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2: Skeptics and True Believers
John! I though you wanted to go and get some food.” I yelled up the
to John. Geeze it’s like we are replaying the first day of class last
was ready to go and grab some breakfast before our first class. John
ready and we ended up being late to our first class. I had woke up
and gotten ready. I sat down and ate an apple while listening to my
checking my myspace and facebook pages. I was wearing a polo I that was
to me by Derek. I had stayed over his house one night after a party and
pretty wasted. Well that morning, I made a mess over my shirt so to
say… so he
gave me a shirt to wear. I had for got to give it back to him, but I
looked better on me then it did him so I’m keeping it. I threw on a
shorts and flip flops. I wasn’t ready to give up the beach attire just
decided just to go to class feeling chill, it was the first day of
not going to try and impress anyone just yet.
coming down right now I just can’t find my shoes I wanted to wear.” If
realized how gay he sounded at that moment. “Alright I’m ready, how do
John was acting a little too much like a princess for my liking today.
know you look good, now lets move! Where’d you wanna catch breakfast
just run to the “Muse” and pick up some coffee and a muffin. It’s on
the way to
class.” I pushed my remote start on my car and John gave me a funny
think coming from California
you would be a little more eco friendly Trist. Lets just walk, it’s not
and parking right now will probably suck.” He was right; it was a nice
today. I ran to my car turned it off, and off we went.
we walked I just took in the day. It really was nice out today. Cars
rushing down the street, more than likely someone who was late for
something. We turned on the main street and it was bustling with people
John did you give any thought as to what we should do with that third
still hadn’t decided either, but I figured we might as well get some
I mean I don’t care really. I like it being just us two right now
that boy’s a heart breaker I tell you.
well that sounds like an alright plan then, I mean we don’t have to do
with it right now. You want it to be just you and me for now, then
fine.” I didn’t mind though, I mean poor Brit was gonna get stuck in
Oh well, I love living with John anyways so it’s alright. We’re both
clean, and are each others better halves so it shouldn’t be a problem.
were doing good on time, and we both had different classes but they
were in the
same building so it was alright. The coffee house we usally would hit
up was a
local one, “the muse.” Served a good cup of coffee there and it’s
where me and Brent had our second date. They had your usual coffee
activities like open mic night or other things like that. I was
getting a job there this year so I could have some spare change. We got
coffees and continued our walk to class.
ready for school Trist?” John trying to act all big brotherly now. He
then me, but only by 2 months.
I only have my 2 classes today so it should be a good day. Only thing
sucks is they’re spread so far apart. I don’t mind the 10 o’clock class
then having to waite another two hours after that one lets out kinda
think I’ll go out to lunch with Britney or something. I don’t know
I opened the door for John and walked in after him.
for asking me to lunch…” John was trying to act hurt but he has another
after this one so I wouldn’t see him till later. “Alright bro, I’ll
talk to you
sometime today. If you see Britney tell her I say, “Hi and to call
headed up the stairs and I kept walking down the concourse. I was
excited to be
back in school. Yea it feels a little dorky saying that but who cares?
I got to
what looked my class. It was a sociology class. I had gotten lucky to
last year and decided to get it over with. I hated psychology so
one goes better. Pulling out my schedule outta my pocket I looked and
this was it.
I thought. Another big lecture class… I hate those types of classes.
hard to pay attention because it’s so easy to screw around. Luckily it
look too big; just about 75 students could fit in there. I walked in
the class a quick look over to see where I was gonna sit. Looking over
I saw a
few familure faces in the crowd.
I looked over to the other side of the class and saw Britney over
waved and started walking over to her. I couldn’t see who she was
to but they were both talking. Whoever she was sitting next to had
facing the other way with their hand faced so I couldn’t see them from
distance. I got closer and saw who it was. It was Brent sitting next to
didn’t tell me you were taking this class too Tristan! Well come sit
us. Oh this is gonna be so much fun, us three together!” She was one
did too, Brit. It’s not my fault if you weren’t listening.” I looked
Brent. He looked so cute; I hadn’t seen him really since I left in May.
