imagined sinking his face
those luscious mounds of flesh. “How was it?”
“Not as bad as I
might to it again, later.”
“After you fuck me?”
“Before, to get you
“You two certainly
took your own
sweet time,” Paul said as Zach and Bruce walked into the living room.
rate you’re going, it’ll time for breakfast by the time we get out of
How’re you doin’, kiddo?”
“Okay,” Zach said
“I think he should
home,” Bruce said, “but I’m hungry so I guess we’d better take him.
enough to leave in the car.”
“Hey, are you
trying to pick
a fight?” Zach asked.
“No, just trying to
“Oh, right, at
nearly ten o’clock Saturday night we’re going out for seafood,”
Zach gave him the
look of a
spoiled child who had to have his lolly no matter what time it was.
didn’t seem to get a response, he changed it to a pout. Paul simply
“Come on, Paul,
let’s go eat
some fish,” Zach said. “Please?”
“Okay, if you’re
going to be
nice about it,” Paul said.
“He is rather nice,
like a rabbit,” Zach said.
Paul glared at him.
“It felt more like
spaniel to me,” Bruce said.
“What were you
doing while I
was asleep?” Zach asked.
shouldered Bruce who went red from embarrassment.
“Okay, I’ll smile,”
said, but it didn’t last for more than a few seconds.
“He’s not doing too
Bruce said as they entered the elevator car. “He zones out like he’s
“His shrink said he
admitted to a hospital,” Paul said. He put and arm across Zach’s
Zach accepted the gesture and leaned into the older man’s body.
“He just can’t make
decision,” Bruce said. “I had to dress him.”
“And suck my cock,”
“God, Zach, you
any decency,” Bruce said.
“Just trying to
smile,” Zach said.
The words seemed to
after that and they stood in silence until the elevator arrived at the
subbasement where David and Paul parked their cars. When they got to
Zach and Bruce climbed into the back seat.
“I take it I’m the
chauffeur,” Paul said.
“Yes, Paul, we’d
seafood,” Zach said. “And, not fast food, either. I want a hunk of fish
looks like it came from a fish.”
“Right, know the
place, and they’re open late, too.”
Zach sat beside
laid his head over onto his friend’s shoulder. He knew he should’ve
home, maybe even taken one of the pills. He didn’t know what was going
was getting tired of being tired and having to watch out for the odd
that might be an indication another episode was building up in some
of his mind.
He felt Bruce’s
hand on his
thigh, but didn’t feel like doing anything about it or trying to
He just wanted all of this to be over so he could get back to his
whatever that was; and, somewhat unexpectedly, he realized he wanted
beside him to be Jeremy. Bruce was nice and probably would be great
night when Zach was finally able to get him to put his dick where it
to go, but he wanted Jeremy. Not necessarily Jeremy fucking him, just
warm body next to his.
Those last few days
beach had been so wonderful. They’d slept in the nude, but Jeremy had
to his word. No sex meant no sex. They’d wake up with morning wood, but
of them did any serious touching that might lead to an orgasm. In the
though, when Jeremy helped Zach wash he was unable to stop his body
responding to the firm pressure of hand and fingers. They’d kiss after
came. Then Jeremy would stare at him with that nice cock of his
Using shower gel as lubrication, Zach slowly washed the length of that
until Jeremy couldn’t stand it and pressed his wet body against Zach’s.
There were no
necessary. They were simply helping each other with a daily orgasm and
together had little to do with Jeremy’s promise to not have sex because
meant putting it in someplace. They were simply jerking each other off;
that is Jeremy was jerking Zach, but Jeremy needed to be pressed
body, his erect cock rubbing on the other’s skin until relief was
He felt a tear
his cheek. Was it because he was happy to be with Bruce? Or, was it
missed Jeremy so much? He sighed and felt the car stop. The engine was
off and he opened his eyes. When he sat up Bruce leaned over and
“Enjoy your nap?”
“Sorry to be such a
pooper,” Zach said.
