Date: Mon, 20 Jun 2011 13:34:23 -0400 From: anyta sunday Subject: Shane and Trey_Chapter Sixteen Disclaimer: Story characters belong to the author, any resemblances to real people are entirely coincidental. Content Advisory: Adult situations, language, sexual references Copyright, 2010, Anyta Sunday I hope you enjoy it. Please comment to: anytasunday@gmail.com This story will continue to be posted on Nifty. It is COMPLETED, however, and can be found also at http://www.gayauthors.org/story/anytasunday/shaneandtrey Also, St-st-stuffed (following Karl and Paul from this story is just completed and can be found at http://www.gayauthors.org/story/anytasunday/st-st-stuffed ) ___________________________________________________________________________ Chapter Sixteen Thursday and Friday disappeared like a magic trick. And then--wham--I woke up in Trey's arms, at his place (where we'd stayed after work). On Saturday. I groaned, stuffed my head under a pillow. Couldn't this morning also puff away in fairy dust? Please? Pretty please, even? A cell alarm rang, and Trey nudged me. "Time to get up, Shane." Well, crap. I refused to move. "Just another ten minutes." Hands moved onto my back, and for a brief second I relaxed. Yeah, come closer, cuddle, and then some... Stale room air rushed over my skin as Trey stole the blankets from me. Then he was pushing me from the bed. No fair! "Come on, June will be waiting." Hmmpf, leave it to him to give me a good reason to get going. On my feet and quickly throwing on clothes, I stared at my naked giant twisted in sheets still half asleep. "Why'd you set an alarm anyway? I usually always get up before you. I just love to see you drool in the mornings." Trey grabbed the pillow I'd used and threw it at me. "Don't drool." Oh, yes he did. "Get going. Or June'll serve me for breakfast." Ah-ha. So she'd been onto this. Well. Darn it, smart move. It took all my effort to drag myself away from him and back to my place to meet June. A couple of hours, and then camping with Trey. I could do this. I unbuckled my belt and made my way inside. June sat on the sofa in the living room a remote in hand, flicking through the channels. Without turning around she spoke, "Finally, mister." I grinned and sided the sofa, coming into her view. Her gaze swept mine briefly, cool, as it had been every time since I'd opened up. Just give her time. "You missed Mom. She wanted to be here for support, but had to take a shift at work." I sat on the armchair opposite her. "Probably a good thing, don't you think?" Flashes of Mom and Dad arguing leaked into mind. Mom always in her soft reflective manner, and Dad getting riled up, words daggers from his mouth. I'd once made the mistake of telling him to shut up. And he'd congratulated Mom on bringing up such a disrespectful son. Hypocrite. "In the last year," June said, muting the tv, "things have been better between them. I think--I think he's trying, Shane. Mom said he's been seeing a councilor, and--" "And nothing, June. Why didn't he try back then, when we were kids?" I remembered how much enjoyment he got from waking me up out of deep sleep and making me walk down the street so I got used to the night. Or the way he forced me to ride a bike in circles until I'd learnt how to do it. Nine was way too old not to be able to ride. The way he laughed when I got angry. That my feelings didn't matter a damn bit, only entertained him. My grip had tightened on the arm of the chair, knuckles white. Why the hell did I let him get to me? June switched off the tv and went into the kitchen. A sniffing had me following her. "June?" Her back was to me, as she filled a glass with water. "Could you try, Shane, for me?" I came to her side and leaned back against the counter. "Try what?" "Don't play dumb. You ignore him when he's around, you give the shortest answers possible, and you always look at your watch. Could you just try to give him your attention? Maybe he surprises you." I took a begrudging breath. It's only for an hour or so, and then camping. And June needs you. I nodded. "I'll do my best. You seem to believe in him, and I trust you, so...you know. I'll try." She looked at me, her eyes the warmest I'd seen them all week and shimmering slightly. "Thanks." "So what time did he say he'd get here?" June glanced at the microwave clock. "At ten," a half-hour ago "must be caught in traffic." But another half-hour went by with no word, and I knew he wasn't coming. Still, I waited twenty minutes longer, because I didn't want to be the one to tell June to stop hoping. It looked like I would have to though. As much as I'd hated the idea of spending time with Dad, seeing him let June down was worse. I moved over to her and wrapped an arm around her. She fiddled with her cell phone, waving it in the air as if perhaps it hadn't any reception. The bastard. Yet another thing to add to his list of failures. And he had no idea how lucky he