28 October 2004
TGIF! Another busy week almost gone. I hope everyone's set
for Halloween, and the time change. I'm sure there'll be enough
horror movies on this weekend to satisfy the most insatiable fan.
I don't have too much to say this week, so enjoy the story and feel
free to write if you have any comments.
Without further ado.......
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Lives – Two Loves
My heart was starting to beat again. I
stared at the door for a few seconds
longer, listening for that sound, that sigh that felt so satisfied yet
unnerving. Whatever it was, it was gone
but my stomach was still in knots.
“Whooooa,” I heard Hunter whisper as he slowly came down the
stairs. “Now THAT was worth the price of
admission! Does that happen all the
“Oh, yeah,” Jon said, waving it off like Mr. Toughguy.
“We don’t hardly give it a thought
anymore.” I couldn’t help notice his
“Liar,” Ron mumbled.
“Just don’t spread it around, ‘kay?” I asked Hunter.
“We’d rather do without Channel Four and a
film crew, you know?”
“C’mon,” Jon said.
“Who’s up for a drink? I know I
could use one.”
“No kidding,” Ron said.
I had to laugh. His hair was
still bristled up a little from fright, kind of like he’d stuck his
finger in a
light socket. I pointed it out to
Hunter. He smiled and reached up to
smooth it down as Ron turned to follow Jon.
“C’mon, Ron,” he said.
“My turn to do your back.”
“Call me Chip,” he turned back, cracking an uneasy smile.
“It’s a pet name a mutual friend gave him,” I said.
“You’ll meet her tomorrow morning.”
“Okay…whatever,” he shrugged and smiled, taking Ron by the
back of the neck and guiding him back to the den.
I listened to the ice clink comfortingly in the tumbler as I
downed the last of my drink. I was
starting to feel better as the light buzz began to wear away some of my
edges. Jon refilled me and lay back
against my chest as we mindlessly watched some movie on TV.
It didn’t matter. We
were together. Jon kept rubbing at his
temple, had been
since we’d come back downstairs.
“You okay?” I whispered as I draped an arm over one shoulder
and kissed his other.
“Yeah, just a little headache, I guess. Probably
drank too much.”
“Yeah,” he sighed.
I kissed the side of his face. “Don’t
worry about it. I’m not raggin’ on you,
babe. Just drink some water before you go
to bed. You’ll be all right.”
I took another sip.
The scotch slid down nicely as I listened to Ron’s slow,
sighing as Hunter worked on his shoulders and back.
It was oddly hypnotic to watch Ron’s head sway back and
forth, eyes closed, mouth open like you’d see in one of those zombie
movies. He was really enjoying
this. I guess he was usually not on the
receiving end of a massage and was relishing every second.
Hunter obviously didn’t mind doing it,
either. I looked up and smiled at him;
he winked back as his hands ‘accidentally’ slipped down over Ron’s
brushing his nipples. Ron twitched and
grunted softly, letting his head fall back in Hunter’s lap.
I wrapped my arms around Jon’s chest, putting
my mouth close to his ear.
“Let’s leave ‘em alone,” I whispered.
Jon took the glass away from his mouth and glanced over at
Ron and smiled, nodding as he looked up at me.
He quietly set his glass on the coffee table and pushed himself
nodding in the direction of the stairs.
I took great pains to make as little noise as possible as I
got up. Hunter knew what we were doing
and smiled at us. We waved at each
other, mouthing ‘good night’ as Jon and I crept out of the room.
He winked again and gave us a thumbs-up.
“I’ve gotta admit it.
You were right. Hunter doesn’t
waste any time, does he?” Jon asked.
“Yeah, he moves right along; that’s for sure,” I said as we
slipped out of our shorts and onto the cool sheets.
They felt wonderful against my bare skin.
I started to nestle into the bedding when saw that impish
smile of Jon’s begin creeping over his face.
I knew him too well.
“All right; what’s goin’ through that little pea brain of
yours?” I asked.
He chuckled. “I can’t
help it. What’re they doing now?” he
asked, almost unable to contain his excitement.
