Date: Sat, 31 Mar 2001 11:53:43 EST
From: Aterovis@aol.com
Subject: Chapter 5 of All Lost Things

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Chapter 5

	I turned to Steve with my mouth agape, thinking I must have
misunderstood him. Victoria looked as surprised as I felt.

	"W-w-what did you say?" she stammered.

	"The house is haunted, am I right?" Steve said, his voice as calm
as ever, although his eyes had taken on a merry twinkle. Not what one would
expect from someone who had just suggested we were in a real-live haunted
house.

	"Did someone say something before you came? That's what it is,
isn't it? People are spreading the stories all over."

	"Actually, I hadn't heard any stories, although I would love to
hear them now. I'm something of a paranormal buff."

	"Um...this whole conversation is paranormal if you ask me," I
interrupted. "You don't really believe in ghosts do you, Steve?"

	"I believe I'm not so smart as to think I know all there is to know
about this universe we live in. There are so many things we just simply
can't explain through the use of logic and science. There is a whole
supernatural realm that I think we know very little about. If you want to
call them ghosts, meaning an apparition of a deceased person, fine. Or you
can call them manifestations of surviving emotional memories, a kind of
emotional imprint." Steve was pacing around the entryway in long, excited
strides as he talked. I'd never seen him like this.

	"So you're still interested in the house?" Victoria said,
incredulousness filling her voice.

	"Of course. I want a full tour, and all the history you know."

	"Well, if you're sure. After Amalie died..." she paused as if she
expected Amalie to insert a comment here, then went on when only silence
filled the gap, "...the house was passed through a succession of owners. It
was left empty for quite an extended period of time right after the turn of
the century. A doctor from Baltimore bought it in the Thirties and sold off
most of the land that came with it for farmland. When the Captain bought
the land, the plantation encompassed more than a thousand acres."

	She was warming up to her subject again now that she knew she still
had a live one on the hook. Her color had returned to normal and she was
becoming more animated as she talked.

	She continued, "Doctor Johnson never lived in the house and it fell
into disrepair. He did maintain about 50 acres surrounding the house. When
he died in 1950, his son sold the house to another doctor who intended to
retire on the Shore. He fixed up the house and he and his wife moved
down. They didn't stay long. That's when the ghost stories started. His
wife said she heard strange noises at night, doors opening and closing,
footsteps...the usual. The last straw apparently was when she woke up one
night to find a woman standing at the foot of her bed. When she screamed to
wake her husband up, the woman vanished into thin air."

	"So she actually saw a manifestation?"

	"So she said. As you can imagine, word spread like wildfire and for
a while it was quite the attraction. Eventually interest died out, but the
good doctor couldn't find a soul to buy it. When he died it went to his
wife, who left it to her daughter, who finally managed to sell it to
someone. It went through about a dozen owners in the next forty years. No
one lived here very long, except for one couple who seemed to get a kick
out of living with a ghost. By that time, people had taken to calling the
house Amalie's house, since everyone just assumed the ghost was Amalie. The
current owner has had the house on the market for two years now."

	"The ghost has never been violent, though?" Steve asked.

	"Not to my knowledge."

	"Let's see the rest of the house then."

	She led us on a tour of the home. It was just as impressive inside
as it was out. The house sat on an east-west elevation, facing east. On the
south side of the house, facing the creek, was a huge ballroom. A row of
wavy glassed windows looked out over the yard to where a few lonely looking
posts gave testament to the dock that was once there. On the north side was
a parlor and a library. The oldest part of the house had been converted
into the kitchen at some point in the last century. It still had a huge
brick fireplace that took up most of one wall. Smooth worn bricks covered
the floor.

	The second and third floors were all bedrooms. Apparently, the
Captain had expected to entertain a lot. We found out that the cupola on
top had been built so Amalie could watch for the Captain's return. It was
there that Amalie's ghost was claimed to have been seen the most, and it
was the door that led to the narrow staircase that was said to open and
close so frequently. The idea being that Amalie was still waiting for the
Captain to come home. Personally, I would have thought that by now she
would have caught on.