was to have a daughter like June. Fuck--he didn't deserve her. See, he's not worth it, I wanted to tell her, but her saddened face stopped me. I gave her a quick kiss on the forehead and slipped out of the room. I jabbed the buttons on my cell, moving to the far end of the house so she wouldn't hear me. He picked up on the fourth ring. "Hey--" "That was the last fucking straw, Dad," I said, struggling to keep from yelling. I shut the door to the bathroom adding to the buffer between June and me. "Why the hell didn't you ring? You don't deserve her forgiveness you know that? If you care at all, even a little, you'll ring her right now and explain. Although, I hope you don't, because then maybe she'll accept that you're a prick of a father, who has been nothing more to us than a constant disappointment." I hung up on him, throwing my cell into the laundry hamper. My fingers--my whole body trembled. Finally, I told him exactly how I felt. So why didn't I feel liberated? Why did my gut churn, and why the hell was I crying? I clapped the toilet lid shut and sat down, propping my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands. I knew he'd do something to get me upset, he always did. Damn him. I wiped my cheeks, scrunching up the tissues and chucking them into the bin. A soft knock had that same rush of anger coming over me again. How could she keep so calm? I yanked the door open, for no good reason annoyed with her too. If she hadn't been so hopeful, I'd never have got so upset. Dad wasn't worth any of our tears. "He rang," she said, her expression still miserable. I grit my teeth on a nasty retort, falsely directed. "He apologized for not ringing. Something came up for him at work and he was called in. It was urgent. He said he'd meant to call and cancel, but with the stress at work it'd slipped his mind." I walked past her down the hall. "He's definitely coming next Saturday." Sure. Of course. "Whatever." I turned to her, and at her ashen face calmed my tone. A bit. "Just don't get your hopes up again. It upsets me to see you get hurt." She shook her head. "I know that upsets you, Shane, but is that really the only reason you're upset? Because I think a part of you wished you could believe in him too." "I don't." June held my gaze, but was the first one to break it. "I'm going to head to the library and have lunch with Mom." I sighed internally, and felt for the keys in my pocket. "Give her a hug from me, okay?" She nodded, but we didn't hug like we would have only a week ago. I wanted to kick something. Instead I aimed for the front door, and slammed it behind me. *** Most of my dark mood I shook off before I got back to Trey's house. But a slither remained and when he opened the door for me, I didn't go to kiss him, and barely responded when he brushed his lips against mine. "What's up, babe?" Trey hooked an arm around mine and pulled me to the living room where all our camping packs sat ready to be loaded into the car. Gripping both sides of my shoulders he pushed me into a chair, and kneeled in front. "You don't have to tell me anything, right? Just, if you do... I'll listen." He shrugged, and his voice grew an edge. Cheeky, mostly. "But either way, you're going to enjoy this trip. Even if I have to peg a smile onto your face. Got it?" The tone of his voice, the deepness, that edge of darkness in his eyes that warned me he might not be joking sent a rush through my body. Dad and June took a quick backseat in my mind and they wouldn't be unbuckled any time soon. Certainly not the rest of this weekend with Trey. Oh baby, I'm all yours. He moved to my ear and whispered, lightly running his hands down my arms. "That's better." The small grin on my face widened to a fully fledged smile. "Well then, let's go!" "Just got to say goodbye to Mom, Dad and Patricia." He called out their names, and when there was no answer walked into the adjoining room where they all sat eating brunch. I gave a small wave to Patricia when she looked at me. Trey'd briefly mentioned that Patricia was going to be living at his house for a while. Until she had her alcohol problem more under control. She raised both her brows in a resigned way, looking from me to Trey, and I imagined the inner sigh that went with it. "Watch out!" she mouthed. I moved my gaze over to Trey hugging his mom. I could tell by the way he gripped her back, he held her tight. But her hands remained at her side. She gave him the weakest of smiles before facing Patricia again. Trey watched her a moment longer, and then turned to his Dad. Same build although slightly smaller, he looked a lot like Trey, but where Trey was an extrovert, this guy was held back, quiet. We'd met for the first time last night. I liked him the best of the three. When Trey had introduced me as his boyfriend, he'd nodded and given me a small smile. Now, he spoke softly to Trey. From my position at the door, I heard snippets on camping