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This is a piece of fiction that never happened and never will.
Well, it's almost fiction,
in any case. But the two main characters, well, they're probably
out there somewhere, and something like this happened to them.
A dedication before I get rolling here: Okay, here it is,
cowboy. Just like you asked. Thanks for--well, you know.
"Damn, I hate the Panhandle," I said to
myself, maybe even out loud. "Fuckin' cold wind in the fuckin
winter." A girl, all bundled up, on her way to her car, turned
and looked at me funny, so I must have said it out loud.
This was crazy. What the fuck was I doing here?
You know damn well what you're doing
here, the Voice inside said. You know the Voice; the
one inside that always busts your balls when you've been a prick. You can only hope and pray that you didn't
drive all this way for nothing.
A couple of guys were walking slightly ahead of me, laughing and
talking. When they entered the dorm, I walked in right behind
Although I hadn't seen the age of nineteen in seven years, I'd
still pass for nineteen, so nobody else was giving me any
notice. Just another college boy.
We'd met because of Nifty: a couple of amateur authors who found out
they had a lot in common. We'd tossed e-mails back and forth for
a year or so. We could talk about playing football; about school;
about guys, about girls. He liked them both; so did I. He a
best friend that developed into something more; so did I. But
life brings you changes and I'd decided I needed to focus my attention
on my real world. I'd written a terse e-mail apologizing for what
I was ready to do: say goodbye.
There'd been one last e-mail from him. Short and to the point:
"Eat shit and die if that's all I'm worth to you."
Just like that, the little bastard had reached in, tore out my heart,
and ripped it up. When I received it, I sat staring at the words
on the computer
screen for five minutes. Well, what the hell did I expect?
Then, with a sigh, I pressed "delete" and went about the process of
shutting down the account.
I didn't like it, but you know, it's not all fun and games in this
world. My world was complicated and getting more complicated by
the month. By the end of the year it promised to be chaos if I
didn't clear my head. I needed to simplify my life and try to get
a grip. And I needed to get completely away from online
contacts. Too many freaks, too many people always expecting to
hear from me. It happens some times when you put stuff out there
Part of me knew it was a sorry-ass thing to do, treating everybody the
same. I mean, yeah, there were creeps out there, and there were
"fans" I just didn't have time for anymore, people who expected me to
take up serious online friendships with them just because they fell in
the Me in my story.
But to just walk away from Jay like
that? What the fuck is wrong with you?
"Shut up," I said to the voice. "I'm here, ain't I?"
So what was the plan? I knew his room number. What, just
knock on the door? He'd be shocked to see me, but he'd recognize
me. Would he let me in? Would he let me explain?
Would he even let me talk? "Eat shit and die" doesn't leave much
room for negotiation.
I didn't have a plan. This was all impulse. I was just
going to have to play it by ear.
I knocked; his roommate answered the door.
I stood in the doorway, looking at him as he stared right through
me. Finding my tongue, I thought I'd better do the introductions.
"I know who you are," he said without smiling. "Phelps, isn't it?
Alex. He showed me your picture."
I didn't know what to say, so I just stood there for what felt like
forever, as he drilled holes into me with his eyes. Finally he
said, "This is none of my fuckin' business, but you're a real jerk, you
know it?. He thought you were a friend."
"I want to make it right," I mumbled. Then I looked up at him and
snarled, "Look, are you gonna let me come in or not?"
"I was just leaving for the weekend and he's out at Hooters with a
bunch of people.
Probably won't be back until after midnight."
"Can I wait for him in here?"
"Whatever," he scowled, moving out of the way so I could walk in. "I
don't care, I'm leaving. But don't use my fuckin' bed.
even sit on it."
I came in and sat down in the chair at Jay's desk. "I'm just
gonna sit here and wait. I won't touch your shit."
He grabbed a backpack and a small overnight bag. Before he walked
the door he turned back toward me and said, "I hope he tells you to
I sat there thinking for the next half hour. It was hard to think
straight. This was a bad idea, maybe. Hell; "idea"? It was
more like an impulse. I had no plan and hadn't thought out shit.
But I was here now; might as well play it out.
I slept for a while, my elbows resting on his desk, arms up, and my
head propped up in my hands.
Around one in the morning, the sound of the door being unlocked and
opened woke me.
I sat there staring at the door as it opened. My heart was
beating eighty miles an hour. As he walked in he said, "Hey, I
thought you'd be gone by now. You should have come with..."