Brent.” I said with a smile and put my bag down into the chair next to
he said with a smile and then went back to his text message. Man this
to be a bit awkward, I hope he didn’t mind me sitting here. We
all discussed our summers. It was kinda funny talking about it though
we kept intouch with each other over the summer anyways. But I guess it
easy way to shoot the shit and waste sometime. Britney was telling us
something from the summer where she got so wasted. I was starting to
and looked over at Brent. Our eyes met and we gave each other the same
to say “okay Britney, shut up” She kept talking and I was looking
around at the
class. Our professor had started taking attendance and then the door
if I am late.” I looked over and probably could have died. It was
I thought, as if this wasn’t awkward enough.
shit…” Britney nudged me and I shot her a look. I’m sure Brent had
us but I didn’t want that to be talked about.
name? The professor said to Derek.
Oh It’s Derek…” He started walking up the stairs to a row towards the
class. I don’t know if he had seen me or not.
and is it just Derek or does Derek have a last name?” He sat down to
He must have known them because they started talking.
Derek…” He cracks me up, even when he’s being grilled he can act like
doesn’t bother him. But then I thought man, if I am a year behind him
avoided Soc, how long has he avoided it?
Derek is the proper way to say that.” She said sharply.
Yes, Derek has a last name, it’s Ative.” He said with a smile. Man this
was grilling him. Derek family was France so that’s where his last
name came from.
Mr.Ative…” There was along pause and everyone was looking back and
between Derek and the teacher. “Thank you for being the first to
yourself.” People started to smile. “Sorry I had to do that, but I had
people who it is that runs this class. Don’t worry about being late,
time come in from the back please? Now Derek do me a favor and
look around the class and pick someone else
to introduce themselves.” God,
please do see me, please don’t see me… skip that… don’t pick me… “Sure,
about…” he looked around and Britney made eye contact with him.
she said quietly. She thought he was going to pick her.
about him, you in the polo over there, go ahead and introduce
looked around and he was staring right at me. He must have saw me when
was staring right at him.
Trist” She whispered to me. I didn’t mind, I was gonna have to talk
myself in front of the class sooner or later. And I’m sure Derek would
noticed me when I left so I didn’t mind.
Derek is it?” I introduced myself and called on someone else. What an
thought oh well, I acted totally highschoolish by acting like I didn’t
Class was your usual first day of class crap. Got our syllabus, the
achievers asking way too many questions. The three of us chatted
looked over at Derek and he waved at me, I forced a smiled and waved
as if it wasn’t bad enough, I had my ex boyfriend in this class, and
right next to him, I have my other… well whatever the hell we were in
not only do I have Brent in my first class, but I have Derek in it
too.” I sent
that text to John as I was walking out with Britney and Brent.
guys have any other classes today?" I asked them, hoping one of them
some time to hang out between classes.
my next one is in 20 minutes so I’m gonna get going. It’s a little bit
I’ll talk to you guys later. Nice seeing you Trist.” Brent gave Brit a
and walked off. Brit and me walked out the building and just started
around campus killing time. We talked about what classes we were taking
assorted things. We sat down by this fountain that’s kinda in the
campus and I had a smoke.
I hope you’re not made at me for calling you over with Brent being
there.” I took a drag of my cig and laughed.
worry about it. I would be more worried about him being pissed at you
A nice breeze swept by us, we got misted with some water from the
I mean you were the one who stomped on his heart. And then proceded to
when you paraded around with Derek.” Geeze! I thought.
only playing around with you. Yea it sucked, and Brent is a good friend
mine. But you’re a good friend too and I’m not gonna let that get in
the way of
me and you being friends. Besides Brent told me you guys were atleast
and trying to be friends.” I looked forward and took another drag of my
sighed and looked at her.
I’m happy about it too. I messed up a good thing with him. I don’t know
want to get back with him, I just wanna see what happeneds.” That was
truth, I didn’t kow if I wanted to get back with him or not. Truth
Derek was still on my mind at times as much as I hate to say it.