	Throughout the whole tour Steve acted like a kid at Disney
World. He was especially interested in the bedroom that the woman had said
she had first seen Amalie in. It was, he surmised, probably originally
Amalie's bedroom. I thought that he was stretching a bit for that one, but
then, I wasn't a paranormal buff like he was. Most of the house was empty,
with almost no furnishings, but that one room had been used as a storage
room. And from the looks of things no one had bothered to clean it out
since the Roosevelt administration, the first one. I found myself just
itching to jump in and start sorting through the castaways left by previous
generations like an archeologist digging through stratum. But of course, I
couldn't. I kept getting that prickly feeling at the back of my neck but I
tried to pass it off as suggestive thinking in a creepy old house.

	The only place we didn't go was down into the basement since
Victoria seemed a little reluctant and the lighting left someone to be
desired.

	After the house, Victoria led us around the grounds. The Captain
had had saplings flown in from all over the world, determined to make his
gardens the envy of the social scene of the day. As a result, the yard was
now full of rare and exotic trees well over a hundred and fifty years old.
There were familiar species, like the enormous and dignified old magnolias
and the graceful and melancholy weeping willows; and there were the
unfamiliar, like an African elephant pine. Most of the yard was fairly well
kept considering no one had lived in the house in years, but part of the
back yard was overgrown with a dense undergrowth. The Tockwogh Creek
emerged from this jungle-like copse and ran a picturesque course through
the side yard.

	The tour concluded back in front of the house. In the early
afternoon warmth the spicy smell of boxwood filled the air and a chorus of
birds chirped cheerily from the trees. The eerie feeling I had experienced
inside the house now seemed miles away.

	"Well, that's pretty much it, Victoria said, "The property that you
saw is actually only a portion of the total acreage. The property extends a
ways into the forested area behind the house and across the creek. A lot of
it has grown up but it could be cleared and it would make a wonderful
recreational area with trails."

	"It's a beautiful setting, no doubt," Steve said, "I appreciate you
meeting us out here to show us around."

	"Hey, it's my job," she said with a sparkly smile, "and my
pleasure." I thought I noted a hint of flirtation in her voice. Apparently
she didn't know that Steve batted for the other team.

	"I'll get in touch with you if I have any more questions," Steve
said politely.

	Her smile dipped a few watts at the obvious dismissal, but she
recovered quickly, "Great, you have my number, right?"

	"Sure do."

	We stood awkwardly for a minute before she finally said
good-bye. We watched while she climbed back into the car and drove
away. She wasn't even out of sight before Steve whirled around, hands on
hips and wearing a huge smile.

	"What do you think?"

	"What? Of the Bates Hotel?"

	"Oh come on, it's incredible. Look at this place. Something like
this comes on the market once in a lifetime. And it has a ghost! Do you
know what that means?"

	"That it's haunted?"

	 "It means I can haggle them down on the price. And after seeing
this place it's already an incredible price. The property alone must be
worth almost that much. And the house is in incredible shape."

	"You're using the word incredible an awful lot."

	"That's because it's just incredible. This is exactly what I had in
mind, and as an added bonus it has its own ghost."

	"You know most people wouldn't consider that a bonus. You don't
really buy this whole ghost thing do you?"

	"Killian, you of all people should know that there are things
beyond our understanding."

	I frowned, "What is that supposed to mean?"

	"You're the one who told us all about Asher's Aunt Judy and her
psychic powers of perception. Why is that such a big jump to believing in
ghosts?"

	"She's not psychic...exactly. Are we really having this
conversation?"

	"Think about it, Killian! How often do you get the chance to
communicate with someone who's been dead for over a century?"

	"Not that often I would imagine."

	"I've wanted to do this ever since I was a kid and read my first
book by Poe. I'm buying this house. I can't tell you how excited I am."