“Now, aren’t you the same Jon Shepard who gave me shit for
peeking into other people’s brains?
I probably shouldn’t have been surprised by this
question. After wanting to video tape us
doing it, I had to wonder whether Jon had something of a kinky streak
but I thought that was just a one time thing.
Of course, I suppose that could have its fun moments, in
“Yeah, well,” he shrugged, remembering his own words.
I sighed and lay back in the sheets.
“So what’re they doing now?” he asked again.
“Oh, God,” I said, annoyed at his persistence, particularly
after making me promise not to do it. “I
swear, you are such a little perv!” I said.
I leaned up on my elbow to look at him, keeping my voice low as
Hunter or Ron might be at the door, wondering what we
He flashed that killer smile at me again and flicked his
eyebrows a couple of times. I
apologize. I couldn’t resist.
“Oh, all right,” I sighed, taking a deep
breath and clearing my mind. Jon
snuggled towards me and waited.
“Hmmmmmm,” I began as I stared off into space. “It
looks like they’re into some serious
kissing at the moment. There.
“Cool,” he grinned again, like a Cheshire cat.
I hate to say it, but I lied to Jon just to shut him
up. Well, not lied, exactly, I just
didn’t give him the full story. I
appreciated the fact that Hunter and Ron deserved their privacy and I
going to be put in the position of being a commentator, doing the color
a baseball game. I will
say that Hunter had definitely tagged second and was heading
for third, but that’s as much as I’ll say.
“Good. Let’s forget
about them for a while.”
We pushed the covers down and pulled ourselves close
together, wrapping our legs underneath the sheets.
Our heads lay in the pillows and we did
absolutely nothing except take great pleasure from this quiet moment in
unusually eventful day to just look at each other, to lightly caress
other, to just simply be with one another.
My eyes took in every inch of his face, the hank of blond hair
over his ice blue eyes, the almost perfectly straight nose over lips
not too full, covering those nearly perfect, gleaming teeth.
“I love you,” I whispered.
“I love you, too,” he whispered back as he eased his mouth
Our tongues dueled slowly, our hands caressed more firmly,
playing over each other. I could feel
his erect nipples against my chest, mine against his.
I felt his growing steel against mine as he
turned his legs around the inside of my knees, rubbing slowly,
luxuriously. We both moaned as we
kissed. That was still the best part,
sharing our air, feeling the warm breath from our noses against each
Jon’s rubbing became more insistent. There
was urgency to him. He was burning off the
last of his tensions
from the day and I responded with him, finding our rhythm, pressing us
against each others abs. My free hand
dropped down his back, riding the wave of tight undulating muscle as a
found the break between his smooth rocks.
He gasped slightly as I penetrated him, massaged him, and I felt
knees lock more firmly around mine. The
sweat of our closeness provided our own faintly musky lubricant,
allowing us to
“That’s it, baby,” I whispered. He gasped
again as I pulled at his neck with
He became more insistent, pressing harder against me with
each surge of his muscles, my fingers probing him deeper, massaging him
firmly. Slight gasps became hushed,
quickening grunts as we pressed so hard against each other I thought
meld. His mouth closed and he buried his
face in my neck as he rolled me on my back.
His nasal breathing returned. He
sounded like a steam locomotive venting pressure, and I felt his arms
lock around me, holding me closely, so crushingly tight that I couldn’t
to move. He feverishly whispered that he
was cumming, and I felt his body shudder.
He cried out in short, almost barking grunts as I felt his warm
We rested. Neither of us moved.
Jon relaxed his grip and lay on me. I
closed my eyes and massaged his back and
sides, damp with sweat as I listened to his heavy breathing, as I felt
enjoyed the feel of his heaving chest against mine, drawing in the cool
air. I felt his face turn into my neck and
his quiet ‘Thank you’ from inside the pillow.
“You’re welcome,” I whispered back.
Jon rolled back to his side and gave me a long kiss as he
stroked my wet abs with the back of his hand.
Then a realization came over him.