About the time he glanced over and realized I wasn't his roommate, he
froze in mid-sentence. He drew in a sharp breath, and I watched
his whole body tense in an instant.
"What the fuck?"
Still seated in his chair, I steadied my own breathing and tried to
smile. "Hey, Jay."
"Alex?" I saw seven different emotions struggle to express
themselves at the same time on his face. Not all of them were
negative. It gave me some hope.
He continued. "What the fuck are you doing here? How did
you get here? How long have you been in my room?"
"I drove," I said. "My car's parked right outside. I got
here a couple of hours ago. Your roommate was on his way
out. He said I could wait here."
Jay's face was pale; he dropped to a sitting position on the bed and
asked again, quietly, "What are you doing here?" Then, seeming to
get a little more pissed off with each word, he added, "What happened
to us never meeting in person? And what happened to 'I have to
say goodbye, good luck, have a great life'?" He spat the quote
back at me; his delivery dripped with bitterness.
It felt like a fuckin' knife wound. Several of them. But I
was gonna have to tough it out; I'd brought all that on myself, by
bringing it all on him.
I stood up and walked over to him. I put a hand on his
shoulder. He knocked it away, snarling. His eyes wouldn't
"I was wrong," I said.
"No shit," he said, wiping his hand below his right eye.
"I...I didn't know if you'd open another e-mail after all this time.. I
didn't even know if you still had
the same e-mail address. And I didn't have your IM screen
name. And I didn't know your cell. I just had your dorm
name and your room number."
He looked up at me without saying anything. He hadn't tossed me
out, so I decided to continue. "I'm here because I had to try to
understand. I wanted to say I made a mistake. I
wanted to tell you that. And I wanted to apologize if it all made
you feel bad."
He stood up and squared off opposite me. "I'm fine. I got
friends here. I got studying to do. I got my
roommate. And I got Jack. He just left for home. I
don't fuckin' need you if you gotta ignore me."
He paused and moved in a little closer. "But if you want to know
how it made me feel, it felt like this." Without warning, he
slammed a fist into my gut.
It wasn't brutal or savage, but it was still a punch, and it knocked
the wind out of me. I
doubled over and as I was working on recovering, he put his arms on my
shoulders and helped me to a sitting position on his bed. He stood next
to me, staring at me, silently. "I guess I deserved that," I said
when I could talk.
"You hurt me," he said. "It was so damn sudden. It felt like something
fell off of me. Or maybe like you just felt."
"I know," I said. "I figured it did. When I couldn't think
of any other way, I had to come up here and try to make you see that I
I was wrong."
I looked up into his face as he said, "Was I asking that much? I
liked talking to you. I never asked for anything. When we talked
sex stuff that was pretty cool. But that was just a little part
of it. Mainly I just loved to read what you had to say sometimes.
It helped me know there were other guys like me out there. And it
was more. I told you it was more. Sometimes we said 'love.'
I didn't mean it like I got it with Jack. You know what he is to
me. But you were important to me too and I thought you felt that
I stood up. "God, Jay, you are
important to me. I want to talk about it later. But
mainly I want
to show you how much I do care. I'm not here to fuck up your life
and I'd never ever come between you and Jack. I got my own
relationships. But I came up here to try to fix things and to
show you just once, and not just with my words."
reached out and put my hands on his shoulders and tried to pull him
into me. He pushed my hands off him and backed away from
"No. Fuck, Alex, I wanted this. I've
fantasized about it. You know we both have. But you fucked
I stepped closer again, and put my hands back on his shoulders.
Looking into his eyes, I said, "Let me apologize this way.
Let me show
you I'm sorry."
A minute went by as his eyes searched mine. His face was
expressionless. I couldn't tell what was going through his
mind. Finally, he sighed deeply, and I saw just the hint of a
tired, hurt smile. "Damn you, asshole," he said, and laid his
my shoulder. "I can't stay pissed. I'd like to; you really
deserve it. But I can't just push you away like you did."
He put his arms around me and his body relaxed. I held him close,
stroking his back with
my hands. I kissed him on the cheek, on the neck. God, he
smelled so good and his skin was so warm and smooth.
"I'm sorry I hurt you, Jay," I whispered. Then,
cautiously...slowly...I began to move my face closer to his. My
lips needed to touch his. He must have felt something of the same
need, because he closed his eyes and moved in closer until our lips
met, so tenderly, so gently.