	He didn't have to; enthusiasm practically beamed from him like rays
of light from a lighthouse. I was having trouble reconciling the always
calm and rational Steve, the voice of reason for our family, with this
animated man standing here now babbling about talking to dead people.

	He spun around to face me, let's go home. I want to tell Adam all
about it and contact the real estate agent to see how much they'll come
down on the price. Maybe we can be in here before summer is over."

	Steve nattered on about ghosts and famous haunted houses all the
way home. I wondered how I had lived with this guy for almost two years and
missed this odd obsession. The more I thought about it though, the more
clues I realized I had missed. Like his favorite movie was The Sixth
Sense. He had a whole library of "true" ghost stories and famous hauntings.

	My crash course in the paranormal ended when we pulled into our
driveway. I followed Steve into the kitchen where we found Adam stirring
what looked like the makings of a pastry crust in a large mixing bowl. I
knew right away that something must be bothering him. He only made pastry
when he was upset.

	For once Steve didn't seem to notice as he launched into an excited
blow-by-blow. Adam cut him off quickly.

	"Killian, Asher's upstairs in your room," he said, "He's been here
all morning. I think he's upset."

	I wondered what I had done now. With a sigh I went upstairs. I
found Asher lying on his stomach on my bed. Kane was tapping away
contentedly at the computer, but as soon as I came in he hopped up and left
the room. I didn't think that was a good sign. I was right.

	"Where were you?" Asher demanded as he rolled over and jumped to
his feet.

	"I was with Steve," I said as evenly as I could manage. Despite my
earlier nap I could feel my sleepless night starting to catch up with me. I
had a feeling this could get ugly. I hoped I was wrong.

	"Why didn't you let me know?"

	"I didn't know I needed your permission."

	"What is that supposed to mean? I thought we were a couple, we're
supposed to tell each other when we're doing things."

	"We're not married, Asher. We're not even living together yet. It
never even crossed my mind to call you. Look, I didn't sleep well last
night so I'm really not in the mood for this right now, ok?"

	"No, it's not ok. What's going on with us? I feel like we're
drifting apart."

	"Then maybe we need a break." I spoke without thinking and I
regretted it as soon as the words left my mouth. Asher reacted as if I'd
delivered a physical blow. He crumpled onto the edge of the bed and his
face flushed bright red.

	"What?" he whispered.

	"I...I..."

	"You're breaking up with me?"

	"No! I didn't say that. Adam just suggested that maybe we need some
time apart."

	"Adam thinks we should break up?"

	 "We're not breaking up. Just forget I said anything. It's just
that Marcus started it last night and then today..."

	"Marcus thinks we should break up too? What does everybody think we
should break up? If everybody thought we were so mismatched why didn't
anyone say something sooner?"

	"Asher, nobody thinks we should break up, but people who are close
to us can't help but notice that we're having trouble. Adam suggested we
take some time off, to give us space and think. You know, figure stuff
out?"

	"And you want to do that?"

	"I...don't know. Maybe."

	"Great, just great," he leaped up and ran past me. I tried to grab
his arm as he passed but he yanked away and kept going.

	"Asher!" I called as I ran after him, "Asher, wait!"

	He stopped at the foot of the stairs and whirled around to face
me. "Don't bother, Killian Kendall," he yelled, "We're through." And with
that he spun around and flew through the door, which was being held open by
a stunned looking Kane. I sat down with a thud halfway down the stairs as
Steve and Adam rushed into the hall. No one said a word until the sound of
Marcus' car roaring to life broke the awkward silence.

	"Killian, are you ok?" Adam asked as Kane said, "What happened?"

	"No, I'm not ok. Asher and I just broke up." I leaped up and ran
back up to my room, slamming the door behind me.

	A second later a soft knock came at the door. "Killian?" Adam
called.

	I grunted from my face down position in my pillow. I heard the door
open and close gently and few moments later I felt him sit down next to me.

	"Do you want to talk about it?"

	I rolled over onto my back. "Talk about what?"

	"What happened?"