“It’s okay, as long
remember to be at the party later tonight.”
“When you fuck me?”
“We’ll see about
“I thought you two
hungry,” Paul said, interrupting. “You know, you two do look sweet
in the backseat of my car. Come on, guys, let’s go stuff our tummies.”
“I’m eating light,”
whispered. “I don’t want anything to interfere with that beautiful cock
when you shove it up inside me.”
“Will you stop!”
exclaimed. “I told you I’ll consider doing that, but what happens next?”
“What do you mean
you want to
“I don’t want to do
you want me to do you?”
“No, I don’t think
“So, I won’t. There
settled. Now you can do me with a clear conscious and no fear in your
that what you don’t want might happen because it won’t if you don’t
“Are you two
said from the restaurant’s door.
“No, we’ll do that
said. “That’s all you think about, isn’t it?”
The boys went
Zach’s bedroom when they came back to the condo. Neither had stuffed
so they both knew what was on tap for the rest of the night, or at
one or the other fell asleep. Zach went over to the window and pulled
drapes allowing the cold dark night sparkling with city lights flood
room. Lake Union was black smear circled with glowing orange
street and security lighting. Most of the apartment and condo windows
across Lower Queen Anne were dark, the residents snuggled up against
alone in childhood, youth, or unhappy adulthood. He thought of them and
living situations and how his own seemed so incredible considering a
he was alone in his own bedroom branded as an abomination by scared
who could not envision one of their own doing unspeakable acts only
mentioned in their book of godly rules.
Arms enveloped him
stood close behind pressing his clothing encased erection against
cloth covered ass. Taut, muscled hands softly massaged his abdomen
slowly up to his chest where strong fingers sought already erect
tender, excitable flesh. A hot breath whispered behind his ear while
moist lips kissed the sun darkened bare flesh of his neck.
“Close the drapes,”
whispered. “I don’t want an audience.”
“Everyone’s gone to
which is where we should be.”
“Close the drapes,”
whispered. He moved his hands over the front of Zach’s body then
slipped them under
his arms with fingers digging into unsuspecting ribs.
“You fucker!” Zach
as he tried to squirm away from the assault, but Bruce held on pulling
friend back away from the window.
Zach was helpless,
move as excruciating agony enveloped him. He was barely aware of Bruce
him, practically carrying him back toward the bed. His feet moved, but
wasn’t controlling their actions. They stopped and he was quickly spun
to face his tormentor.
Their lips met; or,
Bruce pressed his against Zach’s and forced his tongue into the boy’s
back to the throat. He kept Zach in his grip as he practically raped
mouth with his tongue until Zach couldn’t take anymore. He was more
than a little
astonished at the vigor of Bruce and began to suspect he was in for
lot more physical than a tender love session with someone who’d never
anything with another boy.
What surprised Zach
though, was his own response to the attack. His cock felt like it had
as if splashed with cold water. His mind reeled in a attempt to find
anything erotic with what Bruce was doing to him. The tongue
own pushing it away as it sought a clear path down his throat. The
continued to tightly grip him. His knees felt weak, unable to support
Yet, the assault continued and he didn’t know what to do.
He felt his clothes
removed from his body and opened his eyes enough to see Bruce’s own
away from them. It was almost as if someone else, some other entity was
undressing them. More and more bare skin rubbed against other bare
Zach’s response was negligible. His cock was a miniscule lump of flesh
frightened into submission. He felt a tear dribble down his cheek. He
losing. He’d lost. There was nothing to do except surrender and hope
might have a little decency left in him and allow Zach to die honorably.
“I told you to
drapes,” Bruce said after he suddenly stopped forcing himself on Zach.
“What the hell was
Zach asked as he sat back onto the bed. He stared at Bruce’s sweat
glistening in the orange city light filling the room.
“Very well, I guess
haven’t learned your lesson yet,” Bruce said as he practically jumped
forcing his friend on his back. He held Zach’s arms against the bed
bent down to kiss him.