“Didn’t you cum?” he asked, his expression, his voice, one
“No; I’m probably just tired or something,” I said, shaking
my head, trying to toss it off as no big deal.
“Well, we can’t have that, can we,” he said, the smile
returning. “Hmmm, let’s see.”
I watched, smiling as he stroked his chin in feigned
“Ah! I know!” he
“Oh, I’m afraid to ask.”
“No, wait; listen,” he began, “I’ve got some neckties.
How’s about I tie you up and suck you dry?”
he said, stroking my chest and grinning like a kid who just found the
the candy store. “Could be pretty hot,
I didn’t quite know what to say. I just
stared at him for a second or two. ‘I
mean, geez, son, don’t hold back or nothin’; what’s really on your
“You know, the strange thing is that you look so
normal,” I finally said, shaking
my head. “I’ll pass.”
Jon looked at first surprised, then dejected by my
reaction. It looked like we’d found a
difference of tastes and I don’t think he was taking it well.
“Hey,” I said, getting his attention back. “I
meant I’ll pass on being tied up; you can
suck me dry all you want,” I said, grinning as I lay back and spread my
The smile returned and I closed my eyes. I
felt him move further down on the bed and
wrap his arms around my waist. I
shivered, sighing as his warm lips slid slowly over me.
All the way down. No gagging, no
coughing; he was getting
better at this.
I clenched a handful of the sheets as I heard
the sounds of shushing, and of a single door closing, just up the hall.
I felt great.
I must not have slept very long; it was still dark
outside. The clock said it was almost
five-thirty. I thought I only nodded off
about three or four hours ago, let’s just say I wasn’t paying attention
time, but I felt great even though my ass should’ve been seriously
Jon was still out like a light so I pulled on some shorts
and sneakers and crept to the bathroom, closing the door quietly behind
the obligatory morning ritual.
With nature satisfied, I stepped over to the mirror, getting
in close, and gave myself a good stare in the face, running my hand
stubble. I stood back from the mirror
and reached for my toothbrush, and my nose caught that familiar, but
scent of limes.
That’s when I saw him.
Looking back up in the mirror, I froze.
I’m not speaking metaphorically, either.
I felt like ice. I’m talking
goosebumps, shivers, cold hand running up my spine, the whole nine
yards. Directly behind me, not five feet
the man from the study; a piece of him, anyway.
He was only visible from the waist up but what there was of him
as solid as I was. I think even my short
hairs were standing on end.
In my mind’s ear, I heard the name ‘Corbin’ and I will never
forget the look on his face as long as I live.
Jon was right. I
don’t think Alicia had this guy pegged at all.
He stood there, a hair shorter than me, dressed in his crisply
vintage clothing, black hair neatly combed back, but those eyes.
His eyes were drawn and sunken; they were not
quite natural. They were the worst.
They didn’t just spoil an otherwise handsome
image; they were a startling counterpoint to it. There
was a darkness to them that just wanted
to suck in all the light around them.
And he leered at me, grinning an uneven grin, and slowly
eyeing me up and down like I was some cheap piece of merchandise.
Even with my shorts on, I can’t recall a time
when I’d ever felt so naked, so vulnerable, in my entire life.
‘I am not going to let this get to me,’ I kept thinking over
and over to myself. My stomach was a
tangle of knots and my heart was pounding its way up into my throat.
My mouth was as dry as a desert.
I don’t know why I did it, how I knew to do
it, but I closed my eyes as tightly as I could and mentally told it to
alone, to ‘be gone’ in an odd syntax that wasn’t mine but which came to
almost naturally. The strong, forced
sound of my own nasal breathing was all that I heard as I concentrated
felt tears running from my eyes, from keeping them so tightly closed, I
My heart slowed down, the knots in my stomach started to
untangle. I slowly opened my eyes and
realized that my right hand was partially extended towards the mirror,
the manner of a wizard casting a spell.
‘Wizard’, I thought, laughing at myself.
I felt like I had to wiz, all right.
Big time. At least Corbin was
gone. That scent, that feeling of him
‘Oh, man,’ I thought.
I turned and propped myself against the marble counter.
