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Chapter 4 – "To be Friends...or more?"
Matt's Point of View
As the next month passed by, my friendship with Mike grew to new heights that could not have been predicted. We hung out almost every weekend, and every so often would have dinner on a weekday. We watched movies, played basketball, and got to know each other better. Through the last month, he's had some heated debates with his father about his actions. In the end, Mike severed his ties with his father, which left his poor mother in the middle, though she isn't terribly happy with her husband's actions. Mike made sure that I was nowhere close to campus during these episodes, in order to protect me. It is because of his insistent care for me, that I knew that I truly loved him. Unfortunately I believed he's undeniably straight so I knew that I would have to overcome my feelings for him. In fact I had a hot date this Friday night. We met at the club, I was standing there at the bar, when this guy came over and introduced himself as Tim. We didn't talk long, but he seemed pretty nice. He was cute, blond hair, green eyes. He gave me his number, and I called him later, and we agreed to have our first date on Friday night. We were going to this new club and though we haven't really talked much, he was such a hunk and seemed like a truly nice guy, I figured he could at least help jumpstart the process to overcoming my love for Mike. Hmmm... Oh wait I need to tell Mike that we can't hang out this Friday. Oh well he'll understand, he's been bugging me to go out with someone anyways. As I reached over for the phone, I heard the doorbell ring. As I got up and went to open the door, lo and behold, there stood Mike.
"Hey dude I was in the neighborhood so I decided to stop by and say hi. My friend actually lives in a couple blocks away and had to stop by his house to pick up something so I asked him if he knew where your address was, so he dropped me off. I told him I would get a ride back with you."
"Hey man, I was actually just about to call you. I found a hot date this Friday so I can't hang out. I guess you're going to have to find something to do now, but I betcha can find someone to date that night."
As soon as those words left my mouth, I could have been mistaken, but I thought I could detect some sense of disappointment in his eyes and his shoulders seem to have sagged a little bit, but I could only be wishing that I saw that. He reverted back to his normal self quickly and started to nag me as to who my date was, and if I had any pictures of her. I kept putting him off when my phone began to ring. As I reached for my phone, Mike snatched it away and answered it for me.
"HEY! Give that to me!"
"Hello this is Matt's best friend speaking. Who may I ask is speaking?"
"Umm.. this is Tim. Nice to meet you Matt's best friend, Mike I presume? Matt's told me a bit about you."
"Tim eh? You go to school with Matt?"
"Uhm.. no.. We met at a club the other day, we were going to hang out later this week."
"Oh. Co-... Wait when were you guys going to hang out?"
I reached over and snatched the phone from Mike and glared at him. But as I observed Mike, I noticed a flicker in his eyes as he processed the information. I grew worried as his eyes widened at the sudden turn of events. I noticed his eyes had a sudden gleam to them that I had never seen before, but it was replaced by sadness?? I shook it off as false hope.
"Hey dude, sorry `bout Mike, he's a bit nosy. How're you dude?"
"Good... Man I can't wait till Friday. I can't stop thinking about you dude... I don't know, something `bout you is making me crazy!"
"haha I have no comment, other than you're totally wacked."
Mike's Point of View
I could only think of what just happened. Was Matt GAY? The last month has been total torture for me because I knew right away that I was falling for him HARD. I've NEVER felt anything remotely close to what I am feeling for Matt toward anyone else. I always thought he was such a hunk and sweetheart but definitely straight. But was this Tim Matt's date? Why didn't he ask me??? Did I lose my chance with him?? As I looked up and saw Matt smiling and laughing, my heart sank. I knew then that I had lost my chance with him. As Matt's head turned, his face contorted from happy to extreme concern towards me.
"Hey Tim, something's up with Mike, I don't know what it is but he's my best friend and I can't let him down okay?"
What I heard made me hurt even more. I loved this guy so much, but I would never have a chance. I decided right there and then to tell him how I felt about him and then I would leave. I knew that it would hurt too much to be friends with him. Tears began to drop from my eyes as I thought of my dear Matt. As I heard Matt click off his phone, I felt Matt's arm pull me close and I melted into his grasp. Though it felt so right, I don't know, it only gave me false hope that something could happen. I knew it was time to tell him, and after several attempts to open my mouth and speak ...
"Matt... what I'm going to say now... Don't feel obligated to answer..."
As I paused to gather my wits, he began rocking me back and forth, just like I did when my father nearly raped him.
"Matt... I love you...I know now that I love you with all my heart and that I don't want to live without you, but If you're going to go out with Tim, I don't know. I guess I'll have to let you go, but I don't know whether I can handle seeing you two together. It's just so hard to be head over heels with your best friend and not be able to express it."
I leaned over and gave Matt a mind-blowing kiss to show my emotion and as my last goodbye to the friend I loved so much. I slowly pulled away and stood up. As I turned to rush away, I felt Matt's arm wrap around me.
"I always wanted you to do that, but I always thought that you were straight. I don't know, but I knew almost immediately that something was special about our friendship. I wanted you from the beginning, but I also knew that I wanted to be your friend."
"It was the same for me, but I vowed that I would do anything to have you as a friend. I didn't know I would fall for you this hard though, and this fast. What I do know, is you're a sweet guy, and I've never been closer to anyone in my life. Oh crap. What're you going to do about Tim? Your date is in two days!"
"I don't know... He was such a sweet guy, and he told me today that he really likes me and couldn't stop thinking about me. I feel so bad, but I'm already in love with you. I only went out with him to try to get over you because I didn't think that I could go out with you. I dunno... I guess I should tell him now. I feel so bad for hurting him, but while I love you so much..."
I leaned down and gave him a soft loving kiss.
"Babe, I love you, you do what you think is right. If you need to talk to him in person, and let him know, it's alright with me. I love you, and I trust you."
Matt looked at me with tears in his eyes. "God that's why I love you so much, but I think it's going to be easier over the telephone..."
Matt reached for the phone and dialed Tim's number. Knowing how sweet Matt was, I pulled him into my lap, caressing his body to try to make him feel better. I knew that this was really hard for him, as Matt had the largest heart of any person I have ever known and he truly did not want to hurt Tim.
Matt's Point of View
"Hey Tim it's me Matt."
"Hey! How're you doing? Is Mike doing better? I hope he's doing better. God Matt I can only imagine how good our date on Friday is going to be. We're going to ..."
Tim went off describing different events that he wanted to do. My heart sank, knowing that he would not take this well.
"Hey Tim... TIM! Oh god I'm so sorry about this, but I think I'm going to have to cancel our date..."
"What?... Are you busy? Or..."
"No... Man I'm so sorry I should have told you this, but I'm deeply in love with my best friend Mike, but I had thought we wouldn't have a chance. That's why I agreed to go out with you because you seemed so sweet, and I thought if I went out with you, I could get over Mike. I just found out that Mike's in love with me though... and well I'm sooooo sorry Tim.."
"Oh... We can still be friends right? I mean now that Mike's your lover, we can maybe be best friends right?"
Mike smiled at me and placed a kiss on my ear and whispered that he loved me. I melted.
"I don't know. We'll have to see, but I hope we can still be friends of course. I want you to meet Mike, the love of my life though."
"Okay Matt. Well I really got to get going, so I'll call you later alright?"*click*
Mike looked at me quizzically. As I thought back to the conversation, I felt there was something weird about Tim's reaction. I didn't think much about it, and decided to concentrate on an impending relationship with Mike. Looking at our relationship, I knew for a fact, that I would do anything for this man, and no one, absolutely no one, can wreck what we have for each other.