Zach turned his
struggled against the renewed assault. A brief moment when Bruce
adjust his position over him was all Zach needed to throw Bruce over
found himself straddling the stronger boy. He felt the erection pressed
his damp pucker. With one hand on the chest below him forcing it into
he spat into the other and spread the wetness on the cock under him.
Zach closed his
concentrating on relaxing only one set of muscles, he lowered himself
Bruce’s need until he felt the pressure under his navel. He pulled up
then fell back. Up again, then down. Up, down, up, down, Zach tightened
muscles against the pleasure pole.
He looked down at
astonished face. He was getting his fuck whether Bruce wanted to give
or not. His own cock was pleasurably boning up as the sensations he
tingled out of his ass. He was going to need a little stimulation so he
one of Bruce’s hands and placed it where it could be of use.
After a few minutes
vigorously bouncing on that rock hard erotic tool, Zach began to notice
little additional thrusts coming as he bottomed out as if Bruce needed
more excitability, a bit more depth. His own cock was nearing the point
return, there was no going back now, they were beyond stopping. Bruce’s
tightened on him as his own ass muscles bore down on the stiff pole of
flesh throbbing deep inside.
moaned as he
thrust up and was rewarded with a splatter of Zach’s cum on his upper
into his nose. He thrust again and another splatter hit his lips. He
tongue over the slick offering and tried to force himself deeper into
felt another splatter of cum hit his chest.
Zach felt the cock
begin to soften and he pulled himself off. He lay down beside Bruce and
wondered what had just happened. He knew he wasn’t experienced enough
if what they’d done was something to be expected in the future with
but, also, suspected he wanted to do this, again, if this is what Bruce
to get off.
Bruce’s face turned
at him. Zach leaned over and began to lick his cum off Bruce’s face.
met sensuously in post-orgasmic bliss. Tongues playfully teased each
Hands began to softly massage tense muscles and hardened nipples.
“What was that?”
“What you were
doing in the
beginning. You know, forcing yourself on me.”
“Was I too
“Yeah, kind of.”
“Sorry, I guess I
away. You felt so good to me. I know my cock feels better.”
“How about a
“There’s room for
“I don’t need an
“No, you don’t,
army all by yourself. Do you have muscles I can’t see?”
“I told you I work
should, too. Once you get rid of that cast.”
“Do you feel
“I’m sweaty. I’m
take that shower. You can come with me or stay here and stink.”
“I like coming with
When the boys came
out of the
shower—it was a shower, mostly, they kissed a bit and washed each
with one of Zach’s arms in a cast his contribution to the washing
somewhat less than Bruce wanted—they saw Paul sitting on the sofa. Zach
immediately expected the worse.
“You boys should
use some air
freshener in here,” Paul said as he slowly stood up. “Did you at least
“We didn’t have
said. “Besides, Bruce was a virgin.”
“But, you’re not,”
“Are you completely positive you haven’t picked up anything in all your
“I can count the
guys I’ve done it with on one hand,” Zach said. “Can you?”
“My sex life is
none of your
business,” Paul said.
“So, why is mine
business?” Zach asked.
“Because, my dear
you’re not eighteen yet, and if you were to contract something that
doctor’s intervention, we’d all be up shit creek without a canoe.”
“Yeah, you keep
you’re just a kid,” Bruce said.
Zach and Paul
looked at him
as if he interrupted their fight.
“Hey, I’m the other
here,” Bruce said. “If you’re going to talk about Zach’s sex life, at
from now on, you’d better clue me in on a few of the details. Okay?”
“Sure, Bruce, we’ll
Zach said. “So, Paul, what’s wrong?”
“I need to talk to
Paul said. “It’s private, okay? Do you want to put some clothes on?”
nude,” Bruce said. “Does it make you uncomfortable seeing me naked?”
“Yeah, kind of gets
stirring, if you know what I mean.”
Bruce picked up his
and slipped them on before following Paul out of the room. Zach went
sat on the bed. He was tired and wanted to go to sleep soon, but his
seemed to want a little more action. It wasn’t completely hard, but if
touched in the right way, Zach knew it wouldn’t take him long to come.