I kissed him, then pulled back and looked into his eyes. A conversation
was taking place between us. Silent, wordless and incapable of
translation, it still said more than we could have communicated in an
hour of speech. He was breathing was slow and deep, his
He brought his lips back to mine; when they met, he moaned
I felt something like peace surround us and wrap us in
itself. But there was an urgency underneath the peace. He
kissed me again, and this time opened his mouth against mine. I
opened my mouth and let his tongue search out mine. When they
met, a jolt of lust flooded through me, centering itself in my dick.
Still kissing him, I lowered him onto his bed on his back and
myself over him. "Fuck," he whispered, in between kisses. "You're
making me fuckin' crazy." Our dicks were straining to do what our
tongues had been doing. I could feel them both through our jeans,
steel-hard and rubbing against each other.
I rolled off him and got up off the bed.
"Come here," I said.
He stood up and I pulled him into me. Kissing him fiercely, I began
his shirt. His breathing got deeper. As I undid each button
I pulled open a new section of his shirt and kissed the bare skin I'd
just uncovered. When I had his shirt completely off, I draped it
over the back of his chair, then I took mine own shirt off and laid it
gently on top of
I pulled him back into me. The heat from his skin against mine almost
burned me. Our mouths and tongues came together again, and our bare
chests made love to
I pulled away from his mouth and moved my lips to the tender skin of
his neck. As I covered his neck with kisses, he moved his hands
down to my ass and pulled me tightly against him.
Gradually, I made my way down to his pecs, kissing the
little patch of hair in the middle.
I pushed him gently back down on the bed and eased myself over him
again, licking and sucking his nipples as I ground my crotch against
his. As I made my way down his torso with my kisses, I spent some
time on his abs and the thin, sexy happy trail that led right to his
"Let's lose the clothes," he said. I went to the end of the
bed and took off his boots and socks. Then I opened the button of
his jeans and kissed his fabric-covered dick before zipping them
down. I pulled his jeans down to his knees. His dick was
straining against his boxer briefs and I could see a wet spot. I
kissed him there and tasted the precum on the fabric.
I pulled his jeans completely off, and stared at him for a
moment. God, he was beautiful. Very slim; but tightly cut
and toned, like you'd expect of an ex-athlete. I couldn't stop
Finally I stood up and undressed
myself down to my boxers. I got in bed next to him and held him
in my arms as we kissed and explored each other's bodies with our
hands. I felt his hands rubbing up and down my back, and my
ass. He pulled down the waistband; I shuddered as I felt his
hands tenderly stroke my bare asscheeks. I slipped all the way
out of the boxers until I was naked. I wanted to get him naked
too, and I started to pull his boxer briefs off, but he said "Wait."
I looked up at him. "What?"
"Stand up. I wanna just look at you. I been thinking about
it ever since you told me you were uncut."
I felt a little...well, naked. But I was rock-hard and hell, I'd
have done anything he asked me. So I stood there and let him run
his eyes all over me.
"Your skin still covers your dick when you're hard," he said.
"Yeah, unless I pull it back."
"You're big," he added.
"You knew that; I told you that," I said.
'Yeah, but it's different in person," he said.
He grew silent for a minute. I watched his eyes take me in.
You're hot," he said.
"Shit, boy, so are you," I said. "Now it's your turn to step out of the
He stood up and shucked the boxer briefs, facing me. His big hard
dick pointed at me.
He was perfect. He took my breath away. And he was such a
great guy; I'd realized that over the months we'd been e-mailing.
I needed more than sex with him; I needed to love him, and I needed him to feel
"I want you, Jay," I said. "Get over here."
We came together again. He pulled my mouth
against his and thrust his tongue into my mouth once again. He'd
become aggressive, dominant, in his kisses. It was almost like he
was fucking my mouth with his tongue. I put my hands on his bare
ass and pulled his crotch into mine. Our
dicks rubbed together, smearing our precum around. This time the
moan we heard came from me.
I and reached down to his and touched his balls, caressing them,
holding them gently in my hand. He gasped, and I moved my hand to
his shaft, wrapping my fingers around it. Then I repositioned
myself slightly and
reached down to my own dick. I skinned back the foreskin a little
and pulled his dick close to mine. His eyes got wide and his body
shuddered. Slowly I positioned our dicks until they were end to
end, and pulled my foreskin back up over mine, and stretching it a
little, pulled it over his dickhead too. I stood there, docked
with him, my foreskin covering the heads of our dicks, uniting them.
Bringing him inside my foreskin like that made me feel so close to
him. It was almost as if we'd melted together into one
body. The precum from our dicks mixed together and intensified
the sensations as I stroked us both.