safely. Trey clapped a hand on his shoulder and then came back to me. "Right. Let's go then, shall we?" "Let's." It took us less than an hour to pile into the car and reach the beginning of the round trip track. We hooked on our packs--Trey carrying the tent, and me carrying the most of the food and water so we had equal weight. I'd done a lot of hiking before, so despite Trey's offer to supply the sleeping bag and camping equipment, I brought my own. We started the track through a grove and over some fields leading to a bigger wood. The trail, well worn by families and mountain bikers, lead us surely through the trees, winding along a small stream to our left. Leaves latticed above us locked out the sky, except for moments when it opened up, allowing a lovely view of a distant lake surrounded by greenery. At one such view point, a couple of hours into the walk--hours of comparing hike and camping stories--we stopped for a drink. Despite the cool air and low clouds, sweat ran down the sides of my temples and back where the bag had stuck to me. I aired my polypro top, and smiled as Trey did the same. The track was on the simpler side of others I'd--we'd, by the sound of it--had done before, but somehow this one was more intense. Meant more. It felt like a test or something. And it both unnerved and excited me. "Want anything to eat now?" Trey pulled out a couple of bars. I grabbed one. "Cheers." And then we continued walking some more, crunching over the leaves of the deciduous trees. Trey picked up a large red one. "As a kid when we came up here, I used to collect as many leaves as I could." The path had narrowed so Trey slunk behind me as we continued walking. "I used to take an empty pillow case, and by the time I got to the camping spot, I had a pillow full of leaves." I chuckled. "You sure love your pillows." A small breeze whirled my words to the front, away from him. "What was that?" I thought about repeating, but held my hand back for him to squeeze instead. "I thought about bringing one and doing it again, but--" Trey stopped as drops of rain splashed around and on us. "--crap." On the narrow path, we swung off our packs and got out our raincoats. Trey's was a dark brown and mine a deep red. We continued through the shower. Trey laughed behind me. "What?" I said as loudly so that he'd hear me. "Nothing... my little red riding hood." I spun around, startling him into a larger, way more mischievous grin. Oh, this was going to be fun. "And what does that make you?" He dropped the smile, stepped closer, our chests almost touching. "Hungry." I clasped the back of his neck and smashed a kiss to his lips. Sure I'm not the wolf in disguise? I held myself back from saying it though. I was pretty sure if I said it out loud it would sound lame. In fact, it was embarrassing enough I thought such lines. We kissed harder for a few moments, and my hands were trailing his body. "Um," Trey said, "we'd better keep this pg. Kids use this track." "Right." We created a small space between us, but it seemed the both of us needed a moment before we could comfortably continue. For another hour we chatted as we walked. Laughing and joking away was perfect. I didn't think anything would be able to break our good mood. I rounded a narrow bend and our path began to decline. The contrast on the legs from going uphill to downhill felt refreshing. Although, I preferred going up, down was harder on the knees. A set of stone stairs had been planted into a particularly steep drop. Trey had began to hum Scarborough Fair behind me and the sound made me itch inside and want to, want to--I jumped onto the first step and with a noticeable bounce in my step continued. "Shane, careful babe." And he cared! I practically skipped the next few steps and--whoosh, fuck! I slipped on some wet leaves, landing hard backward and sliding down the last few steps. Thank God for my pack! Trey swore and was at my side in no time. Embarrassed at falling, I avoided his eye as I picked myself up. He wouldn't let me do it alone though, and gripped my arms adding his support. When he was sure I wasn't injured he threw my arms down. "What the fuck was that about, Shane? I told you to be careful." His fists were balls at his side, pumping. I dared a glance at his face. Ah, not pretty--red and furious. "God, do you know how stupid--" Why the hell was he getting so worked up about this? "Shit. You could have... you might have..." Livid wasn't strong enough to describe him right now. And his overreaction was...too much. I met his eye. "It was a fucking slip, Trey. Don't get so worked up about it." He held my gaze only a few moments longer before turning away. With energy and violence he kicked the nearest tree and stalked off, jumping over the small stream, opposite the path. Fuck it. I stormed ahead, keeping to the trail. This whole thing was ridiculous in my mind, and I kept replaying the scene in my head trying to get his