Date: Wed, 21 Jul 2004 19:55:58 -0700 (PDT) From: John Mann Subject: The Bear - Part 2: Sex Redefined I'm still shaking as I write this. Still on sensory overload. His smell is still surrounding me. He just walked out the door... He wasn't able to come back the same night as our last encounter - so the next day, he got back in touch with me, and we worked it out for him to come back. We talked some more when he got there - for perhaps an hour or so - all about keeping secrets, and about sex in the past. Sharing intimate secrets - things we'd never told anyone else. Things about being married and digging guys. I showed him my notes from our encounter last night. They were very raw - but I wanted him to hear some of what was in my head. About how overwhelmed I was by the whole experience. About what I liked and didn't like. I knew he'd been interested in the stuff I'd written in the past - I wondered later how weird reading that stuff might have been to him - did I come across as some media-driven freak? As if my only motivation for this encounter was writing about it? When we did get started playing around - we both knew what we wanted. We kissed, rubbed, embraced, whatever you call that. And then there was the fucking. Or simulated fucking, I guess you'd say - no penetration. We fucked for ages - thrusting and pounding - totally hot, sweaty fucking. "I wish you could cum just doing that," he said. "So do I" After he'd been doing me awhile, he said "It seems you're discovering your submissive side, eh?" 'cause I was whimpering, writhing and OH-GODding like a bitch in heat. He could tell I was eating this up - and I knew he was right. But it got under my skin just a little - made me feel like I needed to prove myself a man. I knew even as I thought it, that it was silly - but as we were being hedonistic slaves to passion, I figured I could indulge my ego in this matter, so I flipped him back, so I could start doing him. I wondered later when I was fucking the hell out of him - why, if there is no penetration here, and not that much stimulation of the dick, why do we get off on this so much? It felt so much like sex with a woman... in the positions and motions - but was rougher, edgier. Do guys who don't sleep with women, do they do this too? Is action like this the big attraction to anal sex? 'Cause I gotta tell you - fucking like that - had either one of us been into anal at all - I would have gone for it in a heartbeat. Bottom or top. I was so totally into what we were doing. At one point when I was so totally engulfed by what we were doing, I wanted to say "Hey - you know that thing about mistaking sex for love? Can we do that?" But I thought the better of it. Some thoughts are better left unsaid. After an hour of playing around like that, I couldn't cum - it was like my dick was over stimulated. He gave me marvelous, energetic, powerful head, but I just wasn't getting there. I started jacking myself off - but even though I was so turned on, it felt like I was just starting out - hard but not anywhere close to cumming. So finally - after he'd fucked me for awhile longer - I started jacking myself off hard and fast. It still took me awhile to get close. He watched me, and jacked off along with me. I finally came - a rather anti-climatic orgasm, but relieving. He came hard spurting half-way up my chest. His cum was so hot on my skin... He collapsed on top of me - sweaty and cum-soaked. We laid like that for a delightful time. I felt totally satisfied. Later, while we were cleaning up, he said: "I wasn't sure if we'd get along - if you'd be into as much touching and kissing as I am. The money shot may be what it's all about - but the rest of it - the touching, kissing, playing. That's what I go for" "The way you do it - I can see why!" http://www.geocities.com/johnman27_98/