I dropped my shaking head into my hands,
rubbing and wiping away the sweat, clearing the last of the sleep from
eyes. ‘I’m definitely going to pound on
Alicia this morning.’
“You’ve got nothing to worry about from this house,” I
muttered in a mocking, high-pitched Alicia voice. “Yeah,
right.” I lifted my head from my hands.
There stood Grandfather, looking around, taking in the room
before fixing his eyes on me.
“Why do people spend so much energy to make such a cold place?”
I was more than a little surprised to see him there.
The best response I could muster was a crisp,
“This place,” he said, motioning to the room. “I
have been in caves where more warmth was,
more light. Water runs freely here,” he
said, pointing to the sink, “but becomes barren.”
I had to shake my head to make sure I wasn’t imagining
this. Here was my main guide, a friend,
a relative from ages past, a spirit whom I suspected had so many lives
his belt that it boggled the imagination and here he stood getting all
Stewart on me. Of course, as his words
sunk in, it occurred to me that they could be taken several different
ways. I was still a little groggy,
however, and only focused on the most apparent.
“Grandfather,” I began, trying to not let my smart mouth get
the better of me. “You didn’t come here
to give me an architectural critique, did you?”
“No, grandson,” he said, raising an eyebrow. “I
came to tell you that your path is in
danger. You have felt this but not
“Meaning what?” I asked, perhaps a bit curtly.
“A door was opened that you did not close in time,” he
said. “I tell you this because you do
not truly believe or understand what you have seen or what has been
“Like what? I mean,
what do I do?”
“I can not tell you what to do, grandson,” he said.
“I come only to warn you, to point you in a
direction. You can be a slow learner and
asked for prodding if needed. You are an
eagle feeling its wings but there is also some of the little mule in
carries much but goes nowhere with it.”
I thought I saw him smile faintly, but I wasn’t sure.
“Grandfather, I’m sorry. I’m not
following you at all.”
“You need to work with this woman friend of yours today and
pay attention. She was fooled as you
were because she did not realize what she was dealing with.
This sad spirit of the middle grounds is not
what he appears to be. He calls the skin
walker and the coyote friend.”
“What?” I asked, incredulous, confused. Grandfather saw my
confusion and was patient with me.
“Forever and always, everything that you do or do not do
affects you and everyone around you.
This spirit, your own fear, clouds your understanding this to
purpose. You must awaken your eagles to
meet this coyote or there is no path.”
I stared at Grandfather.
He paused, seeing whether his words were sinking in.
The realization of what he was saying was
like having a bucket of cold water dumped on you when you were asleep:
you up, but you sure didn’t like it when it hit you.
He continued. “It is
time for you to…”
“Wake up,” I heard.
“C’mon, Brad, get up,” I heard Jon call, like he was far away
getting closer. I felt him jostling my
shoulder and I woke with a start, sitting bolt upright.
I don’t know what the expression was on my face but it
couldn’t have been good.
“Whoa, dude; it’s just me,” Jon said, backing away from the
bed a foot or so. “You okay?”
I took a quick look around and ran a hand through my
hair. A dream. It
was just another dream. But who was I
kidding? I knew damned good and well, or
at least I
should by now, that there’s no such thing as ‘just another dream’ with
me. Even now, something didn’t feel quite
but I didn’t want to upset Jon.
“Yeah, I’m all right,” I mumbled, grimacing at the taste of
my morning mouth. “What time is it?”
“’bout quarter to nine,” Jon said. “We
waited breakfast for you.”
“Thanks, babe,” I mumbled, dragging myself out of bed.
“Gimme a minute and I’ll be down, ‘kay?”
“’kay,” he said. “Get
a move on, though; Alicia’s coming at ten, remember.”
“I’m up, I’m up,” I said, nodding as I shuffled to the
bathroom and took care of nature. I made
sure I left the door open and all the lights blazing this time.
I grabbed a quick shower, brushed my teeth
and shaved, looking over my shoulder in the mirror the whole time and
exactly what Grandfather meant.
My gut was telling me that I wouldn’t have long to wait.