anger. Yeah, so I hadn't listened to him when he asked me to be careful. But that didn't feel like where his reaction stemmed from. I looked at Trey slightly ahead across the river, weaving through trees. We pretended to ignore each other. When he glanced my way, I made sure to focus on the path ahead of me. But I'd see him look away and hit a tree or something. I wished I could understand--like a foul wind it hit me. Stupid. Shit, I was stupid! My falling, perhaps it reminded him of his Aunt? I sucked in a deep breath and studied him. His slumped posture, the hurt in his walk. This time when he looked back at me, I met and held his gaze. We both stopped walking, a silent conversation between us. A begging on my behalf for him to get back over here. Trey trudged down the small bank and leaped over the yard wide stream. When he reached my side, his eyes looked saddened. "Oh fuck Shane," his voice was gentle, breaking slightly at my name, "I'm so sorry." "Talk to me about it?" I held my breath, letting it go in a sigh as he shook his head. "I can't. Not right now. But, I will. Trust me, yeah?" His lashes came together as he closed his eyes, waiting for my response. Hoping I trusted him? "Of course, Trey." I gripped his chin angling his face to look at me. He did. And in his eyes was that same something I'd seen so many times now, but still couldn't place. Warm, caring, it was like looking into an embrace. He linked his fingers through mine and silently--and side by side--we continued the last half an hour to the camping spot. The weather meant we shared the grounds with few other people. I counted two tents at the far end of the bank near the lake shore. We set up our tent at the opposite end on slightly risen ground to avoid being flooded in the night, should the drizzle turn into something more. "It's so good to be far away from everything," I said, pushing in the last peg of our tent fly, and then looking out to the murky lake waters. "I agree. I like to come up here to chill. I make the trip maybe twice a year. Sometimes more, depending." Trey grabbed a folded piece of paper from his bag and opened it. Over his shoulder I glimpsed an inelegant--child-like scrawl. But he closed it before I could inspect properly. "So what would you like to do?" I looked at the lake giving Trey a suggestive raise of the brow. He didn't need any more telling. We stripped out of our damp clothes and raced into the water, swimming and splashing around until we were both exhausted and evening had crawled in. We changed into dry clothing and Trey whipped up a surprisingly good dinner, considering our location. He'd even brought a small package of salt and herb mix to sprinkle on top. Yum. I licked the fork and placed it in my bowl. We sat in a little cooking area--basically there were picnic benches, a table for cooking and a roof sheltering us. Oh, and a tap for rinsing dishes. Trey kept glancing over my shoulder out towards the woods. "Something on your mind?" I asked, starting to clean up. "There's something I want to show you. After we're done here." "Okay," I said taking his bowl and fork, "but this will go faster if you sit down and let me do it." He grinned. "I'm not that bad you know. I have cleaned dishes before." "I've seen it." He'd filled up a sink of soapy water and dunked the pots in first, and then proceeded to use the dirty water to wash the cups and cutlery. Ah, just no. He grinned. "Well, I guess I'll just have to make up for it some other way." As soon as I'd finished and we'd returned everything to the tent, Trey slunk an arm around my waist and pulled me out into the rapidly darkening evening. With a torch in one hand, Trey led me to the wood. At the fringe, he started counting the trees as we passed them. At twenty, we made a right and walked another ten trees into the darkness. I shivered just a bit, and Trey flicked the switch, illuminating an oval of wood floor. "We're close. Two trees up this way," he whispered, "on the northern side of the trunk." I smiled--there was just something about the dark and the need to whisper. I did the same thing, and it amused me. Once we got there, I scanned the wood, confused. As far as I could tell, it looked exactly the same here as it did twenty trees back. But I had to be missing something. I stole the torch and searched the trees. Maybe he had a tree house or something he wanted to show me? Trey chuckled and took back the torch. "What I want to show you is under my feet." He pointed the light downward. A pile of leaves? I frowned, but crouched down with him. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a spoon. Setting the torch up like a lantern, he looked at me. "I..." He dug the tip of the spoon into the dirt. "Ten years ago, I buried something here. I wanted you--us both to see it." I held my breath, as he shoveled away the earth. The shadows the light cast over his face distorted his proportions; his nose looked longer, his cheeks shallower. But the deepness of his eyes remained the same. Beautiful. "It was a school project," he continued, his voice still in a husky whisper. The hole, cookie tin wide was now as deep as the spoon. "We had to put things in a box. Things that were important to us." He laughed. "I've forgotten what I had in there." There was a clunk against something metallic. Trey ditched the spoon and reached into the hole with his hands. A bit of tugging and flying dirt later, out came a square tin with faded pictures of robots on it. Clutched to him, he studied it, a small smile curling one side of his lips. "Babe? Let's go back to the tent to look at this." I nodded and we both stood up, me grabbing the torch while he roughly refilled the hole. Ten minutes later we were back inside the tent and once we'd each hopped into our sleeping bags, Trey took the tin and placed it between us. "Are you sure you want me to look in there with you?" I said, searching his gaze. "It's just...maybe you'd prefer to look over them by yourself first?" He shook his head, holding my gaze. In here we had two touches, one set up like a lantern, and the other I'd tied up using a ribbon dangling from the roof of the tent. We could see each other clearly. And I liked it. "No, I want to show you, share this with you." With a pocket knife, he cut through the waxed seal around the lid and yanked it off. His breath came out in shuddering puffs. The emotions that crossed his face conflicting with each other. Happy and sad. He glanced at me and gently laid the tin on the floor. In it were some cards, photos, paper, coins, and some little toy figure. He picked up the cards first, handing me half. "My basketball trading cards 2002." Trey lightly shook his head as if in memory. "I was such a Gilbert Arenas fan." I shuffled through the cards, still in okay condition after so long buried underground. "And this," Trey said, placing the cards back and picking up the coins, "huh, this was my pocket money. Funny, I remember now, thinking that it might be really valuable one day." He laughed, and I felt privileged and also in awe that he was letting me be a part of this. He exchanged the coins for the stack of photos. That was when he held his breath and closed his eyes briefly. "Are you alright?" I crawled over to him so we sat side-by-side. He lowered the pictures for me to see, though his hands shook. "This was taken on my eighth birthday." The entire family stood huddled together, all with smiles on their faces. Including Aunt Patricia standing just as tall as Trey's mom. I wanted to know how long before her accident this was taken, but swallowed the question. Trey leafed through the rest of the pictures one-by-one. They were all of family, some with just him and his brother, but most with the whole clan. The one that stuck out the most, and the one Trey lingered on the longest, was of his mom smacking a kiss to his cheek. I studied his expression as he drifted off into a reverie. His eyes glazed over, and his lashes lowered. I wasn't sure, but I suspected he was holding back his tears just for my sake. Which he didn't have to do. I climbed out of my sleeping bag and went behind him, linking my legs around his middle and hugging his back. "You can cry if you want to, Trey. I don't have to watch, if you don't like. But I want to hold you like this, 'kay?" I squeezed him as tight as I could until I heard him sniff. He put the photos back into the tin, shut it and pushed it to the side. Then I continued to hold him and rub his back while he rocked slightly and sobbed. "God, I'm sorry," he said, leaning over to turn off the lights. "I didn't think I'd get so emotional." When we were submerged in darkness, he twisted around and I cupped the side of his face. "Don't be sorry." I wanted instead to thank him for allowing me to be there for him. For not getting all macho on me and keeping it in. It showed he trusted me too, and that felt, well, important. And good. Yeah, real good. I kissed his chin. "Just hold me tonight, babe?" he asked. I answered with another kiss, soft, on the tip of his nose. I searched the dark for my sleeping bag and once I found it slipped in. We lay down, and Trey thrashed about getting into a comfortable position. "Bet you're wishing you'd stuffed a pillow slip full of leaves about now," I said, hearing the laughter in my voice. "Well, I thought cuddling you would be enough." His arms gripped me stronger mashing our lengths together. "But, ah, I guess no matter how much I love you, my neck just isn't going to like sleeping on hard ground." I froze. My breath was lost somewhere, and my heart pumped overtime ringing, along with his words, in my ears. I didn't trust myself to speak, in case I'd heard him wrong. Had imagined it. But Trey was quiet too. And still. As if waiting for a response. Swallowing, I found a thread of voice and clung to it. "What did you just say?"