"Damn, Alex...so fuckin' amazing...you...I can't..."
He was having trouble talking and
his breathing was ragged. After a few mintes he said "I can't
take much more. It's too intense. It's incredible.
But I don't want to cum like that. I want you
My dick stiffened up even more. And my heart was about bursting
with deep feeling for this
guy I'd hurt.
I said, "You got any condoms?"
He said, "Yeah," and he went to a drawer and pulled out a package, and
a bottle of lube. He tore the package open, pulled out the
condom, and said, "Let me put it on you."
He knelt down and put his face against my pubes, breathing in my
scent. Then he began licking my balls and kissing up the shaft of
my dick. When he got to the head of my dick, he pulled the
foreskin back up over it, and stuck his tongue between the foreskin and
the head of my dick, rolling his tongue around the circumference.
I thought I was gonna jet a mouthful of jizz into him right then and
there, but he stopped in time and pulled the foreskin back once more
and rolled the condom down over my dick.
I eased him back down onto the bed and said "How clean are you back
"Clean enough to eat off of," he laughed. "I've told you what a
clean freak I am."
"Clean enough to eat off of? Well, let's test it out then," I
grinned, and pushing him back onto the bed, I took the lube from him
and rolled him up on his back a little with his legs up, so that his
pink hole was an easy target. I got my face down there and sure
enough, he was squeaky clean. I began licking around his hole
while I jacked him. He was
squirming and moaning and I could tell he loved it. I thrust my
tongue up inside him a couple of times and he actually yelled out in
Then I put some lube on my fingers and on his asshole, and stuck my
middle finger in gently, thrusting up and down. He closed his
eyes and was breathing heavily. I put in a second finger.
He tensed up and gasped a little, but gradually he relaxed and I could
tell he was ready.
I got over him and put his legs over my shoulders. I adjusted my
body and moved my dick toward his hole, until the head of my dick was
right up against his pucker.
I looked at him and said, "You ready?"
He smiled. "Do it."
Slowly I eased
the head of my dick into him. Damn, he was so tight! He
gasped and I watched as he concentrated on keeping his muscles loose.
my mouth against his. His tongue sought out mine. As we were
moaned a little bit while my dick was invading him. Soon I
was in all the way to the hilt.
"That's all of it, Jay," I said.
"Shit! thank God for that," he said, gasping. He grimaced and
began breathing in and out through his mouth, concentrating on relaxing.
I was a little concerned, and asked him, "Are you okay?"
A smile lit up his face and he said, "I'm perfect. Fuck me,
Who was I to argue?
I began thrusting in and out. His
asshole gripped my dick with an intensity I almost couldn't
believe. He ran his hands over my back and all over my ass while
I fucked him.
I kissed everywhere I could reach. His mouth, his face, his neck,
even his nipples a few times. The expression on his face touched
my heart. All kinds of thoughts and feelings were going through
my head as our bodies talked their intimate talk. But mostly I
was glad I'd met him, and glad that we had this one night in our lives
that we could look back on and nobody could take it away from us, and
glad that we were back on track with each other.
I was getting close. He was jacking himself as I was fucking him.
Then he reached in between my asscheeks and invaded me with a
That was enough to send me over the top. I yelled
out and slammed into him. Cum exploded out of my dick in
spasmodic bursts, flooding the condom. Wave after wave of
pleasure washed over me and I collapsed on top of him. My vision
got blurry because my eyes were a little extra-moist; the experience
was too overpowering to me. As I was coming he stroked my ass and
kissed my cheeks and lips.
After I recovered a little bit he started jacking himself. I had
wanted to pull out and finish him with my mouth, but he wanted me
inside him while he
finished himself. So with my dick buried deep in Jay's guts, he
himself furiously until I felt his asshole clench my dick, while his
body tensed up. He shot seven or eight jets of cum out of his
dick. Three of them hit me on the face and the others painted my
neck and chest. I scooped some up on a finger and put it in my
mouth. His cum tasted like him: Young and masculine and so
He pulled me back down on top of him and we slipped and slid a little
on the cum spreading all over our joined torsos. I pulled my dick
out of his ass and pulled off the condom, tied it in a knot and tossed
it in the trashcan next to his bed. I held him in my arms and we
kissed gently a few
times. Things got real mellow. Finally, he pulled the
covers up over
us, and right before he fell asleep, he said, "I guess this means
you're forgiven, asshole!"
I laughed, and kissed him, and fell asleep in his arms.
Copyright 2006 by Jack P. Twist
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