	"I don't even know what happened. I suggested we take a break like
you said and then next thing I know Asher's breaking up with me."

	"Did he misunderstand you?"

	"I don't know. He just freaked out."

	"It sounds like he may have overreacted. Maybe after he calms down
you two can talk."

	"Maybe he was just looking for an excuse to break up with me. And I
handed it to him on a silver platter."

	"You don't know that, Killian. At the very least, this will give
you both a chance to figure out what you really want."

	"Yeah, whatever. I think I'm just going to take a nap now."

	"Ok, kiddo." He leaned forward and kissed my forehead and then left
me alone with my thoughts.

* * *

	Nothing changed in the next few weeks. Asher refused to answer my
calls and when I went to his house I was sent away with an apology by one
of his other family members. I kept waiting for some great revelation to
bring me perfect clarity, but it never came; I remained just as confused as
ever.

	The world kept on turning even without my moment of lucidity. The
insurance company decided that my car was a total loss. The accident, on
the other hand, turned out not to be a total loss. One day while we were
talking on the phone about the accident he mentioned that his assistant had
recently taken another job. I asked him if he would consider hiring me even
though I didn't have any real experience and he hired me on the spot. I was
envisioning high-speed car chases, breaking into buildings at midnight
wearing all black and packing a gun. Reality turned out to be a lot more
boring. I mostly answered the phone, typed on the computer and filed. I was
more of a secretary than an assistant, but at least I was making money. It
seemed that most of the cases Novak accepted were insurance scam
investigations and an occasional divorce case.

	I had my own desk in the small reception room of Novak's office,
which was on the second floor of a modern, soulless building in the
city. Besides my rather battered desk, the only other furnishings in the
front room were two bright orange fake leather chairs that looked like they
have been rejects from a 70's waiting room. Novak's office was neat as a
pin. The walls were lined with bookcases filled with law books. The top of
his large desk was always clear and looked as if he never used it.

	Steve was going ahead full force with his plans to buy Amalie's
house. The real estate company, apparently ecstatic that someone was
seriously interested in buying the white elephant, had come down a
considerable amount. The bank had approved everything and everyone involved
was amazed at how quickly things were moving. Steve was on cloud nine. He
and Adam went shopping for period antique furniture almost every day. Adam
still seemed to be in some kind of weird funk, but the only way you could
really tell was by the abundance of pies, tarts and cookies around the
house.

	One day, about a week before Steve was to go to settlement, the
door to Novak's office swung open and in walked Judy. She breezed into the
office as if she owned the place, took a look around and shook her head in
disappointment. Her hair had grown out quite a bit since the last time I'd
seen her. Her golden blonde hair now fell to just below her shoulders. She
was wearing a faded pair of jeans and a slightly oversized t-shirt with
PFLAG written on it in large rainbow colored letters.

	"Dearest Killian, I thought you would have had more taste than
this. Can't you do something to make this seem like a place you want to
be?"

	I grinned and jumped up, "Aunt Judy! I didn't even know you were
here."

	"Oh God, please, drop the aunt stuff. It's Judy. And I've been here
exactly twenty-two hours. We got in yesterday and what's the first thing I
hear? That my mule-headed nephew and his equally mule-headed boyfriend, who
I am very fond of, have broken up. So of course I headed right for your
house and they sent me here. I met Steve by the way. I'll be helping to
decorate new homestead."

	"You mean the house in Amityville?"

	"Yes, well, someone mentioned something about a ghost but I've
found that many of ghost stories are just romantic ideas and overactive
imaginations. We'll see. But really dear, couldn't you have done something
with this room?"

	"I've only been here a few weeks," I protested.

	"A few weeks? I could transform this place in a few hours."

	"But that's your job now, or so I understand. But I'm sure you
didn't come all the way here to give me decorating tips. What's up?"

	"Does something have to be up to see an old friend?"

	"No, I guess not."

	"I wanted to see how you were. I could see how Asher was and I
could guess how you were, but I wanted to see for myself."

	"How is Asher?" I said as nonchalant as possible.

