We were separated by only a road, but the gap
between us was just like a chasm. Everything seemed frozen as time stood still
for us. We didn't move, we just stared each other. Then Ego barked and brought
us back to reality as I felt the chasm closing. I had to get away.. I turned
around and walked quickly away with Ego following behind. I did not turn
around to look but I knew he was following me. So I started running like a mad
man. I could hear his footsteps as he started giving chase. Then I heard
someone yelling my name but I covered my ears and ran faster, as tears fell
from my eyes blurring my vision. But still, I pressed on and concentrated on
getting away from him.
The next thing I knew, I heard a loud honk and
turned my head to see a truck coming at me. I couldn't react. I was frozen. I
could hear Ego barking and someone yelling my name and I thought that I was
going to die at that moment as the memories of my life flashed through my
I closed my eyes and used my hands to cover my
ears as I shouted.. "Andy!"
At the last minutes, someone grabbed my arms
and pulled me back to the sidewalk as the truck whizzed by me, screeching to a
halt some distance away. I was inside Andy's embrace as I shivered at the
narrow escape. I could see out of the corner of my eye the truck driver
getting down from the truck, saying something. But I was so scared and
couldn't make out what he was getting on about.
"Are you ok, Tin?" I heard Andy asking.
I was shaking but I nodded. After the driver
made sure that I was fine, he started up his truck and drove away, leaving
Andy and me standing on the sidewalk. I was still in Andy's arms and the old
familiar feeling came back. It felt so good and calmed me down. Then I
realized that Bouncer was yelling. The poor animal must have been suffering,
stuffed up inside my clothes all this time. Suddenly I realized what I was
doing so I pushed Andy away. His eyes showed his hurt at my rejection.
"Stop it! Don't look at me like that!" I
"Shut up! Shut up! I don't want to hear your
voice! Leave me alone!" I covered my ears again and started heading towards
home with Ego trotting beside me.
Andy stood there for a few seconds before
picking up the pace to follow me again. As I felt him nearing, I turned around
and yelled, "I said leave me alone!"
"Shut up!" I covered my ears but he caught my
hands. I avoided looking at him but I knew that he was staring at me.
"Tin, at least give me a chance to talk to
"Then speak," I answered coldly.
"Tin, I want to say that I am sorry."
"Ok, I accept your apology. Now release me and
leave me alone."
He didn't release me. Instead he held on
tighter to me. "No, I am not letting you go. I know you have not forgiven me.
You are still angry at me."
"I was never angry at you."
"Release me..please," I whispered. "Your grip
is hurting me..."
He quickly released me and I turned around and
started walking again.
"Tin, can you at least let me talk to you for a
"What do you want to talk about? We don't have
anything to say to each other anymore!"
He ran in front of me and blocked my way as he
pulled out a letter from his pocket. "Tin, you are lying. If you have nothing
to say to me, then why did you mail this letter to me?"
"It means nothing."
"No, it means everything."
"I hate you!" I yelled. "I hate you! Why have
you come back? Why...why..." I broke down and starting crying.
"Tin, I am sorry, I am very sorry." Andy tried
to pull me in his embrace but I pushed him away.
"No, don't do that..." I whispered.
He stared at me. Ego was using his teeth to
pull at my pants. I patted his head and we walked away from Andy.
I didn't have the courage to look back. I just
kept walking, with Ego pulling me in the direction of our home. Then I heard
someone yelling from the back, "I love you, Tin!"
I stopped but didn't turn around. I closed my
eyes and as a lone tear fell down. I wiped it off and opened my eyes and I
resumed walking, determined to get away from him. I would not fall into his
clutches again, I told myself.
Then I heard him yelling again... "I know you
still love me!"
This time I turned around and yelled out my
answer, "Then why did you leave me 3 years ago?!"
"I...I..." The words were lost in his mouth as
he struggled to reply.
I didn't bother to wait to hear more. I turned
around and started walking. I didn't know how I got back. I just let Ego lead
When I reached home, I headed to my room and
sat down on the chair in the balcony, staring at nowhere in particular. Ego
knew that I was not happy so he lay down beside my legs, looking at me
forlornly. Bouncer had already gotten out and was now sleeping peacefully on
my lap. I looked at the sky. It was so blue, so clear and not a cloud was in
sight. My mind, however, was confused. I didn't know what I should do. How I
long to be as clear as the sky, not a single worry troubling me.
I sighed as I picked up the music box lying on
the table beside me. As I opened it, the familiar music came wafting out from
the box, filling the room with its sweet melody. I saw the little stars that
were inside the box. I stared hard at the stars. How I miss you, Scott. Where
are you now? I was the worst man in this world. When I thought I was going to
die, I called for Andy. Why Andy? Why not Scott? I felt like the vilest guy in
this world. I hate myself. Why did Andy have such a strong hold on me? How I
wish to be free of him!
I don't know how long I sat there, looking at
the sky. It was was blue, then turned to red, and finally it was dark. I
didn't see the moon, I only saw stars twinkling as if they were smiling to me.
They called out to me and reminded me of Scott's eyes. Scott, I need you...