I’m all ears if you need to talk. I’m sure John would be more then
lend a helping ear too.” She’s right. He
would be a good listener. But I mean he has already done it, but hey
now that I
think about it, I have listened to him and his chic problems all the
That’s why we’re so good probably.
continued talking for about another 20 minutes before we decided to go
something to eat at one of the quick eateries around town. I had to be
class in an hour and half so Britney drove since she only had the one
today. On our way there, John called me and told me he got out early
and to ask
Brit if she wouldn’t mind picking him up too since he was hungry. We
John and headed over to this Mexican restaurant on the main street down
It was some of the best Mexican food I had being so far away from home.
finished eating and it was time for my class. They dropped me off and
headed back to our place with Brit.
second class went by pretty quick. The professor seemed really cool, he
kinda cute to though… and not much older then all of us. He told us
that he was
a total dork his first two years at college and loaded up on courses,
more laid back as he came closer to getting his degree. Hey though, I’m
to judge, you wanna spend your time studying, more power to ya. It was
around 4:30 when I had gotten outta class. I sat down on a bench for a
and pulled out my cell so I could send out a text.
Tristan, you just get outta class?” I looked up to see Brent infront of
Hey… yea I just got out a few minutes ago. Trying to figure what I
before I head back to my place. Where did you end up getting a place at
year? I put my phone away and tried to hide my cigarette, Brent’s never
the fact that I smoke, so I kept it to my side.
be afraid to smoke infront of me. I’ve accepted the fact that you’re a
Just don’t ever burn me again.” He was talking about onetime we were at
party and I had a lot to drink and it was pretty crowded too. I let a
cigeratte, and then wasn’t paying attention and didn’t see Brent
my hand and he grabbed the cig full on. “I’m just teasing ya. But I’m
with Jeff, in an apartment a few blocks away. Jeff is still moving his
and he moved in first! I just got here a few days ago. I was back at
stayed till the very last minute.”
put out my cig and got up and we started walking. “So where were you
was running to my car to head over to the gym and work out for a few
actually.” Brent did like to work out. He had a nice body too, so it
paid off. He
was built like a runner, I remember him telling me he was on his
team. Me I hate track with a passion, I love to work out, but I hate
part of working out. Me, I work out, but not a lot, I got a good
which definitely helps me out, especially the way I eat sometimes.
kept walking towards his car just randomly talking about stuff. It was
do this, I am happy that we’re friends. I mean this was the guy who I
screwed over and for him to be so forgiving really was nice. But he
seemed distant with me too. I couldn’t blame him, I wouldn’t wanna be
either with all things considered.
um… do you need a ride because I noticed that you walked me to my car
clearly live in the other direction…” I really must have. I got so
caught up in
talking with Brent that I hadn’t payed attention that we walked to his
man… I’m sorry, I just completely stopped paying attention to where I
going.” I actually felt kinda embarrassed. He was at his door with me
front of him. We sat there looking at each other. I was looking into
his eyes. It hurt me that I hurt him. I looked around and there was no
around us. We just sat there for a minute. I grabbed his hand and began
to say something…
Tristan…” He pulled his hand away from mine. I was partially expecting
guess. “You don’t get to just act like nothing happened. I was fooling
acting like I could act like nothing happened between us. You hurt me
you expect to just be able to get back with you…” I cut him off.
never said I was trying to get back with you!” I know I didn’t say it,
can’t say totally that I didn’t want to. But I mean this was just the
time we seen each since May. Not the first time we talked, but seen
because Tristan all I can do is be your friend. And even that is hard.
what do you expect? You out of nowhere just break up with me one day!
three months in and you tell me that you can’t do this anymore? I
were doing good, I mean we fought once in a great while, we gave each
space we needed, we were good together!” Brent turned on opened his
turned on his car. “You know Britney told me how you sat and cried on
with her during the summer because of Derek, how do you think that made
feel? You couldn’t even shed a tear when you broke up with me, and you
Derek the asshole?! I suggest you take a look at yourself Tristan!”