He lay back across
and turned his head to stare out the open drapes. There was a light on
anybody had been looking in with binoculars or a telescope from Queen
Hill, they would’ve seen more than he wanted to show off. He got up to
them and was standing at the cord when Bruce walked into the room with
full of water, which he set down on the nightstand next to Zach’s new
Zach knew right
something was up. Bruce was going to tell him something he didn’t want
and he probably was going to into a fit when Bruce told anyway. He
drapes and walked back to the bed. Bruce was standing comfortably, not
betraying the bad news he carried. Zach started fiddling with the
“Do you want me to
off?” Bruce asked.
“You said you were
“Nude, I said I was
comfortable being nude,” Bruce said as he pushed his boxers to the
flipped them up in the air with one foot and caught them with one hand.
them for a moment then tossed them onto his pile of discarded clothes.
Naked, nude, you don’t have any clothes on, either way.”
“You have sex when
naked. You sleep in the nude, walk around the apartment in the nude,
you’re very brave and a lot more sociable that me, you go nude at a
“Do you know any
optional beaches?” Zach asked as he felt his dick get a little excited
the idea of going sunbathing au naturel.
“I think there’s
one down in Oregon.”
“We could go and
“I think there are
there, too. It’s public.”
guys would all be interested in girls. I guess we’ll have to be nude
what did Paul have to say?”
“Paul said sit
“Come on, Zach,
to have to take a pill and I don’t want to have to pick you up off the
even though I can.”
“That sounds sexy,”
said. “You could hold me like a baby. Paul can.”
“You never stop
sex, do you?”
Zach sat down and
the worse. He looked at his left hand expecting it to be quivering, but
lying quietly on his thigh. Bruce sat down beside him and put an arm
This is going to be
thought. Something’s happened to someone he knew and he wasn’t certain
wanted to hear the bad news, but he didn’t have much choice.
“First of all, your
David is okay,” Bruce said.
“Oh, god, no, not
Zach whimpered. His mind reeled with images of his uncle being thrown
the windshield of his car, flying through the air after being hit in a
crosswalk by a speeding car, or something bloodier, messier,
“No, Zach, don’t do
said he’s okay. The police got to him before he jumped. He’s okay. He’s
County for observation.”
“Oh, no, not that,
stammered. His mind focused on the falling body and he knew what was
earlier in the evening. He’d been falling with Uncle David. “Oh, god,
look at my hand. Is it moving? Is it?”
“Zach, calm down,
Bruce said. He reached across Zach, whose body was beginning to quiver
over, and picked up the pill bottle. He knocked one into his hand.
Zach watched all of
he felt himself falling away from the present. He was shaking now. He
feel all his muscles quivering. He opened his mouth so Bruce could put
in. Then he sat there with his mouth open and the pill resting on his
while Bruce got the water.
After he swallowed
medicine, Zach mostly watched Bruce pull down the covers on the other
the bed. It was too far. He’d pass out before he got there. Bruce would
pick him up off the floor.
Then Bruce came
helped Zach to his feet. With one hand holding Zach, Bruce pulled back
sheet and blanket on Zach’s side. Zach wanted to say something, “good
maybe, but the quivering was uncontrollable. He sat back down with
He sat for a moment as his mind began to empty itself of all thought
consciousness. When he couldn’t hold back any longer he fell over and
into a fetal position. Tears filled his eyes. He was falling, falling.
awareness slowly faded away, Zach felt the sheet and blanket being
him and a warm body snuggled up against him. He reached out and pulled
close to him, hugging him as if he was a giant teddy bear. In a final
awareness, Zach let go of the railing and fell back into oblivion.
you go, Zach got his fuck, but it wasn’t quite what he expected, nor do
quite what he wanted. Personally, I think he would’ve preferred being
back looking up into Bruce’s eyes. We’re getting close to the end, now,
probably no more than five chapters to go.