Roy came back very late, whistling a happy
tune. When he walked through my room, he noticed me sitting there in the dark
and walked toward me. He kneeled down beside me and called out my name.
"Why are you sitting here all alone? Where is
"He went to New York for business."
"That's why you are sitting here feeling down?"
I nodded. Sorry, Roy. I didn't mean to lie to
"Come back to the room, it's very cold out
here." He tried to pull me up by my hands and noticed that they were very hot.
A look of worry cross his face as he put his hand on my forehead.
"You have a fever!"
"I am fine."
"No, I am going to drive you to the hospital."
Finally the dam burst as I suddenly hugged Roy
and broke down crying in his arms. He hugged me and patted my back as he kept
asking me what had happened. I didn't answer him, I just kept crying, so he
carried me back to the room and picked up the phone. He tried calling Joe but
no one answered. He tried Joe's cell phone but still no reply, so he tried Amy
but she wasn't in. Luckily, Ed was in and answered the call. Roy asked Ed if
he could come over.
15 minutes later, both of them dragged me into
the car and drove me to the hospital. The doctor gave me a shot and I felt
drowsier and drowsier and dozed off.
Roy's point of view
Ed was driving us home and I was sitting with
Tin on the back seat. I was so worried about Tin. What had happened to make
him break down like that? Surely, it can't be Scott, can it? He's away on
business but it will only be a short while before he returns.
"Do you think he will be ok, Ed? I rarely see
him like this. He seemed fine yesterday."
Ed didn't answer.
"He will be fine. The doctor said he will be
fine, so don't worry."
"I'm not worried about his fever. I'm worried
that he broke down like that."
"Maybe I know why," I heard Ed whispering.
"What?" I yelled.
"Shh, you don't want to wake him up."
With that, we lapsed back to silence. I wanted
to ask Ed what he meant but I knew that he would not answer until he was
After I put Tin on his bed and let Ego and
Bouncer sleep with him, I closed the door and walked back down to the kitchen.
Ed was sitting there looking lost. I gave him a cup of coffee and sat down
opposite him. I stared at him as I waited for him to tell me what was on his
"Roy, you're making me uncomfortable."
"Sorry," I said and looked away. Silence
descended upon us again. I hate the silence, I think Ed did too but none of us
spoke a word as we each worked through our turmoil in our minds.
"Roy, I want you to calm down after I tell you
this," Ed finally broke the silence.
"I will try."
"Andy is back and I think they met today."
I jumped up from the chair and ran out of the
kitchen. Ed immediately followed and caught me from the back. I was breathing
hard as I tried to struggle free from his hold. I was furious with that jerk,
"You promised to calm down."
"I only said that I will try! I am going to
kill that jerk!"
With a sudden burst of energy and
determination, I broke free from Ed as he fell down on the floor. I was so
mad. I ran into my car and pulled it on the road. Ed came out only moments
later but he was too late so he got into his car and gave chase. We were
having a race on the road. He wanted me to roll down the window but I ignored
him. As I neared the intersection, the light was red and Ed screeched to a
halt but I simply zoomed ahead. I was livid and couldn't be bothered by
trivialities such as traffic lights. I ignored all the traffic signals and
pressed the accelerator all the way to Amy's.
After parking the car, I jumped down and ran
towards the door. I didn't bother with the doorbell, I just kept hitting the
door and yelling, "Andrew Johnson! You jerk! Come out! What did you do to my
Ed was arrived as the door opened. And that
jerk was standing in front of me. I threw a punch to his face but he blocked
it as he swung another in return. Then I heard Ed yelling from my back, "Andy,
His punch stopped but I already had a left hook
in swing and it landed squarely on Andy's jaw. As Andy fell down and I got
ready to give him another good thrashing but Ed grabbed me from the back.
"Let go of me, Ed! Let me kill this jerk! I
promised myself I will kill anyone who tries to hurt Tin!"
Andy looked up at me when he heard Tin's name.
He got up from the floor and grabbed my arms as he asked, "What happened to
"You jerk! What did you tell my brother?!"
"Calm down, Roy!" Ed was yelling. He still had
me in his hold and I was struggling to break free from him.
"Ed! Let go of me! I am going to kill this
"What happened to Tin?" Andy asked.
"I tell you, leave my brother alone! Don't go
near him or I am going to kill you!"
Deciding that he was not going to get an answer
from me, Andy went out of the house and drove Ed's car away.
"Let go of me, Ed!" and he did but Andy had
already gone. I tried to jump back into my car but Ed stopped me.
"Roy, can you at least calm down?!"
"No! I am not going to let anyone hurt my
Then Ed slapped me on the face. I was so
stunned as I stood there in shock.
"Sorry, Roy. I only wanted you to calm down.
Can you do that for me?"
Suddenly, my legs felt like rubber and gave way
as I fell down on the floor, sobbing. Ed quickly pulled me into his embrace,
hugging me tightly. I returned his hug as we held each other tightly, seeking
comfort in each other's arms. I think that was the moment we both starting
having feelings for each other...