really pissed at me. I haven’t seen him this mad, ever. “Now I have to
weather you let go of my door or not. But if you want to be my friend
think about something else I suggest you take a good look at yourself
me what the hell was it that I did that made you dump me for no reason
so cold to me. If not then you know what, would you forgive me if I
said I didn’t
took my hand off his door and let him close it. I sat there and watched
drive off. Man… he was right, I was an asshole. When I broke up with
him I didn’t
tell him the real reason, but I was falling in love with him and I was
of that. Yeah I may think that Derek is an asshole, but I’m no better
I hurt someone I cared about just as bad. I opened up my phone and
dialing Johns phone number right before I was about to press send, I
it. I really fucked up. I went down to where I threw my phone and
was still in one piece. It hit the grass and just slid on the pavement.
needed to walk and think everything.
walked around campus for awhile and then decided to head home. I saw
on the couch with his book across his chest; must have fallen asleep
book for class. I gave him a nudge and told him we needed to talk. I
put on my
ipod and was put it on “The Acedemy Is” I told him everything that
Brent and I.
Trist, the one thing you need to ask yourself is what is it that you
Brent? Do you want him back or do you just want to just be friends? You
decide before you do anything else. Don’t hurt him he’s a good guy.” I
don’t know John!” I yelled at him and put my hands in my face.
I’m not gonna give you the answer!” He yelled back at me. “Don’t you
me!” He said half serious half laughing. “But seriously Tristan. Derek
friend but your not just my friend, you’re my brother and I want to see
happy. It killed me watching you cry and act depressed this summer over
I think the best thing right now would for you to just be single. Fix
with Brent, he’s a good guy and friend. Don’t worry about anything else
that.” My phone rang and I went to grab it. I looked down and just
hit reject. “Who was it?”
I didn’t want to talk and I don’t want to deal with all this. I hate
it seems like my life is knee deep in it right now. But I understand
saying John. We sat there in silence. “I might as well call him back to
what he wanted.”
called Derek and was waiting for him to pick up. “Hey Tristan. So how
today? I’m sorry for picking you earlier today; I was just messing
you. But I just wanted to say Hi, we haven’t talked in awhile and I’m
mostly my fault. I wanted to say I was sorry about everything that
summer. We can talk about it later though. I just wanted to talk and
everything was. If you don’t want to talk that’s fine though.” I looked
and he smiled and walked away.
going to start cooking dinner. I told Brit to come over too. Was there
specific that you want?” John asked me and I shook my head. I sat down
to Derek talking. I had forgiven him for the most part now that we were
He seemed sincere when he was apologizing to me. Maybe there was a
could forgive me and we could be friends. Ugh… I don’t know though,
such a long day.
Derek, would you want to come over and have dinner with Brit, John and
couldn’t believe I asked him that. But you know what, we were good
I need to start forgiving him if I ever expected Brent to forgive me.
man that sounds alright. I’ll bring over some booze to drink with
be over in 15 Tristan. I’ll see you in a bit.” We hung up and I smiled.
coming over for dinner too.” I told John and went over to where we kept
I poured a shot for the two of us.
what’s the occasion?”
just hoping this doesn’t come back to backfire.”
don’t be mad at me. But I bumped into Derek earlier and we talked. He
be your friend. He does feel bad for everything and just wants to be
with you again. He’s making the effort so maybe you should just go with
flow.” I wasn’t mad he said anything though. We cheered and took our
should be interesting. The door bell rang and Britney and Derek were
to each other looking awkwardly at each other. This should be a great
so goes chapter 2 for Tristan and his friends. So much happened in just
first day of the semester the rest of the semester should be
interesting. I got
some ideas going on about where I want to take this. Tristan needs to
all this drama between Brent, and Derek. Thanks
for everyone for your comments. There
should be a lot of interesting things that happen soon.
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