	"You can go see for yourself."

	"I've tried. He won't see me."

	"Ah. Well, it's not exactly my place to say really."

	I frowned, "How am I then?"

	"You're confused."

	"I hate how you do that."

	"Do what?"

	"How you're always right."

	"I'm not always right. Besides, this has nothing to do with any
special perception on my part. Confusion is written all over your
face. Especially when I mentioned Asher. See there it goes again. You don't
know how you feel about him do you?"

	"Yes, I mean no. I mean...I know I love him..."

	"You're just not sure if that's enough anymore."

	"Yeah, something like that."

	"It isn't always enough for some people, you know. And then for
some people it's too much. For some it's everything, and those are the most
blessed."

	"I don't understand what's happening. I thought we were perfect."

	"No relationship is perfect, Killian. In every relationship there
will be rough patches; fights, misunderstandings, periods of confusion. The
true test of a couple is if they are strong enough to fight through these
places and come out stronger on the other side."

	"But Asher doesn't seem to want to fight through this. He just gave
up."

	"It takes two to give up. It doesn't seem to me like you've been
doing much fighting either."

	"How can I fight when he doesn't want the same thing I do?"

	"First you have to know what you are fighting for. Right now, I
don't think either of you knows what you want."

	"Will we get back together?"

	"Sweetie, I'm not a fortune-telling gypsy at a carnival sideshow. I
can't look into some magic crystal ball and see whatever I want. Sometimes
things are shown to me, I can't explain it and I don't really have a lot of
control over it. I try to respond to what is shown to me as best I can,
because I figure it's shown to me for a reason. Some time I'm quite lost as
to what that reason is."

	"Do you believe in ghosts?"

	"Where did that come from? Are you trying to change the subject?"

	"No. Maybe. What you were saying made me think of the ghost
though. I said I didn't really believe in ghosts and Steve said it wasn't
that big a jump from you to ghosts."

	"Gee, that really makes a girl feel special. I remind him of dead
folk?"

	"I don't think that's what he meant."

	"I know, dear. I'm teasing. To answer your question, yes, I do
believe in ghosts, but I guess that really depends on what your definition
of ghost is. We use the term pretty broadly you know. Some are spirits left
behind from a sudden, often violent death. They are confused and don't
fully realize they are dead. Some seem to have unfinished business to
attend to and they simply can't move on. Some are simply emotional
impressions left behind after someone dies."

	"Which of those do you think Amalie is?"

	"Who?"

	"The ghost in the house that Steve is buying."

	"I don't really know the whole story, Steve just mentioned in
passing that it was supposedly haunted." She frowned, "He actually seemed a
bit jazzed at the idea."

	"Yeah, he's been like that ever since we saw it for the first
time."

	"Must be some house."

	"It is, but I think he's more excited about the ghost than the
house."

	"Tell me about this ghost. What did you say her name was, Emily?"

	"Amalie," I corrected. I told her the whole story as best I could
recall it from Victoria's account. When I finished, Judy thought for a
moment.

	"I'd like to do some research on this Amalie. It sounds a trifle
too romantic to be a real ghost story. I'd like some clearer history and of
course I'll have to go out to the house."

	"Well you'll be there anyway if you're going to be helping
decorate. I guess that'll be your first big job out here huh?"

	"Yes, I'm hoping to use that as advertisement. A showplace like
that could be quite a feather in my cap."

	We were interrupted by the arrival of my boss.

	"Judy Davis, this is my boss Shane Novak," I said making the
requisite introductions.

	"It's a pleasure to meet you, Mr. Novak," Judy said with a bright
smile.

	"The pleasure is all mine," Novak said, "And please, call me
Shane."

	The phone rang, distracting me from their conversation, although I
overheard Judy offering to decorate the office.

	"Hello, Novak Investigations. How can I help you?" I said into the
phone.

	"Killian?" It was Asher.

	"Hi," I said uncertainly.

	"I need your help."

	"What?"

	"There's been a murder."